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This part in the song This Year has just been hitting different as of late
#jumblr#personal thoughts tag#i know the jerusalem that's being sung about is symbolic. but look around you and tell me you don't want to take it literally too#we will be feasting and dancing in jerusalem next year#you can pry my hope from me but my hope has grown out of my body#it is firmly rooted deep within my skin and muscles and tissue#to not have hope is a death within itself. it should be treated like it were physical death#but the difference is you can Always revive hope. it is the only necromancy permissible#yeah... i am gonna make it through this year if it kills me
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đđ â jason todd x civilian reader
in which jason is totally not planning on stealing you away from your shitbag of a bf
part 1 ! part 2 ! part 3 ! part 4 ! part 5 !
jason todd likes you, yes, at this rate he may even love you. however, jason decides you to will just be friends. thatâs it. youâre not like him, he doesnât want you to spend your life worrying about him. you deserve better than him.
so he sits while you talk about your boyfriend. nothing particularly good, either. he has no ambition, volume control, heâs mean to animals⊠are you trying to make jason hate him? he narrows his eyes when he can tell youâre leaving a lot out of the conversation. hiding something. he doesnât pry, until he sees you two in public.
your scumbag of a boyfriend following you around the library whining loudly because he wants to be anywhere but there. you keep glaring at him, like a mother scolding her child. jason feels too hopeful about how much longer youâll be with that guy.
jason notices a small bruise on your forehead before he approaches. itâs small enough that it could be because of how clumsy you are, but jason doesnât trust that thatâs the case. âhey, sweetheart.â he speaks quietly, refusing to acknowledge your boyfriend. you shoot him a smile that makes his heart burst.
your boyfriend is long forgotten in this conversation , until he grabs at your shoulder. âletâs go. have plans later.â heâs glaring at jason, like that could do anything. jason shoots him a polite fake smile. âi can get her home.â you nod, and your boyfriend glares at you. âiâll be fine, heâs my friend.â he scoffs and turns away from you without another word.
jason hates your boyfriend. no more conversations needed. you deserve better than that, and he could give it to you. he knows you may not like his lifestyle but he needs to try. for you.
when youâre ready to leave, he takes you to his truck. your tote bag full of books hanging over his shoulder. âcan i ask you somethin?â he mutters, worried heâs overstepping.
âanything, jason.â you look back at him, eyes shining like stars. he hated when you looked at him like that. you arenât even his, and itâs like he hung the moon just for you.
âgotta bruise on your forehead. whereâd you get it?â he knows the answer when your face falls.
heâs patient, quiet, lets you decide if youâre going to tell him or not. âme and my boyfriend were⊠roughhousing, just went a little too far. he didnât mean tâdo it, swear.â you looked up at him nervously, eyes flitting over his face to search for any signs of disapproval.
he just nods, but his eye twitches as his thumb rubs gently over the mark. âhe needs to be more careful with you, heâs stronger than you.â he only hums when you playfully remark that youïżœïżœïżœre grown.
jason knows in that moment heâd do whatever he needed to just to get you away from that man, whether or not you ended up with him after. knows that heâd protect you from anything, no matter what.
#â bambi posting#jason todd#red hood#jason todd x reader#red hood x reader#jason todd imagine#red hood imagine#freak jason if u squint and by squint i mean open ur eyes#i like him strange and offputting#also noooo not speaking from personal experience whatttttttt#not romanticizing anything this was my daydream w my last abuser#jason is a guard dog i love him
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No other reason for this other than me being self-indulgent and having some fun. Dottore and Fragile Reader of course.
Prime Dottore - About You:
"If you were expecting me to... gush about them and whatnot, then your expectations are nonsensical. I have nothing to share with you about them. I merely have three things to say. Do not get close to them, do not make them upset, and do not get in my way, regardless of what I have to do to make them better."
Omega - About You:
"...[Name]? Their time is far too valuable to be spent around the likes of you. Speaking of, have you seen them? ...You say they're with another segment now? A pity. It's a shame they're always swept away by the others. I could please them far more than anyone else in any matter. I suppose I will need to think of a way to retrieve them yet again."
Alpha (Akademiya) - About You:
"Do you know how many pens and pencils I've broken due to [Name]? Even centuries later they still find the need to debate me on certain topics, academic or not, challenge my research and thinking, and criticize my handwriting. Truly an annoyance. If only they were able to be with me a bit longer... What? They are annoying, but I still acknowledge that they have the traits of a true scholar. And their voice is still much more agreeable than the others I have to work with..."
Beta (Webttore) - About You:
"Hehe, what a loyal assistant they are. They can pick apart different parts and mechanics with ease. Much more competent than that man I disposed of a while ago, on that expedition... along with all the others. Unfortunately, I only have a limited amount of time with them. Really, is it so difficult to find someone with even a third of their ability? Actually, that is a foolish question. No one could ever hope to compare to them."
Delta - About You:
"They have an exceptional talent for pestering me at any given moment, somehow seeking me out wherever I am easily. If only they could put their mind into something more productive. Why do I not simply ignore them? Because they do not stop until they've gotten their desired results, just like me. I'd rather not prolong their prodding.
Zeta - About You:
"... As long as they are well, I need not know anything else. Their health is of utmost priority."
Zandy - About You:
"[Name]? Oh, they're the best, most nicest and fun grown-up ever! I'm never alone now that they're around! They're always willing to play with me and they always yell at the other segments when they're being mean. They're never scared at all... [Name] could probably beat Prime in a fight if they wanted. Hmm? But they can't even throw a punch? That doesn't matter! They're much stronger than you think - I've witnessed it many times."
Pierro - About You:
"When I first recruited Dottore from the desert and gave him his Harbinger position, one of the first things he did was set up a room to monitor [Name]'s condition. He did so for hundreds of years, creating numerous segments to help, and it ended up paying off. It is not my place to pry into his life, as long as he fulfills his duties as the Tsaritsa requests, but now that they're by his side again, he seems... never mind."
Capitano - About You:
"I once encountered them when they managed to sneak out of the lab. They were... intriguing and talkative. They weren't scared in the slightest and were more interested in how I managed to befriend all the creatures near me. They wanted... tips on how to convince the Doctor to let them have a pet. I don't think I was very helpful."
Columbina - About You:
"The Doctor is engrossed with his research, but the only thing he truly has a soft spot for is his dearest [Name]. He hides his feelings exceptionally well, but anyone who witnesses him around them can tell the difference. Don't tell him I said this though, you know how he'll act.~ But do tell [Name] this, they're sure to get flustered. âȘ"
Arlecchino - About You:
"They have made attempts to get closer to me, but I'm afraid I have no interest in building a relationship with them. Still, I've always thought that their character would be similar to that of the Doctor, but from what I've seen of them, that does not seem to be the case. So, I do wonder if those two opposites truly get along."
Pulcinella - About You:
"I have seen many things in this long life of mine, so unlike many others, their relationship with Dottore does not surprise me too much. Still, they have much to learn if they feel the need to come and ask me for relationship advice. If you ask me, I believe that they don't truly know how much the Doctor values them, even if it is as clear as day."
Wanderer - About You:
"The Doctor's little pet? Every time I saw them, they were always scurrying behind one of the segments, as if they were attached by the hip. I don't know what transpired between the two of them for this relationship to happen, but out of all the people who associate with Dottore, they're bound to meet the nastiest end."
Sandrone - About You:
"The Doctor? [Name]? I have no care for either of them. I am much too busy with my own work to think about his worthless love life. However, I do suppose the idea is entertaining - Dottore being capable of love is as laughable as thinking an Automaton can learn to cherish another, and this [Name] person is equally as idiotic for believing so."
La Signora - About You:
"[Name], you say? I can't claim to know much about them. Everything I've heard is through the mouths of others, mostly from agents who talk more than what's good for them, but especially the Balladeer. What are they really like - a harmless and fragile sweetheart? A tool for the Doctor? His equally as heartless accomplice? Or all of the above? All I can say, however, is that it takes one to know one, right?"
Pantalone - About You:
"Ah, the little one. I am more than familiar with them, although Dottore would loathe to hear that. Did you know the Doctor is more prone to jealousy than you think? It is most amusing to see his ever-confident smirk fall once you get a bit too close to [Name]. I vividly remember the time when I said I would accompany [Name] to a ball instead, as he was too busy with his research. He never changed his mind as quickly as he did once I promised to dance with them."
Childe - About You:
âIâve always thought Dottore was eccentric, and after meeting [Name], I can say they are equally as weird as him, solely for choosing him as their husband. Their personality is nothing like his either - they are bubbly, affectionate, and most of all⊠extremely weak. Traits that Dottore has no interest in. And yet the segments seem to fawn over them⊠I just donât understand them. I just hope they know what theyâre getting into.â
Furina - About You:
"Whenever I see them, [Name] always make sure to arrange a tea party with their own homemade Sumerian sweets! It is truly a delight. I admit, I am a bit jealous of their skill. It's as if they have the experience of a hundred years! But of course, that's impossible. Regardless, they are very kind, and they also seem to have a particular liking for romantic films... an odd thing for someone affiliated with the Fatui to like."
Nahida - About You:
"A raven and a sparrow - two beings that are surely bound to be apart from each other, but when it comes to the Doctor and [Name], it seems that even the impossible becomes possible. Though my feelings toward them will not change because of what they've done, I can't help but be interested. What lengths will the Outcast go to cure the one he holds dear, and would [Name] still be able to love him if he becomes more of a monster?"
#smooches talks#dottore love notes <3#fragile reader <3#zandy bb <3#playable reader <3#dottore x reader#btw... PUSHING MY READER AND FURINA BESTIE AGENDA!!#sometimes u just have to write what u want in order to gain ur spark back... i love voicelines sm...#bye i have sm tags#I LOVE DOTTORE SM...#divider by cafekitsune
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I was wondering if you could write something about how the Batboys (and maybe Bruce) would react to their s/o who knits or crochets and makes them little gifts just randomly? like little things like a hat or a scarf. Maybe even small plushies of their vigilante personas? (Btw I absolutely LOVE your work)

Dick he fucking loves it!
Seriously dick loved the hat you made him and heâll wear it even when he didnât have to, heâs grown too attached to it to the point where he becomes possessive over it.
âMy beautiful and amazing partner made me this hat!â Heâd exclaim.
âDick your indoors take the fucking hat off.â Jason groans but dick was more then willing to look a fucking idiot and keep the hat on throughout the rest of the day, even in his sleep he still wears the hat as itâs your gift to him and who was he to deny the opportunity in wearing it all the time!
He even takes pictures of himself wearing the hat and sending them to you and thanking you for the hat that youâve made him. He looks so unbelievably happy for someone wearing a hat but to dick it wasnât just a hat, it was a hat that you made him in your spare time and he couldnât help it but want to wear it everywhere he goes because again it was something you made especially for him.
So except this loveable man to constantly find ways to wear the hat no matter what.
Raining? Heâs wearing the hat.
Snowing? Heâs wearing the hat.
Spending time with you in your apartment? Heâs wearing the hat as though his life depends on it. He really loves your creation and will shout it from the rooftops that his beautiful partner made it for him and no one else can have it because itâs his!
Damian acts like he hates it but is secretly touched that he was in your thoughts when making such a gift.
Heâs not use to someone giving him gifts or going out of their way to make him something heâll use when the occasion arises. Heâs got a light flush going across his face as he caresses the soft scarf that youâve made him when he told you he misplaced his last one.
âWhatâs the meaning behind this gift.â Damian asks, skeptical of the sudden gift on his lap.
You shrug. âYou told me you lost your last one-â
âMisplaced by continue.â Damian cuts you off.
âAnd I thought that Iâd make you one instead and I hope you like it.â You finished and watched as he opened the bag to find a soft black and emerald green scarf looking back at him. Damian blinks twice before gingerly pulling the scarf out of the box and holds it between his hands as his thumbs get accustomed to the soft material.
Damian doesnât say much but puts the scarf on and feels himself melting in the softness of it as he takes the time to appreciate your craftsmanship. He loves your gift but doesnât say it out loud as heâs not attuned to speaking his emotions freely like most people, but you could tell by the way he sinks into the scarf that he likes it and wouldnât take it off unless he was dead and buried six feet under, and even then you knew you wouldnât be able to pry the gift from his hands at all from this moment forward.
âYou like it?â You asked.
âItâs suitable to combat the cold, the stitching is immaculate and well done.â Damian compliments as he adjusts the scarf on his neck, tucking it under his chin. âYes this shall replace the other oneâŠuntil I find it of course.â He adds and you knew Damian well enough that he wasnât going to bother finding the other scarf, not that he has a perfectly new one to keep him warm.
So to say you werenât surprised to see that he was still wearing the scarf months later, claiming heâs still looking for the other one as a fluster looked overcame him that he quickly hide it with the scarf, once again melting in it and the love youâve put in it just for him.
Bruce smiles softly as he holds a miniature crochet version of himself as Batman between his large hands. Itâs cute to him that you took the time to make him this and from the looks of it, it mustâve took you a while to perfect and he couldnât help but treasure such a gift crafted by your bare hands.
Youâll find the crochet Batman, also known as Batman jr, perched on his desk in the bathroom cave right in from of the keyboard to the bathroom computer. It looked at though the little guy was helping his human counterpart solve crime and make Gotham a better place. It was too cute you thought you were going to die!
âIâm seeing that you like your gift?â You asked Bruce as you held up Batman jr from his place at the bat computer.
Bruce chuckled. âHe was doing some important work for me until you decided to pick him up.â He joked as he presses a kiss to the side of your head, drawing you closer to him so he could indulge in your presence and hum softly. âBut I do in fact love the gift, you didnât have to but I appreciate the work and details you put into him for me my love.â He adds, given your temple another kiss.
You snuggled yourself deeper into his arms as you both look down at the cute crochet plushie as though it were your child. âIâm more than happy that you like it Bruce, I just thought you get lonely sometimes and needed a companion to remind yourself that youâre nowhere near as alone as youâd think.â You tell him, only to see his soft expression as he looked at you and the crochet version of himself before tightening his grip.
âThank you for your hard effort and love to bringing this creation to life my dear, I shall treasure you both for as long as you allow me to.â He whispers as he kisses you on the lips.
He loves Batman jr and will pet its head when no oneâs looking. Itâs a reminder of your love for him and he couldnât help but bestow it with the highest of honour, being his little vigilante companion.
Tim is his most prized possession, he will not loose sight of it and will have it on his being at all times when the occasion calls for it.
He puts his little crochet version of himself on a shelf or keeps it on his person, especially if itâs those crochet bag clip accessories then heâll proudly have it clipped to his bag, while checking to make sure the little guy was still there and not fallen off anywhere without him knowing.
Heâll cry if he did loose it and will hate himself forever for wasting your hard work and effort. God forbid he accidentally rips it, then heâll be inconsolable as he brings it towards you with an extremely guilty look upon his face. âIâm sorry I broke your gift.â Heâd say and youâd have to hold his face between your hands and pepper kisses across his face as you promise to fix it.
When you do give it back to him, Tim acts as though itâs the first time again with how his face brightens up and how he holds it against his chest, promising to cherish it forever and ever while giving you a kiss to your lips in thanks and appreciation.
He appreciates your gift and is determined to hold it to his heart forever because heâll never know if heâll ever get a gift as beautiful as this ever again.
Jason buries himself into the blanket that youâve made him the moment you gave it to him and he feels as though heâs in heaven and feels close to crying because of how loved he felt through this singular act.
He cherishes the blanket like his life depends on it as itâs now his item of comfort for when heâs dealing with night terrors. To Jason anything that related to you was more then enough to calm him down and bring him back to reality and away from his own mind for a little bit. This is only proven more true when he feels lonely he clings onto the blanket and remembers that you were there, you were with him still and he wasnât alone anymore like he was before.
He didnât want to be alone again and you were certain to make it know that he wasnât, not under your watch.
If that didnât make him tear up a little, the note you stitched onto the blanket certainly did the trick.
âDear jay bird, hope you like the blanket I made you! I didnât want you to be without anything with sentimental value, so I made this blanket for you as a reminder that I love you, that Iâm not going anywhere and that youâre not broken. Youâre just a lonely man with a heart in need of healing and Iâll gladly heal and kiss your heart until itâs fully healed again. Iâm right here if you need anything baby, love your little chipmunk.â
Jason held the blanket closer to his chest, kissing the fabric as he fell asleep tucked in it warmth and your love and hard work that went into making this for him. He feels happier, lighter then he had ever felt before and he didnât ever want to let this feeling go at all as he grips the blanket tighter in his hands, pulling it up to his chin as he allows him held to be vulnerable underneath it.
He genuinely loves your gift to him and wouldnât want anything else but something made purely by your hands and your hands alone.
