#yeah im calling my gp because i am in PAIN
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castielsprostate · 10 months ago
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my ears hurt so much i am going to kill myself oh my god AOUGHHHHHHHHH
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jurassuck · 6 days ago
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bitching & moaning below:
for the past maybe 4-5 months i have been feeling like i am dying, and i have been shaking and spasming so badly when i try to leave the house that i dont feel safe to drive. i also have been in so much hand pain that i can barely do anything, and ofc all my hobbies are shit like sewing and jewelry making LMAO but i went to a new rheumatologist last week which was a month after doing labs to see about medication and i still haven’t gotten any. now i need to see a new gp in another month because this is not going anywhere. on top of the most extreme depression of my life as well as some close calls with psychosis. then trump gets elected so yeah im gonna question things bc what else do i have rn LOL
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chaosclover1999 · 1 year ago
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yeh honestly in my experience going to a gyno sucks so much, like,,, i went to a gyno because i was starting to go thru symptoms of male puberty at age 23 and while yes i am a trans guy i even at the time of typing this now have not gone on any form of HRT, on top of this, without going into too much detail my genitalia was changing shape, i went to a gyno because i thought i was probably intersex, however it was stacked against me since i had to be referred to a gyno by a GP who clearly had no idea what an intersex person was properly and thought it was just people being born with a dick and a pussy every single time with no other ways of being intersex, the gyno i went to see failed to mention that she was told by my GP that this visit was "to ease my mind and reassure me that i wasn't intersex" until the end of the appointment, she repeatedly referred to my biology not even as female but saying that "i was biologically a woman", even sometimes just calling me a woman and then when i reminded her that im not she justified her misgendering me by saying "but you are biologically a woman" even in moments of conversation when it was clear she wasn't referring to my biology she ignored all my concerns i had about my genitalia literally changing shape and told me that "it was normal for the entrance to collapse" she also despite constantly saying i wasn't intersex was visibly disgusted by my biology when she was inspecting it and also ridiculed me for being incontinent and having to remove my (clean) adult diaper for the examination, she and my GP had decided that this visit was about me being "reassured that i wasn't intersex" and not about actually trying to find out what was going on with my body, because of this my gender therapist no longer believes me when i say that i am intersex even though it is becoming more and more obvious as i see my symptoms of male puberty crop up stronger and stronger without any form of hormone replacement therapy, it's worth noting also that while i have no proof that this examination was what made my gender therapist decide to stop helping me, the conversation we had where i told her how the visit to the gyno went was the last one we had if i remember correctly before she started ghosting me
also side note; my gyno literally tried to make me afraid of getting further examined by her using the medical equipment by showing me a speculum (not sure if im spelling that right since ive never seen the word written down, just going off auto correct here) and telling me how it would be really painful especially if i was getting smaller down there, saying to her assistant "the plastic one hurts more show her that one" so yeah i agree that going to the gyno can 100% be traumatising
i just got back from my first ever gynecological exam and somehow, despite the doctor being really nice and way more knowledgeable about trans bodies than i was expecting, it still ended up being incredibly upsetting and honestly probably mildly traumatizing. i’m sure it’s no secret to anyone following me that going to the gynecologist is a uniquely shitty experience for a lot of trans guys and i knew that but i really was not prepared for that.
first of all, everything you read says that the pelvic exam and pap smear shouldn’t hurt even if they’re super uncomfortable, but let me tell you, that shit fucking hurt. like, i have a pretty high pain tolerance and usually even when something does hurt i don’t show it very much, but that was maybe the most painful thing i’ve ever had a doctor do to me and it showed. to be fair, i’ve never had good luck with things like that — i couldn’t even use tampons back when i had a period because the one time i did, taking it out was really painful — and i’m on t now so i’m sure that makes things even harder and i was prepared for it to hurt, but i really wasn’t ready for just bad it was. it’s been an hour since the exam finished and there’s still some pain so, yeah, so much for “it’s just uncomfortable, not painful”.
(and a side note: when it did hurt, the doctor told me to relax my muscles because the tension makes it hurt more. what they didn’t seem to realize is that if your brain and body are collectively rejecting the presence of something inside you, making those muscles relax is a fucking herculean task and i for one was not in any way capable of it so it just…kept getting more painful.)
i also was never informed ahead of time of what a pelvic exam actually entails; i had assumed it was a more general external checkup, and that the pap smear was the only really invasive part. as it turns out, i was very wrong, and “pelvic exam” actually means the doctor sticks their finger up you to feel around. she asked me if i was comfortable getting the exam because it was so obvious that the pap smear didn’t go well, but i had no clue what i was saying yes to and it was a total surprise for me when there was something inside me again. and she knew it was my first time, so she had no reason to assume i knew that the exam would be like. by the time i realized i absolutely should not have said yes to it, i was too late and it was already happening. it really feels like common sense that if you’re going to be giving someone what basically amounts to a professional fingering, you should probably make it clear that that’s what’s about to happen, but i guess that doctor would disagree.
and of course, the whole time i was also being misgendered. the doctor used the right name for me, but the other staff didn’t and everything about it was so excessively gendered (i’m pretty sure the appointment i had was literally called a “women’s wellness visit�� on the same sheet that had trans man and nonbinary as gender options). not to mention, when i told them i’m getting top surgery and have the exact date set, the nurse made a comment to like“well aren’t you one of the lucky ones,” which really felt like it had “i think trans guys have a super easy time getting surgeries that cis women have to fight for” energy.
and the irony of all this definitely isn’t lost on me — i just did a project this past semester about how trans guys are fucked over by reproductive healthcare practices so a lot of us just never go, and now i got some firsthand experience in exactly why so many of us just say “no fucking way”.
i just want to put this out there for anyone who hasn’t done it before because i think this would have been a lot less awful for me if someone had just told me “yeah, it might hurt way more than you think, and also that thing they call a pelvic exam is actually an internal exam.” i thought i was prepared and i totally wasn’t, so hopefully this will reach someone else who will be better off knowing all of this.
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shamelessanxioushamster · 2 years ago
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tw: mental health struggles/chronic pain/healthcare/talk of medications
i am genuinely so fucking angry. Im going to be suffering with this for years to come and all they have me was a shitty little leaflet that was the bare bones of symptoms and how it can affect you, barely touched on how it affects the rest of my body and how i live my life and between my anxiety and the fact that i didnt know enough about the condition i didnt know what queations to ask to get the information i need.
Now i cant even fucking talk to the doctors because they dropped me to be referred to therapy ebcause thats the cause of all my fucking problems, and even the PT isnt contacting me anymore. I have literally been abandoned until whenwver i get assigned my therapist. I was added to the wait list in December 2021. It has been months since then. I have only just even been evaluated, not even in person it was over a phone call. I havent been told any timeframes and i need to get on another wait list to even think about getting tested for ADHD/ADD.
Beyond that, the therapists and my GP arent even giving me the anti depressants the doctor i spoke to said he would get me on, until ive been through therapy. Oh yeah. And he never sent the email to my GP which he said he would do.
Its been months and im alone in this. I have to work for months and years for the therapy to take an affect on my mindset to start helping my bodily reactions to my anxiety and depression, and within that time my chronic pain and joint condition is worsening, and taking its toll on my body.
This makes my mental health worse, which in turn makes my condition worse.
I am stuck in a loop that i cannot fucking get out of.
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erixyin · 4 years ago
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MLQC Boys as somethings I’ve said to my boyfriend:
Gavin:
“If i commit murder would you rat me out or join me and be my partner in crime?” “... yes”
*falls off the bed* “this is ILLEGAL!”
*gets stuck in a video game* “i dont need help!” *5 minutes later* “i need help!”
“I love you but could you not” [in reference to him changing while im trying to write an essay]
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN CRIMINOLOGY ISNT THE STUDY OF HOW TO BE A CRIMINAL”
*everytime he starts the car* “eheheh vroom vroom”
“SIR I AM CALLING THE POLICE” “you’re the one under arrest”
“What do you mean i cant have chicken nugs for tea again?”
*him walking in and seeing me wearing his hoodie. Looks away and blushes*
“Dry my hair wind!” “The wind accepts his fate”
“Gimme hugs gimme hugs gimme hugs *hugs* yes sweaty hugs”
“Do you think I’d be a good police officer?” “No”
“Im going to the shops!” “You’re wearing just my hoodie and tshirt” “I’m still going to the shops!”
“So then i realised i couldnt go to the GP- OMG DOGGY DOGGY DOGGY DOGGY WHAT A GOOD BOI” [the doggo in question is across the very busy road and is wearing a coat <3]
*gives me head pats* “am cute”
“We could illegally watch the movie...?” “YOU WOULDN’T STEAL A CAR”
Kiro:
*after a lengthy discussion about how i shouldn’t buy it” “ok but hear me out...it has ears”
“I bought 6 packets of laces” “why?” “Because I’ll eat 3 packets by myself”
*going to mcdonalds* “NUGS NUGS NUGS NUGS NUGS NUGS NUGS”
*both of us singing pitch perfect word for word*
🎶 “why can i not spell this word, spell this word, pull this word. Why can i not spell this word FOR AN ENTIRE GODDAMN HOUR” 🎵
“My abs are underneath a layer of squish for warmth through winter” “same!”
“Pay attention to me ;-;” “but but but” “put the doggo down”
“Am burrito” *is a burrtoed into my blanket*
*makes cat hiss noies when trying to steal my nugs* “a violent sushi roll”
*after trying to remember my password for Moshi monsters* “I DID IT IM A HACKER”
*bf does a puzzle that ive been stuck on for 20 minutes* “JESUS CHRIST ITS JASON BOURNE”
*me booping his arms and chest* “squishy and muscle. Squishy and muscle. Squishy and muscle...”
*ordering a takeaway* “LORD AM ABOUT TO BE CHONCCY”
Victor:
“Work is difficult and life is hard” “ill give you a kiss if you finish a paragraph?” “WAIT TEN MINUTES”
“I need moral support for this essay” “it’s 3am?” “As i said i need moral support”
“But can i-“ “no”
“Hear me out you’re cute” “no”
*dying of laughter after putting cat ears on him* “childish”
“There should be a cereal called breaking fast with blue marshmallows in it and sponsored by breaking bad” “... that’s not terrible”
“Why am i a gullible idiot?!” *after 4 games of chess and losing 4 times* “but you’re my cute, gullible idiot”
“Um can i have a coffee ple-“ “no” “but why?” *intense stare* “I’ll have a hot chocolate”
*walking in wearing a suit* “YOU GOT A FINE ASS BOI” *his friend looking at him. Him wanting to bury his head into the void*
*singing off key and drunk* “I’M TOO HOT!” :D :D :D :D “.... hot damn”
*plays chopsticks on the keyboard* “do you wanna be in my band?”
“Law and order again?!” “IT’S EITHER LAW AND ORDER OR SAY YES TO THE DRESS WHAT DO YOU WANT”
“Disney film night!” *deflated sigh*
*in front of his frens in a alt store* “which collar should i get?” *bats eyes innocently*
*wakes me up at 8am* “an UNGODLY time” “no”
Lucien:
*listening to him explain a fish to me* “hehehe puffer fishy be so chonccy”
“I found you this rock!” “Excellent”
*wearing his jacket* “NOODLE ARMS ATTACK” “aaaa so scary”
*puts his hand on my thigh* “NOT IN PUBLIC” “but why?”
“This is my plant Dave the cactus, and this is my plant medusa the snek plant, and this is my plant sam the mini cactus and this is my plant...” *look of adoration*
*drags him away from his laptop to go to bed*
*after talking about trust issues because of my ex* *him: gets up* “where are you going?” “To commit murder”
*plays with his hair and he purrs*
*hot water bottle on tummy* “i am an egg in pain” “the cutest egg tho”
“DOGGY” “thats a fox dear” “SNEAKY DOGGY”
*having a an in-depth discussion on evolution* *5minutes later* “do you think the T. rex went extinct because he couldnt applaud his friends and died out of sadness?”
*i’ve killed him. He’s dead” “ill get the body bag” “my poor goldfish- WHAT”
*sits next to him wearing a hoodie and thigh highs* “you’re distracting me” “I’m just breathing” “yes”
*going to dance clubs always ends up with me against a wall*
*is wearing a cute bodycon dress with mesh panels* “we’re gonna be home early”
*what do you think of my new fishnets? *runs finger down them* “asmr all the time”
*me feeling insecure* “i think I’ve gained weight” “great then my plan i working! You will be healthy!”
Shaw:
*accidentally walks out of a shop holding a key ring i havent bought* “im a criminal [crying]” “a terrible one too”
*is 3months younger than me* “you’re so old” “you’re the one who looks 5 years older than you are” “take that back!”
