#yall you have no idea how much tumblr has been getting on my nerves

[babyboiboyega]

a new oneshot?? 👀 does that mean new....next to me chapter?

maam please, were dying

........So! About that! I might as well post the original update to this ask lmao

Next To Me Update

* this entire post is me just typing out whatever comes to mind when it comes to Next To Me, and I'd really appreciate it if you read it because it has to do with the future of NTM <3 *

If you've kept up with Next To Me (NTM), you'll know that there are 15 parts currently out with my original plan being a total of (around) 20 parts in total. I've found that I'm at a standstill when it comes to NTM as of right now. I planned out the entire plot y'all, complete with ideas of what would happen in each part until the end, but planning it was the (slightly) easy part; its when I tried to write them out that it became difficult.

To be quite honest, the last few chapters of NTM were a little difficult to write because I couldn't find that same motivation and inspiration, and every draft I wrote was personally underwhelming, and I sure as hell wasn't posting some mess for y'all.

Another very small reason was that the interactions started gradually becoming less and less, and a lot of it is on me because I don't really interact with others on here (despite how much I really want to). Now when I just stopped posting, it wasn't surprising when the interactions decreased; it made sense, it was understandable.

Another part that is my fault is I started viewing my own skill set and success off of those interactions. I initially posted those parts because I loved the story I came up with, the characters, the fandom, and the writing in and of itself. But it got to a point where I was allowing the number of notes each part received to dictate the motivation I felt to write the next part, and personally, I don't think it should be that way. At least not for me! Can't speak for everyone else lmao

And in doing so, in letting the number of notes essentially motivate me, I kinda lost sight of why I was writing NTM. I appreciate every comment and reblog and like...but I don't necessarily want that to be the main driving factor for why I post. I want to write/post because I love to do it, and then I'd like for the interactions to be the cherry on top yknow

BUT with that being said, there are some decisions I need to make regarding Next To Me, namely if I'm going to continue it, or if I'm going to put it on indefinite hiatus. If I do stop it, I have already started planning a sort of revamp for NTM with a better plot, new characters, better backstories, etc.

But on the other hand, if I keep writing it, it's going to be rather difficult to do so with the risk of plot holes and less-than-stellar writing. But all I can tell you now is as soon as I figure out what I'm doing, y'all will too lmao

Bless you and thank you so much if you read all of that. I've been feeling like this for a while and I was admittedly pretty nervous to bring it to tumblr, but eventually worked up the nerve to do so, especially because I wanted to give y'all some sort of update after a while of not posting anything.

For the TL;DR people: might stop NTM, might not. If I do, its because I have plans for a revamp; if I don't, be prepared for horrible writing that's a result of me just wanting to get it done lmao

But thanks for coming to my TED talk, and I'll see yall at the next project (whatever that may be) <3

Stay safe, y'all

[lazy-cat-corner]

Repost: Prompt- Lyrics to Seven Wonders

Rating: Mature

Pairing: Loki X Valkyrie

Words: 2800k

Summary:Post Endgame but an Infinity War AU where Loki survives. It’s been two years since Valkyrie was home and she thinks she’s about ready to pack her bags to Norway and then an unexpected visitor comes to New York. This fic is a prompt that follows the lyrics to Fleetwood Mac’s “Seven Wonders”.

Notes: I am so sorry if you’re seeing me repost this but I’m 99.9% sure tumblr filtered the post out because of a link I embedded (screams). I’m so mad about that. Anyway, here’s a repost of it. (If you’ve already read this don’t feel obligated to like/reblog) I’m just posting this so it appears in searches because like whats the point if no one can see it, right? (takes calming breaths) 

You can listen to Fleetwood Mac’s version of Seven Wonders but I was listening to Alice Kristiansen’s version on YT. I highly recommend listening to more of her songs. Not only does she look like Natalie Portman’s doppelganger, but she has the voice and talent of an angel! Enjoy!

So it’s hard to find someone with that kind of intensity.

You touch my hand I play it cool and you reached out your hand to me.

But if our paths never cross, well you know I’m sorry but~ Fleetwood Mac

It felt long ago since Brun’s last seen him, yet the second the two make eye contact, it feels like they could pick up where they’ve left off. If only they could get past the awkward introductions.

 She’s only just arrived back in New York after months of tireless work with SHIELD chasing down a mad god in Brazil and before all of that there was busy work with Tony in headquarters. She arrived the other night already set on staying for only a couple weeks to pack her things and return to her home in Norway.

 She grabs a handful of clothes and stuffs it in a cardboard box.  

 “If you’re leaving, then you have to go to the anniversary party I’m throwing!”

 Tony leans against the door frame of Brun’s room.

 Brun has a shirt in her hands and knits her eyebrows in thought. She’s pretty sure he married Pepper in the fall.  

 “Who’s anniversary?”

 “Ours! Well, everyone’s, really. It’s been nearly five years since,” Tony waves his hands in the air. Still too shaken to directly mention the day they somehow got lucky and undid everything Thanos destroyed.

 “I’m not really up for a party,” Brun sighs.

 “Is that even possible for you to say those words?”  

 “I’m just really ready to go home, Stark.  I haven’t been up for partying for some time, you know that.”

 “Yeah, I guess so.” He shrugs. “But this one is important. I’ve been working on it for months. Everyone will be there!”

 “Everyone?” Brun raises her eyebrows in disbelief.

“Well, Thor can’t make it.” Tony answers her silent question

 A feeling of disappointment courses through Brun. She shrugs and continues packing.

 No matter, they will be reunited soon.

 “I’m going to take that silence as a yes. Yes Tony, I can’t wait to go to your super fun party!” He says as he walks out of her room making an awful impression of herself.

 She forgot how striking Loki’s eyes are until now. The small reflective lights from the disco ball Tony hung up in the venue dances in the blue of his eyes. His gaze shifts back to Pepper Potts clutching a glass of champagne and enthusiastically telling him about her newest project with Tony. Loki places a gentle hand over her shoulder and politely says something to her Brun can’t make out. Pepper’s face shifts from excitement to confusion until she turns her head and follows Loki’s line of sight. Her face softens and gives Brun a smile before she quietly makes her way deeper in the crowd of guests.  

 Loki’s steps are slow and cautious. Almost like he’s afraid if he moves too quickly it would startle her and she’d run away. Like how she did before.

 They stand in silence for a moment and exchange a polite smile.

 She knows someone has to speak first before it gets too awkward and it’s probably already gotten awkward at this point-

 “Hi.” She blurts.

 “Your hair,” Loki points. “Did something different with it?”

 Brun’s hand touches her hair she put up in braids and smirks remembering Thor saying those words to her sometime ago.

Must run in the family.  

 “Brazil was really humid,” she says without thinking, “Had to keep it out of the way and I guess I’m not ready to part with it.”

 “It looks, nice.”

 “Thanks,” she mutters.

 She should say something, anything to hide that her head is running at a rapid pace. Is it too late for her to say sorry? Should she even address what’s probably obvious to the both of them or pretend like nothing happened?

 “It’s good to see you,” Loki says each word carefully.

