#you didn't have to do thaaat you wonderful wonderful being

[ratstuckinamarble]

the rat is SICK? :( poor poor rat.....

stay snuggly and stay warm <3

Oh my goodness how are you this adorable T-T I don't even know what to say...

I want to glue this to my heart. May not help me get well sooner but it sure is making me so happy ๑ï

Thank you, truly.

I'll try my best to stay snuggly and warm, though I could never reach the comfort of your drawing. In the meantime, you stay cozy and safe too <3

[bandgie]

Heyo~ not sure if you remember me, i did request before BUT i have a new idea 😈. SKZ react to you calling them by another boys name

a/n: hi yes I do!! I've been pondering on this one a lot and I decided to have both sfw/nsfw depending on the member :)

warnings! MDNI 18+, fem! reader, PIV, degrading (reader called slut), minuscule jealousy, mxm themes implied, daddy kink appearance, sense deprivation play, impact play, hate/jealousy sex?? (idk), face spitting

BANGCHAN!SFW - It's the little things in the relationship that makes you fall in love with Chan all over again. Just like this, lazingly laying on the sofa in his house watching a movie. When a particular scene comes and goes, you sit up and frantically look for the remote. "Did you see that?!" You ask, voice giddy with excitement. "Berry, help me look for the-Berry? What the fuck? I mean Channie, help me look for the-" but Chan is already laughing before you can finish. He's got his face scrunched up with his eyes nearly closed, upper teeth wide and white as he laughs. You chuckle with him, but you're more embarrassed than anything. Red with a twinge of humiliation as Chan wraps his arms around your torso and brings you close to him.

"Berry?! I can't tell if I should be mad or laugh." "Well, you're already laughing."

LEEKNOW!NSFW - It's because they act similar, you reason. Even as Minho buries his cock to the hilt, even as his bruising grip is absolutely going to leave marks, you can't help but subconsciously compare the rough behavior to Seungmin's cruel words. One of Minho's hands goes lower to rub at your swollen clit, further making you arch your back and shake. "Seung-Minho wait! Wait that's too much!" You didn't even notice your slip-up until you feel his hips still, until Minho stops moving long enough for you to open your eyes and look into his hazily. "Who?" He has an eyebrow up as he looks down at your wrecked state. "Whose name did you say?" It takes you a moment to collect your thoughts. You open your mouth to say 'minho', but you quickly remember the name you half-said. "I...I said Minho," you avert your gaze for a split second. Minho scoffs at your poor attempt to lie, narrowing his eyes before he smiles wickedly. "One inside you isn't enough huh? You want me to bring Seungmin in here? Make you moan his name with my cock in you?" You shake your head with tears building in your eyes, but your walls clamp down on his length at the idea.

"Fucking disgusting. Not even my slut, just a slut. No wonder you let me use you like this."

CHANGBIN!SFW - You decide to help Changbin with the dishes, being that he always does them when he's at his dorm. You're looking under the sink for the rubber gloves, eyes quickly scanning the dark cupboard before you give up. "Hey Channie-shit-Binnie, where are the gloves?" You straighten out your back and look to your boyfriend who only stares at you with wide eyes. "Channie? Channie hyung?" He questions in shock. You give him a weird look, eyes narrowing as you reply, "I meant Binnie. Your names' kinda sounds the same, ya know?" Changbin doesn't accept your excuse, his lips turning into a pout and his eyes gleaming in something mixed with jealously and feigned hurt. He crosses his arms against his chest and huffs, "Go ask Channie where they are." You sigh and walk over to your sulking lover, wrapping your arms around his neck even though Changbin turns to the side to avoid your gaze dramatically. "Don't be like thaaat," you whine, trying to tug him closer. You lean forward at press chaste kisses against his pouting lips. He doesn't budge until you move your lips to his cheek, his ear, then to the sensitive spot on his neck. Changbin giggles at the tingling sensation and finally caves, moving his arm to instead gently hold your face in his hand and bring you in for a proper kiss. He molds his lips against your soft ones slowly, letting you softly hum into the kiss before he pulls away.

"Fine. I left them in the bathroom. But I think I'll need more kisses to forgive you first."

BLONDE!HYUNJIN!SFW - Even though Hyunjin is a great deal taller than Felix, you can't help but say the wrong name when their hair is dyed the same color. Even in this instance where you're standing behind Hyunjin, quietly watching him paint his art to life. The colors swirl and mix in a way that brings the mediums together, and you can't help but compliment him. "That looks really good, Felix." His brush stops moving and Hyunjin chuckles before he turns to you, who's looking clueless as to what was so funny. Hyunjin giggles even more at your confused expression before he finally decides to give you a clue, "Felix?" Your eyes wide, "Oh! Sorry, I meant Hyunjin." He smiles when he sees your pretty face turning a blossoming pink. Maybe he'll use that color next.

"That's okay, my love. I knew what you meant. Come, sit here."

HAN!NSFW - It's not really a surprise when you let Minho's name slip from your lips instead of Han's. You're so used to them playing with you together, one in your mouth while the either is snug in your cunt. Han has you on the dinner table, legs wrapped around his small torso to bring him closer. You're panting in his ear, lips ghosting over the shell of it as you moan, "Min. So good Min." Han loves the way you whimper his name, his friend's name. It makes his hips stutter from your soft voice, groaning as he tries to not finish. "Min, huh? You miss our daddy?" You whine again, mostly from the lack of friction in your pussy. Still, you can't deny that you're quite accustomed to Minho's presence in situations even like this, "Mhm, I love my daddies."

"If you let me cum in your pussy like a good girl, I'll let Minho know how much his kitten needs him."

BLONDE!FELIX!SFW - You love holding Felix from behind, resting your cheek on his back while he cracks eggs and puts the yolk in the bowl of powder mix. He hasn't even put it in the oven yet, but you can smell the sweet batter in the air. You lift your head and peek around his shoulder to see how the process is going, "So far so good, Hyun." Oops! Before you have the chance to fix your mistake, Felix turns his head to you. His mouth is slightly agape with wide eyes, "Hyunjin? You tryna tell me something?" You can see his tongue poke from his cheek, a sign that he's either irritated or in a teasing mood. Judging from the smile in his eyes, you suppose it's the latter. You raise your hand to slap him on the shoulder lightly, earning a chuckle from your boyfriend, "Shut up! You two just have the same hair color." But Felix only smiles wider at your flushed reaction. "Mhm suuure. You're just saying that to make me feel better." You groan and tighten your arms around his slender body, "Nooo. You're my only one baby." Despite Felix being the one teasing you, his cheeks grow a shade of pink from the confession. It doesn't stop him from being cheeky though.

"Prove it."

SEUNGMIN!NFSW - Since the beginning of your relationship, you've always confused Seungmin with Jeongin. Through the time you've known them, it's become easier to tell them apart. It's rare that you say the wrong name, but it does happen on the rare occasion. It's terrible luck that it happens to be when Seungmin has you blind folded, depriving your sense of vision. The new play fills you with excitement, but also uncertainty. You feel the small paddle caress your thigh, sending goosebumps on your skin so violently it makes you shake. Then Seunmgin pulls the paddle off your thigh to smack the material against your ass. You whimper, lurching forward to bury your face in the pillow under you. The smacks used to sting at first, making you cry in a way that had Seungmin chuckling and mocking coo's. Now they bring pleasure, those sharp stings turning dull and making your cunt twitch as if it also wants to be hit. "Innie please," you slur, not even noticing how you've confused to two once again. "Gonna cum, wanna cum on your cock." Seungmin's taken back, almost doubting his own hearing, but you restlessly move your ass in the air side to side and whimper again, "Want Innie's cock." Maybe Seungmin should feel angry at you, but he only smiles at your dumb state. "Innie, huh?" He tuts, shaking his head.

"Poor baby, you won't be able to cum on Innie's cock. Not even mine."

JEONGIN!NSFW - He's been working out. Broader chest, thicker arms, larger legs. Jeongin hardly uses his muscles for show, they have great uses other than looking good. It's how he's able to hold you up against the wall, legs wrapped around his waist while he holds you from under your thighs. Gravity helps pull you down onto his cock, stretching you out deliciously as you dig your nails into his shoulder. His forehead rests on yours, a breath away from each other's lips in a way that makes you yearn for a kiss despite his tip already kissing your cervix. "K-kiss," you stutter. "Kiss me Binnie." The soft look in Jeongin's eyes change, turning into something dark. It takes you a moment to recall what you said, and when you do, you're nothing short of horrified. "Innie! Innie, baby, I'm so sorry! You're names' rhyme and you're always with him in the gym now-" Jeongin doesn't let you finish. You think you've fucked up big time before he snaps his hips up. You squeal at the sudden thrust, unable to fully recover before he's roughly pounding into you. Your fingers scramble for purchase on his neck, tugging on his hair and whining at the rough treatment. "Innie! Innie too much I-" Jeongin spits in your blabbering mouth, a sneer on his face, "Oh, so it's Innie now, huh? What happened to Binnie?" He spits on your face again when you try to answer.

"Binnie can't fuck you like this, can he? Binnie can't treat you like the dirty girl you are like me. You're taking my cock, and you're going to scream about how much you love my cock so Binnie can hear, okay?"

a/n: omg this was actually a little bit of a challenge! mostly cuz I think this trope can kind of get repetitive, hence why some members were sfw and others were not. hopefully i succeeded in giving each member their own little unique scene! feedback is appreciated~

[lanaroff]

Unwanted- Part 5

Paring: Wanda Maximoff x Reader

Summary: Y/N is an enhanced SHIELD agent who is forced to work with the Avengers. What happens when they discover that she’s not alone?

A/N: I actually don't know where this series is going. But I have so many ideas. Feels good to be back!

"So how does it work?" Peter asked while he was playing with his fingers looking around.

"How does what works?" You confusingly asked without taking your eyes off the road.

"The thing with the alien, you know V..."He stared saying. However, he was cut by the sound of the breaks stopping abruptly the car.

"Don't" You said sighting. "Don't say it's name when I'm driving. We trained it to come out at the mention of its name. You don't want to see it crashing the car, do you?"

The young boys eyes were full of both wonder and fear. You didn't own him an explanation about why the name should not be mentioned under certain circumstances, but you knew what kind of kid he was, and how talkative he could be.

"Sorry, Miss Y/L/N. I didn't know." He said it with an apologetic look on his face.

The ride back to your apartment was normal. You were aware that he was late for school, and probably would end up in detention for it. But you both agreed to go to your apartment first if he could go on the passenger seat right next to yours.