“You can’t wear your leather jacket to a formal event” “fucking watch me”
*kisses and dancing in the rain*
“Idiot” *wtaches me splash in all the puddles like a child*
*watches me cry over a tiny snail i found* “i love this you”
“Omg look at this SNALLLL!” “Snail?” “SNALLLLL”
“I have so much debt” “its because all of the McNugs you buy”
“Help me dye my hair?” “Certainly that will be £300” “aaaaa”
“You’re so mean!” “I have to be otherwise you’ll never learn” *talking about watching another episode of game of thrones*
*has to look away for some game of thrones scenes* “a fragile child” “im older than you”
“Can i paint your nails?” “Yeah my masculinity ain’t fragile” “can i paint them holo?” “No”
*cuddling* “you smell” “do you want sex or not” “you smell lovely”
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michaelreaderreblog · 6 years ago
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My truemate pt13
AN: The long wait is now over. I dont remember if I even edited this but if I didnt. I am so sorry. I was getting another thing going and “editing” at the same time. Anyways, My truemate is finally up and will continue going. Sorry for the long silence, dreadful cage. Sorry wont go into a personal rant. Enjoy my loves!! Tag list is there. If you’d like to be added to the tags please send a message. I hope I got everyone for the tags, I know last time I didnt. Ok enjoy my sweeet darlings. Yes my inner Freddie Mercury is appearing.
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After a few minutes have gone by is when the both of you hear the garage door open and he gets straight to work with the deliveries he will be doing.
His phone rings and he is all business for the rest of the day.
“Well that was rather interesting” you say to break the silence after taking a sip from your cup of coffee.
“I suppose it rather is” Castiel says with a smile still spread across his face
You could feel that he is feeling rather content about Dean serving him breakfast when he almost forgot that he is suppose to be working.
“After we are done here, we can start working and one question though?” you say getting up to put your plate away into the sink, you really needed to get on the dishes.
“Geez, I'll get this later, I have a few things to do before I do the dishes” you mutter to yourself.
“My car got delivered to the house before getting here and thats how I got myself here” Castiel says from the table while he sill eating the food Dean has served him.
“Damn, thats right. Is it alright if we used your car to delivery the party favours?” you ask from the kitchen.
“Yeah, I dont see that as a problem. You finished them already?” he asks as he gets up from the table to bring over his dirty dishes to place into the sink to as well.
“Yeah I got them done last night when I couldnt sleep” you tell him while getting the water ready.
You decided to wash the dishes and setting them on the rack for them to dry.
“Anything troubling you, why you couldnt sleep?” he asks standing beside you as you begin to rinse out the suds from the plates.
“Uh, yeah” you answer him quietly.
“Do you want to talk to me about it?” he asks in sympathy.
“When we first moved here and sort of got settled into the house. We decided to head out for supper and when we got to the diner there was this douchey pervert that grabbed me. He was just so aggressive and the things that he said just made me feel so like Im only useful for one thing. The things that he wanted to do to me just scared me so much that something could happen at any given time and I feel that this will not be the first.” You tell Castiel as you try not to break down in front of him but he can sense that you fear there is going to be more trouble a head.
“Hey, hey, hey, dont worry about a thing ok. You have two caring, loving, protective brothers who are willing to do anything for you. I for one will not let anything happen to you and we need to tell my father about this and soon. At the same time you can go to the police about this. They take Omega rights very seriously, trust me when I say that” he says as he takes you into his arms and embraces you into a tight hug.
You accept the embrace right away and feel yourself calming down by the gesture.
“You know, we have known each other for a day and I feel like I have known you my entire life” you say as a smile creeps at the corners of your face.
“Well I think its because we are family in ways, I mean Im your brothers mate and you’re my brothers mate” as he says that you pull away slowly to look at him in the eyes.
“He told you that?” you ask in a hushed tone.
“Yeah he told me yesterday and he also mentioned that he is feeling rather conflicted because he has Anna. She has told him before that she would let him go if his true mate ever came along. I advised him to talk to her right away and well end things because I would rather have him truly happy then not knowing what its like to be with someone as his equal” he says as he places his hand on your shoulder.
“You know I was feeling rather jealous about her the day before when I met her. She is so sincere, kind and beautiful. I was telling Dean that she is so lucky to be waking up beside him, going home to him every night while I sit here thinking that should be me because he is my true mate” you tell him as you rewash the plate over and over again.
He stops you from rewashing the plate for millionth time and places it in the rinse water and on the dish rack.
“I had a feeling you would say something like that and you would be feeling this way. Y/n believe me when I say this, Michael will do the right thing here and talk to Anna about all of this. He has always believed in true mates from when we were growing up and he would always tell my brother well my late brother and I how he would be so happy when he found his equal. How he would have the perfect family to call his own and to protect whats his if anyone threatened his family. I always wanted them to be truly happy and find the mates that they belonged to and I still want that for Michael. There is no need to be feeling jealous alright? Anna should be the one to be jealous since I am very certain she knows about the true mate thing already” Castiel says as he looks into your eyes and the one thing you held onto the most was him referring to his late brother and as you saw him mention him you could see the pain spread across his face while he mentions him.
“Late brother? What happened? Sorry its just your expression completely changed at the mentions of him. Again sorry if you dont want to talk about it than I understand��� you say as you continued washing every single dirty dish, utensils, pots, and pans until the dish rack is filled with the mornings servings and last night.
“No its fine, I would have to talk about this sooner or later. Im also guessing you have been wondering why I asked if your brothers were Alpha's” he says as he goes back to the table to have himself seated.
You follow right behind him and do the same thing at the table across from him.
“A few years after I presented Omega and after one of my heats my brother Lucifer, is his name by the way. After one of my heats he told me to stay home just until my scent had gone away completely. I told him that it would be fine and how much I really wanted to get out of the house to see my friends whom I havent seen in a week. While he has told me countless times to stay home I didnt listen to him and I went out anyways. As I was walking through the square to meet up with my friends, I was followed little ways and then a van pulls up beside me. The man who followed me was Alpha, he came running behind me told me how ripe my scent was and told me how amazing I would be for one of his bosses brothels and make millions off of me. He drugged me, another man pulled me into the van and took me to an old warehouse outside of town. I woke up in this empty room, looked around to get up from the chair only to see Im tied to it. I managed to get my phone from my pocket to send an emergency text to my brother, he responded and found me on the GPS system that was turned on from my phone. I heard someone walking down the hall and I was still out of it from the drugs and pretended to be out again. Lucifer came into the room and I felt someone trying to cut through the rope and I was trying to resist the person until I heard his voice telling me who he was and he was going to get me out of there. Suddenly that turned for the worst when the three men who abducted me came back to the room to transfer me some where else is what Im guessing. They saw my brother, attacked him, he fought back and one of them came at me but I managed to kick him in his groin and he fell to the floor while my brother yelled at me to make a run for it. I didnt want to leave him behind but he pushed me towards the door and I ran. I ran so fast like my life depended on it, I got to his car and drove little ways away from the warehouse to call the police for help. Within minutes they all came, they managed to capture one of them while the other two fled. The paramedics came out with a body and one of the officers told me to identify the body which I did. As they lifted the sheet from his face, thats when I went completely numb and couldnt believe that was my brother. I was frozen until they moved him away from me and thats when I went frantic told them he was only sleeping and that I should take him home. The officer told me my brother was gone and he risked his life to save mine. For so many years I have blamed my biology for his death, blamed it on me when I knew I should have stayed home when he told me to, and I blamed myself for everything that has gone wrong that day. After we had the funeral I stayed home, locked myself in my room or at times I would lock myself in my brothers room and I would go through his things and I would wear his clothes. My parents and Michael saw how I was and I knew they didnt like how I was dealing with everything. Until Michael thought it would be a good idea for me to move with him to Portland where he went to school, he told my parents but they didnt like that idea so much and my dad finally said ok maybe it would be a good idea to get away for while. I did move to Portland with Michael, he went to school, I enrolled in school to take this graphic design program for the two years I was there. Michael graduated, we came home, he found himself a place to live and I moved back in with my parents because my mother didnt like the idea of me living by myself. I graduated the program online not to long ago and here I am sitting with you, telling you about my story on how I lost my brother. Well how my parents lost a son, and how Michael lost a brother as well” Castiel tells his story as tears streamed down his face as you sit there surprised he hasnt broken into a sob while telling you what happened all those years ago.
You place your hand over his that are placed over the table
“Now I understand why you asked if my brothers were Alpha's. I am so sorry about your brother. You know what your brother did was a courageous thing for you to be here. If that was you than you would have never met your true mate who happens to be Dean. I think he would have never found his true mate if the tables were turned. Like you want for Michael I would love for Dean to have. Castiel you are living proof you are meant for something so beautiful that no one could ever have because of the circumstances that has taken a twist in life. Living proof that you are meant to live a long happy life even if that doesnt include your brother. You are an amazing person and you are worth it, even if you cant see it but I do. Dean sees it to along with Sam even though we have only known you for a day but still I can feel that from you” you tell him as you wipe away the tears from his face and kiss his forehead.
While you did that he still has his head down looking to the table top and closes his eyes when your lips meet his fore head.
“You really are a lovely person you know that, I know it takes a while to get back to my normal self. By being with you I feel like I can grasp something of myself from years ago and now I am getting the feeling I can fully appreciate the little things in life again. Now I am really happy I have taken this job opportunity with you and I thank you for all of this” he says as he lifts his head to get a good look at you and tell you while he gazes into your eyes.
You were cut off by the door bell ringing and you get up from the chair to answer it.
“No let me” he says as he gets up from the table to answer the door and its a customer for the plush toys they have ordered.
You run down the stairs to get the order from your office and run back up the stairs to hand it to Castiel. They say their thank yous and went on their merry way home to surprise the children with such amazing toys to cherish forever.
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huphilpuffs · 6 years ago
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chapter: 25/? summary: Dan’s body has been broken for as long as he can remember, and he’s long since learned to deal with it. Sort of. But when his symptoms force him to leave uni and move into a new flat with a stranger named Phil, he finds that ignoring the pain isn’t the way to make himself happy. word count: 3065 rating: mature warnings: chronic illness, chronic pain, medicine a/n: a huge thanks goes to @obsessivelymoody for beta reading this for me!
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Dan wakes up on Thursday to a heaviness in his chest.
He groans before he even opens his eyes. His face is squished against a pillow, his ribs pressed too harshly against the mattress. Stabs of pain burst between them, make his muscles spasm and send his breath escaping in a stutter. He has to count, one, two, three, four to keep it from happening a second time.
It eases some when he rolls onto his back.
And he tries to comfort himself further by counting out how long it’s been since he’s been able to sleep on his stomach. Too long, probably.
He’s been getting better, though. Even staring at the bedroom ceiling through his tears, Dan knows that. Knows the he’s helped Phil with dinner the last few nights, and managed to handle the curtains being open for a few hours yesterday.
His hand smoothes across his sternum, and he pokes at the painful spots in his sides until the sharpness dulls.
It’s enough to let Dan sit up, then stand on shaky knees. He tosses Phil’s pillow back to where it belongs and tucks the duvet into place to prove the voice in his head, wondering why he’s suddenly worse again, that he’s fine.
And to ignore the second voice, telling him it’s anxiety that causes your pain, over and over again.
His appointment is in a day.
Dan’s hardly slept for three.
He tries to swallow back a sigh. Whatever rush of adrenaline had dragged him out of bed has faded, left fatigue settling heavy in his bones again. He could drag himself to the lounge, curl up in his blankets and continue his new daily routine of watching people on YouTube for hours.
But his body aches and his eyes burn, and he crawls back into bed instead.
The voice in his head grows louder.
Dan grabs Phil’s pillow, clutches it ot his chest and presses his face against the fabric, breathing deeply.
It smells like Phil.
He holds it until he falls back asleep.
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The afternoon drags.
It’s past two when Dan wakes up again. The flat is still empty, the bed unmade again. He crawls out without bothering to fix it, makes himself a sandwich, and settles back on the sofa, where he can rest his head against the cushions and ignore the tightness around his heart.
Every time he turns on his phone, it’s too a notification reminding him he has an appointment tomorrow that has his muscles seizing, making it ache to breathe.
And to a reminder he half regrets setting, since he’s ignored it for days.
Call mum.
There’s only a few hours to follow through with it now.
He glances back at the clock that tells him it’s just ticking past three. Twenty-five hours left, says the voice in his head. It sounds like the last GP he saw, who looked him in the eyes and told him to try acting like he had more energy, who told him it would help.
You should try it, his mum had said afterwards. You never know unless you do.
Dan’s thumb swipes across the screen. He finds her contact, sucks in a breath, and hits the call button.
He doesn’t breathe again until she picks up on the third ring.
“Hi, Dan,” she says.
He hasn’t heard her voice since he decided to stay here. It feels like a lifetime ago, suddenly.
“Hi, mum.”
There’s silence for a long moment. He can hear her breathing over the line, low and steady, and wonders if she can hear the shakiness in his.
“How are you?” she asks
“I’m okay,” he says. “I, uh, have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow.”
“Oh?”
He swallows, nodding even though she can’t see him. “Just with my new GP, but I’m hoping he might be able to help me,” he says. “With, well, you know.”
“I hope he can.”
She sounds sad. It’s been a long time since Dan’s heard that.
“Me too,” he says. And then, because he can’t handle the silence: “But, uh, I was hoping you could maybe help me figure out my medical history, to prepare? I don’t remember all of it from when I first got sick.”
Back when she was responsible for it, he doesn’t say. Back when anyone could keep track of all of it.
“I’ll text it to you, okay?” she says. “I know your memory isn’t always the best, and your wrists tend to ache from writing.”
“Really?” He slams his mouth shut, the click of his teeth probably audible over the phone. “I mean, thanks.”
She chuckles, quiet, distant, like he can hear the miles between them. “I’m not always heartless, you know,” she says.
