#years after me and the irl friend stopped talking and i reworked the characters into their own original stories

[nexus-nebulae]

found my ancient mp3 player recently. finally found a charger for it and plugged it in. and remembered i found a yt playlist of the whole httyd movie chopped up into like 20 videos and i downloaded the mp3s of all of them to listen to on the school bus. which is why i can effortlessly quote the whole first movie now

[causticsunshine]

Heyy whatcha been getting into lately? Alternatively, what have you been enjoying being a hater of lately?

okay first hello i love how this question is phrased hajdks very on brand for me and two uhhh oh boy a lot of stuff tbh!

so to preface. over the years i’ve had many phases where i get out of some irl person based media (usually 1d or some random tv show) and back into animated series, then the inverse happens, the cycle repeats, etc.? so i’m currently back into animated stuff as well as fully leaning into kpop everywhere instead of what i was doing before, where i was trying to limit my posting in general or limiting it to twitter under the guise of trying to seem slightly Normal™️ but now i’m fully leaning into whatever makes me happy and inspired and if that makes me annoying so be it

anyway—in terms of animated shows i’ve been watching one piece for almost a year now as for some reason i couldn’t get into it when i was younger and then was deterred by the series length, but i’m really enjoying it! i’m about to start the long ring long island arc if that means anything to anyone lol. i’ve also been watching and loooving dungeon meshi, and i’m currently reading it as well! i tried reading it a few years ago and stopped a few chapters in (idr why) but now i’m hooked and am struggling to pace myself…. i might try and do some fanart soon 👀

with kpop mmmm i’ve actually been a casual fan since like 2010 (listened to some 2008-2009 but it was mostly early shinee and random kpop compilations on youtube lmao) but have gotten in and out of it several times? now though i’ve been pretty Involved consistently since 2019/2020, although the groups i follow the closest are ateez, oneus and nct (127)!

i saw oneus in seattle last month after missing them twice and had such a good time (i still haven’t finished sorting my pictures though and haven’t posted like. any oops) and i am tryyyying (like. praying on my hands and knees lighting candles talking to the moon levels level trying) to get my hands on VIP1 tickets for ateez in tacoma and tickets go live next week so wish me luck as i will definitely need it with how pricey it’s likely to be… but also i will proudly commit heinous deplorable acts for ateez barricade sooo either way i’m determined to get my way? aka: i want and need my own y/n moment ahfksksn

also to clarify i’m not a shipper or whatever when it comes to kpop! i may enjoy the odd fic or will cringe read things with my friends but it’s nothing like HL for me; it’s a very different dynamic overall and i don’t get those kinda vibes in a serious way from any groups i follow? although with ateez… i can kinda see why they attract some of those kinds of fans i’m ngl

and on the side, i’ve actually been working on original content again! the one group of ocs i tend to pick up and put down has been temporarily sidelined for a pair i dumped a few years back but am currently reworking and actually have a story for now! idk if i’ll do anything proper with said story as comics are exhausting so rn i’m mostly word-vomming into docs and trying to nail down my character designs. when i’ve got things worth sharing though i do plan to share here as well, if anyone would be interested 👉👈

alternately when it comes to my haterism… i still greatly dislike and am exhausted with miss swiftie for numerous reasons and my god my art twitter is swathed in h*zbin h*tel content?? like actually plagued?? otherwise though there are just things i wish i saw less because i’m simply just not interested right now (aka 1d stuff) or in general and don’t want to start disliking those things because i’m seeing them too much

ok def rambled more than i meant to oopsie doopsie but yeah uhh that’s kinda it! anon i hope you are well and enjoying yourself in whatever you are doing rn 💕 and feel free to share if you feel so inclined to!

[toxictale-au]

I’ve been reading handplates again recently, so some of my interest for undertale came back. So there’s a few things that have been on my mind and even though probably nobody will see this since i’m fairly certain the 446 people following this blog are long gone, i’m gonna share anyway.

Going to put it under read more cause it’s a mix of things.

I’m trying to rework the ToxicTale story. I’m...Not happy with it and honestly looking back on it now, frankly it’s a mess. I made this blog in 2016, a lot longer than I thought. I was about 19 at this time, i’m 25 now.

I don’t like who I was back then and I hurt a lot of people that I didn’t fully see at the time. A lot of shit happened irl that involved me loosing my home around this time and I didn’t know how to cope and honestly being on here helped, at least I thought it did. This is another topic on itself and not what I wanted to share, so i’ll keep that short.

My writing has always been bad and i’ve never been good at making a story, but even now I see the ToxicTale story I made all those years ago is honestly a mess and I did a lot of including things that happened in “non-canon” rps (basically just for funsies and don’t actually impact the story I was trying to tell) So it got where the story is a jumbled mess.

I can’t promise the story will be good because I still am not good at writing, but I want to try and rework the ToxicTale story and make it semi-understandable at least. I’m also not good at holding myself to projects and my interest could shift as fast as it came and make me loose interest in this again, but i’m going to try cause I still love my AU and characters after all this time.

If I do manage to make a good amount of progress on this I will be making a new blog for the ToxicTale AU. I will not delete this one because it’s too important to me & who knows I might still use it once in a while.

But that blog will be for the ToxicTale story only, meaning any ships or stuff that are still alive that I may use will not be there. There will possibly be “Future” things there since ToxicTale AU’s timeline in general is not caught up to the Undertale one (since only two humans have fell. Chara & Kindness soul) and I have ideas for the other humans but am not too interested in keeping the story going beyond where the world “ended”

I think I’ve covered most of what I wanted to say about the story...Going back to personal stuff.

so to anyone who was my friend or I used to talk too and I kind of...faded from existence. I’m really sorry, i’ve never been good at keeping up with everyone. I don’t hate anyone & honestly I probably think about you now and again I just...Never know how to re-approach people after i’ve been gone for so long. I tend to stop talking when my interests shift, which is a bad trait that i’m not sure how to break.

Honestly only one person has succeeded in keeping contact with me since 2016 & i’m so grateful to her. She’s been my friend even when i’ve been nothing but a mess at times and to this day I still love sharing ideas with her & doing things.

If you want to talk to me again for some reason, don’t be afraid to message me. I can’t guarantee i’m more social than I used to be, but I can try. Honestly the best way to talk to me these days is on Discord....which is ironic since I hated it so much in the past.

So this is all I have atm. If there’s any questions my inbox is still open. I’m not tagging this since I don’t need a random personal story all over the place.