#you dont ABANDON YOUR FRIENDS FOR YOUR LOVE INTEREST!!!!
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#fae reads stuff#I WILL CRY. THIS IS SO FUCKING SAD#I FEEL SO BAD!!!!!! why cant they ever have nice things ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ i dont give two fucks about the main guy he didnt even do anything#BRO.... PLEASE..... oh my god oh my godddddd#IVE SAID THIS BEFORE i know he has romantic feelings or whatever#but regardless of who the mc likes or loves or whatever#you dont ABANDON YOUR FRIENDS FOR YOUR LOVE INTEREST!!!!#ESPECIALLY WHEN HES WORKED SO HARD TRYING TO KEEP THAT FRIENDSHIP#he CAREESSssss about you perhaps in a different way#but even if you dont return those sorts of feelings he is still your BEST FRIEND#and hes done NOTHING wrong hes done nothing on his feelings bc he prioritizes the friendship more#and yet YOU? CANNOT EVEN GIVE HIM TWO SECONDS OF YOUR TIME#im so sad. bro you deserve better.#i cant be the mc for you since youve been friends with and liked mc so long#but i can be your friend#im sorry mc is stupid and romance is always so important#even when its some guy who you dont even know that well versus your longtime best friend#im really sorry
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the rituals are intricate and very comical
#idk what to focus on here. โron my guy dont you worry yourself about anything โค๏ธ#your jealousy and resentment will lead you to make a mistake so big next year that it knocks enough sense into you for a lifetime#๐ฎ you will finally recognise your role as the glue that holds the trio together and you will vow to never abandon them again#only then will the circumstances be right for you discover that they both love you and need you๐ซต as much as you love and need them ๐ฎโ๏ธ#that being said i did clock how flustered harryโs compliment made hermione and additionally#how harry blushed hearing hermione describe his romantic appeal.. id get scared too if i were ron. with or without inferiority complex#Also undeniably ron must agree with hermione that harry is โfanciableโ as fuck. or he wouldnt feel this threatened#also him gagging on his food after hearing someone verbalise this fact DHJDJ. you could of course chalk it all up to his crush on hermione#or you could add the very interesting layer of his own perception of harry to it#bc as i have wisely stated before in a previous post. โhee is obsessed with that harry kidโ <- i could write essays on this#but it boils down to the thin line between โi want to be that personโ and โi want to be WITH that personโ#a very well known phenomenon amongst the members of the โin gay love with my best friendโ community#you canโt make this shit up. i donโt even have to try that hard to see romionarry in everything they just literally keep doing the work 4me#hp6
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people will tell me it doesn't matter what people think about me and then turn around and go home/online to the people that love and care about them unconditionally
#bro have you ever even been kicked out of you house at 8. 13. 14. 15. because you either fought back or expressed yourself too openly#and ur mum was just in a bad mood that day? have you never been abandoned on the side of the road half way across town?#have you never had anything on the floor or our of place on your desk or shelf thrown out because it pissed her off?#have you never been ostracized every day at school from KINDERGARDEN TO GRADE 5? have you never had someone you thoight#was a close friend laugh in your face for talking to them on front on their other firneds?#like dude. it matters a lot what other people think about me. that it comes off like i dont is not a fucking compliment for me ๐ญ#UNFORCH. AND I STILL CONSIDER MYSELF LUCKY. :) COULD HABE BEEN WORSE!!!! XOXO#i dont care what people think about something indo until someoen goes wow i love how you do x like no ones looking#and then i will never do x again ever even in the privacy of my own bedroom 2 years removed from my mother being alive.#like. idk man.#i had people that did not like children OR ME ON A PERSONAL LEVEL telling my mother to be nicer to me.#its. idk man idk how to explain that its engrained in my fucking dna and idk hownto escapenit.#sad. oh well#vent#neg#like. dude i have had people drop me for being too interested in their lived and for not being interested enough.#i have in fact been locked out of the house at night b4 without a key and only been let back in bcus the neighbours called the cops. lol.#lmao. lmfao. even. like idk! idk!!#if i was quiet if i was good if i sat and listened to her and asked the right questions and provided myself as the pwrson she wanted#me to be thst day than i didnt get ostrasized! i wish i had had. any adult. growing up. thst i felt unconditional love and safety from#id say thst person was my grandmother. and it was. she just wasnt there for me in practice? idk man. maybe#she just didnt want me in the house w my grandfather. maybe she just didnt want the family stress that would come#from taking me from my mother. but regardless. she died before i turned 16. so. doesnt matterm#death m#abuse m#oh man we are spiralling oopsm
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#keroro#i love this. she is me. i can live my unbridled amounts of cute aggression towards him THRU HER#i literally need to do this irl#like i just skimmed ep 64 bc i was curious about this trauma switch thing and ive never wanted to grab him and whack him around more#in an affectionate way not because im mad at him oh no. i understand him so deeply. i feel him. i know his most inner psyche.#and he inspires unrecorded levels of senseless violence in me#me in my little ignoramus bubble writing a 4 pages dissertation on his character anyway bc like. i get him ok#his deep seated sense of guilt that he's constantly fighting against. that he needs to repress and deny in order to function.#his fear of abandonment. fear of never being enough. not being able to make up for it. for himself. thats why hes self sacrificing#his selfish childishness that comes from not having been allowed a lot in his youth. taking friends for granted in his past but knowing -#you dont fit in with them. constantly apologizing for yourself. taking space. too much. self indulgence. because friends is s scary concept#and yet one you couldnt survive without. letting them walk all over you. denying your anger. your fears. crawling back to them with a smile#at their feet and biting time because what you really want is friends. company. but you think you don't deserve it. deep down.#maybe u dont. your worst reminder the friend you love. and if they ditch you it's deserved. you don't need them (you do)#why am i rambling!!!! he has ruined me. if im wrong dont even tell me bc i prefer this version in my head anyway#*charlie voice* look at me. psychological trauma up to here#im not saying growing up poor with a father that shames you for your interests and ''disciplines'' you made him selfish but. no yes!#i am saying that. bc i know how it is. growing up with friends that have a lot that u can never afford. u feel guilty just being with them#ok we strayed a lot from the og post which is just me saying I WANNA PUNCH THIS GUY SO BAD (he is me)#keroro gunso
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I sometimes feel really alone. My interests are on the more obscure side (to the point that I don't think I've seen anyone online talk about a some of them in years...), and although a couple of my friends have adjacent interests, it's just not the same. It's akin to us liking movies in the same genre but not the same movies besides a couple, I'd say, except I've watched most of the movies they've watched but they haven't done the same with what I have, and that's why. They tend to focus on a couple at a time while I go for everything at once. And because of that, it's just...I feel like the most annoying person ever when I bring things from other "movies" up because I know they're not interested in them. Anything they share is from a movie that I've also watched and had interest in, but a lot of what I think about isn't something they have, so I know they won't feel any connection to it, hence feeling annoying. I know I probably should just talk about it and hope that they'll end up being interested, but at the same time, I also don't want to. Part of it is that the things they aren't interested in feel like a bit of a safe haven to me. It's not that they annoy me, nothing like that. I love them; they're my friends. But they tend to have a lot more to say than me, and even though I often know things about the content that they don't, almost every time I've told them of something I found interested turned out to be a mistake. They sometimes gain misconceptions, and when I say something that contradicts them, a lot of em take it harder than they should since they write fanfics and it means details were wrong. I feel awful every time. So even mutual interests leave me a bit unable to properly talk about them, although I guess it's better than nothing.
I miss when I was at least interested in things that had fanfiction written about them. At least that was some comfort that others cared just as me.
I do have this pal who is a genuine lifesaver though. They don't even have an interest in anything adjacent, but they've asked me questions and encouraged me to talk about them. I don't think anyone else ever has. (It just sucks that I'm hesitant to talk unless they prompt me with a question about what I've been thinking of. I don't want to overwhelm them and make them stop. We also don't talk as much as I do with some others, so...)