 “Yeah,” Brun fidgets with her dress, “you too.”

 The noise in the room grows quiet as Pepper approaches the stage up front and asks for everyone’s attention.

 Brun leans over to Loki and quietly continues.

 “It’s been nearly…” Brun purses her lips counting back the months since he left.

 “Two years,” Loki finishes.

 “Right,” she turns up to Loki and notices his attention to Pepper’s speech. “You’ve been, busy, i see?”

 She mentally scolds herself. Brun’s slayed gods with her Dragonfang sword and yet here she is choosing to cower and see how long they can go without talking about the last night she saw him.

 Loki turns to her and gives a warm smile. He leans in closer and answers.  

 “Thor thought it would be best I serve as a sort-of Ambassador to Asgard. Go around and speak publicly, maybe get more countries on our side. He’s out of his mind, but I admit everyone’s been more tolerant of me since I began the campaign.”

 Brun tries to find the right words to say. Her train of thought is derailed when the rest of the party guests catch her attention.  

 A round of applause erupts and Pepper speaks louder into the microphone.  

 “Again, thank you all for coming. This is an important day for all of us. With that said, let’s begin with the awards!”

 Pepper holds a plaque up in the air and explains the significance of it. She finishes by motioning to the pair standing off to the side.

 “Unfortunately, Thor couldn’t be here to accept the award. So their ambassador, his brother, Loki Odinson, will be accepting on his behalf.”

 “They never said anything about awards.” Brun defends.

 “Of course they didn’t,” Loki grits his teeth. “Excuse me for a moment,” He hands Brun his drink and approaches the stage to give an improvised acceptance speech his palace tutors probably had him perfect for centuries. It’s the type of speech that could win him a position of power if he didn’t already have bad blood with New York.

 She expected the atmosphere of the party to be more hostile towards Loki. Even if he contributed to Thanos’s defeat, it’s not something he brags about when he’s on TV. Brun has to give it to Asgard, they have a good PR team if they could get him back in Midgard’s good graces.  

 “See, I told you everyone would be here!” Tony’s voice catches her attention. He’s clutching two glasses of bourbon and hands her one.

 “You invited him, too?” She takes a sip out of her glass and closes her eyes in bliss. Tony seems to be the only one on Earth who understands her taste.

 “At first, and he said no.”

 “Which is why I know he would have no interest in something like this. Not without some sort of persuasion.”

 “I might have mentioned you were going to be here,” Tony takes a casual sip of his glass.

 “Why?”

 “Thought you could use a familiar face. Don’t take this the wrong way, but you haven’t been yourself lately and when you let it slip you hoped Thor would show up-

 “I never said that,” Brun interrupts.

 “It was implied,” he defends, “Anyway, you seemed bummed when I said he said no so I picked up the phone and let Point Break know you were going to the party before you returned. I didn’t think he would have the time and you were supposed to be meeting him tomorrow, anyway. And then Loki called me back…”    

 The party gives another round of applause with a few whistles in the background.

 Tony keeps his focus ahead on the pair on stage when he adds, “He seemed pretty enthusiastic, when he asked me about you.”

 Brun feels her cheeks heat up. On instinct, she cools herself down with another drink from her glass.

 Pepper pulls Loki in for a brief hug and shakes his hand one last time before he steps down the stairs. Brun watches as he gives a few people in passing a friendly wave on his way back and laughs to herself. He would probably never admit how natural he is with people.

 When he’s out of sight from everyone else, Loki lets the plaque fade into one of his pocket dimensions. Brun holds out his glass and he thanks her before taking a long sip.

 “What did you get yourself?” Loki motions to her glass in her hand.

 “Tony-” Brun motions next to her and notices he slipped away at some point. “Was here,” she shrugs. “Didn’t get a chance to ask what he got me. Something expensive, probably.” She takes another drink.  

 The awards end and Pepper claps her hands motioning to the dance floor on the other side of the ballroom. The music begins and pulls everybody to the other side.

 “Bar’s open,” Loki motions to empty stools. “Care for another drink?”

 “You already know my answer,” Brun laughs.

 They sit together in silence and watch the rest of the party dance along. By her second glass, Brun’s finding it difficult to sit still and stay quiet. She needs to do something, or say something. She’s scared she might say something wrong or make things worse somehow. Without warning, she stands up to leave. Loki reaches out and holds her wrist.

 Loki’s eyes turn to glass and his lips tighten.

 “Brunnhilde, I’m s-

 “Don’t apologize.” Brun cuts him off. “Don’t-don’t pretend like any of it was your fault. Let’s just…”

 Loki lifts his eyebrows, waiting for her to finish.

 Brun motions to the party. “Start over? Or something,” she sets herself back on the stool.  

 “Is that really what you want?”

 Brun considers her words for a moment.

 “I don’t know what I want,” she confesses.  

 A familiar song plays that catches Brun’s attention. A memory flashes in her head the last time they heard this song. They both had too much to drink at the pub and found themselves dancing in front of a jukebox. It wasn’t anything unusual for something like that to happen to them. They often found themselves tangled in each others arms after a good drink. Eventually, they found themselves doing it without any alcohol needed.  

 Loki catches Brun swaying to the song and leans in.

 “Dance with me?”

 Brun blinks and is about to ask him why when he takes her hand and holds still for a moment. There’s a look in his eyes waiting for Brun to recoil and praying she doesn’t. Brun curls her fingers and lets him pulls her further in.

 Loki winds his arm around Brun’s back and she instinctively melts into his embrace. This feels different from how they used to dance.

 Before, they would be constantly moving. Always reaching for something more. In hopes they could find something that’s enough or could soothe them for the time being. Now, they’re swaying so slow, they’re practically standing still. It lulls Brun into a state of tranquility and her thoughts are finally slowing down to a pace she can keep up with.  

 She’s not sure if she heard Loki humming along to the song, but the vibrations on his chest pull her closer to his embrace.  

 Brun looks up and studies Loki’s content expression. A calmness overtaking her as she realizes the truth.

 She remembers why she ran off the first time. It feels stupid now, but at the time it terrified her.

 Brun’s never met someone with that kind of intensity.

 She left thinking she wasn’t ready for a relationship so serious and after some time alone she learned that she’s right. These two years apart taught her so much more about what she wants and it’s unlikely she could ever give Loki that life he wants with her. But maybe she could give him something different?

 When the song finishes they step away from the dance floor, grab some drinks at the bar and find an empty table to sit at.

 Finally feeling comfortable and confident enough, Loki leans forward and asks her about her work in Brazil. Brun starts to explain the whole situation and stops mid-story.

 For some reason, the music is growing louder. And the two look over to spot a guest at the DJ table shouting in the microphone.

 Brun leans into Loki’s ear and attempts to sound casual, “Who let him on stage?”

 The pair shift uncomfortably in their seats. The beat of the song pounding into their chests and sending an unsettling feeling up their spines. It takes them back to five years ago. That time when everyone believed they lost their hearing. When all they could see was darkness.