#dc imagine#dc x reader#dc x you#dc fanfic#dc comics x reader#dc fic#dc x y/n#dc fanfiction#jason todd x reader#jason todd imagine#jason todd fluff#jason todd imagines#jason todd x you#dick grayson x you#dick grayson imagine#dick grayson imagines#dick grayson x reader#dick grayson fluff#bruce wayne x you#bruce wayne fluff#bruce wayne x reader#bruce wayne imagine#damian wayne x you#damian wayne imagine#damian wayne x reader#damian wayne imagines#damian wayne fluff#tim drake imagines#tim drake x reader#tim drake imagine
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obsessed - c. alcaraz



c. alcaraz x f!reader
summary: you really don't want carlos to get a haircut.
wc: 1.3k
tags/warnings: suggestive, fluff, implied oral sex, making out.
a/n: posting this to cope with the fact that we're probs gonna lose fluffy hair pinkcaraz đ. as you can probably tell, i don't speak spanish, so please feel free to correct me. as always, likes, reblogs, feedback, etc. are always appreciated! if you want to be tagged in any future writing, please lmk. i might make an official taglist form later if enough people want to be tagged. thanks and hope you enjoy!
itâs one of his days off. thankfully, you and carlos have been enjoying a relaxing vacation at home after several long weeks of traveling and tournaments. for the past few days, the two of you have been making the most of his time off by sleeping in and lounging around at home for most of the day. today, however, the absence of your personal heater next to you rouses you from your comfortable sleep early. you blindly pat his side of the bed just to be sure, and when you donât find him, you lazily crack your eyes open to look for him. sitting up in bed, you find him half dressed, just starting to get ready for the day.Â
âlo siento, did i wake you?â he asks apologetically while fondly watching you rub your eyes from sleep. you look so cute with your sleepy expression and wild bed hair, it makes his heart flutter. he stops what heâs doing to sit next to you on the bed and places a soft good morning kiss on your forehead.Â
you yawn and shake your head smiling. âitâs okay. what are you doing? where are you going?â you ask, trying to smooth down your unruly hair. carlos laughs softly and brushes back a few strands that fall into your face.
âi thought i would go run some errands, maybe go get a haircu-â
âno!â
ââno?â what do you mean âno?ââ
shit, did you just say that out loud? youâre still a little hazy from sleep, and clearly, your brain-to-mouth filter isnât working at full capacity yet.Â
when you donât answer him right away, carlos presses on. âdo you not want me to get a haircut? do my haircuts not look good?â he asks with his pretty brown puppy-dog eyes and signature pout.
youâve really dug yourself into a hole here. âno, charlie, you always look good,â you respond quickly. and itâs true, he does always look good to you, even when he comes home with his goofy ass fade and youâre forced to mourn his soft, fluffy hair. at just the mere mention of a haircut, youâre already lamenting the loss of his current look. heâs been overseas for a few weeks now, so itâs been a while since he last went to see his barber. his hair has grown out a bit on the sides and especially in the front, where it curls and falls just above his eyes. he looks so good like this, it drives you insane sometimes.Â
you distinctly remember an incident just last week where you couldnât take it anymore and basically jumped his bones as soon as he wrapped up his post-match press conference. he had played so well that day. watching him absolutely glowing, dashing back and forth on court, had you so incredibly worked up. his hair was also slightly ruffled from a vigorous match and him occasionally brushing it out of his eyes. despite that, it still looked perfectly soft. you didnât care that he was still sweaty from the match, you had to have him close so you could run your hands through his hair and ruffle it up even more.Â
with unwavering determination, the second carlos stepped out of the press room, you were leading him down an empty hallway of the stadium. once the two of you were away from prying eyes, you had pulled him in by the collar for a searing kiss. as much as he was surprised, he knew better than to interrupt you when you were like this, so he played along, backing you up and caging you against the wall. your resulting gasp allowed him to lick past your lips, into your mouth, teasing you. with one hand still clinging to the collar of his shirt, your other hand reached up to tangle itself in carlosâ hair, bringing him impossibly closer to you. completely engrossed in you, he continued licking and nipping at your bottom lip until you were panting hard. when you gently pulled him back by his hair so you could catch your breath, he let out a soft moan, sending a shiver down your spine. your eyes met, both dark with want, and he dove back in, assertively pressing his soft lips to yours before moving to bury his face in your neck. when he tentatively nibbled at your pulse point, you gasped, tightening your grip on his hair ever so slightly. this had him increasing the intensity of his attention to your neck with a satisfied smirk on his face. you were running your fingers through his hair in appreciation when you heard voices down at the end of the hall, forcing you to drag him off of you.Â
you were dreamily reminiscing about how you had quickly pulled him somewhere else more private to finish what you started when carlosâ voice interrupted your thoughts, bringing you back to the present. âthen, por quĂ© no?â he asks, referring back to you not wanting him to get a haircut.
âumâŠwellâŠitâs just- uh-,â you stutter in response. you clearly have an answer â youâre a little obsessed with his hair grown out â but you donât want to tell him that outright. feeling embarrassed from being in this position and also still slightly flustered from the memory, your cheeks burn. you get that look on your face that says youâre thinking unsavory thoughts about him, and ever-observant carlos starts to pick up on how youâre feeling at the moment.
with a mischievous grin and a teasing tone, he keeps pushing you to answer. âdime, amor. you can tell me anything.â at this point, heâs leaning in so close to you, practically crawling up your body, so youâre forced to lay back on the bed while he hovers over you.
âi just, uh, really like your hair like this is all.â
âoh, de verdad? is that really all you were thinking about? you werenât thinking about yesterday?â he questions deviously while holding himself up on top of you, slotted in between your legs.Â
yesterday. yesterday, as in, when the both of you were in the same position in bed. except, then, he was lower down, attentively nipping and sucking a path from your inner thighs upwards. your hands were tangled in his hair, pulling groans from him and directing him closer to the burning ache between your legs. that yesterday.Â
uh oh, heâs caught you. heâs probably known this whole time that youâre obsessed â not that you were really trying to hide it or anything â and when you finally realize, you whine and cover your face from embarrassment.Â
âwell, no i wasnât thinking about yesterday, but i am now,â you grumble out. thinking back, you subconsciously try to squeeze your thighs together at the memory, but because carlos is still positioned with an evil little smile between your legs, you canât. you can hear him trying to hold back his laughter, so from behind your arms, you mumble, with no venom behind it, âyouâre the worst.â
âok, well if iâm the worst, then i guess i should get up so i can go get a haircut then,â he teases while moving to get up off of you.Â
before he can get anywhere, you pull him back so that heâs plopped on top of you and wrap yourself around him like a koala. ânooooo, donât go,â you whine into the crook of his neck and snuggle even closer to him. âplease.âÂ
the way you hold him close has him melting. he canât deny you when youâre this adorable. âok, fine,â he mumbles endearingly into your hair as he presses a sweet kiss to the top of your head. carlos then wraps his own arms around you in a bear hug and rolls over so that youâre the one laying on top of him. pulling the blankets back up, he settles the both of you back into bed so the two of you can cuddle the rest of the day away.Â
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Hopes And Fears Part Three. (Wally Clark x Reader)
Summary: Y/Nâs death is traumatic. So traumatic in fact, she canât even look at Wally without reliving what happened to her.
Word Count: 2.4k
Gif Not Mine. Requests Are Open!
Warnings: Mature Language
Iâve grown fond of the early mornings whilst stuck at Split River. The first glimpse of the sun shining over the gardens, a warm hue welcoming the day. With no students roaming the halls, all I hear is the quiet sounds of nature. On the odd occasion, Iâm even able to spot a rabbit or deer, grazing gently on the acres of freshly trimmed fields surrounding the school buildings.
Itâs become a habit of mine, each morning I find myself lounging besides the flowerbeds. Allowing myself to feel each blade of grass that delicately brushes my skin. For a while, I forget that Iâm no longer alive. I can simply exist.
Itâs not uncommon for Wally to join me. Sprawled on his back, gazing up at the clouds. Pointing out different shapes and imagining different backstories for all of the cloud animals he sees. Besides that, neither of us speak much. Only enjoying one anotherâs company as we relax in the morning light.
Spending this time has given me the opportunity to process everything. Wally helps me to work through my emotions and thoughts. Nothing ever being too much for him to listen to, though Iâm still afraid to divulge everything. Iâm sure he can sense that Iâm holding back, yet he doesnât pry. Content to just listen. In all honestly, I truly believe that these moments with Wally have helped me more so than Mr Martinâs support group has. Despite attending every session since my memorial, I consistently leave the group feeling unfulfilled. Unsatisfied. In fact, it doesnât seem as though the teacher wants us to discuss the past, our lives and our deaths. Only wanting us to focus on the present, the state we are confined to. I find myself struggling with this a lot.
âWhat do you think you would be doing if you hadnât died?â
Pushing myself up on my elbows, I look over to Wally, who is resting on his stomach, absentmindedly plucking grass from the ground.
âI was supposed to go to college, play football. Hopefully make it pro, thatâs what the plan was anyway.â He tells me, full of confidence yet his tone of voice suggests thatâs not the pathway he wouldâve chosen for himself.
âWhat about like outside of a job though?â I pry, the boy has my curiosity heightened. âLike, surely you have other things that you wanted to do?â
His eyes focus in on the pieces of grass that heâs now twisting together in a makeshift sort of chain. Deep in thought, I can see the cogs working in his brain as he tries to think of an answer for me. Iâm sure itâs not something heâs necessarily thought of before, following the path that his mom set out for him upon birth.
âYouâre gonna laugh, but I always wanted to get married and have a family. I know that times have changed and you lot donât really believe in marriage and stuff that much anymore but Iâm a family guy. Always have been.â He admits, finally looking at me and I see the honesty written across his face. âIt just sucks that Iâll never actually get to experience it.â
My heart aches for him. One fatal accident and his entire future was stripped away. Never getting to experience the things he always dreamed of. It breaks heart, knowing what he could have had.
âWally, Iâm so sorry.â
âItâs no big deal, really, Iâve spent the last few decades accepting my fate and itâs not so bad here.â He tells me, a sadness shining in the brown of his eyes, trying his best to cover it up with a soft smile. âWhat about you? Other than taking over the world with your best friend, what was the plan?â
Giggling slightly as he references Abbyâs speech, I start to wonder what my life wouldâve looked like. Truthfully, I have no idea. My life revolved around dancing and cheer, other than that I have no clue as to who I am. Up until my death, I didnât believe I was worthy of love, the one chance I took was with Spencer and look how that turned out.
âI suppose I wanted to leave Split River, Abby wanted to go to New York so I figured I would study there.â I reply, knowing New York was never my dream. I just couldnât bare to part with her once high school ended. âIt would be quite nice to live on a farm. Out in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by animals, I think that wouldâve been my dream.â
âNow this makes sense.â
Crossing my legs underneath me to sit up properly, heâs unable to hide the bright smile on his face. Clearly finding some amusement in what I said.
âWhat makes sense?â I ask, to which he laughs quietly. Pulling a clump of grass out of the ground, I launch it in his direction. âHey, you dickhead, I didnât laugh at you, so you canât laugh at me.â
âNo, no. Iâm not laughing at you.â Wally speaks through chuckles, rolling on to his back. âIt just makes sense now why you like to sit out here.â
His arms are thrown across his face, shielding his eyes from the sun. I canât help but stare as his muscles flex, admiring the sight in front of me. Following his body, I find myself biting the inside of my cheek as I notice his top has risen up his stomach ever so slightly. Highlighting the small trail of hair that dips below his shorts.
âDid you have a girlfriend?â I blurt out, before I even realise what Iâm saying.
Slapping my hand across my mouth, embarrassment floods my body, eyes wide as Wally smiles. Eyebrows raised as he looks over to me. Sly smile making its way on to his face.
âNo. No girlfriend. Why?â
âI was just wondering. I mean, star high school quarterback, you must have had girls queuing up for your attention.â Iâm able to stop myself before I begin a long-winded rant. Helping to ease at least a tiny amount of my embarrassment.
Wally rolls his eyes at my comment. âWell in that case you mustâve had boys queuing up for your attention. What with being head cheerleader and all.â
âHa ha. Okay, I know it was a stupid question.â
Fortunately for me, Iâm saved from making a fool out of myself even more by the sounds of cars entering the parking lot. In unison, we both turn to face the sound. Observing the students that have started to filter into the building, chatting loudly amongst one another as they do so.
My vision locks in on Spencer and his gang of hooligans. Theyâre jumping all over one another without a care in the world as they make their way into the school. Trail of awestruck girls following behind in the hopes of garnering the smallest amount of attention from one of the jocks.
If only I was able to tell them what theyâre really like. Perhaps they wouldnât make the same mistake that I made. Perhaps Iâd be able to save them from the same fate that I suffered.
âSo I was thinking we could have a pool day. I think Charlie would be up for it, maybe not Rhonda, but it could be fun for us all just to chill out. You havenât really spent much time with anyone else apart from in our sessions with Mr Martin.â
Wallyâs words echo around my head though Iâm not paying any attention. Despite, no longer being able to see the group that I was fixated on, Iâm still closely watching the area that they had just previously been walking through.
Two weeks later and Spencer and his friends still evade justice. Police presence at the school has increased drastically with crime scene investigators cornering off the old toilet block. Maybe Iâm impatient, but it feels like theyâre getting away with it. Receiving no consequences for their heinous actions.
âY/N, are you listening?â
Wallyâs words finally drag me out of my thoughts and I meet his eyes. âYeah, pool day, sounds good.â
âAnd weâre inviting Charlie and Rhonda.â He states, eyebrows raised as he knows I wasnât truly paying attention to a word he said.
âOh, no. Theyâre nice but can we just do it alone? Iâm not sure I feel up to doing a whole group thing.â
Wally nods, though his eyes narrow. Sensing thereâs something off with me. Heâs good at noticing whenever my demeanour changes, or whenever something is bothering me. Itâs part of his nature.
âYeah of course. We should probably head to group first though.â The athlete pushes himself off the floor as he speaks, waiting for me to stand as well which I reluctantly do, not before releasing an annoyed groan. âYou know, one of these days, you might actually enjoy the sessions.â
Rolling my eyes, I follow Wally towards the gym. He holds the doors open for me as we enter the building, his small act of chivalry makes me giddy. I make no effort to show this however, politely thanking the boy as I walk through.
âAh here they are! Took you two long enough.â Charlie jokes as we enter the gym, taking our seats. I sit between Dawn and Rhonda with Wally seating himself between Charlie and Mr Martin.
âNo guesses what theyâve been up to.â Rhonda comments, lollipop hanging out the side of her mouth as she does so.
âThank you Rhonda.â Mr Martin chimes in, stopping the conversation from escalating any further. âSo today, I figured we would get to know our newest member. Y/N youâve been here for a couple of weeks now and we still donât know too much about you.â
âIâm sure Wally could tell us all about her.â Rhonda remarks under her breath. So quiet, I almost donât catch it.
âIâm sorry, is there something you want to say?â I snap, my tone harsh and confronting.
She laughs in response, the annoyance on my face evident as I glare at her. Her snarky and sarcastic nature hasnât proven to be a problem for me, though I think that may be about to change.
âY/N, tell us about your death. Weâre all dying to know what happened. No pun intended.â The teacher interjects, attempting to diffuse the tense situation yet I still feel on edge.
âNo thank you.â
âOh come on Y/N, none of us are going to judge you. You know that.â Charlie tells me, offering me a reassuring smile.
âNo, sheâd rather just listen to all our trauma. Isnât that right cherry pop?â
Rhondaâs words strike a chord within me. Iâll admit, the other ghosts have been very open about their deaths with me. All discussing in detail what happened to them to result in this fate. Sure, I havenât divulged into the details of my death as of yet, but itâs for good reason. Not only am I still trying to process it myself but I donât want them to look at me any differently nor do I want them to take pity on me when they learn the details.
âDo you have a problem with me or something Rhonda?â I ask, swinging around in my chair so that I can face her directly.
Upon doing so, I take note of how Charlie and Wally are quick to sit up straight. Feeling the anger radiating off me and awaiting any possible confrontation that may be about to occur.
âAs a matter of fact, I do.â The girl retorts, crossing her arms over her chest before she continues speaking. âYou waltz in here and make no effort with any of us besides Wally. Who, letâs not forget, you made to feel like a piece of shit on your first day after that unreasonable outburst. You listen to all of us recounting our deaths, the most traumatic things that couldâve happened to us and still none of us know what happened to you. It hardly seems fair.â
âOh, Iâm so sorry Rhonda. Iâm sorry that iâm still processing what happened to me. Iâm sorry that Iâm not ready to discuss it with a group of strangers. I am so sorry that Iâm not getting over everything as quick as you would like me to.â
My voice is raised as I speak, hurt that she would even think that my choice not to share what happened is a personal attack on the group. No matter how hurt Iâm feeling, the anger completely outweighs it. Angry that she canât see that Iâm still struggling and angry that my murderers are still attending this school. Instead of being locked behind bars for the rest of their life, like they deserve to be. Nobody can understand what I am going through and that makes me so astonishingly angry.
âBoo hoo. Youâre still processing, weâre all still processing. Not to mention the fact that weâve barely seen Wally these past couple of weeks because heâs been trailing around after you, trying to make you feel less threatened by him. Heâs even taken off that stupid football shirt that he loved so much! I hate to break it to you, but he was here first.â She argues, tears well in my eyes as she mentions Wally. I lock eyes with him and see his downcast expression. Was she right? Was he only spending this time with me to make me feel better and less scared? âYou should do everybody a favour and fuck off back to the old toilet block where you came from.â
âRhonda!â Charlie exclaims, clearly shocked by her words.
âIs that how you really feel Wally?â I ask hesitantly, the dejection evident in my voice.
He opens his mouth to speak, but no words come out. Nodding slightly, I understand completely. Pushing myself out of the chair, nobody speaks as I make my exit from the room.
âLovely chat.â Rhonda shouts, one last attempt to get a reaction from me. Even as I shove open the doors with an obnoxious slam, I donât look back.
The entirety of my body feels heavy as I drag myself down the hallways. Nobody comes after me, not even Wally. I feel truly alone, hurt and confused. Death was supposed to be peaceful and yet here I am. Suffering more than I ever did when alive.
