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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson Characters: Steve Harrington, Eddie Munson, Gareth (Stranger Things), For like half a second - Character Additional Tags: Not Canon Compliant, but that doesn't matter, Porn, Porn Without Plot, Making Out, strangers to enemies to fucking, Hand Jobs, Blow Job, Cum Eating, Dirty Talk, but it is just antagonizing each other, Gay Eddie Munson, Bisexual Steve Harrington Series: Part 2 of Strangers to enemies to fucking Summary:

After their New Year's interaction, Eddie figures it was a fluke and turns to focus on things that matter, namely Dungeons and Dragons. After their first session back from winter break, Eddie runs to the bathroom real quick before giving everyone a ride home. While there, he runs into Steve Harrington and things get interesting once again.

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american war from the 2017 omar el akkad novel. feel free to change as needed.

this isn't a story about war. it's about ruin.

i was happy then.

what did i tell you about wasting what's not yours to waste?

get your butt to breakfast.

didn't i tell you not to go opening my dresser?

don't you ever say that, you hear me?

you're a beautiful girl.

where's your good tie?

if you say it then they have to check one of the boxes on the form and take you into another room and ask you all kinds of questions.

it's like we aren't human, aren't animal even, like we're something else entirely.

you'll make friends your first day there.

we got some sandwiches left, coffee too.

i know it in my heart.

well, hello, darling, don't you look pretty today.

life's not worth living alone.

i'm old enough to know.

you got mud everywhere.

you don't know what you're talking about.

honey, it all happened so fast.

you got some balls talking that way.

go on to your room and pack as many clothes as you can get into your backpack.

waste of goddamn time.

got a full long day ahead of you.

there's nobody left here but me.

you gotta eat a little shit to get ahead.

i don't expect you to understand

nothing as sad as a lapsed catholic.

i don't know your story, and i don't care.

stay mean if you want to.

stop rolling around in the dirt.

screw you, [name].

you've got to stop talking like that.

try not to give anybody reason to make fun of you.

think we're gonna die here?

you never told me that before.

time buries time.

may as well show me whatever it is you got under there.

no matter what they tell you, some things are just wrong.

relax. have some fruit.

i'm telling you, it won't work.

you know we're not supposed to.

i'll give you fifty bucks.

stop being so scared of everything.

you think we don't have enough problems?

you're a good friend.

whatever it is you're looking for, i doubt you'll find it here.

don't worry, i won't tell on you.

come down from there.

i have a business proposition for you.

good girl.

i'll see you around, i guess.

make yourself at home.

that's what an empire is: an orchestrator of gravity, a sun around which all weaker things spin.

we forget, sometimes, that there are still beautiful things.

the only truly stable profession is blood work—the work of the surgeon, the soldier, the butcher.

i think it's only fair that i, in turn, share a secret with you.

maybe you're one of the special ones.

the first thing they try to take from you is your history.

i think you'll make a place for yourself in this world.

war is movement.

you haven't been home in four days.

how can you go and do the one thing you promised me you wouldn't do?

i want to introduce you to a close friend of mine.

it's a very beautiful part of the world.

there's nothing quite as tedious as old farts droning on about the days of their youth, is there?

we have a habit in this country of deciding wisdom of our wars only after we're done fighting them.

do you know how to use a knife?

all it takes is resistance and stress.

this doesn't concern you.

you've been saying that for years.

you gotta hide. they'll come after you.

i have one more thing for you.

i can't lose everyone i love.

i want to kill them.

having a bad day?

you really are too old to have fun.

how did you sleep, honey?

i'm so glad you're home.

enough small talk. let's eat.

at least you made it out alive.

keep your voice down. you want everyone in the place to know?

you poker-faced bitch.

we ain't a church—we don't need their charity.

this is my last year in this place.

how you feeling, boss?

it's not victory, it's one man dead. they got plenty more still living.

so you're the one that caused all that mess.

darling, we're all a part of this.

there's a whole great world out there, little girl.

you should be asking me for help, not the other way around.