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#sounds like a difficult situation to navigate!#like. you are allowed to talk about your interests! and friends will want to listen to friends talk about something they love even if#they dont ~get it!#but there is a limit to that of course and if it causes miscommunications etc that's just not fun for anyone involved.#i have to say though i am super curious to know what your obscure interests must be that there#isn't even much about them on the internet!#maybe it's just not where you are looking?#i am in a fairly obscure fandom and new people are regularly like#wow i didn't know there were people still talking about this bc xyz place i visited was abandoned!#i hope you can find people to chat about your interests with!#you could even try idk reddits/discords/other spaces for adjacent interests to gauge who's heard of your other#interest(s) to begin with? see who bites!#secret#anonymous#confession
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โฐโโค โ desire us โข l.n c.l โ i
part two
โช life changed after you decided to go through it as a single woman, offering your daughter the best life she deserves, focusing on work, friends and family but damn, that guy.
โชย life is good and so is your 'friendship' with lando
โช mom!reader x dad!Charles x lando
โช book two is here & im so so sorry it took so long :( this takes place 2/3 years after desire. I kept the taglist from the first part of this series but let me know if you don't want to be tagged anymore. Comments and feedback are welcome <3 **I fucked up with Shangai gp and Suzuka, please pretend you never saw that ๐ญ
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y/nusername meeting manon's mini ๐ถ๐ป
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norrizz welcome to the world manon's mini! <3
milliexoxo he's here! Will drop by soon ๐
โณ manon_roux still in florida with your boy?
milliexoxo yessss โบ
logansargeant what's his name, logan?
manon_roux boy you wish :')
logiebear still not over the fact logan is a part of this silly ass friend group ๐
norry4 congrats to Manon & Alice ๐ผ
joris__trouche bienvenue petit garรงon ๐ (welcome baby boy)
landooooo zoe would make a great big sister ๐
โณ carlandooo bet lando would love to volunteer ๐
landooooo lando give y/n a 2nd baby pls ๐ญ
norrisgp what the actual fuck is wrong with you guys?
landonorris thanks for the nephew ๐
landonorris his name's lando right?
โณ alicedidier ๐
landonorris classy
yukisan MANON HAD A BABY?!
โณ landoscar girl her and her wife have a whole football team already ๐
yukisan WIFE?!
charles_leclerc bรฉbรฉ, tu es dรฉjร tellement aimรฉ ๐ถ๐ป๐ (baby boy, you're so loved already)
leclerc_16 all these men in the comments having massive baby fever lmao
charlos16 I personally think Charles and y/n should give zoe a sibling
โณ norry4 leave them alone jfc
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y/nusername straya ๐ฆ๐บ
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oscarpiastri would've given you a tour if you'd told me you were here
โณ y/nusername I've been here before, I know my way around :')
oscarpiastri I guess what i'm trying to ask is; do you want to hang out?
y/nusername no, I only want to hang out with lily
oscarpiastri that's fair and totally understandable
landoscar I love them your honor ๐ญ
norrizz just two girlie girls living their best lives ๐ฅบ
charles_leclerc c'est dรฉfinitivement ta fille ๐ (definitely the your daughter)
โณ arthur_leclerc deux divas (two divas)
y/nusername tu devrais peut-รชtre te regarder dans le miroir une seconde ;) (maybe you should look in the mirror for a second)
joris__trouche trois divas dont Arthur ๐ (three divas including Arthur)
y/nusername fais-en quatre parce que tu es le plus grand de tous ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ (make that four because you are the biggest one of them all)
norry4 can't wait to see your pretty face on TV again <3
milliexoxo thanks for the invite..
โณ y/nusername you're welcome ๐
logansarge mom abandoning her child again lol
hamilt44n pls continue to humble Danica this season ๐
sharl16 I'm counting 3 adorable koalas in this post ๐จ
landonorris do you want to build a snowman?
โณ y/nusername no
landonorris oh โน๏ธ
y/nlando please y'all still so cute :(
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y/nusername osc & co.
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mrsnorris interesting
oscarpiastri knew I was being watched
norrisfour in the mclaren garage again? Interesting indeed ๐
โณ bott_ass she was in Oscar's side of the garage, calm your tits
norrizz yall need to chill out, she's with mclaren, ferrari and williams most of the time. She's friends with their drivers. Give it a break.
logansarge what the hell millie, a mclaren hoodie?! ๐ญ
โณ milliexoxo I'm sorry, it was the first thing I found in y/n her suitcase!
landoscar it's alright bestie, we know it's your favorite team <3
milliexoxo don't tell my bf :(
charlos16 dinner with lando you say?
maxfnorris where's zoรซ?
โณ sharl16 she's got a dad too yknow?
maxfnorris I never see them together
sharl16 then you need a pair of glasses cause youre blind as shit, Charles loves to show off his daughter ๐
landonorris starting to feel you're a bit obsessed with osc
โณ y/nusername just a bit?
landonorris a bit too much
manon_roux same ๐ฅฐ
y/nusername yeah, don't you just want to pinch his cheeks and ruffle his hair?
manon_roux i just want to kidnap him and put him in my basement
oscarpiastri this is getting weird now, should I be worried?
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What are you doing in London?
I mean I know why you're in London but want to see if you're going to be secretive about it again ๐
y/nusername
?
manon_roux
No shame in visiting the people you'll call your in laws in a couple of months ๐
y/nusername
Don't you have a newborn to look after?
manon_roux
He's taking a nap
If he let's me, I'll have 20-30 minutes to annoy you
Are you staying at his place?
y/nusername
I hope Noah keeps you up at night
manon_roux
He's got a one bedroom flat, right?
y/nusername
He's got a couch
manon_roux
lol and who's sleeping on it? You?
He's not letting you sleep on his couch and you're not letting him sleep on the couch either
y/nusername
People can sleep in the same bed without anything going on
We did it before
manon_roux
we never dated nor do we still have feelings for each other
y/nusername
I'm glad you know how I feel
manon_roux
Bubs you're an open book to me, it's written all over your face
Even your baby daddy is trying to get you two back together
y/nusername
what?
manon_roux
oh c'mon charles is trying so damn hard to get you and lando back together, don't play dumb with me ๐
you meeting up with mum and dad norris? ๐ฅฐ
y/nusername
You've been hanging out with millie too much
manon_roux
and you've been hanging out with my wife too much because why are you ignoring my questions?
y/nusername
Suck my nonexistent dick babes
manon_roux
I tried for years babes but turns out your into British goblins :(
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ALEXITHYMA.
๐ฉแฅซแญก๐ช A certain group doesnโt miss how special you really are to Bakugou.
Contains: Pining, slight angst, u and bkg dont directly talk but ur relationship is talked about, wc 450
a/n: fixed my asks so feel free to send some! โค๏ธ enjoy
Bakugouโs acknowledged โfriendsโ sat huddled in Minaโs room, sprawled out on her bed. Huffs came from them in boredom, it was Kaminariโs idea to do a fun hangout, but of course, they somehow ran out of conversation topics.
Mina, a girl who loved to talk about anyoneโs personal love life, suddenly blurted out, โHey, Bakugouโs close with L/n, right?โ This caught the attention of the boys as they set their phones down.
โYeah. Pretty sure he abandoned us to hang out with her tonight.โ Sero recalled from their conversation in the group chat. Bakugou had called them half-witted boring extras that were a waste of their time โ which wasnโt surprising, of course.
โHeโs so aggressive with us, what makes him love L/n so much?โ Kirishima butted in, giving his own opinion on the situation. Seeming as he was the closest to Bakugou in the group, the others shrugged their shoulders.
Kaminari grinned, โSheโs a girl, she gets special treatment.โ Mina deadpanned at his statement. โIโm a girl and I get yelled at all the time! Plus, he nearly blew Ururaka into shreds at the sports festival.โ She debated. A hum of approval came from Kirishima and Sero.
โI mean, he does look at her in a way that says sheโs important to him.โ Stated sero.
It was true. Every time he looked at you, he looked at Aphrodite herself, like you were something he couldnโt stand to lose. Those short glances of acknowledgment he gave you always lasted longer. His face and demeanor softened when it came to you.
There were some things you realized too.ย
The private hugs he gave you when no one was looking would be beyond your belief. Heโd engulf you in his arms and put his head in the crook of your neck while gently and slowly rubbing your back. It was almost like he was trying to make you lose your breath. Your legs almost always gave out in those moments.ย
When heโd let you go, he would pretend like that didnโt just happen. He would pretend he didnโt just make your heart stop for a moment.ย
How terrible he was for that. He knew you were interested in a love life. He knew when he shared his food, clothes, bed, charger, blankets, figures, and notes with you.