Dan’s breath comes out in a rush. Guilt bursts in its place, painful, bringing tears to his eyes. And he wants to tell her he never thought she was, but he can’t. She knows he can’t. He doesn’t even know what he thinks about her now, crying, hands shaking as he clutches his phone too tightly.
“Can I ask you something?” she says. “Without you getting mad?”
“Yeah.”
“How are you doing?” she says. “I know you don’t think your problems are with your mental health, and I’m not implying they are–” the not this time goes unspoken “–but I know you’ve had bad experiences with doctors and you’re my son.”
His breath catches. A tear rolls down his cheek, and he wipes it away with his hand.
This is his first appointment without her, he realizes. The first one in six years that she’s not driving him to, waiting outside or sitting next to him for the length of it. The first time she won’t smooth his hand over his knee in the waiting room, telling him it’ll be okay, that doctors can be trusted, even though they’d been proving otherwise for so long.
“I’m okay,” he says. “Phil’s coming with me.”
“That’s good,” she says, like she means it. “I am glad you have him, you know.”
He almost reminds her what she thought of him living with Phil last time they spoke, but his heart aches and his eyes are stinging and he doesn’t want to fight, not this time.
“Me too,” he says. “He’s the best, mum.”
She sounds like she’s smiling when she says: “I’d love to meet him, one day.”
Dan swallows. He can hardly picture it, bringing Phil back to a house filled with terrible memories and people he still doesn’t trust entirely. And yet there’s a tug in his chest, a bittersweet image forming in the back of his mind.
He doesn’t say anything.
Neither does she, for a while.
“I should get going,” is what she ends up saying. “As long as you’re okay? I’ll text you your medical information in a little bit.”
“Okay,” he says. “I’m okay. Thank you.”
She hums. “And Dan?”
“Yeah?”
“You should call your grandma. She misses her sofa buddy.”
He chuckles. It aches. Suddenly, he’s exhausted again. “Okay. I will,” he promises. “And mum?”
“Yeah?”
“No news is good news, okay? If I don’t call you after the appointment, I mean.”
“Okay,” she says. “Bye.”
“Bye.”
The line goes dead.
His head falls back against the cushion and his phone drops onto the sofa. Tears are rolling down his cheeks, and he’s not entirely sure he knows why.
Or maybe he just can’t untangle all the many, many reasons.
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Phil’s quiet when he gets home.
He takes the smoothie Dan didn’t touch and sets it on the coffee table before dropping onto the empty cushion. His arm is draped across the back of the cushion, his hip just inches from Dan’s, as he turns his gaze to the open laptop, lit up with another Smosh video.
Dan’s been watching them mindlessly since his tears dried on his cheeks.
“This is a good one,” says Phil.
It’s an older one, the production value a little cheaper and humour a tad outdated. Probably more similar to what Phil had watched back at uni, Dan thinks. He tries to imagine it, a younger version of Phil, one with longer hair and a slightly narrower frame, sitting in a uni room like the one Dan moved out of before coming here.
He hardly can. Maybe because his mind is still muddled, hanging onto words he said during the phone call, onto all the things he should have said but didn’t.
“It is,” he says, just as the video ends.
He doesn’t start a new one.
Phil’s fingers sweep across his shoulder. In Dan’s peripheral, he can see Phil turn to look at him, but he doesn’t look back.
“Are you okay?” asks Phil.
Dan swallows. There’s a lump in his throat, a pressure behind his eyes so harsh it aches.
“Didn’t sleep very well,” he says.
Phil squeezes his shoulder. “I know.”
That makes the corner of his mouth quirk up. Of course Phil knows. He was there, arms wrapped around Dan as he fidgeted, tossed, and turned. His hands had combed through Dan’s hair, and his quiet questions about if Dan was okay were mumbled against his shoulder, his reassurance felt in his touch.
Phil usually falls asleep pretty quickly, Dan’s learned. Last night, he didn’t.
The hand at his shoulder tightens. Dan finally turns to face Phil.
“Is that all that’s bothering you?”
His eyes are soft, almost sad, as his hand rubs gentle circles against Dan’s skin. He knows. He must know something’s up. Dan has to remind himself that Phil’s seen him after countless sleepless nights, curled up in soft blankets on the sofa and dozing when his mind gets too tired to keep racing.
Today isn’t like that.
Dan reaches out to rest a hand on Phil’s knee, needing to feel grounded, as the first tear rolls down his cheek. Phil draws him closer, so Dan’s head is by his shoulder, his tears dripping down onto the fabric of Phil’s shirt.
There’s no pressure, none but the weight of Phil’s hand on his shoulder, when Dan says:
“I called my mum.”
Phil goes tense. “Oh,” he say. “How did that go?”
Dan swallows. “I don’t know.”
He really doesn’t. His chest feels too full with contradictions, the weight of past accusations crashing up against her understanding tone and he doesn’t know what to think anymore. He’s never been sure how to exist around her, not since pain first settled in his bones and she told him it was growing pains, it would pass, it would get better.
And it never did.
“I haven’t talked to her since I told her I was staying in Manchester,” he says, maybe as an afterthought, maybe because it’s felt heavy on his shoulders since he answered the phone.
“Was she nicer this time?”
He nods. Another tear falls. “She’s texting me my medical history,” says Dan. “She offered, because she– she knew I had trouble writing and remembering.”
Phil hums. His breath has gone even again. His mouth is close to the top of Dan’s head. He sounds hesitant when he speaks. “It sounds like she cares.”
Dan feels that, sharp and painful in his gut. Another tear rolls down his cheek, and his breath catches, and Phil holds him tighter like he’s scared Dan will fall apart.
Maybe he will.
It’s been so long,
He’s been so that sure she doesn’t actually care.
Now, he doesn’t know what to think.
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His mum texts him.
Dan almost cries. His teeth dig into his lip and his ribs ache and he stares, wide-eyed, at the list of diagnoses and unexplained symptoms he’s had over the years. There’s the migraines they never treated at the beginning, the lightheadedness it took them four years to explain, the instructions to do more exercise that dot the whole six years that he’s been ill.
The first time he went to therapy, and the antidepressants they put him on, and the second time he went to therapy.
And every time he told his doctor he was still sick after that.
Phil’s hand lands on his wrist, gently pushing the phone from Dan’s line of sight. His voice is barely a whisper when he says: “Are you okay?”
Dan swallows. His throat aches.
Laid out like this, it doesn’t look that bad, a distant voice in his head that’s haunted him for too long tries to remind him that maybe he’s just making it all up. Maybe it wasn’t that bad. But Dan can remember the A&E doctor who turned him away because it was growing pains. Can remember the so many times his blood pressure was low before anyone bothered to point it out.
The time his doctor looked at him and said–
“Can we do something?” says Dan. “I want to– I need a distraction.”
Phil nods. In Dan’s peripheral, his phone screen goes black. The knot in his chest loosens, just a bit.
“Wanna play video games?” says Phil.
He shakes his head. “Wanna go out. It’s been too long.”
Phil’s brows furrow, like he’s about to point out that there’s a reason it’s been so long, about to warn Dan that he doesn’t want to make himself sick before such an important day.
Except part of Dan does. He’s done it before, forced himself to be in pain because maybe that way the doctors would actually see that he wasn’t lying. Not that it’s ever worked.
“Please?” he says.
Phil squeezes his wrist. “Okay.” His thumb drifts across Dan’s, careful and comforting. “Where do you want to go?”
---
Dan squeezes into his skinny jeans, even though the fabric burns his legs. He pulls a shirt over his head for what feels like the first time in forever. Though his knees are shaky, he bends down to tie his own laces, as Phil watches from where he’s leaning against the door.
“Are you sure about this?”
He reaches out, without a word, to help Dan stand again.
“I’m sure,” says Dan. “And don’t worry, you won’t need to take me to A&E this time.”
The corner of Phil’s mouth quirks up, and Dan knows he’s forcing it. He can feel his worry in the too-tight clench of Phil’s hand around his, the way his gaze trips over Dan legs when he wobbles as he stands.
He squeezes Phil’s fingers, forcing a smile of his own, as he opens the door.
It’s warm outside. The sky’s going purple as the sun sinks below the city. Dan realizes, staring up at it, that he hasn’t left the flat since he trip to A&E, hasn’t enjoyed being outside in far too long.
If his joints would let him, he’d suggest they walk around a bit. Instead, he stares up at the clouds and reminds himself to spend more evenings, when the sun won’t burn his eyes, on their little balcony, just to feel the wind against his cheeks again.
Phil tugs on his hand when the cab pulls up in front of them. They pile in, side by side in the back seat. Dan doesn’t put on his seatbelt. He can’t be bothered to deal with the harsh rub of fabric against his ribs.
His chest is still tight, the quiet buzz of anxiety at the back of his mind growing louder. He can still feel his phone, heavy in his pocket, can still imagine the text he hasn’t yet responded to. He can remember their last movie night, laughing and gasping and falling asleep with Phil’s hands trying to massage the pain away.
They hadn’t even gone out last time.
Dan stares out the window and hopes he can keep his promise that it’ll be okay this time.
They slip out of the car at the cinema. Phil pays the driver. Dan leans against the wall as he waits, wondering if the lines inside are long. It’s been so long since he’s been to the cinema, he can hardly imagine it anymore. The screens usually hurt his eyes and the audio gives him a headache and he doesn’t care today.
“You okay?”
Phil’s smiling at him, standing by the door. He holds it open for Dan, and buys their tickets for a random comedy neither of them particularly wanted to see. He lets Dan go find a seat as he buys them popcorn, soda, and a chocolate bar to share. He hands it over, in the darkness of the theatre, with a smile.
Between them, their knees bump together as the film starts.
---
They’re holding hands when it ends.
Dan’s eyes are starting to burn and his chest aches from laughing, but the voices in his head have dulled just enough that he can breathe a little easier. He doesn’t think about the appointment he needs to show up to tomorrow, or the doctor he hasn’t met yet who might dash his hopes all over again.
He stares at their joined hands as the cinema empties, smiling.
“You ready to go home?” says Phil.
Dan shrugs. He probably should give his spine a break by sinking into the sofa again, close his eyes against the bright lights of the city before a headache wells in his temples. But he doesn’t want to sit in the dark and wait until tomorrow, letting his fears return.
“Can we get pizza?”
“You up to walk?”
He nods. Phil helps him to his feet and leads him out of the cinema. He knows Manchester better than Dan does, and tells a story about coming to watch movies with Ian when he was younger as they find the nearest pizza place. Dan listens, maybe more attentively than he needs to, to keep his mind from going hazy as the city moves around him.
There’s still a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.
Dan wonders if him of a few years ago would have believed that he’d end up here.
The restaurant they end up in is small and quiet, and they slide into a booth in the corner of the room. Dan sinks back against the cushion, realizing that Phil’s smiling, too.
His chest feels warm. His fingers twist in the tablecloth, because part of him misses holding Phil’s hand.
“Thanks for tonight,” says Dan. “I had fun.”
Under the table, Phil knocks their feet together.
“I did too,” he says.
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yuudefensesquad · 6 years ago
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i saw some post (I can’t find it rn tho) and it was basically someone just ranting about how much they hate yuu and how much he’s whiny and stupid and manipulative (?????how) and how his actions aren’t valid and how Mika has gone through sooo much more than him and I was fucking out the door getting my gps ready to find this bitch and THROW HANDS hhfjvkdkfkam im so done with people like let him live???? istg
takeashoteverytimesomeonesaysmikagoesthroughworsethanyuuandimpliesyuuisfineinthesameexactbreathidbearagingalcoholic! trauma isn’t a fucking competition you dolts!
also yuu hasn’t even whined about life once in the past few volumes. maybe when he was an angsty teen but he was recently fucking traumatized and anyone who holds his PTSD against him can meet my trauma blade.
BUT ANYWAYS
that’s the funny thing anon.
you know… people get away with it too. posts like that get likes and reblogs and people being like “ugh big mood me too big same!! me me me!!! i agree op youj’re so right op fuck yuu fuck his entire character he’s stupid go die!!!” and then they are ilke “ohp watch out the scary yuu stans are gonna come and maul you!!!” when really yuu stans see this shit all the time we are numb to it we aren’t going to attack you bc if we attacked everyone who shat on him for no reason we’d have to attack a lot of the fandom.
youtube comments usually have “mika >>> yuu” or “yuu is a bad protagonist and a bad character mika is so much better” or “yuu is so annoyinggg lmaooo he’s so maad eren jaeger rip off” and tumblr posts feature paragraphs of calling yuu a horrible person or reasoning why mika deserves better than him
and while you can have opinions, it’s completely fine to like mika over yuu, it’s completely fine to dislike yuu, you shouldn’t base your opinions on exaggerated features or, worst of all, fanon.
i’m just so tired. lol. because reading this i wasn’t like whO DArE sSAyT hIS abOUt MY b aBY im just “yup. they do that. and there’s nothing you can do to change their minds. that’s just how they roll. that’s their opinions as harsh as they may be that’s their choice.”
just saying but if you have to degrade a character to put yours up, maybe you have the entire “best character” idea messed up. what i’m basically saying is that if you have to reason it with “x is bad that’s why i like x!” your “favorite character” view is skewed. like do it as much as you want but it’s not a healthy mindset. you should like a character for their character, not how much “Better” they are than another. that’s just spiteful.
you know how painful it is for yuu to get some important development, some important backstory, like something really meaningful to him and people don’t… ever pay attention to it? like i’ve seen no theories, no headcanons, no ideas, no ppl ScReaMing  (i hope it’s just the lack of numbers in this side of the fandom and i’m just being a greedy yuu stan who wishes my boy got a little more love. he may be popular but sometimes the attention is negative or his attention is shared with another character… i digress).
at least, i’m not saying they have to and please don’t get that mixed up and say i’m just being a biased yuu stan who only cares abt yuu, it’s just a common reoccurrence that i have noticed spending my time as a beginner mika stan and formed into a yuu stan. i’m not mad. just dubious.
just… being in the fandom, you learn that yuu is not the fandom favorite or that he’s loved by all. he’s not that loved compared to several other characters and i can learn to live with that. when he gets attention it’s usually about shipping or shared with mika (and while i am a shipper, it’s kind of rough). say i’m throwing a pity party all you want, i do not care, i love my boy and i want him to get the happiness he deserves. i guess that means i’ll just love him in the spots where others lack. that’s where i take the negativity and turn it into something positive.
ignore them, anon. they have a right to say their opinion on a public website anyway, but you have a right to love yuu even more because of the backlash he often gets. (and people are gonna argue and say that he doesn’t bc of protagonist syndrome but i’ve seen a lot of people harshly criticize his character and if you open your eyes there’s a fuckton of people not fond of him)
but yeah that was my rant.