you're here because i like you.

i'm not afraid to die.

what do you want me to do, then? crawl in a hole and wait?

they think they can just tell you what to do and you gotta listen like you got no say, like you got no thoughts.

we're young, and we ain't bound by what they're bound by.

i just wanted to be something.

it's going to be alright. just stay with me. it's going to be alright.

we know exactly what you did.

all you have to do is be honest with me.

you believe any of that stuff about coming back as a toad or an ant or something if you were real bad in your last life?

you should be in bed.

we've got a room for you all ready. it's a nice room.

i want to sleep on the soil.

don't ever come in here again.

it does the soul good to see you.

take this. it'll make the pain stop.

you really are your father's son.

i'm sorry i looked at your things.

i don't know what it's going to take for you to see that.

if you want me gone, i'll go.

i forgot how to sleep in the dark.

i can't imagine what you went through.

i'll love you anyway. that's what family does.

you're the only one still living who never once wronged me.

i won't let nothing bad happen to you.

i don't owe anybody a single thing.

it's strange, isn't it, what sticks with you and what doesn't.

i want you to forgive me.

hey, you want to go on an adventure?

you keep squealing like that and i'll break your jaw.

[name] told me you were a sweet boy.

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Just thinking about how during the discussion this week with my freshmores on our class novel Feed by MT Anderson, they were so curious why the characters are always hanging out at the mall. And my IA and I had to explain that malls were a huge thing in 2002 and we thought they always would be.

Also worth mentioning that we live 3 hours from a mall and 2 hours from a big city so it's not like malls were a thing for kids in this town in 2002.

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One thing about me is I don't want to be perceived.

Another thing about me is my job is stand in front of the worst perceivors on the planet and get them to pay attention to me.

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trends are temporary, emo swag is forever

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I hate being sick.i become the worst version of myself and all of my worst impulses and thoughts become the most true things ever.

So basically I'm gonna be alone forever and I'm useless and a horrible person. K thanks bye

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So this year I am crocheting a granny square for each book I finish based on the genre of the book (and I've grouped them so I don't have to buy as many colors)(see below). This is correct up to today.

And here are the books the squares represent with some modifications. For example, the girl called echo books were so short, I made them into one square. And I'm not done with Feed this time, it shows up here because I've completed it once before.

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“everyoneeee is sick right now” (loud coughing) “i have a cold but i’m still going to class because i can’t miss it” (loud coughing) “5 people were missing in my english class today, isn’t that crazy?” (loud coughing) “can i ask a personal question? why do you wear a mask?”

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Is it just me, or is really weird that we put generative AI, analytical AI and predictive AI etc. into the same category? Yes, they're all trained algorithms, but their socio-economic impacts are so vastly different. AI used to identify cancer in MRI images and AI chatbots are completely different things. Putting them all in the same bucket will not help with discussion on the application of AI and the moral aspect of it. It's strange that some people are trying to simplify the controversy as simply "pro AI vs anti AI" when it's much more complex than that.

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Somewhat on the vibe of "your glorious revolution doesn't exist," I want to talk to you all, especially the young folks, about effective anarchism.

Spoiler alert, it's not blowing stuff up or arson.

I am considered the most anarchical person of all among my friends. Granted, most of my experience has been wreaking anarchy against the systems present in my high school and college, but the principles are the same.

Practical anarchy is not the big, flashy, romanticizable thing people online make it out to be. It's more about the long haul - digging in your teeth and just being a menace that no one can really get rid of.

Everyone's "Why vote when you can firebomb a Walmart" posts (that they don't follow through on) are just not pratical because this is a surveillance society. With CCTV and DNA testing and cell phone cameras and GPS tracking, if you do something big like that, you are GOING to be caught; then that is the end of your anarchical career. And, keep in mind that you might get caught while you're setting up this big event - it's a crime to blow up a Walmart and also a crime to conspire to blow up a Walmart, so your career in anarchy might end before it begins, and then you are permanently out of the game. No matter what causes you were working for that inspired you to do something big and violent that you thought would get someone's attention, you now can't help at all ever again in your entire life. What you did will be a passing headline on the news, and then everything will go back to exactly what it was because big, acute actions can't compare in effectiveness to small, constant actions (just being a thorn in the side of the system, poking and poking, but unable to be dislodged).