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Anything for You - Pt3
daemon x daughter!readerÂ
Part 1 Part 2
Summary: The King and the Hand come up with a plan to get you and Daemon to come back to court. Daemon is barely able to contain himself when he lands on the docks of Kingâs Landing.Â
Warnings: 18+ different PoVs bc i was feeling it, swearing, pregnant!reader this chap, coercion into like kidnapping?, the rogue prince fr, death(not mc), blood, swords, threats, p in v
Authors Note: idk why i locked in writing this like i planned to keep it cutesy and i was like wait đ€ short hair daemon in his armor đââïž i never intended for this to be more than a one shot but here we are đ¶ literally stopped writing my other stuff and was sat
Word Count: 3.8kÂ
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King and Hand PoV
The King and the Hand sit in the empty council chamber trying to figure out the best course of action. Daemon and his daughter have been gone for almost three moons now and the Keep is starting to speculate. Thereâs been no word from Dragonstone which could either be good or bad. Whispers around the realm speak nothing of the two, leaving the King at a loss. The King looks at the Hand waiting for his next idea on how to get at least the Princess back to court.Â
The King has put in his best efforts to push back the prying Lords who were vying for the Princessâs hand. They come around the council chambers and throne room like vultures awaiting her return. The Queen tells the King daily what she overhears from the Ladies and her handmaidens and itâs been causing his temper to rise.Â
âEven the Queen is being questioned about their location.â the King sits back exasperated. âIâm at a loss. I donât know what to do.â he looks at his Hand.Â
âI will send out our best men to sail to Dragonstone. If they find the Princess theyâll bring her back to us.â the Hand pulls a blank piece of parchment in front of him. They spend the next couple of hours picking the company to send and decide on having her guard lead them. They hope sheâll take kinder to him and return with the men. The Hand has the King write a note to place in the Princessâs absence for Daemon.Â
âIf sheâs there and we can get her,â the King shakes his head. âDaemon will not take this lightly.â he looks to his Hand with worried eyes. âMight it be best if we just leave them?â the Hand scoffs.Â
âHe directly disobeyed your commands. As he does time and time again. You are the King. If you can not control your own brother the realm will begin to see you as weak.â the Hand tries not to let his annoyance show. âThe Princessâs hand can garner us alliances, armies. My King, itâs never my wish to speak so poorly about Daemon-âÂ
âYet you never seize the opportunity to do so.â the King shakes his head leaning back in his chair.Â
âHeâs undermining you. He knows heâll keep getting away with it.â the Hand searches the King's eyes. âI urge you to send these men out at daybreak.â the King exhales at the Hands plea.Â
âFine. See to it then.â the King waves him off. âPray to the Gods Daemon will see reason.â the King looks to the ceiling as the Hand goes to make the preparations.Â
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Your PoV
I always heard stories of how the mornings were unpleasant when carrying a babe but Iâve never felt more at peace. The maesters here say I am the most relaxed princess theyâve had the pleasure of helping with her pregnancy. I know my father is the one to thank for that. He absolutely worships me morning, noon, and night. The moment my eyes open heâs pressing his lips across every inch of my body whispering sweet words. He stays attached to me until I plead him for a break.Â
âIâll go fetch your handmaidens to bathe you and get you ready for your garden walk.â he presses his lips against my brow before slipping out of our chambers.Â
Iâve quickly grown fond of my new company of handmaidens here. They dote on me and have a gentler touch than the ladies I left behind in King's Landing. They pour milk and flowers into my bath and keep their hands on me until Iâm resting against the back of the tub. After they bathe and lather me in oils and perfumes they pull a flowing dress over my head and help escort me down to the gardens.Â
I quite like being on Dragonstone again. I forgot how quiet and peaceful it is. The low grumbles and songs of the dragons bring me such a sense of comfort and I feel truly calm and at home here. I donât need guards hovering around me and I can walk in the gardens at my leisure. I let the leaves and petals brush against my fingertips. I stop and bend down to smell the lilies that wash over my senses.Â
I delve deeper into the gardens and smile when I approach my bench. It sits near the edge of the gardens and overlooks the Blackwater. I lean back and pull my feet under me as I watch the waves lap against the shore. I tilt my head back and shut my eyes to allow the sun to kiss my skin. Its warmth engulfs me and a smile starts to spread across my face when I hear approaching footsteps.Â
âI was wondering if you were going to join me today.â I hum turning. My face falls as I see my guard from King's Landing. âWhat are you doing here?â I tilt my head.Â
âHello, Princess.â he bows his head before clearing his throat. âYour father wanted to surprise you with a ship to bring you back to King's Landing. If youâll follow me.â he outstretches his hand and I look at it.
âWhere is my father? Why wouldnât he just fly me back on Caraxes?â my brows furrow.Â
âHe has a couple more things to finish up here and then he will join us.â he nods his head. I study him curiously but I canât find a reason not to trust him. Heâs protected me my whole life, surely he wouldnât cause me any harm.Â
âOkay.â I rise and grab his arm. He sets a piece of parchment on the bench and begins to lead me back through the gardens. âWhy are we taking this way?â I look up at my guard and he keeps hauling me down the back steps.
âItâs much faster this way.â his words seem rushed but I shrug this off.Â
As we make it to the dock I see a couple other men I recognize waiting for us on the boat. Once Iâm on board the boat begins to move back out into the Blackwater. I watch as we move away from Dragonstone and take a seat on the bench watching it become smaller and smaller. I watch as some of the men on the ship clap my guards back and offer him hushed words of congratulations.Â
âWhen will my father join me in King's Landing?â I look at the man closest to me. He ignores me and goes over to the cluster of men causing a frown to form on my face. My chest tightens and I begin to feel alone and foolish for not going to my father first. A tear slips down my cheek at the same moment I hear Caraxes roar ripple across the Bay.Â
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Daemons PoV
Daemon had been waiting for his Princess to return for well over thirty minutes now. He knows how she likes her time in the gardens so he didnât think anything of it at first. He enjoys seeing her so peaceful here so he doesnât pay it any mind. When an hour goes by he rises from his seat and starts into the gardens.Â
He strolls through them silently admiring and keeping an eye out for his wife. He tries to listen and see if he can catch her humming but all he can hear is the breeze through the leaves. When he doesnât spot her on the main path he starts in the direction of her bench. He curses himself for not starting there but when he approaches he finds it empty. He looks across the Bay before going to turn back to the castle until he spots a piece of parchment. He lifts it and begins to read.Â
Brother-
It is not my wish to anger you or fight with you. You are both wanted and needed back at court. The Hand and I have sent her guard and a group of men to sail her back to King's Landing. We have many potential suitors for her that can look past how youâve sullied her. I have called some Ladies to court as well to hopefully satiate your appetite. I wish to see you come home.
-The King, Your BrotherÂ
Daemon growls, crumpling the note and throwing it in the Blackwater. He curses loudly off the edge of the cliff and Caraxes deafening answering roar comes from out of the pits. He runs back to the castle and makes his way to the doors that lead to the docks. He rips them open and sees the guard standing just on the other side. He slams his fist into his face and his vision goes red as he continues to pummel the guard in front of him.Â
âMy Prince,â the guard gurgles. Daemon slams him onto the stone.Â
âYouâve let my wife be taken from right under your nose.â Daemon repeatedly hits him as the guards movements begin to lull.Â
âMy Prince, a moment,â guards from inside the castle try to stop him. The last blow lands with a crunch and the sentry goes limp on the stone.Â
âClean this up and wash the stone.â Daemon barks out before storming back into the castle.Â
He takes two steps at a time and pushes his way into their chambers. He grabs Dark Sister from the solar and makes his way down to the pits. He quickly puts his armor on and places his helm before walking out on the platform as Caraxes approaches. Daemon grabs onto Caraxes snout and looks him in the eyes.Â
âWe are getting her back.â Caraxes blinks at him and Daemon takes to his mount.Â
Caraxes drops them off the edge before shooting them forward. Daemon stays on high alert looking for the ship that is carrying his wife. The breeze carries them quicker and Caraxes turns his snout slightly and pushes on with purpose. Soon theyâre circling above the ship and Caraxes serenades them with his song. Daemon watches as the sails sway and has Caraxes fly higher. He wishes to land on the boat and claim his wife once more and end this farce but he doesnât know if the ship will maintain its integrity under Caraxes and he wonât risk his wife and their child.Â
He curses under his breath and tugs Caraxes in the direction of the docks at Kings Landing. Caraxes circles above the city grumbling and lets his tail trail across the roofs. He makes his way back over to the docks and sees the ship approaching. Caraxes heeds the command to land at the docks and the common folk who donât move out of the way quick enough forfeit their lives to the rogue Prince and his dragon. Horses and guards break through the crowds and the Hand comes into view. Daemon stays atop his dragon as he looks down upon the man.Â
âThe King commands you to stop this.â Daemon laughs at the Hand's words.Â
âI do not see the King.â Caraxes tail whips closely to the Hands feet. He turns as the boat begins to dock and the men aboard look to the Hand nervously. âSurely, you knew I would come.â Daemon drawls. He starts to slide off the side of Caraxes and lands to the ground with a thud. He unsheathes his sword and points it at the Hand. âYou would take a pregnant wife from her husband? Steal her away and marry her to another?â he tilts his head, stalking over to him. âAnd be daft enough to think there would be no consequences?â he laughs, pushing the tip of his blade into the Hands chest.Â
âIf you kill me here the King will never forgive you.â Daemon clenches his jaw knowing that the Hand is right in this matter.Â
Caraxes pushes the Hand back with his tail and he tumbles to the ground. Daemon turns and stalks over to the ship to retrieve his wife. His brother would be unforgiving if he took his Hand but for the men who took his wife? He could find ten more of them on the street. As he approaches the boat he calls out for his wife and she comes forward with red cheeks. He sees the tears staining her perfect face and how puffy her eyes are. Itâs going to take all of his resolve not to burn down the entirety of the Red Keep.Â
âCome here, sweet girl.â he hums and she walks up to him and folds into his arms. He rubs her back as he feels her sobs rack through her. Every sniffle has him seeing a darker shade of red. He pulls back and cups her cheeks. âDid these men cause you any harm?â he searches her eyes.Â
âNo. Only taking me from you and my gardens.â her voice is soft and his nostrils flare as her tears continue to flow. His hand rests on her stomach before he kisses her brow.Â
âGo to Caraxes. Hug his neck and donât look behind you.â she nods her head and he watches as she wraps her arms around his dragon. He takes one step onto the ship and the guards have their swords out in a blink of an eye. Daemon lets the rage take over him and pour out through Dark Sister. As the men continue to surround him he smiles as he slashes and slices through them. He nods at the last man standing who looks at him with a heaving chest.Â
âMy Prince, I was only-â his head falls to the wooden floor.Â
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Your Pov
I jump as I feel a gloved hand wrap around my arm. I turn around and look up and see my father. My tears start anew and I cling against him. He holds me tightly and presses his lips to the top of my head. He unwraps me from his embrace and helps me mount Caraxes. He wraps a hand around me and holds tightly to the reins and shots us into the skies. My stomach drops as we approach the Red Keep and he begins our descent inside the inner courtyard.Â
As we make our way down we see people scrambling to get out of Caraxes path and once they see my father step foot on the ground they run even faster. I hold onto my fathers arm and he begins to walk us into the Keep. He wastes no time taking us to the throne room and upon entering I see the King sitting with a frown. My father takes his helm off and lets it drop to the floor with a thud.
âHow dare you take my pregnant wife from me.â I watch as my father stalks toward the King. I shuffle quickly up to his side not wanting to be away from him.Â
âEnough of this Daemon. I am tired of the cease-â
âYour Grace,â the Hand bursts through the doors, panting with a dozen guards on his heel. The King dismisses the guards and the Hand composes himself before taking his place next to the King. âHeâs killed countless men today on the docks.â the King looks at his Hand with raised brows.Â
âWhat did you expect? You truly thought he would allow this? Did I not warn you yesterday?â the King glares at the Hand.Â
âI urge you to punish him.â my father lets a laugh slip out.Â
âMy wife and I will be returning to Dragonstone. Where we will remain for the rest of her pregnancy, unbothered. If you send anyone else to try and take my wife I will send you what is left of them.â his words are laced with promise and the King continues to stare at us.
âYou cannot possibly be considering allowing this.â the Hand looks at the King, taken aback.Â
âIf we wouldâve left them, none of today's events would have occurred. Sheâs with child. You planned to marry her to some Lord but her babe will come out with silver hair. What else would you have me do?â The King looks to his Hand exasperated.Â
âYou are the King. It is your choice.â the Hand looks forward blankly.Â
âAnd you are my Hand, my council.â the Kings voice rises.Â
âMm, this seems as if itâs a personal dispute.â my father hums. âWeâre leaving.â he dips down to grab his helm while his other hand encases mine and we begin to exit the throne room.Â
âI wish to pack a bag. I want some of my dresses and jewelry.â I whisper up to my father.Â
âOf course, sweet girl.â he smiles down at me and leads me up my chambers.Â
He seals us into my chambers and I walk over to my wardrobe. I turn and give a slight jump as my father is standing there with a bag. I look up to him and slowly take the bag out of his hands. I continue to look up at him and nibble my lip. His cheeks are still lightly flushed and his hair is askew from his helm.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â he tilts his head with a scrunched brow.Â
âI think you look handsome in your armor.â I mumur.Â
âIs that so?â he chuckles, caressing my cheek.Â
âVery handsome, my husband.â I nod my head as his eyes darken at my words.Â
âMm, I quite like that title for me on your tongue.â he pulls me closer. âMy little wife.â he presses his lips against mine and I melt into his touch.Â
âThank you for saving me.â I mumble against his lips. His back straightens as if he just remembered today's events and ushers me back over to my wardrobe.Â
âI will always come for you.â his words cause a blush to creep up my neck. âPack your bag so I can take you home.â I quickly pull down a couple gowns and toss them into the bag before doing the same with most of my vanity.Â
My father leads us through Keep and the guards step back in his presence. We find Caraxes snapping his jaws as the guards who are brave enough to stay in their stations outside. He dips his wing down and once weâre settled into the saddle he carries us into the skies. My fathers hands are wrapped tightly around me the entire flight back.Â
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I wake in the middle of the night to the hearth still breathing warmth into our chambers. My father has his arms wrapped tightly around me and his breath is tickling the back of my neck. I squirm in his arms and his response is to pull me closer. He presses his nose against my nape and presses his lips against it a moment later.Â
âGo back to bed.â his voice is thick with sleep.Â
âI want some water.â I trail my fingertips across his arm.Â
He slowly unwraps his arms from me and walks over to the table. I admire his nude form in the firelight and watch as his muscles flex as he walks back over to me. I reach up for the cup but he shakes his head and brings it to my lips. I take a couple sips and he sets the cup on the bedside table. I reach out and press my palm against his torso. I trace my fingers over the defined lines and he steps closer.
âI was scared today.â I whisper looking up at him.Â
âOf what, sweet girl?â he looks down at me tenderly.Â
âThat they were going to take me from you.â my eyes start to fill with tears. âThat theyâd make me marry someone else and take my babe from me.â my voice breaks as I start to cry.Â
âI will never let that happen.â his brows furrow and I reach out and pull him closer. âYouâre safe. No one is taking our babe. Youâre mine and only mine.â he crawls back into bed with me and I tug at his arm until heâs hovering over me.
âI donât get why they canât just let us be.â I sniffle as tears continue to fall down my face.Â
âThey will after this if theyâre smart.â he presses his lips to my forehead. âIf they try again, Iâll burn the whole fucking city down for you.â he whispers against my brow.Â
âI need you, daddy.â I wrap my arms around his neck. He lets out a soft chuckle before placing his lips on mine. His hand travels between my thighs and I spread them waiting for his touch. His fingers slide up my slit and I writhe beneath him. âPlease,â I wrap my fingers around his length and he groans, resting his forehead against mine. I guide him to my core as he swirls around my bud. I arch up as he slowly pushes into me.Â
âGods, youâre such a good girl.â he slowly rocks into me as I gasp into his neck. With every roll of his hips he pulls whimpers from my mouth. His hands rest on either side of my head as our lips mash together. He pats my thigh and I wrap them around his waist and he groans into my mouth. He kisses down my jaw and makes his way to my neck to suckle and bite.Â
âDaemon,â I breathe out his name and his hips snap into mine.Â
âSat it again, sweet girl.â he purrs in my ear, rolling his hips.
âDaemon, please,â I gasp as his hips begin to fall into mine faster. I rock against him as my pleasure begins to coil quickly. He bites down onto my shoulder and I dig into his. âDaddy,â my toes curl as I fall apart around him. He groans into my neck spilling his pleasure into me.Â
His lips find mine and we continue to cling to one another. He pulls out of me and pulls me back against his chest. His arms wrap around me and one of his hand splays across my stomach. He peppers kisses across my shoulder blades while slowly tracking patterns onto my stomach.Â
âI love you so much. I will never let another day like today happen. I promise you this.â his arms tighten around me at his declaration.Â
âI love you. Thank you.â I scoot back into his chest and hold his arms around me. Â
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Even though I prefer to wait until TWST events reach the ENG server before writing anything for them, I just couldn't help myself when it comes to my Yuu's first meeting with Skully cause I just love him, and I really wanted to give writing him a try.
There are spoilers for the new JPN Halloween event underneath the cut, so if you don't want to be spoiled, I'd recommend not reading this, although I'm not strictly following what happened with Skully & Yuu's first meeting in the event since I wanted to put my own spin on it.
Also, I purposely avoided bringing attention to the event outfits here since my Yuu's event outfit hasn't been decided yet, so I'll just say Yuu focuses on her and Skully's clothes after this scene lol
Lastly, for those not familiar with my writing, my Yuu is female, so if that's not your preference, you probably won't wanna read this.