AND THIS IS ALL MY OPINION. PLEASE DO NOT FLAME ME. I AM WILLING TO DEBATE BUT THIS ISN’T MEANT TO TRASH PPL PLEASE SPARE ME
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chiefdancingbear · 7 years ago
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Winchesters: New Beginnings
Good Morning! I know its been a while since you all saw Dean and Sam, so I thought it high time to bring them back! So I hope you all are ready for this one! 
Dean and Sam had driven back into town one sleepy night. Dean was at the helm, talking to Baby. 
“Just a few more miles and you can rest Baby” he cooed. Sam looked over at Dean and then shook his head before returning to his nap. They had been in the car for several hours and both were just about ready to drop. They had come back around to this town that they had once called home in hopes that they could actually have a place to call home. It was more of an attempt made by Sam who wanted to feel more grounded than anything else. His thoughts on the matter, if asked, was somewhere where they could go to get away from the job than anything else. 
Dean, thinking back on the conversation he had with his brother had laughed when he heard the word NewCrest come out of Sam’s mouth. 
“What’s wrong with NewCrest?” Sam asked, puzzled.
“What’s wrong with NewCrest?! Are you out of your mind?! Don’t you remember the doppelgangers? Apparently not. There were two idiots running around calling themselves Jensen Ackles and Jared Padelecki. Everyone believed they were playing us! US!! Like we weren’t real people or something. Oh, and don’t get me started with those aliens!!” 
That silenced Sam for a minute or two. Thinking he’d won the argument, Dean smirked. Sam on the other hand decided to take it a different route altogether, “have we ever had to go back to places we had already been to while hunting?” 
“No”
“Exactly” Sam said with confidence. 
“That’s your only argument? Really?” he looked at his brother now with a curious stare. 
“That and the fact that I keep tabs on everywhere we go to just make sure that nothing else is lurking. At least for a couple months to a year. Recently, I checked back on NewCrest and there hadn’t been anything for a really long time. Few businesses have popped up, but nothing out of the ordinary. Why are you so against this anyway?” 
“We’re nomads, man. We don’t stick around much.......it seems like trouble follows us everywhere, we have many different identities........there’s no normal for us” 
“Yeah cause we poke our noses in official business because every supernatural thing that happens around us apparently gets publicity or at least the attention of police. Coming back to NewCrest when nothing is going on will be just like a new town to us. No hunting, no fake ids........none of that. It’ll be a place where we can finally get a sense of normal for once.” 
Dean sighed heavily just then, patted Baby’s dashboard, and looked at the gps as he was still thinking about those last words. ‘Normal’ Dean thought and scoffed. What is normal? Finally he spotted the house that Sam had rented out. It was only going to be for a trial run to see how things were going. If it happened to work out, they would purchase it. For now, Dean was happy to think of it as only temporary. “Bro......wake up, we are here” 
“Wonderful” he said grumpily. As Baby sailed to a stop in front of their house, Sam sat up a little more straight, rubbed his face, and woke up a bit. They got out, Dean patted and hugged Baby before getting his things and heading into the house. 
Upon entering the house, it didn’t look like much. There was a kitchenette and a place to sit and eat, beyond that two beds and two showers. That was all they really needed. At least for now. Sam went to the first bed, organized his things, and settled in. Once done, he got ready for bed, but noticed his brother heading outside. 
“Where are you going?”
“To get some fresh air before bed”
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Once outside, Dean started feeling better. ‘Maybe,’ he thought to himself, ‘this wasn’t such a bad idea after all’. Baby, his black 1967 Chevy Impala, was sitting there in front of him and he decided to go over to her. He talked to her for a bit about things with Sam and how he felt about what Sam was trying to accomplish. Then, with a sigh, he decided to sing her to sleep. 
“Dean!” Sam called groggily, “What in blazes are you doing?!”
“I have to sing Baby to sleep! She’s in a new place and it settles her” he responded. Sam made a growl of frustration at the sudden noise that had woken him from his slumber and pulled a pillow over his head to try sleep once more. 
The following day, Dean was up bright and early. Thinking he’d go out to get breakfast and some coffee for him and his brother, he walked to Bearbucks which was just down the street. It didn’t take him long to find a lovely young creature sitting all by her lonesome in a corner. He smoothed his hair back, brushed off some lint off of his shirt that was more imagined than real, and sat down beside her. 
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“Hey, do you come here often?” 
“Do you always use such a corny line like that?” she giggled. 
“Not usually......”
“Maybe you should......it comes off as blissfully clueless and endearing” she said and turned pink. 
“Clueless? Me? I am far from it”
“And you just assume that I am single?”
“Well, are you?”
“At the moment, yes.....I am” 
“I knew it!”
“How though?”
“You’re sitting all alone for one........”
“If I had someone, he COULD be home sleeping. It IS 6am”
“I know enough to know that if I had a girl as gorgeous as you, I wouldn’t let you out of my sight” 
At that she giggled and decided to play along, “Oh be still my heart!” she giggled again. This lead to a really good conversation that ended once she got her drink. She made it back over to him and slipped him a piece of paper and said goodbye. Once gone, he looked at it while sipping at his own coffee, “Well, I’ll be damned.....that line actually worked.....” he muttered to himself as he put the piece of paper with her number on it in his pocket. 
Later, after his coffee, he had ordered another to go for himself and one for his brother too. He even got breakfast for the both of them. Then, as he waited for his coffee, he needed to use their bathroom. Upon entering their bathroom though, he found that they had a tub in there. He first wondered if there was someone who stayed here overnight in the back or something. The second thought that ran into his head was the fact that he still wasn’t clean from the road trip and his place didn’t have a tub.....it only had showers. He locked the door and decided to take his time. 
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 After that, he thought about the woman again and wanted to go out with her. He called her up. 
“We just hung out.....”
“So? Why not make it a day of it? Come out and meet me” he pleaded. She agreed to go to the Blue Bear with him. At the time it seemed like a nice cozy time with the beautiful woman whom he just met, however when they got to the restaurant she ran into old friends. She apologized profusely, but she needed to catch up with them. Dean, being a soft-hearted guy underneath his rough exterior, told her that they could meet another time. 
As he looked about the place, he decided to stay a while and dance some. While dancing though, he spotted a table near by. Another gorgeous woman was sitting with a guy that looked old enough to be her Dad, however, judging by the sound of his voice, he wasn’t her father at all. So, he decided that he should go over and introduce himself to her. 
“Hey there......Im new in town.......my name is Dean” 
“Hello Dean....nice to meet you” 
“And you are......”
“You say you are new in town?” 
“Yeah, just got in yesterday night.......trying to get a feel for this town” 
Their conversation took off from there and it seemed as though, by the minute, the guy was getting more impatient. Dean sensed that he wanted Dean to leave. That only made things more of a challenge for him to stay. Soon, he had her eating out of the palm of his hand.
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After their first kiss, they stood back a moment. Dean was about to speak when the unthinkable happened! There were sparks that seemingly came from her out of nowhere. Startled, he didn’t know exactly what to say or do. When they finally vanished, there......before him......was the same woman who suddenly aged a couple of years. She was old, gray-haired, and with wrinkles. Dean gaped at her. 
“What?!” she said as she sat down gingerly. It looked as though she was in a little pain. 
“You.....you’re......”
“Old? Why yes, I am......you didn’t seem to have a problem with that before”
“You weren’t......a....”
“Gray haired old lady with wrinkles?”
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“Exactly” 
“Its my birthday today, idiot” she said, insultingly.
“Well, happy birthday.....” Dean said and turned around to inwardly cringe before heading back over to the table where the other woman was, still talking to her friends. 
“What’s the matter?” she asked concerned.
“Nothin’......just a little creeped out.......raincheck?” 
“Sure, how bout tonight?” 
“Maybe we could go to Windenburg......I hear there’s a place called The Shrieking Llama? I think we passed that place coming into town.....”
“Sure! I’ll see you then!” 
Walking back, Dean tried to make sense of it all. People erupting in sparkles? Turning old? What was this, some witch that cast a spell while they were gone? He didn’t want to even bring it up to Sam. In fact, he wanted to keep it quiet for a while and snoop some. Sam had a big heart and he had gone through a lot, it was time to give him what he really wanted. 
Upon approaching the house, Dean tried putting a smile on his face and greeted his brother. Sam though, was not to be fooled by anything. 
“Alright, what’s wrong? The chick dump you or something?”
Dean scoffed, “As if any chick would dump someone like me” 
“Yeah, okay, so then what is it?”
“What’s what?”
“Something is bothering you.......I want to know what”
Dean knew he wasn’t going to get out of this and sighed audibly. “Alright, so.....there was this gorgeous young thing at The Blue Bear. We talked, hit it off great, and I even kissed her. Next thing I know, she erupted in sparkles!” 
“Sparkles? As in she was glowing ooooorrrr.....”
“As though she was a sparkler that someone had lit on fire at a fourth of July celebration Sam, come on......stay with me” 
“I am, and you were saying......”
“Yeah, so I didn’t know what to do! I just stood there and the sparkles left, but when they did, she had turned instantly old! Gray hair and all!” 
“That......that is......” he couldn’t even finish. It was nothing like they had ever come across.
“I know! And no one reacted to it........NO ONE! You’d think that if something like that happened, that people would notice and that they WOULD have tried to do something. I was so creeped out that I just.......I just.......” 
“Kissed an old lady?” Sam offered and chuckled a bit. Dean cringed again.
“Stop that......its not funny!”
“It kinda is bro......ha ha......but, that is really strange. I could do research?” 
“This isn’t going to turn into a hunt.....you wanted a place to call home, right?”
“Yeah, but if something is going on that shouldn’t be, isn’t it our job to find out what and stop it from happening?” 
“Yeeeaaah” 
“Then that’s the way it has to be”
“Why is it our job? Why? Can’t we just sit this one out?” Dean looked imploringly at his brother. Sam could see that he truly wanted this opportunity for him. 
“Alright, but lets keep an eye out, right? If it happens again, then we need to start asking around”
“Deal” Dean said, the matter ended. 
The very next day after that, Dean agreed to meet his coffee companion at The Shrieking Llama.  When they met up and went inside, they started having drinks and talking. 
It wasn’t long until someone of consequence had popped in for a beer himself. He noticed that his girl looked annoyed and shook her head. 
“What is it?” 
“My old boyfriend” 
“Hmmm.....” Dean thought for a moment and then said, “did things end badly?” 
“Kind of, hes a bit of a control freak. He’s a bit conservative, whereas I am not” 
“Really.....want to have a bit of fun?” 
“A.....what?” she asked as she was pulled up and dipped for a passionate kiss.
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She had absolutely no time to react, but the minute his lips were on hers, she melted and reciprocated the kiss. That just drove Dean into it more, mostly because she was hot and he really liked her a lot, but also because it just so happened her ex was standing right there. After the kiss ended, she leaned into him and let him hold her. 
“Hey buddy, take a picture......it’ll last longer” Dean laughed. His face went through an array of emotions and landed in disgust as he scoffed and walked out.  
“That was.......ummm.......interesting. Never really thought to do that. He’s not always the nicest guy. I mean he had his moments, but still. And that kiss....”
“What about it?”
“Was it......was it.....”
“Just for show, or did I really mean it?”
“Yeah, that” she blushed. He moved toward her again, gently cupped her face in his hands and kissed her. “Oh.....” she said, and returned the kiss and deepened it. 
“So......wanna play some foozeball?” 
“Sure!” 
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They played a couple of rounds where Dean had won the first round, then celebrated a bit too much. He had to smooth things over after that, apologize, and told her that they could play again. The second time though, she had won. 
“I thought I had you for a second!”
“You almost did, until that last move”
“Yeah, what a boneheaded play” he admonished himself. 
“Awwww” she came over and gave him a little kiss. She thanked him for a great time and said she finally had to go. Once gone, he called his brother over and they bonded over the foozeball table too. Heck, Sam even found himself a girl!