 Brun’s finding it difficult to peer over to Loki. Partly because her vision is becoming narrow and another part of her feels like it would be rude to see him in such a vulnerable state. She looks down at her glass and is surprised to find it empty. How long have they been still?

 Eventually, Pepper approaches the DJ’s table and lowers the speakers, reminding everyone about safety codes.

 After a few deep breaths, Loki finally speaks up.  

 “If you’d prefer, we can finish catching up at my hotel. Stark gifted me with this nice bottle of wine I think you would appreciate.”

 “What makes you think that?”  

 “Because Stark said you’d appreciate it.” He answers bluntly.

 Brun barks out a shaky laugh.She catches Tony sitting at a table on the other side of the room while he smugly raises a glass her way. She throws a brief glare before she turns back. Was he watching them this whole time?  

 “It better be good if he said I’d like it.” Brun grits her teeth.

 Loki stands up and sets his half-finished glass down.

 “Let’s go.” Loki reaches his hand out.

 “Now?” Brun looks at the guests enjoying a song that must be popular because everyone knows the steps to it.

 “If you want,” he offers.

 Brun considers for a moment and wonders what else she could possibly be waiting to happen here. Brun takes his hand and they step out the front doors. The cool air brushes Brun’s cheeks and her eardrums are pulsing as soon as she steps out of the noise.  

 She’s not sure where they’re going and she wonders if Loki’s just going to teleport them to his hotel.

 “I hope you don’t mind,” he leads them down the subway stairs. “I’ve been using my seidr all day and I could use a break. Besides, I thought we could enjoy the ride.”

 They get passes at the machine and pass through the gates. Like it was on cue, a train comes their way and stops.

 They find an empty cart in the subway and sit in the back.

 Brun looks out the window and watches the bricks shift into houses as the train makes its way above ground. Loki unconsciously squeezes her hand and it catches her attention at their hands intertwined and resting on his lap. She didn’t notice until just now. Loki hasn’t stopped holding her hand.

 He holds her hand until they reach the end of the line.

 Brun settles herself on a chair in the hotel room as Loki uncorks the bottle of wine. A berry scent wafting in the air as it pops open and Brun licks her lips. Unsurprisingly, Tony once again knew what her taste buds wanted. Loki pours her a glass and they exchange what they’ve been up to the past two years. As soon as they began, it felt like opening up floodgates. They talk, and laugh and smile without a single beat of silence.

 By the time they finished the bottle of wine, they moved their conversation to the bed. It didn’t matter who started kissing, only that it didn’t end.

 She slowly starts peeling her dress off and pulling Loki deeper into their kiss. Her heart stutters when she feels the familiar contours of his chest and his mouth hitting all those places that drove her wild. Brun tilts her head back and lets him set her down on the mattress. Her hands running into his soft hair and the need to pull him closer grew stronger and more desperate.  

 It didn’t feel awkward like Brun thought it would. It felt natural, like picking up a book where it was last marked. She expected to feel regret afterwards, but all she can feel is bliss.

 Loki presses his forehead against hers and tries to control his breathing when they kiss one last time. Brun tastes a small trace of salt left on his lips when she opens her mouth and deepens the kiss.

 They have little need to speak, but they both struggle to find the right words. Loki opens his mouth and she interrupts.

 “We don’t have to talk about it. Maybe later.”  

 There’s a look of relief in Loki’s eyes when he gives a curt nod and turns off the lights. Loki pulls the comforter over and while it feels too hot for a blanket right now, her limbs are too relaxed for her to protest.

 Brun moves closer in Loki’s embrace and runs small patterns on his bare chest. His even breathing pulling her into a peaceful sleep.

 They will talk, eventually. Pretend like they need to figure out what it meant that they fucked, but they both know better. It’s impossible to keep away and Brun’s not sure if that’s a bad thing. Could they have a content future together?

 Brun closes her eyes and imagines what it would be like.

  It might work out someday, Brun thinks to herself.

[jbbarnesandnoble]

Hungry Eyes: One-Shot

Pairing: Modern!Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: a night out with your friends leads to you singing karaoke in front of an entire bar. you might be singing in front of them, but everyone knows who you're singing to.

Warning(s): fluff, drinking, bar setting, cringy dialogue (i did not hold back on this one yall) happy ending, my bad writing, and this was only edited once (by me, i can tell you in full confidence that my editing skills suck)

Word Count: 3,059

Prompt: Hungry Eyes by Erik Carmen

A/N: this has been sitting in my drafts since june i believe, and i have wanted to post it so badly! so naturally when i try to post it (after MONTHS of not postint) tumblr stops working and messes my whole plan up... im sorry my friends, but second times the charm (that's how the saying goes, right??)

(not my gif)

It is 9:38pm on a Saturday night, Dirty Dancing plays on your TV in the background while you get ahead on some work. It is your fifth time watching it this week, but you can’t not watch it, it is your favorite movie after-all. On the coffee table next to you, your phone vibrates. Picking it up, you greet your friend on the phone.

“What up babe, I hope you’re wearing somethin’ sexy ‘cause we’re going out tonight!” Natasha announces into her phone. You sigh, knowing there is no way for you to escape going out tonight, not after bailing on her the last four times.

Which is how you find yourself here, at O’Malley’s Bar and Karaoke. Sitting at a center table in the dimly lit bar while an intoxicated man belts out a Fleetwood Mac song. You choose a seat at the mostly empty table. Nat, who is talking with her younger sister, Yelena. Sits on your right and Sam -your other best friend- sits on your left.

“Y/n, haven’t seen you 'round here in awhile. How’s it hanging?” Yelena asks, shifting in her chair, she tries to hear over the sound of the man's bad and loud singing. If you can even call it singing.

“She's been avoiding us,” Nat says, pushing all your buttons perfectly. You do your best to ignore her antics. The wood chair scraps against the hardwood floor as you pull it out and sit between your two best friends. You answer Yelena’s question with a generic answer, ignoring her sister - and her comments - who doesn't seem to care.

“What’s up, kid. It’s been a while since you last came out with us. Nat finally blackmailed you to come with?” Sam jokes with you. You turn to face him, as he sips his water. Ice clinks around in his glass from the quick movement.

“Drinking water tonight?” You ask, more out of intrigue than anything else, though it is a good way to turn away from the current topic. Since you don’t feel like explaining your reason for not hanging out with your friend group much anymore.

It isn’t like you don’t want to go out with them, you do. But you aren’t all that fond of being around Bucky and his girlfriend Dot. You have had a huge crush on Bucky since college and have been best friends for even longer. You thought that over time that small childish crush would go away, but much to your dismay, it did not. In fact, it grew and it never stopped growing. So now, here you are, years later, in love with your best friend who you can’t have because he’s in love with someone else.

That explanation is a great way to kill everyone’s fun. Which is why you haven’t told anyone why you don’t want to hang out anymore. It’s too hard to see them together. You pushed past the pain for almost an entire year, but you aren’t sure that you can do it anymore.

“Somebody has to keep an eye on these kids,” Sam explains, acting as a true mature adult. “Also I drove,” he adds, quieter than the first part, he hides behind his drink.

