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witchyfemmee · 14 days ago
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the complexity of my mind is truly astonishing.
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valeffelees · 1 month ago
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chronic "i need to talk about the character so bad i'm going to die" sickness. if hanahaki was real i'd be choking on flowers over a fictional loser nobody else likes. undead brain worms eating me alive from the inside-out not unlike the hole in the apple that doesn't come from outside-in bc it's eaten from the core and out to the skin and that's why you never find the worm in it
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nomairuins · 4 months ago
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i am okay tho i just have momeys sometimrs . please do not ever worry abt me guys
#i rly rly rly appreciate any asks u guys send me truly i usually hold onto then bc i dont know how to respond and rheyre good to see#sometimes#but im not in any danger i rly am. safe. i have a lot of things keeping me from doing That so. i am safe. dw.#i just get sad a lot. and its my fault i need 2 judt stop it and suck it uo and Work on it all but its so. insurmountable. and it judt#doesnt get easier yk. it never does. whatsver.#but. anyways i am safe i am okif it got to the point i was like. fearful for my life thatd either be The delusion (which is actually good#for me i cant explain it but its good for me) or i coulf talk to my family abt it and theyd help#i just cant talk to them abt This. stuff. the like. the being broken stuff and just not being right#i cant talk to any of them abt that. but if i said hey im genuinely faarful i miggjt do something they would um. help. so its okay#idk. i hope the posts dont seem like i make them for pity i rly dont this blog is just my stream of consciousness#ik i just shouldnt post them and i should judtkeeo a diary but i dont um. how to explain thid#even if nobody sees it it feels better to make a tumblr post bc then it feels like. a performance i guess. its not its real but its like#if i put it somewhere other ppl can see it then that means i exist. thats not quite right but i dont know how to articulate like#i dont nexessarily want ppl to see them i find it embarassing i guess. but it feels dishonest to not post them#since i post everything else. bc i like being open online it makes me think im real. does that make sense#and there are timestamps so i know when things happen. thsts modtly how i remember things#is looking at my blog and checking dates and timestamps. and for older stuff i have to check my dms with ykw. which. is not good for.me at#all. but ihave no other way to remember dayes#i dont know. im rly sry i hate podting vents but i dont like deleting posts eithrr so j dont know oike. idk.#just idk know they arent like. They are serious they are how i feel and i usually make them ehen im in distress#but its not dangerous distress i judt get hopeless. yk? i dont wanr anybody to worry abt me ever im not supposed to be a burden#i dont knoe. i havent articulated anything well. basicallt i dont do rhem for attention i dont do them for like. guilttripping or pity#i dont rly do them for any reason other than irs pure word vomit. i suppose. and tumblr is my wordvomit website. i judt get on here and yap#and it makes me feel so much worse but i get better eventually so its fine.
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winwintea · 4 months ago
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HI MY LOVE I MISSED YOU 😞
how have you been? you got missing for two days and i started barking like a feral dog 😓
but JAY MY MAN DIED???? WHY HOW??? WHAT ABOUT ADOPTING ME :((
i honestly get you though i keep getting busy too idk how you manage to update every single day???? just know i'm in awe, on my knees fr fr
oh btw, ykw i was thinking of making my tumblr debut😈 like on the studyblr side of the tumblr, but unlike my anon self i'm very shy irl🫦
ANYWAYS, I'M SO HAPPY YOURE BACK I MISSED YOU SM, LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU MWAH MWAH
-🍑👋🏻
OMG MY ANON MY LOVE !!!! i was so swamped and busy yes, even yesterday me and friends went to go see the new deadpool and wolverine movie (which was so so good everyone should go check it out)
JAY ADOPT YOU???? that’s my man… /hj hello 😭😭😭 what
I TRY MY BEST 😭😭 i want to keep people entertained and not wait on cliffhangers bc like i know as a reader how like…. it will drive me insane
ANON DEBUT??? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN 😭😭
so i give y’all 24 hours to ponder a cliffhanger
I MISSED YOU TOO OMG 😭😭
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fkinavocado · 3 months ago
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Idgaf about my prompt. I am happy that I somehow managed to make you want to write a bit. Ik you've been struggling quite a bit, thanks for still taking out time to write this beautiful update. Loved it. Love thinking about my DI babies. Glad that I joined Tumblr, came across your page and read this fic. Ykw? Initially for a few months in 2021 everyone on my dash used to reblog this fic with #ficrec and idk why I didn't read it until I actually did 😭 now I can't move on from this, I don't even want to accept that it's a completed fic. Thank God the concept of check in exists. Sorry I am a toxic lover I can't let it go lol
ahahahha omg hun that's the last thing you should be feeling sorry for! i know ppl lost interest cuz i takes ages to update and it's been literally years since I've started this fic but ppl like you are the ones i write it for still! ❤️ it's reaching 300k reads on wattpad actually, to a lot of ppl it's new, but it's just not the same as here ❤️
you don't know how much your kind words mean to me🥺❤️ yes i've been struggling a lot and it's way harder for me to write now than it used to be. thank you for understanding and being patient with me wnd supporting my love project for alll this time❤️
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blooming-cecilia · 2 years ago
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they'll end when you want me to shut up bc bestie when i tell u i have too many thoughts,
I AM SO SORRY ,,, THATS SO PAINFUL
ngl i am in constant fear that tumblr would crash on me when i do these ramble essays bc one time i was rambling in the tags (as usual) and the app froze and crashed on me 😭😭
i need the good memory too ngl ,, albedo mind sharing some
ykw. i would actually not mind doing the venti abyss every single phase if it meant i could see more sides of venti, get a lil bit of crumb with every floor cleared
and yes! apart from the irodori festival, it's just. written all over him and you can see it in all his lines and the way he carries himself. he's wise, and while i believe that his age certainly helps with that, i personally think that him being a listener also contributes to it!