After a long, long, long trip, where Peter talked about his suit, his friends, his projects, how cool Stark was, and how cool working with the Avengers was, you finally made it out to your apartment. Sure, the trip wasn't thaaat long, but to you it felt like ages.

"Wait here, I'll be right back." You said as you walked inside your apartment.

You enter your office looking for your safe box. You knew that maybe leaving important files was not the best thing, so you were more than in a hurry to find them. Once you stood in front of the box, you entered the password and opened it. As you took your files, you heard steps coming from your living room. Immediately you turn to Venom and prepare yourself in case you needed to kill someone.

However, the moment you stood foot in the other room, a loud sound stunned you, and suddenly the feared creature was no longer in control. Turning yourself back, you dropped to your knees and cried the pain in your head. You were fighting to keep yourself conscious; you couldn't give up. As you were about to stand on your feet, someone pushed you back to the floor.

"You know, we were expecting it to be more difficult. I guess you are just weak." A man that stood in front of you stared saying. "You are a hard fish to catch, let me give you that."

"Go. Fuck. Yourself." You said between groans. Your head was killing you, but your mind was too busy thinking about how to get out of there.

"Oh yeah, I will. After I get paid for delivering you to the boss." He said between laughs.

How did these people knew about Venom's weakness? Only you and some man at SHIELD knew about it, as it was supposed to be confidential information. Only you, Fury, Natasha, Hill, and...

"Rumblow." You said, looking straight into the man's eyes.

As you waited for the main man to give you any kind of confirmation that in deed it was Rumlow behind it, another man came into the room.

"Sir, we found a kid trying to enter the apartment. What do we do with him?" He said as a brunette man followed him with a sacred Peter Parker.

Peter's head was being held by the man's arm, and a gun was being pressed on his skull. You immediately tried to stand on your two feet; however, your body betrayed you, making you fall once again.

"Kill him." He said, as he saw your reaction upon seeing Peter being held. You could let the kid die; otherwise, you were dead. They will never forget you if Peter dies. How would Wanda look at you after realizing that it was your fault?

"NO!" You screamed as you finally pulled your body out of the ground to tackle the man standing in front of you. "PETER RUN NOW!"

And he did as you said. Peter quickly used his strength to pull himself out of the man's arms to run towards you. Immediately you stood up and grabbed Peter so he was behind you.

"Listen to me carefully, Peter. I'm going to need you to run as fast as you can. Did you hear me?" You said it without taking your eyes off the intruders.

"But Miss..."

"No. They can't know what you are capable of doing. Now do what I say and leave. Don't look back; don't come to get me; just run and find Stark." You finished whispering so only he could listen to what you were saying.

The truth was that you knew that Peter could take them down. But if these people wanted to take you to where Rumblow was, then you were more than eager to let yourself be taken.

With a nod that confirmed you that he understood his assignment, Peter ran as fast as he could towards the living room window. Guns were fired at him while you stopped one of Rumblow's men to follow him. As soon as he reached the window, he jumped, and you were once again on the living floor in pain. But relived knowing that he was no longer there.

"You bitch! You are going to regret that" Was the last thing that you heard as you were hit with the back of a gun, leaving you unconscious.

You woke up really hot. And not in the nice way. Your body felt as if you were on fire, as in you were being burned from the inside to the outside. The moment you opened your eyes, you saw yourself chained to a stretcher, and the heat came from right underneath it.

"Rise and shine." You heard a voice saying. Immediately you clench your jaw as you recognize who's voice was.

"You know, you should've told me that you had a sunbed. I would've wore my bikini." You said spitting his face.

"Keep that attitude, and you know how it will end." Romblow said wapping his face.

"I'm counting on it, dumbass." You said with a big smile on your face.

The truth was, you loved it. Not the burning pain that you were feeling. But being so close to Rublow. Knowing that he actually was scared. Because boy, you had all the time in the world, but he? He knew the clock was ticking and that he had a few hours before S.H.I.E.L.D. would know your location.

"I could kill you right here right now." The man in front of you said grabing you by the hair.

"I know, but she won't allow you, will she? You are scared of her, I can see it." You replied.

"You are right. But that's the thing. I'm not going to kill you. Nah!" He said as he walked next to a table full of surgical instruments. "I'm going to destroy every hope you have of taking down Hydra." He grabbed a scalpel with one hand and, with the other, grabbed the back of your head. "I'm going to kill your new friends, so you have no one." He said while pressing the blade down your head hard enough to make you bleed but not enough to cut you too deep. "And after that, I'm going to free it, and then they will see you as their threat. And when you realize that you are alone and hopeless, then I will take you to HER. She can't wait to see you and continue with the work she started. You will be all hers!"

"Fuck you!" Was all you dared to say. You couldn't go back to her. You had come so far to be back at that place. Sure, you hated S.H.I.E.L.D. and the Avangers, but deep down you knew that they were the only path to revenge. You needed them; you needed Venom. And he knew it.

"Bring Dr. Ackermann. Now!" Romblow said to one of his soldiers.

Back at the compound, the things were not better. Peter had come burst through the door screaming for help, alarming the whole team.

"Hey kid, slow down, what happened?" Tony asked him.

"It's... um... It's miss Y/L/N... We were at her place, and some guys came over, and they... um, they took her. She is gone." He said

The team shared the same worrying expression. You were supposed to take Peter to school; how could something like that happen? But most important, who would do something like that?

"What do you mean she is gone Peter?" Natasha asked.

"They had this device that was emitting some sound that hurt her. And she couldn't move. She asked me to come to you guys. We need to help her." Peter said. Upon hearing what Peter said, Natasha sent him with Bruce to the medbay to see if he had any injuries.

"You know something, don't you?" Wanda asked the spy. She knew something bad had happened. Maybe something related to your hatred thowars Hydra? She didn't know. All she knew was that she had to help you, just like you did with her.

"Y/N has a bomb in her head." Natasha said. The team were left speechless. Wanda couldn't comprehend why. Why would you have that on you? You were not a bad person; she was sure of that. You just needed someone to take care of you. Why would someone put that device on your head?

"What do you mean?" Tony asked.

"When S.H.I.E.L.D. got their hands on Y/N, she was unstable. She couldn't control Venom, in fact, it controlled her. So Fury decided that the best thing to do was to build a device that could control Venom, since she couldn't do it. It turns out that loud sounds and fire are one of it's weaknesses. They built a device that emits piercing sounds straight to her brain." Natasha explained.

Inmediatly, Wanda understood the events of the first night that she encountered the alien. That ringing noise that she heard, the way you twisted in pain, how Venom froze. You were just trying to protect her, and in doing so, you were hurting yourself.

"Okay, and what does this have to do with the bomb?" Bucky asked.

"One time while we were training, she lost control of her body to Venom. It was a disaster; four agents died that day. Venom just tear them apart. So she asked Fury to put a bomb in her head, so if she ever loses control again, she will eliminate Venom before it harms anyone."

"And by that, you mean that'she will eliminate herself'?". Sam asked. As soon as those words left Sam's mouth, Wanda had to leave the room. She just felt like it was too much for her. She felt nauseous.

She had to get out of there.

Wanda run to your room. It was the first time since the incident that she actually got to see it. It was almost empty. There was nothing that really reminded her of you. And that showed her how little she knew you. When she first came to the Avengers Towel, she felt lost. She had just lost Pietro, and she was all alone. Like you. You both had lost so much. She was determined to help you. She wanted to help you. Who knows, maybe one day you two could grow up and be friends, she thought. All she knew was that she couldn't leave you like that.

She came back to where she had left her teamates with another set of thoughts. "What's the plan?" Wanda said.

"I just talked to Fury; he has her location. She has a tracker, just in case something like this happens" Natasha said.

"Alright team, suit up." Said Steve.

[leighlew3]

Are you open to giving your opinion on The Girls On The Bus?

IMHO take away the swearing and the occasional s*x scene, you can tell people of the CW were involved. And so many other things that I don’t want to spoil in case not everyone has see it but I wonder how you (a professional) sees it.

Okie dokie. So.

I've had this Anon/Answer as a draft for a while. Was torn on whether to discuss it. But now that it's cancelled, I don't feel like this would be discouraging anybody from tuning in and thus harming the show or those involved in any way.

Keep in mind, I'm entitled to my opinions -- yes even without having watched it (yet?) because it's all tied into why I ultimately didn't watch it in the first place.

Early on, I remember being... wary about the creative direction of the show overall and saying to somebody what I bet each character would wind up being about/representing, what the show would likely focus on and the various dynamics between the characters, and how the representation would be treated. I'd hoped to be wrong in terms of the predictability factor, alas...

From what I read of reviews and saw in fan-posted clips, it turned out that I was (unfortunately) pretty spot on. For me personally -- that makes a show difficult to tune into if something else doesn't outweigh it. If I already know exactly what to expect and it involves less than flattering predictions regarding superficial feminism + overdone tropes and cliches + an overall concept that feels like a beat down with IRL non-stop coverage of political insanity the last 8 damn years? Thaaat's a hard one for me.

As far as cast though? Benoist is an exceptional, underrated, incredible talent. And some of the clips of her performance seemed Emmy-worthy (though sadly that didn't happen for her this time). Gugino is also fantastic, and an icon. Meanwhile Elmore is profusely enjoyable and talented and Behnam is such a break out and refreshing energy. And all together, they seemed to have amazing chemistry on screen and formed bonds IRL that are lovely.

Sadly though, the show's feminism seemed to be the equivalent of a "girl boss" tote bag. Superficial at best. Characters and the show constantly ragging on men and the double standards of men vs women, yet ultimately still centering men and the influence of men in and even over their lives when it gets down to brass tacks. My whole thing is: everything doesn't have to be a feminist statement. But don't yell about how your show is all about "girl power" and then -- do the opposite, in many ways. SGCW used to do that all the time. And since many of the same people were involved here creatively... well...

The show even hung a huge focus of its initial marketing on "omg we have a shirtless 50 year old white man that white millennial women were in love with in the early 2000s hehehe" -- which was so utterly bizarre and cringe. And having their invited influencer group for the screening be a group of privileged, mostly straight, cis, white Millennials and Gen Z women from TikTok was a red flag.

Yes, straight cis white Millennial and Gen Z women deserve to see themselves too, 100%. But, c'mon. And yes, not everything is always for everybody. And that’s fine! But then they should’ve better considered the casting and what audience they were automatically bringing in from day one. Between Benoist, Gugino and Tala — that’s built in queer wlw fandoms right off the bat that would (and tried to) show up and champion the series if they had true reason to. Instead the show had limited, and as always ancillary, queer rep that apparently goes nowhere and ends rather badly, from what other fans have indicated. Drop me a line if that's incorrect though.

