#you will either grow out of it or trans ur gender

[isuggestforcemasc]

Thought of you guys

[pedropascallme]

HIII ok i adored ur Jim fic i love him SOO BADDDD WAHHH !!!! i was wondering if i could request a Jim smut of some kind??? i’m a trans man so i would love an afab reader w gender neutral/masc pronouns but of course only whatever ur comfy w:) and if u don’t wanna do that anything else jim related pls i love him SOOOO BADDD!!!! okay sorry for the huge block of text ily and ur work is god tier bro.

The New Normal

Pairing: Jim x gn!afab!Reader

Summary: "You felt the sudden urge to kiss him, to grab him and pull him close to you, tell him to join you in the shower. "

Warnings: SMUT (18+ MINORS DNI), oral (m & f receiving), fingering, p in v sex, praise kink, kinda almost soft!dom Jim? Reader is AFAB but no use of gendered pronouns, uhhh brief allusion to 9/11 blink and you'll miss it, if I missed anything please let me know!

AN: Max NEVER apologize for asking for Jim smut I am ALWAYS looking for a reason to write Jim smut. Also forgive the cross tagging but the only way I will ever reach other Cillian sluts is if I use the Thomas Shelby tag.

America was different than you’d expected it to be.

In the shows and movies, there wasn’t much diversity; either you were on a farm, or you were in the big city. The speech patterns were always overdramatized, too, and when you first reached the McGuire base in New Jersey, you were a bit disappointed when nobody shouted that “they were walkin’ he-ya!” Even more disappointed when you reached Brooklyn and were told that the accent was of a dying variety.

But in the grand scheme of things, it was so…normal. It was England before the outbreak, but with smaller busses and slower trains. You didn’t really know how to feel about it, about how the rest of the world carried on so unconcerned while the island you grew up in fell to pieces. In a way, relieved, but a small part of you felt almost offended that nobody was holding constant vigils.

What offended you more, though, was the realization that the process of being granted asylum was not something that happened quickly. While you were appreciative to Hannah’s distant cousins who had agreed to sponsor you while you awaited the business to be over—which could take years, you’d learned—you were nauseated that you still had to prove yourself in order to be allowed to stay. The lawyers, doctors, soldiers, and judges you’d met with explained that the process would go smoothly, that it was something that had to be done, not due to the nature of the thing you were escaping, but due to those who might abuse any leniency the country showed.

The world really hadn’t changed at all.

~~~

“Finished already?” You hummed at Jim when he walked through the door. Hannah’s family had taken you all shopping when you first arrived—a relief, really, to be able to change out of the fatigues the air force had given you—and Jim, despite his usual attire being casual, at best, looked so…handsome, now, with his skin not caked in blood, or dirt, or sweat. His hair was growing back in and he was wearing jeans that actually fit him. His shirt read “I<3NY” and even though you told him it looked ridiculous when he had first picked it up, you couldn’t deny that it hugged his arms in the right places.

“Not much to be done. You stitched me up so well.” He smiled at you, crossing the apartment to join you on the couch. “Doctor said he’d like to meet you.”

“I’ve met too many people this month.” You curled your legs up under you and stretched your arms over your head. “Never thought I’d say it, but I miss the apocalypse.” You leaned your head back.

Jim exhaled through his nose, amused, leaning himself back on the couch to face you. “No, you don’t.”

“I don’t,” You agreed, “It’s just…”

“Too much, too soon.”

“I guess.” You stared at each other for a while, not moving, not speaking. “I wish I could fast forward.” Jim tilted his head into the cushion he was leaning on, prompting you to continue. “I want to be used to it by now. Wanna be able to walk down the street and see a missing poster and still have hope.” You shuddered when you remembered the posters plastered on the train station walls, how familiar one disaster could feel when compared to another. “I want to feel normal. Everything here is so normal. Why am I not normal yet?” You didn’t have the energy to continue pouring over your emotions, perfectly fine with leaving it on that note.

“You’re not normal.” Jim leaned forward. “Neither am I. Neither is Hannah—s’got nothing to do with—” He waved around the two of you, implying the ordeal you’d lived through. You nodded in agreement. “And we’ll never be their kind of normal. Might just be ‘cause we’re English. Heard they had a war with us here, way back.” Jim deadpanned, and you smiled at him.

“I think I just need a shower.” You sighed, still looking at him. You felt the sudden urge to kiss him, to grab him and pull him close to you, tell him to join you in the shower. You felt your skin flush at the thought. You hadn’t been able to do much of anything but go to different meetings since you got here. One after another, it had made it difficult to find time for yourself, let alone time for you and Jim. Stolen kisses here and there, cuddles under the sheets of your bed, calling out “I love you” before the door closed behind you—there had been no time to enjoy each other.

Not to mention, you lived in a rented apartment with thin walls, and Hannah’s room was next to yours.

You hesitated to get up, and Jim sensed your delay. He brought a hand up to your hair, petting you.

“Hannah’s gone for the night. Sleepover.” You muttered, trying to be sly instead of asking for anything outright. Jim cocked a brow in jest.

“Just us, then?”

“Just us.” You confirmed. Tension formed between the two of you, and you swallowed.

“We can—can I join you in the shower?” His words were rushed, and he looked down when he spoke, only looking back up at you to gage your reaction once the question was complete. “You can say n—”

“Yes.” You felt breathless.

~~~

It was almost laughable, the two of you getting undressed together. It wasn’t out of the ordinary, a shared bedroom holds plenty of space for two people to dress and undress in front of each other, but the expectation made all the difference. Jim’s “I<3NY” shirt was now discarded on the floor, his jeans unbuttoned as he helped you out of your own outfit. Your mouth fell open slightly when he peeled your shirt off of you, the feeling of his hands leaving a warm trail over your sides and a wet feeling between your legs. You reached for the waistband of his jeans, looping your fingers over the denim and into the boxers he wore underneath and beginning to pull down. He laughed quietly as he watched you struggle to move them down his waist.

“Don’t have to do all the work.” He placed his hands over yours and helped you remove his clothes. In turn, he found the button of your jeans and quickly undid them, letting you pull down the tight material and exposing yourself to him. All that remained were your panties, and Jim let out a low whistle when he reached out to brush the lace with his knuckles. “Pretty baby.”

You pushed against his chest lightly. “Shower.” You reminded him, but at this point it didn’t really matter to you. You whined slightly when his hand fell lower over your sex, nearly cupping you.

“Got all night.” He pulled down the remaining fabric, leaving you completely naked for him. And that’s how you felt—naked. Almost scared, as if now that your underwear was off and you were stripped completely, he would reconsider and not want this anymore—not want you anymore. You realized how stupid that sounded when Jim stood up at eye-level, grinning at you. You looked at him sheepishly as you stepped out of the panties pooled at your feet and toward him. You reached out to trace what remained of the wound on his abdomen, letting your fingers kiss the spots you hoped to eventually place your mouth on.

Suddenly you were in his arms, swooped up bridal style as he walked you into the bathroom. You heard yourself laugh nervously, and you buried your face into his neck. Feeling bold, you licked a stripe up to his pulse point, and he shuddered.

“Don’t wanna drop you.” He protested your action, but he lifted his head slightly to allow you better access. You did it again, letting your tongue linger and drift to his earlobe, nipping at it, feeling more and more comfortable with each step Jim took. He sighed dreamily, then placed you down on your feet next to the tub. He turned the handle, pulling the curtain back and taking your hand to guide you under the water. You all but pulled him in after you, and though he stumbled at first, he found his footing right in front of you. You watched the way the water seemed the frame his face; droplets running down his cheekbones and off of his chin. You kissed him, letting the water fall over your face, tasting it when you opened your mouth to welcome his tongue. You sighed into his mouth, a perfect combination of his taste and that of the water settling on your taste buds, and it went straight to your core. He leaned away from you, wrapping an arm around your waist and examining how the water matched the curve of your breasts. He kissed your chest, sucking on the skin just enough to make faint spots appear. You combed your fingers through his hair, closing your eyes.

