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My rose bush went a little insane this year so i making things! Like... rose water! What is it? I dunno, water that smells good? Gonna make it, though.

Also, dried roses! For... teas? Uh, cooking? Something. But, damn, will they be dried.

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I have bought an aloe leaf from the grocery store. I have learned that the latex in the leaf is very not good for your organs. I am not getting a lot of consistent information about the de-latexing of the aloe goop.

I think i have to soak it in water. At which step do i do this? Unclear. I love it.

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I can't say that I'm a fan of the crazy legs, but they were fun! I was even able to give the Gray one as a gift to my stepdaughter's mom so that's great! I never get to gift her things.

I think the only way to fix the legs would be armature wire , but I don't want to use that. I will be using a thinner yarn and crocheting it into a cord for the legs if i make them again.

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I made a bag for my crochet hooks! I honestly couldn't tell you what I did for the chains or whatever... i kind of just kept trying different things per layer.

I know for a fact that the hooks are going to poke through the side because they are already, but I have family that's willing to sew a bag for the inside of my bag..

So, yey!

The cord i got from a random pinterest video that i can not find again, but it was super simple.

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Bakugou and Kitty!Kiri on their way to class. Poor Kiri, his paws aren’t exactly suited for bag handles. Meanwhile, Shinsou nearly has a heart attack at the sight of those jumbo-sized beans.

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First finished crochet project i tried to make a glove and it went very poorly, so, obviously, i had to make a rat.

Honestly, it turned out amazing, given i have no idea what im doing and can't read patterns for instructions. I think i used a 'magic circle' to start the snout and then single stitch (probably) for the rest.

I know for a fact, looking at videos, i did the magic circle way wrong but i worked in the end. Im tempted to put cat nip in it and let the cats go wild

My sister had sent me a few tutorials so next time i might have something less lumpy and with matching legs

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I dont even care that its not finished, only a few hours from my last project and this already looks better. You can see the patterns!

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Ive really got to learn how to ... weaving? Off the loom. 'Cause this aint the way, those strands are both obvious and ugly. But! I did a thing!

I tried patterns, but they dont really show. Im gonna do more colors next, hopefully to make the patterns show. Who knows? Not me.

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Third time is still not the charm, but i figured out how not to miss stitches while finishing it... but i made it too tight and cannot move my fingers.

It was knit on a long knitting loom, and i finished it with a crocheting hook... none of these things i know how to use.

Im learning a lot, but i have very little guidance since reading about crocheting or knitting or anything doesn't really compute, and videos only go so far. If there was someone I'd go to in person, that would be OK. But most of those are in groups and I have a social anxiety and so this is fun.

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Ok, thats enough for now. I keep getting my lines mixed up when trying patterns. Ill need to watch a few videos to figure out what im actually doing. Made 'bracelets' though, in under two hrs, which i assume isnt the worst.

Gotta love popcicle sticks and combs.

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Hahahaaa, took a strong curve. I was staring at temu, looking at a very small weaving loom and its price tag... and then looked to my left and saw the cheap shelf my child was too rough with and my cats finished breaking.

So i made a really shitty loom! I need to make a cardboard, like, spacer to keep the yarn in place, i think, but i decided to just use cheap yarn and scrap fabric to test out what the heck i was doing.

They are very ugly and rough to the touch because of the yarn and scraps used, but it was fun! Im going to try a few more things before going in for 'actual' supplies, like yarn that wasn't hidden in the back of my closet.

I am totally not avoiding making gloves on my knitting loom, because im an adult and that would be silly. Ptth. As if.

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I got a ball of yarn from my sister for christmas and, through a combination of extreme distraction and knitting while watching one piece for the first time, i took 8 weeks to knit about maybe 8 hrs worth of work.

My plan is to get a similar amount of yarn for another section and knit it together for a full sized throw, but itll be a different color because she apparently got it on sale at a store in GA, where i am not.

Had fun with the pattern, though, and i kinda like both sides... completely missed a loop at the very beginning

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Merry christmas to me! Got a cheapo knitting loom in November and have been practicing. This was my first try, made a kinda-scarf and used a few different yarns and patterns.

Gotta say, the cheap white acrylic yarn i found in the back of my closet? Not great. Itchy, stiff, has that tooth removing squeak as the fibers rub together, but it worked ok when combined with thinner softer yarn.

The first try - the brown that's loosely knit - is kinda cool. Im curious if i could figure out some type of pullover for like. Spring. Or fall. Cool weather. I have no idea how to do clothes on a long knitting loom though.

Oh, im having fun

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https://gofund.me/8eda7a53

I doubt I have anyone watching this blog, but tossing this out to the wind if you feel like spreading the word.

I am doing a gofundme to try to help a few injured cats that have fallen into my lap, which I dont have the money to do much more than feed. Unfortunately, my bleeding heart is bigger than my bank account, and between the roaming dogs, raccoons, and small livestock I raise, I can't just have them outside.

Recently, there has been an influx in abandoned cats near me, and - as usual - there are the young ones that are getting injured. I have a kitten with a screwed up leg that was hit by a car in front of me and another kitten that was somehow traumatized that has a degloved chin (the skin was pulled down and is kinda puddling at the bottom of his chin). Both of these i found at different times in my work parking lot, in the middle of a shopping center. Both are male and need to be neutered on top of these issues.

