#youre telling me at 3am that you go to bed at 9pm on the dot and are a heavy sleeper than never gets less than 8 hours of sleep

[j-a-nuary]

My clients really be like

Client: [blatant lie about their own observable behavior]

Me: 🤨

Client: ... well... you know what I mean 🤭

[eliazspaceart]

After Work

[8pm]

It was already night, and you were still waiting for Dad to eat together, something you really liked because you could talk to him about things you learned in class or show him the drawings you made.

You were in the living room on the floor, drawing a sea bunny on a piece of paper with your new watercolors that Dad gave you for getting good grades.

"Just a few more dots, and done!" you say to yourself as you finish your lovely drawing.

You look at the clock and Dad hasn't come home yet, so you get up from the floor and look for a maid. You walk down the hallways with bare feet until you find one washing the bed sheets. You carefully touch her dress, and the maid stops her task and looks at you.

"Do you need something, dear?" the maid asked politely, and you nodded your head.

"When will my dad be back? I want to eat with him and show him my drawing," you asked in a low, soft voice, being shy about your question. The maid sighed a little, observed the time, and realized it was almost 9pm. She bent down to your level and patted you on the head.

"Be patient, dear. Your father will arrive soon. Remember, he works a lot and often comes home late," the maid explained to the child, who simply nodded.

[10pm]

The little one was still drawing and waiting patiently as the maid said, until the front door opened. The child got up and went to the door to greet his father.

"Dad!" he said, running towards him and giving him a hug.

Derek, a little tired, put his briefcase aside and picked up the child while walking towards the living room, where the paper and watercolors were scattered.

"It looks like my little artist was being creative," Derek said, holding the child and looking at his drawings.

"Yes, I made a lot of drawings while you were gone, Dad. I was waiting for you so we could eat together, like we always do," the child said excitedly, hugging Derek's neck.

On the other hand, Derek had a slightly sad expression. He felt bad for making the child wait just to eat and chat together.

"That's really thoughtful of you, dear, but I think it's better if you don't stay up and skip meals waiting for me," Derek said as he put the child down. "When you see that Dad is going to be late, eat regardless of whether I arrive late," he said, bending down to his level.

"But... I don't want to eat alone," the child said sadly, looking at the floor.

Derek sighed tiredly and said, "I know, I know, but Dad doesn't want you to go hungry while waiting for him, so just do me that favor, okay?" He patted the child's head, and you nodded obediently.

"Good, that's a good boy. Now tell me, what did the maid prepare for dinner?" he asked his son as Derek walked towards the stairs to go to his room and change clothes. You started to follow him. "Today, the maid made lasagna!" you smiled as you answered your dad. "Mmmh, lasagna, that doesn't sound too bad. I hope it tastes as good as it looks," he said, taking off his tie and shoes.

[A few minutes later]

Already at the large elegant table, the maid served you both your portions. Derek began to eat, just like you.

While eating, Derek started the usual chat. "So, tell me, did you do your homework and tasks?" he asked while eating the lasagna calmly. "Yep! Today I did my homework, read, and drew! Today I drew a sea bunny!" the child responded enthusiastically. "Sea bunny?" Derek asked, raising an eyebrow at his son. "Yes, I drew a sea bunny. It's my favorite animal," the child said, leaving the table to fetch his drawing to show his father. "I made a drawing of it," he handed him the papers. "Oh... It's quite cute and interesting," Derek said, looking at it and sighed. "Maybe I'll frame it and hang it in the house." The child just nodded, and they both continued talking and eating.

Here’s more about these two; I really forgot to put it on Tumblr. Writing this at 3am was something I just had to get down, hehe.

[suchawonderfullife]

First day at Hansa

What an amazing, inspiring, hopeful and challenging day I had. I was the first new patient to arrive at 8am, so an early start. People say that when you walk in you instantly feel calm and they weren’t wrong. We were greeted by very lovely staff who you can tell are incredibly professional in dealing with sick patients. They speak softly and have very calm energy. 

We were given a tour and the place is just immaculate, you can’t fault it. Beautiful decor, inspiring posters, the way they’ve done the colour schemes and organised furniture you can tell has all been deliberate in creating the best healing atmosphere. At the back is a large patients/carers lounge with chairs, tables and an outdoor area with beautiful green grass, a lake and swans (see in photo). 

My first stop was up on level 2, the CRT test. It’s where they test around 50 points in my body with a special piece of equipment to gauge its temperature. You have to wear special clothing, you’re not allowed to shower, eat certain foods or brush your teeth beforehand. Once every point has been tested you then stand still for 10 minutes as this affects your bodies core temperature and you are tested again. 

Once that was done I started my detox therapies before seeing my Dr. We did Behmer therapy and power plate. I could instantly feel both working (I can’t remember what they’re supposed to do), but my body was feeling weird and definitely responding. These went for 8 minutes and 5 minutes, so I’m glad they do things in short bursts to help the body recover. They also get you to drink this himilayan salt water whilst doing the behmer therapy and it’s digusting lol, but I drink it because it’s good for me! 