he has a good moral compass, and his beliefs and values allow him to be open minded and empathetic towards others. he understands that every individual has depths in them, their own abyss, similar to his own and he's just. generally such a good guy. such a wonderful character with so many complexities
im trying my best to explain how i see venti and even then it's so hard LOL
and yes he definitely, definitely, worries a lot about opening up. it's not even just about the archon/immortal status anymore—though that by itself has A LOT of issues that he worries about when it comes to you.
my guy knows that he's fucked up in the head, the long years tend to do that to someone after all, and he worries about his own traumas affecting you and scaring you away,,
he wants, more than anything, to fully give himself to you. i think it's what he'll crave the most out of a relationship (romantic/platonic). to have you know him as well as he knows you. wants you to be able to trust him with everything, because he wants to be there for you in any way that he can.
and he knows that you would do so too, for venti the bard, in a heartbeat.
but can the same be said for barbatos, god of freedom, wind and song?
and even if you did know of his identity, should you find something unpleasant about him that changes how you thought of everything you've ever known... will you still stay by his side then? would you still dare to stand beside him, head held up high towards the rest of the world, and hold his hand in yours, just as you always have?
and uhhhh i'm not quite sure i have him 100% down either,, ms luna definitely helped fuel my own thoughts of venti too, but theres still times when i just go ???? over what he would maybe do JEJDJJA
i just try my best to stick to his character when i think about him in romantic situations, but i'll be glad to share my own two cents with you on whatever venti loving topic hehe
YES YES YESSS the domesticity in that audio is so gooood,, but im fond of that one for the dancing part of it. im weak for scenes like that in general, but it makes me melt everytime because it's the theme for the windblume festival,,
windblume is a special festival for me for many reasons but the top reason is bc i came back to playing genshin in that patch and also got venti (at a very low price too, i was surprised to see 32 pity when i checked with the wish counter :0)!!
okay see the thing is i listened to that reverse comfort first on the playlist when i was going to bed last night but now that im trying to remember it again all of it evaporated from my brain 🤡??
(our galaxy brains connecting for that trio of audios 🤝)
and dw that's a mood 😭,, idk how im still playing genshin daily 2 years in but sometimes i rlly do just wanna put it down sometimes bc nothing is happening anyway!!! so why do i keep playing.
AND AAAH IM GLAD!!! that you have fellow friends who understand the joys of self shipping AND you're all into genshin <33
my own yume friends only really have genshin as side interests or isnt as stupidly obsessed as i am so thats why i turned to tumblr 😭
u are so correct hes a walking green flag, literally don't under anyone who hates him when HES SO GOOD
(and uh in case u are genuinely confused, my friend only thought i was into like a character w questionable morals bc i made kind of a huge deal, hiding who i liked by redacting their name when id talk about it on the tl, but no im just shy about ppl knowing literally anything i like wjhdjsn,, the whole thing was really silly when i think about it 😭)
playful affectionate fights are a staple in your daily life with venti, you hardly go a single day without lightheartedly "fighting" over something silly!!
i just think that venti would always make sure to have one fun thing you two do today, even if its you two "fighting" over who gets the last slice of cake when you both know you'll end up sharing and maybe even feeding each other anyway. he just adores playing around like this, to have you both just be carefree even for that moment. it's just his favorite way to bond with you <3
YEAH IT DOES, but i cant remember if he just kisses you and you can just magically breathe underwater or he kisses you and makes some sort of bubble around your head so u can still breathe. either way mermaid venti kisses you, what more could u want in life /j
maybe this is also a good time to mention that he's a mermaid prince in it~?