“There it is.” You say, to which he responds by pretending to be hurt that you didn’t believe he would be the mature one by choice.

A waitress comes around moments later asking you what you would like to drink and eat. A smile on her face the entire time, one you recognize as a customer service smile. Completely fake, but real enough that the customers are none the wiser. You thank her, asking for only a glass of water.

“Forget whatever she asked for, she would like a beer.” Natasha interrupts the young waitress as she is about to leave the table.

“Natasha!” You shout at her, she shrugs in response taking a swig of her own beer.

“I agreed to come out with you, but I didn’t agree to drink.” You point out and it’s true. You don’t feel like drinking tonight and you have to drive yourself home so you really shouldn't be drinking.

“You agreed to drink when you said you would come out with us, plus Sam’s driving.” The redhead tries to argue as she leans back in her chair.

“Yeah, he’s driving you, unlike some people I drove myself.” She shrugs, becoming uninterested in the conversation. She goes back to talking to Yelena.

The same waitress from before comes back, water in one hand and a beer in the other. She sets them both down in front of you, a smile on her lips the entire time. Her long black hair sways back and forth as she moves around the table. She checks in on the rest of your friends who had just arrived.

“Y/n!” Clint and Tony yell in unison. While Steve greets you more calmly than the others as he claims a seat across from you. You offer a kind smile in return. Your eyes scan over the group that had sat down at your now full table and you notice two faces missing from your group.

“Are Bucky and Dot coming out tonight?” You ask no one in particular. Everyone shares glances and avoids looking in your eyes.

“It’s been so long since you’ve been out with us, we all forgot you didn’t know.” Tony said, eyebrows drawn together and a sympathetic smile on his lips.

“Know what?” you ask, letting your intrigue get the best of you. Sam is the first of your friends to speak up, seeing as he is one of your closest friends the duty fell to him.

“Buck hasn’t been out with us for a while, kid. Once you stopped hanging out with us we started to see less and less of him. Now he rarely hangs out with us.”

Your eyes scan around the table, no one is looking directly at you except for Sam and Nat. You shrug, not seeing the huge deal about the whole thing. It’s his choice not to come out, just like it is your own.

“He’s been distant with us.” Tony adds, hiding behind his drink

“His loss.” You state causally, though deep down you are a bit disappointed. It has been a while since you last saw him, it would be nice to know he is doing well.

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Two beers and most of the bar’s nachos later, you’re having a better time than you expected to. You forgot how much fun being around your friends is. You wish you hadn’t been such a child about the whole Bucky thing. You could have been having so much fun had you simply ignored your own feelings instead of dwelling on them.

A group of young girls is on the stage, singing along to some new pop song you have not heard before. They are not the best singers, but you can tell they don’t care. They are having fun and enjoying themselves that is all that matters. The song ends and the crowd, filled mostly with drunk people, clap and cheer as they exit the stage.

Someone’s hand pulls three times on the sleeve of your shirt. Grabbing your attention from the drunk guy who stumbled onto the stage. His friends cheer loudly as he gets ready to sing and someone from the crowd yells happy birthday. Across the bar, you find a table full of young guys and girls. Balloons and streamers decorate the booth. A banner hangs above it, written in bold blue marker reads, ‘Happy Birthday Tom'.

“Y/n, you know what you should do?” Yelena starts and you can tell the alcohol is starting to kick in the tiniest bit. Though she seems to be better at holding her liquor better than some of your other friends. “You should go up there.”

“No, no way. There is no way I’m going up there.” You argue, holding your hands up as if trying to physically stop her idea.

“Come on, it would be so much fun! Plus, if you do it Clint will pay you twenty bucks.” The blond bargains with you, both of your eyes look to where Clint is happily unaware of her idea. A smile spreads across your face.

“Fine, but I’m gonna need one more of these and you’re buying,” you say, waving your empty beer bottle back and forth.

You take your time finishing your beer, your nerves grow larger with each sip. Soon enough, Yelena caught onto what you were doing and yelled at you to drink faster. Well, you think that’s what she was doing. With her switching between Russian and English it was hard to tell what exactly she was trying to say. And Natasha’s so-called “help” did nothing, seeing as she was also speaking in Russian.

“You’re up next,” Sam announces which earns cheers from all your friends. Settling back in his chair, he pats your shoulder offering an encouraging smile. The next four minutes go faster than any other song before. The girl on stage announces your name and you reluctantly walk onto the stage. Your friends cheer you on, which helps ease your nerves. Also, the fact that most of the bar is drunk, the chances of anyone remembering this is not very high.

“Hey Sam, why didn’t you tell her they broke up?” Steve asks from across the table, which gains the rest of the group's attention. Except for Clint who never knows what’s going on. Which usually has to do with the fact that his hearing aids are off about half of the time.

“That’s his job, not mine. I’m not his babysitter.” Sam says curtly.

“He can tell her when he gets here,” Tony tells everyone in the most nonchalant way possible. All eyes are on him, confused by what he means. “I texted him, told him she finally stopped avoiding us," he pauses to correct himself, "Him, and came out for the night.”

“You drunk genius!” Clint shouts

“You’re drunk too, you idiot,” Yelena yells at him. He promptly turns his haring airds back off and mumbles something about being the soberest one there in response to her statement.

“Shut up all of you, she’s singing,” Nat yells at them.

An upbeat melody begins playing over the speakers. A small screen in front of you flashes the lyrics of the song you picked on it. Another second passes and it’s time for you to start singing. You start off quiet, not quite believing in yourself yet.

“I’ve been meaning to tell you,

I've got this feelin' that won't subside

I look at you and I fantasize

You’re mind and tonight.”

Your friends, after being quiet for a while, start cheering you on again. Their support gives you the confidence you need. From in the crowd, Sam yells, “That’s my best friend, y’all, stay jealous.” which causes you to laugh, you collect yourself and keep on singing.

“Now I’ve got you in my sights,

with these, hungry eyes

one look at you and I can’t disguise”

The song continues on and suddenly you feel like Jennifer Grey in Dirty Dancing. Feeling more confident you attempt to do some of the dance moves that you can remember from the movie. You aren’t the best dancer, but you don’t care all that much, you’re having a lot more fun than you thought you would. In fact, you’re almost happy Yelena encouraged you to go on stage.

“I want to hold you so hear me out,

I want to show you what love’s all about

darling tonight.”

The next set of lyrics pop on the screen, not that you need them, you know this song by heart. It’s then the front door swings open and your eyes find a set of steel-blue ones, your heart skips a beat or two, or maybe three. You stutter over the words once or twice before you collect yourself enough to sing the next words.

“I’ve got hungry eyes

I feel the magic between you and I

With these hungry eyes

Now I’ve got you in my sights.”

Lyrics that meant nothing before, now mean a little too much to you. All thanks to Bucky, who had to enter the bar while you were on stage. With your heart pounding a little harder thanks to him, you keep on singing and the crowd keeps cheering. You watch as he chooses to stand a few feet behind your group rather than join them.

“I need you to see

this love was meant to be.”