“Normally,” He licked over what would soon become a dark purple spot, “I use the shower to wash up—reflect, sometimes.” He kissed his way up your chest and neck before straightening himself out and kissing your nose. “This is a much better use of my time.” You rolled your eyes, putting gentle pressure on his neck to encourage him to lean down and kiss you. He pulled you tighter to him, and you could feel his erection against your thigh. He pushed against you, enjoying the bit of friction you provided him, and you heard him grunt quietly. His hands found purchase on your ass, squeezing the flesh gently and using the angle to draw you even closer.

“Y’know—oh!” You were cut off by an especially hard squeeze as Jim’s hands continued to roam over your ass, “I do need—I need to wash my hair…”

“Tomorrow.” Was all Jim said, reaching between your bodies to place his cock where your stomach met his crotch. You gasped at the heavy feeling of him against you, and your own hand made its way down to grab hold of him. Jim choked on his own breath, eyes fluttering shut when you began to move your wrist up and down his length. Out of curiosity, you looked down to watch your ministrations, wanting to fully enjoy the view that you had so desperately craved for so long. His cock was long, and you could see and feel the veins that ran up the extent of his shaft to the pink of his tip. You moaned quietly at the sight, hoping Jim didn’t think you pathetic for the pleasure you got out of stroking him. His mouth agape, he shut his eyes tight, trying not to think about how good your hand felt. You kneeled before him, and planted a kiss on his head, licking a stripe over him.

“O—h,” he was panting, “Fuck, baby.” You watched his chest rise and fall dramatically as you took his tip between your lips, swiping your tongue over and around it a few times before beginning to inch the rest of him inside of your mouth. You moved your head up and down, gagging slightly when you felt the pressure of holding him too deep for too long against the back of your throat. “Oh, fu—yeah, that’s it. Good, baby, so good.” You hummed in appreciation of his praise, the vibrations making him bite his lip and furrow his brow in concentration, desperately trying to ward off his high before he had gotten to explore you fully. You pulled your mouth off of his cock with a pop that softly echoed in the shower, and he watched as you planted more kisses along him.

He grabbed your chin and tilted your head up to look at him. The vision in front of you made you feel dizzy; Jim breathing hard, cock bobbing against his stomach, wet from your spit and from the shower, hair falling over his ears, draped in a blanket of water. You rubbed your thighs together, now pruned hand resting on his knee for, what? Permission, maybe?

Jim helped you up from the floor, and you watched him turn the shower handle. In the brief moment before the water stopped completely, it turned freezing cold, and you felt goosebumps erupt over you. You brought yourself closer to Jim, both in an attempt to find warmth and in a silent plea that he continue what had begun in the shower.

Dripping wet—in more ways than one—you found yourself back in your bedroom. Lying on your back, Jim looked over you, then began kissing over the marks he had made on you in the shower. You whimpered, a hand finding his hair and lacing your fingers through his short locks. You pulled slightly when his lips wrapped around one of your nipples, and he groaned in pleasure at the sensation. His hand slowly traced down your stomach, fingers delicately finding their way to your clit before pressing on it lightly.

“Jim—!” Your exclamation motivated him to continue. He sat up a bit, kneading your bud with one hand and holding your cheek in another, holding eye contact as he slid one finger into your soaking wet center. You threw your head back, only then realizing that you hadn’t even had the time to pleasure yourself in God only knows how long. He curled his finger upwards, and your back arched into him. He smirked, clearly proud of what he was doing to you. He shuffled backwards on the bed, still pumping a finger in and out of you while he positioned himself between your legs. You felt the mattress shift under his weight when he straightened himself out onto his stomach, propped up with one elbow.

“So pretty.” You felt his breath fanning over your cunt, and you squirmed. Jim leaned into you, kissing your inner thighs while you wiggled your hips in an attempt to get his attention where you needed it the most. When he finally licked a lazy stripe over your clit, you let out an absentminded sigh, pushing yourself up to him in encouragement. He removed his finger from you, and you whined at the sudden empty feeling, though he immediately made up for the absence of his fingers with his tongue. He continued to lap at you, letting your slick coat his chin, nose brushing your clit. He sucked lightly on your bud, and your hands found his hair again, not sure if you wanted to push him in further, let him taste you until you screamed, or push him away, as your thighs began to tremble. He slid two fingers back into you and twisted them back and forth while his tongue darted over your clit. You squeezed his fingers, moans spilling from your mouth.

“C’mon baby, so good,” he removed his mouth from your core to coo at you, “wanna see you cum for me.” It was whispered into your skin, and you felt his words echo through your body. His lips found their place over your clit once more, and he sucked harder, fingers pumping in and out of you faster.

“Oh, ye—yes, like that, like that, please!” You couldn’t stop talking, couldn’t stop begging if you tried. Had falling over the edge always felt this good? You didn’t stop to ponder it, busy feeling your body fall victim to the pleasure Jim was gifting you. You moaned, trying to grab at the man who had buried himself between your legs, but he was fully content to stay where he was until he knew you’d ridden out your orgasm. You cried out his name, back arching, body granting him even more access to your pussy, and when you felt him moan at the taste of you, you came hard for him. He placed soft kisses over your cunt, and you couldn’t help the moan you let out when he began pulling his fingers out of you.

You were still panting when he kissed you. Your arms came to rest around his neck, breathing heavily through your nose as you slipped your tongue into his mouth. “Taste so good,” Jim was also clearly short of breath, “you taste that, baby?” His lips found yours again, and he let you suck gently on his tongue, let you taste yourself on him. You shivered; it felt so dirty, Jim still damp with your wet, encouraging you to enjoy the taste your cum had left on him, dipping his tongue deep into your eager mouth and speaking to you like you belonged to him.

You did belong to him, and the thought made your eyes roll back into your head.  

He pulled you into his arms, flipping over so that you were lying on top of him. You found the strength to push yourself up, hands planted on his chest, to straddle him. The feeling of his cock between your legs, still hard, and all for you, made you feel frantic, and you began to roll your hips over him, feeling him tense under you.

“That’s right,” he watched you with hooded eyes, “so eager.”

“Want you to fuck me.” You felt the tip of his cock push between your folds after one especially long roll of your hips, and you didn’t care if you looked pathetic anymore. You’d waited long enough; been so good, so ignorant of the forbidden fruit. One taste, and now you were helpless—completely at his mercy.

“God, say it again.”

“I want you to fuck me, Jim. Please.” You licked your lips before slipping the bottom one between your teeth. His eyes flitted over you, taking in the way you were begging, the way you sat bare, eagerly waiting for his cock. How had he let so much time pass before giving you what you both needed? He lifted you by the waist, encouraging you to stay kneeling above him slightly as he reached another hand down to line himself up with you. The split second before you lowered yourself down onto him felt like forever, but he watched, in awe of you, as you lowered yourself down onto him. You moaned for him when you felt his tip breach your hole, reaching for his chest and grasping at nothing while you continued to take him, inch by inch. You heard him groan out your name, breath going uneven when he finally bottomed out. You stayed like that for a moment, both of you in a trance-like state: You breathed in sync, gazing at each other, smiling like morons.

“I love you.” Jim whispered, placing a hand on your hip and squeezing. You leaned forward, steadying yourself on his shoulders.

“I love you.” You kissed him again, gentler, slower than the previous times. You did have all night—you had a lifetime of all nights with each other.

You began rocking back and forth slowly, allowing yourself time to adjust to the size of him, the feeling of being so full. You felt the tip of his cock brush against your g-spot almost immediately, making you gasp as you chased the feeling of his head nudging you closer to another high.

“God—fuck, you feel so good.” Jim praised, reaching the hand that wasn’t on your hip up to squeeze at your breasts. He licked his finger before bringing it back up, pinching your nipple and rolling over it with his thumb and forefinger. You moaned, back arching, and you started to bounce up and down on him. Your nails dug into the skin on his shoulders, but he didn’t seem to care, too busy bucking up into your cunt, drunk off the feeling of your juices dripping down his length and over his balls.

He moved both his hands over your hips, his fingers digging into the flesh of your curves, guiding your movements while you rode him.

