#yikes I gotta tend to my ask blog

[insufferable-talkstuck]

hey callie (if that's your name), i hope you don't mind me submitting an entire essay of sorts so that you could, you know, classpect me. i've seen the stuff you've been posting here on this blog of yours, and i can't help but like it. so uhhh, let the trauma dumping begin, i guess? i'll try not to take this too far, so i'll give you something more palatable to read. if i do, feel free to call me out for it like you did over mentions of politics that other people did.

so...how would i describe myself as a person?

dude, i wish you had a format like a list of questions or something. is this dumb for me to complain about because by being this open-ended, you're giving other people the choice to say what they want to, with those choices ultimately providing a subtle kind of information that may or may not make your readings/analyses more accurate? probably. am i going to complain about it anyway? well, i just did, even though i'm not usually one to actively complain. that translates to absolutely, by the way. all this text is just a transcript for my thoughts while writing this. no wonder this has gotten out of hand so quickly. but look on the bright side: there's more for you to analyse. fuck yeah to that. :)

back to the question: one thing i can say about myself is that i go on tangents and can get sidetracked easily (see the above paragraph for explicit proof). i'm also a very secretive person, especially in regards to my problems and my inner world. when it comes to that, i can't help but feel like i understand them better than how the external world works. to compensate for this lack of understanding, i tend to, figuratively speaking, wear different hats depending on the situation. usually, im quiet and lay low as i keep an eye on what goes on around me, which i attempt to grasp by myself. other times, i do the exact opposite when i feel like i'm supposed to, mostly in attempts to get others to like me. i'm either too much or too little for the people around me to deal with. hell, i guess i could say i'm wearing a different hat right now through the way i'm typing in this ask, and that's mostly because i'm that fucking terrified of being able to be identified via typing style alone even if i'm anonymous. a person's gotta cover their tracks while admitting personal shit, you know?

so to cope with the fact that i find it hard to make friends due to all this, i've gotten used to isolating myself and being self-reliant, to the point where i straight up pretend to be stoic, cold, and boring to talk to out of well, a lot of things. these things include how i'm constantly terrified of social interaction, i'm afraid of hurting other people through whatever shitty choices and words i decide to make or say, and i can't help but feel worthless all the goddamn time. it even goes to the point where i tell myself that i should be so proud to be so "independent and badass" as a motivator to keep getting away with this despite having this deep, contradictory craving to have meaningful interpersonal relationships in my life, which i tell myself is stupid and that any attempts i make at it are bound to be a waste of time and effort to avoid dealing with it all together. and i suppose that also makes me a hypocrite by default. that's a big yikes on my part.

i also guess that according to some people i used to know, there's a side of me that can be best described as sassy, blunt, with a disposition of innocence and sunshine. i mean, i'm probably being incredibly sassy while typing this all out, aren't i? (which is intentional) if you find it hilarious (like some of my friends did), then i'm glad to hear that the interspersed shenanigans i've been pulling as i prose on endlessly about my flaws have made someone laugh. however, i don't fully buy my sunny, pure disposition as part of who i am as i can't help but feel that only developed as a way to avoid conflict, especially by preventing any sign of my problems and stress from leaking into the day-to-day conversations i had with them at the time. however, there were occasions where both my positive and/or negative emotions got so overwhelming to deal with that i accidentally snapped in front of them. even though i try to prevent those kinds of occasions from happening at all, i regret every single time i lose my composure like that without meaning to due to how i felt rejected every time i did that. and well, in my eyes, rejection scares the everloving shit out of me as well.

i've also been described as a "robot" and a "cryptid" on previous occasions and well, i don't entirely know how to feel about those kinds of descriptors. but i'm not complaining about it because being any of those things sounds badass to me when trying to be positive about it.

so yeah, i'd say that im a person that's damn good at usually playing the role of a stone-cold, sassy hardass with nothing interesting to offer beyond that while wishing it were the truth.

and well, i feel like i've talked enough about myself to feel the need to not mention anything else, so that's where i'll end this. like, i'm usually private about my interests, especially the ones i'm the most emotionally invested im (which can go to the point where I lie about them out of embarassment) and my aspriations in life are something along the lines of "i want to do all this cool shit, but i realistically don't have the energy for all that and worrying about what other people need from me is more important anyway."

hope you got something out of all of this. it was nice for me to type it out, even if all i did was talk about myself. but that's the point, right? and hopefully, i don't regret saying any of this. sorry if this was a long one to read, i hope that doesn't bother you too much.

Witch of heart

my name is Calliope, on this blog, nicknames are appreciated tho i find them sweet.

ah hem, you must excuse me, i am a little rusty, for i have not classpected in a while. But i "tried" my "best" here so take it however you will

you managed to talk about yourself while also avoiding talking about yourself. people majorly view themselves as.. a collection of titles, a community they're members in, interests, morals and their overall attitude twords the world. but you only talked about personality, which is certainly a rare case. No music or art that you're into? do you sit infront of a mirror all day and pass your time on..... self reflection ? you did say your interests are private so, maybe they're too private for even the classpect blog to know. how sad

i assigned you a witch of heart because, you're certainly a steriotypical heart player, from the way you're speaking. i do think I could manage assigning you a blood player with more information... perhaps hit my inbox again soon.

i struggled a bit for the class but then it was obvious, you change heart, you manipulate it to your given situation you put on a... hat. ( why did you say a hat of all things? )

✷ sometimes i add in a little bonus when the answer is too short, my guilt is practically eating me alive for responding with such a short classpecting sesh to such a big ask, but you did use a whole bunch of words to talk about nothing so, not exactly in my pay range to fix my reply, I will say i think you're the first person I don't think I could find a moon for, you could go either side but not in the sollux way, just in the: I think it took you way too long to wake up way

[why-this-kolaveri-machi]

i’m an idiot. i screw everything up.

Titans 3.03

still here, still doing this. these reviews take a fair bit of time that i cobble together across days (like, ten minute chunks during breaks, etc) and i tend to struggle to keep up with episodes as they come out. this means that by the time i’m done with one, most of my stuff is jossed (or geoffed in this case? idk) or outdated and the post sinks like a stone into oblivion. so! i’m going to change things up a bit with this one and write as i see the episode rather than collecting my thoughts later. in my experience with spn, that was a faster way to get them done. 

anyway. let’s see how it goes! *shadowboxes*

SPOILERS ahead.

1. an auspicious start with some grave-digging!

digging up a grave and breaking open a coffin is some serious, back-breaking work--that dick did it on his own, likely straight after that fight with red hood, is a testament to the sheer intensity, stamina and discipline that he’s capable of. like, we like to joke about dick cooking cauliflower crust pizzas and making gar and rachel spar and memorise sun tzu--and despair at the obvious consequences of some of bruce’s parenting skills--but imagine crime-fighting almost daily without any superpowers, performing some of the most intense parkour in bulky, uncomfortable armour, doing detective work, pushing through every last barrier of exhaustion and then getting up to repeat it all over again the next day. dick probably thought he was going extra-easy on rachel and gar.

1.5. then again, dick probably had a hundred different easier ways to confirm whether jason was still buried or not, from using equipment to merely asking connor to have a quick look with his x-ray vision. but, no, he’s too caught up in confusion and terror, not really having come to terms with jason’s death in the first place, leave alone the possibility that he could be alive after all. he can��t possibly let the others know until he’s confirmed it himself, even if it means digging all through the night until his arms are jelly, thinking over and over again about jason’s eyes, jason’s voice, from behind that red mask. 

... besides, dick has good reason to believe that he could’ve been hallucinating. wouldn’t be his first psychotic episode, after all.

that just imbues this sweaty, desperate, fingers-scrabbling-in-gravedirt scene with that much more poignancy, and a fair bit of bone-chilling terror. dick is horrified to realise that jason’s grave is empty, but a part of him is also probably relieved.

1.75 (... also it’s curious that we’re never shown any of the team asking to see jason’s grave after they come to wayne manor. i guess it’s because the writers--and the audience--know that jason is actually alive, but these people don’t know that. i don’t know if it’s sad or infuriating or both that they’re barely shown mourning him.)