He knew when he noticed that you were a part of more than his life, you were a part of his soul. Bakugou sat and pondered about this, and thatโs what you didnโt know. That he did in fact, sit and think about why you would even glance to the thought of liking him.
You two wanted each other more than anything, and itโd be too late before you could get the chance to tell him.
7/6/24
#bakugou x reader#mha x reader#bakugo katuski x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#katsuki x reader#angelicfics
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im a lil shy for asking, but can i request for ithaqua and naib headcanons with a feral s/o? like, raised by the wolves type of feral, will bite u and probably has rabies type of feral. if u dont do multiple chars, then just ithaqua would be fine!!
This is my first request thank you so much!
I hope you enjoy it.
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Ithaqua
โขIthaqua never takes interest in people. He didn't have interactions with people for years until he came to the Manor. He talks to the other hunters to relieve his boredom and pass the time.
โขBut this changed when he saw you. Fragile but ferocious. Human, yet monstrous.
โขHe didn't feel threatened or scared by your presence, but felt intrigued, since he saw himself in you.
โขYou two were similar yet different. Both of you were abandoned by civilization yet he was raised by a human while you were raised by the wilderness.
โขHe was literate thanks to his mother but you could only utter words and incomplete sentences.
โขYou were intimidated by him as he slowly walked towards you, which caused you to be on guard.
โขYou growled at him, hoping he'd back off but he came closer without hesitation.
โขSurprised by his action, you clench your teeth, raise and hold your hand in a claw like way, snarling at him as a warning.
โขYet Ithaqua didn't stop. He leaned on one leg infront of you as he reached out his hand towards you.
โขYou scatched him beacuse you were scared, you were frantic of people. They've only ever hurt you and your pack. They only tought of themselves. How could he be any different?
โขIthaqua looked at his wounded hand and his brows crooked into a slight frown but he sighed, grabbed your hands and pulled you into his chest. He tightened his grip.
โขYou struggled, bit him, scratched him, kicked him to free yourself of his grasp but he only clenched you harder, with no sign of wanting to let go.
โขYou growled and howled but it had no effect. As panick grew you moved more rapidly.
โขโShhhโฆI'm not going to hurt you.โ He said as he snuggled his face into your hair like how your pack interacted with eachother, showing their love and affection.
โขYou don't know why he did that. Why he tried to make you trust him. Even Ithaqua himself doesn't know. He just knows that he wanted to keep you close to him from the start.
โขYour bond gradully became stronger after that.
โขHe always stays by your side and never leaves you except for matches which he can't do anything about.
โขHe'll give the death stare to anyone who dares to look at you even with the slightest hints of anguish.
โขOn the other hand if anyone has the audacity to become a little to friendly with you he'll bark at them to piss off.
โขHe's an absolute sweetheart to you though.
โขHe's constantly cuddling with you and kissing you everywhere.
โขHe always sings you to sleep. Lullabies his mother sang to him. Thoes melodies are very precious to him and him sharing them with you shows how much he loves and trusts you.
โขYou two always play with eachother like wolf pups. Run around the big yards of the Manor, play hide and seek, and even playfully bite eachother.
โขHe gets so excited whenever you bite him he's like a child that just got a new toy. He'll be giggling so much it just melts your heart.
โขHe always takes you to the Manor yards on the weekends to watch the moon together and you two usually fall asleep on the trees.
โขOn days were the moon is full he'll even howl with you.
โขHe always cuddles and holds you tightly when sleeping. He'll get his coat and puts in on top of you to keep you warm.
โขAnd if you're scared of the dark, he'll always have his lantern on by your side.
Naib Subedar
โขNaib didn't have a reaction when he saw you. You were just a new guest of the Oletus Manor. Someone who has to play these games like the rest of them.
โขHe's pretty closed off towards people except for the few friends he has. But that doesn't mean he's mean to anyone and that includes you.
โขOne day during a match the hunter was chasing you and you got injured. Naib came to help you out a bit and by the end of it the hunter decided to change targets.
โขWhen they were finally gone he wanted to patch you up but you roared at him. I mean you haven't ever interacted with people and you've only seen them while they were trying to hunt you and your pack.
โขHe wasn't expecting that and he flinched for a second. โI want to help you.โ He said. But you couldn't trust him. This is his way of fooling you he doesn't actually want to help.
โขThat's what you were thinking of but his presence casted a serene aura. He was scary, you felt that energy of his, but that was overshadowed by that tranquility of his.
โขYou relaxed you shoulders a bit, thinking maybe he's not so bad. But he reached out his hands to you and that scared you a bit so you took a step back and bared your teeth at him.
โขโPlease we don't have time.โ Naib said a bit annoyed, but he tried to keep himself composed. He didn't blame you. He knew trusting people was hard but now is not the time to be hesitant.
โขHe got on one knee, his hand still hovering waiting for you to take it. โTrust me.โ He said. โI'm only trying to help.โ
โขHis ambiance calmed you down bit by bit. Loosening your muscles, you walked towards him and took his hand.
โขHe guided you to sit and you complied. โIt's going to hurt a bit.โ Naib said and put disinfectant on your wounds then started to patch you up.
โขAfter that he always looked after you. If you were uncomfortable around someone he'd step in and take you away from them.
โขIf you were sitting alone he'd drag you along with him. He never let you feel gloomy or feel like you were in danger, because its Naib. Its his instinct to protect. Well that's what he thought. He didn't realize he was developing feelings for you.
โขHeโd help you read and write so you could have conversations with the others more easily.
โขThe Manor provides any food youโd like but Naib made you food himself whenever he got the chance because โThe food made by the people close to you tastes better.โ
โขHe wants you to feel calm and safe when youโre around him.
โขNaib always gets you toys to play with. He loves playing catch with you. Butterflies flutter in his stomach when he sees you run around and laugh happily.
โขHe scratches behind your ears alot too. He's really good at it and you just fall asleep on his lap.
โขWhenever he's on a match and you miss him you go to his closet and take one of his clothes and wear them since they smell like him and it makes you feel like he's with you.
โขWhen he comes back he just sees a little puppy who is curled up and is sleeping with his clothes.
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What if your unmasked self is unacceptable even to other autistics? I feel like if I don't carefully curate myself I'm too weird and annoying to sustain friendships even with other weirdos. This thing where unmasking makes people like you more because it's more ~authentic~ just hasn't been true for me and it makes me really sad.
Well, what does "weird" and "annoying" mean in this case? In unmaskers I frequently see a lot of understandable social trauma playing out in, let's just say, not the most socially effective of ways at times. No longer mindreading and people pleasing and fawning is all to the good; becoming completely unfiltered while still harboring a ton of deep-seated fear of abandonment and then spilling it out all over people will understandably drive them away. No longer faking emotions and tone of voice preserves energy and helps us feel more genuine, but never putting any energy into trying to understand a friend's interests or emotions will kill a friendship.
There is a messy counterbalancing that has to occur for many unmaskers; at first we focus on never doing anything false and allowing our unbridled selves to roam free -- and then we often recognize that we will need certain self-advocacy, listening, communication, and even diplomacy skills to actually relate to other people, even while remaining true to who we are.
It's normal for the unmasking process to initially seem like it's making you harder to love, more annoying, more bizzaree -- that's a necessary corrective to having previously aimed to make yourself unremarkable or widely liked.
But if you find yourself repeatedly socially alienating even out and proud neurodivergent people, it may be worth asking whether you are taking actions that are pushing them away. Things like interrupting people when they are trying to open up to you, invalidating their feelings, seeking reassurances that no other person can provide, not interacting, self-victimizing, just generally hurtful interpersonal stuff that us traumatized folks sometimes do even in community with one another. If this is the case, you will have to work on accepting the feedback when people are kind enough to tell you that you're bothering them or disrespecting them -- it is not the end of the world, it is a habit you can notice and correct.
Or you might just still be withdrawing and inhibiting very hard, and doing self-protective things that convey to others that they should give you a wide berth. Lots of unmaskers give off really strong "dont talk to me dont come up to me i feel socially unsafe right now" vibes that are completely honest and authentic to where they are at the moment, even if they wish they could seem more welcoming. Please give yourself some grace to feel all that if that's what it is.