Your dancing has slowed to a slow sway back and forth, your eyes never leaving Buckys. The music is quieter than before and all you can see is him. You try your best to look away, but it’s too hard when he’s staring at you like that. With his soft and gentle smile and his hair that is so fluffy all you can think about is running your hands through it. At this point, you’re well aware that you are singing to him. What you don't notice is that your friends - and everyone else in the bar - are also well aware of what is happening, and who you are really singing to.

“I feel the magic between you and I.”

“Now I’ve got you in my sights

With my hungry eyes.”

Just like that, as quickly as the song began it ended. The bar fills with applause as you leave the stage. Making a b-line to your friends who are all standing when you reach them, ready to pull you into a hug.

“Dude, that was amazing. I was even considering giving you twenty bucks myself… But I won’t, I’ll let Clint do that.” Yelena says, patting you on the back and leaning her arm on your shoulder.

“I didn’t know you could sing like that.” Steve complements, in his usual awkward manner. You thank him as he pulls you into a small hug.

“Get out of the way losers,” Sam yells from the back of the group, which makes you laugh, “You got some pipes on you, kid. I’m a bit hurt that you never told me, your best friend, that you can sing. But I’ll forgive you this time. All it'll cost you is a pizza.” he says with a wink so you know he’s only kidding, not that he needed to do that. He is your best friend, after all, you know him better than Steve and Bucky do.

Sam pulls you into a huge hug when your eyes meet Bucky’s who is standing behind the group. You turn your eyes away when you go to hug Nat next, “You should probably talk to him.” she whispers into your ear before letting you go and yelling, “Next rounds on me!” Which is the perfect chance to escape. “Waters all around!” You hear her add while walking away, boos erupt from all of your friends and a smile pulls at your lips.

“Hey, wanna get some air?” Bucky asks when you’re close enough to hear him, you nod without hesitating.

It is a bit colder outside from when you first left your apartment, a cold, Autumn breeze blows through your thin blouse. You regret not grabbing your jacket before leaving the bar. In an attempt to gain some warmth, you wrap your arms around yourself.

“Dot and I broke up,” Bucky blurts out, the sudden confession causes you to stop in your tracks. He does too, choosing to stand next to you. “I feel like an idiot about the whole thing if I’m being honest. She said that she couldn’t date me while I am in love with someone else. It took me too long to realize who she meant, when I did, everything else began to make sense in my life again.”

“So, who is it?” you ask, somehow convincing yourself that it can’t be you.

"And I thought I was an idiot." he states, a smug, joking smile on his lips.

Before you have the chance to ask him what he means. His lips crashs into yours and his hand cup your face. The kiss is slow and sweet and everything you ever imagined it would be plus more. It’s the kind that sweeps you off of your feet and steals your breath, and leaves you feeling a little dizzy afterwards. It’s the kind of kiss at the end of a rom-com when the guy finally gets the girl.

“I feel it too,” he says through soft pants, his forehead resting against your own. You hum, silently asking him what he means. “The magic between you and I, I finally feel it. Although it’s about five years overdue.” His words, as cheesy as they might be, are perfect and romantic in every way possible. Your arms wrap around his waist, pulling him closer so that your noses are almost touching.

You’re about to say something when your stomach speaks first, doing it’s best to be as loud as possible. There is a moment of silence between you before you both start laughing. Bucky’s hands fall from your face and down to your shoulders to pull you into his chest. You stand there laughing with your face buried in his chest.

“Let’s go find you some food, yeah?” he asks you, fingers running through your hair. You nod into him, more than happy to find something to eat.

“You never answered my question from before.” You say and you begin to walk to find food, your arm looped around his waist, his around your shoulders. It takes him a moment to realize what you’re talking about when he does he says,

“This girl from work, I've been in love with her since I first saw her.” He teases with a playful smirk on his lips.

“You are really mean, you know that?” You complain, faking a pout. A laugh bubbles in his throat before he plants a kiss onto your head.

“Yeah, but you still like me.” he points out before stopping to shrug off his jean jacket, after he notes the goosebumps littering your skin.

“Can’t have you catchin’ a cold on our first date.” You smile up at him as you walk to the closest pizza shop that is down the street.

[cobalt-penguin]

y’know what i’m still feeling annoyed and petty, plus i’m stuck inside and it’s storming out so why not type out a checklist of what everyone in TOW did to me.

since i am mean and manipulative, petty and pathetic, and so much more? why not bring up some old beef and give ya’ll something to eat. 

Gansey: tried repeatedly to instigate drama -- if not actively break up -- my OC ships by encouraging -- through IC shenanigans -- cheating and lying. One of these happened while I was on vacation with my family and i still remember crying about it in a hotel bathroom because i thought one of my few ships in the RP was over and I hadn’t even been asked about it. This also included trying to get his OC Tomas to make IC/OOC (hey you can feign innocence when it’s in that dubiously OOC space, until its receptive in which case you can say it was IC the whole time!) at one of my ship partner’s OCs. Made repeated fat jokes at one of my fat characters (the same one they were clearly trying to get away from their partner...hmm...). Claimed I was always running to vague on my personal. Fair enough, I did, but they did the same thing. In poem form. Never answered my message about leaving the RP group because they felt ‘disrespected” by it. Repeatedly including untagged dubcon/noncon elements on the dashboard and triggering me. Lying to Ivy and me about having a full Overwatch party then trying to say “oh it just emptied you can join now”. hid this “FAR” idea from the rest of the RP community and then played coy when they got found out and asked about it by another anon (not me). Made fun of other RP groups in Tumblr tags then, when I asked them and their friends not to, was told “we’re a step above them.” Saying I was excluding them from things when I asked to play OW with them AND invited them to my horror RP group AND, only months beforehand, were inviting them to my Marvel RP??Trying to emotionally manipulate me through threatening to kill characters they had obviously grown tired of playing (probably because their major connections were to me and not their other friends) -- “haha i’m probably going to kill (my oc) idk but doesn’t that make you upset?? what will (your character) even do??” Engaging in nasty “”IC”” interactions with my character, basically telling me, through them, off, and being supported by the entire community in doing so. All of this really hurt me because I considered Gansey a friend and a major inspiration at one point in my life. Someone I non-jokingly looked up to and trusted. I feel like Gansey left TAR, our first RP group, because of how controlling, self-interested, petty, and mean-spirited the admins there were. That they were limiting other people’s creativity while building up their own narrative -- everyone else just there to be their audience. But you and Roman literally became Usa and Jen. Congrats. You lived long enough to become everything you’d rebelled against. And yes Gansey -- I saw all of your messages to everyone. Emotionally manipulating others -- telling them how terrible you are you don’t deserve their friendship, but would like to -- isn’t an apology. Its a tactic. Do better in the future. And despite me “blocking” you? There were a hundred ways to still reach out to me if that was what you really wanted. But let’s be real. It wasn’t. That was part of your gambit to. Goodbye. 