pleaaase, he'd pop his foot everytime he kisses you, it's like he just can't contain himself from feeling so tingly that his body reacts to it
and uhh maybe a cute lil hc i just thought of is that he would literally float off the ground when you two kiss. the first couple times you two ever kiss, it'd be really unexpected. you're here kissing him, eyes closed and you feel him moving and you try to follow but can't—so you open your eyes to question why he keeps moving away only to find him floating off the ground in front of you and a bashful look on his face. it took him a minute to calm down and get his feet back on the ground.
and so you end up having to hold onto him better, maybe your arms around his waist, to keep him from floating. he's gotten better at it, but it just never stops no matter how long you two have been dating. especially if you take him by surprise. he's still very much in love with you and your kisses will always make him feel like he's high up in the clouds!
literally he's snow white PLSSS
that boy wants a disney worthy happily ever after and who am i to deny him that! if he wants me to come save him because he choked on an apple, id come to him in a prince outfit, riding the prettiest white horse mondstadt does Not have. i would do it, watch me /j
THAT ANGST VISION. YOU HAVE SUCH A BIG BRAIN
he would. everytime. he just cant ever stay seriously mad at you. i kind of think that he doesnt really like being mad or feeling any negative emotions anyway (or i might just be projecting ¯\_(ツ)_/¯).
so instead, he'll wrap it up quick and he'll promise himself to watch out for you better. he'll try his best to wake up earlier than you to prepare breakfast, give massages more to soothe those tense muscles after a long day.
if you're in his city, he'll have the winds take care of you—he likely has given you some sort of blessing at this point— and have them immediately tell him if something's wrong. he's always listening, so a single pained yelp coming from you and you'll immediately find him materializing by your side, ready to take down whatever it is that dared to hurt you—
.....only to find out you stubbed your toe.
so true. miss luna is just a genius. she throws a feast in every audio release honestly.
OH YEAH HE DOES!!! i think venti in general tends to memorize things easily in addition to him being flexible, so he definitely has it all in the bag. meanwhile you'll be standing there with your nerves eating you alive as you clutch the small piece of paper (even now at your own wedding, he still bests you, confidence—and affection, you reluctantly admit— rolling off of him in waves. on your own wedding day! the audacity).
(the priest is there going ?!?!?!!?! but everyone else, most especially your family and friends, are no longer surprised. they should've expected this actually.)
all the req ideas on luna’s livestream is driving me insane
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velvet-coalmine · 3 years ago
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A few of you guys tagged me in this and im super late ahh sorry!!! But im still down to do this. thank you for tagging me!
1. Why did you choose your url? It's a Bowie reference! His song, Velvet Goldmine is great and it's pleasant sounding, even if it is a cheeky tune about how good his partners mouth/ass/vag is lmao.
2. Any side blogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them. Nope. I only have this one. When I had tmblr years ago I used to have multiple blogs for different vibes and one main blog with no theme
3. How long have you been on tumblr? Lordt i don't even know. On and off ever since I was 13? So 10 years?
4. Do you have a queue tag? Nah should I?
5. Why did you start your blog in the first place? To find AC Valhalla content! I, admittedly, don't share many interests with my old friends anymore. They're not into the music culture im into or play the video games I do. Ever since I stopped engaging with the anime community, a drift has occurred and that's ok! i started this blog just to find friends with common interests.
6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp? Look at him, he's gorgeous.
7. Why did you choose your header? On mobile? Cause Eivor be thinkin about dick. And ykw bitch me too
8. What’s the post with the most notes? Screencaps I took of Eivor stretching in a pretty Ireland flower field
9. How many mutuals do you have? Maybe around 15? I'm not sure ahhh
10. How many followers do you have? 57!
11. How many people do you follow? 52!
12. Have you ever made a shitpost? Lmao yes. Particularly the one about his top lip
13. How often do you use tumblr each day? It varies! Some days I'll forget to check at all. and others Ill scroll though 3x a day. Since I don't follow too many people rn, I don't have many new posts showing up daily.
14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won? No one off anon. When I was younger I had a cosplay blog and my stalker at the time went to anon to start shit and yeahhh I won that.
15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts? I mean... ehhh they're kinda annoying tbh. I don't see those posts since I recently started this blog, but in the past I've seen them and felt obligated even when it wasn't a big deal. sorta like chain letters. Just annoying i guess
16. Do you like tag games? Yes! I love them. I just took so long to do this one cause I wanted to get to my computer to do it. I prefer to do extensive typing shit on the laptop rather than Tumblr mobile.
17. Do you like asks games? YUP! They're fun!
WHERES 18?
19. Do you have a crush on a mutual? Nah. This blog is too new and I take a hell of a long time to form crushes on people. If i did I'd never tell either soooo
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