No one is too weird or too annoying to make friends. But you might need to find the people who are weird enough and mad enough and disabled enough for you. Alternatively, you might have some interpersonal baggage that affects how you treat others you still need to work on. Or your internalized disability stigma might just be telling you that youre being too much when youre barely taking up social space at all.
You know your pattern of experiences and the feedback others have given you, so hopefully you can sort out what is currently missing in your social life based on that and some reflection and more testing. Good luck and let me know what you figure out.
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princess fluffy-cupcake-sparkles
i'll be the laziest superman, so follow me !
playing happy fools, poppin love ..
yeosang x fem!reader
au: a school project at a flower garden
genre: grumpy!yeosang x sunshine!reader, fluff, tsundere, a piece of dialogue, a jealous-but-dont-wanna-admit-it yeosang
wc: 1.0k
summary: if yeosang hated animals but only tolerated them for you
tw: yeosang jelly of wooyoung
note: inspired by that one scene in ouabh and dude i was like ooo yeosang HELP ong i js pulled this out of my notes app tbh there is no reason for anything TT i love nonchalant yeosang so much idk why....
yeosang stood far from the venue, his back to a large stone. a mysterious creature, which he soon figures is a cat, approaches him and starts to sniff his shoes. he struggles, unfamiliar with dealing with animals.
the cat was white coated, with large patches of orange and black laid all over itself. a calico cat, but yeosang does not know that. he is not familiar with whatever sort of cat breeds there are or its names, nor does he care.
he tried to kick it away, but it does not leave.
"interesting..." he mutters.
yeosang notices that you have already arrived from the payment stall, though he does not react.
you are at the botanical garden with yeosang, required to take pictures for a school travel project of visiting significant places around town.
when you find a cat meandering around his feet, you giggle. "it must like you!!"
"perhaps it does." he looks down at the cat and stares at it.
previously, you insisted to pay for the entry fee, but yeosang blackmailed you to not do so, to use his card instead.
he sighs and then speaks to it. "leave me alone, mutt."
as he says so, his eyes subtly widen with agitation at the fact it does not want to leave.
"you should name it. spill some ideas," you smile as you look down to the cat.
yeosang looks up at you in confusion and disbelief, as if it was a foolish act to name a random animal from the woods.
"what?"
"why should i? it's not my pet, it's just a stray." he replies, dismissing your suggestion.
but he keeps his gaze on the little animal, which doesn't seem to leave him alone.
"hmm." he starts to speak to it. "stay if you wish... but do not expect any attention from me."
you chuckle at his decision to talk to the cat, becoming more and more amused. it is visible that you already grew fond of the stray cat.
"you should name it....." you hum, lost in thought for ideas, "oh!! i know!! you should name it princess fluffy-cupcake-sparkles!!"
"that name is completely ridiculous," he says, his expression becoming a form of disgust when he looks back down at the cat. "how does a creature like this deserve such a name? if i had a pet, which i never will, the name would make sense."
you look up from the cat to yeosang, your expression dissipating to a blank, empty stare of disappointment. you almost choose to abandon this whole project despite its relevance to your grading, solely to leave yeosang to do it all alone.
"next time i choose a partner to do this project with, it'll be with someone who has a sense of humour. maybe someone like wooyoung."
yeosang's gaze ever so slowly travels from your toes to your eyes, his face turning to indifference. he ignores the cat and its intentions, looking directly at you.
a moment of silence ensues as he attempts to figure out what to say.
"yes, go ahead and partner with wooyoung. i would like to see the result of your foolish decision."
you get surprised by the sudden tone. the answer is also astonishing, as you expected a response of apathy. "oh come on, it was even more of a foolish decision to partner with you," you reply.
"you chose to do this with me simply because you did not have friends. it was foolish on your part to believe things would be of joy for you," he says, maintaining his usual tone.
you tried not to take offence.
he looks down at the cat and finally, with a heavy sigh, he decides to entertain the idea of naming it.
"fine, i will name it. but not with that stupid name."
you're taken back. you're surprised by how easily he is induced, knowing how dense of an individual he is. he seemed to be affected by the mere mention of your choice of a partner being wooyoung, to the major extent that he had to agree to do such a thing.
"if i didn't know you better, i would say you're jealous of him," you say.
he stays silent for a moment, glaring back up at you again. "jealousy is not something i am used to feeling," he pauses, his voice vastly unwelcoming."i did not agree to talk or joke about wooyoung."
a moment of silence ensues between the two of you. the cat continues sniffing around and starts to walk towards him again. it circles around his feet, rubbing itself to his leather boots.
"princess fluffy-cupcake-sprinkles already claims you as his owner," you smile.
"do not associate me with the cat." yeosang says, and you can sense that his patience with your jokes are starting to dwindle. the cat steps a short distance away from him after a few moments and simply stares at him from afar, growing bored of him.
you chuckle at the reaction of yeosang. "i dont know why you dislike such adorable creatures."
he shakes his head and groans.
"its a mere animal. why am i expected to pay any attention to it?" he sighs.
he attempts find relish in the cat for you're very sake, but he knows very well that the cat is annoying him more and more by its mere presence alone.
with one last glance, the cat finally leaves and moves on elsewhere.
he relaxes a bit, but his expression remains unchanged. he clears his throat. "now that that's taken care of, let's go."
"wait," you say. yeosang turns right after he starts walking to the venue, watching you carefully sneak over towards the cat again. he is in major disappointment to your stupid, futile decisions.
you manage to pick up the cat, and it does not run. "yeosang!!" you hold up the obedient feline and smile widely.
he instantly softens.ย
"well, what do you intend with that thing?" he asks.
"take the pictures with it!!" you reply. you carry the cat over your shoulder, and you run over to yeosang.ย
"do you believe the garden allows it?" he says with a genuine intent of reminding you that you are stepping into a neat garden of flowers.
"how could they refuse it? look!" you hold up the damn cat, smiling illuminantly. "princess fluffy-cupcake-sparkles!!"
he refuses to admit what you're smile does to him.
"princess.." he struggles, ashamed of the lengths he goes for you. "princess fluffy-cupcake-sparkles."
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pillow talk
synopsis: the three times in which you sleep over at seungmin's childhood home as his friend and the one time you're something more.
pairing: non-idol!seungmin x gn!reader
genre: hurt, comfort, angt
warnings: mentions of abandonment, reader is an orphan and in foster care, swearing, food
word count: 3.3k words
now playing: you make me feel - easha
requested: by the lovely @booksndpoetry
a/n: wrote this is two days no wonder it's so bad (pls dont kill me)
"the colors of your love came so suddenly"
The first time you slept over at his childhood home was accompanied with the dull throb and apprehension of yet another new beginning.
Your one solitary bag and the pillow that was your only prized possession were the only things you had with you. Your bag hung off one shoulder and the pillow was clutched to your chest.
You found yourself wondering what Seungmin's family was like. Being a pessimist, you didn't hope for the best and braced yourself for the worst. When the door opened, warm yellow light spilled through the silhouette of a middle-aged women and temporarily blinded you.
Your posture slightly relaxed. Families with an abundance of yellow lights rarely mistreated you.
Your situation was laughable really. You weren't even a full two weeks into the Jang's care, and yet the neglect had already begin.
Stop, you told yourself, at least they were willing to take your old ass in. The Jangs' were away for a business trip and informed you last minute that their flight had been cancelled. They told you to g once she locked up left.
It wasn't that you weren't grateful to the Jangs; but the years you had spent being grateful and getting nothing in return caused you to offer a cautious thanking to their actions. They were sweet to you so far, but you didn't blame them for wanting you out of the house when you were gone.
Foster kids and newly adopted kids had a history of stealing, and while you had never done the same, the feeling of paranoia was one that you were well accustomed to.
Mrs. Kim had a kind, slightly wrinkled face and a wide smile. "Hello dear. You must be Y/N. Come in, come in. Don't stand in the cold for too long."
You could instantly feel the maternal protection that radiated from Mrs. Kim, something you felt in dots and dashed from Mrs. Jang. You knew the Jangs cared, but they didn't quite know how to care. You knew that the Kims had two kids however, an older daughter in college and a boy, sixteen and your age.
Younger you would be mentally cartwheeling in happiness at the thought of being under the care of Mrs. Kim, even if it was for a night. Older you couldn't care less.
Two years until I leave the fucking system for good.
