#yeah im a dream fictive but fuck him.

[night-archives]

fuck my source.

he's just terrible.

and a bad detective.

and can't be bothered to speak more eloquently.

like he had no script and scrambled evidence.

and choose a better green. god damn lime is ugly and not practical.

let others speak and maybe just be quiet.

now im going to go cuddle in headspace with my wife because i actually respect women and she is my life. and if she wanted to kill me i would let her.

[tasmanianstripes]

Bleh, honestly, at this point I pretty much fell out of dsmp stuff

[purrfurnax]

okay so heres how all my kintypes and fictives ‘became’ mostly for me to keep track but also if youre curious

wyvern awakening: i met my spirit guide whos a dragon, i started to get all these ideas about the world and a bunch of morals humans thought were weird, looked all that stuff up and most of it was either written in books/info sites about draconic paganism or things from dragons channeled by energy workers (people say dont trust that stuff but some of them are trustworthy and i have that same experience)

i had dreams in an order that told a story, dont remember what most of them were but they ended with a cloud that was sucking the life from every being, i got sucked into it and came out my wyvern self, after that i started to feel wings that werent realy there, mental shifts, those beliefs i had intensified to what it is now (not that its a good thing because im constantly fucking pissed)

i told a friend about it, she said i could be dragonkin, i looked it up and it said basically everything i felt on draconity.com

horse awakening: when i was little (8ish-15ish) i always used to pretended to be a horse, collected breyer horses, rode horses, sometimes would gallop or paw the ground, and neigh at other horses

this was like wayyyyyy before i even knew what otherkin was at all but i kinda remember feeling ears and pinning them back when i was mad or nervous and sometimes feeling like there was a body trailing behind me, sometimes still do and i have a few memories, sometimes i jsut have this weird thing where i crave ‘horse food’ like oats/oatmeal, granola, carrots, apples, pears, any leafy food, bitter things like dark chocolate and red lettuce, always had that during mental shifts and normally i dont really like those things

after i found out what otherkin was im just like ‘yep definitely a kintype’

raptor awakening: i thought it was just weak wyvern shifts or something, but my toes as a wyvern are more like a chickens than a raptors

i always had shifts mostly when i saw pictures or info about raptors, and realllyyy straong when i watched jurrassic park and stuff with them

then i had memories, the first one of chasing some little black flying thing, then one of laying in the rain paralyzed 

khajiit awakening: this ones kinda blurry and its mostly phantom and mental shifts, everyone was telling me ‘what if you were just a normal cat’ and i was kinda going like that but i didnt walk on 4 legs at all 

i started having memories of that, one where i was drunk in a tavern and threw a chair at some guy then passed out over a table, and one me and paar share of us looking at each other (also we used to call ourselves literal dovahkiin before The Gatekeepers tm started trying to make us explain with their own beliefs and he didnt want to anymore)

im also kinda questioning some kind of bird kintype 

okay how paar came to be: i thought i had what was a really strong mental shift one night, forget exactly where we were but it happened a few more times enough for me to think i was fictionkin

but your kintypes ARE you, he was separate and could talk to me

he was in my dream one night, he was meditating on this cliff mountain thing by a lake, the sky was pink and purple with stars and planets everywhere it was all wavy and moved, turned out to be our headspace, called ‘the lake’

the lake has this completely empty stone castle across from the lake, the ground around the lake is different in each ‘area’, one place is made of cement and sharp gravel, the place on paars side is mud with yellow grass and lavender, the castle has really soft warm sand, sometimes random dragons just fly over the lake

then goris’s place is just a hole in the side of the hill the castle is on with a wooden door and the inside is all metal and theres fucking books everywhere even outside what the fuck goris clean your house

how i first heard about him was on shamchat, someone was rping as him, i had no idea who he even was but after that he just started developing the same way paar did, he has way more control when he fronts than paar, i started looking up stuff about him 

then there elision, ugly fuck from dragons dogma who  keeps coming here jsut to be like ‘what am i doing here, i hate you and i hate looking in the mirror’ then just leaves idk what thats about but he needs to just fuck off for good

and yeah thats everything pretty much sorry this is so long