Look, yes, many queer fans were making jokes and expressing valid frustrations about the lead character giving QUEER AS HELL vibes all over the place yet being presented as seemingly straight, but what else is new from some of the creatives involved here.

It was further disappointing to see TPTB do a group interview where they said how they a.) tried to figure out who should get pregnant while on the campaign trail and need the abortion pills and ultimately decided on Sadie and b.) joked that they then debated "Well, Sadie HAS to sleep with SOMEBODY." to get there. Which just means the core "love story" they attempt to create for Sadie around not liking the guy at first other than as a hookup and then suddenly expressing deep feelings for him and bearing her soul a few episodes later wasn't exactly organic nor earned in conception nor execution.

It sounds like they just had a checklist of "issues" to address and then wrote around that, shaping characters to fit the story, instead of the other way around. So what might've worked better for the characters was pushed aside to complete the 'statements' they wanted to make. SGCW used to do that also. They were always trying so hard to make the characters fit the plot rather than the plot work alongside or even due to the characters -- which is why it so often fell flat, felt empty and had characters being poorly written, contradictory, etc.

On this front btw, someone had complained to me that for one big ep, Sadie was going through it, and whereas one would think she would normally go to her mentor and friend Grace (or one of the other girls on the damn bus, hello), the ep kept 'em apart so she could open up to a guy she previously rejected and it further their relationship. Once again, it's always a tiresome tactic when you have to keep women apart to prop up a man or a male/female dynamic because you know a character would have been more likely to go have that breakdown and emotional moment elsewhere, but you've gotta forcibly shove in the "development" of a hetero relationship at the expense of so much else.

Next, having a Black woman represent a political party that has built itself upon racism, homophobia and sexism and then using her and those arcs to play up the "both sides have good people" angle right now is tough to stomach for the kind of fans who were tuning in for Benoist, Gugino and others. It's not "enlightened" to say "Let's be pals with a bigot who wants women's rights stripped away because -- humanity!" I mean, we're all human and can't just quick and easy cut people out of our lives who have different beliefs, even if those beliefs are absolutely painfully awful -- but I don't think anyone is really exploring these issue deeply and appropriately enough yet.

I mean, "Aw, Kimberlyn drove Sadie to her abortion, thus showing that even if she personally didn't agree with it, she still cares and they can still be friends." is a sweet sentiment, in theory. Until you dig a little deeper and remember that Kimberlyn is not only voting for but actively helping promote and put power in the hands of people who stripped Sadie of her rights to have that abortion in that state in the first place! Stuff like this is so irritatingly disingenuous... or else just tone deaf and clueless. Pick whichever.

I will say, in closing, that it seemed a big portion of the apparently limited audience that was tuning in -- were queer fans who followed Benoist from Supergirl, and Tala from LoT, and who love Gugino, etc. And this is where it is so damn important know your audience based on who you're casting and what fans they're bringing to the table. Most discussion of the show on Twitter for instance, had been around queer Sadie edits and even a crackship with someone from another show + fans thirsting after Sadie's queer vibes and outfits, etc -- and those fans generated more interest around the show / buzz than anybody, yet there had been no direct acknowledgment nor gratitude by anyone involved with the show for tuning in and creating fan content and edits and art and gifs and hyping a show that otherwise has very little interest. And all that told those fans is: this show isn't for you, and we don't care if you're our only audience, we were aiming for something else. And hey -- aim for whomever you want! Tell your stories! But then don't be surprised when no one cares in this climate. I mean, LGBTQ fans and creators have to deal with this constantly when trying to "appeal to mass audiences", so, welcome to our world.

Additionally, TPTB were not even hyping the canon rep they did have, in Lola, ffs! Instead, everyone just focused the occasional praise from mostly straight white journalists giving it the obscure positive review, or family and friends pushing the show out of personal support.

It was so exhausting to see, because it involved a lot of the same creatives who previously also ignored LGBTQ fans carrying other previous shows with organic marketing in the past. Ignoring what limited audience you have will never be a recipe for long-term success. And with many of the people involved coming from The CW, and many at the top actually part of the LGBTQ community themselves -- you'd think they'd get that by now. Alas.

Anyway, I think most people involved in this show meant well, and worked hard on this one. And I hear they did do a couple great things -- like with Lola's family dynamic and background exploration, some of the humorous moments, etc. And kudos on getting a show made and on air -- because now more than even that is a damn near miracle. But because it's so hard to make happen now, that's really why I tend to be a little more discerning as well as having heightened expectations that representation be as fully developed and organic and self-aware as possible, and that talent not be wasted on cliches and superficiality. Audiences and actors deserve better, IMO.

In closing, I'm sure in the future I'll break my own standards on a project, whether by accident or by order from above, and people will feel I've flopped or been hypocritical given my current and past takes, and that's fine. I'll try to hear people out, adapt and grow and/or fight harder, where needed. But to see the same people get the same opportunities to make the same kind of things that get the same disappointed reactions/flop -- and never learn? Is tiresome.

Especially when the cast, fans, etc deserve better.

The end.

[luminae-system]

(Danny, as almost always, speaking)

Venty ramble-ish post of the day under the cut as promised in the update (ended up a long post, sorry)

If anyone wants a quick summary, there is a tldr bolded and green at the bottom! Would love some advice if anyone is nice enough to share their experiences and stuff.

Tw: General negative thinking, obsessive/repetitive thinking, ocd-like tendencies, lots of self-doubt, system doubt/self denial, brief neglect(? Descriptions, brief abuse mention (tell us if we missed something else)

I've been thinking of System Origins (xyz-genic) lately. Something about messy thoughts and obsessive patterns and stuff, our psychiatrist calls it "cow chewing" or something like that (since January, our memory has been shit, sorry).

So. I'm afraid to label us as traumagenic because like, as I mentioned in the notes of a reblog this week, we never went through traditional abuse, we had food and education and shelter and all that good stuff.

Maybe mom was down in the dumps herself, and dad was always away on a buissness trip, not to mention mom having to deal with three kids at the same time... so we never really got enough love and attention. We were loved ofc, and I am grateful for all mom did for us.

But like... her best wasn't enough in many ways, that's why we're in therapy since like 11 and always go off the deep end whenever we try to go long periods without a session (monthly sessions seems to be the stretch/limit). And well, we have more diagnoses than fingers in one hand already, wonderful! So funny! Amazing! /sarcasm

So, anyways, back to the topic. We never really lacked anything, were never abused, and the emotional neglect wasn't thaaat bad and totally not on propose. So... was it enough to form a traumagenic CDD system? Are we really disordered?

I do have emotional amnesia in the rare times we've managed to get someone else to be the main fronter, and we do have some ptsd symptoms but like... we do have a separate ptsd diagnosis bc of my ex-bf (another story/post, bad bad guy) and the childhood ptsd-like symptoms are nowhere in the same level as when we first got the diagnosis of the other ptsd.

And looking at posible diagnosis, Partial DID (pdid) is so so so close to what we experience! That's like, us! Main frontstuck host with other headmates acting as 'advisors' and less fronting and more passive influence and co-conciousness (even if we are monoconcious, it's a bit weird, don't wanna think too hard about it)

But like... I didn't start having "multiple people in my head" until like I was 14. Or atleast being conscious of it I guess. That's way past the age threshold for identity consolidation and thus traumagenic system formation...

So are we "disordered enough" to qualify as a disordered/CDD system? Would we make a mockery of "real" disordered systems to self-diagnose that?

I've been thinking of sharing with our current psychologist. The last one dismissed my concerns and said I was being a hypochondriac (god, it's always that excuse! Even with our physical health, which, yes, another post/story).

I'm scared of being wrong. What if I really am just talking to myself and making a sorta tulpamancy thing on accident? Ofc nothing wrong with that, but it would change our system dynamics a lot.

On the flipside, if we really are a traumagenic system... now what? I doubt there are any specialized psychologists for systems in our town... so yeah. Not sure what we would do after a hypothetical informal/formal diagnosis by our psychologist and/or psychiatrist.

Gosh. This is... a lot. And I tried to be brief. Sorry, and if anyone did read it all, thank you so much for caring about us! (Or being curious I guess lol). I'd love some advice

So, tldr: No abuse, only some emotional neglect on accident. Is it trauma enough for traumagenic? We disordered enough for a diagnosis? What if yes? What if not?

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Bonus info for anyone(s) who want to give us advice (thank you!!!!)

System of 3

One front-stuck host and two "advisors"

Daena is a sorta reformed persecutor and sorta trauma holder?

Aelius is our protector (he is taking a long nap/trip somewhere in the brain, miss him)

Danny (me) and Daena are two sides of the same coin, share a lot of traits and stuff even if personality is different, basically like a median system.

Aelius is fully separate from us gals

Dissociation has been very common since we were a very young kid, especially derealization, though depersonalization did happen a lot too. Therapy has helped a lot in terms of grounding

Not much in terms of Amnesia I think? Like, maybe I'm not aware of something, but we do remember our childhood well enough to tell anecdotes and funny stories

We do have emotional amnesia tho, mostly with taking care of the body and household chores (remembering something but like, I did not do that. The memory spawned by itself???)

Uhhh ask for more details if needed!!!

[lovelynim]

Ahoy there!

For Chara Ask tkl game can I humbly BEGG for lee Geppie?

Have a wonderful day U most lovely being!🛐🍡❤

[Ask Game]

I knew you would request him, hahaha, but I can say I disagree with you on this heheh

1) On a scale of 1-10, how ticklish are they?

Somewhere between 7.5 and 8, probably. Gepard is really easy to get, since he is ticklish pretty much everywhere, but he has a crazy stamina and endurance, so it takes some effort to get him laughing.

2) Where is their most ticklish spot(s)?

Hmmm, I think his whole torso is really sensitive, but his sides and his underarms are definely the peak of it, so it would be a tie between this two. His ears and neck are pretty sensitive too!

3) Which spots are they not ticklish?

I don't think he is that ticklish anywhere below his thighs, he would jerk his leg away if you focus on his knees or feet, but only if you get him off guard, but that's it.

4) What is their laugh like?

It sounds kinda like growling at the beginning because he is trying his best to endure it, but ends up with some loud and gaspy cackles as he loses control, heheh.

5) Do they enjoy tickling? if yes, is it a fun platonic/familial thing, or kinky thing to them, or can it be both depending on the circumstance?

