#you know. and the end is so devastating it contaminates even the happiest of moments at the beginning

[claratyler]

Its just so criminal and so tragic and it leaves this hole in your chest that never goes away, that merlin really spent that entire time with arthur closeted and stressed about being found out and having to hide his true nature from the most important person in his life. and when arthur finally knows that merlin does have magic, arthur's left with so many questions and a feeling of betrayal and he doesnt quite know how to trust merlin and thats fricking devastating as it is, bc this revelation is only happening in the show's final moments, and then he dies and he never gets to know merlin as his true self, never gets to discover that magic isn't inherently evil but despite everything in his final moments he still doesn't care that merlin lied, that merlin is this thing that he has always thought of as Bad, because its still merlin and all he says is "just hold me"