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madammuffins · 6 years

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Character Creation

Character Creation Tag Game, tagged by the lovely @vhum s I’ll be focusing on are Abidan and Zee from Red Flags ( a work in progress that I’ve been neglecting in my slump but can be found on WattPad HERE)

1) What was the first element of your OC that you remember considering (name, appearance, backstory, etc.?)

Abidan: Nothing special at first. I just wanted this absolutely broken person. I think at the root of all people, the one thing everyone shares is their brokenness. We all have trauma and we all think our trauma is awful. But we aren’t awful. That’s the core idea of Abidan.

Zee: For a while, when things were going really, really bad in my life I just was like “WHat?! Am I cursed? Do I have some demon that’s just fucking things up for me?!” And... well, tah-dah! Years and mental stability later, Zee’s born.

2) Did you design them with any other characters/OCs from their universe in mind?

Abidan and Zee were both built completely with one another in mind. Their character concepts are as tightly interwoven as their abusive relationship and codependency is.

3) How did you choose their name?

I have a fetish for biblical names. I love things that aren’t common and are unique. Also I really loved that old PS video game where you were Jen, an alien half breed that could morph into all these different forms and you have your little goblin friend who turned out to be, like, and angel trapped as a gargoyle. It was called Primal, the game. Anyway. Zee is actually short for Zephaniah which means God has hidden.

4) In developing their backstory, what elements of the world they live in played the most influential parts?

Zee: Zee is the “dark” half of the world. A necessary evil. A natural darkness, let’s say. She lives in the split dimension from the human world that all fae/magical creatures fled to when the industrial age reached it’s peak.

Abidan: Abidan is somehow purely human and yet the embodiment of good in the human dimension (realm, whatever). Somehow magic in it’s purest form has manifested itself and taken root as his soul causing him to attract all sorts of creatures naturally mischievous.

5) Is there any significance behind their hair colour?

Zee: Yes. I’m just tired of the age old bad/evil = dark/black. I think it’s sort of poetic that she’s kind of ethereal in appearance.

Abidan: Again I’m going more for irony in making him mixed raced. Plus I love the contrast between the two.

6) Is there any significance behind their eye colour?

Zee:

Sort of. Again the imagery, I feel like her appearance is to lure people in and trap them.

Abidan: Aside from genetics not really. His eyes are a hazel just because I like the idea that he has these brilliant greenish brown eyes against darker skin but... y’know. That’s just me.

7) Is there any significance behind their height?

Zee: Currently Zee is about 5′8″, tall for the average woman - but she’s also a “demon” who can be literally anything - a ball of light, a dragon, a mass of limbs, a nightmare. She just prefers feminine shapes and decided on a human form for a particular case. She likes being taller because she enjoys the attention and the power.

Abidan: He’s 6′.5″ Kinda tall, but not super tall. His limbs are thin and don’t quite fit his body. Long and gangling. Awkward. That is absolutely on purpose.

8) What (if anything) do you relate to within their character/story?

This story is kind of the outlet for all my abusive situations I guess. I mean, not outright. But it’s kinda therapeutic in a way and maybe that’s why I’m struggling with actually writing it - because it’s so stuck in me. Because it hurts. These things hurt to write about, to try and describe and translate into words - the fear, the comfort of the repetition. The expectation, being able to play a moment and know the outcome will be violence. It’s hard to... idk.

9) Are they based off of you, in some way?

Zee: Zee is complex in she is the abuse that I endured from my family and my lovers as well as the woman that I wish I had been and am striving to become. She’s in no way healthy, and she certainly is more one thing than the others.

Abidan: He is me, or how I feel like I was viewed and treated. This thing - this pathetic, awkward, ugly creature that had something people would just eat at and eat at and eat at until there was almost nothing left and yet somehow I still had more to give. This unending fount of love and support and... naivety and codependency. Abidan is everything I hated about myself and everything I try to preserve and everything I admire in other people.

10) Did you know what the OC’s sexuality would be at the time of their creation?

Zee: Yes. Zee don’t give a fuck. She’s just there to complete her mission - get her deal done. Sex is just sex, she doesn’t feel anything for humans or other demons. It’s not in her job description.

Abidan: I struggled a lot with Abidan. A huge part of me wanted to make him a gay man, then I wanted to do a lesbian couple, and then I struggled even more with the idea of not being able to correctly portray that and being demonized for it. So I stuck with the traditional male/female romance between the main characters, however it’s a gay romance that sparks the beginning of Zee’s spiraling abusive behavior.

11) What have you found to be most difficult about creating art for your OC (any form of art: Writing, drawing, edits, etc.)?

All of it. Like, I know these characters. I know them intimately. i write them in my head daily. But actually forming their story is... difficult and I don’t know if it’s a mental hangup or if it’s emotional... so I’m not going to push myself.

12) How far past the canon events that take place in their world have you extended their story, if at all?