2. oh GOD the sheer TENSION in kory saying, “i don’t want to say it, but--” and dick quickly interrupting, “it was jason. i saw him,” and hank giving him this loaded sidelong glance. i love how dick’s precarious mental health from last season is still this big elephant in the room but at least nobody’s blowing up in his face and questioning his every decision yet

2.25. i love the relative matter-of-factness with which they’re discussing a possible resurrection. and, of course, ra’s al ghul is brought up and quickly dismissed

(still wouldn’t put it past this show to bring him up at the very last second as the real real mastermind)

2.5. “maybe they can bring donna back” OH KORY

2.75. didn’t they have this same conversation about killing/not killing rose last season? man, the og titans make me tired.

and i don’t know if it’s just hank, but there’s a definite in-group/out-group vibe going on with the og titans, where they’re not only ready to consider killing anybody who threatens the group but makes it difficult for new people to fit in. donna and kory got along well with each other, but the dynamics between hank/donna/dawn and gar/rachel/rose were somewhat strained, and with jason, they were really fucking terrible. it makes sense when you think about how the titans started and how they broke up the first time--both were fairly disruptive events, i’d imagine, in that they probably got together to break away from their mentors and strike out on their own, and when they split up, it was the first time they felt directly responsible for the loss of an innocent life.

but the titans that dick is leading now is explicitly about mentoring a young generation of heroes, about second chances and found family. dick definitely wants to reach out to him first, and i have a feeling he’s going to be forced to make some sort of terrible Choice later on in this episode. 

2.8. (honestly tho, this also seems like hank struggling with his own guilt re: jason; if red hood is not the kid that he failed, it’d be easier to fight him.)

3.

HANK NO

4. honestly this season is already ticking off so many things on my wishlist, but i really wish dick would sit down with the newer members of his team and trust them with important information the same time that he’s telling them to the other members. gar searching for help and reassurance from a man who just dumped all of his responsibilities on his son overnight and went AWOL is a sad sight

4.25. has it only been just 48 hours????? wow! jason’s definitely been planning the red hood gig for a long time now...

5. ezekiel, my man! shady looking guy gets into your cab without a destination in mind... no problem, get right in! said guy gets a call to go to the observatory when he’s barely even looked out of the window so far at gotham... yep, a damn tourist! i want more ezekiel in this show.

5.25. (of course jason has upturned table lamps all along the floor... we have to *gritted teeth* balance the TEAL with the ORANGE don’t we?)

5.5. “dick’s a fucking psycho--he could be following you right now.” hank... has no objection to that lol

5.25. hank, hank... this is bad-decision-palooza. i can’t imagine that hank actually thought that jason was reaching out to him for help, given that the last time hank and jason had any substantial interaction hank had been one of the people accusing jason of sabotaging the team. but for him to go seek out jason and go along with his demands without any backup, weapons or equipment? not the best idea he’s ever come up with.

(add to that getting into the swimming pool of a condemned gym... oh yuck.)

((yes, i have enough self-restraint to not cap his ass.))

(((cap his ass! HA!)))

5.5. do you think jason has bugs/monitoring equipment planted in wayne manor to monitor the titans, or remote access to the cave’s systems? wouldn’t put it past him.

6. oh man, hank came back before dick and the others could meet ezekiel! this is TRAGIC

6.25. i mean, it’s plot-convenient that connor was able to give so much information about the bomb from just looking at it once, but i also like to think it’s the luthor-side of him coming to the fore. it also reminds me of that (in)famous scene from the new52 run of Nightwing comics, where a bomb was attached to nightwing’s heart and luthor disabled it by killing nightwing (temporarily). it’s a neat little callback. 

6.55. “where i come from, you go after family? there’s no mercy.” BUT THAT’S THE PROBLEM ISN’T IT

6.75. i mean, dick’s making sense: this is a game, and they need to get it off playing out on jason’s terms. but having a member of his team in his face, doubting his reasoning and every decision? a very familiar sight. 

6.8. krypto with an a+ sense of humour? also a very familiar sight.

7. wayne enterprises... providing the military with... bombs that can be implanted in humans? a BIIIIG yikes. i guess it’s not too many steps above developing clandestine intra-dermal trackers and implanting them in your own sons, and bruce probably thought they could be used as part of negotiation tactics, but still... YIKES.

7.5. on the other hand, conner being asked to build a deactivation advice seems part of a growth arc that started from last season... he knows so much, but part of growing is learning, and part of learning is using what you know to create something new.

8. oh man, my heart broke at hank going “i’m an idiot... i screw everything up.” like. for him to go like this, after being brought down to such a low last season? struggling with pain and addiction and his relationship with the love of his life? it’s so sad.

9. oh, oh, oh! ronnie from schitt’s creek! i love her!

9.5. “one of jason’s minions” took his body out of the morgue... how deliciously morbid that he planned out his own death like this!

10. TALK TO HANK, DICK

honestly, tho, i’m quite impressed with dick here. trying to think beyond just the most alarming part of the crisis at hand, keeping his cool, delegating tasks, frequently touching base with different members of his team... well done. 

10.25.... whoops, spoke too soon. i’m genuinely confused here, tho. where did the van full of gold bars come from? why did they stop there and get out? how did dawn even know about this?

on the other hand, it’s cool to know dove has bulletproof feathers!

10.5. eh... curran walters isn’t really selling red hood’s menace to me so far. but then again, if titans version of red hood is vulnerable-kid-with-father-issues-trying-to-overcompensate, then yeah! yeah, it makes sense. 

11. “when bats have sex, they gotta have something to hang from” OH GOD HANK

... because i want smiley!gar on my blog :)

11.5. awww. i feel sorry for hank but NONE of these fuckers deserve gar except maybe kory

12. ohhh FUCK! look at jason being exactly one step ahead of the titans at every turn. nice.

no really, i love the building stakes and the building mystery - i feel like the deathstroke arc from last season should’ve been more like this. the flashbacks about jericho and rose came too late and after too much build up, which resulted in a very underwhelming and confusing season throughline.

13. HANK AND DIIIIIICCCKKK

“you’re doing your best by me. always have.” WAILING HERE

it also kills me to think that hank thinks that his imminent death is because of his failure to keep the team together (when he was clearly struggling with his own issues and was spiralling towards rock-bottom) and his fear that he will once again be the cause of the team falling apart. 

also:

14. “i grew up... you can, too. you just have to face your fear.”

yep, got scarecrow’s grubby little fingerprints aaaaalllll over this. 

14.25. nightwing’s got specialised batarangs! yay! (somehow i can’t see this universe’s dick calling them “wingdings”)

15. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

oh man, that was devastating. well done, show. fuck, well done, jason.

this is going to bring up all sorts of “if onlys” for the team. i can’t wait for some fucking aftermath. 

[watchingspnagain]

Rewatching The Benders

Welcome to “Daaang and Yikes: A Supernatural Rewatch Blog” with Lor and Mace!

 Up today, s1e15: The Benders

  The boys investigate an area where a lot of people tend to disappear. They're not convinced it's their kind of job, but then Sam gets...disappeared. Dean teams up with a local deputy to look for him, but his cover is blown (he's a wanted man who's supposed to be dead, if you'll remember) and she threatens to turn him in once they find his missing 'cousin.' The horrible part of all this is that it's not monsters. It's people. People hunting other people. Which is more monstrous than most every other episode in this show. shudders Anyway. Dean goes very Big-Brother Don't-Touch-My-Sammy on their disgusting redneck backwoods butts and all is well in the end. But beware - this one is pretty dark, folks.

 Below is a log of our real-time reactions as we watched. Remember that there may be spoilers for any part of SPN’s 15-season run here.  Note also that the nature of our conversation is adult and thus it may contain adult language and themes.

 [and we begin:]

 Lor:

Jensen previously again. I wonder how they decided which eps to put it on and which to not?

 Mace:

Yeah, weird

 Mace:

 oh god is this the in-bred human hunters one?

 Lor:

yep

 Mace:

 shit

Lor:

you okay with that today?

 Mace:

yeah. I mean, I'm not really okay with it at any time - I hate this one (meaning I don't hate it but I hate it because it's so well done and so awful)

 Lor:

Okay. and yeah, it's so awful

   Mace:

 OMG SHERIFF OUTFITS

 Lor:

OMG THOSE OUTFITS

  Mace:

 omg Sammy's throat-clearing

 Lor:

YES

 Lor:

and Dean with the kid

  Mace:

 (also? ALL the Godzilla movies are great. All. Of. Them.)

  Lor:

(I have never seen one?)

