#yay Im confident enough to answer questions about this again lol

[weevmo]

WB has no gender or is he too dumb to actually stick/associate to our complex roles of identity?

Or is it a lore thing?...All In general I love how you draw these puppets, they give me great euphoria

AHA

wELL - The thing I adore about Puppets is they are what their creators 'assign' them to be - and depending on their clothes and hair they would be assumed either gender, or in some cases, neither!

TO ANSWER: The reason WB goes by 'He' is because that is how Bailey/Lulu refers to him! They/he/she/it has no concept of gender and probably wouldn't find it interesting even if he could grasp it. It is beyond him!

As for Lore: Corduroy Stew takes place primarily in a 60s -70s era, where these kinds of things weren't super acceptable. Bailey created WB as a male technically (for the sake of his audience) but allows them to walk the line. Bailey doesn't get along with other men/male presenting things super well anywho-

[shhh-no-ones-home]

booster chris motionless x plus!reader

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another highschool pre band au, woo! i started this forever ago and didnt like it so i rewrote the whole thing, yay. based on a tik tok lol.

plus!reader, high doubt, loving boyfriend.

song: the promise by when in rome

tag list: @musicsexandpizza69 @svintsandghosts @alilpunkrock @cynic-spirit @theoneandonlykymberlee @thisplace-ishaunted @lifeisabitchandsoareyou @satans-arse 

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it had been a long few hours, the school day just wouldnt go any faster. i was grateful it was almost lunch but that wouldnt be much of a distraction either. i had too much on my mind. as soon as the bell rang i was up to turn my paper in and was out the door. as people passed by me to get to the cafeteria i ignored them, a few pushing into me. i rolled my eyes as i dropped my bag at our usual table and got in line, my mind still racing.

it was another doubt day; doubting me, doubting chris, doubting my friends. it was hell. i just wanted it to be over. as i walked through the line i almost didnt hear anything, checking out and speed walking to our table. as i sat there and chewed on the few baby carrots I had, i spaced out and stared at the wall. i almost didnt notice chris behind me.

"Hey y/n,"

I heard him say. I hummed in response, still chewing but not looking up.

"hello? earth to y/n!"

chris called, waving his hand in front of my face and snapping me out of my daze.

"yeah?"

i said shaking my head and looking at him as he sat down next to me. he laughed a little bit.

"you good?"

he asked, taking a drink. i just nodded.

"yeah why wouldnt i be?"

he shrugged and popped a chicken nugget into his mouth.

"you just seem kinda gone today. you sure everything's okay?"

i sighed and cocked my head to the side.

"i think so. the confidence is waning that's for sure though."

he frowned at me.

"what can i do?"

i sent him a look and half smiled.

"can you answer a question for me?"

he smiled and nodded.

"of course, anything for you babe."

i looked down at my tray, tracing my fork into it.

"why are you dating me?"

i asked, looking back to him. he looked confused for a second.

"what?"

he said quizzically and i shrugged.

"why are you dating me?"

i asked again and he drew his brows together.

"this isnt you trying to break up with me is it?"

he asked back and i shook my head.

"okay, then what do you mean? clearly you like me. enough to stick around at least, and im doing the same. im dating you because i like you."

i half frowned.

"i guess thats not what i meant either though. surely you must see me the way everyone else does."

he drew his brows.

"awesome? amazing? beautiful?"

i laughed.

"fat. chris. i mean fat."

he turned my face to look at him.

"okay, so what? more of you to love."

i sighed.

" i mean, you could have almost any small girl you want, so why did you pick me?"

he laughed a little bit.

"first of all im flattered you think i could have almost any small girl, cause clearly there's a long line of people wanting to date me."

he joked and i sent him a look.

"but i chose you because you make me happy."

i hummed in response.

"but is that enough? i know i havent given you as much as you have given me. believe me, i feel awful about it-"

"hey!"

he said, in defense, pushing my hair back from my face. he held the back of my head gently.

"dont even say that. i love you, ive said it a thousand times and ill say it again. you do not have to give me anything ever. i am here for you, your amazing personality, your bright eyes and cute laugh, and especially the time we have spent together. im here for all of that, not anything you could give me or offer me. at the end of the day you owe me nothing."

he leaned forward and pressed his forehead to mine. i closed my eyes and breathed deeply.

