#you guys dont understand ive been ranting about it to my irls for the past week sm
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foxsartdump ¡ 10 months ago
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the moment i type tottmnt instead or rottmnt is gonna be my downfall (gay and too lazy to correct)
(mini-rant in tags if youre curious </3)
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escapinglight ¡ 8 years ago
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Allllrighty, before I go to sleep, I need to get some anger and pain off of my chest. This past year one of my irl friends has been ranting to me and another irl friend about how horrible her life is and how much she hates it. Granted all the reasons shes given are understandable and I feel for her. However, this friend also complains a lot about how she doesn’t care about her other irl friends problems and that she doesn’t have the time or patience for them.
One of the problems being “they’re both skinny and beautiful so they dont have a right to feel insecure about their bodies cuz Im fat and they never had to deal with the pain Ive dealt with” while the latter is true that does not mean theyre both not gonna have problems anyway.
Ive also learned that this irl friend also talks about me behind my back to our shared irl friend.
How Im too liberal, loud, annoying, and Im mostly annoying because I complain about being lonely a lot when neither of them are around and how Im skinny and why dont I just date? Basically saying I could have anybody I want cuz Im skinny.
And you know, shes probably right, if I actually went and tried I could probably have anybody I want cuz I can be really pretty and have been told Im a wonderful person to be around.
However
This isnt going to happen anytime soon.
Now I know that I could never equate my body issues to a fat person body issues. i know that the world doesnt automatically label me as ugly cuz I am not fat. I know I have a stereotypical beautiful skinny body.
THIS DOES NOT CHANGE THE FIRST 18 YEARS OF MY LIFE.
I was constantly made fun of and bullied, mostly by guys, because I did not fit the mold mentally and didnt dress the way the other kids did.
NEVER ONCE did I have someone express interest in me romantically or in a healthy way because to everybody I was a freak for the things I enjoyed.
THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO ACT OPENLY ATTRACTED TO ME ARE FUCKING STALKERS OR PEOPLE WHO JUST WANNA FUCK ME.
DO YOU KNOW HOW LITTLE I TRUST PEOPLE TO LET THEM IN LIKE THAT AFTER 18+ YEARS OF EXPERIENCING THIS?!?
HELL NO AM I GONNA LET ANYONE NEAR ME LIKE THAT cuz the first thing that comes to my mind is that they have ulterior motives. The ONLY thing I can think is that
“That cute person who looked at you and smiled only did that cuz youre a freak”
“This guy is only bein nice cuz he wants to get in your pants”
“These people who say they love you and want to support you only keep you around so they can get dirt on you, spread rumors, and laugh about you behind your back”
YES I AM NOT FAT YES I WILL NOT EVER EXPERIENCE THE ATROCITIES THAT FAT PEOPLE EXPERIENCE
Yes I am still going to be fucking insecure because I was mistreated for the developing years of my life by my peers anyway.
This is why I dont talk to her about any of my problems cuz I know shes just gonna complain about me behind my back.
Im getting tired and if I hear shes been talking about me again instead of actually confronting me about it I will end this friendship and she will cry and complain but I ust wont care anymore
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