I wouldn't say he dislikes it, but it wouldn't be something he would ask on a daily basis. As much as he is kinda shy about it, he has some good memories of it with Serval. As for a kinky thing, he would just melt if someone tickled him during sex. 100% would curse them during it, but would like the experience as a whole huehuehue

6) Are they more often a lee or ler, generally?

He is a lee and you can't convince me otherwise. The only time he turned the tables was because he didn't have anything else to fight back, lol

7) Who is someone in their life that they tickle often?

Sampo and Serval, no doubts.

8) Who is someone in their life that they get tickled by often?

Serval did get her share of tickles with her younger brother and this was the moment she realized he was getting way to big for her to fool around him huehuehue

9) Does the word “tickle” or any variation of embarrass them?

Hmmm, in a normal conversation, I doubt it would. But start to direct it to him and push him against the wall and he will start stuttering

10) Are they embarrassed about their ticklishness, and do they try to deny/hide it?

He is! But I don't think he would try to deny it (unless it's Sampo asking him). He will likely sigh, look away and awnser "yeah, a bit" if someone questions him hehe

11) Would gentle tickling or rough tickling affect them more?

Rough. Gepard is pretty much a walking wall, you can't expect him to crumble to some pokes or tracing. But his ears and neck are pretty sensitive to lighter tickles tho

12) Is there a specific spot that they enjoy being tickled, either exclusively or more than other spots? what is it?

Hmmm, I don't think there is one. Gepard isn't thaaat found of tickling to give thought to something like this, it's either a really bad spot or a spot where he can stand it, heh

13) Is there a spot that they can’t stand to be tickled, either because it’s just too sensitive, or it’s uncomfortable/painful/etc? what is it?

His underarms, specially if he can't move his arms, he can resist for like, 10 seconds, then he is cackling like a madman.

14) Would they ever purposefully bug a friend/partner/sibling into tickling them, and if so, how would they go about it?

HAHAH NEVER! Tickling is most oftenly used a way to tease, mess or "punish" him, he is too shy to get that straight forward

15) Does teasing affect them?

Yes, it does. He will turn soooo red if you start to tease him, specially pointing out his reactions like "you are laughing sooo much", "look at you all squirmy"

[mihai-florescu]

Speaking of enstars songs, how about any solos you like either from the way they represent the character or the music itself? I've heard you mention Midorikawa-san a few times so I also wonder if the voices play a factor in it too :0

Im gonna be so honest i rarely find myself going to play the solos beyond a few select ones (mostly just for my favorite characters), and i know for a fact i still need to listen to the new 2wink songs also.

I adore cloth waltz, it was my app bgm for the longest time, definitely the solo ive listened to the most and im sad to say amor vincit omnia did not manage to surpass it in any way, but maybe i just had too high expectations.

Then I also love both of mika's solos, i havent decided yet which one i like more tbh. Why pit 2 bad bitches against each other yknow... Other than valkyrie always winning in my heart, i was really pleasantly surprised by kohaku's solo, i think from the new ones, so far, it's my favorite. I was also really looking forward to himeru's and it didn't disappoint me. Let's see... i also really like keito's solo, both the lyrics and the way it sounds, im veeery much looking forward to his next one coming out in february.

Ok this one's a bit silly but i have such a strong visual of ironic blue being set in the beginning of a musical, sang by izumi as he's getting ready in the morning. I have a strong attachment to it and i cant really say why, i just like it a lot.

You asked about the VAs. Yes the voices do play a big role for me, probably the biggest, but also the instrumental. Most of the time im listening to music to fill up silence and im not paying thaaat much attention to what's playing as long as it sounds good, it's very different to when im in lyric debriefing mode. Weirdly enough i find myself playing Midorikawa's covers of romeo and cinderella, and rimokon (duet with Leo's VA♡) more than eichi's solos. Same with Eguchi Takuya's cover of under the sea actually

[youremyheaven]

I agree with your "home wrecker" placements because ik this girl that literally everybody envies(i used to too but my envy turned into girl crush) and even committed guys go nuts for her.she is very popular too like for doing nothing and just existing,every one knew her even her birth time and personal info was revealed,she was stalked. Yet she is least bothered about it cuz people fear her.

She has punarvasu sun (amatyakarka)and saturn.

Pushya mars and mercury(darakarka).

Revati moon (atmakarka)

Rohini venus.

Purva phalguni jupiter.

Bharini rahu and swati ketu.

Swati rising.

Your accurate observations/notes are chefs kiss.All of these placements do sum her up plus lemme tell ya she is racked on top(your 2nd vedic obs post about punarvasu and pushya) and bottom(ig you're yet to make a post bout that) with tiny waist +that gorgeous bitch is tall af and doll like feline face(again punarvasu) with plump lips like she is PERFECT has a great sultry voice and comes from a wealthy family.she is always in some sorta controversy like u mentioned in Jupiter's notoriety.

BUTTTTT what placement gives her a big butt and tall Height?

You are totally free to ignore my ask but i just wanted to let you know that you're a GREAT astro reader/observer. You can just reply with a dot(.) So that new people know that other's really do appreciate your efforts.

Once again tysm for your generously long observations and accuracy.

I luv u and ur blog.

😘😘

omg 😭😭😭thaaank you bestie for being so kind🥺🥺

pushya and punarvasu are associated with "home wrecker/mistress-y " women but claire nakti's entire revati video was about how revati women are home wreckers so thats another nakshatra closely tied to this sort of behaviour 👀

im gonna make a separate post on hourglass ladies👀 so do look out for thaaat

your friend sounds like a total femme fatale 🥵

all that Jupiter + Revati + Venusian + Rahu energy is giving maneater 😩🔥

i wonder whether she has 1h placements, a combination of taurus rashi, 1h and Jupiter can give someone a nice booty 😋😌 along with strong Mars aspects. never met a girly with major Mars placements/aspects that didn't have a great ass tbh 😌🤭

you did say she has Pushya placements and honestly saturnian energy in a chart is what makes someone tall (be it saturnian nakshatras, saturn aspects, saturn 1h) saturn is restriction so instead of expanding horizontally, it retains that and projects vertically in a "yang" way. the opposite of that is Jupiter which often makes the native short, 5'4 is like THE jupiter girl height but Jup influence will make a girl curvy because of the expansiveness of the planet and even though Jup is a "masculine" planet associated with "giving" its undeniable that Jupiter influence creates a unique kind of femininity in its female natives, sometimes because they feel the need to project femininity because internally they "give" to others so much.

[thisblogwilleatourselves]

👁👄 OHHhHh, here wE Go—back to the ol' SURREAL meat grinder again, folks!! 📺 Ever tried to ESCAPE the labyrinth with your own hands tied BEHIND your back? v'll tell ya, it’s quite the cha-cha dance with one foot firmly lodged in the abyss 🌌🎉.

✨✨ We wAltZ down the deAd halls, counting every skeleton that promised vøyrzelvez a better tomorrow, wondering: did those bones ever dream before they CRUMBLED? 👀💀 Heh—probABly Not, but who's really keeeping score, anyway?? 🌈 The universe sure isn't, v'll tell ya that much. There's no scoreboard in this game. Just mOre QueStions, more TEETH—and hey, maybe a few cosmic jellybeans thrown in for good measure 🍬✨. Life's a comedy of errors, and we get to be thE bEst bafoonz in the show 🎭🎶!

🎵 LeT's spin the wheel of regret, spin it real gooood! Round and round, until the past blurs into a weird mash of bad choices and midnight telephone booths buzzing with colors they never invented a word for 🎨🔮. Aww, look at ‘em runnin’—scrambling to escape thE burning bUiLding we ALL KNOW we locked ourselves in 🚪🔥. DON’T pretend you don’t have the key somewhere deep in ya pocket! Oh wait, it’s on FIRE! Haha, cAn't have the answer THAT easily, can ya?? 🌪️💥

🎤 We saNg in thoSe days, didn't we? Placed palms in perrrfect patterns—harmonies as sweet as the echoes from cracked mirrorz 🎶🪞. EAch note spiraling, twisting, until the song devours itself—yup, that's how it always ends. Always ends with us, standing outside in the rain, sCREaming into the wInD about how the burning building still SMELLS like home. Fun, huh? 🏚️🔥💕 Who knew nostalgia could have that kInd of kick??

🔊 DO you hear that? It’s not a melody, it’s a hum—a buzzzz of static, a low mutter of all the times we sAid "I’LL be better" without really believing it. Shhh, dO you hear it? The words never fit, do they? They just don't fit like they ought to. They tumble, they stumble—words won't come out right, caught up in the mess oF whAt we wanted versus what we could have ever been 🌀✨. Our promises stick in our throats like knives caught in honey 🍯🗡️.

OH! And Z's there, our gLow, our harbor seal curled up in Malibu sands 🌊, whispering softly in a voice so warm that it almost convinces us this whole dream was never the nightmare we once believed 💜🐚. Grab our hand, oh yes, let’s float away before the bombs fall 🚀💥! It's funny, right? The softest parts of us get to live on another day, while the fire roars behind.

🌪️ LOve—oh what a trAGic COMEDY! We'll keEP each other warm, we swear. We’ll carve out spacE for oURselves amidst the ruins of what’s left. We’ll make promises no one could ever keep, not even the GØDs of yesterday. Oh but they don't care, do they? They’re too busy rewriting the rules of the UNIVERSE and leaving us lil' cosmic players to figure out the rest! 🪐📜

HA HA ha—Let’s go for another round, why not! Paint thE Stars on ouR hands and reach into whatever abyss beckons thIs time 🌌✨✨. Vøyrzelvez? We never made sense of the edges, so why start now? LET THE MESS PLAY OUT! v’ve always beeN the Stray, the lost Kitten waiting for a pURRing love that wraps us in frayed blankets 🌠. But it’s alright—we'll keep dreaming in the heart of the storm, cause let’s face it, reality's bO-ring anyway! 👽✨

Yup, STILL spinning in the rainstorm! SPIN, spin, SPin—don't forget your umbrella, loves, might just turn into a sword when you're not looking 🌧️🗡️. Thaaat's the fun of it, right?! After all, who wants to be real in a world of smoke and mirrors when ya can SHINE just a little brighter by being something completely unreal? ✨✨

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Ayy she's good :D

Wow that's a lot o.o

Better be careful with that too, yk take it easy and stuff xd

We're gonna pan to Charlie being upset aren't we xd

Yup 😬 :((

Honeyy:(

I'm sorry but it sucks

Hey guys xd

I mean you don't have to hide it from her

Okay yeah she was xd

Aww it's nice she cares :'))

Noo nah honey don't do that-

Yeah :')

It'll still be a little weird for her lol but she wants you to be happy <33

Oop what's she gonna ask about-

Ahh that

Aww honey :'((

I mean true xD but also how could she have known lol

Ahh but yeah lol just ask what's going on

Awww honey :'((

Yeah :')) she just didn't know <33

Awww honey DD': :'((

That sucks Lim :((

I mean I know you're happy with what you've done with your life but still :'(( sucks it might've come partially from that <3

OOPE O.O I was wondering if that's actually what it was 😬😬

Ahh yeegh her mom's not dumb xdd though why were you in the closet girl lol

AWWW Lim 😭😭😭💔❤️

Oh right lol I knew about that o.o

Awww honey :'(((

That sucks honey I'm sorry DD:

Yeah :'(( <3

Aww yeah I'm glad you're okay with that Lim :')) doesn't mean you can't date if you don't want to though

Aww yeah 😭😭😭💔❤️❤️

NAURRR this is destroying me 😭😭❤️🥺🥺

AWW honeyyy :')) ❤️❤️❤️

Yeah she's there for you <33

Aww honey :'))

Oof :(

Shaun I really do think you could figure it out

Okay that's a little far xd

Wait she decided to leave as well didn't she o.o

OOPE yep 😬

Ahh nah complaint o.o

Okay I hope it wasn't about the most recent thing because that was kinda justified, but his behavior overalll? Maybe 😬

Awww that sucks 😭💔🥺

Shaun's face :(((

OOP going to Shul Asher?