 Mace:

 (They may not be your thing? But I LOVE 'em)

 Lor:

MaYBE thIS ISnT oUr kInD OF giG

 Mace:

YES

 Mace:

 RUN, BOYS, JUST RUUUUN

 Lor:

lol

 Lor:

mmm, Dean playing darts

 Mace:

 YES

 Lor:

do not ever meet each other outside

did your wretched father teach you nothing?

 Mace:

 RIGHT?! Come on, big brother, don't let him go out there alone

 Lor:

also, Sammy? not being the smartie here we all know you to be

 Mace:

honestly, John is probably the reason Dean will beat himself up about this later

 Mace:

 Exactly. Come on. Sammy

 Lor:

UG

yep

 Mace:

 Aw, poor Dean is panicked

 Lor:

he IS, poor baby

of course, he SHOULD BE

 Mace:

 well yeah

 Lor:

"like the rifle"

 Mace:

 "two beers and he's doing karaoke" I LOVE that, both that Dean says it in that tone and that it's true

 Lor:

and omg giving out real names

 Mace:

RIGHT

 Mace:

 and the results of the search

 Lor:

YES

 Mace:

"handsome, though"

DEAN

 Lor:

"handsome though"

YAAAAS

I love this sheriff

 Mace:

yeah she's pretty great

his impatient eye roll when she has her back turned

 Lor:

yeah

 Mace:

 80% sad 20% annoyed

 Lor:

yep

 Mace:

 um, is that cage made of rebar?

 Lor:

OMG

not made of, but there's some in there, i think?

 Mace:

yeah

one side at least

smarty Dean and the engine noise

 Lor:

YES

I was just gonna say that

 Mace:

 Ha!

 Lor:

I love how he puts things together

 Mace:

YES

well, and I love that he knows motors, so this one seems natural for him

 Lor:

ooo YES

poor Sam. gotta be trapped with a sarcastic one

  Mace:

Ha! yeah, Mr. Optimistic Pants

 Mace:

Ooof, Sammy still thinks it's monsters

god, I hate this

 Lor:

RIGHT?

it really is awful

 Mace:

 it's awful because it's real

 Lor:

YEP

 Mace:

 more real than the monsters, which are safe to watch and get a little fun-spooked by while ogling the boys

 Lor:

yeah

and I can't watch it without thinking about “The Most Dangerous Game,” what we read freshman year, and I can't think about THAT without thinking about ---- just blurting out in the middle of a discussion "wait? are they still naked?"

 Mace:

Oh! Ha! [My son] told me they're reading that this year and asked if I'd ever read it. HAHAHAHA

 Lor:

lolol

 Mace:

 Men as the Real Monsters is SUCH a vibe in this show

 Lor:

YES

and it's like how the police episodes are so much more scary for us worrying about hte boys

it's real

  Mace:

 YES

and shouldn't be part of their outsider world

 Lor:

yep

 Mace:

 OOOF and this ep combines both of those things with her finding out who Dean is

 Lor:

yeah

the way he's telling the truth to manipulate her but it IS the truth

 Mace:

 well, now, to be fair, Dean, he was pulled from the fire by Dad and you were ordered to save him

 Lor:

yeah

 Mace:

 DON'T CALL HIM SAMMY

 Lor:

dude. you do not get to call him Sammy

 Lor:

lolololol

 Mace:

 HAHAHA

 Lor:

"oh thank god, a bracket"

 Mace:

 snork!

 Lor:

he's annoying but he IS funny

 Mace:

he is

oh Sammy being smart

 Lor:

yep

the instincts on that boy

 Mace:

 YES

 Lor:

Jenkins, ya don't have the sense god gave ya

 Mace:

 SNORK!

 Lor:

this is why you should pay attention in English class

you'd know not to do this kind of thing

 Mace:

yeah

UGH

 Lor:

yeeeeah, I am mostly not looking at it

"and a felon, I think"

 Mace:

 her eyes are amazing

 Lor:

they ARE

oh Dean come on

 Mace:

 oooh, Dean, BAMBOOZLED

 Lor:

RIGHT?

 Lor:

"i gotta start carrying paperclips"

 Mace:

snork!

 Mace:

UGH everything is so grey and rainy and dirty

it's perfect and thanks I HATE IT

 Lor:

RIGHT?

like you 100% believe that this family might have lived down some dirt road a few miles from you when you were kid

 Mace:

 I'm pretty sure their kind live around here now

 Lor:

ug yeeeep

stretch, Dean, streeeeetch

 Mace:

 HAHAHA

 Lor:

mmmmmrf his fingers

 Mace:

YES

HURRY DEAN HUUURRRRRYYYYY

 Mace:

 ope there's that rebar again

 Lor:

OMG that damn rebar

 Lor:

LOLOL us

 Mace:

HAHAHA YES

 omg that smile Sammy gives him

 Lor:

the way he hits the cage when he finds out he's okay

 Mace:

YES

omg the "kiddo"

 Lor:

yes

 Mace:

 "but with people...they're just crazy" THERE IT IS

 Lor:

"with people, they're just crazy"

YES

 Lor:

oh jeez, I forgot about the photographs

 Mace:

 RIGHT?!

 Lor:

"Demons I get. People are crazy"

 Mace:

YEP.

He knows his world, not the real one

 Lor:

YES

 Mace:

sings outSIDER

THE SAWING

NOPENOPENOPE

 Lor:

RIGHT?

and the music

 Mace:

yeah

and the feeling of nerves that Dean is in way more danger here than when in a monster's lair

just...UGH

 Lor:

RIGHT?

the eyebrows and then looking over at the dude

 Mace:

UGH THIS GIRL

YES

 Lor:

Right?

so creepy

 Mace:

 DEAN. You've got to keep your head on a swivel, honey

 Lor:

and the way he thinks she's a victim but we know she's not because of the previous scene with the sheriff and it just builds that fear in that moment of silence between them

 Mace:

yeah

you just know that place smells like old bacon grease and motor oil

 Lor:

"you're a sick puppy"

 Mace:

 yeah

 Lor:

oh jeez

 Lor:

and blood

cause they ain't cleaning ANYTHING good

 Mace:

 yep

 Lor:

OMG leave my Dean alone

 Mace:

 RIGHT?! THIS IS AWFUL

 Lor:

it REALLY is

and it's... not fun?

 Mace:

NOPE

because it's too real

 Lor:

like, so much of what is awful on this show also has an element of just enjoying it?

this is not that

 Mace:

 yep

 Lor:

they don't take good care of their guns either tsk

 Mace:

HA!

they're made all the more despicable because they never fight fair - shooting the cabinet without opening it...

 Lor:

HA Sammy, nice

 Lor:

right?

 Mace:

 YES

 Lor:

they have no honor

I know that sounds like duh, but

they don't seem to value anything

 Mace:

 they're hunters who go against Hunter codes

 Lor:

yeah

they don't even seem to have their OWN code

 Mace:

 Hunters are always already in some ways like the monsters they hunt, but these are a distortion/corruption of that idea

 Lor:

YES

like, Sam and Dean have to square themselves with the fact she shot him in cold blood

 Mace:

 yeah, although it doesn't take long

 Lor:

no

but they have to think about it

 Mace:

 poor woman

 Lor:

oh Dean

 Mace:

 "I'm not looking for you" "sure you are"

 Lor:

"you vanish like that again, I'm not looking for you"

 Mace:

 HAHAHA the "you're getting rusty there, kiddo" again

 Lor:

and Sammy saying "you're getting rusty there, kiddo" to Dean

YES

 [after the episode ended:]

 Mace:

 welp, I'm not sad that that one's done

 Lor:

nope

 Mace:

 I don't think I ever want to watch it again, to be honest

 Lor:

it's a GOOD one, but yeah, I'm not sure I ever need to see it again

 Mace:

 yeah. it's too good at what it's doing. same reason I can't read Stephen King anymore

[kirisunshine-ejirou]

Hiya! We've never talked before, but I love ur blog all the bnha posts you rb! :) And SINCE I saw recently that you've gotten into Banana Fish too, brace urself for these asks :D 1 Fandom : Banana Fish 2 Ship : Asheiji 3 Character : Eiji Okumura Hope you're having a lovely day! 💕

Aww, you’re so sweet! I actually watched Banana Fish a few months ago, but I recently re-watched it with my sister (and ripped my heart out again in the process), so that’s why I’ve been posting more about it lately!. Anyway, thank you for sending me the ask! :) Here are my answers:

001 | Fandom: Banana Fish

Favorite character: Honestly, as much as I love Eiji, it’s gotta be Ash. I will never stop grieving for him, and I appreciate the complexity of his character.

