#yes i even censored it yeah ik

[helloimamistake]

Wanna post this on tiktok but one of relatives follows me lol

[inmaki]

ask and u shall recieve-- also i lowk meant them separately but honestly??? these along with the prev can also be read as a poly thing and it shouldn't make a difference because why have 1 when you can get both?

this is all set in a non-curse, very normal world college au btw because most of the jjk cast deserve to be happy ok? ok.

i know it's canon that gojo is actually big brained and he can literally do anything if he tries, buuut i also hc that he lacks culinary skills. like, he grew up rich, right? i'd imagine him have his parents' 50 maids cook for him. that or he just goes out to eat most of the time cause he has more pocket money than my entire bank account.

anyway, adding onto that, it becomes a problem when he's sick, because it's either you or geto to come take care of him cause my man can't cook to save a life. one time you got a fever to the point you couldn't get up and he was panicking because he doesn't know how to make soup or congee (savory rice porridge) for you, so he calls suguru in the middle of a lecture and the phone call basically went like

'okay, now add in the vegetables--'

'i burned the broth.'

'you what.'

safe to say suguru skipped the rest of his classes that day.

geto on the other hand, insists that he can take care of himself when he's sick. he only ever asks for you to do stuff for him if it's really bad, otherwise he'll probably just ask for cuddles.

either (or both) of them fall asleep relatively fast already when they're sick, but in your arms??? surrounded by your scent??? out like a light immediately.

yeah okay i still have so much more but i'm gonna stop before i go overboard ackbeuifnebu

p.s. completely unrelated ik but pls tell me i'm not the only one who's getting pissed off about this new wave of p*rn bots. i thought they couldn't get any worse but now they're putting tags on their post that are completely unrelated, and they don't properly censor the thumbnail images they use??? i don't want to have to block certain tags just because of the small minority but it's getting harder to ignore... tumblr get your shit together pls

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SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLT HI MELON NONNIE <3 omg im so sorry idk why i read it as like a scenario together but AHSBJHSBS SATORU BURNING BROTHHHH 😭😭 i honestly agree even if its canon that hes good at most things he tries im a firm believer cooking is js NOT one of them,, the best he can do is ramen and barbecue the meat for u 💀

i have a feeling that in the end suguru sneaks over to make your porridge/soup, then gives it to toru who brings it to you and ur js like. wow toru u made this?!!! meanwhile hes smiling nervously like y-yep!!!! HELP i love the idea of toru trying to take care of his sick s/o.. its so entertaining yet adorable

AND YES THOSE BOTS HAVE BEEN GOING CRAZY 😭😭 ITS SUCH A JUMPSCARE I HATE THEM idk how blr lets them get away w it 🧌

[mothpylon]

 Zone 5 Quarantine Fair!

@killjoynest

gangs | neutrals

yes i know the context i was supposed to take this in. fuck it. neutrals aren’t worth my time. yes ik this is late i’m sorry i just wanted to write poison bein a nerd

Yeah, Party Poison’s kinda the leader of the Fab Four. Unbelievable, undefeatable, trigger-happy (did they really shoot their ex once?), vicious, whatever you want to call them, the bottom line is, they got a reputation here, and it’s not quite the reputation Mama’d like. Of all the many, many things they are, good with kids isn’t really one of them. 

They’re.. nice enough, though, ‘n even if they never really spend time with the Girl, like the rest of them do, they’d easily fight to the death for her. But that’s all they’re meant for, fighting and anger and rebellion. It’s better to leave the kindness to Jet and Kobra and Cherri. She’ll grow up soon enough, and they figure she’ll get tough soon enough without them helping. Not yet, though, maybe.

They’re hiding behind the diner, sitting on the ground in the morning sun and scratching out a rough plan for a raid on shitty paper, when they feel someone tap them on the head. It’s Jet, which is fairly normal, but the Girl’s standing behind him, shifting from foot to foot, like she’s scared or something. There’s a wide smile on Jet’s face as he motions to the Girl to sit down. “She wanted to learn about colors.” Poison looks at him suspiciously.