“Cum for me again, baby. So good for me, one more time.” He started fucking up into you harder, the sweet noises you made spurring him on. “You can do it, yeah? So good—fuck—so good for me.” Now he was practically begging, slamming you down onto his cock while he pushed you towards another orgasm.

“I—oh, fuck, me, yes! Like that, Jim—yes!” You fell forward, curling yourself up on his chest and bringing your knees up slightly higher next to his ribs to allow him more ease, lifting you up and down. You mumbled incoherently into his neck, licking and kissing and nipping at him while he continued with deep, hard thrusts. You sucked a mark on his neck, and he groaned out your name, one hand coming down over your clit to coax a second orgasm from you.

“Fucking—oh, cum for me, baby. Cum on me like this.” And maybe it was the way you felt his fingers pushing bruises into your skin, or the way he breathlessly demanded you commit such a filthy act, or the way he seemed to be getting just as much enjoyment out of your pleasure as you were; but when you felt his cock pushed forcefully against your g-spot in time with the way he played with you clit, you couldn’t stop the scream that erupted from your lungs, or the way you chanted his name through sobs of pleasure. You clenched around him, squirming and sensitive and so full of his cock. You saw stars, saw how every second of your life had led to this moment, and when the shockwave of pleasure coursed through your body, all you could do was thank the man who had made you feel so good.

“Fu—ck, oh my god,” Jim groaned through clenched teeth, trying to delay his own orgasm so he could enjoy the way you squeezed him for as long as he could. He practically threw you down onto his cock, forcing himself as deep as you’d let him go, and at that moment, the only word that mattered to him was your name. “Where—where can I cum? Tell me, baby, where?” He was gasping, so close to the edge.

“Inside. Please, Jim, want it inside.” You knew it was reckless, knew you’d have to buy a pill later, but the pros far outweighed the cons.

Your words were all it took to send Jim hurtling over the precipice. He pushed himself deep into your cunt, painting your walls with his spend, both of you shivering at the feeling. You moaned quietly into his skin, and Jim wheezed as he took gulping breaths in an attempt to regulate his breathing. You felt his hand come to rest on your back, stroking up and down, the other coming up to your hair, tempting you out of your hiding spot, nuzzled in his neck.

“Ok?” He breathed.

“Mm.” You hummed, rubbing your cheek against his, comforted by the way your faces squished together. “More than ok.”

“I should’ve—I didn’t want you to feel, I d’know—” He couldn’t think of the right words. “I love you. Just wanted you to feel how much I love you.”

You smiled, fucked out and sleepy and satisfied. “You did a good job,” you kissed him, “did I?”

“More than good.” He smiled, throwing your own words back at you in reassurance.

“Will you stay inside a little longer?” You whispered, still relishing in the way he filled you up.

“God, yes,” Jim almost laughed, “don’t have to ask.” You ran your thumb over his cheek, eyelids heavy.

“Is this the new normal?” You posed the question, remembering your earlier rant.

“Yeah. Think so.” Jim splayed his hand out over your back.

“Good.”

[fizzy-tizzy]

Headcanons for all the survivors gender/sexuality

Wilson- Just Kinda decided he was gonna be a boy when he was like 8 and his dad was so desperate for an heir that didn’t want him dead to rights he just kinda let it happen. would fuck anyone but at the same time is not interested at all

Willow- Butch-ish but more in a tomboy kinda way. genuinely likes wearing skirts and more feminine clothing but doesn’t really think she deserves to? if that makes sense? (She doesn’t really feel like a genuine legit girl) hardcore lesbian.

Wolfgang- Very traditionally masculine but in the “My job is to protect and take care of everyone” and not the “im a man so I can do whatever I want” type way. Gay but could totally be in a lavender relationship/marriage and have no problems w/ it

WX-78- Born a cis female, figured out early on that wasn’t right but couldn’t change it until they were an adult. Transed their gender but then figured out being a male wasn’t right either. eventually found someone who felt similarly and abandoned their flesh for the machine. solidly aroace. they’re triple a (agender, asexual, aromantic) just like batteries

Wickerbottom- cis female and “traditionally” feminine, has never felt the need to explore or question it. Used to be married to a man who was secretly gay and looking for someone similarly emotionally unavailable. He has since passed but left wicker a small fortune so. alls well that ends well ig

Wes- kind of a stereotypical femme twink. The kinda gay whos loud and proud and will hit you with a brick if you have a problem with that. feels obligated to help the others try and figure themselves out- esp the ones who are more in denial abt it

Maxwell- I think the idea that max is trans and Jack is cis and they turned out looking the exact same is hilarious. Technically the only ppl who knows he’s trans are jack and charlie- their parents just think he’s a masculine woman and everyone else knows him as a man. Bi and so so weak for bears and gently bossy women.

Wendy- Non-binary but still in the process of realizing it. Does not give a single shit abt romance but would totally be qpp with Webber once they know what that means.

Woodie- Probably Not Cis but has too much religious trauma to even dare questioning himself. He’s like JUST accepted the fact that he’s gay (still thinks hes going straight to hell but we’re working on that) so ynknow baby steps. baby steps. Deffo has a shit ton of body dysphoria due to the wereforms tho

Webber- Since spiders work a lil different in the constant (probably more like bees) there are like three genders Webber could potentially see themselves as. Drone, warrior, and queen. During his childhood he thinks of himself mostly as a drone but as he gets older and his sway over the spiders increases they’ll shift into seeing themselves as more of a queen. But other that he’s pretty much whatever non-spider gender is most convenient. Definitely bi.

Wigfrid- her gender is… strange. What she outwardly presents is her character’s way of presenting herself so ig I see her as kinda fluid? Idk valiant-valkyrie if ur reading this you can probably do a better job of explaining it. you are the defacto wigfrid authority. Definitely lesbian but once again will do whatever the role requires

Winona- Solidly butch lesbian. Definitely a caretaker and a protector but in the butch kinda way and not the femme kinda way. if that makes sense.

Wurt- Butch but hasn’t really realized it yet. does not think human genders apply to her bcs she’s a merm and will 100% be king when she grows up. baby lesbiab. her and wilba’s eventual union shall bring peace to the pig/merm kingdoms once and for all

Wortox- human genders do not apply to him. They are whatever is most convenient at the time. Fluid like loki and bugs bunny.

Walter- if xenogenders existed back then he would totally be like pupgender/buggender. Non-binary but has no problem being called a boy/man. Would be fine with any prns but people have only ever used he/him for him. Probably going to be a monsterf*cker when he grows up.

Wormwood- He is plant. Plants have sexes but no genders and wormwood is intersex anyway but they kinda just chose the first option presented to him once he found the others. Loves all but has absolutely no interest or idea about non-plant reproductive activities.

Walani- Yknow that “as a girl who’s a gross dude men who are fancy ladies are my best friends”? Yeah that’s her and Warly. she’s the emotional support golden retriever to warly’s high-strung cheetah. Lesbian but like. endearingly loser lesbian who’s only ever smooth when she’s not trying to be.

Warly- as mentioned before he is very much a guy who is a fancy lady. Would probably do drag if he had the chance and would 100% be the baddest bitch who makes all the men question their sexuality. Gay and european.

Wanda- doesn’t have time for all that gender questioning bullshit she just wants to kiss women.

Wheeler- Solid futch, leans more feminine or masculine depending on the situation. Woman-leaning bisexual, has probably fucked someone wife and inadvertently caused a divorce.

Woodlegs- pretty solidly cis male but 100% an embarrassing old gay grandpa. Doesn’t know much abt the terminology but is incredibly supportive and was definitely a homewrecker back in the day. Probably got out of at least one arrest by seducing the naval officer meant to bring him in

Wilba- high femme and definitely a baby lesbian. I do really like the idea of her being trans just because why not so why not. She and wurt are fat femme x fat butch once they grow up

Wagstaff- born as a girl but realized he hated it and made attempts to transition early on. Eventually ran away to America to fully transition. Non-binary too but hasn’t realized it yet and just thinks that everyone feels weird when someone calls them mr or sir. men-liker and old man yaoi certified

Wilbur- yes I’m doing the monkey. Gender is a strange concept to him, so he just kinda calls himself male bcs apparently he is? He doesn’t really understand it but it seems to be pretty important in human society so he’ll do it if it means he gets respected as an actual person and not just some sideshow.

