#yeah if you never see me post abt sw again PLEASE assume this is due to three days of fever induced madness and nothung more

[hickeygender]

fucking shit just remembered the post that's like "no one hates star wars more than star wars fans" and i think, judging by my still present bitter hottakes and my disdain for the current state of canon and my separation from this shithole of a fandom for well over a year (possibly two? time is an illusion) and how the mere THOUGHT of rejoining the stupid fandom elicits a feeling of bone deep weariness? i think it's safe to say i hate star wars a lot. like, a lot a lot. whether or not there's any affection still bundled up in with the hatred only time will tell, but i'm sincerely deeply and with emphasis hoping that i just fucking hate the stupid pew pew laser sword movies and don't waste any more of my precious life thinking about obi-wan kenobi's many plentiful disorders or mandalorian armor designs or how i just have a catalogue of UNENDING idiotic fucking alternative names for concepts like glass (transparisteel), coffee (caf), or jazz music (jizz) still rattling around my brain. i've done my fucking time in the trenches. i deserve better than shipping back to the front, goddammit