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what actually are endogenic systems?

• Endogenic is an umbrella term that refers to all systems that are not completely traumagenic in origin.

Why are some people claiming to be endo?

• people claiming to be endogenic systems may:

• be misdiagnosed, they may not have DID/OSDD and may have a different disorder.

• may not have researched. Which is not a excuse. You cannot claim to have any disorder without any level of research.

• they may be a traumatic system in denial of there trauma.

• singlets with fractitious disorders [Factitious disorders are conditions in which a person deliberately and consciously acts as if they have a physical or mental illness when they are not really sick.]

•singlets misidentifying normal experiences

• singlets who enjoy "being a system" finding it fun etc

Why can't endos exist?

• as previously stated. DID/OSDD is a TRAUMA RESPONSE DISORDER. you cannot have it without trauma literally.

• OSDD/DID occurs because of childhood trauma between the ages 4-9 (commonly). Because extreme trauma happens when the majority of your "personality" is formed by then. the trauma interferes with your personality development, causing the formation of other alters to help cope with that trauma / deal with the brunt of the trauma and survive day to day life.

• OCDD/DIDs can only be formed through trauma.

Why are endos so harmful?

• they spread very harmful misinformation. (Even the idea of being endogenic, forming without trauma)

they spread dangerous misinformation and stigma (demonising roles (persecutors for example)) impossible beliefs (alter death, sys hopping etc)There growing presence in general on many platforms

• endos trying to say that they have any experience to anything close to the serious trauma that causes DID/ OSDD is so so harmful to actual DID/ OSDD have had to live through and survive.

• WE ARE ALREADY STIGMATISED AND DEMONSIED IN ALL SORTS OF MEDIA AS IS.

• IT IS SO HARMFUL AND HURTFUL TO SYSTEMS WHO HAVE ACTUALLY SURVIVED AND BEEN THROUGH THE HORRORS AND TRAUMA THAT CAUSES DID/OSDD - OUR TRAUMAS ARE NOT BADGES FOR YOU TO WEAR.

- blurred asf

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A system is a collection of alters. Alters are chronically dissociated self states, with different neurological pathways that often are accompanied by a varying degree of amnesia. Dissociation is caused by stress/trauma. Alters are a byproduct of dissociating from trauma. You can’t dissociate from trauma you do not have. You cannot dissociate without trauma. You cannot have alters without trauma. You cannot have a system without alters.

You cannot be a system without trauma.

Do you have to know about the trauma ? No. Does it have to be a certain type of trauma ? No. Does it need to be a certain severity ? No. It just needs to have occurred during critical developmental period of the brain. Before the ego states have stitched together, it must be chronic, and beyond the child’s stress threshold, otherwise it will not disrupt the developmental growth. This is different for everyone. The reason trauma cannot be listed as a diagnostic criteria, is because there is no ��xyz trauma that causes dissociative disorders”. It’s completely unique to each person suffering from the disorder. And in often cases, the person suffering from the disorder isn’t aware of their trauma. That’s the point of the disorder. This does not mean you don’t need trauma to suffer from a dissociative disorder. Systems are byproducts of dissociative disorders, you cannot be a byproduct of a disorder you do not have.

Endos are not systems. What do I mean by this? I mean that, by definition, that term is not suited for them, and is not meant to describe them. Just like kinning doesn’t mean you’re a system, just like roleplaying doesn’t mean you’re a system, just like religious practises such as tulpamancy isn’t a system. You are perfectly free to do whatever you please, truly. But do not compare it to being a system. You do not share our experiences. You are a different community entirely, and that’s ok.

But please, for the love of god, stop invading our community, and stop spreading misinformation about an already stigmatised and misunderstood disorder.

I understand if you didn’t know better. But please, educate yourself, and stop spreading this misinformation. Being a system isn’t an identity. It’s not a label. And please, stop comparing it to being queer. This is a mental illness. Being queer is not a mental illness.

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Yknow, one of the more... interesting? Things that I've noticed since my partner started actively accepting they have DID is that they're slowly becoming less dissociated just by... being aware that they have a dissociative disorder. I remember for myself when I was going through this song and dance how it felt like I was actively getting worse and my life was falling apart as I became more and more aware of my DID. My partner, however, seems to be doing better with their memory day after day; already they've gotten to the point of being able to keep a full conversation with me without once asking me what we were talking about. Does it still happen? Sure, absolutely. But this used to happen multiple times a day for almost every single conversation we had and now I maybe only see them ask that... a couple times a week? And not only that, but they're so much more aware of when they're dissociating and will comment on such whereas in the past they'd brush things off with a "oh I'm just really tired" or a "sorry I wasn't paying attention" or a "I don't wanna think about this right now, I'm gonna play some video games". And because they're aware they can take measures to work on it and stay grounded! I'm just.... ahhh so proud of them and it also puts a lot of my own healing into perspective. That maybe the reason I felt like I was getting worse was because I was more aware of myself and my dissociation. That maybe it was because I wasn't so dissociated from the dissociation itself anymore, and that made things *seem* worse. And, maybe, it was because I didn't have the support in place to help me learn and utilize any other coping mechanism other than dissociation, and once dissociation started failing for me there was nothing for me to fall back on other than letting my life fall apart around me.