[strawberriesshi]

fuck it. enstars gender/sexuality headcanons (and some others) for fun. long post so under cut

eichi - sick ill cis gay man both mentally and physically wataru - whatever's funniest or suits the role he's playing tori - i could not tell u honestly if hes just gnc cis or transfem. shes just silly mean rich. yuzuru - not straight but he has to be tori's butler so its not important to him rn

hokuto - "dressed as a girl to disguise himself as a kid" yeah right happyele thats a trans autistic gay theatre boy subaru - cis and pan, adhd probably makoto - somewhere on the arospec me thinks. also autism mao - transfem mao is real to me idc once she stops overworking and has free time that egg's exploding tetora - trans male. manliest man of them all and we love him for it. t lets go. bi probably. midori - shes transfem like girl why u hate getting tall so much...also autistic as all hell shinobu - cis, he's unlabelled with his sexuality but its not that important to him rn and guess what autism to u too chiaki - cis pan guy, though he wont really care if u get his gender wrong kanata - fish more important than gender or sexuality. hes kanata. hiiro - transmasc, but also i do fw the transfem hiiro headcanons. i think he's aroace too actually. also autistic as all hell aira - if uve ever known me u know im the no.1 trans girl aira truther. she's so fucking ASEDRFVBNILJ and also shes bi and because im autistic shes autistic :3 mayoi - gender and sexuality is an enigma to both me and themself tatsumi - used to be cis tatsumi but saw a really good transfem tatsumi fic and now i cant see her as cis. i think hes amab but is somewhere in gender soup hell

nagisa - aroace, agenders, autistic, its racking up the a's hiyori - annoying gnc cisgender gay, like SLAYYYYYY characters, will be a girl if feeling silly ibara - estrogen could def fix this trans woman jun - he likes men for sure. cis or transmasc either works. shu - transfem nonbinary shu lets gooooooo. i dont think she'd label her sexuality, though i def think shes demiromantic mika - transmasc but like. in a he/they girly way if it makes sense? he loves girly things and feminine stuff but like, doesnt wanna be one yknow? also lesbian

hinata - bigender. i mean come on she already switches up her gender in canon when its funny yuuta - nonbinary gay fr!! growing out their hair did things. also i think itd be funny if hinata had adhd and yuuta had autism for adhd vs autism twins

rinne - annoying ass gay ass FA- himeru - dumbass tried to identity theft without realising theyve gotta be a man when theyre agender kohaku: yeah u already know what im abt to say. transfem lesbian kohaku. nikki: could not tell u abt the gender honestly but hes gay with horrible tastes in men (rinne) rei - nonbinary transfem they/she vampire bitch. lesbian prob. like to think she was a lot more confident in herself pre-war and those close to them helped them to regain that confidence post-war kaoru - girl why u hate men so much if ur not a trans girl. come on u look like a girl in canon. ur a lesbian in denial. well at least in ! era she comes out some point in !! era and transitions confident in herself :3 koga - i cant tell you if hes cis, transmasc and dont even get me started on sexuality all i know is that he likes men and is a furry adonis - i think he's unlabelled with both sexuality and gender, he doesnt care all that much and we love him for it tomoya - obvious cis gay who says hes cishet what else is new nazuna - transmasc :D ex valk's gender is fucked. likes guys prob mitsuru - i could not tell you his, he likes bread and probably all genders hajime - gnc cis fr! a pretty pansexual too :3 keito - pathetic cisboy gay kuro - hes also cisboy gay but not at all pathetic souma - cis but gnc, he embraces his feminine side and we love it. probably unlabelled with sexuality hes got more important things tsukasa - amab who drank the genderfluid but is too stupid to realise it. also autistic as SHIT leo - whats up with knights' kings and being genderfluid because this guy is too. also lesbian and has adhd izumi - she is transfem idc will die on this hill transfem sena is always on the mind its crazy. i think shes lesbian btw or at least chooses to label her sexuality that way ritsu - bigender as fuck. unlabelled with sexuality she'll like whatever maa-kun identifies as. arashi - we all know it, canon trans girl bi <3

natsume - afab but is now transmasc agender. cool with anything BUT she/her it will riot against u. tsumugi - cisboy awful and pathetic gay sora - hes sora and thats all thats important to him, autism too btw madara - i dont think he'd label anything abt himself hes just mama and we love him esu - i think hes cis gnc. sexuality hes still figuring out rn kanna - hes 12 he can figure it out later yume - yeah yume is transfem we all knew it our bitchy lil princess :3 raika - sewer rat whos probably questioning their gender and sexuality. likes women though. ibuki - nonbinary (tm), probably like men Jin - beer enjoying gay, cross dresses if funny Akiomi - in denial abt being gay since fucking modelling days Seiya - id cishet jumpscare but hes also lowkey having a gay affair with the younger hotter nice Nice - speak of the devil, gay Gatekeeper - gay freak Anzu - aroace transfem <3

[rjschoicesstuff]

↕️📺♟️⚧️🫄🦄🪨

For Rippy/Gabe/Cas, Eli/Kieran, and any other MCs you wish to include

Thank u!!

Link to the questions

↕️Do they prefer to bottom (be penetrated) or top (do the penetrating)? Both? Neither?

Cas + Gabe + Ripley:

I imagine Ripley, Gabe and Cas are all switches, but Ripley strongly prefers topping (and only bottoms when she has a strong enough bond + trusts someone) and Gabe prefers bottoming.

Kieran + Eli:

Kieran is a switch and Eli heavily prefers topping and wouldn't ever like suggest it himself, but if a woman wants to peg him he'll let her, as long as it's not All The Time.

📺Do they enjoy porn and/or erotica?

Ripley + Cas + Gabe:

I think Cas wld be the only one who watches porn, I think Ripley just doesn't rly Get It and Gabe genuinely dislikes it. I think Ripley would really enjoy erotic (web)comics. And Gabriela reads erotic novels, I think she'd be rly picky about the dynamics tho + if it's well written.

Kieran + Eli:

Eli enjoys reading erotica 4 sure.

♟️Favorite sex toy(s)?

Gonna b a boring answer bc my knowledge on tht stuff is v minimal lol.

I think Ripley rly likes rope and handcuffs to restrict ppl from being able from touching her cuz sometimes she just likes doing all the work + when she doesn't have enough of a bond with someone yet she might suggest it because it puts her at ease when she knows they won't be able to try and touch her genitals, tho she'll take their word if they promise to keep their hands to themselves.

⚧️How does their gender influence their relationship to sex and kink?

Mollie:

While she prefers bottoming I think there's something Mollie (who's a trans woman who's had bottom surgery) really likes about wearing a stap-on because to her it's sorta like, yes I 'need' this because I don't have a penis.

🫄Are they into breeding or pregnancy?

Ripley, Cas, Gabe:

I think for Cas that's like his anti-kink like it's such a Human thing and the whole idea of a living being growing and moving inside someone grosses him out lol, even worse for f!Cas I think because it hits closer to home. Plugging this comic lmao, like he doesn't want that to happen to his beautiful girlfriend!!! (and other reasons too). In au's where they're not vampires or the one where he's older, he's more neutral tho, like it's weird but he doesn't throw such a fit about it. Like I think it's v connected to being a bit immature + considering himself undead > something about creating life freaks him out especially if he played a role in it.

Ripley and Gabe aren't into it either, I think Ripley can give off those Vibes tho cause she's currently so deep into mourning that she can't ever become pregnant because vampires are sterile > enjoys the fantasy of it but like it's rooted in wanting to be a mom and having a baby with her partners.

I do think Ripley likes jokingly saying 'Ur/I'm pregnant now.' after sex sometimes tho lmao, because she's sillay and likes being weird on purpose 💀.