This is just the practical side of it too: think about the risk of hurting innocents if you really advocate for doing things like that. You think blowing up a Walmart would really make a dent in that big of a corporation? But if you intentionally or unintentionally kill a bunch of Walmart shoppers, that's going to devastate families that had nothing to do with whatever your cause is.

So all that big talk about violence and destruction: not practical, not effective, not ethical.

The only way I've started to change oppressive systems around me is by justing chipping away from within the confines of the rules of these systems, and/or only stepping just outside them (never breaking rules in a big way that could have allowed said system to easily and "justifiably" get rid of me).

So if you're going to be an anarchist, you need to consider:

Having the longest career in anarchism possible (i.e. being careful enough and judicious with your actions so that you don't get expelled from the system you wish to fight).

And then for any given anarchical plan:

2. Potential consequences.

3. Insurance.

I'll give you an example. I had serious beef with the culture of my college's science department. Students were constantly overworked, and if they expressed their misery outloud or reached out to any of their professors about their struggles, they got apathetic responses if not direct insults to their abilities or dedication. I had too many similar disparaging interactions with professors in one week, and I realized a lot of the responses I was getting were just the result of professors not really knowing how they sounded when they said certain things to students (ex: If someone says they're struggling with a course, don't IMMEDIATELY respond with "change your major," - you can give that as an option, but if you make it your first suggestion, the implication to the student is that if they're having any trouble with the course, they're not good enough for the program).

So I wrote up a flier of examples of good and bad ways to respond to students having anxiety with explanations and distributed it to every professor in the department. Everyone who knew about this perceived it as a great personal risk - that I would get in some kind of unspecified trouble or piss off an important professor, so before embarking on this project, I considered...

Potential consequences: I couldn't really think of any specific college or department rules I could be violating. People postered and handed out fliers in the department all the time. What I was doing fell pretty clearly under freedom of speech. I just shoved the fliers under professors' doors, so I didn't trespass in anyone's office. Worst I could think is that individual professors would get mad at me and make my life difficult, or I'd simply be told to stop fliering in the department.

Insurance: Just in case there were any consequences that I didn't think of and to insure me against the ones I had thought of, I didn't put my name on the flier. It was typed in Word, something everyone had access to. I came in to do it after professors had all left for the day but before I needed to use my ID to get into the building (no electronic record of me being there). I took the elevator to the first floor offices because the stairs require ID swipe after 5pm, but the elevators do not. I found out the building had no cameras by asking about it on the grounds that something of mine had been stolen a few weeks prior. I shoved the flier under the doors of dark offices and left it outside offices with lights on (so that no one would come out and spot me). And here's one of the most important pieces of insurance: I put up a few of the fliers on public bulletin boards in the building. This was important so that if I slipped up and said something that conveyed that I had knowledge of the content of the flier, I would have an excuse for that, i.e., I read it on the bulletin board before class this morning.

And then I did the thing. And surprisingly, it was incredibly well-received by professors. A few who knew that the flier must have been mine (because of previous, similar anarchical actions rumored to be associated with me) told me that everyone was RELIEVED that they finally had an instruction manual from the student perspective on what the hell they're supposed to say when one of their students is panicking. It sparked a real change in the vibe of the department and student experience. Had it instead pissed people off, I would have simply said I could not claim authorship of the flier but had read it and thought it contained good ideas then gone on creating more anarchy while angry people grasped at the zero straws I had left them to pin the action on me.

That's an example of a single action I took that was part of a much longer (~3 years) campaign of mine to change the culture of my department. Everytime I did something in that campaign, I made that consequences vs. insurance calculation to make sure they couldn't expell me from the program, the department, or the school before I succeeded.