Rosie: asked literally EVERYONE about what had happened with the ““TOW explosion”” except me. never even asked my side of the story. Rosie I don’t even get because the other admins treated her like shit -- making her do all the coding and technical components for the entire RP -- but she was still defending them to the end. Okay. And then to treat Shelly like utter SHIT even though Reyne was running her passive-aggressive mouth off about people who couldn't even defend themselves? Amazing. Yeah, she’s the bully. Your perspective was so twitested by your biases that you were ready to victim blame Shelly just because Reyne had to run at the sight of someone actually throwing their bulltshit back at them. 

Reyne: Like Gansey, frequently indulged in cheating/cucking scnearios for fun -- again, including my own characters without asking or telling me. Don’t think Reyne ever apologized for this, IC or OOC. Dropped ships with me repeatedly -- leaving the group even -- without a word. Passive-aggressive to the max. Made a ship with Gansey just to play out her Teen Wolf OTP -- something that will never not be funny to me, when she called Gansey’s “character” Stiles. Smooth. 

Frankii: Repeatedly dropped me and my characters from plots. Gave me one of the most hurtful comments of my RP community by essentially being like “maybe if your plots and characters weren’t so confusing than more people would want to RP with you.” Invited to join my horror RP group and never made a character. also told me this after Gansey wrote that enormous callout about me, that Roman piggybacked on while the getting was good: “also I'm not here to advocate on behalf of my friend but I really don't think Gansey was trying to be rude last night, they can come off a certain way when they're stressed.” COOL. The rest of Frankii’s message I really appreciated, at the time, but, surprise surprise, then despite us being “cool” they never spoke to me again. 

Laura: I actually really liked Laura tbh but I guess she didn’t feel the same. Some of our interactions back in TAR were actually some of my favorites. I invited her to join my horror RP group and she never made a character. When I asked about this -- and if she needed any help making someone or wanted to leave -- she said she was working on it. Basically stonewalled me over time. Honestly though? Not a lot to say I actually think Laura is a good writer and pretty cool. Its just obvious who her friends were and I, stupidly, thought I was included in that. 

Anna: Actually I really liked Anna too tbh but I guess I vastly overestimated our friendship? It happens. Dropped me from one of her plots -- after talking to me about including me in one of hers because she felt “obligated” basically, from being featured in my own -- without mentioning why or talking to me about it. Invited to join new RP -- refused (not mad about this, just making note of it). Refused to follow my new account when I lost my old one because “lol they’re such a furry”. 

Roman: lmao where to even start. Roman was condescending and elitist literally from the beginning of TAR. barely acknowledged my existence until he had to.I started a plot with an open invitation to the entire RP group, with a deadline so I could start writing. Roman waits until its over and complains that they were left out. I include him anyway. Roman mocks the fact that I ask to tag or outright remove aphrodisiac dust -- because I don’t like seeing untagged dubcon/noncon on my dashboard, it upsets me a lot -- and then goes on a whole thread about it after I go to bed and can’t even defend myself. Apparently told his friends not to invite me to things because he doesn’t like me??? And then he has the nerve to be like communication is key and you can come talk anytime??? While having me on their public “friends” list with a description about me on his blog??? omfg...I literally can’t. To this day. Actually let this image speak for itself.

Everything Else: The repeated, childish treatment of strippers as immoral (””your character is stripping?? my character is so upset and is going to protect them!!”). The implication that characters who were stripping were also automatically sex workers. The continued references to my character, who owned this establishment, as being sleazy and manipulative. Also, honestly, what was with ya’ll adopting some random teenager into your OW groups? That was weird af. And then bringing some random person into TOW without asking anyone and trying to pull rank like “we’re the admin team and we can do whatever we want”. and shit-talking Meg and me in your “open forum” when all we wanted to do was get on with out lives. Like? Who cares? Ya’ll didn’t want me, at least, there anyway, clearly. You don’t get to exclude me then talk about how disrespectful and “wrong” the way I left was..........

Me: I didn’t do everything perfectly either. I know I could be passive-aggressive. I could be self-interested. I could make bitter comments. I dealt with feeling angry and upset by making memes -- which, I’m gonna be honest, I get why ya’ll were upset but I don’t regret either. I had spent so long in TAR/TOW with nobody interested in my characters and plots -- originally because I didn’t vid and played furries but, later, well.........see above -- that I did focus on my own narrative. I wasn’t invited to plots. I didn’t have sexy vampires and boy band werewolves. I played weird characters that didn’t fit the common niche of the cast of an angst and hookup filled supernatural YA novel. Maybe my plots were confusing but, honestly? It was because they were always going to be in the background. I wasn’t disinterested in anyone’s stories. I had just been left out of them for so long -- having to beg to even be a mention in a single mention -- that I had to make my own. I wasn’t there to just be an audience member to be aghast by Roman’s newest quirky boy or Gansey’s newest possessed twink. I was a writer. A member of the community. And, at the time? I thought a friend. Someone who deserved appreciation and respect. 

I know who my true friends are now. We did, ironically, exactly what you did -- we have out own group, our own setting, our own community. 

And I still live with the mean and manipulative things YALL said everyday. Even as an adult -- even with everything I’ve accomplished and am so proud of -- I’m still traumatized by being treated so poorly -- for years -- and not even realizing it. Something I’m still working on -- one of the many reasons I still have trust issues to this day. Congrats. That’s your legacy on me. aNYWAY

byeeeeeee

[derpyslurpy-da-derp-master]

All the personal asks plz

Alrighty then!

1. Any scars?

Mhm, pretty much all the scars I have are burns. One is from burning the side of my arm on an iron my mom had  standing upright that I brushed against trying to reach something on the counter behind it and I’ve got one or two other scars from my culinary class on my hands from trying to put a tray in the oven and bumping it on the rungs above the ones I was putting it on. I burnt my hand day one of actually cooking. Yes I’m a disaster.

2. Self harmed?

Absolutely not. One, I’m too scared of pain, and two, I have uh… An unpleasant history involving someone else threatening self harm to make me do what they wanted, so… It’s a really sore spot for me.

3. Crush?

I honestly have no idea.

4. Kissed anyone?

Nope

5. Coke or Pepsi?

Neither they make me physically ill

6. Someone you hate?

There’s a LOT of assholes at my school but the person I hate the most is probably my dad for reasons.

7. Best Friends?

Mhm! I’ve got a handful on this site but my IRL best friend is @theansweris-a. She doesn’t really get on tumblr anymore but if you’re reading this I love you friendo and have a good day! :D

8. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs?

hahaha fuCK NO. I’d rather not get addicted to something that can and will kill me and throw my money at people to sustain it. If someone offered me either I’d probably flip them off whilst slowly backing up and getting tf out of there because NO.

9. What’s your dream job?

Author/Illustrator with some VA work and Video Game directing on the side.

10. Ever been in love?

I have. It was with someone I didn’t have a chance with and who would be an absolutely awful lover to me since we weren’t compatible emotion-wise so I let it go. It was hard, but I did it.