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Toward the end of the evening though, once his brother was gone, he started to flirt with the bartender who just got off her shift. She was a bit taken aback, asked if that lady was his girl, and made a comment about how chummy they looked. Dean offered the suggestion that she and him weren’t serious enough, that he was new to the town, and was looking for fun. Soon, he found himself kissing someone else.
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The following day, Dean got a call to meet his coffee companion at the park in Brindleton Bay. He obliged eventhough she did seem weird on the phone. He hoped things were okay. 
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Once there, they took a picture together and then decided to have a seat on a park bench. The conversation was light and airy, with some flirtatious undertones. 
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Soon they were making out, cracking jokes, and having a good time. Or so Dean thought. Toward the end of their hanging out together, she got serious. 
“Dean, what are we doing?”
“Having fun?” he suggested, curious to know where this was going. 
“No, I mean, us......you and I” she looked at him. His face told her everything. “I knew it.......I fucking knew it........”
“Knew what?” 
“That you were trouble......” she said getting a little upset. It was mostly at herself for falling for Dean, but she couldn’t help projecting it. 
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“Are you kidding me right now?”
“No actually Im not”
“I THOUGHT we were having a good time together.......”
“So did I.......but we thought wrong apparently”
“What changed?” 
“Maybe you kissing that other girl last night had something to do with it?” she folded her arms. This just made Dean even more upset. 
“And who told you I did this?” 
“It doesn’t matter who......”
“It sure as hell does to me” 
“Just answer me one question........are you seeing her again?” her face contorted in jealousy. This just drove Dean to being more sarcastic than anything else. 
“Maybe, if I want to.......” 
“Goodbye Dean......”
“Yeah, same to you sister” he raged. He couldn’t believe it. They weren’t even in a relationship! 
The rest of the day he delve into the mysteries of the night before. It took his mind off of things and before he knew it, he felt better. Only problem was was that he didn’t find much of anything. People looked at him like he was strange, but he didn’t care. He wanted answers. 
Okay folks! That’s it for now! Stay tuned!! Thanks for reading!
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Advice, Anaconda, and Ass: Time to get a mental health care plan and help What suburb are you in mate Is there any free house cleaning services? Cyou need help bud. Go to your GP and get a Due to my back and the stress I am going through my house has become so The NDIS were the ones and I need help badly. I over and over so l Im my money badly I can't pay someone to come out here and do it next week So I need options badly... and I mean badly cause Im tired of my house up cory that has been the case for you. You profile? You had no right need help. can try another agency to provide the services if your not happy. There must be a goveming body to report the agency passed away last year but it never happened and now because of me l've can get. Anyone who doesn't mind a very messy house and smell 50-755 on tuesday? It's not much but I'm very desperate i also did and agree with And Im so scared now. I will take any sort of helpI They do thatl Im a dew. Get her to email them See a doctor. Commit to it and you can get what you want. It one last time. And then the local member Thanks. . Also don't ask me to take pictures the house is too messy and I'm NDIS are the ones who "pay the Are you stl need help? If yes please pnm If the client doesnt have funds-they wont get cover from an 91 already offered he wont accept Im a cleaner and i have never heard of a free Iif you're legitimate, you would qualify for help through So sorry you are mentioned she passed away last year and you say that? Nah uck you t gets easier for you! I cant offer any assistance but I can however offer kindness and I hope this helps some. Best wishes urely you can spare mate, I think it might be a good start to call beyond blue or a crisis hotline just to talk to someone. From the looks this is about more than a messy house. There are people around who care but you won't find them on Facebook. Best wishes. Take care where are you my own. Like I said above I was supposed to have had help with living on my own and it never happened so yeah m screwed and have no clue what to do. Website: https:ww.lifeline.org.au you if you tell me where you are i ahve to work next 2 days i could give you now after to be an asS 2h swear l see you every week asking for free stuff if you are as bad as you claim you would be getting dsp which is 900 a rude gestures best of luck i bried I hope s tuck me this must be a joke surely you find a nice big rope and put your neck into it and do the f you are injured you can go to your doctor and ask the right steps to take to receive help like you are asking for You will need a letter from your doctor to provide to centrelink with details of your injury and if they il have their own doctor look intoit as well If they think your injury is stopping your or much pain then they will put a plan into affect something like maybe an hours clean once a week or maybe 2 1/2 hour's once a fortnight wow this got nasty to0 being reported. That is NOT the way to get help and there are people who actually DO this everyday. It is NOT ok to tel someone to do that and I seriously hope you find some help Contact your local council and speak to your Doctor to Hif stil need some help depending orn Wow how rude are some of you.. and I'm sorry about for you Until that comment Too many video games and they can It's time to get yourself to a docior so you can get some therapy and a once off house painting wouldnt go astray either Let me know who would like to help. True I have seen this guy before asking or ou must be his friend your life out Get a job. Fix yourselfI laziness as an excuse not to get things done. Why should we clean your house for tree. wHat you SAID to him was WAY BEYOND what he said to you Jake. That is NOT ok, and NO it is NOT ok to say that no mater what he said to you. Do unto others what you want done to you, would you want someone teling you to do that? I think not. You need to have a cool down and THINK before you type anymore Either way i am reporting Admin So not necessary you may be eligible for help in the home, check wit be paid. Even for them to clean tour whole house is likely to be under $100. Sounds like you need help though .there are general services you can call like Lifeline or Sane who can tell you where to go next for help untl he commented. I had no issues until what he said d forbid people have disabilities jesus tucking christ hope none of you get injuries and need to rely on others e was told to call his mummy 2h and advice. It doesn t take much to be kind. Yes he is asking a lot and no I wouldn't do it. But he clearly needs help not taken the piss all have problems. God helps those who him don't worry about it. Probably gets off on comments liie ou up for a someday you suter the Borry to hear..call the council and see if they because they very well MAY DO IT and YOUR ass will be on s you that much just ignore it ine it against the LAW to tel someone to go off Also if you don t have basic living skills you may want avent you got any friends to help and you need a better attitude Try joining& posting in this group. They trade items for house as he sounds very aggressive and unstable leave it to eed the better attitude when he just told didnt insult my dead mother and I won't say nothing how does tha sound? ril let him run his mouth about her He can even take u can get help if u genuinely need it it sounds lke from what u said u havent had much luck with ndis in the past My son has a disability and has had success with ndis but we had reports from psychologists and many her if that's how you like it plan and get some reports. Once u have those reports turn up to then ndis office with the reports and ask nicely if they can please is that all you took from tnis post? Not that there is an exdtremely unwell person begging to have l also see a with very away, youre just a troll Unless of course, you're planning nasty responses of hoping they commit suicide that is online bullying and 100% not ok I understand u t not n a good place right now but please don't attack others and take the help that is offlered and use told that by an ex that hit a nerve. That comment was not There are ways to tell people to stop than telling them to kill themselvesThere are A LOT o people who feel for you and want to help you. You need to You were looking for free food last week No ones matter what they said. He should not have said what he did I agree but what YOU SAID was worse someone besides people who your getting cut at on a Facebook buy swap and sell page. You start abusing people when you dont get what you want its no wonder youre being called out njesus take the help mate rf you still have the cats then 100% you need the helpm is no worse than the other
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gulescamisade · 8 years ago
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EARTH:  Bulletin Board
01/08/2639 Dirk Strider updated his status: Hello? Is this gonna send?
Dirk Strider said: Oh fuck, it sent.
Jamison said: Ahoy! Things have gon Frig's frosty rear upended over here and I can imagine there as well! >:(
Terezi Pyrope said: FUCK!! G4HHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Davesprite said: sup ok enough chitchat
Davesprite said: give me a status report
Davesprite said: to sum it all up one minute you were having a family moment so saccharine itd make for a hit abc tv show in the 90s
Davesprite said: youd win tv land awards motherfucker im talking the hippest fashion plate ever nominated for a dude in that year
Davesprite said: and the next youre
Davesprite said: hold on somethings going on with the ship
Jadesprite said: hey!!!
Jadesprite said: if anyone is still getting these messages then meet me in golden valley minnesota
Davesprite said: for an ass kicking
Jadesprite said: maybe!!!!
Davesprite said: on top of the one already written in the cosmos for you
Davesprite said: everyone
Davesprite said: gfdi
Davesprite said: hal you gotta do something
Redglare said: W3'r3 4l1v3. 1t's cold, h3r3. Not sur3 1f w3 c4n us3 loc4t1on tr4ck1ng y3t.
Redglare said: N33d to cons3rv3 3n3rgy.
Davesprite said: jk man keep it chill i know you got it under control
Dave Strider said: anybody know where jade is
Dirk Strider said: She's not here. Dirk Strider said: GPS is going right now.
Dirk Strider said: Jesus, it's calculating forever. What kind of hellscape is this?
Davesprite said: i can guess
Jadesprite said: shes in minnesota
Jadesprite said: im sorry
Davesprite: heading there rn heads up
Davesprite has left the thread.
Dirk Strider said: What's
Dirk Strider said: Anyway, bye.
Dirk Strider said: Jadesprite, how do you know?
Dave Strider said: why are you apologizing Dave Strider said: is she ok
Jadesprite said: i dont know its hard to explain
Jadesprite said: i feel like this has happened to me before
Jadesprite said: i just know thats where she is, or thats where shes going to be
Dave Strider said: thanks jadesprite Dave Strider said: take care of yourself
Jadesprite said: ill try...
Jadesprite has left the thread.
Dirk Strider said: Alright, guys. All I can surmise from this is that we've been seperated into groups. To serve what purpose? Who fucking knows. Dirk Strider said: Apparently, on my end, we're in Texas. Dirk Strider said: ... Damn, really? Texas?
Davenforth Strider said: Fuck texas why the hell does that place even still exist
Jamison Harley: Texas?? Wowzers! We're... I don't know where we are but it's fairly greasy....
Davenforth Strider said: Anyway looks like were in virginia no clue where specifically yet im tryin to scout
Jamison Harley: There are zombies about I can't shoot fo some reason.
Meulin Leijon: Hello.
Jamison Harley: A democratic decision, not because of the grease!
Terezi Pyrope said: @DirkStrider S3ND SOM3 H34T UP H3R3 MOTH3R GRUB W3R3 GONN4 B3 1C1CL3S!!!!!
Terezi Pyrope said: S3ND D4MM1T!
Terezi Pyrope said: OH
Terezi Pyrope said: 1T S3NT
Riley Strider said: FUCK TEXAS.
Dirk Strider said: Alright. I need some of you to PM me everyone that's with you so I can get a head count.
Dirk Strider said: Then I need you guys to figure out where you're at so we can reconvene. If you're all the way in Virginia, then I'm gonna guess we're all over the US.
Dirk Strider said: I know "Minnesota" is a vague location to meet at, but if Davesprite and Jadesprite are already heading there to find Jade, we might as well head that way too.
Porrim Maryam said: Okay, I just read everything.
Porrim Maryam said: I think everyo+ne sho+uld kno+w I'm still o+n the ship. I'm with the kids.
Porrim Maryam said: Damara and Vriska are here to+o+. Porrim Maryam said: The go+o+d news is, we're all o+kay. The bad news is... Vriska hijacked the ship.
Dirk Strider said: ...
Redglare said: 1 pr3sum3 sh3's c4p4bl3 of r34d1ng th1s too, 1n th4t c4s3.
Terezi Pyrope said: VR1SK4 WH4T TH3 FUCK
Lil Hal said: Operation: Turnip Function in progress.
Porrim Maryam said: Oh hey, yo+'re right.
Porrim Maryam said: @Vriska Serket 🖕
Porrim Maryam said: Oh, hey Hal. Can yo+u turn do+wn the interco+m in the nursery? Thanks.
Lil Hal said: Any requests?
Vriska Serket said: I can't 8elieve how l8me you guys are to have to install a totally unhelpful Microsoft Word paperclip app just to get around!!!!!!!!
Porrim Maryam said: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tF7YQKgj1yA Play this fo+r the kids.
Terezi Pyrope said: TH4NK YOU PORR1M Terezi Pyrope said: 1 H4V3 B33N SOOTH3D
Porrim Maryam said: Yo+u're welco+me.
Terezi Pyrope said: BUT NO R34LLY TH4NKS FOR LOOK1NG OUT FOR TH3 K1DS
Meulin Leijon: John says he'd like to punch you in the face, Vriska. But he said it in a manner that conveys some measure of mirth and fondness.
Meulin Leijon: I'm going to take this opportunity to fill out some kind of census. John is here. Kankri is here too. Jade's grandfather has been brandishing a potato gun and just handed me an explosive, as is Jake's grandmother. I can also see the two new people who, evidently, were not in on a scheme to kill us. Meulin Leijon: Oh. And I am Rose. Meulin is here, too. Along with Gamzee. That's probably everyone.
Dirk Strider said: Thanks Rose. I'm gonna guess those extra two are Jude and Joey.
Jude Harley said: yes it's true I'm here
Meulin Leijon: Yes. My head hurts immensely, and looking at this screen is only slightly less painful than looking at our surroundings.
Jude Harley said: I think I'm done with my meltdown to share a theory I have
Davenforth Strider said: Looks like i got lif qirin derek riley penny roxanne koda the mayor big ass clown and littler big ass clown
Dirk Strider said: Cool. Dirk Strider said: Terezi? Redglare? What about you guys?