"thank you chris. i do love you."

i pulled away and looked between his eyes.

"and believe me, i have been considering things. i just dont want to break you."

i said in a joking tone, making him laugh.

"it would be an honor. just know i would die happy."

i laughed too.

"you are a noodle after all, we might have to fenagle something."

i winked at him as i took a drink.

"ya know, i think i heard someone say something along the lines of 'nothing goes better with spaghetti than a meatball, so i think we make a perfect match."

i snorted, some of the water i had just downed coming out my nose.

"christopher!"

i said through a disbelieving laugh. that had really come out of his mouth huh. he shrugged.

"what? am i wrong?"

i shook my head at him as i coughed.

"i mean no, but who knew you could be so bold."

i said flatly.

"who me?"

he joked, tickling my sides. i squirmed under his touch, trying to get away as we both laughed.

"no! no! let me go!"

i said through giggles.

"only if you agree with me."

i wiggled in his arms.

"on what?!"

"that youre great and im the luckiest SOB ever."

i nodded.

"fine fine! just stop tickling me!"

i said a little breathless. then he stopped, holding me too him.

" great, glad we are on the same page. now stop being dumb and give your noodle of a boyfriend a kiss. please."

i sighed and shook my head.

"fine."

i laughed at him, leaning in and pecking him on the lips. when i pulled away he just smiled widely at me and popped another chicken nugget in his mouth, still smiling as he chewed.

"ya know, i really am one lucky girl."

he thought for a second and nodded, a wide grin across his features.

"the luckiest."

[hoeforbilly]

second chances

i have a bunch of requests (thank you thank you thank you) and im doing my best to get them out to you as soon as i can! hope you like this one!

request: "Could you write an imagine, where Billy cheats on the reader and she catches him in the act. He doesn't realize how much she affected his life/ how much he loves her until shes no longer apart of his life. He tries to win her back. (Maybe happy ending?)" @schulky56

warnings: idk if i should mention there's swear words here? maybe? well there are lol

genre: a lil angsty, a lil fluffy

word count: 1.6k (yay finally something longer)

"It's not like we were ever that serious" Billy's voice was quiet and you couldn't help but laugh at his words. He was on sitting his bed, the girl right behind him, wearing one of hisshirts. You felt sick looking at them.

"What do you mean we weren't serious? you said with a bitter laugh. "Don't even answer that." you decided, turning on your heel and heading for the stairs.

"Y/N wait!" he sounded behind you but you didn't want to look back, tears already gathering in your eyes. Your heart was pounding, and you felt your hands starting to shake. You almost made it to the door but Billy caught up to you. You slowly turned around to look at him.

"Look, I really didn't think you were serious about this so I didn't know this would be such a big deal and..." you didn't let him finish.

"We both know that's a lie Billy" was all you said before leaving his house, getting in your car and driving away for good. To think you came over to check in on him after he didn't come to school that day. You felt disgusting knowing he just used you, he did exactly what people said he would and fucking cheated on you, like you were just another girl to cross off his list, add to a collection of thropies. Tears clouded your vision so you pulled over and put your car in park. "This is not real" you said to yourself, as you sobbed. You were pathetic and you hated that you let Billy do this to you. You hated that you trusted him and that he made you believe you were special enough for him to stay with you. "I'm so fucking dumb" you cried.

A few weeks passed and you slowly managed to pick yourself back up. You were very successful in avoiding Billy at school, you ignored every question and story you heard about him and just went on with your life. Your heart still ached for him, you were worried any time you wouldn't see his camaro parked in its usual spot but he hurt you way too much for you to just forget about it and run to him.

Billy thought he really wouldn't care. You were just a girl and he wasn't the type to cry over a girl. He did feel guilty when he saw you cry as you drove away but he expected that to be it. A quick moment of sadness and then back to the schedueled programming.

He walked back up to his room, he did leave a gorgeous girl all alone in his bed after all. He layed next to her and she cuddled up to him and Billy swore he felt sick to his stomach. He stayed like that for a second before jumping out of bed.