Least Favorite character: Yikes, there’s so many assholes in this show. I’m gonna go with Abraham for creating Banana Fish and then being a weak little bitch about it when shit hits the fan, and for hurting Shorter. Eduardo is also SCUM.

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): I’m not sure if I could come up with 5 ships for this show…Asheiji for sure. Also Max + Jessica.

Character I find most attractive: Ash

Character I would marry: Blanca (hahaha, he’s well-read, attractive, mature, and cares for Ash despite the circumstances they’re both in)

Character I would be best friends with: I wanna be friends with Cain!

A random thought: Cain is such an underrated character! At least, I don’t hear much about him within the fandom. Sing is also a precious bby.

An unpopular opinion: Ash’s full name sounds kinda ugly? Like I love the meaning behind it, but Aslan Jade Callenreese is a bit much.

My Canon OTP: Asheiji

My Non-canon OTP: Don’t really have any.

Most Badass Character: It’s pretty much a tie between Ash and Blanca, but I guess I’d have to pick Blanca since he taught Ash.

Most Epic Villain: Dino. I wouldn’t call him “epic,” but his evil is an evil that’s not so in-your-face, but that still permeates the entire series (Please read @softasheijis‘s analysis of this, it’s great! Linked here: https://kirisunshine-ejirou.tumblr.com/post/183846304436/softasheijis-takes-a-long-sip-of-hot-tea-dino)

Pairing I am not a fan of: Hm. I don’t know of many pairings in the fandom, but Ash + anyone other than Eiji just isn’t right, hahaha. Also Blanca + Yut-Lung is gross b/c of the age thing.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): Some characters may be screwed up in the head, but other than that, no one.

Favourite Friendship: Shorter + Ash!

Character I most identify with: Ash. I have never experienced any kind of trauma to that comes anywhere near to what Ash had to endure, but I identify with the difficulty he had with believing he’s someone worthy to be loved. I’ve got low self-esteem and it can really get to me at times :/ I also don’t tend to trust people very easily.

Character I wish I could be: Hmm, well, I don’t think I’d want the tragic life that comes with being any of the characters…but if I had to choose I guess it would be Yut-Lung so I could have his wardrobe, lol.

002 | Ship: Asheiji

When I started shipping them: Honestly - the pole vaulting scene - I knew they were a ship from what I heard about the show before watching it, so my love of their connection was instantaneous. More realistically - that tender moment in Ep. 11 when Eiji promises Ash that he’ll stay by his side, even if the rest of the world turns on him. (God, I’m almost crying just writing this).

My thoughts: This is one of my all-time favorite ships  because the dynamic between the characters and what could have been between them sticks out for me. They deserved better.

What makes me happy about them: Their trust. They would give their lives for each other, and even though this turns out to get them both in a lot of trouble, it comforts me to think that Ash found someone he could rely on after 17 years of hell. Also, the fact that they can both be themselves in the relationship; as Max said, Ash found someone he can finally act his age around, unguarded.

What makes me sad about them: Ash will never get to go to Japan with Eiji :’(

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: Making them suffer any more than they already have.

Things I look for in fanfic: More fluff/hugs/domestic content

My wishlist: I don’t really understand this question? I wish for them to be happy. That is all.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: There’s just no other non-platonic pairing for either of them that I can think of.

My happily ever after for them: Ash goes to the library after being stabbed, but calls himself an ambulance, or Max, or anyone who could get him to the hospital, recovers, then meets up with Eiji in Japan where they live a happy, simple life together (as much as possible, ik Ash still has a ton of shit he needs to sort through.)

003 | Character: Eiji

How I feel about this character: His pureness always makes me smile, but he’s also got some spunk! Lol, as in, he teases Ash and isn’t afraid of him (the pumpkin thing, being able to wake Ash up when everyone else is terrified, throwing Ash in the shower, etc.) and he also becomes more able to defend himself as the show progresses; first he goes to Chinatown to find Shorter wearing that ridiculous outfit, then he holds Yut-lung hostage (kinda) and (tries) to shoot Dino. Bless him.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: Ash

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: I love his interactions with Bones and Kong!

My unpopular opinion about this character: Not sure if this is “unpopular,” but I’ve heard some stuff about Eiji being more “edgy” (haha, see what I did there) in the manga, so I’d like to see more of that play out in the anime, to give him a little more nuanced character.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: I wish we could’ve got more background info on him. Like we know that he’s a former pole-vaulter and that he has a little sister, but not much more than that. I think one of the side stories of the manga has this content though!

Favorite friendship for this character: Eiji & Shorter! Shorter was so protective of Eiji during their limited time together, and I would have loved to see more Ash - Eiji - Shorter friendship interactions.

My crossover ship: Hm, can’t think of any at the moment!

Sorry some of my answers aren’t the most straightforward, haha. Also, @silverquillsideas I just wanted to say, your blog theme is gorgeous, and even though I follow you, I don’t think I’ve seen any of your Banana Fish art/fics until now (I just reblogged an asheiji work of yours!), but I’ll be sure to look out for more :) Hope your day has been great; see you around!

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11-11-11

rules: answer 11 questions, ask 11 questions, tag 11 people

I was tagged by @capricious-writes, thanks for that! hopefully I did this right yikes (under the cut b/c I don’t wanna clog up anyone’s dashboards lol)

1. What’s you favorite OC?

At the moment it’s a toss-up between Warren and Thrive. Warren is super-relatable because I wrote him to have a lot of the mental illnesses that I’ve got (write what you know, right???) and there are times where I imagine something I’ve written him doing and I’m just like o shit waddup tho

Thrive is a stunner, in every sense of the word. I’m just head-over-heels in love with him and it uhhhh shows in the writing sometimes. under the guise of it being Warren’s POV. lmfao. who am I actually

2. What’s your favorite POV?

Hmm...I’m partial to first-person because the story can really develop a distinct voice, but honestly the biggest drawback for me is that it’s so limited. I’ve written first person before with little issue but I like having that freedom of possibly showing what’s going on outside of the narrator’s field of awareness.

3. What’s one food that just doesn’t exist in your wip. You’re a petty god - what’s that one ‘delicacy’ that you erased from all history, and that will never ever be mentioned in your story? Why?

Mayonnaise cuz seriously FUCK mayonnaise

4. Is there a tpe of setting you tend to write stories in?

I haven’t particularly had one type up until now. I think from this point forward I might have a type because I’m going to try to stick to sci-fi for the most part

5. What was the last show you finished?

Ooh, the last one I finished??? Hmm...jeez, I have no idea. I’ve just kinda been watching things that are either still going and/or have had a bit of time between seasons. uuhhhh god, um...the second time I watched Frasier all the way through a couple years ago?? lordt I’ll come back to this if it suddenly comes to me lol

6. If you had to completely change the medium of your wip what would it be and why and/or what would change?

I’m probably not gonna answer this the way you expected so forgive me if I’m wildly incorrect, but I would make it into a graphic novel because honestly I would love to see an artist’s depiction of my characters and worlds. I wouldn’t have them change too much tbh. Possibly nothing at all, actually. I’d have to hire someone to do it for me since I can’t draw for shit oops

7. What’s your ideal villain?

I could literally talk about this for hours. My ideal villain is my ideal serial killer, and this is going to sound really suspicious and weird but hear me out. Take like, all of the fictional media portrayals of serial killers, add a tablespoon of the Joker and four cups of, like, Ted Bundy or something. Just a guy who is completely unhinged with the way he goes about his bullshit and has no remorse whatsoever, but also has no reason for being the way he is. That’s the best kind of serial killer—just some random dude with no psychological answers for his behavior, barely even a sociopath, but he’s smart. He’s been doing this for maybe ten, twenty years. Leaving little whispers of a trail, not enough to get a good lead.

Like...if Stargher from The Cell had a gross baby with Hannibal or something like that, idk.

8. What’s one recent aspect of writing you’ve been trying to implement/improve?

Showing and not telling. Maybe a big chunk of it is my own insecurities lying to me but I never feel like I do enough to really put a scenario into a reader’s mind. Then again my own sister told me somewhere around book 1 draft 4 that I over-describe, so, big shrug man

9. If your MC had sudden access to a time travel wrist watch (fixed points time travel), what would they do with it? Alternatively, if you have time travel already, could your story exist without it, and how?