Jude Harley said: ok I'm just gonna say it Jude Harley said: minnesota is where the crocker corp headquarters is
Redglare: 4ccounts for 3v3ryon3 1n th3 cr3w of my c4st3, your s1bl1ng, M1tun4 4r4n34, D43los and Ny4l4h.
Meulin Leijon: Right. Meulin Leijon: Jane's little crown. It's all rather convenient.
Dave Strider said: also karkat
Redglare said: Y3s.
John Egbert said: vriska, i'm going to punch you in your cheek meat!!!
John Egbert said: oh wait, rose already said that.
John Egbert said: anyway, uh yeah guys jamison fixed my comm. anybody hear news of jade?
Vriska Serket said: I guess you'll have to catch me first! :::;)
Dirk Strider said: Jade is in Minnesota. Presumably at the Crocker Corp. HQ. Dirk Strider said: Also, let me get a list going here.
Dirk Strider said: ...
Dirk Strider said: Nobody has Roxy or Jake with them?
Redglare said: Do3sn't s33m.
Dirk Strider said: James, Calliope and/or Caliborn aren't accounted for either. Dirk Strider said: Fuck. Maybe they're together somewhere and they aren't checking their shit. Hold up. I'll PM them.
John Egbert said: :(
Sollux Captor said: hey tz, if y0u're still reading this... i h0pe y0u're n0t 0ut there driving a car s0mewhere.
Terezi Pyrope said: H3Y SOLLUX
Terezi Pyrope said: 1D K1LL FOR 4 C4R
Terezi Pyrope said: ON3 ON ON3 F1GHT W1TH 4 CHOL3RB34R, TH4TS M3
Sollux Captor said: plz d0 n0t fight bears.
JOHN: don't worry ...whoever got kidnapped! if you got kidnapped! we'll save you!
Terezi Pyrope said: 1LL F1GHT 4 B34R 1F 1T M34NT TR4NSPORT4T1ON 4ND 4D3QU4T3 H34T1NG
Terezi Pyrope sent FUCKSNOWH4RD1NTH3GON4DS.jpeg
[[ It is a selfie with herself, Karkat, Nyalah, Dave, Redglare, Daelos, Aranea, Mituna, Latula, and Mindfang all smooshed together by a firepit. They look freezing.]]
[[ Don't forget the blurr that is Nyalah is way too close to Terezi. 833 ]]
Sollux Captor said: well i d0n't see any bears driving scuttlebuggies in that ph0t0 s0 it l00ks like y0u're shit 0ut 0f luck.
Terezi Pyrope said: W31RD3R TH1NGS H4V3 H4PP3N3D
Sollux Captor said: thanks f0r being a living blanket th0 @Nyalah Leijon.
Terezi Pyrope said: 1 WONT B3T 4G41NST B34RS 1N BUGG13S
Nyalah Leijon said: im ghay
Sollux Captor said: makes sense.
Nyalah Leijon: 👍
Terezi Pyrope said: GH4Y Y4....GH4Y4Y Y444444
Terezi Pyrope said: LOV3 YOU SOLLUX
Terezi Pyrope said: SL33P T1GHT
Terezi Pyrope said: PL34S3 34T 4 S4NDW1CH
Terezi Pyrope said: <>
Sollux Captor said: please eat a bear. 0r d0n't.
Sollux Captor said: <>
Terezi Pyrope said: 1LL 34T 3V3RY GODD4MN B34R UNT1L TH3Y PRODUC3 4 C4R, M4RK MY WORDS
Terezi Pyrope said: <> YOU THOUGH
  01/09/2639 Rose Lalonde said: I appear to be the only one awake at our location. And this device appears to be functioning. Rose Lalonde said: Whether it was said before or not, we are in a city. No structure appears to be any less than thirty stories tall, at minimum, and we appear to be in the greater Buffalo area in upstate New York. Rose Lalonde said: The structures are not human made and I have seen advertisements for every cut of meat imaginable, fried and stuffed between two buns and smothered in hot sauce. Rose Lalonde said: Guy Fieri is plastered all over the city. I do not know if this visage is meant to be a symbolic reminder, or if he truly sits at the top of the tallest tower in the city, watching us scurrying down below. Rose Lalonde said: The city is densely populated, to an extreme, and yet, we are alone. No one has acknowledged us, yet. No one seems willing to take that risk, reflecting our questions with gormless smiles and bared teeth. Something I might charitably call a grin, under more favorable circumstances. Rose Lalonde said: I would also normally reflect on consumerism and human nature, in an environment like this. But there is only one kind of consumerism and a distinct alien presence. Rose Lalonde said: I've said before that there's no major industry here. Now there is precisely one. Despite the streets being as tight and claustrophobic as they are, I have seen many trucks pass through with massive trailers, plastered with advertisements for unfamiliar meals at prices practically giving them away. Rose Lalonde said: It should be painfully obvious that I do not trust the food here. Rose Lalonde said: We don't have a plan, yet. We're going to have to continue on foot, since no one else appears to have a vehicle but the truck drivers, but we are fortunate to remain, for the moment, unseen by the looming spires of the city itself. Rose Lalonde said: Perhaps we will remain so. I have had a dizzying time trying to find focus or insight. Perhaps that is the most maddening thing of all-- one's head denied the simple luxury of peace with a constant sensory barrage. Rose Lalonde said: For now, I will close this thread and leave it for posterity. Perhaps someone will read this. Rose Lalonde said: It is a slight respite from darker thoughts. Rose Lalonde closed the thread. Dave Strider said: i could actually hear you saying that word for word in your actual voice rose Dave Strider said: any updates anybody Dave Strider said: breaking news theres still a shit ton of snow everywhere Terezi Pyrope said: ST1LL COLD3R TH4N 4 W3LL D1GG3RS 4SS Weramiru Qirin said: Currently refueling in order to continue to the appointed location. Will update once on the road again.
  01/10/2639 Davenforth Strider said: Anybody else hear about the dual juggalo presidents Dave Strider said: what Redglare: Wh4t. Terezi Pyrope said: LM4O WH4T Davenforth Strider said: Yeah thats a thing Dave Strider said: hahaha Dave Strider said: dont make me stop and check my com for this Davenforth Strider said: Apparently those not deemed sufficiently mirthful have been killed off Davenforth Strider said: Explains the lack of people Terezi Pyrope said: YOUR3 K1DD1NG M3 Terezi Pyrope said: TH3 CLOWNS TOOK CONTROL OF TH3 GOV3RNM3NT? WH4T TH3 FUCK! Davenforth Strider said: Pretty sure a certain fish handed it to them but yeah Dave Strider said: no Takoda Nitram said: 1T SEEMS... AWFULLY S1M1LAR TO THE STRUCTURE OF THE ALTERN1AN GOVERNMENT... Davenforth Strider said: Makes sense Terezi Pyrope said: UNB3L13V4BL3 Terezi Pyrope said: TH3 4LT3RN14N GOV3RNM3NT W4S L4RG3LY SUPPORT3D BY TH3 JUD1C14L SYST3M Terezi Pyrope said: WH1CH 1SNT 4LL TH4T GR34T 31TH3R, M1ND Terezi Pyrope said: BUT 1TS 4 H3LL OF 4 LOT B3TT3R TH4N FR34K1N CLOWNS! Davenforth Strider said: So anyway theres a ton of road blocks so were gonna be passing through dc Terezi Pyrope is livestreaming M1SS1ONONE-OBT41NFOOD1BL3S. [[ It is a video of Karkat walking carefully across a frozen over river. Not long after, he falls right on his butt, sliding slowly across the ice. ]] [[ There were a couple minutes of Karkat punching the ice until he slowly rose to his feet and began backing away inch by inch. There's voices in the background as Terezi, Dave, Aranea, and Daelos converse. Karkat again moves to punch the ice, but this time he falls straight through on his first one. SPLOOSH. ]] [[ The camera is jostled wildly as Terezi begins sprinting ]] Roxanne Lalonde said: Uh. Welp... Roxanne Lalonde: You guys ok over there :(( [[ Karkat does not appear. However, a fish is thrown out of the hole. ]] [[ Two more fly out and an incoming fish presumably hits Terezi as there is a distinct OOF! and all the viewers see now is snow ]]
  01/11/2639 Roxanne Lalonde Posted a video [Its a brief half minute clip of the bus crew (Minus penny because shes covering her ears) jamming out with beat boxing and singing kelly clarkson, shot from her comm.] Roxanne Lalonde said: takin' a break from plannin' for sudden musical number on the road Roxanne Lalonde said: Hows everyone else hangin in there? Terezi Pyrope said: SM3LLS L1K3 YOU GUYS M4D3 YOURS3LV3S 4 R41NBOW RUMPUS P4RTYTOWN >:] Roxanne Lalonde said: We sure are tryin' our best. Dirk Strider liked this. Terezi Pyrope said: H3R3S US, H4NG1NG Terezi Pyrope sent YUKONH3RO3S.jpeg [[ Though they are all still huddling together by the fire, they seem in much better spirits today and...pretty well fed. ]] Terezi Pyrope said: OH Y34H @PorrimMaryam @DamaraMegido Terezi Pyrope sent MCUPD4T34U.jpeg [[ It's a single picture of Mituny. He looks a tiny bit different. ]] [[He's still sparking actually. Despite STILL being face down in snow]] Porrim Maryam said: ... Is he alright? Terezi Pyrope sent WH4TDOYOUC4LLTH1S.jpeg [[ His face is toward the camera now, and he's making a sexual gesture. ]] Porrim Maryam said: Oh, yeah. He's go+o+d. Porrim Maryam said: @Mituna Captor Stay warm please. <3 Kankri Vantas said: I sec9nd P9rrims m9ti9n that Mituna y9u sh9uld indeed refrain fr9m laying y9urself 9ut in the sn9w in assumed frigid temperatures in the way that y9u are d9ing. It cann9t 6e g99d f9r y9ur health, n9r must is feel g99d t9 6e pressing y9ur face int9 fr9zen water. Mituna Captor Sent: [[ It's a video of him building another snow middle finger with psionics. This time for Kankri]] @Kankri Vantas Dave Strider said: nobody can read that Kankri Vantas said: @Mituna Captor That is very rude. Porrim Maryam liked this. Meulin Leijon said: ~(=^. .^) < KANKRI. Meulin Leijon said: (^./.^)ノ < I WILL COME OVER THERE AND SIT ON YOU. Dave Strider said: sup meu Kankri Vantas said: Especially t9wards s9me9ne wh9 is attempting t9 sh9w y9u any shred 9f c9ncern. Kankri Vantas said: Als9 Meulin please d9 n9t, y9ur main f9cus sh9uld 6e resting y9urself. Meulin Leijon said: ヽ(=^・ω・^=)丿< DAVE!!! Meulin Leijon said: (^-人-^) < I WENT THROUGH A WALL. Dave Strider said: why Dirk Strider said: Yo, what? Meulin Leijon said: (^./.^) < LOOK. IT HAS BEEN SUCH A DAY. Kankri Vantas said: This is true, I can attest t9 it. Meulin Leijon said: (=TェT=) < MAYBE JUST TRY GRUBTUBING THE LATEST EPISODE OF GUY'S BIG BITE. Meulin Leijon said: (^●ㅅ●^)ノ < (IT'S ME. I'M THE EPURRSODE.) Davenforth Strider said: Tokyo meu meu you okay Kankri Vantas said: A f9rwarning if y9u d9 manage t9 find clips 9f it; #trigger warning: vi9lence #vulgar language #swearing #attempts at murder #menti9ns 9f cana6alism #sharp 96jects #dr9nes #expl9si9ns Meulin Leijon said: ~(=^..^)旦~ < I HAVE JOHN DOCTORING AND STRONG CARRYING ARMS TO SUPPURRT ME IN MY TIME OF N33D. I'VE NEVER BEEN BETTER. Meulin Leijon said: d(=^・ω・^=)b < I ALSO GOT MY EDIBLES BACK. Davenforth Strider said: Dope were gonna go kill the presidents 👍 Dave Strider said: kankri no Kankri Vantas said: Are y9u 6eing legitimately seri9us? @Davenforth Strider Dirk Strider said: Oh okay. Meulin Leijon said: ฅ(≚ᄌ≚) < GOOD LUCK AND HAVE FUN. Weremiru Qirin said: Of course he is. Kankri Vantas said: Ah. Kankri Vantas said: Well d9 6e careful. Terezi Pyrope said: NOT TO 1NT3RRUPT TH3 1MM1N3NT DOWNF4LL OF 4 T3RR1BL3 SOC13TY, BUT 3V3RYON3 PL34S3 P4Y CLOS3 4TT3NT1ON TO M1TUN4'S V1D3O Terezi Pyrope said: >;] Rhodri "Summoner" Nitram said: @Davenforth Strider go for the eyeballs boo, Davenforth Strider said: Oh shit hes talking to me again Rhodri "Summoner" Nitram said: now w1th marg1nally less sh1t too, Rhodri "Summoner" Nitram said: 1t's a late chr1stmas m1racle, Some MotherFuck said: :o) Meulin Leijon said: (=^・ェ・^=) < WAIT, SHIT. I'M NOT SUPPAWSED TO TALK ABOUT NIP ON THE PUBLIC FURUM. SOMEONE HACK ME AND DELETE THAT Meulin Leijon said: ~(=ΦェΦ) < BAL33T THAT ONE TOO. Dirk Strider said: Lmao. Rhodri "Summoner" Nitram said: @Some MotherFuck subtle, Kankri Vantas said: This is why it is imp9rtant t9 pr99f read y9ur messages 6ef9re y9u send them. H9wever given the circumstances we are all experiencing I 6elieve y9u are entitled t9 an am9unt 9f leniency, Meulin. Meulin Leijon said: ヾ(э^・ω・^)э < @Dirk Strider LMEOW ALL YOU WANT YOU FUCK, BUT I'M COMING FUR YOU. Davenforth Strider said: Kinky Meulin Leijon said: (^◔ᆺ◔^) < @Kankri Vantas THANKS...... Dirk Strider said: @Meulin Leijon Please do. Kankri Vantas said: @Meulin Leijon Y9u are welc9me. Meulin Leijon said: ε=ε=ε=ヾ(э^・ェ・^)э Meulin Leijon said: ヾ(э^◐ω◐^)э ( ( | Meulin Leijon said: ヾ(э^>ω<^)=э( ( | Dirk Strider said: 👍 Meulin Leijon said: ヾ(э^>ω<^)👍 Terezi Pyrope said: @PorrimMaryam @DamaraMegido Terezi Pyrope said: M1TUN4S CONSTRUCT1NG 4 SYMBOL R3PR3S3NT1NG 4 C3RT41N ORG4N OUT OF COMMON R3SOURC3S Terezi Pyrope said: TH4T 1S, H3S M4K1NG 4 SNOW D1CK Terezi Pyrope said: W1TH R3D 4ND BLU3 FUZZYS Terezi Pyrope said: HMMM 1 WOND3R WH4T 1T COULD B3 >;o >;o >;o >;o >;o Porrim Maryam said: Wait, what??? Damara Megido said: ORGAN TO BE PENETRATING HEART CREVICES WITH MUCH LOVE. PLEASE BE STAYING SAFE. I 8==D <3 HIM ALSO. Terezi Pyrope said: PORR1MS G3TT1NG W4RM Porrim Maryam said: Oh my Go+d?? Ho+w?? Porrim Maryam said: Actually, I'll wo+rry abo+ut that later. I'm just go+ing to+ go+ pro+cess this while I babysit all yo+ur kids. @Dirk Strider @Sollux Captor Just FYI yo+ur so+n is crying again at this ungo+dly ho+ur. [[Jinjin is petting him. DUDE.]] Terezi Pyrope said: >:D Terezi Pyrope said: T3LL S1R1 SH3 1S LOV3D SO MUCH Terezi Pyrope said: 4ND W3LL BR1NG H3R HOM3 4 SOUV3N1R Terezi Pyrope said: L1K3 4 POL4R B34R OR SOM3 SH1T Roxanne Lalonde said: For real shout out to porrim for watchin' our kids though. youre the best. @Porrim Maryam
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Davenforth Strider said: You the real mvp Jake English: ATTENTION ATTENTION. I HATE TO DISRUPT THIS BROADCAST BUT IM ONLINE! For only a split second im not certain how long this will last. Jake English: Im not sure where we are! But jade is here and shes awful and monsterous. Ive been told im an essential piece to for janes new empire? I havent the faintest clue what she means and thats the worst part! Jake English: Were imprisoned. James roxy and... the cherubs i think only. I havent heard from caliborn but he sounded so si-- Jake English is experiencing connectivity problems. Please wait. Dirk Strider said: Jake??? Dirk Strider said: Dammit. Come back. Jake English is experiencing connectivity problems. Please wait. Jake English said: Were hanging on as much as we can. Im so terribly afraid but PLEASE STAY SAFE. Jake English said: Sollux dirk? I love you. Jake English went offline. Dirk Strider said: I love you too.