Their story is almost completely finished in my head. It’s just not written.

13) If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be?

Zee: (1) She is not ‘evil’, she is a creature of her world. Her behavior is normal and expected. “What is chaos for the fly is normal for the spider.” is very much a quote that defines the difference between their worlds, humans just happen to be the flies. (2) She is NOT healthy, she is NOT ‘good’. She is not ‘right’.

Abidan: (1) Everything that can go wrong will go wrong for him (2) Everything is his fault always all the time and he just wants someone to love him

14) What is something about your OC that can make you laugh?

Zee: She is always vexxed about the fact that she can’t be a shadow.

Abidan: The most mundane things turn into disasters and it’s so great.

15) What is something about your OC can make you cry?

Zee: She will never experience a good relationship. She wants one, some part of her craves it. She’ll never have it. Never.

Abidan: He’ll always love Zee. Always. He’ll hate her for the rest of his life but it will always be his fault and he’ll always blame himself and he’ll spend every moment over analyzing and replaying every detail thinking and rethinking... because if he had just done something, anything, different then maybe they would still be-

16) Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story?

Not yet. I mean, all the dark tones are difficult but I don’t regret them.

17) What is the most recent thing you’ve discovered about your OC?

Zee: She’s got these amazing moments where she’s so good and decent and it make you wonder... “Why?”

Abidan: Fuck this kid is an honest to God romantic.

18) What is your favourite fact about your OC?

Zee: I’ll never get over the fact that she was a dragon for a few hundred years.

Abidan: He’s such a fucking marshmallow. Just a soft, sweet guy

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madammuffins · 6 years

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17 & 23, please? :D

This would be Abidan. And he is 100% fully aware of what he's doing. I'll just answer both in one blurb!

"Look at that one!" Zee groans beside him, falling further into her seat, "'Fried bull balls, Grab life by the balls'." He laughs, "Well fuck." He turns his head, "Rocky Mountain Oysters. You'll have a ball." He's laughing so hard by now he's a driving hazard. "Oh my God, Zee! Zee, do you-"

"Yes." Her eyes are fixed ahead, her arms crossed though the fingers on her left hand are tapping in a steady rhythm to whatever is on the radio. "You've been reading every sign since we entered this state. Could you maybe stop?"

"Aww," his tone is too heavy with concern as he brings a hand to his chest, "am I annoying you?"

Dark eyes flash gold with annoyance and that left hand raises. A heaviness settles over the vehicle. Abidan stills, pulls away. The brightness in him flickers with fear for a moment. Her hand twitches, fingers pulling together.

"There." She settles back against her seat.

"Wh-what did you do?"

He's answered with a haughty smirk as she leans forward to turn up whatever country song is on the radio.

"Zee!" His fingers are white on the steering wheel. "What did you-"

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"The sky here is very large."

Zee said nothing as she lay beside him, letting the emotions recoil and bounce. Everything was more when he was drinking and the bars here were plenty.

"I wish I could get lost up there." His hand stroked across the space of velvet, stumbled against Orion's Belt, tripped and stalled on the Big Dipper. "I'd live in this one. I feel like it would be the most comfortable. You could stay in the Little Dipper."

"Hmm, thanks." She didn't like that he included her like she meant something.

She didn't like how that made her feel; wanted, needed. Zee wondered if Abidan realized at all what those little, thoughtless words meant. Did he realize the weight of a few drunken murmurings? Did he understand how much this feeling hurt her?

Warmth creeping between her fingers startled her. She'd been hit on by humans, she'd bedded humans, but she'd never-

And she... she liked it. She liked the way her skin felt like electricity where he touched; how it begged for more. She liked the hollow ache in her stomach and the odd warmth in her chest; the gentle breaking. Her blood raced through her veins as his soft human thumb rubbed clumsily against her skin. So innocent, so affectionately.

With hesitation her fingers wrapped around his own, her pale skin complimenting his dark. She'd always loved his complexion. The pink pads of his palms, the stunning white of his eyes against the brilliant bright hazel, not that she would admit it.

She could feel his gaze now. Her stupid human form was blushing? Preposterous.

"What?!"

He grinned, just as brilliantly as the brightness within him - the brilliance that called to her.

"If you wanted to hold my hand you could have just done it. You didn't need to hit that poor deer."

She scoffed, "The deer is fine and you're drunk."

"I'm not that drunk."

She knew that tone. Low, husky, guttural. Their eyes met. But it had never excited her before. Maybe that's why she lay there as the stars blinked and he moved in. Maybe that's why she rose - just barely - to meet him. She couldn't look away, she didn't want to. He was bathed in that amazing light and she wanted to touch it, just once. Just- Headlights flashed over them. Slowed. Didn't pass.

"That's the tow truck." She whispered.

"Of course it is." He grinned sarcastically, "because fuck me."

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Hope that was okay?

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