You shifted uncomfortably as you gazed around the house. Wow. It was well decorated and definitely reflected the luxury that the Kims resided in. Everything in sight was in warm and inviting shades of color that made you feel very appreciative.
Interior design had always been a point of interest for you. You realized that there was a lot you could learn about a person from the way they designed their home.
Mrs. Kim turned to look at you. "Ah, you'll be in Seungmin's sister's room. I have told him to clean it up, so you won't have to worry about that. His father is out playing golf, but he'll be home soon too."
Mrs. Kim handed you a glass of water which you accepted with a genuine smile. You were gazing at the family portraits on the wall as you sipped quietly. The entire family looked like they were surrounded by an aura of calm, unbothered by the qualms of the world.
Oh how sweet would it be, to live like that.
"Can I- can I go change upstairs please?" you asked Mrs. Kim softly.
She looked up from the chopping board, lettuce diced evenly. "Oh, of course darling. No need to ask. As long as you're here, this house is yours."
"Seungmin!" she yelled to an unknown entity who must have been on the second floor of the house.
"Coming!" yelled back Seungmin.
The sweetness of his voice took you aback. Just one word made you crave to hear more. His voice was smooth and rich like honey, washing over you. You wondered if he had an inclination towards music, singing in particular; with a voice like that, it would be a shame if he wasn't.
Footsteps pounded down the stairs and a boy with a black t-shirt and grey sweatpants appeared in front of you and Mrs. Kim. He was cute, almost puppy like, with flappy hair and defined features. Seungmin bounded over to his mother and looked at you curiously.
"Seungmin, this is Y/N. Take her upstairs, will you?" Mrs. Kim asked.
"Okay," Seungmin replied.
You extended you hand. "Hello. It's a pleasure to make your acquaintance."
Seungmin accepted with a non-judgmental, but curious expression. Mrs. Kim visibly smiled into the large pot she was currently stirring, clearly amused at your outdated usage of language. You cringed internally, mentally cursing the British family that you were with for two years from the age of five for forcing you into greeting people this way.
"It's nice to meet you to," his warm hand grasped yours and let go with a firm shake.
"Come on," said Seungmin, cocking his head towards the stairs in front of you.
You followed his slowly, taking in the houses beauty. Somehow, everything worked with everything. This must have been artistic living.
Seungmin opened his sister's bedroom door and motioned you to go in. You gave him a small smile, if it could be called that, and shut the door. When you turned around, you were met with a lot of surprise.
When Mrs. Kim mentioned that Seungmin was cleaning up the room for you, you were prepared to face a light skimming and dusting of things. In reality though, everything was meticulously arranged and kept in it's place.
Such level of neatness was slightly terrifying.
You changed and kept your things to one side. When you came out, you went downstairs with the clear intention of trying to get a read on the enigmatic Kim Seungmin.
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This was going to be a disaster.
Both you and Seungmin were quiet by nature. Albeit for different reasons, you both sat awkwardly, waiting for the other person.
Seungmin was quiet because he liked observing. He was a listener, and enjoyed hearing what others had to say rather than talking himself. He found the art of listening to be the most brilliant that there was.
You, on the other hand, were forced into being quiet to the point where you forgot what it was like to hold meaningless conversation. All your life, you had been taught that the key to a successful life in the foster system was to remain submissive and deferential.
You never even bothered to make connections with people. You had learnt the hard way that when you bounced around houses and cities, it was difficult to maintain contact with people. You had made up your mind at just the tender age of eight that making friends, hell even acquaintances, was pointless. You were just saving yourself and the other person from future heartbreak.
As a result of being alone so much, you didn't exactly know how to hold conversation with people in your age range.
"So, uh, wanna do something?" Seungmin asked.
You shrugged. "Sure."
You both sat in his basement, a bowl of popcorn in between and half drunk iced tea beside you. Seungmin was very respectful, not once brining up your living situation. He brought the drink to his lips and downed the rest (which was very little) in one go.
"Okay, um, twenty questions?" He asked.
You instantly felt discomfort rise in you. Ah, here it was. His opening to ask you intrusive questions. "I- fine," you relented.
You were ready for whatever shade he was going to throw at you. He didn't ask about your personal life apart from the usual questions (favorite color, movie, etc.) a single time. You were slowly warming up to him.
"Last question. What's something you haven't told anyone?" asked Seungmin innocently.
You snorted, "Why would I tell you that?"
Seungmin smirked, "I mean, I'm very trustworthy. Plus, it's always better to tell your secrets to a stranger rather than a person you know."
You found it strange, but conceded. It felt nice to talk to someone after so long.
"You know the pillow I brought with me, right? That's the most important thing in my life. I was found near a train station laid on top of it, covered in a blanket and a sweater. Those were taken away from me a long time ago, but the pillow was something I fought to keep."
You finished nonchalantly, suppressing a laugh at Seungmin's expression of pure shock.
"I was expecting something along the lines of breaking something fancy or something. I mean, I was going to tell you about the time I broke into my parents liquor closet but chickened out and never drank anything."
You regarded him with a guarded smile. Kim Seungmin was an enigma, but for the first time in your life, he was one which you felt an odd temptation to solve.
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The second time you slept over at his childhood home was full of fear and anticipation that was directed towards your college entrance exams tomorrow.
Although the Jangs never formally adopted you, you had stayed with them for close to two years now. You formed an interesting bond with Seungmin: you weren't quite friends, but you understood each other on a deeper level.
Seungmin was easily the only person you would talk to. You both started engaging in combined study sessions, filled with silence interrupted only by a pen scratching against paper or a groan of frustration.
The night before, you needed to go to Seungmin's house to revise. Or rather, to confess.
You were pacing in his room as he lay on his bed. Seungmin was on his back, flipping through one of his textbooks. Finally, he let out a sigh.
"Alright. What is it?" he asked.
"I need to get the top score," you insisted. Seungmin looked at you with a raised eyebrow.
"Everyone does," he said matter of factly.
"No, everyone wants it, but I need it," you repeated.
Silence with Seungmin was never uncomfortable, post your initial interaction. Silence with Seungmin alleviated your tensions. This silence, however, felt pressing.
"Tell me something you have never told anyone," he asked you quietly.
The routine asking of this question had become a habit between you two now. Whenever you noticed that the other was shifty, holding something back, this was their cue to tell you what was wrong.
"I'm being selfish," you groaned, "I need to so that my name gets published somewhere, anywhere, so that my birth parents know I'm alive and find me. I'm not giving them the liberty of me searching for them. They lost that a long time ago. If they want me, it's them who need to look for me."
You plopped onto Seungmin's office chair and pointlessly spun in circles. He studied you carefully.
After a pause, he responded, "I'll be honest. You are being selfish. You want this, no, apparently need this for reasons that have nothing to do with your future studies, which is what college entrance exams are all about. But considering you situation, I believe it's completely justified."
You instantly felt at ease. This boy you only know for two years astoundingly always knew the right thing to say.
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You and Seungmin had the house to yourself. His parents were visiting his sister, helping her settle into her new apartment. You ads Seungmin had to share his room, the other rooms stored with his sister's things that needed to be moved.
You were practically asleep in his bedroom but an uneasy churning in your stomach kept you awake. You could hear Seungmin lightly open the door and step inside.
"Wait, I'm gonna go get the air mattress," he voiced in the dark room.
You turned towards him. "No, just sleep with me."
"You sure?" He asked.
Seungmin knew about your hesitancy towards forming attachments and committing. You hummed in affirmation, knowing that he would get little to no sleep on the air mattress and wouldn't let you sleep on it either.
He slid in beside you, his face facing yours. You both just looked into each other's eyes until you broke away, turning to the other side. Seungmin felt a part of his heart chip away for reasons he couldn't really identify.
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You felt bile work it's way up your throat and knew you wouldn't be able to suppress it. Carefully getting out of bed to make sure Seungmin didn't wake up, you made your way to the bathroom.
Routinely swallowing your vomit, you got to the bathroom and without even switching on it's lights, heaved out the contents of your stomach as quietly as possible.
Or so you thought. A drowsy Seungmin materialized at the doorway, turning on the light and watching you in concern. You flushed the toilet and violently splashed your face with water.
"Being half asleep is a very good look on you," he mumbled dryly.
"Likewise," you panted, an apologetic expression on your face.