Eli + Kieran:

Neither are into it, I think Eli does really enjoy sex a lot more when it's fine if it'd result in a pregnancy tho. But more in a 'im not stressing out about it afterwards' way.

Billie:

Including her bc lmaooo she's so funny. Ok for context, Billie is really into the idea of fucking women who are closeted but like specifically when they're super homophobic and repressed and ashamed along with it. And she loves this whole fantasy of getting pregnant from that. In a way like, now it's not even over yet, I'm having your baby and there's nothing you can do about it. And everyone is gonna know! Getting to be like a constant visual reminder of what happened between them. Only as a fantasy tho, if that could somehow happen she'd abort that thang LMFAO!!!! Ig it's like more about the humiliation or something.

🦄Do they have any pure fantasy kinks, things that aren't possible in real life (or the world your story takes place in)?

I can't think of anything rn, except for the one from Billie I already mentioned I guess lol.

🪨Do they identify with stone sexuality? Have they in the past? ("Stone" refers to not wanting to receive any sexual touch and/or only desiring sexual touch in specific ways with specific partners. Popularized by Leslie Feinberg in Stone Butch Blues.)

I know Noah (TeFe mc) is very sure she's a stone top who doesn't want to be touched sexually at all. And I think it even plays a role in why she's still a virgin because she Really doesn't want someone to break that boundary like she will sucker punch u mid sex and leave. Like she feels rly strongly about it and really needs someone she feels will understand and not try and 'fix' her.

[studiofelix]

hi!! i saw your post about asking questions about sylvix baby when you posted it. and I couldn't think of any good questions. but i still want to hear about sylvix baby so much 🥺

SYLVIX BABYYYYYY ok to spare the rest of u ill put this under a cut. cw for trans pregnancy

ok so. i think she is an accident bc they were starting to get a little Not Careful At All and also someone told felix that u cant get pregnant on t (which is false) and he believed them. oops.

so like they decide to keep the baby and she is born and she is like a carbon copy of sylvain. with felixs nose and hair color but like basically sylvain jr. and felix is like kinda superfically mad that she doesnt really look like him but he loves that she looks so much like sylvain bc he loves sylvain so much. they name her cal bc felix wanted her legal name to be gender neutral in case she every wanted to trans her gender but they call her callie.

they love her very much and felix becomes so so soft bc of her. like the scene in parks and rec where donna is like "ur family has made u a more kind and thoughtful person" and ron is like "u take that back right now."

felix is kinda like germaphobe parent bc he tends to be more overprotective of her and sylvain is like the "let her eat sand it builds her immune system :)" parent bc they tend to have a more like "let her figure it out herself" parenting style.

i think she calls sylvain dada for her first years and then she starts calling him dad. and i think she calls felix daddy forever and thats how she differentiates the two.

i know i said felix is more overprotective but even he is not immune to big brown sylvain eyes x2 when she and sylvain wanna do smth fun. i Do think felix wants to start teaching her how to use a sword when shes like 3 and sylvain is like "Are you fucking joking. no way" and felix is like "i started sword fighting when i was her age and i turned out ok" and sylvains like "DID YOU?" and felix gives them The Look

also felix is very glad to not be the shortest one in the house finally and then she grows up to be 5'10. also shes a lesbian

felix would defend her to the ends of the earth like if her preschool teacher told him that she bit another child he would be like "well the bastard probably deserved it. so" and sylvain would be no help either bc hed be like "YEAH! what my husband said"

also she says fuck when shes like 2 and sylvain is like egging her on and they bring her over to felix like (laughing) "babe. baby listen to this. ok say it again sweety" and shes like (baby voice) "FUCK!" (baby laugh) and felix is lile "sylvain. sylvain she cant go around saying fuck. r u fucking kidding. did u teach her that"

theres probably more but thats all i can think of rn I HOPE U ENJOYED

[cj-writes-things]

~Playlists~

For anyone looking for a little musical exploration or some pre-curated themed playlists, I've got you. Feel free to check these out if any of them sound like your kinda vibe!

My main/default playlist; there's a little bit of everything in here so it's good for when there's no particular vibe and you just want random shit on shuffle for hours:

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Playlist I listen to when I'm feeling alone/down; made from a place of feeling unable to accept or reciprocate love and having difficulty forming or maintaining personal relationships, with a few comfort songs mixed in:

"wdym ur lonely? so many ppl love you"

Playlist for hiking, roadtripping, setting out on an adventure, admiring the cosmos, pondering existence, etc (very indie/folk-heavy playlist):

Trailblazin' & Stargazin'

I mentioned this one in my valentine's day post; the title pretty much sums it up I'd say:

love songs I actually like

This one goes along/overlaps with the previous one & was also mentioned in my valentine's day post; basically, songs that helped me get an idea of the kind of love I hope to experience and a better understanding of love in general:

a love like this

Collection of mostly soft, comforting/uplifting songs to listen to when I'm stressed out or anxious or whatever, with a little bit of subdued angst sprinkled in:

calm down

Another one that doesn't really need a description; I don't know exactly what the vibe is with this one I just needed to make it bc reasons:

my personal collection of Sam Smith & Calum Scott songs

Slowed & reverb songs for my adhd bitches who have to have background noise 24/7 but get distracted by more upbeat lively music when they should be sleeping (I've used this one many a night):

Trying to fall asleep

Playlist for feeling overwhelmed, unprepared for adulthood, resistant to growing up, scared of change:

I'm not ready

Songs that either feel trans-coded/supportive or just that I like to listen to specifically during more masc/enby phases, usually because they feel gender-affirming somehow:

For Your Dysphoric Days

Touch-starved, depressed, out of it, and desperate to feel something playlist:

feeling numb.

A few more based purely on vibes whose titles more or less speak for themselves:

life in a YA dystopian fantasy/sci-fi epic

Villain POV

Run Away with Me

Mortality

Phantoms, Fables, and Echoes of the Divine

Chilled, Somber yet Mellow (mostly SYML)

ripples through murky water

This Might Be The End

POV: angsty queer teen with religious trauma

That's all for now, hope somebody gets some enjoyment out of these

[mountainfrogs]

SGT FROG IDENTITY STUFF

UHHHH i havent thought of the platoon as much but I will DO MY BEST

Keroro: He/Him Autoromantic

Largely cis, but the guy is in love with himself. He is in love with All Aspects of himself, even as he may have a shitty fragile sense of self-worth. It's a kind of narcissism, arrogance to mask the insecurity, but that's why he's in love with himself. Passing crushes on Pururu, childhood things, the closer you are to something like Him, the more interested he might be. It's kinda insane. God bless.

Tamama: He/Him Demiboy Homosexual Aroflux

Tamama's a kid so there's not a lot going on here right now, but sometimes he feels like a boy sometimes he just vibes and that is Okay. He does grow up to Be largely gay but romance isn't really on the radar. Take or leave. He is here to fight and become strong.

Giroro: He/She bigender pansexual demiromantic

Can you fight? Can you beat him in a battle of life or death? You're in buddy who gives a fuck What ur gender is, but he does need a big connection to actually develop romantic oriented feelings. As far as gender goes the guy vacillates a lot and feels like both most of the time but he doesn't really get it so he hasn't discovered the 'she' part yet. It sure feels pretty good when he gets forced to play dressup and act fem tho....

Kululu: He/She/They/It genderfluid asexual quoiromantic

Kululu just exists. Like he just Is There. He's the guy who either feels like No gender or one of them or all of them and he would in fact be that cunt who doesn't tell you what way he's swinging so he can zap you for getting it wrong he's a cunt. Kululuko is great fun tho, hard ace, doesn't understand the diff between romance and platonic, he thinks all the adults need to just kiss and chill the fuck out

Dororo: He/Him Bisexual Biromantic

Dororo is boring I am so sorry. He's cis amab and likes many genders in varying capacities but all are worthy of love... Or something like that. He is however prone to falling very hard very quickly due to not really being noticed like a Lot.

Garuru: He/They Asexual Aromantic

Non-binary king who does Not understand romance but loves his family both biological and found so very much. He's a lot sillier than everyone gives him credit for.