“Figured you’d know more about it than me.” He shrugs, like it’s no big deal that he’s leaving them alone with a tiny child that they could potentially fuck up and expecting them to teach her things, and then he’s gone, leaving them alone with the Girl. She’s standing hesitantly, looking at the sand. 

Well fuck.

Poison hesitantly motions for her to sit down, and she does, craning her head to look at their notebook. They smile a little.

“Just plans. Nothin’ cool.” They shift, pulling a beat-up tin of markers out of their jacket pocket. “Alright, kid. Whattyawannaknow?” She shrugs. “Everything.” 

They sigh. This’ll be interesting, at best. “M’kay. First, see, this is called a color wheel. You know all the colors, yeah? We’re gonna fill this sucker up with all the colors, but in a specific pattern. Like a rainbow.” They sketch as they speak, drawing a rough circle with sloppy spokes through it, then carefully handing the Girl the markers. “So, see, these three, right here, they’re called the primary colors. Cause you can make any color you want outta them. Just gotta add them together,” they draw a yellow stripe, and then a blue stripe, “and they make anything you want.” She nods seriously, then points at the red.

“What if you add this one?” 

Poison laughs. “If you add red to that, you’re gonna get brown, huh? Brown’s cool too. And if you blend red with blue, it’ll make purple. Like sunset.” They keep talking, their hands moving quickly over the paper as they demonstrate how shading works, the difference between complementary colors and supplementary colors. As they talk, half-buried memories, faded, like everything becomes after too long in the sun, rise to the back of their head. Memories of painting, constrained and limited and censored, black-and-white, but still as beautiful as they could make.

 They show the Girl the difference between secondary colors and tertiary colors, and as they talk, they remember learning all this shit for themself. How that was their first act of rebellion, committed for art’s sake; stealing a color wheel, bartering with friends and teachers and shop-owners for half-used tubes of shitty gouache paint that smelled horrible but were bright, so full of life and energy that they felt alive in their hands, saving whatever ripped-out comic book pages and colored photographs they could, pinning them to their wall at night. 

The Girl points to a scrubby bush in the distance, gray-brown against the desert sand. “How do those colors work? Why are they so boring?” 

Poison follows her motion. “Y’mean the grayish ones? That aren’t bright?” 

She nods enthusiastically. “Yeah, those ones!” 

They hesitate. Part of them wants to brush the question away, say, ‘those are lame, forget about them,’ say that anything that’s not passionate and brilliant isn’t worth her time, but really, they can’t, as much as they want to.

“Those ones, they’re called neutral colors. Neutral tones. They’re not as bright as some of the other colors, but they’re still pretty.” They shift, digging through their pockets for a set of colored charcoal stubs, soft shades of brown and green and gray. “You get those by adding a tiny bit of black, or gray, maybe, to some bright color. They’re really good for making something look peaceful, or natural, kinda. Like the cacti, y’know that shade of green? How it’s all dusty? That’s a neutral color.” They point to her faded blue shirt. “So’s that one.” 

The Girl looks down at their paper, draws an experimental line with the brown charcoal. “Dunno if I like those ones as much. ‘S’like they took all the color away.” 

Poison laughs. “Yeah, they’re not as, I guess, as alive as the rest of ‘em, you know what I mean?” 

She nods. “’S weird. But they’re still pretty! I bet they get lonely a lot. Cause none of the Killjoys like them, cause they’re not bright.” She shrugs. “I like them, though. They look like the desert. Hey, how do you make lighter colors?” 

They grin and flip to a new page. “Well, they work like this, see?”  

The Girl shifts closer, resting her chin on their shoulder.