This is a complex one. My story kinda has time-travel, but only sorta, cuz it’s just like...for one person. I don’t think my story could exist without it tbh, I’d have to completely gut the whole thing and rework it. But if Warren had time-travel...he would probably use it to spend more time with his parents.

10. What’s one joke, or funny trope that gets you every time?

In general? I don’t really know exactly what to call it but there’s this moment in season one of Narcos where Peña and Murphy are staking out La Catedral for carrier pigeons, and they gotta shoot one of ‘em down and Peña keeps trying to shotgun this damn bird out of the sky and Murphy’s like “gimme the gun” and shoots it down in one go, and he walks away like “ain’t you ever been duck hunting before” or something and Peña’s like, “No?? You fuckin’ hillbilly??” and I just lose it every time hahahaha

11. If you could say one sentence of dialogue, as yourself, in your current wip, what, where or to whom would it be, and why?

I would literally just apologize to everyone for what I’m about to put them through and it would be immediately the first line of dialogue in the entire series lmao

—My questions to you:

1. If you could have free reign to rope anyone on Earth into portraying your characters on the screen be it big or small, who would they be? Any particular reason why?

2. Additionally, if you could get any artists to do the original soundtrack, who would they be and why?

3. If you could entirely rehaul a WIP from years ago, be it childhood or whenever, which one would it be? What would you change?

4. Who is your least favorite OC and why? Doesn’t mean you have to dislike them! ...But bonus points if you do.

5. What’s a line of dialogue/narration from your WIP that you’re SUPER proud of, for any reason you can come up with?

6. What’s something you hate about your favorite OC?

7. If you have romantic relationships in your WIP, who would pair them up with besides their current partner(s)? If you don’t have romantic relationships, who would you pair up if you did?

8. Badly describe the plot of your WIP (i.e. for The Empire Strikes Back: talking frog tells petulant child to murder his father)

9. Which person, living or dead, would you want the most to read your WIP?

10. Does your main character have any hobbies? Do the hobbies help them throughout the course of your story?

11. Have you based any characters off of people you know in real life?

I don’t really know 11 blogs to tag, so I tag @starlitesymphony, @brigidglass, and @foxesfatewriting. Absolutely not mandatory!

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tagged by both @ayzrules and @e-m-m-d <3

Nickname: in grade school people used to call me George because a teacher couldn’t remember my name and had a relative named George with the same last name as me. Some family members call me “Sare” which I have never cared for but answer to anyway haha. I don’t think I really have a true nickname outside of a slightly embarrassing family nickname irl.

Gender: Female

Star sign: Scorpio-Sagittarius cusp! (I tend to show more Sag traits though)

Height: 5′4″ ... I think?

Time: 10:20am

Birthday: November 22

Nationality: Canadian (Maritimes)

Favorite band: ... BTS currently. I don’t seem to have an absolute go to anymore. But I might also say The Decemberists and/or Arcade Fire fall in here.

Favorite solo artist: Agnes Obel, Kate Nash, Lana Del Rey, or Regina Spektor

Favorite colours: lavender, charcoal, yellow, turquoise, magenta, coral, pale purple-blue, gold, milk coffee colours ... a lot of sunrise and sunset colours

Wearing: a 3/4 sleeve knit light beige shirt with coral and white stripes I bought on sale at Gap years ago with black tights 

Last thing I googled: the local phone book - there was a weird message on the vm at work this morning and I wanted to see who it was because they didn’t leave a name

Last show I watched: Brooklyn Nine Nine - finished season 5 and decided to start watching the whole series again (no regrets)

Last movie I watched: Solo - saw it with my bf on Sunday. It wasn’t bad, but I think I like Rogue One better (although Donald Glover’s Lando, L3, and Qi’ra are all A+++)

Lucky number: 3 or 6, or at least so I used to think when I was a lot younger haha

Why did I choose my url: because I started my tumblr when I was starting university and thought I knew what I was doing with Latin and trying to sound cool at the same time ... only to realize with horror a year or two later that I had used the wrong case with inter (actually takes accusative, so my url should be interlucemetumbras ... which is less *cool* but grammatically correct haha)

When did I create my blog: in 2010 yikes

What do I post: right now it’s a lot of aestheticy photos and haikyuu-related content. Mostly, I just reblog things I think are funny or important ... mostly funny or pretty things because why not? I don’t really have a true blog aesthetic or strive to have one (this is why side blogs exist >;D)

Do you have any other blogs: yeppers (where the witchlings are is probably the most active one? The others are group blogs)

Do you get asks: No, although I’m not sure I’d know how to react if I got any haha, although ask games always seem like a really neat idea.

Blogs who follow you: a lot of friends from Polyvore, one rl friend (and probably the only actual person I know that I would let follow me), a couple witchcraft/wicca blogs (have not figured that one out), the usual amount of porn blogs, and a lot of lovely bluestockings (this I think mostly covers all the blogs that I can’t place a name to their aesthetic but it’s one I definitely enjoy), a lot of different fandom blogs ... and there’s probably other types, but I can’t remember??

Average hours of sleep: I’m lucky if I can get 5-6 hours of sleep despite my consistently rigid bedtime (hello persistent sleep-related issues)

Dream trip: Honestly, I’d would love to do a tour of Japan and South Korea during the cherry blossom festivals/season, Norway or Iceland, or a real tour of England/the UK (have been, but on a very scheduled school trip)

Instruments: my dudes, I do not even possess the rhythmic ability to play the spoons. I’m probably the only kid who faked their way through playing the recorder in grade school.

How many blankets do I sleep with: depending on the season, usually just my comforter, but if it’s the deep cold of winter I throw a homemade quilt on top or a nice fuzzy blanket. I’m more about having at least three pillows at my disposal for comfortable sleeping (gotta have those sleeping hug pillows)

I think mostly everyone has been tagged by this, but I’ll tag @bebemoon @blubbingbeautifully @the-black-eyed-girl @sirius-blackly @ggsupremacist and anyone else who wants to play :) (also if you guys have already been tagged or don’t want to be, sorry!!

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Get To know me Tag

Tagged by the wonderful @dreamermoonchan who’s suffering through school madness right now and wow just hype her she’s doing fab. Thank you lovely!

Rules: answer 30 questions then tag 20 Blogs

Questions

Nicknames: don’t really have one, there are certain ones I won’t respond to and some of you *cough* sudi just keep persisting 

Gender: Female

Star sign: Virgo (just checked and supposedly my dreams were meant to come true today and well, I spent the morning suicidal and the afternoon watching Eddie Izzard and Bill Bailey. Dreams)

Height: 5ft9/10 (I haven’t measured in a while)

Time: 20:44

Birthday: September 4th!

FavoUrite bands: hmmm I’m gonna cite actual favourite bands rather than groups?? soo Alice in Chains, Slipknot + Florence and the Machine (I’m counting it as a band, as she does work closely with her band a lot)

FavoUrite solo artists: Prince, Banks, Taemin

Song stuck in my head: Beyonce - Freedom

Last movie I watched: I quite literally cannot remember??? I do not have the concentration spans for movies recently at all. I watched a bunch of stand-up comedy shows today so I guess Eddie Izzard’s Dressed to Kill and Bill Bailey’s Tinselworm

Last show I watched: Outlander 

When did I create my blog: yearsss ago but I only started using it around march time

What do I post: B.A.P, Dreamcatcher, other gg’s and some boy groups, tv shows, anything that makes me happy??

Last thing googled: my daily horoscope??? i refer you to the above question about my horoscope. it. was fun.

Do you have other blogs: not other blogs per se, but I am an admin for @fy-lee-siyeon !! (go follow for siyeon and dreamcatcher goodness) 

Do you get asks: Yea i do!

Why did you chose your URL: my name + lack of commitment to any anything which is how I live my life

Following:  290

Followers:  836 (I am yet to actually say thank you for following me and I absolutely will do but I tend to get odd about emotions so I gotta work my way up to it or else I’m just gonna mass pat you all on the head and call you wonderful little ducklings)

FavoUrite coloUrs: R E D

Average hours of sleep: ahahhahahahah who knows, average probably around 5, I can sleep for ages or I can sleep for one hour but I always am tired

Lucky number: ??? don’t really have one?? brain always liked the no. 4?

Instruments: None. My musical talents are limited to musicality. 

