#yea i get it cwilbur 😭

[thinkingnot]

legit going to bake this art and eat it and

The real reason why cWilbur blew up lmanburg

[t4tpumpkinduo]

🩹 fpr the dsmp lore asks

🩹 - should c!niki and c!wilbur beat the shit out of each other?

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tbh no👍 i don't think that would be productive, OR relevant to their issues, or even in line w their dynamic. but i DO think they need catharsis like they need air, and if that means a shove or two in the rain SO BE IT.

first off, i think niki is pretty justified to feel abandoned by him. you can absolutely understand cwilb's self destruction and eventual suicide, you can get that he was in an incredibly difficult position in pogtopia due to his mental illnesses, that he truly hated himself, that he thought he deserved it. yes, he hurt people, Badly, but he himself was deeply hurt too. cwilbs main target Was ultimately himself.

but the point is that in situations like this, where you lose smone in so many ways, both before and after death. it's complicated! it's messy and scary and isolating, so of course niki is allowed to feel the pain of that as well. she loved him, she trusted him. she was called L'manberg First Lady fucking Hello. when ctommy would bring up cniki, cwilb would say don't you dare use her against me. the reason she stayed in manburg for so long, a place she despised, despite having so many opportunities to leave was BCS cwilbur specifically told her to stay!! that he'd come back for her!! and jesus christ nikis bday party still makes me 6'2 my stomach, the way he was ignoring her as she pleaded over and over for him to treat her like a person i'm sick. she burned the tree then fucking looted his rotting corpse and kept his jacket on fucking helloHELLO....OF COURSE SHE'S CRAZY.

and tbh i think cwilbur is allowed to be a little snippy too! not to the same level as cniki, for sure, but idk. what abt the time she directed all of the anger she had towards him at ctommy 😭 and wanted to kill him abt it. again, it's well written, it makes complete sense how smone spiraling and grieving and in that much pain will pick the easiest target but. good lird what a target. her and jack did super want to rip him apart. i think cwilb should've been a key piece of the aftermath of this arc, he shouldve been made aware of it. it feels like such a WASTE it never happened! it plays into so much! his care for tommy, that someone you love can make terrible mistakes from being in pain (which he should be well acquainted with 👍), as well as the damage he left behind with her. not to even mention the cycles of it all.

so yeas, their actual reconciliation in canon was lacking and lame as fuck and corny as he'll IMO. i need these ppl to sob and scream and lash out and snarl at eachother wee beastie style. but beating eachothers asses is too far because they Do 👍 care abt eachother deeply. and thags what matters that's what it's actually about. at the end of the day

[possuminnit]

OOOOH that sounds so fun so it's like. an art trade but in a competition? :0

THANK YOU 🥣😋 <- me happily eating the soup:)

and YEAHH and I have this problem where I never finish anything I ever start writing because while it starts strong I end up running out of ideas on how to continue it bc anything I come up with doesn't sound like it fits so I ABANDON IT... I have one (1) finished oneshot that was a cbeeduo one I made in early 2022 but I never posted bc i don't like it that much 😭 so I never post anything I make bc i don't wanna leave anyone hanging if they end up reading it:(

but that's why this morning I said I WILL MAKE A FIC AND FINISH IT!! and it's just gonna be a oneshot but it's about cwilbur in his utah gas station working and being kinda miserable there BUT feeling so much better than before and slowly writing a letter to ctommy asking him how things are going but gets too scared every time he does so he never sends it. Until he does in the end. BUT IT IS HARDDD TO DOOO😭😭

YEA BASICALLY !!!!! ALSO I WISH U SOOOO MUCH LUCK ON FIC WRITING. i also have so so many wips that i will probably never finish bc i just lost the fixation for them or i just cannot figure out how to finish them... theyre nice to have tho bc i go back and read them for inspo abhdjf. i hope ur able to finish ur fic tho!!!

[genderqueeradrien]

i love ceret but people dismissing their characters and arcs when making neg posts was upsetting to see and ranboo talking thing oh my god. i stutter and repeat myself similarly and it really makes you feel like shit especially when people tag it with crit? like that’s not criticism you’re just an asshole stuttering isnt a character flaw this fandom is just horrible with characters with any mental issues, like the demonization of cwilbur and either hardcore infantilisation of cranboo and making enderwalk violent/evil/mindless i could go on but i don’t want to clog your inbox but this fandom is just not nice to be in and i watched voltron

GOD YOURE COMPLETELY RIGHT BUT ALSO THE LAST LINE TOOK ME OUT. i think everyone who watched voltron should get a million dollars for emotional damages

sooo much of things ppl "criticise" "c!"ranboo for are just. things i do lol like. 💀 the stuttering and repeating myself a lot? i do that. it's so frustrating like youre not criticising his character youre being mean

and yea especially like on the mental illness topic -- this fandom is so bad in both directions when it comes to cwil. like. "he's evil and irredeemable" is a bad take but so is "he's perfect and all his actions can be excused." like just bc hes mentally ill isnt an excuse for things he's done but it also doesn't mean he should be demonized for them. ppl just cant be normal about that guy

and cranboos enderwalk......... (<- he has seen the horrors of mcyttiktok when "ranboo kils michael during enderwalk" was a big headcanon). like maybe its just bc im kin of him but like. there was nothing to indicate he'd be violent towards anyone ESPECIALLY his son in enderwalk. & something something stereotypes about ppl with DID/OSDD.. like. "guy who sometimes has episodes where he's not himself & memory issues & identity issues... well he MUST be evil and bad during those times!" youve just reinvented anti system ableism (<- is there a specific word for that?)

ANYWAY SORRY i wrote like a whole ass essay whoops 😭 tldr Ur so right. i hate this fandom imgoing to watch voltron