You hated physical touch. Seungmin knew you hated physical touch. But when you reached over to lightly squeezed his hand as an apology, Seungmin felt a similar constriction in his chest.
To Kim Seungmin, you were a mystery he hadn't quiet solved, but he was still, willing to do anything for you, and the unfamiliarity of such a feeling scared him beyond belief.
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The third time you slept over at his childhood home was full of nostalgia and memories.
You both were twenty two, finishing up your undergraduates, when you mentioned to Seungmin in passing that you would be in town on your way for an assignment that would require you to travel. Seungmin jumped at the idea of you staying with him, since he was house sitting for his parents that very weekend.
Seungmin would be lying if he said that he wasn't hurt by your slowly decreasing contact. Conversation between you both slowly dwindled, but he never pried as to why. He understood that you rarely ever maintained an attachment, and that he was lucky for what he had.
You wondered what it would be like when you went back. The Jangs had never fostered a child after you, but never called you their daughter. They maintained contact with you but never attended events like graduation.
Still, deep down, at the end of the day, you knew you carried two things in your heart: Your now battered pillow and Seungmin.
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You both were sitting in his backyard, legs crossed over each other on Seungmin's folding chairs. Stars littered the sky the way they littered his eyes, and you couldn't help but be entranced by the wistful gaze that Seungmin held.
"Tell me something you have never told anyone," you asked, leaning your head over, near his shoulder. Just a few inches, and it would placed on it.
Just a few inches, and everything would mean something.
Seungmin knew his words carried gravity, but he was tired of walking on coal around you.
"I missed you," he said, a near whisper.
You stilled. "Your turn," came his voice after an eternity.
"I talk to my pillow sometimes. I pretend like it's a family member. It stopped, when I used to live here. But it grew in frequency during college. There is something inherently wrong with me, and I think that it's either me being undeserving of love or me never having been loved."
When your voice finally faded, Seungmin turned to look at you. Your eyes were glassy and unfocused. He wanted nothing more than to shake some sense into you, tell you that you were loved. Hell, he was proof, if you needed it.
"You're loved. If you weren't you wouldn't be here," Seungmin said hoarsely.
You snorted in response. "Yeah, I sure as hell wouldn't be here if I was loved."
Your words stung but Seungmin wasn't deterred. "I love you," he said softly.
Your eyes widened fractionally and you turned to look at him. "What?"
"No," he laughed, "Not that way. I love you as a friend, a confidant, as someone I know I can always talk too. Not... whatever it was you were thinking."
You visibly eased under the effects of his words, but noticed that Seungmin didn't do the same. His body was still tense, still rigid.
"What is it?" you asked.
"I- I know I said I love you as a friend but," Seungmin's voice faltered.
"But?" you prodded, your own heartbeat increasing with each passing moment.
"I would be falsifying my emotions if I said there weren't times when I wanted to love you in different ways as well. Romantically. Intimately. Devotionally," he added in an uncharacteristically shy tone, "If you'll have me."
And you realized, with a start that you did want him. But doubts started plaguing your mind, started seeping into your body and mixing with your being. What is the pain of it was so irreparable that you would never be able to love, if you ever could in the first place, again?
"What if I can't recognize your love for love?" you questioned meekly.
"Then I'll say it to you everyday. Platonically at first, romantically, maybe, afterwards, but I'll say it to you every single day. If every hour if you want me too. Because it's the truth."
You felt the warmth that accompanied thoughts of Seungmin blooming in the pits of your stomach. Or maybe it was the barbecued chicken you just ate. In the heat of the moment, you weren't quite that sure.
"And what if I can't love you? All I have ever known towards this world is hate."
"Then I'll teach you. We have all the time in the world to do so. If all you have known is hate, then love should come easily. They're very similar emotions," Seungmin said softly.
He hesitantly moved his hand towards yours, and laced his fingers through the pads of your knuckles. You did the same and moved you head to place it on his shoulder. Now, everything did mean something.
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The fourth time you had slept over at his childhood home, Seungmin taught you that love could be found in every aspect of the world.
It was hidden in the way sparrows flew towards each other in the summer, in the way mothers looked at their children and the way a child looked at candy. It came in droppings, reflected in the way you felt about rain and cherry blossoms.
Seungmin taught you how love was found in the grand and the simple.
Love was when he sent you large bouquets of roses that you had know idea where to keep and the surprise picnics you planned for him. It was the coffee he prepared for you every morning without question and the way you paused whatever you were watching when he had to step out for a phone call.
At the Kim house, you experienced even more love.
Sisterly love, when Seungmin's sister showed off the clothes she brought for you. Maternal love, when Mrs. Kim squealed in excitement when she spotted you holding Seungmin's hand. Paternal love, when Mr. Kim placed a bet against his team while giving you a wink. Brotherly love, when Seungmin's cousin tried to steal food off your plate.
You felt love everywhere, and slowly but surely, you spread love everywhere.
That night, Seungmin held you close and sang into your hair the way he did every night.
"I love you," he yawned, and snuggled into you.
And, you wanted to say it back. Mustering up the courage, you replied, "I think I love you too. No, I know I love you too."
Seungmin looked at you in astonishment and you realized that you were right all along.
He did have stars in his eyes.
You didn't know much about love. You were still learning, still faltering. But you knew one thing for certain: the love you held for Seungmin and the love he held for you would never go away.
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Best friends w/ Ruan Mei
[ HEADCANONS ] [ Honkai Star Rail ]
I love Ruan Mei, she is beautiful, powerful, a mad scientist, autistic what else can you ask for????
Okay, i dont like what she have done to the little baby cakes but I already forgive her because we take care of them BUT I WILL NOT FORGIVE HER FOR MAKING ME FIGHT WITH THAT MONSTER!!! BITCH YOU KNOW HOW MUCH ATTEMPTS IT TAKE ME KILL THAT THING!!!
Ruan Mei is a hermit, she lives held in her own experiments and investigation, despite being well know in the scientific community is quite difficult to get to know her in person
If you were someone from the genious society or even just work at Herta Space Station the chances for you two to meet are higher, but still is more likely that you two won't interact much unless you can offer her some kind of help or even represent academics value, otherwise is more likely that Ruan Mei won't even glance at you
It can be quite difficult to deal with Ruan Mei, not because she is usually mean or rude but because she doesn't see the need or importance on relate to others and when she does interact with others she just act the way she things she should since she doesn't quite understand emotions or social interactions
Being able to become friends with Ruan Mei has being a surprise for everyone, and still she doesn't make a big deal out of it, after being able to interact with you for a while and had analyzed your personality and what she feels she just reached the conclution that this relationship make her feel good, make her quite happy and even help her with her experiments in indirect ways, besides it helps her get to know a little bit more about humanity so she thinks is only right to keep this relationship
Ruan Mei thinks that relationship are based on what both parts can get from the other part, but since you had already proved that you bring her a lot of benefits is only right that now Ruan Mei offer you something too, so with that your friendship start to grow in a quite unique way
No matter how much time you two have being together or how close your relasionship is Ruan Mei will always think that she must give you something in exchange of what she recives from you, so she is constantly offering you help or little gifts
In name of your friendship Ruan Mei and you often take tea and desserts together, she grow to appreciate your company so at some point she start planing little tea parties for you two to just chat, always willing to heard you out and talk about anything, her research, her plans, her past, ask you if you need help on anything or even hear you talk about your own job (specially if you are from the genious society, she will be quite interested on your work and to know how is that Nous had set their sight on you), she will even be happy to just talk about trivial things like your favorite flavor of cake
One of the signs that can show that Ruan Mei have grow to like you and see you as a really good friend is that she actively talks to you, she is a totally hermit and just concentrate in her work, but when she start to send you more messages just to talk to you or even ask your opinion, sometimes asking you for some help sometime when she has doubts or doesn't fully understand (more probably with things like the emotions), you can tell that you have win her trust and her friendship with those little hints, even so she still constantly give you little gifts like rewards for being a good friend
Ruan Mei doesn't has moral or limits when it comes to her experiments, creating all kind of creatures that can help her research but abandoning them once she doesn't see any use to them anymore, and even if you confront her about it she won't change because she just can't see them aside from their academic value, even if their are part of her she just can't think more of them, she doesn't even know how to react or see them aside form their purpose on the experiment, but if you feel bad or even like her creations Ruan Mei will be more than willing to let you keep them once she doesn't need them (wanting to help her see them in a diferent way will be a little difficult but could bring good results after a while)
Ruan Mei doesn't really like getting attached at anyone since she thinks time and live is ephemeral, just like her parents is more likely that your life will end or just will leave her somehow, she doesn't like the feeling that event give her but now that you have manage to left an impact on her she just can't just walk away from you (at the start she probably tried to do it, wanting to leave you behind and make you forget her, but that stopped when she saw the benefits of your friendship), she knows some day you'll leave her but she will be ready to accept it when it happens, hopefuly you won't leave her with the feeling of being abandoned or betrayed
#honkai star rail#honkai star rail x reader#hsr x reader#ruan mei#ruan mei x reader#x reader#x gn reader#video game x reader
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TOXIC THINGS ABOUT GENSHIN GUYS PT. 1
albedo
he may start the relationship because he loves you but that doesn't mean that he won't treat it like an experiment of some sort
it's hard to keep a conversation going if what you're talking about doesn't interest him in the slightest, he'll dismiss whatever you're saying without much thought
give him an inch and he'll take a mile - he'll pretty much take advantage of the fact that you're around for him, may it be fetching some resources for him or your voluntarism for his projects
but you understand that all of this is to help albedo save time right? the least you want to do is consume too much of his day
tighnari
my goodness, he gets so controlling of your decisions even though it has nothing to do with him just because he's so confident in his abilities to help you
fennec foxes only have one mate for their entire lifetime - there was no one before you and there will be no one after you so he will be very resistant if you want to break up
he may get bitter if you mistakingly do something wrong, sighing irritatingly and telling you he knew this would happen and feels like he's the one who should take responsibility from it
tighnari just cares about you a lot even if he has to be harsh from time to time - he wants the best for you really, and he is the best you'll have
wanderer
issue on top of issue - might it be his fear of abandonment or for betrayal, you just never seem to know how to deal with his mess
mind you, this is the remnant of what could be a god. he gets very greedy for you and doesn't feel bad about it, you offered yourself to him so you did this to yourself
he expects so much from you it's just unbearable. you'll stay for the night to console him right? even though your best friend needs you right now, won't you keep him company while he tells you about his past?
