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(ʘ‿ʘ✿) “what you say ‘bout me”

(ʘ‿ʘ)ノ✿ “hold my flower”

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I couldn't have said it better myself.

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I need my mspec butches to know that there are men out there who will stop fucking breathing when you walk into a room and get a stupid giddy smile when you talk about how you want to look more masc and worship the fucking ground your boots walk on like you need to know this. Don't think you have to give up your masculinity bcs you're in love with a cis guy trust me the right cis guy will fall to fucking pieces bcs he can see the collar of your white tank top when you unbutton your shirt and you deserve NOTHING!! LESS!!

People who think our butchness just goes away when we date men bcs they think no cis man could ever crumble to dust at the sight of a confident butch are WEAK. There is a Gomez Addams out there for you, believe me, if and when you find him you are going to get so full of yourself off the high of his endless compliments that you could fucking kill god.

I love you mspec butches. Don't fucking settle, and flex on the pathetic losers who can't see how incredible it is to have a man love you and your glorious masculinity with his whole goddamn heart.

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no bc this video has me in TEARS it looks like a sketch or a bit or a fucking tiktok but no that woman is legitimately fighting for her life while this bitch records some socmed segment for a ski resort

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my dream polycule is just a big community of faggots that I can love on and lay with and smoke with and cook for and garden with and suck off and who I can paint and draw on, who I can fuck and who can fuck me, and idk man. I just. I have so much love in my little body, and not enough time to give it all away

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highlights of trick or treaters:

kid who took an eraser, tried to bite it, and put it back

little girl who told us she loved us after getting her treats

child who, when prompted to say "thank you" instead said a confident singular "halloween!"

vampire football player

one kid who so gravely misinterpreted the candy limit that we could do nothing but laugh as, instead of four things spread out from any of the buckets, she took four things. from several buckets. all at once.

one teenager who asked us how our night has been and when asked the same, took a look at the table and said "it just got a whole lot better" while rubbing his hands

kids are so funny

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Bourbon Apple Cider Punch

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love the word lackluster. well it sucks because it’s not shiny

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had a real life "and everybody clapped" moment and im still reeling. spent the rest of the ride comparing butterfly pics with the old lady next to me trying to identify it

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he’s an unreliable narrator TO YOU. i believe him

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I know most of tumblr is thinking about the USA right now. but fuck the nz government right now too. tomorrow, the treaty principles bill, the 'worst, most comprehensive breach of Te Tiriti in modern times' is being introduced to parliament early, because there were activations planned country wide and the cowards decided to pull it forwards. fuck this government. a friend of mine had to go home early, crying. I've been in shock all day since it came out.

check on your Māori friends, e hoa mā. see what they need. see how you can help. everyday, we see and experience racism. from people around us, up to our government. community care will save us.

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There's like a small group of people that hate my tumblr and indirectly me by association, for reasons which require enormous amounts of logical contortion and general neopuritanism, which always feels weird to think about. But then I think about the tumblrs and who have twice or tens times the amount of followers as mine, and probably have the same approximate ratio of random people who hate them and it really puts things into perspective. Like tumblr has the largest social reach for me ever anywhere in my life forever and I'm basically a speck next to real popular tumblr accounts and tumblr is a speck next to anywhere else, and it's like man, that isn't worth getting twisted over at all, and it's a weird place to get mad at people, life's too short and all that junk.

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...I had a guy come in today asking about how to get his kids library cards. I told him. He asked me how hard it would be for them to get them, and I said that all it took was their presence and his government ID.

He told me about how nice the system was here, where it was so easy to get a card; he said that there was a beautiful public library in Beijing that was top of the line and everything, but that the only way to access it was if you were a high ranking government official or a top professor or something. Instead, our library "serves the reader." His kids will be able to take chapter books home at no cost. He'll even be able to get books in Chinese here so that his native language skills don't atrophy.

I didn't even really know what to say, so I told him how to ask us to buy books for him that we don't already have so that he can still read them at no extra cost. I don't know how to shore up what it must feel like to know that there are books out there you can't read; I've always grown up with a good library nearby. It reminded me of working in my old library, though, where families who spoke Spanish were startled to find out we took any government ID with a formal address in town— even foreign IDs— so that their kids could get access to all of our titles in all the languages we offered.

Ah. Anyway, I hope you check out a library book with this thought in mind. I checked out the first volume of YJ98 today with that thought in mind. I didn't have to pay anything. I put it on hold, and there it was.