What am I wearing: Comfy sweatpants and a vest top with the most important part being no god darn wire contraption of hell aka bra

How many blankets I sleep with: one blanket, one duvet

Dream job: anything the biological science/ biochem field - perhaps educational

Dream trip: My Italian family all lived by Vesuvius and I haven’t been there in years, so I really really want to go back there and experience it now as an adult. Wouldn’t mind going to the Ukraine either, just to answer some personal questions

FavoUrite food: Carrots

Nationality: British

FavoUrite song right now: B.A.P - Honeymoon (even after all the streaming so well done B.A.P)

Tagging and you in no way have to do it: @doitforbangyongguk @daestopiaa @roses-for-jongup @happy-daes @fae-hyun @bap-time @zeloswaffles @blurrredpages @himchanted @brainboxercheetos @foxjae @yikes-anotherkpopblog

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25 star wars asks

25 star wars asks

Doing this to de-stress and do some fun fandom reflecting lol. Here we go!

1. do you find force users or non-force users more interesting?

This is tough. Overall, I find non-force users (I’m including people who were/are force sensitive in canon like Leia but can’t actually manipulate it) a lot more interesting! They tend to be more inventive and diverse in beliefs and perspectives, and their interactions with force users (and their politics) is always a cool dynamic to see!

2. which character do you want to be most like?

Oh, easy. Padme Amidala, hands down. Her passion, vision, hard work and hope make her a wonderful leader- which is something I aspire to be. Additionally, she’s flawed in the sense that she’s naive in her beliefs at times. She’s far from perfect, but Padme’s legacy (as ignored and hidden as it is in the canon after her death) is obvious in her children and the resistance she inspired. She also parallels Anakin, who in some ways embodies the things I struggle with most in myself. If anyone else came close to being someone I’d want to emulate, it would be the twins. Together they are the best of both their parents.

3. which character are you actually most like?

Yikes. Kinda covered this, but I guess… Maybe Luke? I’m not as wild as Anakin, or as passionate as Padme. I feel like Luke is a nice in-between of those two, but more mellow and simple-minded than Leia- in a good way. He’s jaded, but still maintains this sense of young, youthful naivete that Leia didn’t (despite remaining a very hopeful and strong person). He’s a soft boy, you know? I feel like Luke’s ability to come off still full of wonder, knowing how awful things can be, but still choosing to be optimistic- that’s something I can relate to.

4. what headcanon will you defend to the death?

THAT PADME WOULD’VE BEEN A FANTASTIC CHANCELLOR. Seriously, Bail Organa wouldn’t pick some basic for the job and he (at least in one of the books) was eager for her to take over that role from Palpatine. She died too young. Had so much promise. Also, her and Anakin would’ve been great parents- minus all the political drama.

5. what planet would you most like to visit?

Naboo! Yes, that’s where Padme’s from lol, but more so I just love it. It’s a beautiful planet with lots of water and agriculture. Plus, even if I do see the flaws in its’ political system, any planet that supports the education and empowerment of young women can sign me the hell up.

6. what planet would you most like to live on?

Again, Naboo! I’d love to learn in their schools and travel the natural sites, like rivers and waterfalls.

7. who do you hope you never meet?

Real talk, I hope I never meet Jaba. Snoke, Darth Vader (pre-redemption), other Sith Lords/villains, I don’t care. I mean yeah they would suck, but Jabba forces women to be his sex slaves. I’d rather die than be shoved into some golden skimpy outfit and dance for the pleasure of some slimy, horny slug alien. If I picked someone who isn’t technically evil though, I’d avoid Yoda. He’s more corrupt than he thinks and I wouldn’t want him in my head.

8. what is one thing you would change about any movie, show, book, etc?

Hm. One: Padme’s death. I still don’t think she died because of a loss of a will to live. I firmly believe her kids would’ve given her hope to move forward, even without the Republic or Anakin. At the very least, futuristic medicine would’ve kept her hanging on a LITTLE longer than that. Other than that, I’m still torn about Ben Solo in the movies. I think just because I pity Han and Leia, I wanna make him a happy kid who maybe doesn’t destroy everything his parents fought for.

9. have you ever made fanart or fanfic? do you make edits or any other fan content?

I’ve made fanart of Padme before! It’s on my art blog~ Doodled Leia a couple times too, and I have Star Wars OC’s I’m fairly attached to

10. do you think the jedi were right or wrong?

WRONG. They were corrupt, too, especially during the Clone Wars era. Allowing clones to be used as disposable war machines, only training and manipulating young kids, being overconfident, controlling/shaming members who don’t follow their ideals, their strict rules and polarizing attitude- all of it was very not okay.

11. who is the most underrated character?

Padme. They practically erased her from canon in a lot of ways so. Anakin and Obi Wan survived the prequel shame because they were pre-established in the original trilogy, but Padme? They straight up try to forget her. Even after all the great book and Clone Wars TV show development too…

12. do you care who rey’s parents are?

Sorta? I mean at this point it seems like it’s important to her development as a character, so I’d want to know for that alone. I am a little curious though. Personally, the only theory I endorse is that she’s a Kenobi. Sorry “Rey Skywalker” fans, but your theory is pretty baseless.

13. if you could resurrect one dead character, or prevent them from dying, who would it be?

Padme obviously. So she could do the great things she was capable of to their full capacity. If not her, then Qui Gon Jinn or Shmi Skywalker. Jinn would’ve saved EVERYONE a lot of trouble, and Shmi being used as a plot device for her son after all she went through kinda sucked. I would say Han but we gotta let Harrison Ford off the hook, he’s been asking for years, okay?

14. what is your favorite alien species?

The Togruta! Their design, and Ahsoka’s character, really sealed the deal for me haha.

15. who would you like to bang?

Honestly? Probably Obi Wan lol. Or Leia. Two very different types, two very different experiences. And of the new trilogy, Poe could get it any day lol.

16. which movie/episode have you watched the most?

The Force Awakens, actually! It’s the only Star Wars movie I got to see in a theater. My mom saw the first Star Wars when it came out and that’s her favorite too- I think the experience made it for both of us lol.

17. what is your favorite line?

“So this is how liberty dies… With thunderous applause.” In our current political climate, Padme says it best.

18. what is your favorite star wars book or comic?

I don’t have one! I haven’t gotten to read any. Of all the ones I’ve seen clips of though, Leia’s comic looks really great!

19. what’s your opinion on legends/expanded universe?

I love that stuff. I say expand away!

20. what do you hope will happen in future movies?

They’ll explore ideas and dynamics we haven’t before in the movies- like the Jedi’s own corruption, the gray area of the force, and more stuff relating to non-force users.

21. if you could switch any character’s gender, who would it be and why?

Nah, I don’t endorse this kind of stuff. I don’t really see gender as making anything that much more interesting beyond its’ use already in canon. Maybe if it added some LGBTQ+ representation or challenged some canon ideal?  Or if Leia was a dude just for that Jabba the Hutt scene. It sucked that she was turned into a sexual slave for the sake of plot, and if she was a man it would flip that sexism on its’ head.

22. favorite droid?

BB-8 honestly. I feel like we’d get along best is all. He’s like a cute lil’ puppy.

23. what’s your favorite star wars musical piece or theme?

Beyond the Stars from the Attack of the Clones. Really beautiful piece.

24. how do you pronounce twi’lek?

Uh, two-will-lehk?

25. which character do you have a love/hate relationship with?

The Jedi as a whole, really. The council, including Yoda, Anakin and Obi-Wan, are a big gray area for me at times lol.

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Storytime: Crazyass Theater Mom

In continuing with swapping stories with @xemopeachx, I gotta share this one. I pray to God my sister never finds this because then she’ll know I run this blog because this is an extremely specific sort of story. First, though, lemme set the stage with the “players” (names have been changed):

Rachel: My younger sister, acts in a theater group

Mr. Delfine: The founder of the theater group, here called CMK (City Musical Kids)

Ms. Theresa: Mr. Delfine’s wife, works with CMK and does party planning in her free time

Mr. Mack: Director

Bitch Mom: Bitch mom

Get it? Got it? Good. Let’s begin.

So last summer, Rachel was in CMK’s summer program. Now, CMK was the winner of their age group or something for five years in a row at an international theater competition that happens every year in Atlanta, so they’re the real deal. Their summer performances tend to be plays they did in Atlanta that year because they have the licensing and costumes, might as well get one more go out of them. Last year, their Atlanta show was James and the Giant Peach. Now, we’re gonna put a pin in this because it’ll matter in a way later on.