"You have to go" he mumbled. And so she did. She got dressed, cursing him under her breath and left his house. He had no idea what was happening but he felt so fucking empty. His head was aching, he grabbed a shoe box from under his bed and started gathering your things. A pen you let him borrow on his first day in Hawkins. Your chemistry notes he took to study from because he didn't have his own. A sweater you forgot to take as you left his room in a hurry, trying to avoid Neil's anger. A hair tie. A note you left in his locker. He felt his cheeks go red as he looked at what he had left of you. "What the fuck Hargrove" he whispered go himself, running his fingers over the sweater. "Why the fuck would you do that".

He felt awful. He didn't realize how special you were to him until you were no longer there and he just didn't know what to do with himself. He tried to talk to girls but they just couldn't compare to you. They weren't funny like you. They didn't have your laugh. God Billy was whipped for you and he only realized after you were out of his reach. He intended on giving you back all the things you left at his place but he couldn't bring himself to do it. He was miserable. Seeing you made him feel even worse, he just wanted to walk up to you, apologize and kiss those beautiful lips of yours. But he neved did, knowing you probably hated him.

The streets of Hawkins were almost empty, it was just past 8pm, the sun was slowly setting, the sound of rain hitting the roof of his camaro nearly putting Billy to sleep. He dropped Max off at the Wheeler's house and decided to take the long way home, not really wanting to have to deal with Neil just yet. The shoebox filled with your belongings was placed in the backseat, just in case he got the guts to finally return in to you.

He saw a figure appear on the sidewalk seemingly out of nowhere. The weather was no ideal for a walk but he didn't really care, happy he was seated in the comfort of his car. As he approached the person he started paying more attention to them. A big red hoodie with the strings pulled to protect them from rain, sweatpants and white sneakers. He took a closer look and realized it was you. In his red Hawkins Pool hoodie. He felt like his heart was about to jump out of his chest. He slowed down and rolled his window down.

"Y/N it's raining. I can give you a ride" he gave you a small smile and tried go swallow the lump in his throat.

"Thanks, I can walk. My house isn't that far anyway" you answered politely, not even looking at him. Your house was in fact very far away, at least a 20 minute walk. You thought he wouldn't remember anyway.

"Except it is far" he noticed with more confidence in his voice. "Come on, it's not a big deal. I don't want you to get sick".

"Okay" Billy's heart skipped a beat when you said that. You quickly walked over to the passenger door, getting in and taking off your hood. The car smelled just like you remembered. The leather seats had a lot of wear to them but that's what made them so special.

"So how have you been?" there was a shakiness to Billy's voice that you didn't recognize but you decided to ignore it.

"Good. A lot of school and stuff" you didn't wanna go into detail of how wrong it felt to not be with him. He nodded and hummed, acknowledging your words. "What about you?"

"Same old, same old" he sighed. You spent the rest of the drive in silence. Billy opened his mouth a couple times but ultimately decided not to say anything, as it would probably be super dumb anyway. Pulling up to your driveway he cursed himself for wasting a chance to talk to you.

"Thanks Billy" you smiled at him and unbuckled your seatbelt. "Do you want to come in?" your eyes widened in shock at what you just said. Not once during the drive have you thought about inviting him in and you had no idea where in suddently came from.

"Sure" he answered casually. Inside he was freaking out. You got out of the car and ran to your door, the rain was way more intense now and neither of you wanted to get soaked. You sat on the couch and just kind of looked at each other awkwardly. Billy broke the silence with a deep breath.

"Listen Y/N, I'm really sorry for what I did" he started, as he leaned to you a little, eyes glued to his hands. You did not expect to hear any apology from Billy Hargrove, and this one was really genuine.

"I mean we weren't technically dating. You never asked me to but I just assumed and..." your voice caught in your throat when he finally looked at you.

" I regret what I did and I regret not asking you to be my girlfriend. I was so dumb and I just didn't realize how much better my life was with you" he admitted. You stayed quiet for a while, surprised at his sudden confession.

"I get that you probably don't care about me anymore" he added and you shook your head.

"I do" you have him a weak smile. "I always cared about you Billy. That's why I stuck by your side for so long."

"Can we try again?" you saw how scared he was to ask that question.

"I don't know if I could trust you B."

"We don't have to go straight into dating. I just... I just really want you back in my life. You can go out with anyone you want and I can wait as long as it takes before you trust me. Even if you never wanna date i just wanna be your friend" it took you a while to process his words and he was getting more nervous by the second. "Please?" he reached out for your hand and you nodded.