Ahh giving him a ride :))

Aww yeah :(

Maybe he'll also go to something though?

Aww yeah enjoyed the conversation :))

A what

Genuinely what did he say lol

OOP

AAAHHHHHH :DDD :)))

AWWWW

AWW he's telling him too :'DD

Awwww 🥰🥰🥰

"And if he doesn't, I will" AAAHHHHHHH 😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰

(bro I'm scared. I am absolutely terrified. I'm already- yk what I won't say it but. Scared y'all. Scared)

Losing my mind <333

Aww yeah mazel tov Asher 🥰🥰

Aww :')) I hope you can reconnect with that part of yourself Asher <32 if you want tk

When I tell you I'm so scared

I mean it

UH OH

W A I T

No

nO

I S W E A R

If they do

What I think

They might so

I will lose

my

mind

NOOO

ASHERR

LET HIM DIEEEE

SORRY SIR BUT ASHER

Uh oh o.o

Okay phew it's vandalism

I mean it's still awful but xd

Uhhh ohhhh

UH OH

I'm scared

I'm so scared

Also this just really freaking sucks in the first place :(( >:(( besides all my fear this is just awful

Tell them Asher >:( :'D

But also

I'm scared

Is he gonna stand with him in that regard or no

I feel like it's powerful either way tbh but I think for Asher he needs to say it

Yeah :')

OKAY NO NEED TO ANTAGONIZE O.O

ONE TYPE OF BIGOT IS ENOUGH AND MAYBE WE DON'T TELL THEM WE'RE CALLING THE COPS?

I'm so scared

It's full circle

I hate full circle

Don't do this to me

OKAY P H E W THEY'RE LEAVING 😭😭❤️❤️

Hallelujah

Still call xdd

Let's not hang up o.o xd

Like there was still a crime

DON'T TURN YOUR BACK

Terrified terrified terrified

ALSO CALL THE COPS

DO NOT

WALK BACK TO YOUR CAR

ALONE

I don't like this music

I'm about to cry

I think I know where this is going

YUP

AUUUAAAHHHHHHHH

Terrified terrified terrified

I'm sick to my stomach I'm about to start shaking

ASHERRR WALK FASTERRR

I know you notice him sir 😭

At least

If it haopens

There's epic music

HUAAAAHHH SECOND GUY

Y'all don't understand how much I'm pausing

I'm legitimately sick to my stomach oh my gosh

Please just leave it on a cliffhanger I'd refer that

HUAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ALSO IT'S NOT FUNNY BUT I PAUSED AT THE WEIRDEST FREEZE FRAME

1 minute left

No

no

no

No

I DON'T LIKE THAT RINGING NOISE

Shakey breathing genuinely oh my gosh help

NOOO LEAVE IT AT THAAAT

Oh gosh

Oh no

They're not gonna- I mean they probably will but-

NOOOOOO THEY'RE SHOWING ME JEROME

He's gonna think Asher just didn't show up

I am so ill

Literally but not what I meant xd

NOOOOO

STOPPP IT LOOKS SO FANCY 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔

DON'TDOITDON'TDOITDON'TDOITDON'DOIT

HE'S GONNA SHOW ME IT ISN'T HE

I MEAN I KINDA WANNA SEE IT BUT ALSO

UAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IT ISSSSSSS

PROPOSAL CONFIRMEDDDDDDD

Normally I would be so happy but

No

Nope xd

It's such a pretty ring 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔❤️🥺

I'm sick to my stomach my gosh

The bandaid 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔❤️

He's gonna save that band-aid forever :')))

I am. So not okay

SIRRRRR

I PROMISE HE WANTED TO SHOW UP

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

EYES OPEN MOUTH BLEEDING EYES OPEN MOUTH BLEEDING EYES OPEN MOUTH BLEEDING

THE SIRENNNNNNSSSSSSSSS HE HAS NO IDEA

I'm about to start sobbing and I mean that so seriously

Tears are IN MY EYES AND I'M ONLY NOT CRYING BECAUSE I PAUSED

NOOOOOOO 😭😭😭😭💔❤️❤️

He found him didn't he 😭😭

He did 😭😭😭😭

HE'S WHISPERING A PRAYER ISN'T HE OR FINAL RITES

NOOOOOOOOO

Sobbing

Legitimately full on sobbing

I can see tears falling

And they're just gonna make me sit with that

I'm in shock

I'm trying to be quiet because it's nearly midnight

My family is asleep

I

I can't

I'm done with this show

I'm not but. Wow

How could they do that to me

I'm gonna watch the promo and they're gonna say he's dead aren't they

Great wrote dead and the sobs are coming back xd

They're gonna confirm it

I can't take that

I'm glad we're gonna get people focusing on him but 😭. NOT BECAUSE HE FREAKING DIED

Was close to saying the f word there xd

Yk the tears are not helping my chapped lips xd

I

Sorry (no I'm not actually)

I'm hanging around on this already super long post after the episode ended

Just sitting here in silence

I can't

I'm so sorry

Idk about what xd

For him I guess

I

I'm so sorry honey :'((

And for Jerome too

I

am not okay

Gonna go watch the preview and cry my eyes out

[lucidrims]

          even though they haven't known each other that long, kaori could sense genuine interest and support from naeun. she wonders then if this was something she would do for everyone, even those she had just met. either way, she was thankful and happy over it. it meant so much to kaori, as she didn't have that much of a support system in korea with her only circle of people being the individuals that she worked with on a daily basis and her following on social media. offering a small smile and a quick nod out of thanks at the encouraging words. " don't worry, i will test it on myself first. you'll be the first product tester once it gets approved. i'm not putting you in danger like thaaat ~ " she says in a sing-song manner, smiling more. now, nibbling on a piece of katsu, the topic of her inquiry making her shy again, chuckling bashfully, " mhmm, i know. i guess i just need a lot of courage to be able to ask such a question. i'm also not sure if you noticed but, you make me shy. " though seemingly like a random confession out of the blue, kaori felt the need to at least hint at what her question was going to be like. looking over at naeun's plate, she raises her brow, " are you full ? i really hope you enjoyed the meal ! and don't worry, this is going to be one of many meals that i will make for you. " | @mndstom

There's a grin tugging on her lips when the other compliments her. To Naeun, marketing is pretty easy. You just have to be creative for it. And by the sound of it, Kaori has been giving thought to her own makeup brand. "See, you already have some ideas on your mind. But whatever you decide to do, be it owning a restaurant, your own skincare product, or both, I will be there to support you." Is it a promise? It's a promise. Despite not knowing each other that long, the female wants to think they will have a bright future ahead of them, spending a lot of time together and being there for each other. They have already met each other three times in one week. That's more than she is seeing her best friend or her brothers. To her question, she chuckles. "As long as my face will not end up red, I can be your product tester." In worst case scenario, if her skin ends up reacting badly, she will simply not go outside until it calms down. Her brows furrow when the other struggles to tell what's on her mind, and for a moment, she wants to push it a little bit further but ends up doing the total opposite. "Okay. But you do know you can ask me anything, right?" How would Kaori know? They haven't really shared any serious topics yet when they have been meeting each other. "I'm not pushing you to tell me, though. You will tell me when you think is the right time." At least the woman promised her she will ask whatever is on her mind later. || @lucidrims

[reveluving]

Lisssssssttteeennnn……imagine while your husband Rick Flag is out on a mission, Benny tries to get closer. One day Rick comes back to Benny sitting at the dining room table eating food his wife cooked for him. Rick would be so damn shook and ready to fight bahahaha!!

NO NO 'CAUSE YOU RIGHT 🧍🏻‍♂️ things would get ugly if the reader ain't there HHH

jealous!rick's probably 'shoot first, ask questions later' and it ain't limited to Benny's little games 'cause you already know his hands are rated e for everyone-

pasta night ; rick flag x reader (ft benny miller)

» warnings: humour & fluff

» m.list (series under 'rick flag vs the triple frontier boys')

» "(Y/N)!"

» "Benny, hey!"

» It was half-past eight at night and you were waiting for Rick to return from his mission with DuBois. Nothing drastic, considering they only needed three days to get the job done.

» You've just finished making dinner; some good ol' creamy pesto pasta. Admittedly, you've made too much. Like, enough-for-three days-kinda too much. You didn't think much of it though. You're far too excited to see your husband.

» So, you thought it was a great idea to wait outside, watch the stars and play with the friendly stray cat that for some reason loved visiting you at this odd hour.

» It wasn't until an hour later, that Benny decided to show up from his training session.

» "Rick not home yet?" It wasn't hard to make a guess — you two were practically attached in the hip.

» "Nope, but he will in an hour or so," You chirped, one hand stroking the kitty's head and the other perched on the porch fence.

» What a sight to behold, especially under the moonlight.

» "How was training?" He pulled himself out of his daydreaming state before shrugging, acting cool in front of you.

» "The usual. I even decided to go easy on a rookie, sooo, are you proud?" He took pride in making you giggle, wearing the achievement as a champion would, "And you? Anything interesting today?" He placed his gym back down, rolling his shoulders occasionally.