Pururu: She/Her lesbian

WOMEN Pururu has been subject to comphet a Lot throughout the years, such that she barely every Gets to interact with other women and figure herself out. She'll get there eventually

ORIKERO WISE

Umeme: She/They/Ume demigirl barararomantic/sexual (no i am not joking)

Umeme feels comfortable in her skin maybe 75 percent of the time. The other part of the time she feels like a mysterious total lack of gender imparted upon her by being mentally part another species of alien and how do you deal with being dysphoric because you're not another total species that has a complete lack of concept of gender? It's a long story. her orientation is barara and just barara.

Barara: He/They/It Agender creechur umemeromantic/sexual (no i am not joking)

Barara has like a complete lack of identity. He doesn't know what he is, or who. Is he even a person? He builds his sense of self around his purpose, or facets assigned to him, or what he loved ones need. He/Him predominant right now but given time and age and maturity he may assume they/it or even it/its fulltime. His orientation is umeme and just umeme.

Shisese: She/her MtF trans lesbian

Trans who is big for WOMEN she's down to date and meet and flirt but it does take time for her to really Bond with others due to her job and stress and whatnot.

[mimikyuno]

if you were a puella magi, what was your wish, and what are your costume, personality, powers, and weapons?

OOOH. LOVE THIS ASK. OKAY LET’S DO THISSS

my wish would have depended a lot on the age i contracted at tbh!! if i had contracted as an early teen (14-15, same age as madoka etc. and mami) my dream would have been to be normal i think… i would have asked to be like “other girls” and be okay with my gender and be interested in boys. 14 is when i started high school (italy) and i started masking and it was Rough. BUT if i had contracted earlier (10-13, like nagisa) my wish would have probably been to be able to talk with animals or to never grow up (you know how scary puberty be like when ur trans lol). either way i would have witched out rly quickly i think alsgslagekdg

costume would have definitely been a more androgynous/tomboyish one as i have hated skirts and dresses from the ripe age of 3. my color would have been red bc red used to be my favorite color throughout my childhood and early teens. so im imagining a peter pan style costume? with medium length shorts and a cute old-style shirt with red and orange hues ❣️

powers depend highly on wishes but i think my powers would all revolve around shapeshifting? i feel if i had contracted when i started masking i would probably fight by shapeshifting into smth the enemy wouldnt register as threatening, and if i had wished to talk with animals then i might be able to use their help in a fight or shapeshift into one. but uhmm if i wished to never grow up maybe i’d have good healing powers since i keep reverting to the status i was in when i contracted?

personality: annoying, hyper-idealistic lil autistic gremlin with strong justice sensitivity >:)

as for weapon nooo idea probably smth very magical-related, like energy beams or some sort of spell book or smth alsgslsgks

[butch-bakugo]

You wanna know why people specifically bring up that baddels/trans radfems/transandrophobes are not just a danger to perisex trans men/mascs but specifically towards amab enbies who don't fit their narrative/arnt fem enough to be "truly victims of transmysogny" and ESPECIALLY intersex people? Why we keep saying they are inherently transmysognistic and interphobic?

They question your existence as an Intersex person, every experience you've ever had and if, in their opinion, you're a ~True Victim~ if you went through all the same shit they did and didn't come to their transphobic bad faith position. They litterally can't accept that someone could not basically go to their mysognistic position and still be as victimized as them. Sis didn't even read the whole thing, garentee.

Transfems are not punished by society for failing male socialization. Period. Ur claim makes no sense because male socialization is not a test. It's not a quiz. You can't fail it, it's something ur taught literally as you learn to walk and talk and interact with other children. Male socialization is a curriculum, it's the outlines and the plan. Transfems inherently fail the social test society puts on amabs to test if they are manly enough to be respected by society to earn the title of man. It has nothing to do with how successful said curriculum is, just what it is.

I think what you meant is society punishes transfems for not being it's definition of a "true", or acceptable by their terms, man. You can fail to fit societies standards and expectations of you but male socialization is about the way you were raised, the things you were taught, the biases you were implemented with and the punishments and rewards you got for specific behavior, all with the expectations you would grow up to be a mysognistic man. The test fails transfems cause A. It's a bad moral code and will fundamentally hurt a healthy child regardless of their eventually gender and B. Ur not a man. None of those stop you becoming mysognistic but both stop you from becoming what society wants from someone it deems amab.

I didn't state in the post in question but male socialization is not a good thing and it's harmful to everyone. I did state it hurt everyone but it also especially hurts trans women, transfems and cis men alike. It's not a privilege they just waltz in and out of, it has real bad effects on the kid. However..

Ur take is nonsense and in bad faith and you ended it trying to claim I'm not a transfem because I don't specifically agree with you. Imagine trying to literally claim someone's lived experiences, identity and existence in a space they have every right to socially and biologically because they don't completely agree with everything that aligns with your personal experiences. You know what? That checks out completely for y'all. You fight with amab enbies day and night on if they fit your acceptable percentage of femininity and transmysognistic violence, of course you'd fight with an intersex person. You can't verify my experiences and you think the only valid experience is that of perisex binary trans women, of course you'd question literally everyone else, your a fucking transfem binary supremacist who views everyone some how as lesser than you and weak little theyfabs but somehow more powerful than everyone else exclusively to tear down and hurt you. You've got to be either aware of how stupid you sound and not care cause no one will check you or litterally out of your fucking mind deluded into conspiracy levels of egoism that you genuinely believe the world and all forms of oppression either fuel or pale in comparison to the binary perisex white trans woman's experiences with transmysogny.

Honey... I can walk circles around you in the native field, people are much more concerned when I say land back than when I mention I have ambiguous genitalia. Please get some perspective 💀💀💀

[radio-charlie]

U dont have to answer but, was ur recent post directed at the user or the trans feminine community? Maybe it was clear but I'm just curious

hi. thanks for trying to clarify. it was neither at OP specifically (as in, an attack honing in on her personality specifically) or the trans feminine community at large. it was an expression of resentment and anger with the paucity of gender discourse, and the utterly bizarre double standard where we're (some of us ourselves trannies) expected to be a lot cooler with imperial core violence enacted upon our homes, some of which is carried out under the rainbow flag. you can't get cancelled on here for being part of a US military psyop as long as you can label your opponents schizophrenic and (something)-ist enough. but everything is transmisogynist, and if you're transmisogynist you might as well be dead.

apologies if this is worded too harshly. i'm speaking from a history of trying to unlearn the transmisogyny i did admittedly internalise growing up here so that i could become an ally, proper. people do not ever go after their real enemies. there are blatantly transphobic users here who get nothing because they play friendly with the US war machine lol.

i don't blame trans women for thinking it was either of those things you asked about because i did not take the time to word my post carefully.

[inactivenotinuseetc]

i want to start dressing more feminine but i have short hair and dont know how to do makeup

[llamagirl28]

So some of ur game is about growing up, so I was wondering if you can come out as lgbt+? Perfectly okay if not obviously, just popped into my brain !

Of course! It's mentioned in the summary too, but the choice in the prologue is only your gender assigned at birth, so Mordred can be trans. There's already choices indicative of that, Mordred starting to question and explore their gender. There's also choices for cis Mordreds to be able to express themselves however they want, like with the clothes option.

Mordred can also be asexual - sex repulsed, neutral or positive.

I also know I want to allow for Mordred to he aro - who can also be either asexual or allosexual.

And, of course, Mordred can be gay/bisexual/pansexual, but there's not any coming out.

[g0reoz]

GIVE ME UR XHAKA HEADCANONS RN ALSO RUWEI IF U WOULD BE SO KIND

of COURSE i would be so kind ^^

xhaka:

-tbh when u mentioned smth about him being like. some kind of mlm but also just using "queer" as a general descriptor i was like Yeah That Checks out. so. OUR headcanon ☭

-iknow he is probably cis. i know this in my heart. but also have you considered that Baby Trans-And-In-Denial Gavin realized that wearing baggy, straight cut pants and fucking w your posture makes it nearly impossible for ppl to read ur hip structure as feminine? have you considered that this guy saved me so much dysphoria. what if maybe he was transmasc and just fuckin killing it out there.