For those who do decide to read this, I hope you'll enjoy it! đđ
When you regain consciousness, itâs to the sound of an unfamiliar voice calling out to you.
âHello..? Hello, my dear? Lovely lady sleeping in my arms?â
Upon hearing that voice, your groggy mind immediately focuses on the incredibly warm, gentle tone the unknown speaker uses when addressing you, which youâre unaccustomed to hearing thanks to the kind of upbringing you had and the kind of people you currently go to school with.
Seconds after that voice pierces through the haze thatâs currently clouding your mind, you finally register the fact that someone is holding you in their arms, keeping you safely and comfortably secure against their chest.
âCan you hear my voice?âÂ
Once again, the unfamiliar voice addresses you, and at the same time, you feel a long, slender gloved finger brush against your cheek with a tenderness that surprises you.
Just who is this person?
And why do they sound genuinely concerned on your behalf? Why is everything about them so gentle?
âHey, my dear, please, open your eyes for meâŠâ
Upon hearing that request, you finally pry your heavy eyelids apart, so you can finally get some answers to the questions currently swirling around your groggy mind.
After blinking several times to clear your blurry vision, you take in the sight of a handsome, white-haired boy, who appears to be around your age, judging from his young face.
Just after your eyes open, the mysterious stranger beams, âThank goodness, youâre awake!â
For a moment, all you can do is stare at that charming smile, which looks genuine from your perspective. That and the obvious relief in his voice, which doesnât in any way sound forced, make you think that he really has been worried about you.
After taking a moment to scrutinize the sincerity of that smile, your eyes drift upwards and focus on the boyâs sunglasses, whose dark, circular lenses are completely hiding his eyes from view.
You have to fight the urge to click your tongue upon seeing those sunglasses since his eyes being hidden will make it difficult for you to properly read his expressions, which is why you never liked dealing with the people in Japanâs underworld who wore this type of eyewear specifically because they wanted to make themselves hard to read.
Ironically enough, just after the topic of his eyes occupies your thoughts, the still smiling stranger brings his face dangerously close to yours, making you think he really has no concept of personal space, considering heâs doing something like this and had no qualms about holding you while you were unconscious.
âOh my, what dazzling eyes you have, my dear. They are just as lovely as you are. I am overjoyed to finally be able to see them at long last.â
Strangely enough, rather than have the immediate impulse to hit him, like what would normally happen under circumstances like these, you find yourself feeling only amused, perhaps because this boy reminds you a lot of Rook, whose eccentricities youâve grown quite accustomed to these last several months.
Of course, it also helps that your instincts are telling you that this person isnât a threat to you, and youâre always inclined to believe them since theyâve never lied to you before.
Thatâs why, rather than push this stranger away, you decide to take advantage of this perfect opportunity that he just unintentionally provided you.
Faster than he can react, you grab his sunglasses and move them upwards, allowing you a clear view of his wide, red eyes, whose pupils have a cool, concentric pattern.
A smirk rises to your lips. âIf youâre gonna check out my eyes, itâs only fair you let me do the same.â
After moving his sunglasses to rest on the top of his head, you find yourself pausing after your eyes focus on the diamond-shaped patches of black hair that are now located directly beneath the sunglasses.
It kinda looks like a faceâŠa very familiar face at that. You note. Although, I canât remember why it looks so familiar to meâŠ
Since there are more important matters that you need to attend to right now, you quickly shelve those thoughts, with the intention of going back to them later.
Quickly, you refocus your gaze on the face of the stranger, whose arms you woke up in, and firmly take hold of his chin, so you can keep him from moving his face away from yours since this close proximity will make it all the more easier for you to read his expressions.
Your earlier smirk returns when the mysterious boy becomes noticeably flustered, making you believe heâs not used to getting a taste of his own medicine. âNow, letâs have a little Q & A, Mr. Up Close And Personal, so I can decide what to do with you.âÂ
Giving the befuddled boy no chance to refuse, you ask, âAlright, the first and most important question is: Why did you decide to pull an unconscious girl into your lap? Sure, I can get wanting to wake me after finding me in such a state, but was that all really necessary?â
Rather than appear apprehensive upon being on the receiving end of your piercing, judgmental stare, the mysterious stranger, who appears genuinely surprised by your question, frowns, âObviously, I could not allow a lovely lady such as yourself to remain on the cold, hard ground! I wouldnât be able to call myself a gentleman otherwise!â
Because you can tell that heâs not lying thanks to the obvious sincerity in his eyes and voice, some of the tension in your frame eases as your gaze somewhat softens. âHeh, good answer. While not every girl would accept it, considering the circumstances, I will since I can tell you had good intentions, although I would still advise not trying something like this with any other girls since most girls would understandably hit first and ask questions later.â
Judging from his puzzled expression, this boy truly has no idea why a girl would react in such a manner, giving you the impression that he can be rather oblivious when it comes to the effects his actions have on others.Â
Rather than try to explain things to him, you move onto your next two questions. âSecond and third questions: Who are you, and how did you end up here with me?â
Much to your amusement, rather than appear bothered by your interrogation, the white-haired boy, whoâs once again smiling and has seemingly forgotten his earlier embarrassment, cheerfully answers, âMy name is Skully J. Graves. Itâs nice to meet you!â
âAs to how I ended up here with you, I stumbled upon your unconscious form by chance after I woke up in this unfamiliar place.â He continues, âIâm afraid I canât provide any further information since I am just as confused as you must feel about these strange circumstances weâre both now facing.â
The corners of your lips dip downward. Heâs not lying about finding me by chance, but I get the feeling heâs not being completely forthright with me about how he ended up here.
Itâs possible he just doesnât remember how he got here since my mind was rather hazy when I first woke up, although my memories of what happened with the crazy book that Grim opened at the used book fair are starting to come back to me. You think to yourself. He may think I wonât believe him if he claims to not remember how he got here, or he simply wants to avoid saying anything that may make him look suspicious.
âOh, yes, I almost forgot!â Skully exclaims, successfully drawing you away from your thoughts. âHow careless of me!â
His concerned eyes peer into yours. âHow are you feeling? Are you hurt anywhere, my dear?â
Upon seeing that heâs genuinely concerned about you, your expression softens. While I get the feeling that thereâs more than meets the eye with this guy, I can tell heâs not a bad person at heart. A bad person wouldnât be so kind and gentle toward me, especially not while Iâm interrogating them.
While this doesnât necessarily mean Skully can be trusted, you can at least give him the benefit of the doubt and be open to the idea of eventually trusting him after getting to know him better.
I would still like to get some more info outta him, especially in regards to how he ended up in this place like me, but itâd probably be better if I space out my questions rather than bombard him with them all at once. You muse. While heâs been pretty accommodating thus far, that might change if I start asking questions that make him uncomfortable, and Iâd rather avoid causing any kind of conflict right now when Iâve got other more important things to worry about.
Rather than continue interrogating him, itâd be better to just wait and ask more questions later on once Skully has become more comfortable with you, or even better, if you bide your time, you may glean new information from him that he willingly provides without you even needing to ask since he seems like a talkative kind of guy.
Thatâs why you finally release your hold on his chin, surprising him, since itâs really for the best that you quit giving him the third-degree, especially when the boy hasnât even technically done anything wrong yet. âYes, Iâm fine. Thank you for asking, erâŠâ
Realizing you donât know if Skully is someone you need to be more formal with like your upperclassmen or if heâs the same age as you, you ask, âHow old are you? I canât tell if youâre older than me or not, so Iâm not sure how I should address you. Iâm sixteen, by the way.â
Appearing noticeably pleased, Skully eagerly replies, âI am also sixteen! How wonderful to make a new friend who is the same age as me!â
âAnd you may address me however you please!â He adds, âI will be overjoyed regardless because such a lovely lady is calling me by name!â
The corners of your lips quirk upwards at his cute response. âYouâre quite the charmer, huh? I like that. Itâs rather refreshing, considering how most guys my age act.â
âAlright, considering you have no preference, Iâll just call you Skully and not worry about any formalities, like what I do with my other friends our age.â You add.
Your smile grows. âSince Iâve gotten enough info to satisfy myself for the time being, Iâll put an end to my little interrogation and introduce myself. My name is Yuu. Itâs nice to meet you, Skully.â
Skully beams, âWhat a lovely name! Iâm so glad to meet you, Yuu-san!â
Catching you by surprise, Skully gently takes hold of your hand and tenderly kisses your knuckles. âI thank you for this wonderful encounter.â
Once you overcome your surprise, your expression becomes amused. He did call himself a gentleman earlier, so I guess I shouldâve seen this coming, especially with his formal, old-fashioned way of speaking. Heâs just like the gentlemen characters you see on TV.
Luckily for him, youâve always been fond of those types of characters, so you think the two of you will get along just fine.
Plus, itâs not everyday you meet someone this sweet and gentlemanly thanks to the kind of people you normally hang out with, so you want to make the most of this opportunity to get along with this somewhat odd yet still quite endearing boy.
A grin rises to your lips. Most importantly, when a boy acts this cute, it makes me wanna spend more time with him and look for opportunities to tease him to see if heâll give me some equally adorable reactions.
That's why you decide to have a little fun by shifting your hand thatâs currently still being held, so you can gently grab Skullyâs, surprising him.
Giving him no chance to react, you bring his hand close to your mouth and tenderly kiss his knuckles, mirroring his previous actions, all the while channeling the princely charm Cater always has you show off for your fans on Magicam. âLikewise, handsome.â
Much to your delight, Skully instantly becomes incredibly flustered because of your actions - to the point his blush covers the majority of his face, making you think this is the first time someone has ever done something like this to him.
Even better, after you release your hold on his hand, Skully, who has apparently been rendered speechless, considering how quiet he now is, uses both of his hands to cup his incredibly flushed cheeks, making him look even more adorable.
Your grin grows at the incredibly endearing sight. Looks like he's the type who gets super flustered when flirted with, like Deuce and Sebek. How adorable. Iâm definitely gonna have some fun with this boy. Hehe~
Regrettably, you donât get to enjoy this moment for very long, because, seconds after you recall how Deuce and Sebek usually react to your playful flirting, you finally realize that something is missing here.
Or rather, some people.
Wide-eyed, you immediately turn to look around and realize that the only people in the surrounding area, which consists of a barren forest that stretches out as far as the eye can see, are you and Skully. âWait a minute! Where are my friends?!â
I canât believe I let myself get so distracted that I totally forgot about the others! You internally scream. Iâm a horrible mother! Where are my sons?!
As you panickily try to climb out of Skullyâs lap so you can start a search for Grim and the others, the white-haired boy catches you off guard when he suddenly rises to his feet and takes you along for the ride.
Once on his feet, Skully gently sets you down, so you can stand on your own. âThere you are, Yuu-san. Now, what was that about âfriendsâ? Did you not come here alone like myself?â
Rather than answer his question, all you can do is stare at this boy whoâs now towering over you like a lanky giant. Holy shit. Heâs tall. I had figured he would be a tall boy just from how he was hunched over me earlier, but I was not expecting him to be this big. He may be even taller than Jack and Tsunotaro!
Skully curiously tilts his head when you fail to answer his question. âYuu-san? Are you alright?â
Realizing this is not the time for gaping like an idiot, you give yourself a quick mental shake before replying, âYeah, sorry. I was just surprised by how tall you are. I have some friends our age who are tall, but Iâm pretty sure youâre even bigger than them, which seriously amazes me.â
âAnyway, to answer your question, yes, I should have some friends with me here since they were all with me right before I ended up in this weird place.â You continue, âWhile itâs possible Iâm the only one who ended up in this crazy predicament, I find it unlikely, considering how close some of them were to me when I got enveloped by the weird magic that brought me here.â
Much to your amusement, mere seconds after those words leave your mouth, you hear some incoherent screaming coming from the distance, and you immediately recognize that voice as belonging to Sebek since you'd know that booming voice anywhere.
Thankfully, the screaming you hear isnât the kind that indicates Sebek is scared or in trouble, so more than likely, heâs just freaking out about his current circumstances and/or your absence.Â
Your shoulders slump with relief when you hear your sonâs voice. âSpeaking of my giant friends, that voice belongs to one of them. Thank goodness. At least, now, I know where I need to go.â
âWould you like to go with me, Skully?â You ask, âIâd hate to leave you on your own, and weâll have a higher chance of getting out of this mess weâre in if we work together.â
Skully beams, âI would be more than happy to accompany you! Thank you for your kind invitation!â
With that settled, you turn to face the direction that Sebekâs screaming came from, but before you can start walking, Skully surprises you when he quickly moves to stand in front of you.
Before you can question his actions, Skully gracefully bows before offering you a hand, smiling all the while. âPlease allow me to be your escort.â
Since you see no harm in it and it would be nice to have a hand to hold onto while youâre walking through this somewhat creepy forest, you reach out and take his proffered hand. âAlright, thank you. Do you know your way around this forest, Skully?â
He shakes his head. âNo, unfortunately, I am unfamiliar with this forest like you.â
Grinning, Skully asks, âBut donât you think itâs a wonderful experience to wander hand-in-hand in a mysterious forest?â
His question makes you giggle. What a romantic. Skully just keeps getting more and more entertaining the longer I talk to him.
After you rein in your amusement, you warmly smile, âHolding hands definitely would make this situation better, so Iâm fine with walking like this.â
Plus, someone, whoâs as touch-starved as you, would never turn down the opportunity to hold hands with someone, just as long as you know that person isnât dangerous, of course.
You squeeze Skullyâs hand. And I canât turn down a request from someone who seems to be as touch-starved as me, considering his past actions remind me a lot of how I typically act around my friends, not when I know hand-holding will make both of us equally happy.
For a moment, Skully just stares at you in surprise, or at least, youâre assuming heâs surprised since you can no longer see his full face thanks to his sunglasses, which he returned to their rightful place after he helped you to your feet earlier.
His reaction further convinces you that your hunch about him being touch-starved is right since he really seems very unaccustomed to someone willingly accepting his touch.
Just like how you were before you came to NRCâŠ.
Once he overcomes his surprise, Skullyâs earlier cheerfulness returns with a vengeance as he happily replies, âLet us be off then! I look forward to meeting all of your companions, whom Iâm sure are just as lovely as you!â
Unfortunately, I doubt theyâll be excited to meet you when we show up, and they see you holding my hand. You wryly think to yourself.Â
And, of course, you were exactly right.
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Hello! I was just wondering but what would happen if Tanguish died for the last time/was running out of time right in front of Helsnight?
Good afternoon! You seem possessed of the desire for heartbreak! This made my hands shake to write, so thank you for that! If you need me I will be pretending it's the coffee jitters!
Helsknight has seen this before. It's been awhile since he's felt it so closely, though. The fainting. The listlessness. The lost time. He's seen it all before. Dead eyed paladins wandering like sleepwalkers through their tasks. The strong made weak by the jaws of the universe as they're eaten away. The long sleep. The watch for waking. The hopeless vigil. The waiting, waiting, waiting, for inevitability. The knowledge that soon, inexorably, like the setting sun, night was falling.
The sun would never rise again, and there would be no stars.
To be swallowed whole by something that doesn't care, that doesn't notice, what it's taking.
Tanguish sleeps more than he wakes now. He looks deceptively peaceful, laying there in bed. Helsknight moved him from the couch weeks ago. He deserves comfort. He deserves peace, and warmth. He deserves... Well. He deserves better. Helsknight can't give him better. Even if he knew what to give, he couldn't bring himself to leave Tanguish's side. Not anymore.
"I would fight the Universe for you if I could," Helsknight tells him, kneeling beside the bed during one more of those long, silent, lonely vigils. He has Tanguish's hand cupped in both of his, the scarred knuckles pressed to his lips. Helsknight doesn't cry. He never cries in front of Tanguish. It feels rude. Disrespectful. This isn't about him. If anything he is just a helpless bystander. He is not to be comforted. "I would pry back the jaws of the Universe if I could reach them in a way that mattered. You know I would."
Tanguish doesn't respond. He's been asleep for a long, long time. Helsknight knows the pattern. The ebb and flow. The drowning slip. Last time it took Tanguish days to wake. He doesn't think this time there will be a waking, but he waits for it anyway. All he has left now is the hope, however fleeting, to see those eyes flutter open, the tired smile and soft voice. Tanguish saying reasonably, as though Helsknight were making a big deal about nothing, "Why are you still here? I'm alright, Helsknight. You don't have to wait for me."
They talked about it, in that rare glimmer when Tanguish was lucid. Helsknight had explained what he knew of what was happening, what he'd seen. He explained the sleep would last longer. That if Tanguish didn't get himself killed, the Universe would simply take him one day, quietly, in his sleep. Tanguish had seemed relieved. He didn't want to die painfully. This was the best possible scenerio for someone who feared hurt and wounding. To slip away, unnoticed, uncaring. It had been a soft conversation, and it had taken all of Helsknight's strength not to be angry. Not to rage in the face of fear and loss. He wanted to be kind for Tanguish. He wanted his friend to leave thinking everything would be okay. He wanted him to feel loved, and looked after, and like the world would mourn his passing but not be broken by it.
This time, there will not be a waking. Helsknight can feel it in his bones. It makes his heart sick. He feels like, if he convulsed hard enough, his soul might vomit, riot out the tangle of emotions he has long grown weary of feeling, that stick in his ribs like claws.
This time, there will not be a waking.
[Tanguish always hated being a burden.]