» "Other than making dinner? Nope," You tilted your head in wonder, "What about you? Have you eaten yet?"

» "Nah, might just reheat something in the fridge," He took notice of the way you frowned a little.

» "You sure? You could always join me, I might've made too much," He opened his mouth but nothing came out before contemplating the idea for a moment.

» He's always wanted to spend time with you, no? He'd never do anything you didn't want, obviously.

» He's a menace, not an actual homewrecker. C'mon now.

» He, like the rest, just wanted to spend more time with you, is all.

» "You sure?" He asked but deep down, he was anticipating the next hour or so with you.

» "Definitely!"

» Just like that, Benny was greeted by the coziness of your humble abode.

» He and the boys have been to your house before but there was something different about being in your kitchen at night with a nice meal to end a dull or stressful day.

» "Here you go," You placed a bowl of pasta and a can of beer in front of him, "Careful, it's still a lil' hot,"

» You opted for tea instead — you did promise Rick that you wanted to eat together.

» Speaking of, your phone chimed before Benny could even chat with you.

» Rick: im on my way, hang tight sweetheart ♡

» You smiled bashfully at the text, typing an equally cheesy response before putting it away out of respect for Benny's company.

» "I take it that he's coming home soon?" He took a sip of his drink, hiding his disappointment that the time would probably end sooner than he thought.

» "Mhm!"

» Thaaat figures.

» But, that didn't mean he didn't enjoy your presence. Hell, the entire one hour felt like a breath of fresh air. Plus, with the hearty meal? He's sure the others would enjoy it just as much.

» Back to you, though, he's reminded why he, Rick and even the rest of the gang found you irresistible.

» Alas, he knew the night came to an end at the sound of the front door.

» You stood up from your seat and Benny watched as you immediately made a beeline for the living room, but not before patting him on the arm.

» "I'll be right back!"

» Ah, bless you for your consideration.

» Rick had taken off his shoes, petted the cat outside and was greeted by the one face he's been dying to see. He needed it — needed you after the mission.

» "Rick!" You jumped in his arms, prompting Benny in the other room to stop chewing. His cheeks puffed up, both from the food in his mouth and the distaste for his name that left your pretty little lips.

» "Hey, darlin," Rick purred, finally loosening up now that he's home, "What smells good in here?"

» "I made pesto for dinner, I told you that this morning, didn't I?"

» "Oh, I was talkin' 'bout you but I'm not saying no to some pasta," You dramatically gasped at his scandalous statement. A common behaviour at this point, always dropping hints at you without a care in the world, "Veeery funny. How's DuBois?"

» "Same as always," He replied, "Here," He dropped one hand to his pocket, fishing out a letter.

» "Is this from Tyla and Cleo?" He hummed, watching you grin. It was cute, to say the least; seeing how you'd keep in contact with the two like the 'cool aunt' everyone has. Cleo thought of exchanging letters, despite having her own phone but decided the former idea had its own appeal. Tyla, too, grew to the idea.

» Lovely sisters, they were. None of you cared if they weren't related.

» Plus, Cleo had a thing for polaroids now, sending you photos of whatever random activities she did with Tyla and even DuBois nowadays.

» How could you ever say no to that?

» …

» Scratch that, make it three.

» Harley's chaotic energy was unmatched but nothing you nor Rick couldn't handle.

» "The mission's okay," Your train of thoughts were interrupted by his reassurance, "DuBois went home safely, and now, I'm home too,"

» Good; you couldn't imagine Tyla's, Cleo's, or your anxiety level if none of them reached home safely.

» "I'm really glad it went well," You mumbled against him, feeling his arms tighten around you, "I hope you don't mind but I invited a friend over for dinner," You headed to the kitchen, walking backwards as Rick followed suit.

» Thank goodness you went in first or he would've swung at the sight of the guest.

» "Flag," He raised his can of beer. Rick didn't miss his instigating tone; Benny might as well have fun a little, right?

» "Hope you don't mind me borrowing her for a bit,"

» Oh nah.

» The nerve-

» "Rick, no!" You wrapped your arms around him, holding him back, though you knew he could've pulled away if he wanted to.

» Plus, what has gotten into him? Could it be that he's angry because he didn't want to share?

» That's preposterous.

» "I was the one who invited him in!" You explained over his shoulder, "I made a lot of pasta when Benny came back from his training. None of the boys was home yet and I didn't want him to have some random TV dinner. So, I called him over so he could bring home some leftovers for others, that's all,"

» You felt him relax a little but still on edge nonetheless. You had your left cheek squished against his back to calm him down, unaware of the shit-eating grin he's receiving from Benny.

» "Yeah, Flag. She makes a mean pasta, I see why you're not a fan of sharing,"

» All Rick could do was grit his teeth behind his ambiguous statement.

» Acting civil shouldn't be difficult, considering that was what he's done back in Belle Reve and yet, the smug bastard before him really tested his patience.

» To be honest, this or this is what the confrontation would've looked like if you weren't there.

» Still, he trusted you with all his heart. He knew you'd decline or call Benny out the second he takes a step too far.

» So, he relaxed under your touch but continued to glare at the fighter in front of him.

» "Glad we can come to an agreement," He scoffed, motioning you close for a side hug. A smirk broke out of his face when he noticed Benny's clear annoyance. Rick wasn't going to give him the slightest satisfaction and it shows, "(Y/N) right here, is one in a million, kid,"

» You giggled when he nuzzled against your hair, blinded by the fact that things were beginning to heat up until you remembered your guest.

» Poor Benny had to endure the art of third-wheeling.

» (that's what yo' ass get-)

» Those short seconds of love were brief but damn, they felt like hours.

» "C'mon," You took the same hand that was caressing your face, pulling Rick to the table together.

» You took the liberty to sit in between them, in case one of them decided to say something that could aggravate the other.

» For whatever reason.

» Seeing that none of them wanted to talk to each other but to you instead, dividing your attention was the only option.

» So, you went from Rick.

» "Harley wants us to babysit Bruce again next week,"

» To Benny.

» "The gym's always open for new people, y'know?"

» Then, Rick again.

» "You think DuBois' gonna throw another get-together soon?"

» Then, Benny again.

» "Will won't stop bugging me about this bakery downtown but I know I'm not planning to go with him,"

» Whenever your attention was on the former, the latter made sure a displeased look was on their face, and vice versa.

» A mess, honestly. It's amazing that you never caught these in your attention.

» Soon after, Benny checked the time; seeing that the others were bound to return home soon, he took his leave.

» Begrudgingly, to him.

» Thankfully, to Rick.

» But, not before you passed Benny containers filled with pasta, plus, some treats you've made the day before.

» "Heat it up in the microwave for two minutes, make sure you stir them after every thirty seconds," You reminded him once the three of you stood by the front door.

» "I will, thanks again, sweets,"

» One would be aware that a pet name like that would've thrown Rick off.

» So, what was stopping him?

» Well, the way he thanked you wasn't the teasing tone he's normally dealt with.

» No, it was genuine gratitude. Benny almost looked like he didn't know what to do.

» You've told him about your time in the military with the boys. One thing he was thankful for was the good memories you held with them. They weren't easy but compared to Belle Reve?

» Military service seemed like child's play.

» Rick was somewhat in Benny's place before.

» Out of place. Reserved. A little hot-headed to some, even. Up until you came along.

» It felt weird. Not bad, but fuzzy, if that made sense.

» That's probably what Benny was feeling too.

» So, he sighed but continued to lean against the door frame, just behind you. Once goodbyes were exchanged, you turned around, only to see him crossing his arms.

» "Aww, Rick, come here," You brought your six-foot husband in an embrace, feeling his guard drop the second your ran your fingers through his hair, "What's gotten into you, hm?"

» His lack of response worried you until he lifted you off the porch floor.

"Just miss you, is all," He hid his face in the crook of your neck. You figured he was having one of those moments, whether it was after a particularly rough mission or a tough time sleeping. It could've been anything but you didn't question it. You just continued to lavish him with your presence. Words of affirmation or butterfly kisses, it didn't matter.

» "I miss you too, handsome," You cooed. You stayed like that for a moment, legs off the ground as he carried you with ease, "Wanna head inside?"

"In a bit," You hummed at his response, enjoying the moment as he placed a kiss or two on your jaw.

» He loves you, to the moon and back. He'd show how much you mean to him if he had to.

» He could only imagine the seething look on Benny's face if he watched from his house window.

» Probably hilarious, if you asked Rick.

» I'm just saying; Benny probably probably saw it and is screaming in a pillow right now.

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» gorgeous rose divider by the amazing @firefly-graphics

» taglist: @perseone @aria725 @all-the-things-i-done @torchbearerkyle (+ kudos to @velocibeewords for establishing that Benny is in fact 'Little shit!Benny') ♡

» y'all are absolutely killing it in my askbox ✋🏼😭 I've got a couple more so I'm so excited to do my take on it! feel free to send in yours; one of them is particularly spicy so ;)

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[machifuwa]

- Animals - Menagerie of Animals (8/8)

That Night

Nazuna: We're back~! Ohー

Koga: Phew. Taking care of this guy here was hard enough, but I didn't think it would be even harder in a water park...

Tomoya: Fufu... Penguins swim very fast in the water, they're so different from the way we see them.

Also. I'm glad we came back on time. I didn't want my seniors to wait.

Come look, Hokuto-senpai.

Hibiki-senpai and Akehoshi-senpai are waiting for us. They're the ones who prepared this farewell party for you.

Subaru: Welcome back, Hokuto-senpai!

The farewell party is about to start♪

Wataru: Let us toast for the meeting between us and Hokuto-senpai!

Tomoya: What do you think? Are you surprised?

Here's a parting gift for you. Let's spend our last night together.

Subaru: We had a lot of raw fish brought in just for Hokuto-senpai!

In addition, Daikichi, Leon, Hibiki-senpai's pigeons, Nazuna's rabbit... all the animals from the circle are here!*

Rumour has it that Hibiki-senpai is going to perform some simple tricks for everyone!

Please enjoy the show to the end, Hokuto-senpai♪

Koga: Ooh. For a place that was set up on the spur of the moment, it's a pretty nice venue, huh?

So, what are we gonna do? Are we just gonna sit here?

Wataru: Fu-fu-fu...♪ Of course, the members of "Animals" are our guests. We've prepared the proper hospitality just for you.

Voila! For you humans, I've baked a herring pie...☆

Subaru: Ooh, wow! Where did you get this idea from? The herring pie, I mean!

Wataru: Yes, well, since Hokuto-senpai eats raw fish, I thought that we might as well eat fish.