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Writing is going well

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I didn't watch the superb owl, I don't care. But I have been watching the gifs of halftime and it looks amazing.

I am not looking forward to the commentary from my coworkers tomorrow about it not being good, being too ghetto. Basically missing the point.

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Being autistic is like screaming through a megaphone “please don’t overwork me, i WILL explode” and everyone responds like haha well. You’ll get used to it over time :)

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scared of becoming your father? me too!

sarah kay/pinterest/aaron smith/the holdovers/daughter

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Cake’s Top Ten Little Moments in the MCU

For @alphaflyer, who suggested the little MCU moments in which “ordinary people (like us) confront and comment on that super-ness.” .Thanks for the idea! This was a lot of fun.

10. “Can we get a selfie?” – Thor: Ragnarok

Let’s face it; who wouldn’t want to get a selfie with a superhero, especially one as hot as Thor?  But beyond that, this scene shows the way normal humans would acclimate to the Avengers, accepting their presence the same way we deal with stars and royalty.  We’d take selfies, post on social media, and overall be excited that our paths crossed with someone so amazing, even if only tangentially. 

Plus, Loki’s eye roll is absolutely fabulous. 

9. “Why the hell should I take orders from you?”  – NYPD officer in The Avengers

It’s a funny scene that highlights the difference between the police and Captain America. But it also shows the very human reaction of disbelief (the officer has no clue who this guy in a spangled suit is), mistrust (what does he know?) and basic skepticism superheroes would be met with by most people.  Only once the officer sees Cap at work, how quickly he neutralizes the threat, does he accept Steve’s orders and begin issuing them himself.  Like Doubting Thomas, he needs visual evidence and actions before he can come to terms with what’s happening. 

8. “I’m in the system?” – Luis in Antman

Sidekicks are the best and Luis is the pinnacle of perfection.  Think about it; he befriends Scott Lang in prison, helps him through his time behind bars. He’s there when Scott gets out, gives him a place to live, lets him borrow his car.  When they rob Hank Pym’s house, he’s in the get-away van; when Scott decides to turn hero, Luis dons his uniform and plays his part, even going back to rescue the guard he’d knocked out.  It’s Luis who knows a guy who knows a girl who heard about the Avengers’ compound and the part they need.  He always has Scott’s back, accepting the wacky hijinks with a smile and a long-winded story.  We would all be lucky to be as exemplary a sidekick as Luis. 

7. “We are vegetarians” – M’Baku in Black Panther

He’s the leader of the J’Bari, a mighty warrior, a keeper of tradition, and entirely human. M’Baku has no time for royalty or superheroes. What he wants is to be respected and to keep Wakanda and his people safe and free … even if that means turning down the heart-shaped flower and saving his rival T’Challa. This scene sums up M’Baku in an ad-libbed line that cracks me up every time I watch it.  M’Baku is a fully realized character who isn’t impressed with all the posturing that happens in a world of superheroes; he makes a joke out of it instead.  

Plus, this scene, like so much of Black Panther, is layered with the history of colonialism and racism; M’Baku barking at the CIA representative is more than funny, it’s a reclaiming of self-agency. 

6. Peggy almost touches Steve – Captain America: The First Avenger

Another unplanned moment, the furtive hand movement from Peggy Carter as Steve emerges from the pod is sweet, funny, and so very poignant.  Peggy is a woman in a man’s world; she knows her value, is ready to punch her way out of situations and has battled to be where she is. It’s such a telling slip, reaching out to see if he’s real, if he’s okay, if he’s still Steve.  All the yearning pent up in one action, the knowledge that the young man she’s grown fond of is now changed forever. You can see it in the way she heaves a breath in the second gif, like she’s been through the process herself. This is the moment, with the others celebrating the scientific breakthrough, where Peggy realizes just how screwed she is to be falling in love with a superhero. 