Helsknight was broken. He sighed a lot. There was something wrong with his stomach and chest, like if he exhaled deeply, smoke and despair would come spooling out of his lungs. He wished he could purge the empty ache buried inside him, calm the nervousness of mourning. There was a little animal inside him that wanted to run, which felt his pain and fear and said something fatal must be happening, and fight or flight should move him to self preservation.
He couldn't bring himself to leave the house. Every moment they had left felt stolen.
Besides, he could run for the rest of his life and never outrun this. He could slay every god and saint in hels and it wouldn't change a thing. Impotence was a poison in his soul.
He felt sick.
"I'm sorry I couldn't fix it," Helsknight whispered, kissing Tanguish's hand gently. "I would have tried harder. You know I would have."
Tanguish had asked him, in one of those rare, lucid moments, not to bother Tango. Just let it happen, he'd said, brushing strands of hair out of Helsknight's face. It's okay, I'm not afraid.
Helsknight didn't know what time it was. He stopped caring about things like that awhile ago.
He kissed Tanguish's knuckles again, and wished he could pour his own life through his skin. Tanguish's hand was warm in his, he'd been holding it so long. It felt stupid, but he spent a lot of time washing his hands now. His hands and his hair. He put on lotion, and honey-scented oils, because Tanguish told him once his sealing wax made him feel safe, and this was the closest smell to it that he had ready. Every time Tanguish woke, he wanted him to be held in kind, gentle hands. To card his fingers through clean, soft hair. To smell safety and comfort. Helsknight kissed Tanguish's knuckles again. It was all he could do. It was all he could do.
Time crawled by like a wounded animal. Helsknight sat very still. He kissed Tanguish's hand when it seemed necessary, the gentle brush of lips against fingers that never moved. Sometimes he would press his thumb to Tanguish's pulse just to remind himself he was still alive, only sleeping. He didn't cry. He said only kind things; whispered poetry, soft platitudes. When his helpless anger abated and left him hollow, in the ebbs and tides it lived in, he prayed. They were hopeless, stupid prayers. He didn't know what to pray for anyway. Only the repeated mantra please, please, please, begging for his Saint to listen to... Something. Please save Tanguish. Please end the waiting soon. Please don't make Helsknight suffer the waiting alone. Please, if he must suffer this, take the feelings away. Take the pain away. Make it stop. Make it stop...
Helsknight knew he fell asleep only because he woke up hours later, and when he woke, he was alone. The bed was empty, blankets barely disheveled. Still, Helsknight was filled with the half-mad thought that Tanguish had woken and crept past him, leaving him to sleep. Helsknight got to his feet, joints protesting after so long waiting in stillness.
"Tanguish?" Helsknight called into the empty room, searching every corner, as though he would be hiding. "Tanguish you shouldn't be up by yourself. Where--?"
Helsknight rubbed sore eyes and walked into the living room. He felt disoriented, not all there, like he'd woken from a bad dream. His mind dragged behind his body, thoughts tilting haphazardly through sleep and stress. He was exhausted. Had he not been sleeping lately? Gods. It was hard to remember.
Helsknight looked quietly around the living room, suddenly confused as to why he'd come in here. He was looking for something... right? Something important. His hands were shaking. He felt sick. Something very, very important. His stomach twisted in knots. His chest hurt. Was he having a panic attack? Why in hels was he having a panic attack?
"I need to lay down," Helsknight said to no one, because no one else was here. When had he gotten into the habit of talking to himself? His chest hurt. He felt sick. He wanted to cry. What the fuck was wrong with him?
[Lost something. Lost something.]
Helsknight stumbled back into his room, his mind a hazy mess. His bed was an oasis of calm in a storm. He needed to lay down. He felt raw and wounded, like someone had reached hands inside him and started pulling out entrails. It was a despair so thick he wanted to vomit. He placed his hands on the bed, steadying himself, trying to convince himself if he could just crawl in--
The bed was cold. Colder than was normal. A tear rolled down his cheek. He could cry now. He was allowed to cry now. No one was here to see.
Why would someone be here? Why would he even need to cry? Helsknight rubbed at his face, and he searched his bed, his nightstand, for anything that made sense.
A little black stone, obsidian, hard to carve and harder to break. There was a name carved there that wasn't his. Memories that had been floating away like fading dreams, fast into the jaws of the void, slammed back into him so hard he staggered. It was a blow that should have killed him. He'd felt gentler wounds from blades in the Colosseum.
Helsknight's reaction was immediate. His breath left him, half gasp, half groan. And he was sobbing, great, wracking, gasping sobs that were halfway screams. Helsknight grabbed the little stone, carved with Tanguish's name, and clasped it to his chest. He clung to it like it could somehow pull Tanguish back to him, like it could tether his soul, already gone. Then Helsknight did scream, because his chest hurt, his soul hurt, and he was powerless, powerless, powerless to do anything about it.
"I didn't mean to forget," he sobbed, his whole body bent in apology, like a sinner at an altar. "I d-didn't mean to forget. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I--"
The night was long.
The world was dark.
Somewhere, a bright, bright star dimmed and died, and no one seemed to notice.
And the Universe said, I do not love you, for I did not make you
And the Universe said, You were never meant to exist, so you do not
And the Universe said, All is right with the world.
Isn't it?
#rns ficlets#helsknight#tanguish#shiftingos#hi i cried three times writing this#whump#hurt/no comfort#angst#i mean its exactly what it says on the tin i just like need yall to know this is sad :'D
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kim gyuvin x reader
gyuvin wakes up in the middle of the night to see you awake, and he wonders if youâll be the same face heâll last see before he enters slumber.
general genre/warnings ┠established relationship, fluff, thoughts about the future, reader crochets, reader is small enough to wear his hoodie (meaning itâs oversized), eumppappa appearance
word count â” 512 words
a/n ┠happy birthday @vernyangel <3 i thought i'd make smth just for you so i hope you enjoy this cute, fluffy, and very intimate fic <3 if you enjoyed reading, please do reblog & leave feedback!
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gyuvin canât recall what time he fell asleep. exhausted from work, he doesnât remember if he shut his eyes beside the greyhound before telling you, good night. and if heâll be honest, he canât remember if you said it back.
what he does remember is the last thing he saw before he dozed offâyou. your fixated gaze on the patch of yarn thatâs grown two times since the last time heâs seen it. the sight of you who drowns in his hoodie (which has become his favorite piece from his closet). how the hands of the clock halt whenever heâs with you.
the view he fell asleep to happens to be the same one he wakes up to. all slouched, you still work on the same patch of yarn. youâd flick your hand to relieve the tension but still kept crocheting.
your heart jumps over gyuvinâs hand on your thigh. âfuck!â as you look over to the boy next to you, youâre greeted by his sleepy grin. âyou scared me.â
âwhat time is it?â
you check your phone before saying, â5:43 a.m.â
ânot sleepy yet?â he asks only for you to shake your head. as his fingers draw stars on your skin, your hands continue to weave the yarn together. his eyes close for a moment before opening once more, trying to adjust to his surroundings. âwhereâs eumppappa?â
âheâs by his bed,â you answer. gyuvin glances at his dog whoâs in deep slumber. âhe was getting a little fussy with you holding him and me, uh, checking to see if the hat would fit him.â
a chuckle leaves him. âtypical eumppappa.â you only hum.
with your eyes affixed on your work, gyuvin allows himself to revel in the sight of you.
when was the first time he fell asleep beside you? was it when he first moved into your place, away from prying eyes, that he allowed himself to be vulnerable with you? or was it at the studio, when you brought takeout for the group, allowing him to rest his head on your shoulder during the short break?
and maybe gyuvin canât recall the first time he stripped off the goofy exterior in front of you. when he didnât feel the need to put on an act to entertain you. when he allowed himself to exist beside you.
as his arm wraps around your waist, he scoots closer to you. with a confused hum leaving you, he says, âdonât tire yourself out. iâm sure eumppappa can wait for the hat.â
you giggle. âyeah, but i canât wait.â
âi know.â his lips graze against your waist through the hoodie. âjust wanted to remind you.â
a hum leaves you. âgo to sleep. iâll see you in the afternoon.â
with that, no other word is exchanged between you two.
gyuvin canât remember when he let you carve a spot into his life, and he canât recall when you let him into yours, but maybe those details donât matter, anyway.
all he knows is that this is a life he wants to keep.
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Title: The uncertain future
note: im sorry if i hurt anyone.... believe i cried while writing this too.... i wanted happy ending but.....yea..dont hate me pleas.
Summary: As the sister of Lewis Hamilton, you watched the friendship between him and Nico Rosberg flourish and then crumble. Your heart, however, has always belonged to Nico. Now, with old wounds reopened and hidden feelings exposed, you find yourself torn between the love of your life and the brother you adore. In this tragic love story, you must make a heart-wrenching decision that will change everything.
Warnings: Angst, emotional conflict, family tension, panic attack
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The sound of engines roaring in the distance was a constant reminder of the world you lived in. The world where your brother, Lewis Hamilton, was a star, and where your heart had silently but steadfastly clung to Nico Rosberg.
You were standing at the edge of the paddock, watching as Lewis and Nico avoided each other, the tension between them palpable. It had been years since their friendship had broken down, and yet the pain was still fresh. You could see it in Lewisâs eyes whenever Nicoâs name was mentioned, and you could feel it in the pit of your stomach whenever you saw Nico.
It wasnât supposed to be like this. The three of you had grown up together, sharing dreams and ambitions. But as Lewis and Nicoâs rivalry intensified, so did the cracks in their friendship. You were caught in the middle, torn between the love for your brother and the hidden feelings you harbored for Nico.
Nico spotted you and walked over, his eyes softening as they met yours. âHey, can we talk?â he asked quietly, his voice a blend of hope and hesitation.
You nodded, your heart pounding. âSure, letâs go somewhere private.â
The two of you found a quiet corner away from the prying eyes of the media and the team. Nico took a deep breath, running a hand through his hair. âI canât keep this to myself anymore. I know itâs complicated with Lewis and everything, but⊠Iâve been in love with you for as long as I can remember.â
Your breath caught in your throat. âNico, I⊠Iâve felt the same way. But Lewis⊠heâll never accept it.â
Nico reached out, taking your hands in his. âI know itâs not fair to ask you to choose, but I canât pretend anymore. I need to know if thereâs a chance for us, despite everything.â
Tears welled up in your eyes as you looked into his. âI want to be with you, Nico. But I donât want to hurt Lewis. Heâs my brother, and heâs already lost so much.â
âThen what do we do?â Nicoâs voice was barely a whisper, his eyes searching yours for an answer.
âI donât know,â you admitted, your voice breaking. âI donât know how.....how to choose between you two.â
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The next few days were a blur of races, press conferences, and strained conversations. You avoided Lewis, knowing that your face would betray the turmoil inside you. But you couldnât avoid him forever.
One evening, Lewis cornered you in your hotel room, his expression a mixture of confusion and hurt. âWhatâs going on with you and Nico?â he demanded, his voice tight with emotion.
You sighed, feeling the weight of the secret you had been carrying. âLewis, I didnât want to tell you because I knew it would hurt you. But⊠Iâm in love with him. I have been for a long time.â
Lewisâs eyes widened, and he took a step back, as if physically struck by your words. âYouâre in love with Nico? After everything heâs done?â
âItâs not that simple,â you pleaded, tears streaming down your face. âI love him, but I love you too. I donât want to lose either of you.â
Lewis shook his head, his expression hardening. âYou have to choose, [your name]. You canât have both. If youâre with him, youâre betraying me.â
Your heart shattered at his words, the decision you had been dreading now laid bare before you. âLewis, please donât make me do this.â
âIâm sorry, but you have to,â he insisted, his voice cold and final. âItâs him or me.â
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That night, you met Nico in the hotel lobby, your heart heavy with the decision you had made. He looked at you, hope and fear mingling in his eyes. âWhat did he say?â
You took a deep breath, the words tasting bitter on your tongue. âHe said I have to choose. And I.....I choose him, Nico. Iâm..... Iâm so sorry.â
Nicoâs face crumpled, and he pulled you into a tight embrace. âI understand. I always knew it might come to this. I just⊠I wish things were different.â
You clung to him, the tears flowing freely now. âSo do I. More than anything.â
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The days that followed were a blur of pain and heartache. You watched as Nico moved on, his eyes losing some of their spark. Lewis, too, seemed more distant, a part of him closed off forever.
You had made your choice, but the cost was more than you could bear. In choosing your brother, you had lost the love of your life. And in losing Nico, you had lost a part of yourself.
As you stood alone at the edge of the paddock, the roar of the engines a distant echo, you couldnât help but wonder if you had made the right choice. But some choices, once made, can never be undone.
One particularly grueling day, the weight of your decision bore down on you more heavily than usual. Every interaction felt hollow, every laugh forced. You felt like a ghost of yourself, drifting through life without purpose. The pressure built until you could no longer hold it back.
You were in the paddock, surrounded by the familiar noise and chaos of race day, when the panic attack hit. Your chest tightened, and it felt like you couldnât breathe. The world spun around you, and your vision blurred. You stumbled, clutching at your chest as you tried to draw in a breath, but it felt like your lungs were being squeezed by an iron fist.
Lewis was the first to notice. He rushed to your side, his face etched with worry. â[your name], whatâs wrong? Talk to me!â
You couldnât speak. All you could do was shake your head, tears streaming down your face as you fought for air. Lewis wrapped his arms around you, his voice a soothing murmur in your ear. âItâs okay. Just breathe. Iâm here.â
Gradually, the world came back into focus, and you managed to draw in a shaky breath. But the relief was short-lived. The emotional dam broke, and you snapped.
âThis is all your fault!â you screamed, pushing Lewis away. âYou....you made me choose! You made me give up the love of my life!â
Lewisâs face fell, hurt and confusion mixing in his eyes. â[ your name], I didnât want to hurt you. I thought I was protecting you.â
âProtecting me?â you spat, the anger boiling over. âYou tore my heart in two! You made me choose between you and Nico, and now Iâm broken. I canât....I canât live like this anymore, Lewis. I canât live without him.â
Lewisâs expression crumpled, and he reached out to you, but you stepped back. âI need to fix this. I need to be with Nico.â
Before he could respond, you turned and fled, your heart pounding as you made your way to Nicoâs home. Every step felt like a race against time, a desperate bid to reclaim the happiness you had lost.
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When you arrived at Nicoâs door, you hesitated, your hand hovering over the doorbell. What if it was too late? What if he had moved on, leaving you behind in the wreckage of your choices?
But you had to try. Taking a deep breath, you rang the bell.
After a few moments, the door opened. But it wasnât Nico who stood before you. It was a woman, her expression one of polite curiosity. âCan I help you?â
Your heart plummeted. âI⊠Iâm looking for Nico. Is he here?â
The woman hesitated, glancing over her shoulder before looking back at you. âHeâs not here right now. Can I tell him whoâs asking?â
You swallowed hard, fighting back the tears. âJust⊠tell him [your name] stopped by.â
She nodded, offering a sympathetic smile. âIâll let him know.â
As the door closed, you stood there, feeling the weight of the world crashing down on you. It was too late. Nico had moved on, and you were left standing on the doorstep of what could have been.
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The drive back was a blur. You felt numb, the pain of your decision and the realization of its consequences settling like a leaden weight in your chest. When you arrived at your hotel, Lewis was waiting for you, his expression a mixture of concern and guilt.
âDid you find him?â he asked quietly.
You shook your head, unable to meet his eyes. âHeâs not there. Heâs with someone else now.â
Lewis stepped closer, his hand resting gently on your shoulder. âIâm so sorry, darling. I never wanted to hurt you.â
Tears spilled down your cheeks as you finally looked at him. âBut you did, Lewis. And now Iâve lost everything...â
He pulled you into a hug, holding you tightly as you sobbed into his chest. âWeâll get through this. I promise.â
But as you clung to him, the void inside you remained. The love you had lost, the life you had given up, all of it weighed heavily on your heart.
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Business Proposal || knj (11/?)
pairing: namjoon x f!reader || ex friends to lovers!au friends to lovers!au
Genre: fluff, angst, smut, slow burn, fwb!au, non idol!au, unrequited love
Warnings: slow burn, angst, fluff, flirting,
Rating: mature, 18+
w.c: 4.3k
Synopsis: Namjoon is living on borrowed time, and itâs time to cash in. His father is months from taking his last breathe and his life long dream is to watch his oldest son say âI do.â
A/n: lol hello hi, being an an adult and a social adult is hard. I've had this written since June, but never got the time to edit it. Until now, I hope you enjoy it.xx
Thanks to those who have stuck around it means a lot!
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Present:Â
âI donât get it?â Casey Han, the newly hired intern in the Writing and Rhetoric Department voices as she leans back in your office lounge chairs. Every Tuesday she comes into your office at four so you can help her review her Master Thesis on Language and Dialects in Different Regions.Â
She also uses this as an opportunity to fill you in on the rumors floating around the office, pry you for juicy deets about yours and Namjoons relationship, or thirst over your best friend slash soon to be brother-in-law aka Jeon Jungkook.Â
It used to bother you at first, but over the last two months you have grown fond of the graduate student. She has a great sense of humor, knows all the juicy gossip, and mainly buys you an iced americano every Wednesday and Friday morning.Â
âWhat donât you get Cas?â You stand up from your desk chair, walk to the other lounge chair and sit down. By now, all thesis editing, review, or proof-reading has ended. You get off work in five minutes and you have to wait for Namjoon to finish grading his final papers. A task you finished three days ago.Â
âYour fiance is the hottest guy in this building and youâre always holed up in your office. If I was in your shoes Iâd never keep my hands off him.â She shrugs, leaning her elbow against the arm rest and resting her chin over the palm of her hands.Â
You laugh, shaking your head. If things were different and you didnât know Casey the way you did, youâd surely be suspecting her of hinting at something else. But you have nothing to worry about with Casey. Her eyes are reserved for Jungkook or Leonardo âDilfâ DiCaprio. Her words not yours.