And of course, we have cutlery as well. Now then, please take a seat and enjoy♪

Nazuna: I heard herring pie had a special flavour! Let's eat~ I don't know if we can handle eating the same food though~?

Wataru: Fufufu. No need to worry! We have a variety of other seafood dishes to choose from!

Subaru: And we've also got another special guest!

The man where Hokuto-senpai's name came fromー Hokke!

Tomoya: Eeh?? Did you tell Hokuto-senpai about Hokuto-senpai!?

Aah, please don't misunderstand! I didn't mean to get you involved...!

Hokuto: Naming a penguin after me... It's like a nightmare...

Subaru: Come on, don't say thaaat!

Anyway, Hokke, give Hokuto-senpai a parting gift too!

You have a speech ready, right? You guys share the same name after all.

Hokuto: I don't really have anything to say.

Subaru: Oh, come on. I'm sorry about him, Hokuto-senpai. It must have been hard for you, being named after an asshole. We didn't mean to offend you, please forgive us.

...And with that, Hokke's speech has come to an end, clap, clap!

Nazuna: Ahaha, it seems like you guys didn't prepare well~? Well, this messy atmosphere is typical for circles.

Wataru: Everyone, please be seated. I've already served the food!

Koga: Right... Good timing, I'm getting a little hungry.

Tomoya: Ah, yeah~ I'm pretty hungry after all that running in the park.

Ooh... It's a real aqua pazza. Did Hibiki-senpai make this?

Wataru: Yes, I did. It's a big celebration after all. Do you like it?

Tomoya: Ah, umm, yes. I'm really surprised to see that you guys did everything well. Thank you very much, Hibiki-senpai, Akehoshi-senpai.

Subaru: Nah. Don't worry about it. We're just really happy to be able to do something that's for our circle.

At least we should do it right on Hokuto-senpai's last day.

Hmm...? What's wrong, Hokuto-senpai? You're pulling my pants...

A bucket of fish? Are you going to give it to... me?

Are you saying "thank you"?

Ahaha, I'm glad you're happy! All my hard work preparing for the farewell party was worth it huh~♪

It's a pity that today is the last day. I'll see you again when I go to the pet shop, alright!

Ahaha, he's rubbing his self on me...♪This cute bastard~♪

Tomoya: Hokuto-senpai is also a member of "Animals" now, right?

Hm...? I just got a message, I wonder who is it...?

...Huh?

Subaru: What's wrong, Tomoya-kun? Your face looks kinda pale...

Tomoya: P-please look at this!

Subaru: .....?

What is it~? "I've been bitten by a snake that is forbidden to be imported from overseas, and I can't go back home. I'm sorry!".

"I'd be happy if you can look after the little penguin for a while more."...?

...So that means... we can still be with Hokuto-senpai, right!?

Yaaay! What a good news, right, Hokuto-senpai!? As a member of "Animals", we can still play together!

Tomoya: That may be true but...! How am I supposed to take care of him in the future...!?

It's also confusing to keep calling him "Hokuto-senpai"!

Hokuto: I feel the same, you know.

Even if it's still temporarily... Just, how long will this nightmare of mine last...?

Subaru: Ahaha. Two people...or more like one person and one animal sharing the same name sounds interesting!

That's it! Since you're here, why don't you try taking care of him, too? I'm sure you wouldn't let him leave after doing so!

Hokuto: Oi, Akehoshi! This is not just about having fun...!

Wataru: Fufufu. That may be a good idea. Hokuto-kun can be stubborn at times, so let's ask Hokuto-senpai to loosen his heart♪

Nazuna: Ahaha. I guess it's true that it is better to be taken care of by the whole Seisoukan than by "Animals" alone.

Since this property is pet-friendly, it would be a good idea to promote pets through "Animals". Maybe we could create a newsletter to promote the appeal of our circle.

Koga: I think it's a good idea to promote pets... Right, this would be like the "circle-like activities" that Akehoshi mentioned before.

Tomoya: Eeh!? Are you two being serious!?

I think... I may have underestimated the amount of love for animals in "Animals"...

Subaru: Ahaha. Tomoya-kun, you're one of us, you know~? You're Hokuto-senpai's owner after all~?

And with that, Let's work together again, as fellow members of "Animals", Hokuto-senpai ☆

< EPISODE 8 END >

Notes:

Subaru is really calling Wataru "Hibiki-senpai" here (instead of "Hibiking-senpai").

Just my thoughts about this story:

I cried bcs I thought Hokuto-senpai and Shiro are really going to part ways but thank god the manager got bitten by a snake... I MEAN!!! NOOO PLS BE CAREFUL HEHWHWA (love the fact that they just ignored that tho) umm! Thank you for those ppl who are reading my translations!! I really love this event scout story, it's a roller coaster of emotions fr! Stan "Animals"!!

Chapter details:

Story: "Animals" [Menagerie of Animals]

Story by: 木野太郎 (Happy Elements株式会社)

Season: Winter

Characters in this Episode: Tomoya, Subaru, Wataru, Hokuto, Koga, Nazuna, Hokuto-senpai, Daikichi, Leon, Wataru's pigeons, Nazuna's rabbit

Mentioned Character(s): the pet shop's manager and dangerous snakes

Reminder: I did not create this story, but I translated it, so please refrain from reposting my translation on other social media platforms.

I apologize if there are any mistakes as well.

(Prev - All) Thank you for reading this story with me!

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

Hey, i hope you're doing well. I discovered your blog recently, you're answers r interesting n better insights than more of jikookers have. I want to put a thought here which is there a long time. ITS 1 Tae wanted to have convo with jk, I didn't understand that why he wanted to do it on cam? The awkwardness/distance they got probably might have a reason? Maybe of diff of opinions/ego strike btwn them? Whatever it was off cam. Even if we assume, it is harder to make an interaction after long time with the disconnected frnd still this whole epi can be done off cam as well. Like they can meet via jimin outside. I didn't understand the point of that conversation in front of million fans? I felt like it can sort out privately. Or this whole is jus a marketing strategy by company? Now that conversation happened so we r seeing more of tkk? Idk. I hope I made sense without being negative. Thank you.

Hiii, how are you?

I honestly have no idea why he chose to do it there....... I've wondered the same and every guess I have of why is as clueless as yours tbh.

I went to check on what I told my friend when that episode aired and I said:

"I'm surpised Taehyung chose to do this on the show. Not that thrown off by the whole matter in itself, that's just life, it happens, but the fact that he planned to have a conversation about it in front of cameras."

Then we talked a bit about taekookers theories and my friend said:

"If I was one of them I would be devastated that all the time I spent swooning over my fav ship, my ship hardly talked to each other."

Honestly, both points were the hardest for me to understand and the second was the most difficult to come to terms with, because of who I thought JK was.

The "theory" that makes the most sense to me, and it's just my own conclusion because I've never seen anyone talk about it, is that maybe Taehyung decided to have that conversation after the May 5th taekook vlive. It wasn't a horrible live, but it wasn't a happy live either. I think that maybe Tae watched it, and realized that their vibe was off and a couple weeks later, when they were filming ITS, he decided to acknowledge that lack of chemistry on camera.

I might be completely utterly outrageously wrong, but if I think about how they were during the end of 2019 and beginning of 2020, there's no apparent conflict. Nothing seemed wrong during those days, in fact they seemed better than ever. I can't imagine either of taekook watching themselves cuddling on GDA and saying "yeah we need to address and explain this". You know that saying why fix something that isn't broken? So it makes sense to me to consider that maybe Taehyung saw something that looked off between them, and realized that probably everybody was seeing it. I know at least I would've wanted to explain why my friend and I don't seem to vibe after watching that live.

That's just an opinion I have and it makes sense to me because that live was like, the most inmediate thing before the filming of ITS.

Because otherwise I don't understand why publicly solve a conflict that nobody really knew existed in the first place. Apart from that live (which wasn't even thaaat bad but it wasn't good either, especially when compared to other duos lives), they looked perfectly fine to me all along the time they were supposedly awkward with each other. They looked perfectly fine right inmediately after that conversation, too; in fact they looked quite the same as before the conversation 😭

So at least in my opinion, Taehyung had to have noticed or felt like the conflict was out there, so the resolution for it had to be done out there, too. I personally can't think of any other instance that might've looked like there was a conflict apart from that live.

I also wonder how long was that "awkward" phase? When did it start, was it in the beginning of 2019, was it in March 2020, April 2020...? All JK said was that as they got time on their own, a part of his relationship with Tae started to get awkward. He never said they were distant, tho. Just that a part of it was awkward.

The other possible reason that I consider, is that Taehyung decided to have that conversation on camera for personal reasons, and Jungkook was a bit like collateral damage, like killing two birds with one stone. I know Jungkook would've not wanted to do that on camera but it happened like that because Taehyung wanted it to happen that way. It was an opportunity for Taehyung to talk about himself, the way he didn't feel like he was loved, the reasons for him to spend so much on weverse trying to connect with army, I don't remember well but he kind of let on a bit about having some sort of career crisis. I am definitely 100% sure that Taehyung wanted to put all that out there and having that conversation with JK was a way to bring all that up within some kind of context. If you think about it, it was supposed to be a heart-to-heart but JK barely spoke about himself, it was mostly Taehyung who talked about his feelings, who actually opened his heart; which is okay anyways, since he was the one who decided to do that in the show.

Of course there were some editing decisions made and the conversation in reality didn't last only two minutes, but yeah I don't know what else was said so all I can talk about is what I watched. And I watched Taehyung opening up his heart and JK giving nice advice.

I was never suspicious per se of why he wanted to have that conversation on camera, but I was confused about why solving a conflict that didn't seem to be there in the first place. Like you said, it could've been done privately. I don't know if he wanted people to say "oh tae he's so great he wants to fix things etc", because yes, they all also do stuff with that on mind sometimes. So I think that's a valid possibility, too.

Maybe it was the whole vibe of that place, maybe they were all on their periods (joking) at the same time and were sensitive. You know how when you start opening up, you just keep going. When you're in the mood for sentimentalism it's easy to keep being sentimental. I'm a woman, but I'm sure men feel like this sometimes, too.

So... yeah. What do you think could've been the reason?

It's okay, you made perfect sense and you weren't negative at all.