For now, let’s talk about Bitch Mom. Bitch Mom was, big shocker, a bit of a bitch. Ms. Theresa had apparently met her by doing party-planning for her for BM’s eldest daughter’s 12th birthday and apparently BM ran her ragged. By the end of it, according to my mom, Ms. Theresa mentioned being glad that she had reached the end of it. Well, either Ms. Theresa mentioned CMK around her, or BM searched for theater camps because soon after, BM’s two daughters were signed up for the summer group.

Everyday, Rachel would come home from practice and be on her phone with friends gossiping about the daughters and at first, I thought nothing of it: they’re 12-14 year old kids, they’re going to gossip. But then I heard her talking about the mom. Now, why would tweens and early teens feel the need to talk about somebody’s mom? Well, my own mother filled me in on both:

The daughters, ages 8 and 12, were headache-causers for Mr. Mack and the dance instructor. During practice once, the 12-year-old told the dance instructor specifically that her little sister “needed to be upfront so everyone could see her.” A pretty bold statement. Honestly, a statement that just sounds . . . weird coming from a kid. They apparently did other things, but they all just sounded strange and arrogant even for kids. But when my mom got to explaining BM, it all made sense.

Apparently, BM spared none of her issues: She was always getting into it with the interns, Mr. Mack, Ms. Theresa, and Mr. Delfine. But she especially got at Ms.Theresa. I think because Ms. Theresa was just too nice to really try and bite back hard? Either way, it was awful. According to Rachel, my stepdad, and the CMK parents with whom my mother spoke, these fights occurred often. My mother, however, had not once seen it, and I certainly hadn’t and believed that there had to be some kind of exaggeration going on.

One day, Rachel came home upset and my mom started getting phone calls from the other CMK parents. Apparently, BM got into a screaming match with Mr. Delfine. Usually, parents are allowed to attend rehearsals. They just have to keep quiet and stay out of the way. Sounds simple, right? Wrong! BM was trying to take pictures and film, but kept getting in the way of the dance rehearsal so Mr. Delfine asked her to leave. This somehow transformed into them yelling at each other until he had her go into the hallway and locked her out. According to Rachel, you could still see her trying to look through the door window and film. That evening, all the CMK parents got an email saying that parents were no longer allowed to attend rehearsals for the remaining two weeks of camp.

But apparently her whole family was weird. You had the two snooty daughters, she had a son I believe was autistic but seemed nice, but then you had the dad. I didn’t see BM or her husband until the day of the performance, but my stepdad told me about him and damn was the description spot-on. My stepdad would always be the one to pick Rachel up from camp so he often found himself waiting with the other parents. Now, because this camp is in New Orleans, most of, if not all of the children and their parents are black or mixed. BM’s husband is white. And for some reason, he didn’t seem to talk to anyone . . .

So obviously, this sends the wrong idea to my stepdad. What’s more is that BM’s husband is a doctor, so the suspicion became both a thing of race and a thing of job level. It wasn’t until later, when it was just the husband and BM wasn’t around, that he would actually attempt to talk with the other parents. This, to my stepdad, set off a lot of alarm bells . . .

Friday evening: I’m in the den watching TV with my mom, stepdad is in the kitchen, Rachel is in the living room in her nook, talking with friends. Suddenly, Rachel walks in and says, “BM and Ms. Theresa got into a fight after camp. It got so bad that she cussed -- and she never cusses!” Dang. About an hour or so later, there’s a knock on our door: It’s Rachel’s friend’s dad, asking about a script. Apparently, Mr. Mack, Mr. Delfine, and Ms. Theresa had all had enough and were strongly considering dropping one of BM’s daughters from the play and replacing whichever one with Rachel’s friend. This is already shaky-looking, but also consider the following:

1. Rachel’s friend, while having done James and the Giant Peach in Atlanta, hadn’t been in camp all summer due to engagements in New York and Girl Scout camp

2. It was the night before the fucking performance.

If you’ve ever read The Best Christmas Pageant Ever, the idea of what BM might do if one of her kids was dropped fro the play was like when townsfolk started imagining what the Herdman children would do. Ngl I was expecting that bitch to go on stage, scream, “IT’S NOT FAIR!!”, and fling paint on the kids. Obviously, this did not happen. Neither did the expulsion of either of her daughters. What did happen, however, was far more than I could have predicted . . .

Saturday: the day of the performance.

Rachel was dropped off earlier, and my stepdad, mom, and I arrived later for the matinee. My aunt and uncle from Alabama stopped by as a surprise. BM is also there. My mom and I quickly usher my aunt to the side and start hyping up BM with, “So one of the mothers here is crazy--”

But before we can point out who, my aunt goes, “Is it the one in the white dress? She was starting stuff earlier.” . . . Pardon? The story was that earlier, BM was causing a scene: She was trying to drag one of her daughters off, fussing something like, “We have to go. We have to go! Ms. Theresa has no business having you look like that! She’s stressing you out!” The thing was, she was stressing her daughter out. The poor thing was crying and insisting that she was fine and didn’t want to go home. Yikes, what the hell?

Fast forwarding to after the performance, there was a lot of hindsight to be taken into account because my stepdad was more observant than I. But when we (my mom, stepdad, aunt, uncle, and myself) reconvened at a nearby bar for lunch, we started spilling stuff. During the group photo for the performers, my stepdad noted, the daughters were missing. They were off in the corner getting fussed at by BM. And the thing was, none of us could figure out why: To be fair, her daughters were good! One was an exceptional dancer who’s already in pointe shoes at age 8, and the 12-year-old has potential as a singer. Their acting was okay but, hey, they’re kids, there’s literally nothing that could be done. What I found more disturbing was the fact that after she’d finished fussing, my stepdad said the daughters had been tearing up but went to go join the group photos. In my memory, the girls looked perfectly fine. As if they were used to hiding this sort of stuff.

What was more was that one thing BM had fussed about during the camp’s run was that one of the songs in James is called “Plump & Juicy”, which is when James and the Bugs decide to use Earthworm as bait for catching seagulls and have to hype him up as delicious and appealing. The 8-year-old was cast as the Earthworm and BM had a fit. Not necessarily because that was the role her daughter had been given, but because she feared the song would make her self-conscious because she was already on a diet. I repeat: This tiny, scrawny 8-year-old was on a diet and I swear she was thinner than my 7-year-old sister who not only also did dance, but did tae kwon do, swimming, and cheerleading. Needless to say, BM now just seemed beyond unreasonable.

So my aunt and uncle say their goodbyes and leave, my stepdad, mom, and I head back to the university theater where the second and final performance is. We attend the evening performance and everyone lounges about in the lobby, talking. My mom and I head back stage to help Mr. Mack pack up some stuff and at some point, I head back to the lobby. Now, when I first got there, it was regular noise. But not even an entire minute later, there’s suddenly YELLING.

I look towards the commotion, and there’s BM and Mr. Delfine going at each other with some parents trying to tell BM to back off and how “CMK parents don’t act like this.” I’m hearing things like, “HOW DARE YOU THREATEN A LADY!?” and “DON’T YOU TALK ABOUT MY KIDS!! HOW DARE YOU SUGGEST I’M A BAD MOTHER!!?!” and other things. Eventually, the nearby security guard takes control and ushers BM down the stairs. When I ask somebody wtf happened, I was told that at some point, BM start fussing at one daughter, then she started fussing at the other, and then she started fussing at Mr. Delfine and it just escalated from there.

(Sidenote: If I got close enough to the stairs, I could hear thudding as if she was flinging herself to the floor and a stern voice going, “Stop it. Get up” in that voice a parent uses when their kid decides to throw a tantrum. And no, I highly doubt it was security guard brutality or anything if that’s what you were thinking.) Soon after, a couple of the interns come scrambling upstairs and clamoring, “Guys! Guys, she said she’s pressing charges!!”

Uh . . . wut.

After all has calmed down to a degree, people decide, “Fuckit, let’s get ready to go, that was too much.” I return to my mom and tell her what happened (she’s upset for missing BM in seemingly one last exploit) and we shrug and go help Mr. Mack bring stuff to his car. Rachel and my mom’s friend tag along and when we finish, we walk around the parking lot to the front of the building where we see Mr. Delfine, the security guard, the CMK parents (my stepdad included) . . . and a cop. It was in that moment that I realized I had just walked passed a cop car.

After ten minutes, the group disperses and my stepdad comes over and explains: “So BM was waiting down here and she called the police . . .” She was gone by the time we showed up, but apparently this bitch called the police with allegations of Mr. Delfine threatening her. Which might’ve been shaky enough as is, but was made worse by the fact that there were over a dozen other people around witnessing her tomfoolery.

