the-tinygiant

[the-tinygiant]

hey all.

i haven’t posted much, as i’ve fallen off the r3xie wagon. not as in recovery, but as in im b!nging again and feeling like shit every time i step on the scale.

overall, february has been a shit month for me even tho in comparison, i’m down 2.3lbs compared to the end of january.

i’ve made myself a vow to myself to maintain the rhythm i had at the beginning of the year.

anyway, here’s to march!

[the-tinygiant]

god my life has been a fuckinf mess as of late.

vent

SH TW MENTION

so i fucking relapsed and now my thighs look like barcodes 👍🏽 literally deleted all my socials besides this one (can i even count it as a social if no one even talks to me?) i left my only friend on read like 3 times because they KNEW i was really going through it and they ignored me i told them about my history and how i was scared i was gonna relapse and they CHANGED THE SUBJECT.

you’re never entitled to have someone listen to you, that i know, but for fucks sake this is someone who i thought i could lean on. i’m just so fucking tired of everything i’ve been binging for the fuckinf stupid excuse “because i’m on my period” so not only am i being a fucking failure but im so pathetic like literally how am i AT MY BIG AGE still ctting myself like yeah when i was in high school okay it is what it is but i’m literally 24 and STILL doing it.

[the-tinygiant]

A cool concept: me, but thinner

[the-tinygiant]

been restricting really hard so figured it might be good to have a metabolism dayi went really fucking overboard.

to make matters worse i also just started my period so it’s probably going to get a lot worse from here.

consumed 1.9k i just hope i don’t fuck up all the progress i’ve made these past couple days :(

[the-tinygiant]

guys. starting feb with my new lowest 🎉

officially one month and i’ve lost 24 pounds.

this should be your motivation to STICK IT THROUGH.

this. shit. fucking. works.

[the-tinygiant]

2023 g0als be likeeee

Repost to reach yo g0al w€!ght!

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edblr is so repetitive to me i keep seeing the same like 7 posts over and over

[the-tinygiant]

013023

hey y’all it’s time for the dailyyyyy

*food diary*

chips ≈ 65 cals

milk ≈ 80 cals

cookie ≈ 20 cals

choco drink ≈ 8 cals

burned ≈ 3 cals

net total ≈ 171 cals

pretty decent day i slept for most of it though.

also i’ve been restricting harder than usual the past couple days but i don’t think i need a metabolism day yet? not sure i guess we’ll see what happens on the scale.

[the-tinygiant]

012923

ALSO SOME POSITIVE NEWS !

i’m down around 19 pounds since january 1st!

i didn’t realize it when i stepped on the scale but then i went to put it in my notes log and i realized i was down 2 pounds from my previous LW 🫶🏽

this means i’ve made 23% of the way to my first major GW. i planned to reach it by the end of 2023 but if all goes as planned, i’ll be there by my birthday. literally the day before. i’m over the fucking moon right now ❤️

[the-tinygiant]

012923

i ate 2 tacos today and i thought they were like around 160 cals max each last time i checked but it turns out they were 190 and now i want to cry. anyways

*food diary*

2 tacos ≈ 380 cals

0 cals burned (literally slept all day)

net cals ≈ 380 cals.

decent day but wish i did some exercise.

[the-tinygiant]

met up with a guy i hadn’t seen in over 3 years. it literally felt like he was disappointed to see how much i had let myself go since then. i’ve gained like 50 pounds if not more since then and i’ve never felt more insecure about myself than now.

[the-tinygiant]

012523

hello hello back with another

*food diary*:

chips ≈ 130 cals

burger ≈ 300 cals

onion rings ≈ 38 cals

dipping sauce ≈ 60 cals

for a total of 528 cals 👍🏽

also did some walking around but i didn’t have my phone on me so i couldn’t count the steps so it’s probably more like 515 net at least but i don’t want to make any assumptions.

thinking of fasting thurs + fri because i’ll be drinking friday night and those cals are def gonna add up :/

[the-tinygiant]

not a good day. no food diary tonight

[the-tinygiant]

How I spend my time ✦

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012323

binged on nearly 1.1K cals today. did almost 500cals of exercise so that puts my net around 597. ideally i don’t want to pass 600 so i guess 600 net is whatever.

* food diary *

rice and green bean bowl ≈ 161

cracker ≈ 14

chicken nuggets ≈ 192

fries ≈ 280

sauce ≈ 130

rice and green bean bowl ≈ 155

chips ≈ 81

coffee w/ creamer ≈ 70

which brings my total consumption to : 1082cals

- 485 cals of exercise

my net for today is 597 cals

[the-tinygiant]

so far i’ve burned 672 doing exercise so far im tired bored

[the-tinygiant]

and this was the first time using a rice cooker (at my big age ik) and it came out so ass it was crunchy but i measured those cals so damn straight i was gonna eat it.