#zirkposting

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Thinking about the moment Zirk gives Fia the allcure when he's about to try and take off the crown from Irina.

How he knew he was, mostly sure, about to die. When he gave his life to a fairy that wasn't even present.

He wasn't giving Fia the allcure to be used on him, not to save him, even if he knew he was about to die. He was giving Fia the all cure to use it, to heal all, to heal everyone, but not him. He was about to die, and it wasn't even a tought on his head to tell them "Hey, bring me back if something happen"

No, it was "Hey, I'm fucking leaving. Save the world, in my memory ok?"

Zirk Vervain why you are like this, why everyone goes before you, why you don't think you deserve anything, even being alive, when you have created the cure of death yourself.

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Silly trans Zirk headcanons:

He did his own top surgery. It really sucks. He have a big acid burn aall over his left pec, and the worst bigass scar under his right one. The bright side is that it looks like everything but a top surgery scar and that's kind of reaffirming to him.

Doctor Nebble did his bottom surgery. It is Profesional and polished and not a single tissue out of place.

He can brew his own magic-ish HRT potions. He rather don't. The chest scar thing have him sigthly traumatized. But he would do if he's traveling and have no other alchemist to get help from.

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Gonna assign Miranda's songs to the third mates because who's gonna stop me?

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Anyway

Look at the hour.

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hes not doin it for halloween hes doin it because he's a victorian doctor

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There was a convo on the naddcord that I didn't reached about what characters should be fat (and how annoying the negative associations with weight, which absolute true. ) but I just want to say.

Zirk is weak pathetic and in the bones, and he drops like three kgs in two days when they interact with Stella.

But Irina fully grandma him into putting weight. You look too thin mister Zirk. Here have another portion. You don't leave this table until you eat all your soup. Here i made cookies have some while you work that potion.

Let me have Zirk getting loved and getting fatty.

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I may not be a trans man zirk truther. But I'm a trans zirk appreciator

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We (and for we, I mean I) don't talk enough about Zirk's potential acoholism.

He drinks, and drinks strong. He doesn't drink silly fun brevages and doesn't seem to care about good tastes or refined wines. He wants the stronger thing that can burn his throat and get him shitfaced instantly.

And as a heavy drinker-- This man drinks to abscent himself, to destruct his own person and stop thinking for a minute. Zirk's one step away from adiction at every moment and the only reason he isn't an alcoholic is because he probably self checks, controls and forces himself to stay sober to work (to exhaustion if possible. No toughts a way or another.)

Because an alcoholic isn't functional and if he isn't functional he isn't useful and if he isn't useful he's basically unworthy of any kind of positive interaction.

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@meteortrails have a lot of right opinions.This was one.

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Me: feels sick

Me:.... Zirk&Henry sick fic, no ship 3k words. Go.

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Im not saying that Zirk doesn't know what personal space is, I'm just saying he's not a practising. Just the important celebrations(?)

He'll sit all over his friends personal space, climb at Fia's back to be carried, Lick henry face without any single explanation and continue his life. He just likes having them close, and likes holding hands, and smooch them and would sit on their laps if not checked. And they probably just let him do. This is Zirk, our weird friend who acts like he's a lap dog when is taller than the media. Let him do, even drum on his back as a way to give him the touches back. Fia fully don't understand personal space so shes gucci doing the same. Henry who is practicant just have a worst time following them, but regardless, they cuddle a lot.

Now, in the other side if someone touches him first, specially his hair, he will flinch and enter alert mode and start questioning his whole life and what they want out of him. Stella used to grab his shoulder so rought, kick his leg to shut him up, asking him to hug her and guilty trip him if not, brush his hair and tie it so tight that it hurt. Sometimes even when he's the one starting the touching.

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Zirk.

Zirk vervain.

Why do you live like your life doesn't matter. Why you have accepted death Why you go out in a city you don't know when you were barely recovering.

Why you go and try to drink lava.

Zirk.

Zirk why you offer yourself to the dangerous deadly task. You work inside. Zirk fucking Vervain lived his life like he was already dead and I can't get over it.

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"I'm worried i'll never truly be capable of loving another person"

Ok. Ok but. That phrase. I know that (same issue than when yo analyze Sol or bev) caldwel just like to say words. Unhinged stuff.

But.

Ok but.

He was on a truth serum. That doesn't sound like his usual mommy issues. That sounds like he had a lover. That really really hurt him. Hell. Even a very close friend that he emotionally attached himself to and had a very very bad breaking.

And. Man. What. When. What happened. Zirk. What's your story. Did you meet someone. Did someone help you leave your abusive household? Or did you find someone on the way? Did you stablished somewhere? Did you adventurer together? Did you tought you were in love after a first date? Did you fell in love after years? Are you aro as fuck and it was a strange situationship that you didn't knew the type of love it jnvolved and everyone end up hurt?

I need to bite Zirk like a chewtoy and throw him around the room. And I need to yell with anyone. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN ZIRK.

Did caldy and Murph had different plans for Zirk's backstory? Is it still part of his story?

What do YOU MEAN WITH LOVING ANOTHER PERSON. WHAT WAS THE PERSON YOU LOVED THAT BROKE YOUR HEART. THATS NOT A MOMMY ISSUE PHRASE. ZIRK. ZIRK I NEED TO KNOW. CALDWELL TANNER I LIVE ON YOUR WALLS.

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What happens in a Zirk and Jayce interaction

Jayce gets ignored, Zirk goes to play unethical science with Viktor.

He can stay, but has to look pretty and stay silent. Eyecandy. He also has to take off his shirt and go to the forge if required. But mostly gets ignored, hyperfocus team on business

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Eewww I can't get up my body is very tired.

/puts Zirk on a situation/ he's sick now and he's really bad being sick.

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Anyway. Have more Zirkposting.

Instinctively, Zirk hides behind Fia whenever something happen. He does when there is actual danger (like dangerous looking people while they travel) and sometimes for silly things (Like Irina threatening him with a dinner)

It's just instinctive. He gets small and hides behind the big girl. She will protect him. And whenever he does it, she puffs the chest and kinda covers him, extending an arm or stepping front.

Anyway. Henry notices it once and it goes like

Henry: wait. Why do you always hide behind Fia?

Zirk: I do? Well I trust her. She gets my back

Henry offended: but what about ME? I can protect you. Why you never hide behind me?!

Zirk: /hides behind fia/

Fia: /steps in front of Zirk/

Henry: GODAMNIT YOU TWO