"Okay. We can try that" the smile he gave you after that made your stomach do multiple flips. He pulled you into a hug and never stopped grinning as he held you close to him.

"Thank you. I won't waste your time, I promise".

Billy Hargrove was not one to make promises. But he knew he would keep this one.

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here it is, hope you like it! 💜

[taocastleprincess]

inktober for writers - day 7 - confusion / eijiroctober - day 7 - w Ashido Mina

author’s note: THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE AWESOME ATTENTION ON MY DAY 5 FIC!! im v v appreciative and it made me real happy so thanks again.

i skipped day 6 bc I didnt know what to write for the eijiroctober prompt. anyways, so im back again for day 7. this is such a goofy, silly, no real substance at all kind of fic and its based on THIS video that just came out ft Bella Hadid and when I watched it i was like......this soooo Hagakure... LMAO. so i linked it just so you know what meme im referencing. also i’m noticing that whenever I write something with Tooru in it she’s a walking, preppy ass meme and Mina just encourages her. i’m loving this pattern, honestly. they are so fun to write lol. but ok, i need to stop rambling. author’s note over. lol. drabble under the cut as usual.

“So after you asked, what did he say?” Mina examines the face of her redheaded friend very carefully before continuing her current task. She tsks quietly and uses her index and thumb to gently grab his chin and tilt his head in either direction. Kirishima is sitting on her bed beside Tooru, dressed in his nicest casual clothing and blushing softly under all the scrutiny. “You don’t need any concealer or anything. Your skin is perfect. Loser,” she rolls her eyes in half-serious frustration. Tooru giggles on the edge of the bed, floating clothes slightly rippling with movement. “You can do a liner, though, or a highlight? I don’t know. What do you think, T?” Tooru kicks her legs in excitement, seemingly-floating pink knee-high socks move rapidly. “Ooh! Do both! Both! But easy on the highlight because Kiri glows naturally. We don’t want to overwhelm.” Tooru’s invisible hand grabs Kirishima’s face and turns it towards her. “See? Look! So pretty!” Mina smiles brightly, nodding in agreement. “Pretty! Handsome! Hot! That’s why he’s going on a daaaaate!” The invisible girl squeals in excitement and Kirishima’s face burns red. “That’s not what he said.” “So what did he say? And do you wanna do both?” Mina points to her makeup drawer as Tooru starts quietly chanting, ‘both, both, both!’ from her corner of the bed. “Both,” Kirishima answers and the pink-haired girl turns away from him to start rummaging through her makeup for what she needs. She can hear Kirishima start humming in thought, preparing to answer her initial question. Even without looking, she knows that his tongue is peeking out of his mouth with his burgundy eyes rolled towards the ceiling in contemplation. “He said,” the boy continues, “‘get the hell out of my room and just be ready, Hair-for-Brains.’” Kirishima’s voice gets gruffer as he imitates the voice. Mina laughs at both his answer and his weak impression. “It’s a date, Kiri. Like I said.” She walks back over towards the bed with necessary products in hand. Tooru makes a noise of contention. “Like we said!” “Like we said,” Mina corrects. In front of her, Kirishima looks skeptical. “He didn’t say that.” Mina raises an eyebrow. “Does he ever say anything that isn’t violent?” “Or mean,” Tooru adds. “Or crude?” “Exactly. Read between the lines, Kiri. If it wasn’t a date, he wouldn’t have wasted any time shutting you down.” Tooru seems to be nodding furiously, her white baseball cap bounces up and down in the air. Kirishima seems slightly more assured now. His eyes brighten and he adjusts his posture, sitting taller. “Yeah, Blasty isn’t the best with words.” Mina smiles at the recovery of his confidence. “I guess he coulda just said no.” “Definitely could’ve said ‘no.’” “Mhm!” Tooru chirps. Mina watches Kirishima smile wide and happily. “Fine. I’m trusting you, Horn-Buddy.” He whips his head, turning to Tooru. “You too, Hagakure.” “I mean, obviously,” Mina giggles, getting back to the task at hand. “You’re letting me do your liner. That’s the true measure of friendship.” Tooru nods emphatically. “Oh