âI mean weâre together all the time. I think keeping our space at work is just our way of staying professional and it gives us something to talk about at the end of the day.â You shrug, chucking off your heels and crossing your legs underneath you.Â
âYouâre stronger than me.â She smiles, shaking her head. âBut it's cute. One can only dream of having a relationship like yours.â
âBelieve me it took a while to get here.â You brush her off. It did. After coming clean to each other, things didnât automatically become all sunshine and rainbows. There were constant petty arguments about who takes the trash out? Who does the dishes? You vaguely remember getting annoyed with Namjoon because he couldnât use a knife if his life depended on it. But the two of you decided that if you wanted your relationship to work, couples therapy was the best option.Â
So, every Monday at five the two of you see Dr. Heras. Itâs helped with talking to each other, and getting to know each other's triggers and how to handle them. The two of you have household assigned chores to each other, but if the other forgets the other has to step up. Nightly recaps are a must, which makes bedtime exciting for the two of you. Itâs the main reason the two of you donât meet up throughout the day until it's time to go home. Things still arenât perfect but theyâre getting better day by day.
Casey claps her hands together, bringing you out of your bubble. Her face is bright like she just remembered something and it excites you. âWhen is your dress fitting?âÂ
The brief excitement escapes you when you remember how much youâre not looking forward to it. Not because you donât want to see your mother and Namjoonâs mother. Itâs because you donât like any of the dresses on the online catalog of Hyugas Bridal.Â
âSaturday.â You say, bringing your knees up to your chest and resting your chin on top of them. Youâve tried everything to convince yourself to be as excited as possible. It is your wedding dress fitting after all. A moment every little girl dreams about. A moment you have always dreamed about, but you canât shake that thereâs something holding you back from feeling exciting.Â
No, you know exactly why youâre not looking forward to it. The reason starts with Jung and ends with Hoseok.Â
Heâs been in the back of your mind for the past week. Since the day the mothers have made a groupchat to decide the dress fitting date. At first you thought it was because it would be the first time they would be meeting. Then you shifted your blame when you caught a glimpse of the online catalog. Then one night while Namjoon was out with the boys, you remembered the faint promise from all those years ago, and things started making sense.Â
No, you havenât spoken to the well renowned designer in years. After a year communication between the two of you ran dry. You never resented him for it. You were going through things and he was building his brand from the bottom up. Your problems were only going to make him worry and that was the last thing you wanted. But heâs been living in your head rent free. You keep going back and forth.Â
Should I text him?
Should I just settle?Â
Should I text him?Â
Itâs a constant battle. One you havenât decided on a winner. Itâs putting such a damper on a day where youâre supposed to share fond memories with your mother and soon to be mother-in-law. Yet, you just canât shake the feeling that you know what you want already.Â
You're stubborn like that.Â
âWhy donât you sound excited?â Casey lowers her voice. Her brows furrow in concern.Â
As much as you love Casey and now consider her a close friend. This is something you donât want to simply get into. So you lie, âIâm just nervous, our mothers are meeting for the first time. And both of them have strong personalities.â You sigh.Â
Casey laughs, âI will keep you in my prayers for the rest of the week.âÂ
You smile, your attention getting caught on Namjoonâs ringtone. You donât even need to check your phone to know that heâs texted you that heâs done and to meet him downstairs. So, without a minute of hesitation you slip your feet into your heels again and stand up. âThank you, I think I will need it a lot on Saturday.âÂ
âPlease, please, please send me pictures.â Casey clasps her hands in front of her, pouting and widening her eyes. You smile fondly. Casey has been your first female friend in years. A true girl's girl. A lovely breath of fresh air from all the testosterone youâve been constantly surrounded by since childhood.Â
âOf course, youâre the only one who will get pics anyway.â You round your desk and shut off your desktop, and pick up your work bag slinging it over your shoulder.Â
âYou mean Iâve knocked down the guys and made it up your list.â She stands up, smoothing down her pleated gray skirt.Â
âYou will always be at the top of the list Cas.â You smile, getting your phone and unlocking it to Namjoonâs short text: Done, down in 5 mins.
Followed by another one that says: Dinner?
You smile and type a quick: poke bowl plssssss.
You lock your phone and stuff it into the pocket of your gray dress pants. Casey scoffs as she opens the door to your office. âYou two are gross and cute.âÂ
You follow her out of your office, âWhat do you mean?â You lock your office door and lock your arms with hers.Â
âYou get this huge smile on your face and then your eyes get all twinkly. Itâs a little gross.â She bumps her hip with yours before giggling. âItâs so cute though.âÂ
âI think youâre making shit up.â You whisper, and she stops walking the minute she reaches the front reception desk. âIâll buy you coffee tomorrow by the way.â You wink, as she takes her seat in front of her desktop. She still has two more hours left of her shift, and the last two hours are always the slowest.Â
âYou donât have to but it's greatly appreciated.â She moves her mouse to wake up her monitor, and slumps in her seat sighing. âIâll work on my revisions and email you the appointments for next week.âÂ
âThanks Cas. Iâll see you tomorrow.â You rush out when you feel your phone vibrate in your pocket. You donât bother to check it nor stay for her to reply the second the elevator dings on your floor.Â
âLove ya,â Casey shouts after you, and you send her finger hearts as the elevator door closes.Â

âJin wants to go out for drinks tomorrow.â Namjoon says as he enters the bathroom, leaning against the doorway. His eyes find yours through the mirror as you begin to apply your night cream.Â
You hum, placing the container against the counter. âYou should go, the semester is almost over and youâve been working hard.â You say, spreading the cream down your neck, cleaning your hands on a clean towel and proceeding to pick up the tube of your eye cream.Â
âI know but heâs inviting Tae and these days wherever Tae goes so does Jimin.â He pushes himself off the wall and walks towards you. âThings are still a little awkward between Jimin and I.â He finishes, facing you and leaning against the bathroom counter crossing his arms in front of him.Â
You smile, screwing the cap of your eye cream tube and placing it down. âI think youâre thinking about it too much. Jimin doesnât hold grudges, plus weâve talked things through already.â You pat your under eyes with your ring fingers and then turn to face him. âIf it bothers you, you should talk to him too, but donât feel pressured to do so because of me.âÂ
He nods, uncrossing his arms and grabs your hands, reeling you in. âI definitely want to apologize to him and settle things between us before the wedding, but I donât feel ready.âÂ
âThen do it when you are ready Joon.â You reassure, lacing your fingers with his. âBut I think you should still go, itâs been months since all of you got together to hang out.â Â
Namjoon opens his mouth to interject but you stop him with a roll of your eyes. âWorking out together doesnât count.âÂ
He sighs, shaking his head, letting go of one of your hands and snaking his arm around your waist, scooting his leg between yours. âSometimes itâs scary how you know what Iâm thinking.â He whispers, placing his forehead against yours. âBut I will go, I do miss them a little.â He confesses, and gives you a quick kiss on your lips before hugging you completely. âCan you tell me whatâs been bothering you all week now?âÂ
The only downside of couples therapy and learning more about each other is that neither of you can hide anything anymore. He is well aware that youâve been up in your head more than usual.Â
You pull away, placing your hands on his cheeks. âSometimes it's scary how you know that Iâm thinking too much.âÂ
He plays with the tie of your bathrobe, chuckling at your response. âYour thoughts are too loud, and you didnât sleep last night.â He shrugs. âI was waiting for you to wake me up to talk but all you did was sigh and turn a thousand times.â
You pout, âIâm sorry I didnât mean to keep you up too.âÂ
He shakes his head, âDonât be. I wouldâve interjected but I also know you wouldnât have told me until your conscience was clearer.âÂ
You nod. âIâm nervous about Saturday.âÂ
Namjoon stops playing with the tie and hugs you again. âDonât be, your mom is great and so is mine and I know theyâll get along fine. We might be making a mistake by introducing them to each other. I have a feeling they will be inseparable after Saturday.âÂ
âItâs not that Joon.â You sigh, he tilts his head to the side. âI know theyâll get along, it's just thatââ You stop biting your lip, trying to sort your words out as quickly as possible in your head.Â
As far you know, Hoseok and Namjoon havenât spoken to each other in years. Jungkook knows why but he wonât tell you. He only says that they lost communication. But it's odd. Hoseokâs career has expanded to the point that heâs getting interviewed by Jimmy Fallon. Heâs been invited to all the fashion weeks, and now has his own magazine. Your dream is to one day own one of his purses. You saw the ad for one a couple weeks ago on Instagram. You showed it to Namjoon and he had no reaction.Â
Which was weird because you thought Namjoon would be proud of his once best friend. He even grumbled a little when he found your box that kept all the magazine clippings from his previous interviews. It was your way of showing your support from a distance. So, whatever happened between them isnât a normal falling out with no hard feelings.Â
From what you can tell there are hard feelings you just donât know why. Nor do you want to pry, but the promise Hoseok made you all those years ago keeps echoing in your brain.Â
Maybe this is why youâve been running yourself up the wall. You want to reach out but you donât know how Namjoon would react if you told him you were. After all, Hoseok was a huge part of your life. A relationship Namjoon witnessed from start to finish.Â
âWhat is it?â He says with concern.Â
âI donât want my wedding dress to come from Hyugas Bridal.â You whisper.Â
Namjoon nods, âThatâs okay thereâs so many other wedding dress shops, you can go to a new one.â He offers.Â
You shake your head, âI donât want any of those dresses from any of those shops.âÂ
Namjoonâs hands fall down to his side. âI see.â He pauses before, pushing past you and out the bathroom. His demeanor has changed so quickly you begin to suspect that he knows exactly whatâs going on.Â
You follow him. âJoon what are you doing?â You enter your bedroom. Itâs empty and you begin to wonder where exactly your fiance went until you see him walk out of the closet with a slip of line paper in his hand.Â
âHere,â He extends his hand. âText him this is his new number.â He gently shoves the paper further in your direction.Â
âWhat is this? Text who?â You take the folded slip of paper and watch as he walks to the bed, sitting down on the edge.Â
âHoseok, thatâs who you want to design your wedding dress right?â He clasps his hands together. âHe promised so itâs only right.â He adds, clenching his jaw.Â
Now, youâre confused. Actually, youâre beyond confusion at this point. Youâre also concerned because Namjoon looks like heâs about to burst. âH-How do you know?âÂ
Namjoon chuckles dryly, âHe told me before he left.â He throws his hands up in the air. âActually he told me a bunch of things but half of those things arenât important. Whatâs important is that you want to wear one of his wedding dress designs so text him.âÂ
You take a seat next to him. âWhy does this bother you Joon?â You say softly, placing your hands on top of his, trying your best to smooth down the grip.Â
âBecause it was supposed to be your wedding dress for your wedding with him.â He whispers, unclasping his hands and settling them on top of his pajama pants.Â
âNamjoon, we were never going to get married.â You furrow your eyebrows in confusion.Â
âBut you couldâve. Heâs been back in town since January. Jin has tried everything to get us to meet again but I keep turning down his invites. If we hadnât tried to solve our issues I have no doubt he would have contacted you again.âÂ
You smile, bringing his hands to your lap. âNamjoon, things between Hobi and I are long over. I wonât lie to you and tell you I donât love him anymore because I do just not in the same way I loved him back then and not the same way I love you now. I donât want to marry him, I donât think I ever wanted to marry him in the first place. He will always love his career more than anything in this world and thatâs okay. I never will hold that against him because although it hurt when we broke up and I did make bad decisions trying to fill the void I felt when he left. I grew up. We both grew up Namjoon.â You finish, bringing his hands up to your lips and kissing his palms gently.Â
Namjoon sighs, âHe will likely join us tomorrow and what if you run into him one day and fall for his charms again.â He pouts.
âAre you jealous?â You tilt your head in amusement. He lets go of your hands and rolls his eyes.Â
âSo what if I am. Is that a problem? Heâs a much better man than me in every sense of the word.â He stands up and walks to his side of the bed before peeling back your duvet.Â
You turn your body in his direction, biting your bottom lip to stifle your laugh. Youâve recently learned that Namjoon loves to sulk like a child and he has no problem expressing when something petty is bothering him.Â
âItâs not, I think itâs cute.â You sit up on your knees, before he scoffs and lays down, his back turned to you. You move closer to him and wrap your arm around his torso before leaning your body over his so youâre face to face with him. âYouâre more than enough Joon.â You kiss his temple gently.Â
Namjoon rolls onto his back. âAre you sure?â He snakes his arms around your waist tugging you closer. You straddle his lap, and lean down resting your forehead against his. âI wouldnât be working this hard to make our relationship work and better if I didnât think you were enough.âÂ
He throws his head back in defeat. His heart is beating so fast heâs thankful you canât feel or hear it. His jealousy simmers in dying embers. Despite some unresolved differences between him and his oldest friend, he knows Hoseok isnât one to try to break marriage apart.Â
âI love you,â Namjoon says after a while. His voice is soft and full of tenderness.Â
I love you.âÂ

The last time you felt this nervous was the day you had to read your master thesis out loud in class to a group of judgmental writing students. The sales assistant has been watching you pace for the past five minutes since she led you to the back of the shop.Â
You admit it was a long shot, texting your ex boyfriend and world renowned fashion designer after Namjoon went to sleep. Sure, what you received was a very polite and formal message. To which you concluded that it was probably his personal assistant that messaged you.Â
So, did Hoseok know you were the one meeting with him about commissioning a wedding dress. Or did he figure it was just a normal customer. Still, the whole process was fairly quick. You figured he had a packed schedule considering he had just returned to his hometown after being away for years. You couldnât help but wonder how things were going to go today, which was why you were running the clock, driving the sales assistant absolutely insane.
Finally, you get tired of wearing a hole in the ground and take a seat on the white sofa, just as the sales assistant whispers into her earpiece. âMr.Jung will be here in two minutes.â She voices out, adjusting her blouse before moving to the door.Â
âThank you.â You say crossing your legs and placing your bag next to you. Quickly you decide thatâs too comfortable so you uncross them and place your bag on your lap again. Fidgeting with your hands, while the door slowly opens, revealing the one and only Jung Hoseok.
You almost feel like suffocating. Your breath hitches as he strolls in wearing a black suit. His hair is slicked back, and some dark sunglasses on the tip of his nose. He oozes a wave of confidence that you have never seen before, and you begin to wonder if he even remembers you and the promise he made to you all those years ago.Â
After five months of being away the two of you lost contact. Three years later he unfollowed you on instagram. Well technically he unfollowed everyone on instagram and only followed one person. A beautiful model whose name was Hailey. For years, they were speculated to be dating, but nothing has ever been confirmed or denied. So, who knows. But now he was here, silent, powerful, and looking better than ever.Â
And you feel foolish.
âSo he finally came to his senses.â Hoseok clicks his tongue and removes his sunglasses, revealing his beautiful warm eyes.Â
You donât know what comes over you. Just an overwhelming sense of nostalgia and before you know it youâre hugging him tight and crying into his very expensive suit. He chuckles, running a soothing hand down your back. He smells fresh, like a cool breeze on the beach. He feels different, but similar and all the love you once held for him comes rushing back in powerful strokes of color.Â
For a moment you feel twenty-one again.Â
Finally, you pull away and look at him, taking in all the features you once knew by memory. He has a few wrinkles on the side of his eyes. But he looks sharper in all the right places and you realize that just like Namjoon he has aged like fine wine.Â
âIâm sorry.â You sniffle, smoothing out the lapels of his suit. âI donât know what came over me.â You chuckle awkwardly, looking around, avoiding eye contact as much as possible.Â
He chuckles, placing his hands on top of your shoulders. âI see youâre still as emotional as ever.â He notes, running his hands down your shoulders before taking your hand in his. He leads you towards the couch and sits you down before taking the seat next to you.Â
âNow, tell me how have you been?â He tilts his head, intertwining your fingers with his. If you didnât know better, youâd mistaken this for a romantic gesture. But you know better as much as you love Hoseok. The love you feel for him is different from the love you feel for Namjoon. Itâs just nostalgia with Hoseok, itâs unforgettable memories that youâve buried. Itâs young love that hasnât known experiences. Itâs the chase but never settling. And youâre ready to settle down.Â
âIâve been great. The fall semester starts next week so Iâve been running around like crazy, in and out of meetings. You know the usual boring work life.â You wave off, wiping your eyes with the handkerchief he's handed you. âHow have you been, you look amazing.â You blurt out, widening your eyes.Â
He chuckles, âIâve been better, fashion week is in a month and we are still deciding on garments for the models to wear.âÂ
âWow, fashion week.â You say in disbelief, shaking your head, to keep the tears at bay. âYou really made it Hobi. Iâm so proud of you.â You whisper the last part and hug him once more, letting go of your tears.Â
It was so embarrassing but you couldnât help it. Youâll send him money for the dry cleaners later.Â
âIt wasnât easy but knowing Iâll one day have this moment with you kept me going.â He whispers, kissing the top of your head, and pulling away. âYou look amazing too, Iâd love to have you as my professor.â He winks, making you laugh.