Looking at my partner's growth in even just these few months since they started becoming aware of their dissociative symptoms has given me a lot to think about in regards to my own experiences with dissociation. And I think, ultimately, I'm proud of where we both are now, as different as our journeys are.

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I don't know if something like this already exists or not, but I created a gender that describes me. It's called "Vertagender"

(Please don't judge me I'm just confused. 😭)

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There's an open pit in the middle of our office plan that drops down into a bunch of very sharp spikes that kill you instantly. This is bad. People keep falling in there and dying. Someone put a sign up, the other day, all bright yellow so you can't miss it, that says "Beware!!! Spikes!!!"

The office immediately split into two factions over it. One says that if anyone falls in the spike pit it's their own fault for being so stupid and not watching where they're walking, so we should remove the sign. The other says that the sign is an insult, there shouldn't be a spike pit in our office at all, and having the sign up like that is just normalising the existence of the spike pit, so we should remove the sign.

We ended up removing the sign. Probably for the better. Still... for a while there it looked like it might have worked...

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guess i'll put this here too, even though its past the day in my timezone lol

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Petition to tag NSFW posts in queer tags appropriately!!

PLEASE tag your NSFW posts as NSFW so that people who don't want to see it can filter those posts! I am sick and tired of going on queer tags (especially the lesbian or ftm tags) and seeing NSFW that isn't tagged as such.

Queer folks who aren't interested in seeing explicit content should be able to browse queer tags freely without having to see improperly tagged NSFW posts.

I know someone is going to misinterpret this and come for me

THIS IS NOT ME SAYING YOU CANNOT POST NSFW UNDER THE QUEER TAGS! THIS IS ME SAYING TO PUT THE TAG #NSFW OR #NSFT ON IT AS WELL, SO PEOPLE CAN FILTER THAT CONTENT!

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Sure!

I am making an endo-free system space blog masterlist; inspired by @plague-hybrid and the one I helped them create.

I will be sending asks to multiple community blogs requesting permission to put them on this list. If you own a community blog or would like me to ask a specific community blog if they're okay with being added, please let me know in the notes!

The blogs can be endo-neutral or anti-endo, it doesn't really matter so long as their community is for traumagenic systems only.

I will reblog this with the full list when it's done! If anyone wants to help, shoot me a DM.

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YES WE LIVE STILL!

Hey crow! We haven't been active lately but are getting back into the swing of things o7

One thing we're doing is making a new anti-endo blog masterlist since Plague's old one is very outdated to say the least. Would you like to be in it?

Yeah!

Glad to see you haven’t faded away into the void/silly

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Ello ello, might have asked this before and I'm very sorry if this is annoying or repetitive, but I'm wondering if you're alright with being added to an anti-endo / endo-free community blog list?

Sure!

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this user has biid and hates radqueers and their appropriation of "transabled"

This is so real anon

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i honestly need more systems to realise that fakeclaiming other systems and trying to appeal to asshole singlets is stupid

they are NEVER gonna view u as a valid system just because you hang out with them and fakeclaim the fictive heavy teenage systems with 100+ alters and multiple other disorders

you will never be normal enough for them and MAYBE if you tried it out you would find that the systems you were fake claiming for no good reason are a lot more welcoming than the assholes you hang around with

“oh but you can’t have tons of fictives” so. a child is actively being traumatised frequently and in severe ways and is autistic and/or escapes reality via fiction. the brain doesn’t integrate to protect the child and therefore the identity states become more fleshed out alters. would you say that that child would be likely to have a higher than average count of fictive alters? perhaps?

“but but they have 100+ alters and other disorders!1!!!1!1!1” ok, so, when you have other disorders or disabilities such as autism, bpd, npd etc would you say that makes life harder and more inherently stressful to experience? would you say that people with autism are more likely to experience bullying? because if you were to say that you’d be correct and bullying happens to be traumatic? therefore, more active trauma and stressful situations = more alters splitting potentially

point is: don’t fakeclaim others because you have no idea their situation and even if you do catch a real faker, labelling those traits as ‘faker’ traits is bound to do harm to systems who experience those traits

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we currently have about 336 boxes left to do and no ETA bc lives have been hectic. We should be down to roughly 250/275 by the end of this year tho- hopefully-

No ETA on when requests will reopen

no ETA on when current boxes will be done

a rough estimate for finishing boxes and then reopening requests would be our Spring time ish. So March/April or so

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love the URL

Thank youuuu, I like yours :3

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I am making an endo-free system space blog masterlist; inspired by @plague-hybrid and the one I helped them create.

I will be sending asks to multiple community blogs requesting permission to put them on this list. If you own a community blog or would like me to ask a specific community blog if they're okay with being added, please let me know in the notes!

The blogs can be endo-neutral or anti-endo, it doesn't really matter so long as their community is for traumagenic systems only.

I will reblog this with the full list when it's done! If anyone wants to help, shoot me a DM.