my god, yes! Like, yeah, you can trust somebody with your life but would you trust them with your cat-eye?” Kirishima snorts in response and Mina giggles even harder. “Shut up, you’re gonna kill me, Tooru,” Mina laughs. Placing the small, circular container of highlight in her hand on the edge of the bed, she brings her hands back up to Kirishima’s eye level. She waves two liquid eyeliner pens in front of him. “Black or navy blue?” “Bla—“ Suddenly, Tooru gasps. In one fluid motion, she bounces from her place on the bed to Mina’s side. She snatches the black eyeliner out of her grip and holds it away. “No! Navy blue! It’ll bring out his eyes more! It’ll look so good against all that natural red!” “The hair’s not natural,” Mina and Kirishima reveal in unison. Tooru sucks her teeth and Mina imagines that she might be rolling her eyes. “Okay, same thing,” she responds in near exasperation. “Look. If homeboy comes through with this,” Tooru shakes the black eyeliner pen in her hand, “it’s gonna be quiet for him.” Mina raises her eyebrows in consternation. Kirishima tilts his head with quiet confusion. “But if he comes through with thaaaat,” she uses her other hand to point to the blue eyeliner still in Mina’s possession. “Homeboy’s gonna, like... get it.” The room is quiet for a few moments until Mina bursts into hysterical laughter. Her laugh is so infectious, Kirishima joins in with her, but his face is still pulled into a look of bewilderment. “Get what?” “It,” Tooru responds cryptically and Mina howls even louder. Kirishima shrugs. “I guess I’ll go with blue then.” “Yay!” Tooru throws the eyeliner onto Mina’s desk and jumps back on the bed. The other girl finally recovers from the bout of hilarity and prepares to work her magic. “Okay, now that T is done being a weirdo, I can give you some badass wings,” Tooru smacks her arm and she resists the urge to laugh again. Kirishima nods and closes his eyes. Completely serious now, Mina carefully does the redhead’s makeup in silence. She was only giving him simple wings and a few brushes of highlight, but she wanted everything to be exact and clean. She worked on his face while Tooru pressed her face very closely to Kirishima’s observing her work and giving suggestions when needed. Both girls make praiseful comments concerning the near perfection of Kirishima’s skin, making him blush with light embarrassment. After about the fourth time of this, Mina finally finishes. “Tooru?” The invisible girl leaps from the bed again and stands in front of Kirishima to fully appraise her work. After a few deliberating moments, Tooru speaks. “Okay, open your eyes, Kiri. Wanna get the whole effect.” Kirishima slowly opens his eyes, looking a bit dazed. “I was nodding off,” he says as way of explanation. Ignoring him, Tooru continues expertly examining his face. Eventually, she squeals with excitement. “Ooh! I told you! You look so good with the navy blue! It brings out all of the red and the gold highlight is just enough to emphasize your natural glow! Oh my god! Mina! You did so well!” The girl bounces up and down with unbridled enthusiasm, her sheer excitement rubbing off on her two classmates. “Can I see?” Kirishima’s eyes are wide and bright, the burgundy of his irises looking even more exquisite under the influence of the navy blue outlining his lids. Mina giggles as she snatches her hand mirror off an idle chair and places it in front of his face. She watches happily as the boy’s eyes overflow with elated surprise. “I thought Hagakure was exaggerating a bit, but nah. You did good.” Mina blushes in an uncharacteristic show of embarrassment. “Thanks, but you did all the heavy lifting, Kiri. You’re annoyingly good-looking. You and Kaminari are the worst.” She shakes her head in mock irritation and Tooru giggles, completely in agreement. Kirishima grins, all sharp teeth and big, pretty eyes. He’s just about to respond when there is an aggressive attack of knocks on Mina’s door. Tooru jumps in surprise and Mina rolls her eyes at the noise, correctly predicting the identity of the rude would-be intruder. “I know you’re in there, Hair-for-Brains! Didn’t I tell you not to be late? If we miss the bus we have to walk!” Bakugou’s loud voice clearly carries through the closed door. Tooru audibly scoffs in response. “We only open the door for gentlemen!” Mina snorts obnoxiously