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abimee · 4 months ago

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like ive absolutely been aggressive because bipolar literally makes me unable to regulate my mood. ive both cried my eyes out over something that didnt matter and also shoved someone hard into a wall (i was in school) over something small because of my mood disorder. ive absolutely acted entitled because of my mood disorder and i to this day struggle with extremely entitled thoughts due to a delusion of grandeur in my life that if i openly talked about everyone would greatly dislike me because the thoughts are so painfully and severely Me Me Me Me all about Me. bipolar disorder is MOOD disorder that EFFECTS EVERY ASPECT OF YOUR LIFE so im sorry but if you want to be a better advocate you'll have to accept that the person with BD acting weird in public or who punched someone was under the effects of an episode and not try to disarm bipolar disorder to make it appetizing to the people who demonize us. because playing into the ''our disorder isnt bad were Good People Smile Emoji'' is what gets people who Dont act good during their episodes killed or jailed

#i dont trust anybody to speak for me if they want to ignore that there is always a slight chance that i can harm them #because guess what people everyone around you is at a baseline chance of harming you #your partner who loves you so much isnt at 0% chance of harming you. they are at all times at a chance of harming you #your parents your best friends your lovers are all at a baseline chance of harming you #so why do i have to put in more work to assure you im at a 0% chance of harming you when the people around you dont #and you just automatically give them the benefit of believing they wont harm you/that the low chance is good enough for you #but i have to be at absolutely 0% chance for you to feel safe around me. when youre more likely to be hit by your partner than me

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