(Second Sidenote: When I came back to witness her acting up, I didn’t see her kids or husband. According to my stepdad, the moment she started getting loud, he must’ve peaced out. It’s highly likely that he’s so used to her BS that he can feel when she’s about to embarrass the family so he took the kids and ran.)

In the end, BM’s kids weren’t allowed back due to a mix of CMK’s school year program being much more selective and the fact that, you know, she kinda blew it for her kids. Such a pity; they could’ve been nice, skilled kids if not for her . . . BM-ness.

The fucking end.

[eggtcrts]

Tagged by: @bubblynx :> Rules: Answer the questions in a new post and tag a few blogs you would like to get to know better!

Nickname: alice! a childhood friend used to call me lulu though, like my last name but x2   Star sign: cancer Height: 5'4" Time right now: 1:56pm Last thing googled: alarm emoji  Favorite music/artists: uhhh hayley kiyoko, sara bareilles, arctic monkeys, vampire weekend, fall out boy, the lumineers, galileo galilei, nicki minaj, the cat empire, frank sinatra, walk the moon.... Song Stuck in your head: “she moves in her own way” by the kooks Last movie watched: mulan 2 Last TV show watched: ....yuri on ice What are you wearing right now: red henley, blue circle scarf,docs & black jeans w/ holes in the inner thighs ;_;  gotta love that chub rub amirite :/ When did you create your blog: a little over 4 years ago yikes What kind of stuff do you post: cute animal vids, memes, me being tragic and gay, fave shows, and art Do you have other blogs: yeah like, 8? Do you get asks regularly: not on this blog, no Why did you choose your URL: i was 15 yrs old and i watched sherlock... Gender: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh???????? Hogwarts House: hufflepuff!!!!! Favorite color: blue!!! i tend to use warmer colors in my artwork though Average hours of sleep: 6-9 depending on the day of the week Lucky number: 72 <3 How many blankets do you sleep with: it’s winter rn so 2 comforters!! Dream job: art historian? something with museum studies i think...or maybe even a gallerist! i actually used to want to go into medicine..  Following: my heart...u gotta be true to yourself...

im gonna @ (only if u want to!) @pastelyuuri @spaceaqua  @thekatsuki @ayychico @walkingdeadextra @neyamentatrue @meepinthosemorps @themaymebs @cornflakebowl and anyone else who i haven’t mentioned but would like to do this, consider yourself tagged!!

[tivajunkie]

I was tagged by: @wyattsshoulderholsters

Nickname(s): MC

Gender: Female

Sign: Cancer

Height: 5'5"

Time: 2:04am (…yikes)

Favorite band(s): Beach Boys (no, seriously)

Favorite solo artist(s): idk if I have a favorite solo artist…Cody Johnson maybe? I do love me some Texas Country.

Song stuck in my head: I just watched Raiders of the Lost Ark, so currently it’s the Indy theme

Last movie I saw: At home - Raiders. In a movie theater - Black Panther I think.

Last show I watched: When Calls the Heart. I started two weeks ago and I am ADDICTED.

When did I create my blog: 2012 maybe?

What do I post about most: Whatever ship I’m into most at the moment. Tends to be Tiva and then a rotation of Captain Swan, Java Junkie, and Lyatt.

Last thing I Googled: the video of Kara Lawson and Doris Burke reacting to Mississippi State upsetting UConn in the 2017 Women’s Final Four.

Do I have any other blogs: Nope!

Do I get asks: Rarely, but I want more so send'em my way!!

Why did I chose my URL: I used to be tivafanintheusa, but I changed to this one because this blog is more than just tiva now. The junkie part is for Luke and Lorelai/Java Junkies, but it doubles as TV junkie too.

Following: 96

Followed by: 501! I don’t know how though…

Average hours of Sleep: 6-7…I have a bad habit of staying up incredibly late no matter what time I have to get up the next day.

Lucky number: 21

Instruments: A little piano.

What I am wearing: Friends tshirt and old soccer shorts

Dream job: If I had the talent for it, a screenwriter.

Dream trip: LA/San Francisco. I’ve been to both and LOVE them, but would also love to have an extended amount of time to explore both.

Favorite food: give me ALL the chocolate.

Nationality: Mostly American, but also 1/8 French

Favorite song: shoot man…you gotta give me a genre for this one. Maybe Surfin Safari by The Beach Boys? Or Surfin USA? Man in the Mirror by Michael Jackson? So many choices…

Last book I read: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I LOVE HP and have a habit of rereading the entire series about once a year.

Top 3 fictional universes I wanna join: 1) Harry Potter, 2) Gilmore Girls/Stars Hollow (idk if that really counts, but I’ve always wanted to live in a place like Stars Hollow. Especially after I toured Warner Brothers and walked around SH itself), 3) I can’t think of another one right now.

Tag 20 people: I can’t think of 20 but how about @mockingjays-daughter

[yvettebeawulf]

20 Questions

inRULES: answer the twenty questions, then tag 20 people to get to know them better.

Tagged by @francis-felidae - thanks!

1. NAME: Yvette 2. NICKNAMES: I was with friends out to eat and I placed my order and the cashier asked for my name and I swear I said Yvette v clearly tho I expected it to get spelled as Evette or Ivette or something - as it most often does. A couple mins later the lady calls out my order and to my absolute horror they had completely butchered my name. “Ova!” they screamed. “Order up for Ova!” I have never been able to live it down. My entire club frisbee team called me Ova for the rest of the time I was in school. College kids are cruel. 3. ZODIAC SIGN: I was born on that Scorpio-Sagittarius cusp but I usually just go with Scorpio for any sign or astrology shit. Scorpio with the free-spiritedness and dumb humor of a Sagittarius I like to think 4. HEIGHT: 5′6″ 5. ORIENTATION: Queer - Maaaan guys are hot and girls are hot. I’m attracted to both men and women have had, um, relations, with both. However I feel like I usually develop a better emotional connection with women than I do with men. It really just depends on the human ya feel.  6. ETHNICITY: Half Filipino and half white. The white in me is German and Norwegian. 7. FAVORITE FRUIT: I would take a bullet for cuties. 8. FAVORITE SEASON: Love me some autumn. Air is crisp as hell. 9. FAVORITE BOOK: “To Kill a Mockingbird” will always have a special place in my heart.  10. FAVORITE FLOWER: I have this lil cactus that I got about two months ago and it just started to grow the tiniest lil flower on it and I have no idea what it’s called but that lil flower is now my favorite flower in the whole world. 11. FAVORITE SCENT: Eucalyptus. I have this tiny bottle of eucalyptus oil that comes in handy at music festivals and shows and stuff and I could honestly huff that shit for days. 12. FAVORITE COLOR: Don’t really have one, it changes on mood. I usually stick to neutral colors though. Wear a lot of apparel on the darker side of the spectrum. 13. FAVORITE ANIMAL: Foxes are the shit. 14. COFFEE, TEA, or HOT COCOA: I do love tea but I’ve sold my soul to the vanilla sweet cream cold brews from Starbucks. I swear I’m like, 80% coffee bean at this point. 15. SLEEP HOURS:  Definitely a night owl. I have this fitbit that tracks my sleep and the thing has informed me that I tend to average around 5-6ish hours per night. Tryna get better about it tho, tumblr definitely doesn’t help. Lol. 16. CAT or DOG: Love em both 17. FAVORITE FICTIONAL CHARACTER: If i had to pick only one, I gotta give big ups to my main hobbit Sam Wise Gamgee of the Shire. Truly the real hero of Middle-Earth. 19. WHEN DID I MAKE THIS BLOG: Shiiiit back in May of 2012. Yikes. Different era. Ya gurl was just a wee lass 20. NUMBER OF FOLLOWERS: Got about 750

i can’t think of 20 off the top of my head but here’s who I tag: @brookie4cookies @muditae @he-ran-into-my-knife-ten-times @ccomtruise @ihateeverybodytoo @jaredpadalesckii @shitmysodasflat @27thjulylove @softsinmochi @backinlightblue

Honestly anyone who sees this on their dashboard and wants to answer these questions just do it, this is me tagging you - I look forward to reading ya answers

[queenonigiri]

meanwhile:

dedicated to ballerinaduck who messages me and reblogs my art even when I go on these randomly long hiatuses. I missed her and all my followers very much ;-;