*jet laughing smugly in the distance*

[moonenjoyer]

why are so many of you so quick to disregard all “internet activism” like yes theres no shortage of performative activism like singing imagine during a pandemic or posting a black square on instagram tagging it #blm and considering your job done but i also think the internet is a valuable game changing tool in activism

ik we joke that the internet is a place for conflict and divides people (and...yeah) but it should also be recognized for how it can be a globally connecting and unifying tool. the internet is providing a place where marginalized voices have never been so accessible and visible and STRAIGHT FROM THE SOURCE. corrupt corporate media and politicians get debunked/called out in real time where thousands/millions of people can see it. crowdfunding/sourcing is easy to share and spread. i think theres a lot of problems, but also a lot of value in internet activism.

and even if you cant see the value of internet activism your enemies do and they are working overtime to censor/limit what you can say, see, share, and do online

[rintarhue]

bae ahahaha,, i am but a stupid-ass bitch who rly thought she was being cool n stuff. who tf sees 'tite' as a person's status, thinks it's cool, and adds them as a friend? me. this is the dark side of pinoy pride. AND THE WORST PART IS I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF THEY ARE FILO OR NOT LIKE TF??

anyways said 'tite' person asked me "who are you?" and i just embarrassed myself to this person in genshin in the worst way possible putanginang censor at copypaste yan. i fucked up big-time baestie so i logged out and shut down everything. i will burn everything tomorrow SBJSJDJSBSJJSNS bye i will now proceed to drop dead <3 OSRRY PO AKALA KO KASI COOL YUNG TITE GANON???????? SHUNGANGINANG PUTANGINANG TARANTADO GAGO PUTA. BIGGEST GAGA AWARD GOES TO ME

IS TOKYO REVENGERS GOOD? I WAS PLANNING TO WATCH? OR READ IT BC I THOUGHT IT WAS COOL BUT MY TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE IMPULSE CONTROL decided to watch hq. for the nth time. i do not regret it<3 maybe slightly lol

terrible ranting aside, PLEASE TAKE CAR OF URSELF (ON MY BEHALF)!!!!!!!!! THE TOL PLAYLISTS ARE IMMACULATE. I CANNOT WAIT FOR SAKUSA I MIGHT DESCEND TO HELL WHEN IT COMES OUT AND-AND- I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES and cuddles ofc FOR U AND U AND U AND U. AND U TOO YES

gosh the way this ask went from start to finish is sending me i sound so stupid. love you!!!!!! mwah<3

IM CRYDIDNDBHDDHGSHAHAHSHHDHDHSHAHAHAHHAHAHAHSHHSHAHAAHAHAHAHAH BESTIE I LOVE U BUT THIS IS SO FUNNT IK CRYDIDNDHXHJCJFNDNZNSNCNCNXN

the convo shouldve turned out like this:

"who are u" "i like ur bio bc it says tite 😊 in filipino that means dic—" JSNDJNDNDNSNANDNCDNSNNZNZZNZZ its ok bae we all embarrass ourselves and u learned ur lesson ig...... IM R ZJmndnxndsbsbsb 😭😭😭

TOKREV IS SO GOOD!!!!!!!! tbh one of the primary reasons why i wanted to watch it is bc of the tiktoks ab them acting like filipinos AND I JUST SMCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKX ESP THE PLAYLUSTS IM CRYIDKXKXLDKCMFMFMRMEMSMS SO YEAH <3 the tokrev jejemon playlists are rly good ok AND FOKEN RELATABLE i rewatched hq last week as well form thev start im yet to finish rewatching the latest szn and see inarizaki my luvs 😵‍💫

TJANK YOU BAE!!!!!! (starts kissing u) LMFAOWOIDJEJEMANSNDD AND IM SO EXCITED TO WRITE THEM ALL TBH IM JUSTEJDKCKCLXLXLXKXK AT THE EDGE OF MY SEAT WHENEVER I TYPE IN MY GDOCS WMDJDKKDKSKSS AND I LOVE U!!!!! ALWAYS TAKE CARE AS WELLL AHHHHHHHHHH