âIâd love to have you as my personal designer.â You retaliate, making him laugh. He lets go of your hands and stands up, posing dramatically. âThatâs why Iâm here. Now, come on, I have a few design ideas I want to run by you first.â He extends his hands for you and pulls you up quickly. âThese are just prototypes but I think they all suit you one way or another.â He says, nodding towards the sales assistant who leaves through the bright pink curtains.Â
âWait, wait, wait Hobi. How do you already have prototypes?âÂ
Hoseok rolls his eyes jokingly. âJoon and I have been in contact here and there. So, Iâve been designing these since then. And donât worry he hasnât seen any of them.âÂ
Youâre floored, your annoyance zeroing in on your conniving and jealous fiance. Why the hell did he make you meeting Hoseok such a big deal if he had been plotting this against your back? But instead of focusing on that, you feel the butterflies in your stomach begin to erupt when the sales assistant comes in with three garment bags.Â
âAre you ready?â Hoseok says, stuffing his hands in the pocket of his dress pants.Â
Your heart begins to thunder against your chest when each garment bag is hung in front of you. You look at Hoseok who has the biggest smile on his face and you realize what a full circle moment this is for the two of you. You gave up your relationship for dreams either of you didnât know youâd ever achieve. Yet, here you are. Him a self made fashion designer making a pit stop on his busy schedule to do this for you. And you, you are working your dream job and getting ready to marry the love of your adult life.Â
You smile nodding enthusiastically. âReady as Iâll ever be.â

A/n: it's short, but I will try to be more consistent with my uploads. Check out all my other stories too!
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This blog is here to stay. It will remain a Tommy Kinard and BuckTommy blog.
Iâm pissed. Iâm grieving. 9-1-1 is my favorite show and now theyâve pulled this shit.
If Lou had left the show because the death threats were too much, his mental health was suffering, or he just couldnât take it anymore, I would absolutely understand. Iâd blame a certain part of the fandom, but Iâd respect his decision. But he didnât even want this. He loves Tommy and Tevan. I donât know what Tim is thinking.
I know it all feels like a waste right now, but itâs not. Let me recount really quick:
âą Buck is bisexual.
âą There have been some really important scenes to come out of his discovering his sexuality, including Joshâs speech and his own lesson in fighting for his relationship.
âą Tommy Kinard will be a character you pry from my cold dead hands. A gay man who discovered himself late in life and is still living his life genuinely. A man who made mistakes and acknowledges them, but has grown far past them. What a wonderfully rounded character.
âą Excepting the end of 806, the beauty of their relationship. They did so much with so little screen time.
Itâs not a waste, even though the ending absolutely trashed the progress made.
Resolutely, I do not believe this is the end. I know, I know, âthe interviewsâ. Itâs not out of the realm of possibility that theyâre misdirecting. Also, they havenât even written the rest of the season yet. The storyline is fixable if thereâs a make up.
Not telling anyone how to feel about Oliverâs comments, but I would caution about using TVlineâs article as the Bible. It was a terribly written, heavily biased interview and frankly itâs an insult that it was even conducted.
Even if it is the end, no one has to stop shipping. No one has to leave the fandom. We did not lose. We still got our canon ship and it will forever be an irrevocable fact that it was canon. BuckTommy is endgame for me. I may be disappointed by expectations, but I will never be in the wrong for sticking by that.
Make your displeasure known to Tim and ABC, but do not lose your dignity doing so. Do not engage with the haters. No harassing Lou. You can hold Oliver accountable for his remarks, but no harassment of him. You can call him out without making him the fandom whipping boy. Iâve seen many people latching onto him as the outlet for their feelings on this. Do not harass or bully the writers or actors, but make sure the producers and showrunners know they fucked up.
And most importantly, look after yourselves and each other. Weâre still a community and weâre here to stay. This week is one of the worst ever, but we will come out of it.
Thank you, Tommy Kinard, for the hope you gave us, the representation you presented, and the character you were. Thank you Lou for portraying such a character and being such a sweetheart. BuckTommy will forever be in our hearts, endgame or not.
As a reminder, BuckTommy is not the be all end all of the show for queer rep. Hen and Karen, our fabulous queens, and Josh will still always be there. Buck is still bi, no matter whatâs next in store for him. Tommy, even if gone forever, is still a significant moment of gay rep. And thatâs not even counting the small characters that come in and out. Itâs not always done well, but itâs there.
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He Doesn't Deserve You | A Jeon Jungkook Series | Chapter Five

Summary: Taehyung gets careless and breaks your heart yet again. Pairing: Noona reader x Jeon Jungkook (She's 28 and he's 22) Word Count: 4.7K~ Warnings: Implied yÀndere and mentions of signs of trauma because of it. (nothing too extreme) a/n: It's taken me so long to get this chapter out I'm sorryyy but I hope it was worth the wait! Thank you so much for your continued support on my stories and I hope you'll look forward to the next part!
Jungkook's visit last week really had me thinking about the choices I make on the daily.Â
I stopped stressing about what Taehyung might be doing when he's away and started thinking about ways I could improve myself.
It wasn't anything major but I wanted to take baby steps.
For instance, setting up a schedule for when I wake up and always making sure to not stay up past midnight. Along with promising myself to at least sit and write for a couple of hours per day but also taking breaks when I felt I needed to. I would come back though and finish only when I was satisfied and came to a proper stopping point.
Implementing these little changes in my life has worked wonders on my confidence and peace of mind. I feel like I'm accomplishing something and getting some sort of fulfillment in the day to day which I haven't been able to say for the past few years.
I guess all of this can be chalked up to Jungkook.Â
I know I'm ultimately the one who's implemented these things into my life but if he hadn't given me that push, I don't think I would've ever gotten to even see these small victories.
While I'm in the kitchen pouring myself a cup of coffee I hear a faint chime on my laptop and I smile knowing exactly who it is.
'Good morning Noona, did you sleep well?'  I read from the all too familiar jkjkjk.97  and smile seeing that my suspicions were correct.
'I slept like a baby, who knew going to bed before dawn would do wonders!'Â Â I send back and when I try to stand up to walk back over to the kitchen I'm met with another email popping up from him.
'That's good! I'm happy to see that you're feeling a bit better these days :)'Â Â he sends and I smile at the fact that he's just as eager to reply to me. It's been like this ever since that day he dropped off my groceries. He would send me emails first thing in the morning almost like clockwork.
I'm surprised that he manages to keep a similar schedule to mine but I don't really know what he does most days except work.Â
I know he works at the grocery store but it seems to me like he's always working at odd hours. Most days even well past closing so it's got me thinking about what else he could possibly do for a living.
It's none of my business but I can't help but be curious about it since when I ask him how his day went, he usually says he's still working even though it seems like he's been working since dawn.Â
I really want to ask him but I don't want to pry. He seems like the kind of guy that keeps to himself and open up when he's ready.Â
I'm just hoping that there will come a day where he'll trust me as much as I have grown to trust him.
My thought process his interrupted by the sound of keys jingling in the door and my heart sinks to my stomach when I'm brought back to reality.
"Hey baby" Taehyung greets while taking off his shoes. It's Saturday so he doesn't have work which means he might be hanging around here for a while before no doubt heading out again.Â
"Hey" I respond quietly, feeling as though I'm retreating back into myself, not really being able to relax until I know what kind of headspace he's in.
"Where's my welcome home kiss from my gorgeous wife?" he asks while walking over to where I'm sitting at my desk. He leans down and kisses me on the lips, moulding his mouth against mine while I crane my neck up and return the kiss, placing a hand on his cheek to keep him connected.
"Welcome home" I let out after he pulls back, panting slightly as he nudges his nose against mine before standing up straight again. "Have you been up long?" he asks, him having gone out late last night and surprisingly turning up here again bright and early.
I hum in acknowledgment, "I've been waking up earlier these days so I can get a jump start on my writing and trying to go to bed earlier" I respond while watching his back as he walks over to the kitchen.
"Oh really? How's that going?" he questions, pouring himself a cup of coffee and walking back into the living room, waiting patiently for my answer.Â
"Well it's been nice to implement a bit of a routine since my days and nights have kind of been all over the place for a while. Plus, I feel like this story is really coming along. I even started mapping out ideas for the next book in the series!" I say and he looks at me as if he's almost falling in love with me again, making me shy under his gaze.
"That's amazing honey. I feel like I haven't seen you smiling like this in a really long time. Looks like all you needed was a little discipline to really get your life back together huh?" he say while giving me a knowing look, cocking his head to the side and letting his eyes roam my body for a second. No doubt looking at the faint bruises he'd left from last week.
"I guess so" I say, awkwardly rubbing my bicep where he had grabbed me. "How are you feeling?" he questions, coming a bit closer and ghosting his fingers over the marks. "I'm fine, they don't hurt as much anymore" I say, slipping my arm out if his grasp.
"That's good, I'm sorry I got a little rough with you. I was frustrated with some work stuff and I took it out on you. That wasn't fair of me" he apologizes while brushing the hair out of my face and tucking it behind my ear. "It's okay" I say quietly, looking down at the floor to avoid his gaze.Â
"No, it's not okay" he says tilting my chin up and making me make eye contact.
"I haven't been treating you well and I wanna make it up to you" he says, caressing my face with the hand that he used to tilt my chin up. "Okay" I whisper as he leans down to connect our lips again but before they're able to touch his phone rings.Â
He reaches into his pocket and pulls out his phone and the name Tiffany flashes across the screen with a kiss emoji at the end, giving me a name to associate as to why he's actually never home.Â
"I've gotta take this" he says and I nod my head to show I don't mind even though my heart is breaking more and more with each ring. He gives me a quick kiss to apologize before answering the call and walking into the kitchen.Â
I take that as a sign that he'll be leaving for the night again and head into the bathroom since it's the one place he won't question as to why I've shut him out. I close the lid of the toilet and cover my ears so I can't hear him but curiosity gets the best of me and I hold my breath to see if I can make any words out despite my whole motives of coming here in the first place.
"No I ca-. Well I just got here I-. Okay, okay fine I'm coming. Let me just come up with an excuse to tell her and I'll be there soon. Okay? Alright, love you too. Bye" I hear him say and he ends the call. I cover my mouth, trying to stop any sounds of heartbreak that might come out and listen as he walks down the hall to our room.Â
"Y/n? Honey where are you?" he asks, barely bothering to look for me. "I'm in here" I say, turning on the sink to drown out the sound a bit to prevent him from hearing how wobbly my voice sounds from the emotions I'm trying to keep at bay.Â
"I've gotta head out for the day but I'll be back tomorrow night. You gonna be okay?" he asks as if he cared about me. "Yeah I'll be fine don't worry, I'll see you then" I yell above the sound and he says a quick goodbye through the door in return and leaves soon after.Â
Once I hear the front door close I let some of those choked sobs go.
He's never been that obvious before. Does he just not bother to hide since he sees that I don't question him about it? I don't even know why I still care since it's very clear that he doesn't care about me.
At that I look at my phone and see that there's another email from Jungkook that came in a little while ago which gives me motivation enough to dry my eyes and get myself together so I can head back out to my laptop and get lost in this safe haven we've created for each other.Â
'Did you forget about me already?'Â Â he questions, seeing as it has taken me a while to respond. I couldn't risk doing it and Taehyung finding out about us. Even though there is no 'us' when it comes to Jungkook and I, unlike that Tiffany girl he just left me for today.
'I'm sorry Taehyung came home. He just left though...'Â Â I send and get a response back immediately, seeing he's been waiting for my response.
'Are you okay? Did something happen?'Â Â he asks and I smile at the thought that there is someone out there that cares enough to ask.Â
We've been emailing each other everyday since he came over and I've opened up to him a bit more about my relationship with Tae and he's been really good at just letting me talk and just being there for me. Always talking me through things and helping me process no matter if it's problems with Tae or even other more mundane things like writer's block.Â
He's just there, no matter what.
'Can we meet up today?' I type out but hesitate, letting my hand hover over the mouse.Â
Watching, waiting, worrying about if this would be a good idea but before making that decision myself I accidentally hit send when I try to put my hand down to rest it on my lap.Â
"Shit" I say out loud but before I can figure out how to unsend the message I get a response back.Â
'Sure :) Did you want to meet at the Blue Pearl? Or should I come over?'Â he asks and I hold my breath, weighing the pros and cons to this whole situation and decide to just say fuck it and do what I want for once.Â
'Can you come over?'Â Â I send and close my laptop, too nervous to look at his reply. "What the fuck am I doing inviting a younger guy to my apartment when my husband is gone? What am I doing?" I say out loud and pace back and forth until I hear the chime come from my phone this time.Â
'Be there soon :)'Â Â "I'm fucked" I admit out loud before running around and quickly getting myself and the house ready.
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A rhythmic pattern of knocks plays and puts my mind at ease while I walk towards the door and open it.Â
"Noona!" he greets with a smile before giving me a hug that catches me off guard making me take a step back to help me stay balanced. "Thank you for coming" I say while returning his embrace and letting go a second later so I can step aside to let him in.Â
"Are you okay?" he asks after having taken off his shoes and taken in my form to what I don't realize is to look for any signs of harm. "Yes I'm fine" I say with a sad smile yet know for a fact that even if I try to deny it he can read me like a book.Â
"Then why were you crying?" he asks, looking at my red eyes and flushed cheeks. "I heard Tae talking to one of the girls he's cheating on me with" I mumble and at that Jungkook takes my hand and leads me over to the couch without saying a word.
"He didn't even try hard to hide it. Like he has a stupid kiss emoji next to her name and everything. He had only been here for like twenty minutes tops before he left" I spill out. He keeps a hold of my hand, looking down at it while I let out all the things I've been holding in.Â
The worries, the doubts, the fear, the stress. I don't know when it started and I can't figure out how to make it stop.Â
"I don't know what to do" I admit, looking down at my lap, watching as the tears fall from my eyes and onto the fabric of my jeans.Â
"Do you want me to be honest and tell you what I think or do you want me to just listen?" he asks, rubbing circles on the back of my hand. "Be honest?" I pose almost as a question, knowing this is the ugly truth I've been hiding from.Â
"Can you tell me more than one reason as to why you should stay with him? Besides him being your husband" he asks, sitting silently and waiting for me to respond, giving me time to think it through but when I shake my head he goes forward with posing his argument.Â
"If you can't manage to come up with a reason as to why you should stay with him then what's keeping you from leaving? I know you said that you're scared and you don't know what to do but the fact that you're not doing anything is hurting you more than if you decided to leave him" he states, I just nod my head and listen, letting him say his piece.
"He's hurting you. He's hurting you physically" he says while ghosting his fingers along the bruises that run up my arm, "Mentally" he continues brushing the hair off of my face and rubbing his thumb up against my temple "And sexually" he finishes, taking note of the hickeys and the way I flinch away from him when he tries to lay his hand on my neck.Â
"That's just how Taehyung is, he likes things rough" I say, making excuses for the marks that are clearly beyond rough sex.Â
"But do you like it?" he questions, catching me off guard with an intimacy of the question. "He keeps me satisfied if that's what you mean" I answer curtly, hoping he'll take that as an answer.Â
"That's not what I asked. Do you enjoy the way he has sex with you? Is that how you want to have sex?" he continues, not backing down from getting an answer out of me. I look up at him to see if he's seriously asking me that question and all I can see is a serious expression on his face.
"I don't mind it" I say, dancing around my answer. "Noona" he warns in a tone of voice he's never used with me, catching me off guard.Â
"N-no. No I don't like it. It's too rough for me and I don't like it" I admit. He nods, casting his eyes down as if he's lost in thought before asking his next question. "Have you ever told him?" he questions and I shake my head only to realize moments later that he can't see me. "No I haven't told him" I respond quietly and he nods again before looking back up at me.Â
"Why?" he asks and I'm left with one answer. "Because I'm afraid of what he might do to me if I say no" I explain. "I figure it's better to say yes and take it instead of saying no and having him force himself on me" I cover my mouth not realizing the fact that I said the thing that I was even too afraid to admit to myself.
"Has he ever forced himself on you?" he asks while clenching his jaw, clearly upset at the thought. "I didn't tell him no but I tried to make him see that I didn't want it but he didn't care to pay attention" I answer, getting rid of the filter seeing as it won't do either of us any good if I were to hold back.Â
"That's one of the many reasons that you shouldn't even be with him anymore" he starts, his whole body tense, anger just bubbling under the surface. "You shouldn't have to be with someone you're scared of. I just don't kno-"Â
"That's just it, you don't know. You told me that before, that I shouldn't be with someone that I'm scared of but you just don't get it. You've never been married. You've never had to deal with struggles like this. You make it sound so easy, that I could just leave and never look back but it's not that simple" I spout off, defending myself and my decisions.Â
"Noona I just want to he-" "I know, I know" I say cutting him off but gaining a softer tone at the end, shrinking back into myself, ridding myself of my defensive behavior. "I'm sorry Jungkook, I shouldn't have said that. I asked you to come over and then I just yelled at you and I just..." I trail off, hating myself for doing that to him.