I have another girl, at least several years old, who was abandoned in my neighborhood and chose our house to get help. She has some sort of bladder issue, maybe just a uti, and needs to be checked out.

I am putting them up for rehoming but since all humane societies, cat shelters, and foster homes are full to bursting at this time, I want to help them as I wait, since itll probably be a while.

Once again, even if you just pass this on, that would be great. Thank you for taking the time to read.

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in terms of psychoanalysis i’m really going all in on james wilson ocd diagnosis.

i personally interpret his behaviour in relationships - being drawn to needy people, leaving when he feels he’s not needed anymore - as due to a hyperinflated sense of responsibility, something people with ocd have to really battle with to approach their relationships healthily and prevent codependency. you see someone with a problem and you physically can’t walk away, because seeing it and not getting involved feels like neglect. long post, more below the cut.

i interpret it this way - instead of say, him being drawn to needy people purely because he likes playing saviour - because i think a lot of the time, especially with his brother, wilson actually experiences quite a lot of anxiety over taking care of others. i think he feels obligated to do it as averse to fulfilled by doing it, which is why he struggled so hard to support his brother and carries that guilt almost his whole adult life. you can see this in amber too - he wasn’t happy at the prospect of buying her the mattress she liked to make her feel cared for. he was extremely nervous about it, afraid to make the wrong decision and make her feel bad. he is constantly grappling with this intense motivation to be a 'good' partner, a 'good' friend, a 'good' doctor, a 'good' person, and it comes across as an intrusive and obsessive preoccupation with morality to me more than anything. he takes antidepressants because of his job, that feels more like obligation to be a saviour to me than fulfillment from helping people.

i feel like wilson is drawn to neediness because his brain tells him he HAS to stay or something bad will happen - like it did with danny - but when he realises his partners/friends dont need him anymore, he leaves not because he doesn't feel fulfilled anymore but because he realises he doesn't actually like the person. he was staying with them out of obligation, and once that obligation fades there really isn't much reason to stick around. this is also supported by the fact that bonnie says wilson's pattern isn't to initiate relationships - he kind of... falls into them and gets stuck.

i also think that even though house and wilson's relationship is mainly built on love, this also plays a pretty big role in it. but it works for house. house is perpetually needy, and wilson is perpetually obligated to be his saviour. wilson is constantly there for house, even when he doesn't want to be, even when house tells him to go away, because wilson is his only friend and house can be legitimately dangerous which probably dials any obsessive-compulsive behaviour to 11. because if wilson isn't there for house, there actually is a chance something bad will happen. but house also acommodates wilson in their living situations, and he doesn't need coddling which is probably a bit of a relief. wilson doesn't need to tread on eggshells around house because no way is house ever actually going to leave. house also encourages wilson to do things for himself for a change instead of worrying about everyone else, which helps him break the cycle a little. people with ocd want control to feel stable, but house perpetually undermines that control which stops the unhealthy behaviour from manifesting. it's a real mixed bag with him.

other evidence i've collected that supports this interpretation: wilson has hinted-at hoarding tendencies with useless items his patients give him, he has a proccupation with health thats a little unusual even for a doctor, he has an obsessive approach to his appearance, he is such an extreme perfectionist that sam makes fun of him by saying he's 'being so ocd', he cannot easily make simple decisions like choosing furniture, he approaches all the relationships in his life with a strange intensity. plus my own personal projection <3

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what did you mean hannibal's wish is to have will or? what do you think hannibal intends to do? O.o

Well, it would be really easy to say that he wants Will back in the sense of, like, wanting Will to run away with him [CARLY RAE JEPSEN PLAYS MUFFLED IN THE DISTANCE] so they can get married be lovey-dovey together and maybe dole out some occasional travelling vigilante justice to the serial killer population of the world. And as a Hannigram shipper I think Hannigram shippers walk into this trap with their eyes open at least once per episode, because it seems like it would make sense and would at least be halfway satisfying (there’s that word again) for a regular human bean TV viewer. I’m constantly watching movies and reading books about assassins and vigilantes and antiheroes and so on. But that stuff is inherently damaging to Will’s psyche, even if he enjoys the endgame violence, let alone the fact that what really gets Hannibal revved up about these scenarios is manipulating all the pieces into place so Will gets revved up. Will’s goal is to save sheep but Hannibal’s goal isn’t to save sheep, it’s to get the sheepdog to savage. For that you have to put a wolf in position to kill sheep, and some sheep will likely die as a side effect. He unintentionally made it happen with Garrett Jacob Hobbs, and since then he’s been chasing that first high like an instant crack addict from an 80s PSA. It’s hard to grok because it’s completely alien psychology, but the only way the plot makes sense is if seeing Will kill and hurt others is the biggest turn-on Hannibal has ever encountered in his fifty years of life. I don’t think there’s any endgame in his mind where he’s like, maybe I’ll just be a source of stability and understanding and validation to Will and then he’ll stay with me in pastoral beatitude somewhere out in the Euro-sticks because no one else does that better for him. It actually is true that no one does it better for Will, so ironically he would have a chance at attaining this endgame, but the “murder” part is inextricable from the “husbands” part in Hannibal’s mind, and no one can convince him that he doesn’t know what’s best for Will better than Will does.

So, you know, maybe the key is that he needs to learn this crucial adult relationship-related lesson about how you give your loved ones space to make their own life choices, even if their life choice is NOT to service your kink. Either that or he can take an icepick hard reset to the head. XD