[herotheshiro]

i didn’t know where to post this -- here or on my other blog where i’ve moved my fandom ramblings but i’ve decided to put it here since it kind of touches on more personal topics/feelings. jk i wrote it all out and i didn’t really touch too much on personal stuff so into the fandom blog it goes. also putting it under a read more bc it ended up being pretty damn long wow

recently had a sort of issue/not-issue on twitter where i kind of openly expressed my dislike for this one character. no essay backing up why i dislike them, but i do have my (valid) reasons and i tend to be kind of semi-serious w my hate so i didn’t think too much abt swinging my opinions around. and also since this twitter is a recent development, i’m more used to tumblr where even if you openly express an opinion, you have a ton of character space to utilize to explain your opinion so you tend to explain yourself anyway unlike twitter’s limited character tweets where you basically just express your opinion and that’s it. anyway i might have gotten a little carried away since i don’t really interact w anyone in fandoms anymore and only w my fam member who we enable each others’ opinions and put my opinion on my bio and i think that along w my tweet trail led to potentially being vagued abt by a twitter account that mostly posts abt that fandom. i still have reason to suspect that /i/ wasn’t the sole target of the vagueing (if even) bc they said some stuff abt this character’s negative opinion that apparently someone expressed that /i/ never overtly said (like he’s evil and bad simply bc of how he treats this one person but i never said that, just implied that he’s a general asshole and maybe his relationship w this one person isn’t as good as i’ve seen previously from the fandom which is what i’ve deduced from reading canon content). since they never mentioned names or twitter handles explicitly, i purposely made some tweets (still being open, no censoring on purpose) to try to get a direct response and also low-key targeting the vaguers (out of my paranoia that they were indeed talking abt me which honestly prob not but also it’s a relatively small eng-speaking fandom involved w this character so they have to have stumbled upon me at one point). i did get a response (not from the vaguer(s)) from someone calling me out for not censoring my open dislike of this one character. but i also suspect they knew abt my dislike of this one character stemming from their interactions w another character bc they started talking abt shipping even though i never mentioned a ship in those tweets (but i did mention the latter character though not in conjunction w the former). anyway i felt the familiar heat of embarrassment upon seeing that notif of their callout but i almost immediately felt better abt the entire situation bc i finally got the direct callout i was waiting for and i knew what i needed to take down. direct and clear action

in hindsight after i made a series of vagueing tweets last night lol i feel like this entire situation is just me creating unnecessary drama and wildly hitting even ppl not even involved at all (as noted by the callout which was supposedly having non-involved randos in mind) just to make myself feel better or something which isn’t really respectful in any way (and i was totally open abt me just swinging wildly after the callout and my ensuing taking down of posts. this isn’t even a private twitter where ig it’s apparently socially acceptable to talk abt shit like that). and also makes me think maybe i never really learned anything from being online for almost my entire life. a weird part of me has always wanted to become fandom-famous online but i’ve never succeeded in doing so nor have i made an online group of friends i can bounce my opinions and headcanons off of. so i’ve never really developed an online community, i’ve always just been on the fringes and yelling into the mass without getting much attention. now ik that apparently twitter does indeed chuck your opinions well into that mass (good and bad i suppose), it’s a bit surprising to actually get “attention” ... i also mentioned this in my tweets last night but i really really dislike getting vagued abt which my psychoanalyzing brain was like “that’s bc you don’t like not knowing what others think abt you irl” and yeah if you got an issue w me i’d prefer you to tell it directly to my face rather than pretend you like me (which is totally hypocritical bc i do the latter to others but also i tend to just swerve ppl i dislike so it’s not like i go out of my way to pretend to be nice to them).