11. Last time you cried?

Last Sunday trying to explain to my mom why our preacher and the church we go to has completely fallen out of my favor for it’s very loud blatant ‘LGBT people are bad abortion is evil insert other white conservative stuff here’ ‘cause she doesn’t know I’m LGBT+ (and it’s going to stay that way) and I was trying to explain to her why I would never say invite my LGBT friends to church because they would be mercilessly persecuted by people who call themselves followers of God then spit in his eye by doing the exact opposite of everything he’s asked of them. Yes I still feel really strongly about this.

12. Favorite color?

Cyan!

13. Height?

How coincidence, I just got it measured today! 5′6, FINALLY OFFICIALLY TALLER THEN MY MOM MUHAHAHAHAHA

14. Birthday?

November 17th!

15. Eye color?

Milk chocolately-brown

16. Hair color?

Dark brown

17. What do you love?

this is so open ended hjkfjfjkhgkjh okay then I love girls, video games, anime, writing, drawing, reading, and animals.

18. Obsession?

My top 3 in order of obsession; Kill La Kill, RWBY, and Kingdom Hearts.

19. If you had one wish, what would it be?

For every single illness, disease, syndrome, disorder, and so on to have a cure. From Cancer to Asthma. Both because I have so many incurable diseases/disorders and because I know there are people out there who have things so much worse than me in that department.

20. Do you love someone?

I love all my mutals, friends, and most of my family including extended family. 

21. Kiss or hug?

I’ve never been kissed so I don’t know anything about how that would be so I’d say hug because I love hugs!

22. Nicknames people call you?

Derpy, Slurpy, D-Slur, Resident Cinnamon Roll (That’s my actual nickname on a Revue Starlight discord)

23. Favorite song?

this is like asking me to pick my favorite child uhhhhh… This Life Is Mine by Jeff Williams, it just means a lot to me.

24. Favorite band?

i know no bands by name

25. Worst thing that has ever happened to you?

….Okay, uh, this is gonna be really hard to decide because a LOT of bad things have happened to me. I’ll go with the more physical choice because I’d rather not dump too much of my emotional baggage onto yall. One time I was being prepped for surgery and they needed to get the IV in. (for the record I’m shaking pretty badly right now from thinking about this) They had to stab my arm with what they called a ‘Bee sting’ (it wasn’t a bee sting it goes almost down to the bone) that had numbing stuff in it and they were trying to find a vein they could put my IV in but they couldn’t find one (okay now i’m typing really fast so I don’t have to think about this for long) and they kept stabbing my arm over and over again. The thing is I have a serious phobia of needles that sends me into panic attacks, I’ll go lightheaded I’ll lose my hearing and so on. So I was trying to put a brave face on despite my parents not even being there but they would. not. stop. They didn’t give me a break. It was one stab then another then another then another. I was having a full blown panic attack, I was almost crying. Then they seemed to get it. They left me for a bit and my parents came in. My arm started swelling. They HADNT got it. My arm was being filled with whatever my IV was. They came back in with the beesting. They started stabbing me again but on the other arm. I couldn’t keep a brave face anymore after thinking they were finally done. I started to cry and sob and the panic attack I had that day was the single worst I have ever had. It got worse. They missed a vein entirely and instead hit a bundle of nerves. My hand started involuntarily twitching as pain unlike any I’ve ever felt before or until now wracked my arm. I had actual trauma from this, the night after the surgery I kept feeling ghost pains of the stabs in my arms, I had to sleep on my stomach with my arms wrapped around my front just to make them go away. I’m still extremely traumatized of this to this day. I never want to have surgery again. I never want an IV again. 

Okay that got away from me there I’m sorry I kinda was having a panic attack while writing that. Anyways moving on.

26. Best thing that has ever happened to you?

This is gonna sound cheesy but meeting @theansweris-a. She’s the sweetest and kindest person I have ever met in my entire life and I feel so incredibly lucky to call her my friend, though knowing her she’ll see this and reply with ‘No U’ because we always end up in a shouting match of ‘YOU ARE A WONDERFUL HUMAN BEING’ ‘NO YOU’RE A WONDERFUL HUMAN BEING’ 

27. Something you would change about yourself?

I definitely would lose weight. Not because of societies bullshit but because I legitimately want to lose weight so I can actually get strong and build up some muscle, I WANT TO BE ABLE TO OPEN GATORADE BOTTLES GODDAMNIT

28. Ever dated someone?

Nope, I’m closeted and have no interest in even pretending I’m straight by dating a guy, I mean I know some genuinely nice guys (all of them dorks) but they’re all just my friends though they are massive goofballs and I love them very much. (Entirely platonically)

29. Worst mistake?

I… Don’t think you guys wanna know that. It’s nothing bad its just depressing and I don’t wanna be more depressing then I already have been.

30. Watch the movie or read the book?

Depends on which is better, like I’d rather watch the Chronicles of Narnia than read the books because the books are honestly terrible but I’d rather read Percy Jackson than watch the movie because the movies are incredibly unfaithful to the books.

31. Ever had a heartbreak?

Yeah… 

32. Favorite show?

Kill La Kill!

33. Best day of your life?

My cheesiness never ceases but the first time I actually hung out with @theansweris-a IRL at the mall. I remember being SO excited for it but also nervous that how easily we talk to each other wouldn’t translate into real life and I remember spotting her walking up and practically shouting her name before running up and giving her a big ol’ hug whilst crying happy tears (I know i’m sappy shut up) and then when we were let loose to walk around we quickly discovered that we clicked almost immediately and incredibly well it was just the best thing ever. Like, in that one day alone we spent six hours in that mall just chatting and buying stuff and having fun and we left the mall with like three different inside jokes despite it being our first time meeting in person since we first met. Hi my name is Derpy and I’m a big ol’ sap.

34. Any talents?

I’m pretty good at writing, I can type really fast, and I can play the harmonica.

35. Do you wish you could ever start over?

Absolutely not. Things are the way they are for a reason, and even though I’ve been through a LOT it’s because of all that that I’m the person I am today and I wouldn’t trade that for the world.

36. Any bad habits?

Yeah, I’m a nail biter.

37. Ever had a near death experience?

Yes actually, when I was 3 or 4 we took a plane to California to visit some relatives and I almost walked out of the air hatch one the way out, I remember this vividly even though it was a long time ago. If it wasn’t for the flight attendant grabbing me before I fell out, I wouldn’t be here today.

38. Someone I can tell anything to?

@theansweris-a and @my-words-are-light, they’re both really good listeners and have helped me through a lot of stuff.

39. Ever lost a loved one?

My Great Grandpa Ritch died shortly after I was born, there’s a lot of pictures of him smiling and holding me while in a hospital bed and hooked up to oxygen.

40. Do you believe in love?

Oh absolutely, 100%. I mean if you know me you already know that I have just ABSURD amounts of love in my heart and I genuinely believe that it exists.

41. Someone you hate/Dislike?

Wasn’t this already a question?

42. Are you okay?

Mostly, yeah. I have some stuff to work on but I’m honestly at the best i’ve ever been!

