#you may notice theres no yjh

[istherewifiinhell]

#nothing to do no gay people on my phone. did read 29 chapters of orv tho

well. here we are..... 1 calendar year later. 551 chapters later... and. tangent: dang did i really pulverize my phone on some conk crete so close to my bday? well. funny little causes for everything isnt it....

for real tho..... for. a story about how stories help you survive.... im here at work were i started it. to get through the day. and. its been a real fucking treat the whole time....

Extremely scattershot and fledgling ending stuff thoughts [spoiles][oh and also. content. warning of. orv adfhbdaf]

a narrative about. grief. and suicide. and. how we cope. and heal. or dont. in? my min max any% speedrun isekai novel???

holding astronaut yjh by the scruff of the neck. HEY I FOUND HIM. I FOUND THE ORV ASTRONAUT (breaks down about it)

I think. around. kaizenxi i noticed the. allusions to suicide were um. getting increasingly LESS subtle... and. i mean at some point right. the story becomes less about kdj and more. how his family misses him. the entire jttw arc. even. and. its the reveal the closer they get to the goal. the less he. knows what to do with himself.

well and. the way the scope just increases right. if there is a down trodden lost soul in this world. may we dedicate a sentence to them, remember that they are a being and do not deserve their fate. (nameless ones/yoegos esp)

and. the way. right until the very last stuff. no one stays dead. which isnt the same as being unchanged by death. by people being hurt by it. but people come back. (by my regconning 1864 hades and bihyung are the only. MAIN??? character. ally types. to die?? and stay dead.) and it really seemed like kdj might be the next one. FOR A GOOD MINUTE THERE. but hey. hey. maybe a story were. they miracoulous. unfathamable. survive... is the point......

just like. seemingly mavelent forces. the orgin of ss, the author, the outer gods, even 4th wall. just a bunch of ppl trying to surivive. or trying not to loose someone. or lose themselves. etcetc. like.

1863 hsy writting the apocalyse into existence to save 1 person. enduring YEARS of being exhausted and scrambling in the small hours of the night. that dk becoming 4th wall... [dont know where else to put this even but the random webnovel author they get to be one of the orv... publishers... i guess. was also. maybe gonna kill himself. so thats another person saved. just. fyi]

the 999s. EVERYTHING abt them. (kdjs favourite turn did you know that was HIS FAV turn its his favourite.) that kdj could confront kwn cause he know how little he thought of HIMSELF. well hey. flag that huh. cause when they see the poor kid that 'caused' their predictament. well they saw the small kid no one looked out for (well 2 people looked out for didnt they). and all kdjc realises just how bad it was. and all kdj can see is the enemy. gee well i hope kdj having those LITERAL self destructive tendacies wont come up again after the 999s become kid dokja new pta ass parents.

a story that. basically end up saying. hey. you are ONTOLOGICALLY. kinda sorta a least a PART of the main character. (hey no wonder theres such a high percent of kin dokjas.....) where you DREAMING of that world. of those characters. imagining that kinder ending, that unfinished story. thats helps that WORLD survive. that helps that CHARACTER live. for real i did "force"/engineer the circustances that i would be finishing it. AND DOING ALL THIS. at work. well fuck +A proof of concept. stories. we all need em. oh god do we need em. like fucking hell do i need em.

(weakly, like a victorian child with every old timey disease) im back from work what did miss

[uriel-is-best-girl]

Time for what tma entites I think orv characters are aligned with! Spoilers for orv and possibly tma too.

So starting off with our main boi:

Kim Dokja himself. I'm going to have to give him a strong death/the end alignment. The eye could be argued I suppose what with all his knowledge and 'mind reading', but i just feel like the end connection is stronger. Hes expierenced death and rebirth in more ways than just the literal sense too, he first died when his mother 'killed' his father and he was left behind in the wake of that death. And then again when he jumped from the roof, living on feeling more as though a ghost than alive. And then ofc all the actual self sacrifice where he comes back, trying to kill od, the 49% of him wasting away in a hospital, another death. Ofc then theres the thousands of deaths and regressions from yjh that kept him alive. Again and again he is surrounded and made up by death and its ultimate refusal to allow him its grasp (much like oliver).

Next! (Note: I will NOT be going in order bc I don't have ideas for everyone yet.)

Lee jihye is an unwilling avatar of the slaughter and I will stand by that. Her sponsor is a war general and she starts the series by having to kill her best friend in order to survive. In the context of being a slaughter avatar, she tries to combat the need for senseless violence by justifying it, by trying it use it to protect others.

Han Sooyoung is an avatar of the web. There are many aspects about her snd her story that involve levels of control or bring up the question of others frew will (she wrote ways of survival, but she wrote it after the fact, but after the fact was also before the fact so then what does that make of yjh and all the others in her story?) Again, im just contextualizing things in context of tma entities, not actual commentary on orv story.

Lee gilyoung. If you know anything about tma u know im giving him the hive/the corruption. Its stereotypical! Its the obvious chioce! Bug boy gets bug fear! But I think its also the right chioce. When lgy was being possibly abused or neglected by his family memeber, he had his bugs. Sound familar? To literally all the hive statements. Its rotting filth but its also there when you have no one and are alone and it will love you when no one else will. And for that love it will consume you.

Jung Heewon is a strong woman who has been hurt before. Because of this she took up a mantel to be the fires of justice. Thats right, we're looking Desolation aligned here. Incongruence with the namesake of lightless flame, her fires offer no mercy. Things were taken and stripped from her before kdj saved her, things she can move on from but can never get back. So she will take away from those who have taken from her, who will take from her. She is the type of avatar that feeds the desolation with her own fear. She is afraid, so afraid of loosing so she will burn it all down until theres no one who can take from her again. I especially like how her judgement time or smthing power starts as out of her control to being in the control of her and kdjc. Bc in either case you cant really say either side is correct. Only that they have the power the decide, and they have always backed her when she wants to use her flames.

Lee Hyunsung. The Burried, or Too Close I Cannot Breathe. You cannot make any decisions deep in the ground, held tight by the earth in what is either a loving or unforgiving brace. Everything down to breathing will be decided for you, there is no room for mistakes or lose. Throughout the story lee hyunsung struggles alot with descion making, he wants to be told what to do, he can follow orders. Hes got a big heart, but hes tough, he can stand his ground and weather it all, just like the earth. I would link the type of avatar lee hyunsung would be to the statement in which a graveyard digger becomes obsessed with burrying himself alive and sleeping. Lee hyunsung could find comfort and saftey in the dirt.