He tilts my head up and looks at me, studying my features and I cast my eyes down, too nervous to maintain his strong gaze. "Look at me" he says in a soft tone but I keep my eyes down, focused on my hands that I have balled into fists.Â
"Look at me, please..." he whispers and at that I decide to do as he says and I see how his eyes have glossed over, the stars in them wavering. "He doesn't deserve you" he whispers cupping my face, running his thumb along my cheekbone to brush off a tear that I didn't even realize had fallen.Â
"I don't know what to do" I let out in a choked sob, letting the tears that I've been holding in fall, never letting myself cry enough to feel better. He pulls me in and I latch onto him, burring my face into his shoulder as he holds onto me tighter, further showing me that I'm safe with him.Â
"Whatever you need I'm here for you. Just tell me what to do and I'll do it" he says, the deep rumble of his voice brings me comfort. "I-" I start but cut myself off with another sob. "It's okay, just let it all out" he says and cling to him harder.Â
After having sat there and cried with him for what felt like hours my sobs slowly die down to sniffles and my breathing patterns return to normal. "You okay?" he questions, more so asking if I had finished crying versus how I'm feeling about my current reality. I nod my head but nuzzle in closer to him, not wanting to let go just yet.Â
"What's wrong?" he questions. "I don't want you to see my face" I complain into his shirt and he laughs at (from his perspective) how adorable I am. "Aw come on why not?" he chuckles and I nuzzle my face into his neck, making skin to skin contact without paying any mind to it. "My face is probably all red and my eyes are puffy from crying" I mumble against his neck.Â
His body goes stiff but I don't take too much notice and move a bit closer to him, not realizing how I'm making him feel and only realize it after he clears his throat a few times. "Is something wrong?" I ask finally taking in how uncomfortable he seems.Â
"No, nothing's wrong I just- no it's nothing" he says trying to backpedal out of this. "It's obviously something if you're reacting like that" I press, wanting him to be as truthful with me as I have been with him.Â
"I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable" I say, pulling away from him. "No! Noona no, it's just that. Your lips were on my neck and you were really close and..." he trails off, hoping that's explanation enough.Â
"I didn't even realize I was doing that, I'm sorry..." I trail off as well, hating that I made this situation even more awkward than it already is. "It's okay Noona I just, well I just want to make sure we don't cross a line and it was making it hard for me to do so" he explains.
"What do you mean by that?" I ask, wanting to know exactly what he's thinking. "It's just, well you're married and I think you know that I'm attracted to you by now so it was just making it hard for me to think straight" he admits and I nod my head and look down at my lap, not really knowing how I'm supposed to respond.Â
"I hope this doesn't change things between us. I really do want to be your friend but I understand if I've made you uncomfortable. I just thought you should know" he finishes and waits with bated breath for my response.Â
"Would things be different?" I question, not fully asking the question since I'm not sure if I want to know the answer. "Would things be different if what?" he presses. "Would things be different if I wasn't married?" I ask and I close my eyes, scared of seeing his reaction.Â
"You can't just ask me that" he says and I look up at him to see his face turned away, showing how pink the tips of his ears have gotten and how his jaw is clenching. "Why not?" I press, needing to know based off of the kind of reaction he's giving me.Â
"You don't know how hard I've been holding myself back" he says and tongues his cheek, making me widen my eyes at the motion. "Holding yourself back from what?" I press further, needing to know what's running through his mind right now.Â
"From kissing you" he says, finally looking back at me, making eye contact before his eyes flicker down to my lips. "I-" "I should go" he says, cutting me off before I can say anything further. "Wait, no you don't have to go. I'm sorry" I say, trying my best to keep him here. I can't let him just run off after a confession like that but he's giving me no other option as I watch him stand up.Â
"You have nothing to apologize for Noona. I shouldn't have said that. I do have to go though, my family is waiting for me back at home" he says and I widen my eyes, never having heard him talk about his family as of yet.Â
"Family?" I question, my curiosity peaked. "Yeah I live with my mom and my three siblings" he says while walking over to put his shoes on. "Three?" I question and he nods his head not bothering to give me much more than that.Â
"That's a topic of conversation for another time though" he says after he stands back up from tying his laces. "Oh okay" I say and hug myself, providing myself some comfort, hating to see him rushing out of here already.Â
"They really are waiting for me. My mom has to work tonight so I'm stuck taking care of the kiddos" he says, giving me a soft smile before turning to open the door and I follow behind him.Â
"Let me know when you get home okay?" I say, leaning up against the door frame. "I will" he says and reaches out to pull me in for a hug, accepting it right away.Â
"I still want you in my life so please, don't disappear" I mumble into his chest and he hums in acknowledgment. "You can't get rid of me that easily. Not after I fought for that title of best friend" he says pulling back and looking down at me fondly and I smile back up at him before he places a hand on the side of my neck and leans down to place a kiss on my forehead.
"Bye Noona" he says, giving me a soft smile. I smile back up at him and return his sentiment before he turns to walk away.
I watch as he goes, waiting for him to get in his car where he looks back up towards my apartment, not expecting to see me waiting for him but smiles when he does. I smile back and wave and watch as he pulls out of his spot and makes his way out of the parking lot.Â
"I'm really fucked" I mumble to myself and turn to walk inside my apartment.Â
"He gets more and more handsome each time I see that young man" Mrs. Mitchell says, making me jolt back from the scare of being caught.Â
"Mrs. Mitchell we didn't-" I start but she waves me off. "You don't need to make excuses to me love. Like I said last time, I wouldn't blame you if you did" she says and places a hand on my arm, noticing all the mixed emotions I have written all over my face.Â
"Why don't we change the subject and have you sign those books we had spoken about the other day" she says, turning to walk towards the stack she had waiting by her front door like she had told me she would.Â
I smile at her enthusiasm for my writing and and am thankful that she doesn't address what had happened between Jungkook and I anymore.Â
"There you go" I say putting the cap on the pen and handing the last book back to her. "Thank you dear! The girls are going to love these!" she says placing the books back in their place. "Girls?" I question, chuckling at her reaction, so happy a simple thing like this could make her happy.Â
"Yeah! The other women in my book club. I recommended your books to them and they've been begging me to get them a signed copy from you ever since" she says, turning back to face me. "Well I hope they enjoy them!" I reply happily, embarrassed still that woman of their age are reading it but thankful nonetheless.Â
"We're all meeting together here next Sunday so maybe if you're not too busy writing you could stop by and have tea with us. I just know they would love to meet you!" she says, practically glowing with excitement.Â
"I'll have to get back to you on that one but it sounds lovely" I smile, my heart swelling at the thought of meeting some of my readers. "Wonderful! But I'll let you get back to your day dear. Make sure to set aside some time to take care of yourself and relax tonight okay? You deserve it" she says placing a comforting hand on my arm before we both go our separate ways.Â
As I close the door behind me I'm met with that all too familiar chime and I walk over to my desk, this time a bit more tentative than before, being nervous as to what I might find from my familiar friend jkjkjk.97
Home :)Â is all he sends but I decide to respond, nervous of the result if I don't, scared that he might shut me out or fade away.
Have fun with the kiddos tonight! And thank you for coming today, it really meant a lot to me  I send back, hoping to make things sound normal.
Anytime, let's see each other again soon. Okay? he asks and I can tell he's waiting earnestly for a response.Â
Okay. This time at The Blue Pearl so we can say 'Hi' to Rae. I miss her :(Â Â IÂ say, hoping that he won't take that as a way of me keeping him from coming over when I really do miss Rae.Â
The Pearl it is! Goodnight Noona he says, ending the conversation early tonight, no doubt having a lot to do to manage three kids for the night.Â
Goodnight Jungkook I send and close my laptop, vowing to do as I had agreed upon and take the rest of the day to take care of myself.Â
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HII ID LUV TO COME TO THE SLUMBER PARTYYY im bringing my favourite book and we can watch a rom com! after that we can play truth or dare and roblox!! with oikawa plsđ«¶đ»đ«¶đ»đ
(also congrats on 100 followers!!!!<3)



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oikawa x reader ; wc 1.4k
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disclaimer i am basing this off my experiences as a british high schooler okay
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the final term of the school year was always the most busy. the entire school was filled with anticipation as the summer holidays were just around the corner, and the event calendar was bursting at its seams with different events planned: sports day, school festivals, and arguably the most important one depending on the high-schooler youâre talking to: prom.
now that there was just 2 weeks to the event, it was all anyone could talk about. there was, of course, all the drama surrounding prom dates as wellâ you hadnât been a part of it because, well, you werenât really in touch with the girls in your class. that being said, you werenât really in touch with anyone in your class except for your best friend, that is.
ever since primary school, youâve been on more of the reserved, quiet side; which has grown with you up till now. it wasnât that you were disliked, noâ it was just that people were⊠a little intimidated by your cold outward demeanour. despite that, there were still some guys here and there who asked you out, which obviously you refused immediately- who would go with a guy theyâve never known to prom?
but right now, you found yourself being hit on by some random guy in the year above. he was more aggressive, even being bold enough to grab you by the wrist. anyone walking past could easily tell you were feeling growingly more uncomfortable as the time passed.
âcome on! donât you want to look cool, with a prom date from the year above?â he was staring into your eyes while talking.
your eyes tried to find something else to look at.
âuh.. i think iâm alright-â
âoh, lies! iâm not passing on a beauty like you, let me just take you out to prom!â he inched closer to you.
you saw someone walking by. out of desperation, you quickly locked eyes with them and hoped they got your message.
the guy looked back to see if anyone was there. to his surprise, there wasâ the schoolâs prince charming, oikawa tooru.
the two of you were vastly different. he was like the lead of an american high-school drama, and if this was a movie, you were probably the shy, quiet girl who gets a massive makeover.
he smiled at you, and then looked at the other guy with a feigned smile. âexcuse me, could you get away from.. my girlfriend? i donât think sheâs enjoying yourâŠâ oikawa gave him a knowing look. the guy stepped back. he stammered. âwell, if you had a boyfriend, you shouldâve just said!â he chuckled nervously before running off.
it was an understatement to say you were confused. you were utterly dumbfounded.
because as far as you were aware, oikawa was definitely NOT your boyfriend. heck, you didnât even have a boyfriend.
surely you were dreaming, you thought. why would someone like him say that about someone like you? after pinching yourself, you concluded you were not in a dream, but some very strange, movie-esque version of reality.
the rest of the day was a hazy whirlpool of events as well; after the incident oikawa pulled you away from prying eyes and after many apologies, began to explain: he needed you to be his girlfriend for prom. all his friends had dates, and he didnât want to look like a⊠well, a loser. to be honest, being able to go to prom with oikawa as your date, even if it was just pretending, was like winning the lottery.
and so began the beginning of you and the school heartthrobâs (fake) relationship.
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prom was tomorrow.
you had everything ready, you even went shopping with oikawa to get matching colours. it felt so different being in the spotlight all the time, and it was definitely a big change for you, but somehow the two of you managed to pull it offâ actually, it didnât come as a surprise to you, oikawa made it all seem so believable. he was so sweet to you, even when it was just the two of you, there was a small part of you that wanted all this to be real, for him to actually be your boyfriend.
prom was tomorrow. prom was tomorrow, and oikawa currently found himself panicking in his room, speed dialling iwaizumi in a moment of frenzy.
as soon as he picked up the phoneâ
âoikawa what the hell do you want.â iwaizumiâs annoyed tone carried over the phone.
oikawa took a deep breath out. âi think i like [name].â
iwaizumi took a few seconds to reply. ââŠwhat? sheâs your girlfriend, i sure hope you like her..â he sounded confused. oikawa suddenly realised, he hadnât told anyone about his⊠situation.
he explained the whole story to iwaizumi. at the end, all iwaizumi did was laugh.
âyou two arenât dating?? what the heck man,â after his laughter died down, he added, âjust ask her out! thereâs no way sheâd say no!â oikawa paused. what did that mean? did you like him? he was always under the impression that you were only doing it to do popular; but now that the possibility that all the effort he was putting into subtly showing you how much he like you may be mutual entered his mindâ how could he pass up on an opportunity like this?
since the terms for your relationship basically ended tomorrow, he decided to take a gamble and ask you out after prom tomorrow.
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it was prom night. the two of you were outside the venue, trying to decide on what to do when you enter.
âiâm saying we should hold hands!â you tried to yell discreetly.
âbut weâd look like middle schoolers! no one would believe us!â oikawa argued.
âokay, then what should we do?â you said, crossing your arms.
âi donât know, like hold onto my arm or something!â
âwhat? like this?â you stiffly put your arm around his.
oikawa looked at his arm, then began to open the door, sighing dramatically. âwhatever, letâs go.â you laughed at his antics.
scanning the room, you looked at the other couples to see what they were doing as you walked in.
âoh my god we look so fake..â you whispered into oikawaâs ear.
âcome closer then!â he whisper-yelled back. you did as he asked and stepped a little closer. not long after, you were approached by one of oikawaâs friends.
âhey, oikawa!â he waved cheerfully at him, then at you.
oikawa laughed a little. âhi, makki! whereâs your girlfriend? dâya lose her already?â
âiâm not that bad! sheâs over there, with her friends,â makki laughed and pointed to some girl in the distance. oikawa nodded.
âso, oikawa, howâs your girl?â makki turned to look at you.
you and oikawa looked at each other.
you could feel makkiâs eyes on you; your mind went blank.
âoh- uh, iâm good,â you replied; and then you felt oikawa nudge your side with his elbow. hard. you squinted your eyes at him.
makki obviously looked a little awkward, so he gave the two of you a quick wave and ran off.
âwhat the hell was that about!â oikawa looked at you.
âi got nervous okay!â
oikawa started mocking you. âoh- uhhhhh, im good! uhhhhhhh,â
âi do NOT sound like that!â
âhave you heard yourself? yes you do!â
â
the rest of the night went smoothly, you got to have fun not only with your friend but also with oikawaâs rather large friend group. they all commented on your dress and how it looked gorgeous, which mad oikawa stare at you with a very obvious i-told-you face, as he was the one who chose it.
i could get used to this, you thought. but soon, the sky grew dark, the night came to a close, and the two of you were walking home together. you had originally planned to walk home alone, but he was determined to walk you home.
â[name].â oikawa called to you. you turned around to face him. somehow, he still looked good even under the dim lighting of the nearby lampposts.
âi know that our⊠relationship has been pretending up till now,â he looked at you earnestly.
âbut id like to change thatâ if you donât mind. can i take you out on a proper date tomorrow?â
notes thank you so much for requesting!! first post iâm so excited for more requests to come in!! love you all <33
#twishaâs 100 follower slumber party!#oikawa x reader#oikawa tooru x reader#oikawa tooru#haikyuu#haikyuu x reader#oikawa haikyuu#haikyuu fic#twishaâs an author !#anime
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Rub A Dub Dub, Astartes in the tub 2/2
It's a face alright. His hair is black, relatively short and fully slicked back, whether with product or grease, remains to be seen. His whole face is in sharp lines and angles, starting from a prominent widow's peak and thick, low-set brows, to the high cheekbones and a glass-cutting square jaw. Tall, narrow nose, slightly crooked from having been broken in the past. Deep gash scars running down the side of his face and across his lips, distorting their shape into a permanent one-sided snarling grimace.
As expected, he looks like his skin never sees the sun and his eyes are deep set, boasting some dark circles a crunching game developer would envy him for. He looks up at me with inky eyes, holding his helmet under his arm and I know better than to focus on his scars so I just smile at him: "See? I was right! Adorable!" Of course that's not the word anyone would normally use for this face. He's handsome in a terrifying, almost uncanny valley way. And he's also clearly battered, and clearly not too young, if the deep lines between his brows are anything to go by. But he looks up at me with something akin to hope in those dark eyes and I can't help but feel endeared. Even the way he snarls at my compliment and kicks idly at the air is adorable. "Alright, keep going, I'll soak your armor in this while we bathe you, and then we'll scrub it, deal?" I show him a yellow plastic tub I normally use for Prince when he wants to cool down in the summer. I have now filled it with hot soapy water and two capfuls of skunk deodorizer and he nods in agreement. It turns out Strix' body is no less scarred than his face. Gashes, burn scars, punctures, and scars I can't even identify are littered all over him, along with those metal jacks and notches Astartes all have. Once he removes his gauntlets and boots, I see he's missing two toes and one finger. He's avoiding looking at me while he undresses, and helps me soak his armor in the soapy water, but once he's finally naked, he stands there, looking rather uncomfortable. I apply a generous amount of shampoo on a sponge and take the showerhead: "Alright, ready?" He merely huffs and before I know it, he's jumping and stealing the sponge from me, shaking his head stubbornly when I reach for it. Alright, he refuses to let me scrub him. Fine by me. I merely start the water and offer him the spray to step under: "Is it too hot?" He shakes his head. "Too cold?" Another shake of the head. He gets himself wet and then starts going to town with the soapy sponge. It soon gets brown. There's dust and sweat and grime all over this Astartes. "You're going to have to become better at hygiene if you wanna live with us, you know." He huffs grumpily but keeps scrubbing. I have to nearly pry the sponge out of his hands so that it gets rinsed and freshly soaped. That reminds me to check on the plastic tub and switch out the fully black water for a fresh soapy soak. Turns out I do it two more times before the water is acceptably clean. By that time, Strix has scrubbed himself truly clean and now looks much better. I spy his dirty nails and pass him a brush. There's a brief war of fake naive gaze versus my unrelenting one but he finally concedes and starts scrubbing under his grown claws on both hands and feet:
"Those need a trim." He snickers before tossing the brush aside once he's done. I give him a nice warm spray of water to rinse himself under and then a clean small towel I normally use for hands. He looks at it a bit perplexed.
"It's to dry yourself. You can even wrap yourself in it if you'd like." He hastily dries his hair and most of his body but then points at the tub with his armor, handing me the brush back. "Oh you want me to scrub your armor, sir?" I tease and he huffs again, grabbing the undergarments from the tub and starting to rub them against the soap bar vigorously. Surprisingly, we get through the scrubbing of his armor easily enough. It requires multiple rounds but it's not complicated work, and he would often tap me on my wrist and point out stuff I do wrong. Once we are finally finished, there are all his armor pieces drying on the towel and there is a clean, odorless Astartes swaying on the balls of his feet and fidgeting, staring at me. I almost ask him what he wants before I realize:
"You'll get your cuddles once you wrap yourself in a towel, mister!"
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