-listen xhaka and ruwei are best friends they are lovers they're a qpr they're dating they're in an unlabeled relationship. i don't even care. they are everything 2 me.

-mannn i wanted to see more interactions w him and shu in s1 :') dude was sooo desperate to battle shu and then the one time it happened was in s2 when shu was red eye and we rly only saw the aftermath :( more battles more interactions etc i think they had an interesting dynamic

-i don't really know or care enough abt shipping to have anything to say about a notp. aside from weird age gaps n stuff, it's kinda just whatever imo :)

-random headcanons: did you know he's a human space heater. now you do. not to project Too much, but if you're under the same blanket it's gonna be like a kotatsu lmao i also feel like he would be really into growing his own food; the dojo probably has a decent-sized garden :]👍 oh! and he has a nokia brick in 2022.

-ova. look at me. i think at this point you Know my opinion. for those of you who don't: i want to put him in the microwave. i think he would start sparking like when you put metal in there. this dude cracked the trans egg back in 2016 and has just sorta been rent free in my brain ever since. he's responsible for at least half of my outfit decisions at this point. he's not even that dynamic of a character he doesn't have any major arc or anything and yet..still one of (if not my absolute favorite) burst characters!! he's just like me fr (concerning)

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ruwei:

-i think ruwei is bisexual. not gonna ngl.

-he/him but in a gender apathetic nonbinary way. the same way you refer to a random animal u see as he/him. i don't just say nb ruwei because of the long hair, either--he just sorta has that vibe.

-already mentioned that above lol

-ok this isn't exactly a brotp, but i want to see him interact with free at some point. they both come across as like rly calm and laid back but then they're both kinda Actually Insane. itwould be interesting. we should just let them go in the woods and befriend the local wildlife or something.

-idk. once again what else r people even shipping. i do feel like it would be annoying to see ruwei paired with ana though, just because it feels compulsively straight in the same way valt being paired with shasa is.

-RUWEI LISTENS TO WEEZER HE IS A WEEZER IM SORRY. IT'S TRUE. IT HAD TO BE SAID. HE TRAINS WHILE LISTENING TO IT SOMETIMES. he also can't keep a houseplant alive for the life of him. he isn't aware of this fact bc xhaka's been paying really close attention to the one he has ever since it was brought home. his bones and joints are also constantly cracking, which occurs so suddenly and loudly that it scares anyone in a 15-foot radius.

-my general opinion is that ruwei is cool 👍 like, in the way where he tries to be cool and badass but ends up looking kinda goofy while doing it, which circles back to being kind of impressive in a weird way. maybe not one of my favorite characters from all of burst, but definitely one of my faves from season 2!!

[mokutone]

yo i would love to hear some of ur trans yam headcanons :) (also ps ur art is breathtaking and whenever i see it reblogged on my dash i always come here anyway to read ur tags bc they r so! good!)

thank u 🥺🥺🥺 god im sorry this has been sitting in my inbox for a couple days ksdjghsdkjgh not only have i got a LOT of thoughts to put here (this is only a selection of the bigger thoughts skdjghsdkjhg) i was also super busy the past few days!!!! ty for ur patience, ur compliments, and for inviting me to ramble abt my favorite guy!

maybe the one constant in all trans people is just like. our decision to intentionally and purposefully create ourselves, to forced into an identity by outside forces and to turn away from it in search of something else, and that’s ultimately what makes captain yamato read as a trans character to me! He goes through so many identities, and they are meaningful to him, but you can also clearly tell that he’s searching for something that really fits him.

I don’t really have a lot of firm thoughts on what his specific identity would be, I’ve seen some great nonbinary yams, some lovely genderfluid yams, trans guy yams, there’s a great variety and i delight in them all! 

I tend to imagine him as transmasculine and nonbinary but male aligned (which means he’d feel at least a partial connection to or comfort with masculinity) and while there are a bunch of labels for this experience of gender (demiboy, bigender, etc etc) i don’t see him as somebody who would use any specific labels, I feel like he’d keep his own experience of his gender fairly private! He’d prefer and be fine with masculine-coded terms of address, and happy enough passing as a guy.

AHH and on names...

I think Kinoe is the only name that I really see as like. a genuine deadname. It’s a name that means “The First” to my understanding, and so like, probably refers to him having the genetics of the first. Therefore, it’s kind of. literally a name referring to him as his biology...boy thats as deadname as it gets, huh? kill that shit and also danzō

Tenzō is also a name thats given to him, but to my understanding (all I know about the anbu arc is picked up thru osmosis lol) it’s a name that’s given to him twice, with affection. Once from Yukimi, who sees him as her brother (not a vessel for the first hokage’s powers, probably for the first time ever—even if it’s still another person’s name) He takes the name, gladly! Unfortunately danzō. anyway,

Later, when he starts to introduce himself to the non-root Anbu as Kinoe, Kakashi cuts him off and names him to the anbu as Tenzō. To my understanding: it’s a name at rest, not a name for one singular mission, but a name for his entire time in Anbu. It’s the name he keeps the longest. Again, it’s a name that’s given to him to him by somebody else, but it’s one that is given with the intention to free him of Kinoe, and all that Kinoe had to be. 

(A note on him getting annoyed with Kakashi for calling him Tenzō in main-plot:

Most of this is of course based off of personal experience, but I find it hard to believe that he would actively dislike Tenzō as a name since it was given with such sweet intentions—most of my names have been gifts, and the only one I’ve actively taken out of rotation has been bc i cannot stand the person who used it, and the way it was used, and while Anbu was certainly bad for Yamato...I don’t think it was quite that bad. I think him telling Kakashi to stop calling him Tenzō has more to do with the use of it where it doesn’t belong—for example, while it’s not exactly a name, I am happy to be called “mokutone” here, and you may notice my friends calling me by another name, but if any of those friends called me mokutone in DMs, I would be bothered by that.)

Yamato starts off as an empty codename, given to him for the purposes of his team 7 mission by the Hokage, but I think it gets such a loving and warm association from just...using out in the sunlight, with these kids that he comes to think so fondly of (he’s such a dad. god. he’s such a fucking dad) and with the friends he makes going out drinking and actually having time to socialize—and that means a lot! I think Yamato is probably the name which becomes most meaningful and like a home to him by the end of the series. This is the active name, the name where he is most himself. It’s vital for him to have that space to grow into! 

But that said, I personally feel like, if he were to continue beyond the edges of the story, this would not be the final name he bears. He’s probably well aware that a single name cannot contain who he is, or who he wants to be, and while being Given a name can be a beautiful thing (like i said, most of my names are gifts! i treasure them.) I think that, for his character arc, I would like him to name himself at some point. Even if it’s a name that only exists for private spaces, I want him to complete that self determination, to at least try it out, even if ultimately Yamato is the name everyone else will know him by.

Physical Transition Stuff

i will confess i hurt to imagine these shinobi binding 😭😭 even if an individual is binding safely (well made binder, no more than 8 hours, AND No Physically Intense Activity) they stand to risk hurting themself! In real life we gotta balance out the physical pain and the pain of dysphoria, but this is naruto and I’m Gonna Play Some Headcanon Games!

If chakra is both a kind of spiritual energy as well as directly connected to the body (as we learned in the hyūga fight) then it stands to reason that by manipulating ones own chakra, they can manipulate the body, or at least the way the body changes (such as naruto’s healing factor) 

This probably is not the safest thing to do unless you’re a mednin or following the directions of one, LMAO

The second the hell of puberty started up for Tenzō he tried to hold it back by sheer force of willpower + chakra manipulation alone 

but, manually controlling one’s chakra is like trying to prevent a stream from flowing with your hands alone, which is to say: an exhausting uphill battle.

 He’d probably only be doing it on his down time and not on a mission, but even still the most I bet he could make it doing that without getting figured out is two months.

