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‘Ski Tracks in the Great Forest’ by Gustaf Fjaestad (1868‑1948)

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i'm beyond deluding myself into thinking that there's anything that I could do or say to make someone that is so deeply unempathetic care about me in any tangible way but there's something about laying in bed for hours talking and having breakfast made for me and being kissed on the forehead just as I'm falling asleep that just makes me question whether or not I can keep my cool

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back in my feelings abt a man so ofc I'm back here

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hi tumblr

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having my ex tell me at noon after spending the night on his couch that I could "keep sleeping" if I wanted to and was tired felt like such a fucking blow. he explicitly told me while we were together that it made him HATE me that I would sleep through the day, even though the reason for that behavior was a result of a medication I was taking. as if suddenly I am just Being Good and I'm allowed to sleep late like a privilege

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hi

I've been living on my own for a little over two months, and single since valentine's day

I've have a new cat named goblin and I'm trying to figure out how to get her to stop peeing on my belongings but I love her

I was sick for almost a month and went to the emergency room for the first time and did the whole thing alone and surprisingly unafraid

I've been off antidepressants since the beginning of May and have started feeling things I've forgotten about

I watched across the spiderverse tonight and felt chills from excitement from a movie for the first time since they increased my dosage of antidepressants over a year ago

I recently pressed my head against the chest of an old friend that I've never touched before and i haven't stopped thinking about it for weeks

I'm remembering what it feels like to have crushes and fall in love with people who treat me with kindness and generosity and silliness

my life feels bright and open and full of grief all at the same time.

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they should invent a way to reconnect with old friends that doesnt feel like eating a pile of dirt in front of god

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happy birthday to one of the most incredibly talented and creatively brilliant artists of our lifetime <3

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me when i’m watching breaking bad and jesse gets beat within an inch of his life instead of saying some shit like yo mr white can i get some extra cash for the zoo gift shop bitch

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I want to be able to enjoy my life without counting dollars every waking moment

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I love you pickles I love you vinegar I love you fermentation I love you kombucha I love you yeast I love you sauerkraut I love you kimchi i love you acidity i love you sourdough starter i love you lactobacillus

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feels right that on the night before my 25th I'm also getting rid of every single object that's cluttering my apartment

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very late happy birthday, may 25 bring you peace and cheaper car insurance

waited til my actual real bday to post this ask, thank u @unoshallbeplayedbywe

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my goal for this bday is to not stress myself to the point of panic over having my closest friends over to my house lol

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When it was Possible to Concentrate, The World Felt like A Perpetually Unfolding Miracle

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i'm neither an enjoyer nor a hater i interact with things in a third worse way

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the horror genre of what if it was night and there was a man outside. nothing scares me more