#yes i think this idiot would pin after Gambit in a one sided feeling that isnt quite romance but just an in between thats more than friends

[transformersandturtles]

Thinking about Lux again. He's such an idiot he still rots my brain. I'm almost done with his character sheet after like, 5000 years. My hand has still been hurting a lot but hopefully I'll get stuff done by next week :3

But just thinking about him and his relationships with the X-Men. He's very much platonic towards everyone, sure he can be buddy-buddy/cuddle with the homies. But I feel like he would latch onto someone as a very 'more than friends' but still platonic one sided kind of feeling. If that makes any sense?? Like his heart YEARNS for love and romance but he doesn't WANT to be in a relationship because he feels like he can't provide for a partner in their needs (like intimacy n stuff) so he's kinda just single, but loves being around the person that makes his heart feel all weird and his face warm and just genuinely makes him happy. He's content with just being friends with the guy, but a part of him still wants more. He's still happy to be around his friends and is alright with keeping things platonic, and he doesn't realize how important that person is to him until they're gone and he is absolutely DEVASTATED because he never got to say how he felt, but he also knew it would be useless because that person already liked someone else. Just a vicious little cycle. And his heart just can't move on so there's absolutely a shift in his mood for a while, but he eases up again and cherishes the people he has around him, even if they get annoyed with his constant breaking and entering. :3

Also I'm sorry if this makes absolutely 0 sense. I've never been in a romantic relationship before and don't really plan on being in one. I want a partner, but not like romantically or anything more. Just a bestie I wouldn't mind living with til I perish y'know? I have 0 romance skills, know absolutely nothing, so I am kinda using Lux to express myself/base off my experiences. I've had a crush on one person in my life and that was my BFF from elementary school :3 (very much unrequited)

(I miss her. She's not dead, just 3 hours away in college)