idk where i was trying to go w this bc now that i’m writing it out i’m like wow yeah i’m still in the wrong huh. sometimes i am in the wrong like years ago when i got called out for grossly shipping irl ppl (which yes i will admit i did do once upon a time but now i no longer do it or am ok w it) but i don’t feel like i was in the wrong this time so i just feel a little frustrated abt the vagueing bc if i was part of the group they were vagueing abt then i was definitely painted as someone w no critical thinking skills which i do, i just don’t share their opinion which they think is right (and tbh i wonder if THEY have critical thinking skills bc they said some things in defense of their opinion which i don’t agree with esp if you’re interpreting canon content like that. are we even reading the same content). i do genuinely feel better abt the series now bc before i was literally anxiety whenever i thought of or even saw the related characters. my fam member was trying to talk abt the series to me and they weren’t even talking abt the related characters but i just wasn’t feeling it bc of this whole situation which i literally made abt me even though there was no indication whatsoever it was abt me. this all make me think that i really should take a good fucking long break from fandoms and social media bc it just gives me unneeded stress and anxiety abt cancel culture, trying to be likeable enough to become fandom-famous, seeing hot takes, etc etc. i’ve already been winding down in terms of strongly interacting w fandoms but my mental health has not been doing so hot recently bc of irl things and fandoms are not ameliorating it at all. ik for some fandoms do indeed make ppl feel better but that’s when ppl actually interact w them and they’re not stuck in a bubble of no response whatsoever while ppl may potentially gab abt them outside of that bubble. my issue is that i always feel the need to create when i really get into a fandom and when you create you want ppl to respond to your creations! so you need to interact w the fandom. but then i then want to actually interact w the fandom fr instead of just posting from time to time and staying out of it and you know where that gets me sometimes. i think it’s bc i had a good time in the pjo and warriors fandoms and i want something like that again in new fandoms i’m in but for whatever reason that’s not how it is now.

i didn’t jump into the vagueing tweet mess bc as i said i wasn’t directly called out and also better to just ignore it but i couldn’t get it out of my head. and that’s making me really consider leaving fandom social media and just create fanworks solely for myself without even posting them online. my works don’t really get much response anyway which is fine tbh even having 1 like these days is good enough so it’s not like i’d be losing out. but idk man ... sometimes you just want to share stuff w others. maybe i should just make my own website and put stuff on there w no expectation for likes or whatever. this has also made me re-evaluate whether or not i really do want to go into art professionally. ik this one situation is inevitable w putting your opinion out on the internet and i wasn’t even in the wrong i feel bc it’s not like i have a problematic opinion (racism, sexism, incest, etc) but it has put a damper on creating content to put online even if the content i eventually want to create is original and is in no way associated w fandoms. even as i write that out i realize it’s kind of stupid to have such a damper put on me. i should watch spiderverse again bc that was the film that really inspired me to create my own creative visual content again and also i’ve been feeling really uninspired lately. ik i shouldn’t let this kind of stuff get me down if i really want to create art in the future but it’s hard to deal w sometimes. honestly i really should be seeing a therapist but also wow now it’s delving into more personal territory so i’ll end it here.

tl;dr i need to learn how to chill on the internet and i think i need to create boundaries for fandoms fr and stick w those boundaries for the benefit of my mental health. maybe i shouldn’t have gotten a twitter in the first place lol even if all i made it for originally was just so i could message a proxy on twitter and not to actually get involved in fandom twitter. i didn’t even get the proxied good in the end anyway bc i was forced to cancel the payment by a third party bc the proxy had not sent me the good in months despite them updating relatively regularly on how busy they were as a student. hah that just how it be

also side note i was like to myself “ok you need to chill bc these series’ characters aren’t real. there’s no need to get so worked up over them” but then i realized even that opinion is “problematic” bc there are ppl out there who really use the characters as like idk a therapy object and i’m genuinely not trying to be an asshole i just forgot the specific wording you use. so even if i’m like ‘they’re fake’ there are others who are like ‘no they make me feel better so don’t hate !!’ which idk is a mentality which i think ppl should shift away from bc you can’t be in fandoms forever unless you’re a professional fictional content creator which is also an opinion i think a good number of ppl would disagree w (“they’re not bothering anyone and it’s their life so what are you to say what they should do??”). idk this is my hot take for the day i guess but it’s fine to be a fan of stuff as you grow up but i think it should become less of a focus/active part in your life as you grow older. i mean maybe that’s a cynical way of seeing things bc maybe creating fanwork is a good de-stressor for ppl but i think i feel that way bc i’m not going into creative content professionally career-wise but ... idk what i’m trying to say here. i guess i just have complicated thoughts on fandoms in general.