  01/12/2639
John Egbert said: guy fieri tried to eat us on national tv. apparently cannibalism is big in america rn.
Terezi Pyrope said: W3LL... 1F CONDY 1S TRY1NG TO TURN 34RTH 1NTO 4NOTH3R 4LT3RN14
Terezi Pyrope said: TH4TS NOT 3NT1R3LY SURPR1S1NG
Terezi Pyrope said: CONS1D3R1NG TH3 R3GUL4R D13T OF TROLLS >:/
Terezi Pyrope said: 1 4POLOG1Z3 ON B3H4LF OF MY OWN SP3C13S
John Egbert said: yeah. this really sucks. our planet used to be really cool. i mean, it had it's issues, don't get me wrong but...pretty much everything good and unqiue about it has been twisted and perverted beyond all recognition.
John Egbert said: i don't blame trolls, though. i blame one stupid bitch.
Dave Strider said: what the fuck is even happening Dave Strider said: nevermind i stopped asking
John Egbert said: k. well it looks like rose may have killed guy fieri. unconfirmed though...she's hurt but she will be okay.
Dave Strider said: wait a fucking minute i just scrolled up
Dave Strider said: hang in there rose but what about jade being awful and monsterous Dave Strider said: is that seriously the only communication we have from that side
Dave Strider said: somebody has to have something right
Dirk Strider said: I've been trying to get ahold of him. No dice. Dirk Strider said: At least it confirms all the missing folks are in the same place. All we can do is keep moving towards Minnesota.
John Egbert said: at least if jade is being awful and monsterous we know she's physically okay! :O
John Egbert said: she must be under some kind of hypnosis or mind control type thing.
Dave Strider said: thanks guys i feel so much better now but you know what would really make it all better Dave Strider said: sending me a hallmark card with a pre written sentiment of Dave Strider said: sorry we dont know what the fuck is going on but your wife is ok probably
John Egbert said: i'm worried about jade too.
John Egbert said: and jake. and my dad.
John Egbert said: and roxy. :/
John Egbert said: and heck, even fucking caliborn.
Terezi Pyrope sent C4RD.jpeg [[ It is a card as requested. Decorated with lavish colors, Terezi probably made it in two seconds on her phone. "SORRY W3 DONT KNOW WH4T TH3 FUCK 1S GO1NG ON BUT YOUR W1F3 1S OK PROB4BLY. LOV3, 3V3RYON3! (Hallmark™ is squished in near the bottom.) ]]
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Dave Strider said: oh sorry Dave Strider said: i forgot its just jade im worrying about while everyone else outnumbers with their trapped love ones Dave Strider said: because apparently somethings got her hurting them and whatever that somethin is is making her less of a person and less in danger Dave Strider said: fuck you guys
John Egbert said: what the heck.
John Egbert said: nobody said anyhing like that.
John Egbert said: stop thinking you're the only one that cares about jade, you dumb ass!
Terezi Pyrope said: YOU JUST S41D 1N YOUR OWN WORDS TH4T 4 C4RD WOULD M4K3 1T B3TT3R D4V3 Terezi Pyrope said: >:/ Terezi Pyrope said: SORRY FOR T4K1NG YOU L1T3R4LLY SO YOU WOULDNT B3 SUCH 4 GRUMP!
Dave Strider said: whatever
Davesprite said: maybe idk cut it out with the pissing contests of whos having it worse right now Davesprite said: @ everyone Davesprite said: give me an update on where you are ill fly out to meet whoevers closest
John Egbert said: ughhh. i thought since we'd be able to talk to eachother we'd use this thing to support eachother but noooo. you have to be a jerk instead.
John Egbert said: and where have you been!!!
Dave Strider said: apparently you already know because you know everything @davesprite
Davesprite said: minnesota keeping an eye on the prison peeps
Dave Strider said: you motherfucker
Davesprite said: Bv
Terezi Pyrope said: OH, W3R3 ONLY SOM3WH3R3 1N TH3 W1LD3RN3SS OF TH3 L4RG3ST ST4T3 OF 4M3R1C4!!!!
Kankri Vantas said: There seems t9 6e s9me 6udding tensi9n in this thread, perhaps we sh9uld all take a m9ment t9 calm 9urselves 6ef9re c9ntinuing?
Terezi Pyrope said: >8[
John Egbert said: stop being cagey and spill what you know before i come out of the sky and elbow drop you.
Dave Strider said: shut the fuck up kankri
John Egbert said: oh HELL no.
John Egbert said: don't talk to him like that. he's just trying to help!
Dave Strider said: hes trying to be an asshole
Meulin Leijon said: (^..^) < CAN WE TALK? @Dave Strider
Davesprite said: omg Davesprite said: 🍿
Kankri Vantas said: J9hn is c9rrect, I am 9nly attempting t9 defuse the situati9n 6ecause agressi9n, and disatisfacti9n 6etween 9ur seperated gr9ups w9uld n9t 6e ideal 9r helpful t9 9ur different situati9ns.
John Egbert said you're an idiot!!!! davesprite just said he has info on what's going on with our loved ones and you'd rather spend time bullying kankri.
John Egbert said: i am going to piss on all of you i swear to god!!!
Davesprite said: word Davesprite said: im just chillin
Kankri Vantas said: I cann9t claim t9 understand what y9u are g9ing thr9ugh @Dave Strider h9wever y9u are n9t making y9urself very 9pen t9 every9ne else's current c9ncerns and w9rries.
Jade Strider said: if you ask me youre all stupid Jade Strider said: it's not like i forgot how to use a computer all of a sudden Jade Strider said: but good luck with your really productive plans, i mean really good job guys
Kankri Vantas said: Als9 J9hn I d9nt think that will 6e necessary.
Dirk Strider said: As much as it pains me to say this, Kankri is right. Dirk Strider said: We're in The Shit too deep to be at each other's throat-- Oh ok.
Dirk Strider said: Damn.
Dave Strider said: ill agress disatisfy and separate your
Dave Strider said: jade wait
Jade Strider said: sorry, but i have things to do Jade Strider said: starting with somebody who broke the rules Jade Strider said: but ill see you all soon im sure
Jade Strider said: no guarantees youll see him though
Dirk Strider said: What?
Dirk Strider said: Who are you talking about?
Kankri Vantas said: That s9unds rather 9min9us.
Dirk Strider said: No FUCK.
Dave Strider said: JADE
John Egbert said: jade :(
Terezi Pyrope said: D1RK, DONT L1ST3N TO H3R Terezi Pyrope said: 1F SH3S SUPPOS3D TO B3 3V1L R1GHT NOW, 1S 1T SUCH 4 GOOD 1D34 TO TRUST WH4T SH3 S4YS?
Davesprite said: ruh roh
Dave Strider said: shes not evil this isnt her Dave Strider said: jade come on Dave Strider said: bust through whatevers got your head Dave Strider said: its me
John Egbert said: dave sprite if you're not going to say anything useful or explain anything then shut your butt.
Dave Strider said: seconded Dave Strider said: also meu later ok
Davesprite said: this has happened before Davesprite said: thats why talking to her aint gonna help Davesprite said: she cant be reasoned with and shes not going to stop
Dave Strider said: thanks youre so fuckin helpful what would we do without you
Davesprite said: make due i guess
JOHN: is there any way we can help her?
Kankri Vantas said: Dave that h9nestly s9unded rather negative and n9t sincere at all.
JOHN: other than talking to her, i mean.
Davesprite said: stop her from hurting herself because jade the real jade Davesprite said: wouldnt be putting up with any of this bullshit Davesprite said: you know what she would do? Davesprite said: she would be rallying everyone together and keeping a cool head bc the last thing we fucking need is to fly off the fucking handle Davesprite said: shed be stepping up to the plate and be telling everyone to shut the fuck up and get their head out of their respective asses Davesprite said: because fighting isnt going to resolve any problem Davesprite said: she wouldnt be prioritizing either and getting strength from people who are actually pulling shit off like rose Davesprite said: fuck Davesprite said: who the hell let her do that whos in charge up there Davesprite said: im swinging my whole goddamn sprite tail up to kick some well deserved asses Davesprite said: so lets do this for jade god damn it Davesprite said: she needs us
John Egbert said: it was probably my fault.
John Egbert said: i'm sorry.
John Egbert said: but holy fuck, i am totally on board with everything you just said there. :O
John Egbert said: we're coming for you, jade! love you! even if you are evil rn!
Jadesprite said: i cant really remember being that way Jadesprite said: but i think the real jade would be able to help and i think hes right Jadesprite said: i dont want things to go wrong again Jadesprite said: if anyone can do something then i know you all can
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Dave Strider said: shes not evil
Jadesprite said: its ok dave
Jadesprite said: i dont think she would mind
Davesprite said: theres only one thing to do egbert Davesprite said: watch out for rose for fucks sake Davesprite said: and dave wow Davesprite said: get your shit together and stop being in denial that this is actually happening Davesprite said: and is going to keep happening forever because bad shit happens to good people Davesprite said: and youre nobody special so lets stop feeling sorry for ourselves for five goddamn seconds Davesprite said: be cool for at least two of those seconds
Dave Strider said: youre one to talk
Jade Harley said: can you both shut up? jesus Jade Harley said: i am not sure how i ever put up with all of this endless self flagellation and pity Jade Harley said: it is so stupid and boring Jade Harley said: jadesprite is right though Jade Harley said: i dont mind being called evil, in fact i think of it as a compliment
John Egbert said: i am going to hug and kiss the everloving shit out of you!