and Kirishima laughs quietly into his hand. “You’re gonna set him off,” Mina snickers. “And?” Mina laughs. Skipping towards the door, she raises her voice so Bakugou can hear her. “It’s ‘Respecting Kirishima’ hours! Be nice or we’ll lock him up in here forever!” Tooru follows her over to the door and hums loudly in agreement. Behind the door, the two girls can hear what sounds like mini-explosions. Mina laughs silently, head against the door. Blasty’s getting mad! Behind her, the bed squeaks loudly with the strain of movement. When Mina turns, Kirishima is now standing and has an amused but slightly uneasy expression on his face. “Okay, okay. We had our fun. I’m gonna go now.” Tooru lightly stomps her foot in defiance. Mina struggles to continue laughing in quiet as Kirishima gives Tooru a pleading expression. She hasn’t had this much fun since Kaminari short-circuited during field training last week! She’s having such a hard time containing herself that she doesn’t notice the absence of the sounds of explosions until Bakugou speaks again. “Kirishima,” he starts and it sounds so foreign and strained that Mina almost chokes on her own scream of laughter. “Can we please...” The blond trails off, leaving the awkward half-request floating in the hair and, not for the first time, she curses the fact that the dorm rooms don’t have peepholes. After a minute, Bakugou starts again. “I really don’t want to miss this showing, so hurry the fuc— let’s go, please.” At this point, Mina is crumpled on the floor. The effort of maintaining a quiet volume taking its toll on her. “T—Tooru,” she whisper-screams in laughter. “Tooru broke Bakugou!” Tooru’s face is, obviously, unreadable but Mina imagines that she looks slightly annoyed. “Being nice never hurt anyone.” Still laughing, Mina catches Kirishima rolling his eyes at both of them. He walks past Tooru and carefully steps over Mina to get to the door. “I’ll see you guys later then. And thanks again.” “You’re welcome,” Tooru quickly replies, bubbly disposition falling back into place. “If you’re really feeling grateful you can come back with the deets.” Mina nods, pink curls brushing against the floor. “Text the group chat when you’re back, Kiri. You better kiss and tell,” she winks mischievously. Kirishima shushes her and lightly taps on the door. She rolls her eyes in amusement. It’s not like McSplode can hear her whispering through the door! Both girls watch him open the door in silence. Mina is lying at a weird angle on the floor but from what she can see Bakugou is dressed stylishly, which isn’t unusual but she can tell he put in extra effort this time around. She watches the blond’s face morph from an irritated, troubled expression to one of almost dazed shyness, his cheeks adopting a pretty pink hue. How many times will Bakugou break today? The blond quickly collects himself but the lapse in attitude was too striking to be missed. Mina snickers into her hand. “W—Well, let’s go, Hai— Kirishima,” he corrects himself while glaring at Tooru’s invisible form. “If we miss the bus we’re gonna be screwed.” Bakugou’s cheeks continue to glow pink. Kirishima nods cooperatively. “Okay! If we speed walk we’ll make it still.” The two boys quickly dash down the hall. Mina, not yet done with her fun, jumps up and sticks her head out the door. “Remember, Blasty! It’s ‘Respecting Kirishima’ hours! Don’t make Hagakure beat your ass!” Tooru laughs as they strain to hear a muffled shout in response. Mina is almost positive that she heard some variation of the f-word but that’s nothing very concerning. Giggling, the pink girl shuts her bedroom door. Turning to Tooru, she extends a palm towards her to initiate a high-five. The invisible girl reciprocates, excitedly giggling with her. “Did you see Bakugou’s face? He’s so crushing. Kiri is so dumb!” Mina laughs. “They’re both dumb. Bakugou’s dumber though.” “Oh, of course, obviously” Tooru agrees. Mina playfully slaps her arm as she passes her to get to her desk. Picking up her phone she starts drafting a message. Tooru looks over her shoulder and gives a dainty snort of amused approval. ALIEN_QUEEN: @CLEAR-N-CUTE @REDDYtoRIOT OOOH HOMEBOY BOUTA GET IT REDDYtoRIOT: @ALIEN_QUEEN @CLEAR-N-CUTE im RLLY glad i didnt go thru w the blk..... wldve been real quiet 4 me CLEAR-N-CUTE: @REDDYtoRIOT @ALIEN_QUEEN SEE? trust ur homegirls

