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It's my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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I have concerned my artist block. And I'm back to the former me. My ex Bree could brake me but she didn't keep me down. I'm back and better then ever. And just a small taste of the new me here's a VIP pic I did for a coven member on discord. @ofpine

Just when I thought there was no point in my art anymore and my ex destroyed my love to create.

I met the most beautiful soul.with a perfect Balance of her and mother Gaia that all I saw was pure beauty on the most professional artistic manner possible.

This was the picture that would be the muse I needed to save the artist deep inside that I thrive most by being connected to that me. When I am I became the most balanced me I have ever been. I took my gift for granted in a large my ex to destroy it but now I have it back and I will never forsake it again the proof of my skill lies in just this very first piece I have created since gaining back my gift

Thank you @ofpine for helping me get my gift back and work through some of the darkest things that have held me back in life

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The life of Mr nobody. By tazzflasharts.

To most life and love comes simple.

But not for Mr nobody. He will go his whole life yearning praying and prepping for a love that will never come along.

He will put his heart on the line time and time again. And always come up short and become the but of every woman's joke.

Life has made him a joke. And he has nothing left to give but his absence.

For after all he is Mr nobody

#hermitlife2024

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I have lived a life putting everything I got into love.

Despite all the people saying I was going to grow up to be 1 of the worst monsters in the history from a very young age.

Iv spent my whole life trying to prove everyone wrong.

That that will never be my legacy...

At 15 years old i made a vow of non violence.

And I'm not perfect but I've kept my vow till December of 2023. When I was forced to defend myself with chest bumps to get my now x off me.

This life has thrown everything at me to trip me up and make me slip. But I always found a way to solve conflicts with out getting physical.

I admit when I'm put in a bad spot I can be very verbal. But through thick and thin I was the guy friends can depend on to help defuse and work out problems.

This is the true man I have become at my core ....

Deeply in my heart and soul no matter how much I fight it. Or how much it destroys my life.

I'm drawn to helping people.

But yet I never received any of that love back....

1 relationship after another they trump the last on how low they can treat me then spit me out.

From love. Friends and family. It's all the same. And in 20 years it will all be the same but with different people.

From all the abuse I take. And all the shit I eat for trying to pursue love and happiness.

And I always bounce back. I always hold on to the best parts of me.

But this live is killing me more and more with every dirty jab live deals me.

I can't do it anymore. The love everyone and all that guru stuff. How can I tell the world about my views on love and life.

When I have only had the worst parts of love in my life. Maybe y'all can't see me for me. Just a past that not who I am anymore. Or maybe you heard all about me from someone I had bad history with.

But only the few that are real enough to get to know me. Know who I am and what I'm about...

I will never apologize for my past ever again y'all can get over it or be gone. Like all the fakes that fell out my life already...

I expect that there is no love out there with the capacity to love me. And so I fold on that to.

And as for my need to help people is at a all time low.

Iv faced to much death, heart break. And deformation of may name.

That that man I was is gone. Every fiber of who I was has been torn down brick by brick.

And every time I think I can't fall any further. That's when things get worse.

Life has broken me in ways I don't even understand yet. But I will get back up. I will move forward but I will never allow that other me back ever again.

He was a sucker. A duck and a Patsy.

I'm fixing my car. And getting my driver's license and I'm getting out of this town before it kills the last bit of me live hasn't yet.

If I'm worth nothing and invisible to all women I have a interest in. And all the universe has for me are broken jaded hateful people.

Then I'll find me a nice little whole in the wall spot to live out my days in peace as the hermit life is making me.

I always thought there was someone for everyone. And that everyone has there spot in the world they can thrive.

But this last 5 plus years. I can now see. Some people like me and others I know. That's just not true. And probably never was. It's a fantasy society tells us cuz it's easier then the truth

That some of us don't get to have that feeling of family.

Some of us don't get to have there own house and the financial ability to sustain it.

Some of us are betas that get robbed of everything that matters in life to us.

Some of us will never know what it's like to have someone that loves us so much they can't live with out us.

Some of us will only know the kinda friends that cut us down and take love and jobs and anything else they want from us because they are the alphs of the world and we are nobody

If you are not ready for real love friendship and family then I don't need or want you in my life.

I'm done with the lies fairy tails and smoke blown up my ass.

Time for y'all to find a new chump to crush

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What's going on y'all tazzflasharts here and I'm starting a gaming server and invite all gamers to join us. My live gaming streams will start on discord when I have the network of people to stream to. So get to my server and join in. Thank you and have a blessed day

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You know it's difficult knowing you gave it your all and eat everything she threw at you and still tried to make things work and be there for her only to be in the doghouse for everything I do. All the while she do as she pleases like waves in the ocean going this way and that way but everything has to go her way. I lived those 10 month the worst days of my life forced to close off to all my friends so no one can see her putting her hands on me I told everybody about it and no one cared till I defended myself for all my so-called friends to do what they do best and give up on me. It's not enough that I broke a 20 year vow of nonviolence my first charge and have to go to court the day before what would have been our 11th month anniversary and I lose everything if they put me on probation or I serve time over this. I'm not the monster I'm being made out to be before that relationship I was on the right path. This relationship has stolen everything from me and she still continues to attack me on here. And I'm sick of explaining myself I'm moving on from this B's and if you can't move past this to then you don't care and your not my friends all I want is peace and quiet in my life and friends the see me as I am and love me regardless of 1 small mistake that's been blown up by someone that hates me cuss I had enough of her abusive behavior to me. We are better off not knowing each other. And I'm better off doing my art and staying out of relationships for good. I have so much trauma from this whole experience this past year I can never open my heart to anyone like that every again the permanent damage is done and now so am I. On the the new year and to all the traveling ahead I'll just put my heart into my art and travels. So do me that decency if you hate me just move on and block me. Tazzflasharts...........

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