#yes unfortunately I still consider this a hiatus. I do not have braincells for writing atm. SHIT SUCKS.

[palpipeen]

HEY I'M NOT DEAD

aRRIGHT SO here's the deal

oh 18+ post purely because I don't want CHILDREN around here, PERCEIVING MY LIFE AND SHIT

anyway stuff under the cut

Okay anyway

So here's the deal. Like. I'm not gonna lie.

The move was stressful, but the thing that's been keeping me from writing has been related to other things. Namely medication and my ADHD being well...bad. Real bad.

I'm not currently out of my medication, but I am currently uninsured - sort of. I don't have medical until 1 year with my new job (Oh, got a new part-time job, EXCITING). So I'm kind of keeping my medication for only the days I work, which has thrown my brain/body for a fuckin loop.

The unfortunate thing is that whatever weird brain chemistry I've got, I'm really good at doing art and keeping up with writing - but the latter kind of hinges on my brain chemistry being mostly balanced. ANd without my meds, that doesn't happen. FUN.

This isn't one of those "well if you just applied yourself, blablabla"

Nono babes. Listen, are you listening? Come closer. First of all if you think that, shhhhhhut the fuck up. Be silent. Second, I would if I could, TRUST ME, I miss writing. And lastly, I've rotated around the sun a grand total of almost 33 years -

I KNOW HOW MY BRAIN WORKS (mostly) AT THIS POINT. AND IT DON'T.

So anyway. Anything that y'all see me posting for the forseeable future - will likely be little short one-offs. Because my brain just does not know how to do writing when it's like this. And it sucks! Like I know how to but when I think of a scene I wanna write, my brain is like 'hurhur, I cast forget on the me' and then I forget I have fingers to write with. YOU GET WHAT I'M SAYING???

Anyway. I love this fandom (mostly), and I still wanna keep in contact with people, but I'm also bad at that. So again, gonna throw this out there - if anyone wants to add me on discord, LMK. If I forgot to reply before I am very sorry, shit's not slowed down until kinda recently. Anyway.

Hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season!!!! SEASONS GREASONS AND ALL THAT. Expect maybe a thing in the nearby future!

-Andie/Koofins/Palps