to be loved by wanderer is an amazing thing, he has so much to give and its all for you - you'll accept everything, even the discomforts of it
xiao
human emotions are not something he's that familiar with, knowing how stubborn he can be, it will take a lot for him to hear you out
he doesn't like it when you get so happy while conversing with someone else, its hard to say if it's because of his possessive nature or insecurities he keeps hidden
he pushes you away when his karma takes a toll on him and if you persist to stay he'll do it harshly, no mercy given. him always coming back to you later might be what's hurting even more
xiao wants to protect you, be there for you - you'll never find someone so commited to you as he is, even if your feelings about it are very vague to him
A/N: just to be clear i dont condone any of these actions, i just wanted to burst the delulu bubble of some ppl hihihihi
if you feel like any of these headcanons might be close to what you're experiencing with your partner, i suggest you take a second opinion from someone knowledgeable about relationships like a dating coach or a counselor (even tho the fact you see a resemblance might be reason enough to cut them off)
#genshin impact#genshin#genshin impact x reader#genshin x reader#genshin impact headcanons#genshin imagines#xiao x reader#wanderer x reader#albedo x reader#tighnari x reader#xiao#albedo#wanderer#tighnari#genshin xiao#genshin tighnari#genshin albedo#genshin wanderer#wanderer x you#albedo x you#tighnari x you#xiao x you#genshin impact angst
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Hello! I have this idea/request for sagau loosely based off of me and my friendโs dynamic where there are two separate creators. Like, not two reader clones or smth just two separate people, either of them can be reader, or both??? Idk, just do whatever you want with this idea :)
They both play genshin, and both of their accs r self aware. One of them is a whale who has all the characters and plays everyday. However, they dont know much about building characters because their fav part of the game is the lore and knows a lot abt it and always talks while playing. The other is a f2p that plays for several weeks straight before taking along break, and only has their fav characters (COUGH wanderer COUGH) and they are the type to never speak AT ALL while gaming. They also have more of a meta player mindset while building their fav characters and doesnt care for much for the lore.
I just like to imagine how the genshin cast would react to them in coop, especially for the first time. Just seeing one of them rant to the other about the lore or seeing one of them one shot all the enemies. And imagine two if the same characters from the different accs meeting each other.
absolutely love the idea of two wanderers as that silly little fucking spiderman meme
also there's scaramouche instead of wanderer for now for the plot
DOUBLES! ft. scaramouche and albedo
c.w // spoilers for sumeru quest and scara's backstory, heavy(?) angst in scara's part, pet names BECAUSE I CAN!!1!11!! GRAHH
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ALBEDO
"What are these talent levels?? Why'd you crown Albedo's normal attack? It's the most useless in his kit- you know you should've leveled his Skill, right?" You said, while you looked at your friends Albedo- it honestly hurt to look at.
"Uh.. Yeah, I totally knew that.. I just was.. testing it.. out..?" Your friend mumbled into their mic, obviously lying.
Meanwhile, in one of your worlds, two Albedos were silently watching the other.
'Why is there another me? I could've swore I killed Dorian.. but he also has a star mark. It looks exactly like mine.' They both thought to themselves.
Eventually, one of them spoke out.
"Who are you?" Albedo said, staring at the other blankly, the smallest bit of confusion and fascination only seen if you truly tried to look for it hard within his eyes.
"I am Albedo."
"I am also Albedo. Are you sure you're really 'Albedo'?"
"Are you sure you're Albedo?"
This went on for a while.. neither of them were like this usually, but the other just wouldn't give up. Both were persistent when curiosity had peaked, and this just got very interesting.
end : 1/2
SCARAMOUCHE
"...well, that was one hell of a boss fight.." You mumbled under your breath.. you had barely managed to make it out of Scaramouche's boss fight alive-- half of your characters were dead, and the others were barely hanging on by a thread-- you truly need to thank the ancient Genshin cooks for Sweet Madames and Chicken Mushroom Skewers..
"It sucks that Scara really thinks that about himself. I mean, sure, he was abandoned by Raiden, but not because he was weak or anything. It's really because she just didn't want to control every aspect of his life, but there are of course, better ways she could've done that. You do have to understand that both made mistakes that lead them to where they are now, and..." You went off on a ramble, and unbeknownst to you, a certain purple-haired boy was listening to everything that spilled from your lips.
Everything he's ever known and believed in-- it was all just.. just a misunderstanding? He felt hopeless all of a sudden, he felt like falling.. and he did.
That's when you looked back at the screen, suddenly knocked out of your rambling state and (semi)yelled out, "Oh shit, ain't nobody gonna catch him?!" ...and nobody did. You silently flinched at the sound of the impact-- even through a screen, you could tell that hurt horribly.
"Oh no, poor darling.." You mumbled sympathetically as you read each and every word stated and said during the 'quest,' just like you did with each and every other one. You knew all of this yet you still felt so sad for the poor puppet Scaramouche. He really didn't deserve any of that, you thought to yourself as you wished you could've done something, or that you could do something.. if only it weren't through a screen.