[makreon]

it’s been six months and you haven’t heard my story about my past relationships. i remembered when we’re still new as official boyfriends, you asked me about this but you said you’ll ask me again if you’re ready to hear it fully and when you’re not jelly anymore (uwu so cute). pokes. it’s been a long time already since i already forgotten the heartbreak from them and duh, i’m only looking at you for six months now and counting. so, i hope you don’t mind if i open this up to you (just so maybe you’ll get to know my background and please don’t judge me that much 🤧) — ex #1 he was my first boyfriend upon joining igrp. we were at stay. he was baekhyun and i was sehun. we started as friends since we get along with each other plus we’re both exo-ls and we rp our ults. but then, yours truly is so oblivious and i didn’t get his signal that he likes me that’s why he’s so clingy and he likes to hangout with me. fast forward (because i have forgotten already the details lmao), we became boyfriends after two months of being friends. but then i got busy from school and i felt guilty for lowkey neglecting him because i can’t manage my time to rp while dealing with my thesis, tho i manage to talk to him like a few times in a day (tho we only have long chats during weekends). then one day, i happened to see the exo gc was suddenly alive because of new noisy members, including chanyeol. there, i get the chance to bully the hyungs because i was bratty maknae. days passed by, and i go lie low in rp again, but i once visited baek and exo gc. that i happened to see. baek is calling chanyeol ‘daddy’ in gc. i tried to remain calm and backread for more details because maybe it’s just a joke, right? but i see no hints. of course i have to question baek for that. he said he was sorry. he didn’t inform me that he was dared by kai to call chanyeol for days. i told him to stop it because it’s making me jelly. he said okay until we reconciled. but then as the time goes by, idk if it’s just me and my insecurities of chanyeol being so close to baek that grew inside me, but i really can see they were so noisy in stories (tagging each other and bullying) even in posts. it’s like i’ve been forgotten. it’s like baek doesn’t have a boyfriend. so it led to confrontation that i have to ask him if he likes chanyeol more than me. he replied that “maybe if you weren’t that busy, i wouldn’t like him.” was it my fault that i have no time for him? maybe yes because if i work enough to make time for him, this wouldn’t happen. so there, in the end we both left stay and chose to let go of each other.. — ex #2 months after, it was finally my school breaks, yay! and i was in the mood to rp again, so i joined moonlight rp as johnny and there was once a jimin who arrived and flirted upon his first day icb. again, fast forward, i decided to date him after a week of sleeping beside him lmfao skdnfkd. anyways our phase was so fast, but i slowly learned to love him and he learn to love me too as the days goes by. then one day i happened to know he’s someone i know from stay who is currently taken. it was so damn awkward when i asked for confirmation and sudden breakdown at the same time since i knew i wasn’t the only one he’s dating. yeah. multi-dating sucks. i hated it. it’s like lowkey cheating but not really. nevertheless,  i still continued to date him after finding that out because i loved him and i can’t just let go? tho it hurts a lot since i know when he’s not replying me for more than four hours. i already knew he’s with his other partners. i grew tired from being the last option, for being too extra in gifting him and in expressing how much i loved him. wherein he doesn’t equally love me. even though it was really painful, i decided to broke up with him. at first, he doesn’t want me to let go and one thing i really didn’t like about him is he lied right in front of my face. he said i’m the only one he really loved and he didn’t date any other guys beside me. like lol i even confronted you about that, how dare you to twist your answer now? it wasn’t a peaceful heartbreak so i just decided not to reply him anymore or else he will keep saying flowery things again (i looked rude but dnvkdnv nvm)

that’s how i decided to rp a younger idols since my confidence went really down  and my trust issues went high. i chose renjun among dreamies because he’s underrated and i was thinking no one will ever fall in love with me again since im just gonna be a baby to all lmao. but then, there’s you out of nowhere. you didn’t even just hit on me right away. it was a slow progress that i didn’t even noticed you have feelings for me. i was slowly being drawn to you but at the same time i keep on restricting myself not to fall again because i’m merely saving myself for another heartbreak. it was long ass ride of thinking but in the end, i chose to swallow all my words. there i decided to yolo and fall for you freely. and that was a best decision i ever had because i have you now uwu.

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so that’s my story. tbh i thank them because i gained experience loving persons and i learned a lot to be a better boyfriend in the future. now i can really say i’m better at understanding and being patient to you. i’m still trying my best to express my love and i do really hope it reaches. so, thank you, next @ them because i live for my mark lee now~