5. “Yes, I did” – Darcy Lewis in Thor

There are so many Darcy moments to choose from.  “Still muscly.”  “I’m not dying for three college credits.”  “Give me your shoe.”  But this moment, when she proudly admits she tasered Thor, the guy who fell from the sky, is when we knew Darcy Lewis was a ‘take-no-shit’ type of person who will deal with what’s happening and worry about it later.  She’s not impressed by superheroes, but, unlike M’Baku, she’s a small woman who relies upon her wits, her smart mouth, and pure luck.  She’s not a genius like Jane Foster, not a fighter like Peggy Carter, she’s just plain Darcy and that’s what makes her strength of will so damn amazing in the MCU.

4. “No” – Sam Wilson in Captain America: Civil War

From the moment Sam jogs his way, slowly but steadily, into the MCU, he never doubts that his job is to skewer the egos of all these super-powered people, make sure they never forget their goal is to help others. From his invitation to eat breakfast “if you people do things like that” to making Natasha thank Redwing to asking T’challa if he likes cats to the fabulous fight scene at the airport with quips flying between him and Bucky, Sam is on equal footing from day one. Of all the scenes, this one in the car, when he’s literally inches in front of the Winter Soldier, a brainwashed assassin whose already tried to kill him twice, really shows just how confident Sam is of his own abilities, both as Falcon, but also as a caring person who’s trying to help Steve get Bucky back. 

3.  “For Wakanda? Without question” – Okoye in Black Panther

Okoye knows superheroes.  She is the Captain of the Guard of the Dorae Milaje and her job is to protect the King of Wakanda, the Black Panther.  She could have been rigid, unyielding, a follower of the rule of law … and she is all those things, but she’s also very human, a woman who had to choose between the man she loves and the King she serves.  She’s funny, loyal, unfazed by super soldiers and magic-wielding witches.  She side-eyes Bruce Banner when he trips in the Hulkbuster armor, fights flawlessly in an evening gown, and stays true to her convictions even in the face of King Killmonger’s reign. To Okoye, those with superpowers have a great responsibility to protect others and she’s not afraid to call them on the carpet if need be.  

This scene is revolutionary because of the idea of a woman who doesn’t put romantic entanglements first, who, like male heroes, is willing to sacrifice everything for what she believes in.

2. “Don’t waste your life” – Yinsen in Iron Man

God, I teared up just looking at these gifs. Ho Yinsen, a scientist, husband, father, man who just wanted to do some good in the world. Caught in the midst of such violence and faced with the man whose company built the weapons that killed his family, the man who once ignored him and his ideas. This moment. This fucking moment when he’s dying, has always known that he would die, understood just how small a part he was going to play in the larger-than-life story of Tony Stark. How do I get to be this type of person who not only accepts who he is and what he’s not, but uses his precious few seconds on the world’s stage to change the future? Make no mistake, it’s because of Yinsen that Iron Man exists, that Tony builds the arc reactor, saves himself, saves New York, saves the whole world, saves the fucking universe.  One regular human guy who saw the potential in Tony and made the ultimate sacrifice. 

Ho Yinsen. 

1. “Captain’s Orders” – Cameron Klein in Captain America: Winter Soldier

Of all the moments in the MCU, it’s this one where I see myself the most, the little peon at their computer who suddenly is thrust into the middle of a superpowered battle and has to make a choice between life and death. He knows, knows that he’s dead, that Rumlow will shoot him and push the button anyway. Look, I’m not a brilliant scientist or a warrior or a military officer; I’m not going to be the one fighting beside Steve or laughing at T’Challa or tasing Thor; I’m Cameron Klein and I hope to God that if that moment ever comes where there’s a gun to my head that I can say “Captain’s orders” and refuse. He’s one of the many faceless S.H.I.E.L.D. employees who work at a desk or cafeteria or mailroom, doing their jobs, only to be injured, have their lives destroyed or die when the Triskelion falls or when Hawkeye attacks the Helicarrier or when their names are revealed on the internet.

Cameron is #1 because he’s me, the small cog in the wheel that got caught when the machine gave way.  He said no without having the power to fight back or to change anything … but he did it anyway.