Luckily blockers are readily available, Tenzō just had no idea and, gender being a private experience for him, was trying to handle the whole thing entirely on his own. Soon after attempting to self-regulate hormones him-fucking-self like a very valid but desperate fool, he gets an appointment, gets a prescription, and can chill out and not have to be as hellishly aware of his body constantly.

 Konoha mednin will say trans rights even if the village itself is garbage, this series is so god damn weird already, nobody can tell me a ninja taking hormones is somehow weirder than a ninja taking his dead best friends genetic superpower eye.

TWO WEEKS, THREE SPARS, AND ONE VERY EMOTIONALLY DRAINING CONVERSATION LATER:

u might think kakashi is passing him a water bottle and they both look so exhausted bc its post spar but no. physically theyre fine, but the emotional toll of having to talk about something either of them care at all about? miracle they survived.

[daisys-reality]

URGENT ⚠️⚠️uhhh hi do you like um take things 2 ask ur spirit guides because umm i need a question but its p existential and IDK where to find it but jfc why do trans people exist ? why would any god or diety subject their people to hate their bodies and genes and chromosomes every second they live in em and regret the happenstances of being damn born despite having a relatively moderate self esteem ?? I need the answer to this because i cant accept it if im gonna spend the entire rest of my life suffering through all this for damn nothing while barely anybody else has to please help ?? Is it possible for you to just ask what i did to deserve this pls + thank yoi SORRY if this is considered trauma dumping i dont know what that is lol im 13

TRANSGENDER/LGBTQ+ vs religious beliefs/spirituality/law of assumption

1. "hi do you (...) ask your spirit guides because (...) it's pretty existential and idk where to find it (an answer)?"

Hey anon💛, yes I do and can ask my spirit guides certain things. And it's quite common to use tarot and stuff like that to find answers to things where there seems to be no answer in this reality we're living in. However, when doing a tarot reading there should always be a disclaimer. The message my spirit guides give might be 'true' but I can never 100% guarantee that I read the message the right way. So, don't expect too much from me and don't take my tarot readings too seriously. You should believe what you want to believe.

But for your question I don't think doing a reading on it is the right way and I honestly wouldn't feel comfortable doing it either, I don't think I'm capable enough to interpret the answer correctly to such a difficult question.

2. "Why do trans people exist? Why would any god and deity subject their people to hate their bodies and (...) ?"

Ok, this is really a "heavy" and sensitive topic and I don't think I can keep my answer short. I feel the need to explain my situation first so that you see where I'm coming from and for you to judge if I'm the right person to give you an appropriate answer. Ofc you can just skip this but I would feel more comfortable if you'd read it.... I don't want you to misunderstand me :/

First of all, I want to say that I'm not really that knowledgeable about all that lgbtq+ stuff, so I'm not really the best person probably to talk about this. It's not that I don't take the lgbtq topic seriously (I do!) but more so that I personally never felt the need to identify or label myself as "something" regarding gender or sexuality. I've always been a freedom loving person and putting labels on me always felt like putting myself in a cage that slowly suffocates me. I used to hate myself too and always used to ask myself 'who am I? why am I even here? Why do other people think so differently?' Iwas confused and I felt like I had no identity at least not like others seemed to have. I felt like a "fluid being" lol... I was just there and existed.

But everyone around me would "build up their identity" more and more and openly say what they like and dislike and it stressed me out - even questions like "what is your favourite colour?". As a child I already was like 'why does that even matter? why would someone even think about this??' but everyone around me seemed to be doing it so I started lying about it. I remember researching what common likes and dislikes were and started remembering them to have a prepared answer to those stupid questions😭💀 Everyone made it such an important topic and it overwhelmed me. I hated discussions about (for me) useless things and I just wanted to be left alone, experience the world on my own and enjoy life without any strict perspective. But people want things to have labels and to put them into boxes to judge them more easily.

While growing up I came to accept that my way of being just doesn't fit into societies way of thinking and I learned to be ok with it. I don't care anymore! All these struggles.. for what?

I personally don't need labels, I just want to experience life freely without any restrictions! If I start liking a girl tomorrow and date her, fine. If I'm a boy in one of my desired realities and come to like another boy, fine. I don't care! In my opinion I would just make important and precious experiences and memories. I love learning and I love having the freedom to learn without being judged. (So for me, reality shifting and law of assumption saved me and I'm so grateful that I got to know about it.) Anyways, I hope you get where I'm coming from (even if its a little bit).

But being transgender is a whole other topic. (pls correct me if I'm wrong) You were born as one of the biological genders but you (your essence/soul/mind) identify as the opposite or just another gender.

Now you're asking why anyone would even get someone into this tricky/confusing situation. But the thing is that this whole "gender" topic is HUMAN MADE and not god/deity made - if you know what I mean.

Over the years people have made up the assumption/rules that 'being male is like this' and 'being female is like this' and linked it to the biological gender! (honestly they probably didn't know better) Ofc some things are influenced by genetics but it's less than we think.

No god said that if you're the biological gender A you have to like dresses or like hunting whatsoever. No god ever judged you for who you are or for what you're doing!!! The humans did it !! Society did !! Maybe even yourself started doing it unconsciously too. But no other being did that. Other beings like gods/deities also just see your essence, they just see you as "a being".

Now, you used the expression "why would any god/deity subject their people to..." - I assume you're religious or grew up religious. I don't want to disregard your or any other religion but from my point of view we are not anyone's people. Ofc certain beings protect us but at the end of the day we decided to be on this earth ourselves (at least that's what I think). And honestly, from a god point of view this whole gender discussion of our society seems probably really stupid and unreasonable. We human beings are probably the only beings that limit themselves so much because we're so "intelligent" and "evolved" - like come on pls. We created these labels and now we start arguing about them and judge other people for them. Like what the hell even ...

I'd also like to go a step further and add a bit of Law of assumption (LOA) into this discussion.

As I already said in previous posts, getting into LOA and making use of it is like stepping into your innate power and acknowledging that you are an eternal, omnipotent, conscious, and intelligent being. You learn to release "human" limits and find freedom. And in my view, gender is kinda one of the "human limits" too. You are the creator of your reality. If you choose to end this suffering, then you will do it because you can.

3. "I can't accept it if I'm gonna spend the rest of my life suffering through all this for damn nothing while barely anybody else has to."

I understand your mindset right now and I can only imagine what you've been through. The suffering must have been pretty hard. I know that society or rather human beings in general can be extremely ruthless, reckless and really hurtful without even realising it and ofc willingly.

I want to tell you that you don't need to accept this suffering and you don't need to suffer like this through all of your life !! I want you to know that you're not powerless, okay? It doesn't matter what other people have told you! You're still pretty young so you have the best conditions to learn about yourself and about your power to manifest what you want and what you deserve!

It's not like I want to influence you into doing something... It just breaks my heart seeing other people suffer and as LOA (law of assumption) has helped me tremendously, I want to recommend it to you too.

4. "Is it possible to ask what I did to deserve this?"

This question itself is heartbreaking as well���� I'm not gonna do a reading on this. Don't even think you deserved this pls. It happened, yes but don't dwell on it or try to find an answer! Instead maybe work on manifesting the world you would like to live in. I'm sorry that I can't give you a better or more advice on your struggles. :(

Just know that you can identify as whatever you want. You can like whatever you want. You can be whatever you want and you can do whatever you want. You CAN because you have the freedom and power to do so. You don't need anyone's approval or allowance. This is your life.

5. "Sorry if this is considered trauma dumping (...)"

I don't consider it trauma dumping, so it's ok, don't worry. I don't really know what the real definition of it is either, we don't have that in my native language so yeah😂 I guess its kinda just talking to someone about your trauma and I'm pretty ok with that🥸

Anon, I don't know how helpful this answer will be to you but I want you to know that I wish you the best in life and send you lots of love. You are enough. You matter and you only deserve the best!! I believe in your ability to manifest the life you deserve! (Yes I took the time to color it😂)

The same goes for my other followers.

I'm no expert but you can always ask for help or for advice or just share you're struggles with me. I will try to help you as best as I can.

- daisy🌼