Scaramouche hated being pitied, but maybe.. maybe if it was you, he didn't mind, and maybe he felt a small sense of pride because it meant in some way, and at some point, you cared for him.. and that filled him with more joy than either of you realized, and much more joy than you ever will even think.
end : 2/2
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i love nina beinghuman so much and i wish she was in a better show w a love interest that is less of a clown bc hello. imagine u are a nurse and theres these two weirdos at ur job who everyone low key suspects are banging bc they live together and they applied to their positions together and theres a rumour that they both used to squat in the abandoned hospital wing thats down for renovations together
and one of them is like a grade a sleazy fuckboy whos v pretty and knows it but also his job is literally mopping up puke so ur pretty immune to any and all coolness he exudes bc u have seen this man scrubbing human excrement from the floors but sometimes u both go take a smoke break at the same time and he can be kind of funny when he wants so like even though hes not ur type u Get It u guess
and the other one is well. at first u think he is the one riding the coattails of his hot friend bc he is absolutely hopeless and has negative charisma somehow despite looking kind of cute and being a bumbling hopeless fool but he constantly puts his foot in his mouth and seems like kind of an ass, actually? but then u get to know him better and turns out that no the hot friend is riding His cottails bc clearly this man is employed wayyy under his skill level bc that man is absolutely sharp and intelligent and yet he is a fucking hospital porter for reasons ur not sure u want to really know, actually, but also like? that man's ass? ๐ awooga
so when the hot guy hits on u on ur next shared smokebreak on the awkward guy's behalf and sets u up for a date ur like okay. maybe i will give that man a chance maybe i was hasty in my judgements and he IS cute so like what have i got to lose here
and then u and the awkward guy get together but also the Vibes u get from him and his bestie never really stop but he says its not like that and he loves u and he knows u and he still! he still wants u after having seen u, all the parts of u that u are scared to share so this is good! this could be something really good for once in ur life u get to have this one good thing and its this man and you are happy
and then all of that somehow leads to ur sweet and clumsy boyfriend transforming into a fucking monster right in front of ur eyes and killing a man by Ripping Him To Shreds like thats a thing people do that he could do the whole time and then he infects u and ur life is over it is fucking over and except maybe its not? but yeah no these new people dont want to help u they just want to kill you and the secret third flatmate ur ex boyfriend and hot guy who apparently is a reformed mass murderer had is even deader than before and stuck in hell and its ur fault
and u try to fix it and then theres more people dead and everything sucks and ur hiding and you have to leave everything and everyone u knew behind to start a new life in wales but at least u get the roommate back and u and ur boyfriend are back together and ur pregnant! and maybe now finally u get to be a happy family for real!
but u still live w the roommates who are now also in love ? you think? she is in love in any case but ur not entirely sure abt the guy bc he has been off ever since the move and theres awful stuff on the news about this massacre and it starts to feel Not Good and he is getting erratic and also the guy ur boyfriend killed a while ago somehow got resurrected but lost his mind in the process so as a good person u decided to keep him in ur attic and treat him like ur weird uncle bc u feel responsible for this, somehow and then things start adding up and ur suspicions become more and more firm until u are sure that ur boyfriends pet ex mass murderer is in fact a pet CURRENT mass murderer and your boyfriend KNEW and he did absolutely NOTHING but at least that man is gone now. so many people are dead but at least hes gone
and then one evening it knocks on the door and hes back. hot guy is back and he is here bc he regrets everything and wants to die and u agree he Should die he is a horrible person he broke ur flamate/friends heart and made ur boyfriend complicit in one of the most horrendous crimes in recent history and also he just fucking sucks bc without him none of this would have ever happened and then he asks ur boyfriend to stab him bc he doesnt want to commit suicide by himself like the spineless creature he is and ur boyfriend agrees and u start to wonder if maybe those coworkers at the hospital years ago who spread the rumour that these two were in love were right all along and that ur boyfriend was never just ur boyfriend alone
#and then u have ur baby and two weeks later u get beaten to death by some fucking weirdos and for what!!!!!#nina i will love u forever. u and annie should have unionised and left these clowns to their weird gay chicken bullshit#being human uk#nina pickering#georgemitchell#being human#cavetext#she shouldve been canonised as a saint. never did anything wrong in her life ever and even if she did she gets a free pass#being human once again television show of all time. its a flatshare comedy its a working class drama its a gothic tragedy its cinema.#is it good? no. but it is GOOD
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Cover art by @merp0515 Gmod art by @b-r-i-n-g-x Do not repost art (this fic is for my sib bringx have an awesome day!) Summary: Frustrated with SMG4, Three takes his stress out on a pair of dolls he put in Fours room.ย Slowly secret feelings slip out with a guest catching the whole show.
Tag: love confession, first kiss, dorks in love,fluff
SMG3 huffs walking away from four and the rest of the crew annoyed, SMG4 wanted to do a video testing everyone's skills in different challenges. Four knew that Three wasn't about eating challenges and other silly activities the others would be into, yet the man still told Three he had to eat a bunch of pasta against their avatar. He storms into the castle thinking on how to blow off steam since the group was using his cafe as background to help boost interest. He noticed that Four left his room open, there in the chest of his room were two doll made to look like their old design.ย
He keeps stomping as he makes his way to his partner's room, he slams the door shut and looks at the dolls. He picks them up frowning, seeing their old design brought back not so pleasant memories for him. He sits on the floor with the dolls and sighs changing the pitch of his voice he begins to move around the SMG4 doll โOh Three mind doing some really stupid shit that will make you look like an idiot, haha that was a joke i dont give a shit go do it!โย he picks up his doll and starts moving it โYou're just giving me these roles cause you know i'm better than you, i'm A tier while your just a D tier scrub!โย
He kept going back and forth getting his anger about the events out of his system, slowly something else surfaced as he brought the doll together. He blushed seeing how close the dolls were, he brought them closer as his heart raced at the thought of making them kiss.ย Is this something that he wanted?ย
He thinks back over everything they have gone through, he had to admit since confessing he saw the other man as a friend the pair had gotten closer. They joke around more, they hold hands more often not because he likes it after all they had to use their powers in that way. Lately he has not been able to get SMG4 out of his head, the idea of spending time with him made his chest feel strange. He thinks back to the last time he felt this way, he met Gary, he saved him from an explosion he caused due to using too much gunpowder they hit it off well until his obsession with SMG4 got in the middle.ย
He sighs dropping the dolls, everything that has gone wrong was because of the idiot. Yet at the same time all the best memories he had was also with the man, with conflicting emotions he grabs the dolls again and makes them kiss.ย
He smiles softly at the sight, it reminded him of their first kiss that Mario made them do. He acted like he hated it but deep down he knew he loved it, he changed his voice and moved the SMG4 doll โYour so awesome SMG3, no wonder you became tumblr sexy man. Lately my thoughts on you have changed.โ he moves the other doll making it seem shocked โWhat are you saying SMG4!?โ Lost in his game of pretending he doesn't hear the door open as SMG4 went to check on him. He blinks seeing Three sitting by his bed holding the two dolls, he slowly walks towards him hearing the man speaking.
SMG3 blushes feeling a bit embarrassed from what he was going to say โWell what i mean is i love you SMG3,โ with that he makes the SMG4 doll kiss his. Seeing this SMG4 lets out a giggle โHey Three what are you doing over there?โ startled SMG3 screamed, throwing the dolls away from him.
Three turns giving the man an awkward smile โOH SMG4 how long have you been there?โ Four couldnt help the smirk growing on his face as he looked at the dolls now abandoned. โOh just got here, heard a voice in my room and wanted to check it out.โ he then walks over and sits next to the man still smirking โWhat were you doing?โ
Three lets out a nervous chuckle โUh oh! Getting stressed out so I was teaching your stupid doll a lesson!โ He smiles feeling confident that his answer lured Four away from the truth. Four hums picking up his doll then he turns to SMG3 โWell don't stop because of me let me help you out!โย Three eyes go wide before he can decline the offer SMG4 presses the doll's lips on his cheek, causing him to blush.
Three stared wide-eyed at Four who then hides behind the doll โI can't help that i fell in love with you, we are friends now no longer rivals! Iโm sorry for hurting your feelings. Could you ever forgive me?โ still blushing he grabs his doll and talks behind it โSure whatever this is fucking stupid why are we doing this?โ Four moves the doll closer to him. Three was watching every move that Four was doing, nervous as to what the man in blue was planning.
โBecause we had a fight earlier and i want to make it up to you,โ Three blinks surprised to hear four words. Without thinking he leans forward, seeing this Four took his chance placing his own lips on Three. After the quick kiss, Fours face was dark red, he got up acting as if nothing happenedย โWe should head back to the others!โย Three gets up and grabs the blushing man pulling him into another kiss, dolls forgotten on the floor as the two share a kiss. As they pull away, Four looks at Three in awe, Three rubbing his arm โuh what just happened?โย
Four shyly looked down โMy confession with the doll wasnโt a lie, i got interested in datingโฆlooked around and no one caught my eye. But that's when I noticed an apple already did and it's you..โ SMG3 smiles hugging Four โYou're such an idiotโฆ I feel the same.โ They pull away smiling softly at each other before leaving the room, Four then comes up with an idea. Telling Three he needs something he runs to his room and grabs the dolls, he places them on his bed now holding hands. He giggles and runs out of the room โHEY BABE NEW IDEA FOR A VIDEO!โย
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