#yapping about lucid dreams dont mind me

[goremet-chef]

i keep telling myself like. okay its too lte to sleep if you sleep now yr gonn wke up at like 11 or 12 again and YOU DONT LIKE DOING THAT!!! but................. sleep....................... sleep is so good like SLEEPING? BEING ASLEEP? my favorite hobby

idc if i have bad dreams idc if im dreaming of trauma or whatever horrors (okay i care a LITTLE bit but i have more than one dream, the next one could be good!!!!) I JUST. really love to dream its my favorite

yknow, i used to be SUPER into lucid dreaming, that was such a fun little era in my life i think i might try that again? I GOT REALLY HYPERFIXATED ON IT and it WORKED i literally. i was watching lucid dream information vids for like 2 days and then i intentionally got myself into one it was SOOO WEIRD.. i remember that shit so clearly too I ATE FOOD AND I TASTED IT...... i woke up in the dream like. IN MY BED where i fell asleep and i was like HOLY SHIT... but you cant get too excited in a lucid dream or else youll WAKE UP so i calmed myself and practiced all the silly reality checks i knew to do, and then i asked my dream to surprise me and it spawned a bunch of fans all arund my room?? an they were like blowing bubbles.

IT WAS SO FANTASTICAL YOU HAVE NO IDEA.. the whimsy i felt was UNBELIEVABLE i want that again so fucking badly GRGRRRGR. i went and looked at my face in the mirror (cuz yr brain has a hard time comprehending yr face) and it was all. morphy and at one point my face was straight up just devoid of any feature but i wasnt scared i was like yes i remember that it makes sense.

I DIDNT EVEN DO ANYTHING REALLY i just walked around and took it all in and ate some cookies. at one point i tried to like. *control* the dream (cuz being lucid and having control over yr dreams are NOT the same) and . it didnt work but i wasnt very confident, i wasnt sure if it would work so it didnt 😭

this was all a lot of fun, BUT. i made a mistake, a very crucial one. i had a lucid dream in MY brain you better believe that shit turned into a lucid nightmare!!!!!! this guy broke into my house and eventually i fled into my bathroom and locked the door but (after failing to control the dream i just felt like i couldnt control anything so the dream kinda slipped a bit) it didnt lock for no reason he just came right in and pointed a gun at me and i literally closed my eyes nd just RESET out of fear okay. ROUGH it iwas rough but whatever, not the worse my brain has thrown at me

thats the coolest partabout my lucid dreams is like. i remember all okay well. im someone whos able to remember MOST of my dreams very very clearly, like i still remember dreams from when i was literally like 3-4 in foster care 💀💀 but LUCID DREAMS especially, they are the clearest for me

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