We then met with my Dr. He’s very friendly and easy to talk to. His first question was “so if you had a reverse christmas wish list, what are the symptoms you want to get rid of the most.” We went through as many promonant symptoms (ones I get on a daily basis), that I could think of. Things like nausea, fatigue, insomnia, memory loss, cognitive dysfunction, anger/mood swings, digestive problems, appetite fluctuations, constant dreaming when asleep, heart problems/arrythmia and more. He then broke them down further and asked when I experience them, how instense they are or how they affect my day to day living. It was nice that he just wrote them down and didn’t question anything I had to say. 

Talking about my arrythmia, which worries me. He showed me a diagram of the lympathic system and explained that if my lympathic system is blocked or sluggish, there is a large part of that that sits behind the heart and can affect the signals being sent to my heart, thus causing an arrythmia. Good to know. He pulled out my CRT results and we went through those. It was this interesting graph with every point that was tested, with little dots for before and after I did the 10 minute standing. Each dot was assigned different colours and there was a thick green line for where the dot SHOULD have ended (meaning it was the right temperature. If the second dots were grey that meant they were rigid (ie. the temperature did not change and this is the worst result, you don’t want that). If they were blue it meant the temp decreased and yellow meant it increased. You only want the temperature to shift up or down (depending on the part of the body it is) by 1 degree. This is my understanding of how I’ve remembered it anyway, I’m not being entirely accurate.

The graph was separated into sections, the first section being my head. I had 2 rigid spots on my right cheek, meaning they were completely cold (like dead) as nothing changed. He said that meant I had some sort of trauma to that part of my face. I said “the only thing I can think of is when I was 3 I was rocking on a slide, it tipped over and I smacked my face on a tree and took all the skin off the side of my face. I can’t remember which side that was though. What that sort of thing do it?” He said yes. Later I asked my mum if it was my right side and she confirmed it was. How crazy is that? He said that those parts of my face also connect to the lympathic system. 

The next part of the graph was the lymphatic system. This whole section was almost all entirely grey (rigid) so very very bad. I always thought I had something wrong with this part of my body. So it’ll be something major to work on. Going through everything, he pointed out that my lower teeth are pretty rigid (worse than my upper), my heart is in hyperregulation mode (increasing or decreasing far too much because it’s confused and doesn’t know what to do. This uses a lot of energy), my stomach is hyperregulating and possibly low on hydrochloric acid, I have liver issues, pancreas issues which means I experience being “hangry” (angry when hungry. I was like UM YES!!!), the parts of my intestines that are hyperregulating indicate food sensitivies and my kidneys are OK but a little cooler than normal. I also have problems with my reproductive system which indicates hormone imbalances.

It was so cool that he was saying all these things like “so this is hyperegulating which means you may experience symptoms such as.....” and he was spot on. We didn’t go through much else, except he talked about an EMF blocker necklace called Qlink Srt3. I was going to buy one years ago so he’s not the first person to mention this to me. He was wearing one and he had an EMF blocker phone cover that I’ve wanted to ask about too as Dr. Jernigan has mentioned it. So knowing that he’s wearing this EMF blocker necklace I wanted to buy was good indication to get one. He highly recommend that I do that. 

After our session I did more therapies. One’s called EMF, Lux, ST8, sauna and I had a 1 hour massage on a bio mat. I’m too tired to go into detail of what each therapy does, but the ladies who set it up for you explain everything before hand and they have information sheets there for you to read if I want to understand it better. ST8 is the weirdest though, that’s to work on your lympathic system and I instantly feel really lethargic, I can’t even lift my arms or move much when it’s on. Therapies range from 4 minutes to 1 hour depending on what it is. The sauna was only set to 130F so I was able to do a full 30 minutes. At home my sauna is 150F and I worked up to 18 minutes so I’m glad I worked on that for the last 9 months so I can tolerate it better. 

When I got home at 430pm I was feeling energised and pumped. I had a shower and was chatting away. But within 2 hours I deteriorated and became so incredibly fatigued I felt like a lifeless zombie on the couch. I fell asleep on the couch and woke up startled from a bad dream. So I took myself to bed at 9pm (very early for me) and slept until 1130pm waking up 3 times between that with really messed up dreams. I then couldn’t fall back asleep until 3am and proceeded to struggle with a lot of angry, mood swings and distorted thinking (very normal for me with lyme and detoxing as I have so much of it in my brain). So I woke my partner up just to pick a fight with him because I was so angry about a bunch of stuff my brain decided was super important. I also burst into tears just releasing my emotions of fear for what’s to come as day 2 is all about working out the top 10 things that are wrong with you and creating herbals to work on those. Detoxing last night I was getting liver and spleen pain, bone pain and the crazy mood swings, so adding in the harder stuff was a little confronting. 

I told my Dr about  my craziness today (day 2) and luckily he just nodded and said “yup that’s normal.” Now I’m on day 2 and will update that shortly.