#you're seeing this again because tumblr flaked and i ended up putting this in the wrong place in the reblog chain

[hussyknee]

If you had actually been paying attention to Gaza instead of using them for your own fuckwitted agenda you would know that they've been telling us to fucking stop participating in this Western grift of "humanitarian aid" when nothing can get through the blockades and all they have to get all of this to stop is to call a ceasefire. It is utterly depraved to offer """aid""" especially via donations when the US is sending BILLIONS to Israel to continue dropping a quantity of bombs twice the size of Hiroshima. They do not have food or water because not only did Israel pour concrete in the wells and cut off water and electricity but they're bombing the remaining stores of grain and solar panels and fishing boats. They have nothing to eat or drink and Biden's not even pushing for that "'''''humanitarian pause""""" let alone ceasefire and there's no way you could get enough aid for two million people with tens of thousands gravely injured to them even if the blockades opened tomorrow. In fact Gazans on social media screaming for help while death rains from the skies keep seeing posts for useless donations (so that they can be blown up in comfort I guess) like some kind of sick joke and it's rightfully starting to make them hate us. So fucking stop using people who are actively being genocided by your country for whatever petty asshole fandom clown discourse you're fixated on and get out there AND PROTEST FOR A GODDAMN CEASEFIRE.

This entire fandom discourse from BOTH ENDS is just a self-serving grift. Black and brown lives are mere props for all of you to use and ignore whenever you feel like it, rather than real, entire suffering human beings.

can i be real? i think ao3 should die for doing a donation pool for themselves with everything going on

[jrueships]

any wip updates or are you busy?? :(

OH GOD... ASKING ME ABOUT MY WIPS... YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GONNA SEE NEXT

i DO have SOME!!! updates.. So I actually finished and cleaned up some of the wipes I had (spida!donovan fic being one of them), but im also very stupid and self conscious so i thought it was stupid and it’s just sitting in my docs now unposted LMFAO… love my life.     

   I wrote some more on the jaylen x Donovan fic where jaylen and Donovan both saw each other depression brooding late at night at the store (i should’ve had Giannis surprise cameo there like.. cheerfully pushing a grocery cart around and going ‘wow!! Shopping late at night in the grocery store is so peaceful <3!’ While donovan And jaylen are in going through the nine gates of hell). Basically jaylen treats Donovan out to a hotel where they sad make out to help each other feel better and cuddle themselves to sleep. Haven’t written the ending yet but they basically both wake up and go ‘that was our cringe era. Never speak of this again’ and flake out the hotel let the two nonhomosexuals they’re trying to be. And the Dennis luka fic was going so well until I realized i’d have to write and or mention the word bootyhole/anus, so i gave up — naturally. Same roadblock that came up with the pg/kawhi redacted fic like… the [redacted] thoughts be so easy to have but then having to put them on paper really just serves as a sign telling you how mental you really are LMAO im hoping one day the power of horny will get me over that threshold but for now… roadblocks remain  

And then I started a few more wips that i ALSO won’t end up posting as fics because i am STOOPID and WEEK and they’re literally All rarepair fics… like. I think kyle/demar and pg/kawhi are some of the only like.. Bigger ships I’ve written for ?? Weird as hell!  But anyways,  here's some pics of a Fultz/fox draft.. it's kinda long and tumblr kept Buggin when I tried to send it so here's pics of the wip?? lmao?

The other wip I had was a Keldon/Ant one! They’re both knights in the medieval ages serving their respective Households! Ill talk about it more later with another ask I have, but it ends with them having to kill each other in a final joust or whatever lol

Another one is a kris dunn x Rolo fic because im a cycle path and to make sure y’all know that fr fr, it’s a redacted fic lol,, also gonna talk about that more in ANOTHER ask ,,,

I have MORE but like,,, they’re,, odd. I may add onto this post to talk about them, but yeah.. basically they’re more rarepair fics that, even if finished, probably won’t see the light of day SO, YEAH! THIS IS THEM ! Sorry the text in the pics are so small.. idk it's kinda honophobic

[silversweetpea]

Oh honey- I wasn't thinking about when you would start putting out writing again -I adore your writing, but when I saw you were back, it didn't even cross my mind-, I was worried about you. The last time you left this long it was because something emotionally taxing was going on (and I see why you left on that post you made earlier) and I just wanted to make sure you were ok!

I figured you might need to unclench your jaw because you often remind me to do it and you've been right every time. 😅

Plus, I figured it's a stressful time and the reminder couldn't hurt, even if it ended up being unnecessary.

You don't have to apologize for 'flaking' on your blog or for not knowing what to do with your emotions (God knows I have no idea how to work with them), just take your time and do whatever feels right, as long as not like, self-destructive or anything. If that means staying away, then stay away (though, if you're going to leave for a long time and you know in advance maybe drop a little note or heads up, if you want?), if it means using Tumblr only to reblog things you like, then that's cool too!

I hope you're talking to someone about this or something that would help you manage this, I don't want you to internalize it or anything that would be detrimental to your emotional/mental health (I have no idea how that works, but I don't know, it sounds bad).

I'm torn between asking this or not because I don't want to pressure you, but did you ever get my last ask before you left? It's pretty long so I understand if you're not up to answering it right now, but I also know Tumblr is Tumblr and it might not have even reached your inbox, so I figured it wouldn't hurt to ask? Anyways, if you didn't get it let me know and I can always resend. If you did and just don't want to answer it yet, you're good, no pressure, love!

I appreciate that I wasn't sure so I figured I'd answer both just in case. It's definetly a lot still right now but it comes in waves and I'm almost able to get my head over the water again so here's hoping.

You know that makes sense and consider this uour reminder to unclench your jaw!!! And go drink your water!!! Go eat if you haven't yet!!! Take care of yourself!!!

You don't need to worry about the self destructive thoughts or bottling things up too much dear I have a therapist I've been seeing for a while who is great and I've been able to warn my support group around me of potential triggers or red flags so to speak so even when I'm not feeling quite right I've got people looking out for me.

You don't have to worry about tumblr being the problem site that it is this time either I have your ask in my inbox still it's just that right now I'm doing most of my tumblr work from my phone and your asks are more of a laptop situation (which I absolutely adore)