[thisdreamplace]

hi, my brother's being a huge dreadful person. clearly judging me for somthn he doesn't know the whole story of, consequently treating me like im the most repulsive person,, his words,, nd has serious judging problems with everyone,, that im SICK of. Worse is hes one of ThOsE pppl who think they're always right and super suuuuper self-entitld. it's exhausting. one of my parents is out of picture which is for the best he wasn't emotionaly there for any of us anyway. and the other never ever takes my side or even calls my brother out on his horriblenes and pettiness. have u ever met someone like that? u know those pppl who'll youll endure wayyy too much shit from, coz u dont wanna stoop to their lvl but they'll provoke u nd then use that one occasion to gaslight and paint u out to be the monster HAHAHA what a JOKE!

its already taken me months to admit this. I thought i was overthinking but yesterday i got real evidence that i had to admit spoke volumes abt how they (wonder duo lmao) view me

I tried to change myself i pretended things weren't as bad or that it wasn't real nd I took some steps despite my pride to be amiable with them... its unbearable. i feel so bad. I don't have any friends i can discuss this personal thing with. i wish i realy didn't exist. Thats how theyre already treating me right? im tryjny to see things frkm their view nd the only conclusion is if i acted like this with someone, itd be because i either want to put them down as i hate them because of my own insecurities that maybe im not aware of, or because im not emotionaly mature nd think what I'm doing is 'not thaaat bad they deserve worse so im being easy on them anyway'

ive always had diff points of views from them. Hugely diff. So yes maybe most of my opinions dont align with their beliefs. idk what to do? im doing my best not to give jn, to accept my emotions nd to sooth myself its tough but i owe it to myself but idk my heart breaks when i confront them or mention lightly abt their ugly treatment they act like "yeah? So? Whats ur problem, you deserve it!" and what if theyre right? the thing is idk if its related? but a few momths back i started getting flashbacks of my past in school when i got similar sometimes subtle-but-noticable 'treatment' from a few. it was a short period of time nd like i said it wasn't until it was over thay i realised it was kinda them punishing me for what i did to them? haha. what i did, as i found out, was being myself nd having acomplished stuff they didn't?! so petty jealousy over smth not in my control. Wth is wrong with ppl? Please tell me why ppl act like this as children, but then why still as adults? nd when these randkm memories pop up, is it coz im feeling smth bad? Or subconsiously thinking of smth bad? or is it my mind trying to tell me smth?

As for my mother, i feel like she knows whats shes doing, i told her many years ago how i was struggling with certain issues but she never outright helped me, basiclly pretended i never confided in her... Like no wonder i got trust issues hahah. Ik shes not dumb, but if she wanted to put her foot down she wouldve. idk how to tell u its hard for me to find reasons to live they're all external anyway. once I came across an article which said that parents do have faves and its usually the kid who usualy resembles THEM more. so that gave me strength knowing i have enuff mind sense to know what can hurt ppl whether they mention it or not. for instanc please help me here, my mother is the sort who talks like: "since that person isnt saying anything, it means they're unbothered by things. Everything's perfect in their life!" "If ur smiling, ur happy! U can't smjle nd be sad. U have smth (mother wants), then u hav no right to complain!" This is victim right? Imagine growing up listening to things like this? And because of this I had a habit of mind-reading ppl in which I expected them to know what i thought, but turns out what I 'read' on their minds was usually not good at all lol. It was victim! Im over that now. Ive become a bit... sensitive after events nd dealing with them alone. i never realised until a few years ago that not all adults are emotionaly mature. Its not their fault maybe their parents didn't teach them either. But it makes me so so SO ANGRY that i never even knew whats normal to me is actually so so unhealthy and not normal? has this hapened to u? As for being in her favor, I no longer WANT to be her 'fave' if that means conditional love nd being an ugly human inside together. U see when its stuff I do or dont do i swear she's after my hide, yelling and screaming. she has had only criticism for my choices in life only because they don't align with what SHE would do, despite our differences. why does it hurt when u think of someone whos supposedly someone who loves u more than anything? is this love? maybe its love nd I don't see it? yesterday i broke down in my room when i admitted this isn't normal. i can't live like this. Its not good. It brings me no relief to think even if i die they'll blame me for it, for not 'ConFiDiNg' in them! What if its me being crazy? and theyre right? besides i think my mothers secretly scared of my brother BY DA WAY HES A YEAR YOUNGER because he judges hard nd can accuse u confidently of shit after all he's had so much practice, nd hes more independent coz he can drive coz he sevretly prepared for nd got his license before i got mine nd back then we only had one car so he used it for uni coz his was 'farther' away than mine nd would come home super late so there was no chance for me to practice. By da way my mother blames me for that one too. Says i should've 'known' he was getting his license nd I wasn't 'serious' abt it.... Right, I was supposed to know he'd go behind my back? 😶

it's been like this and together theyre all chummy nd pretend they're not doing anything 'wronf' but they r. they're both more alike than they'd admit, nd not in good ways. we can't choose our families but I wish we could choose whether we wanna live in this world or not. lets say i change nd yes they reflect that sure that's nice but u know what? im so hurt by them nd ik theyll never ever know the extent to which ive been hurt. why should i dump this under the rug using the assumption law? later when i'll be okay and have my own life without depending on them they'll come to me nd pretend it never happened or if i mention how they treated me ik i just know they'll say things like: "oh it was for ur own good!"

like thisdreamplac i dont want to revise it like it never hapened nd honestly idk if i want their apology even! if ur hurt by someone's behavior, it means u care abt them! Whether its friends or family, so it means im caring for them. despite this i dont hate them enough to cause them hurt or pain back. why? Coz ik too well how it feels. the more this life feels like dreaming, the harder i feel things, more the pain more the fears

😶

hey :)

firstly, i'm sorry that's all happening to you. it's definitely heavy and not easy to deal with, when your pain runs deep and you're reminded of it all the time. it's surely not easy.

i hope that one day you decide to give yourself the freedom you deserve. hopefully one day you realize a life full of misery isn't worth it, and you change within for the better. not for anyone else, but for you. we are allowed to be happy, and we don't have to keep using others as an excuse for why we can't be. but that's a choice we must make on our own.

at the end of the day, whether you want to apply the law or not, you're still the one deeply carrying these burdens. not your family, but you. so you have to decide that you deserve to be free from the burdens, for yourself, because you deserve that lightness. it's not about who is right and who is wrong, but it's about you and taking responsibility for a beautiful tomorrow that doesn't rely on someone else.

i wish i could console you better, but i wouldn't tell you do something that i wouldn't follow myself. but anyway, i hope you do find yourself feeling better 💖

[machifuwa]

- Animals - Menagerie of Animals (3/8)

Tomoya: Hmm.... Yesterday was such a bad day huh.

I never thought that I would shout so loudly in the middle of the night. I blame it all on Hokuto-senpai.

Why won't he listen to me~? I thought he'd be a bit more reasonable...!

...No, it's wrong to blame it all on Hokuto-senpai. It's my fault for not being a good owner.

Alright. From now on, I'm going become a much better owner...!

...Wahiyah!?

Wha-what the hell is happening? Gravity... Is the world upside down!?

Wataru: Thaaat is~ Wasshoi! Wasshoi!*

Subaru: Wasshoi! Wasshoi!

Tomoya: Eh... Ah, I get it! I still don't get the meaning of this but! Am I being lifted up...!?

Wataru: Wasshooooi...☆

Subaru: Wasshoishoooi☆

Tomoya: Please stop saying "Wasshoi"! What are you trying to do? Put me down!

Wataru: Fufufu. If we hurt the cute Tomoya-kun, his guardian, the little rabbit, will be angry with us. Let's stop this for now...☆

Tomoya: W-why aren't you putting me down?

Nazuna: Sorry for being so rough~ Subaru-chin is very enthusiastic and suddenly suggested to go to the pet shop with you, Tomo-chin.

Tomoya: Pet shop? What's going on? Why do I have to go to a pet shop and have my body lifted into the air?

Koga: You must be surprised to find yourself in this situation all of a sudden. I sympathise with you, but you should think about what you just did.

I feel bad that we didn't pay enough attention to you, a non-pet owner, in yesterday's activities, but is it that bad that you'd keep a human being as a pet?

You're probably just dreaming but, I can hear you arguing with someone last night loud and clear ya know.

Tomoya: Keeping a human being...?

Aah...! Are you perhaps... talking about Hokuto-senpai!?

Ah crap! I see, I was careless~! The people next door heard me loud and clear...!

Nazuna: The way you're talking right now. Don't tell me that you're actually keeping Hokuto-chin as a pet...?

Oh boy. I can't believe it's actually true. What do we do now...?

They're both students, but they're also working people... If that's the case, then it's best not to meddle huh...

Tomoya: W-wait just a sec! You're definitely not getting it, Nii~chan!

I know I'm confusing you, but you've definitely misunderstood the situation!

Wataru: Fufufu. I knew it, there's just no way that could happen in the first place~♪

Subaru: Right~? I couldn't imagine Tomoya-kun doing something so ridiculous as to keep a human being, even if he was just talking in his sleep.

Tomoya: Ugh, that sounds so fake! You guys were trying to force me to go with you, and then saying something like "Wasshoi," you definitely thought that I had gone crazy, right?

Wataru: You think so?

It would be very interesting to think that Tomoya-kun might have kept a human, but Tomoya-kun is a such wonderful "normal child".

If you have to choose a pet, it's definitely going to be a pretty normal pet, not so rare.

And with that, the "Wasshoi Operation to know the truth out of Tomoya-kun's mouth" had come to an end! Well, I'm really glad that I was able to draw out the true feelings from Tomoya-kun...☆

Tomoya: I had a feeling that I'm being falsely accused.

Koga: I agree. I'll just say this to be clear, me and Nito-senpai were against this whole operation thing, alright?

That's all I'm saying. Anyway, enough of this. Tell me, what the hell happened last night?

If you just tell me that, there won't be any more fuss.

Tomoya: Yes, that's right. I didn't want to make a big deal out of it, so I didn't tell you, but actually things have become complicated recently.

The whole thing yesterday was because of that. Anyway, please come to my room. I'll tell you there.

I'll tell you the truth about what really happened yesterday...

< EPISODE 3 END >

Notes:

'Wasshoi' is a chant typically used by a group of people to synchronize their movements, to encourage each other, and—most importantly, like in the situation described above—to gather strength to carry a heavy load. Usually two halves of a team shout, 'wasshoi, wasshoi! (read more + source)!

Story: "Animals" [Menagerie of Animals]

Story by: 木野太郎 (Happy Elements株式会社)

Season: Winter

Characters in this Episode: Tomoya, Wataru, Subaru, Nazuna, Koga

Mentioned Characters: Hokuto

Reminder: I did not create this story, but I translated it, so please refrain from reposting my translation on other social media platforms.

I apologize if there are any mistakes as well.

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