Dave Strider said: because youre not actually jade
Jade Harley said: i am very much jade Jade Harley said: im just not weak and sad anymore Jade Harley said: it is so much better
Jade Harley said: im finally in control
Dave Strider said: jade was never weak you bitch Dave Strider said: stop using her as your plaything
Davenforth Strider said: Dave
Jade Harley said: i dont expect you to get it, im sure you liked me that way Jade Harley said: thinking i wouldnt notice when you betrayed my trust Jade Harley said: but i can be generous, i even did you a favor and sent you off to be with your favorite people Jade Harley said: youd better make the most of it, i cant promise itll last much longer
Dave Strider said: what the fuck are you talking about Dave Strider said: when did i betray you Dave Strider said: i mean jade Dave Strider said: what do you mean my favorite people
John Egbert said: dave, stop talking to her. she's just trying to fuck with you. John Egbert said: and she can fuck with you better than anybody else because she knows you the best!
Dave Strider said: i need to know
John Egbert said: trust the jade you know. trust all the years you spent together.
Jade Harley said: its cute how coy youre being, but you dont need to hide it anymore Jade Harley said: i really dont care Jade Harley said: anyway, back to business Jade Harley has left the thread.
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Redglare said: N33d to know wh4t sh3 h4s 1n common w1th th3 Crock3r wom4n. Redglare said: S4w h3r t3ch, th3 crown. J4d3 do3sn't h4v3 4nyth1ng l1k3 th4t on h3r h34d. Redglare said: 4nd th3y d1dn't t4k3 4nyon3 3ls3. Redglare said: Th3n s33 1f w3 c4n us3 th4t.
Jolene English said: wait! now that you mention it... Jolene English said: what about her cybernetics? she has a brain implant, doesn't she? Redglare said: ...Y3s.
Equius Zahhak said: D --> It makes a disturbing amount of sense. It could be the coding in her implant. If that's the case then shouldn't Bec be affected as well
Redglare said: Pot3nt14lly. Vuln3r4bl3 4t l34st.
Porrim Maryam said: Sho+uld I keep an eye o+n him? He do+esn't seem to+ be acting up...
Equius Zahhak said: D --> If it is not too much trouble, yes please. Sawtooth should be adequate protection if any trouble arises
Porrim Maryam said: Go+t it.
Horuss Zahhak said: Hello. I couldn't help but overhear the trouble abraying. And in times such as these, I feel as if a trot of good news is neighcessary. Horuss Zahhak said: The ship is still cloaked and well hidden. Your infestation of offspring are not due to be found or captured any time soon if I am to have any nicker about it.
Vriska Serket said: Everything is under control, you lame lame lamey lame scared losers. ::::)
Equius Zahhak said: D --> You're still aboard the ship Horuss? Please continue cloaking the ship. Inform me of any troubles Horuss Zahhak said: Of horse! The idiot cer001ean has abs001tely failed to notice my presence in the bridge.
Equius Zahhak said: D --> Vriska, shut up
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Porrim Maryam said: I'm no+t really sure where Vriska is taking us but... So+ lo+ng as we're clo+aked and safe, I guess I do+n't really care.
Vriska Serket said: ........ Get the fuck out other weird sweaty Zahhak!!!!!!!!
Horuss Zahhak said: Neighver.
Vriska Serket said: Uuuuuuuugh. Annoying, but managea8le. I don't give a fuck!
Horuss Zahhak said: Your mane of hair is quite terrible a sight from behind.
Vriska Serket said: Then you have shit t8ste. :::;)
Horuss Zahhak said: Oh. Well, in fairness, we are discussing you. Horuss Zahhak said: So I suppose the insult can still be applicable?
Vriska Serket said: No, actually. Nice try.
Horuss Zahhak said: Whatever keeps you distracted long enough, Serket. I do not sleep.
Damara Megido uploaded a picture: @Terezi Pyrope @Karkat Vantas [[ It's a picture of Sirius taking a nap with Blob. ]] QUIET NOW. REST COME. PLEASE COME HOME SAFE SOON. Damara Megido said: @Mituna Captor HE IS OUT HERE TOO, YES? HOPE HAS MADE SO MANY THINGS IN SNOW. WHOLE FOREST. IT IS BEAUTIFUL. Damara Megido said: WE WILL GO TOGETHER. MAKE BEAUTIFUL DICK FOREST. Damara Megido uploaded a picture: [[ The same as before, although now Sirius is half awake, squinting at Finn who is draped halfway across Blob. ]] CHALLENGER HAS COME. Damara Megido said: TONIGHT. SO MUCH NONE SLEEP. WHY IS THIS? Damara Megido said: PERHAPS TOO MUCH PLAY. NO GOOD. THE REST MUST BE COMING SOON.
  01/13/2639
Dirk Strider said: Hey, it's been kinda quiet. Everyone good?
Riley Strider said: yeah, baby. we're good over here. Sawtooth said: 👍
Penny Lane said: @Jude Harley met another cute nerd. reminds me of you.
Jude Harley said: oh okay Jude Harley said: I've only met zombies and guy fieri thus far
Penny Lane said: Im saying I miss you you fuck.
Rose Lalonde said: 
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Riley Strider said: hey jude.
Jude Harley said: oh......... Jude Harley said: I miss you too
Jude Harley said: hello riley
Penny Lane said: kick a zombie in the dick for me baby.
Riley Strider said: don't make it bad.
Riley Strider said: take a sad song and make it better.
Penny Lane said: Ill suplex Riley for you in return.
Penny Lane said: 💋
Jude Harley said: hahaha Jude Harley said: wait don't actually do that...
Penny Lane said: TOO LATE.
Riley Strider said: ko'd.
Dirk Strider said: @Dave Strider Hey I'm asking for status reports here.
Dirk Strider said: @Redglare @Terezi Pyrope @Karkat Vantas Or any of y'all.
Dirk Strider said: Ok one of them should have responded.
John Egbert said: @Dave Strider @Dave Strider @Dave Strider
  01/15/2639
Rufioh Nitram said: @ Gamzee Makara @ Meulin Leijon Rufioh Nitram said: 1t's k1ll1ng me that 1'm not out there too.
Gamzee Makara said: less ache on having him be where he is. Gamzee Makara said: KNOWING MOTHERFUCKING WELL IN THIS HERE PUSHER OF MINE. Gamzee Makara said: that sentiment ring on true were roles to be inverse. Gamzee Makara said: STILL CANNOT REFUTE WHAT RINGS SO FUCKING CLEAR. Gamzee Makara said: that feel on relief you not being.
Rufioh Nitram said: guess 1 can't really compla1n... 1t's been crazy qu1et around here. Rufioh Nitram said: but 1 hear myself th1nk too... and 1 m1ss you. most of all. Rufioh Nitram said: 1 w1sh a lot of th1s sh1t never played out l1ke 1t d1d. then 1 could be w1th you... and l1ve w1th myself. know1ng what 1 do.
Gamzee Makara said: AIN'T NONE DAY WHAT GO BY THAT DON'T HAPPEN WITHOUT ME HAVING A THINK ON YOU. Gamzee Makara said: wishing and hoping both some what can be equal measure on yourses insides salvation or damned. Gamzee Makara said: BUT LIVE ON BROTHER MINE, LIKE MOTHER FUCKING FIRES ARE SUPPOSED. Gamzee Makara said: selfish ask perhaps, but that how a clown be, even in the now.
Rufioh Nitram said: no more self1sh than 1 am, bro... and 1 started th1s sh1t on a publ1c thread when folks all have other stuff to worry about. Rufioh Nitram said: 1 just... want to see you aga1n.
Gamzee Makara said: WHICH WHY KEEP ON GOIN' BE OF SUCH FINEASS IMPORT. Gamzee Makara said: so that brothers and all else can come to another once more.
Rufioh Nitram said: heh... Rufioh Nitram said: can't make that prom1se when a dude's go1ng st1rcrazy when the next t1me that's gonna be.
Rufioh Nitram said: 1 love you.
Gamzee Makara said: MOTHERFUCKER CAN PICTURE HIM FLUTTERIES SOMETHING VIVID. :o) Gamzee Makara said: some miraculous sight. Gamzee Makara said: HAHAHA. Gamzee Makara said: have my love on yous too.
Rufioh Nitram said: damn... motherfucker... now 1 know 1t's true. }:)
Gamzee Makara said: BETTER FUCKING BELIEVE IT FOR AIN'T NONE SHIT MORE SURE THAN THAT NOISE. Gamzee Makara said: gravity some flimsyass concept next to what i say on you.
Rufioh Nitram said: word... that's all 1 need to know.
Gamzee Makara said: <3 :o) Gamzee Makara said: MIGHT BE IN HIM INTEREST THAT SISTER MEU SLAY DOWN SOME HORN BEAST. Gamzee Makara said: she never stop being mighty.
Rufioh Nitram said: ohhh... Rufioh Nitram said: that's pretty badass... but also... Rufioh Nitram said: 1 hope everyth1ng turned out alr1ght w1th that.... hornbeast... Rufioh Nitram said: and hunt1ng 1t... 1'm guess1ng. }B(
Gamzee Makara said: NONE CHOICE LEFT OPEN WHEN FACED WITH VAST WHITE. Gamzee Makara said: comfort in knowing there be ways to keep on, yeah? Gamzee Makara said: EVEN IF SO IT BE A BUISNESS BITTERSWEET.
Rufioh Nitram said: some comfort, yeah... hm. Rufioh Nitram said: hey. let me get back to you. Rufioh Nitram said: 1 have some stuff to f1gure out. Rufioh Nitram said: ... Rufioh Nitram said: take care, babe. every day 1 m1ss you 1s a day 1 wonder what the hell 1'm do1ng w1th my l1fe. 1 love you so much. Rufioh Nitram said: <3
Gamzee Makara said: oh, aight. Gamzee Makara said: WILL MAKE ON SURE TO KEEP YOUS UPDATED ON ALLA THESE WICKED HAPPENINGS. Gamzee Makara said: have none fear on me and mine, for will keep alls safe what best a homie manage. Gamzee Makara said: HONK. Gamzee Makara said: sweetass sugarrush flush brother mine, love you some fierce. <3
Rufioh Nitram said: haha... honk. yeah, dogg. }:D Rufioh Nitram has left the thread.
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  01/17/2639
Terezi Pyrope updated her status: This is Karkat Vantas. We were attacked in bumfuck frost-land. Terezi Pyrope said: A lot of shit happened. We weren't and aren't in great shape. Terezi Pyrope said: Redglare's lost a leg. The rest of us have injuries we're recovering from. Terezi Pyrope said: Terezi isn't with us. Terezi Pyrope said: Two fucking assholes are giving us aid. Terezi Pyrope said: Not like we have a choice. Terezi Pyrope said: This is the only comm we have. I'll keep making updates.
Davenforth Strider said: Hold the shit what
Davenforth Strider said: Where are yall
Terezi Pyrope said: "Alaska".
Davenforth Strider said: Okay wow the shit okay fuck
Davenforth Strider said: Do yall have transportation
Terezi Pyrope said: We have two assholes who I'm more than happy to use like sandpaper asswipes. Terezi Pyrope said: We'll meet up with you if it's the last thing they do.
Davenforth Strider said: Cool dope nice
Davenforth Strider said: My bad dude one last thing
Davenforth Strider said: Hows dave
Davenforth Strider said: Okay another last thing
Davenforth Strider said: Im sorry
Terezi Pyrope said: He's resting up and healing. I'm watching him. Terezi Pyrope said: It might not be speedy but looking around I'm not sure who's going to really bounce back up. Terezi Pyrope said: And I am too. Terezi Pyrope said: We've got a storm rolling in. I have to go but I'll keep you all posted on our progress.
Davenforth Strider said: Stay strong
Riley Strider said: wait, healing from what?
Riley Strider said: thanks everyone for being so helpful.
  01/18/2639
Rose Lalonde said: It has been a while since I was in a proper state to look at this. Rose Lalonde said: By which I mean I was still somewhat high from the fumes of Flavortown. Rose Lalonde said: For what it is worth, I offer my condolences. ----- Terezi Pyrope said: This is Daelos Zahhak Terezi Pyrope said: Nyalah died in the night. She was not conscious for the duration of it. She likely died of a combination of blood loss, hypothermia and e%hustion. She fought valiantly to protect and care for her crew mates, yet her death was senseless, easily preventable given proper care . I find blame with the same party responsible for the demise of this account holder. That is all. ----- Terezi Pyrope said: hey Terezi Pyrope said: its dave Terezi Pyrope said: rose im scared about what that means Terezi Pyrope said: also dont doubt for a second the rest of us will catch up with you guys Terezi Pyrope said: i swear i will scoot my ass to minnesota if i have to Terezi Pyrope said: or ride a buffalo what is canada really Terezi Pyrope said: some really shitty stuff happened but Terezi Pyrope said: were not gonna give up Terezi Pyrope said: were not gonna let terezi and nyalah lose their lives in vain Terezi Pyrope said: but we cant let it sink in now Terezi Pyrope said: we have to keep going Terezi Pyrope said: if anybody wants to stop us they gotta kill us Terezi Pyrope said: cuz as long as were breathin Terezi Pyrope said: they dont got shit on us ----- Terezi Pyrope said: im disappointed i havent seen a single fuckin buffalo
  01/20/2639
Meulin Leijon said: ~(=^..^) < HOW IS EFURRYONE DOING? IT'S B33N QUIET...
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