43. Relationship status?

I’m a Single Pringle

[lunarssong]

quick little summary/title: this started out as a rant but if you scroll down to the large bold, there’s a metaphor that should hopefully help explain why terfs are so god damn awful and dangerous

me? sending an ask off-anon to a terf because im both pissed and a fucking dumbass? its more likely than youd think

in fact! im not even gonna censor the word terf! if i dont feel like dealing with their bullshit replies and rbs then i literally just fucking wont!! yeah they might send in death threats but guess the fuck what?? im leaving my anon on fuckers, because honestly that shits gonna be funny to me! and if they try to doxx me (very unlikely, but i am trans and its not riskier to mention that because its already obvious, and ive never directly made a post about terfs before, so i really dont know whats gonna happen) or something then like! im a minor! we can sue those shitheads and hopefully bring more media awareness to how god damn shitty terfs are! literally dont even start, lmao.

have the damn ask because i wanna elaborate on it

“hi there! i wish you’d delete your tumblr, because you are dangerous. you are a violent misogynist, and make me ashamed to be a feminist.

you’re gonna attack me because i’m off anon, but you’d probably call me a coward if i was on it, lmao.

anyway! stop disguising your misogyny and transphobia with shitty ass ‘feminism’. i was raised by a feminist with a feminist mom who literally can’t believe y’all exist because your ideas are SO far from actual feminism.

just say you hate trans people and go.”

tbh? its so fucking wild to me how they literally spit out misogyny, transphobia, and lesbophobia but then get all pissy when someone calls them out on it,, but then have the nerve to accuse that person of being misogynistic and lesbophobic? like,, honey. honey, what? the fuck? how much of a dumbass are you?

because like. im a pretty big dumbass! like ive walked into a mirror before because i thought it was a door! im a dumbass!

but even i know that trans women literally cannot discriminate against cis women by saying that theyre (plural, but trans women can 100% use they and thats totally valid) women! because guess the FUCK what?? theyre fucking women! if yall shitheads (terfs) wanna call that misogyny then yall cant call yourselves women either!

if yall assholes wanna call a specific group of lesbians/wlw pointing out, “hey! we experience discrimination because of an entirely irrelevant physical feature we all happen to share that has literally no actual affect on whether or not we are women/wlw” lesbophobia or speaking over minorities then wow.

wow.

wow, are yall gonna be shocked when (if) you realize what the hell yall doing that qualifies as.

oppressors literally depicting and/or committing fucking hate crimes, sometimes even as serious as murder, rape, etc. (this is referring to terfs, i should never have to point that out) is NOT comparable to an oppressed as hell minority saying that people who literally want them dead should not be in safe spaces intended for people of a community they both happen to belong to.

to put this into perspective for yall out there literally worse than garbage (terfs)! imagine this scenario.

youre in a community of women. trans women may or may not be a part of this particular community, shut the fuck up, thats irrelevant. a group of straight women pop up, and start saying that being wlw is misogynistic and harmful to women. this is bullshit. you know that immediately. why wouldn’t it be? you explain to them the obvious reasons why it is not. they ignore you.

they begin to spew utter bullshit, claiming things like “women should never marry other women. you’re ignoring the fact that a man’s place is as a woman’s wife, and basically trying to be men, which is like admitting that men are superior.” or, “as straight women, you flaunting your homosexuality,” the woman gestures to a lesbian couple who aren’t even holding hands and haven’t been touching the whole time theyve been there. one has a small rainbow heart sticker on her purse. “makes me feel threatened in my femininity. (insert plural of 4 letter slur against lesbians that i dont feel comfortable typing a single letter of) arent really women, their existence is heterophobia and misogyny. they shouldn’t be allowed in female-only spaces because they normalize masculinity.”

over time, this group of straight women grows. they call themselves feminists, claim theyre fighting for the rights of all women! unless those women happen to love other women and dont perfectly fit their (cisnormative too but terfs are awful so they like that) heteronormative idea of a woman. they protest at the very idea of saying “significant others”, “partners”, or even “wives and/or husbands” because it doesnt fit their idea of being a woman. because they think having a wife and loving women is only for men.

eventually, they start getting braver and braver. they start going to feminist rallies, and if they spot gay women, or even women they think look gay, theyll get up in their faces, threaten them, call them slurs. theyll try to record them, try to get them fired from their jobs or outed to unsupportive families. or even just expose them to the potential of assault in their day-to-day life. because theyre gay. and that doesnt affect the straight women at all, but they hate diversity and are homophobes. so they need an excuse.

sometimes theyll get their other gay-exclusive feminist friends to record them committing violent acts against wlw feminists, just to take stills from those videos out of context when the gay women defend themselves, and then go crying to the media, twisting the roles of victim and aggressor to paint a violent picture of wlw. they say that feminist rallies should be an event only for real women or allies to their cause—meaning, to them, no wlw, and certainly no mlm. they probably even try to turn all homophobia towards gay men into a sexism issue (they are sometimes tied, but not mostly). but they lose their shit when anyone tries to tell them to get out of these safe spaces for women, because by attacking wlw for literally nothing beyond existing, they are ruining the safe part.

people start to become ashamed to call themselves feminists, and are often lumped in with these homophobes. even if they themselves are gay. straight feminists who love, support, and fight for wlw begin to feel guilty for being straight. new labels for feminist ideology begin popping up, the gay-exclusive feminists strike them down and turn them into jokes.

their end goal is to reverse victories like gay marriage, remove gay representation both in the media and in history books (sometimes even arguing that famous wlw were ‘just close friends’ with their wives or girlfriends), and to send wlw right back to hiding and marrying men for fear of their lives.

all in the name of thinly veiled homophobia feminism!

but wait, you cry, that sounds nothing like feminism! it actually sounds like misogyny and homophobia!

exactly!

think about who yall are the real-life equivalent of in that scenario.

need a hint because youre so brainwashed? try changing ‘gay/wlw’ to ‘trans’, ‘straight’ to ‘cis’, and ‘gay-exclusive’ to ‘terf’.

i doubt any of them will actually read through this, let alone realize their flawed perspective due to it, but hey. maybe ill sway some people who’re on the fence about how horrible terfs are.

[junspurplehair]

85 questions tag!

tagged by @casuallydylan, thanks for tagging me!

rules: answer and tag u know the drill yo this is p long im too lazy to tag all yall 

[[ read more ]] idk how tf that works but ye rip mobile users

Last..?

drink - milk 

phone call - friend named matthew. he was ignoring my friend’s texts lmao 

text message - group chat with my friends 

song you listened to: well that cheerleader song is on rn bc my mom is playing her pandora radio so ig that one 

time you cried: today at like midnight bc of the love yourself livestream on mbckpop. also bc matthew kept saying ‘big benis’ in the skype call. 

Ever...? 

dated someone twice: lmao i haven’t even dated so no 

kissed someone and regretted it: haven’t kissed either 

been cheated on: listen boi i havent even dated yet 

lost someone special: n no 

been depressed: lmao all the time m8 

gotten drunk and thrown up: hey im too young for this 

fv color: black/ pastel pink 

In the last year have you... 

made new amigos: yee

fallen out of love: bitch i aint even fall in love 

laughed until u cry: ye

found out someone was talking about u: no 

met someone who changed you: ye 

found out who your friends are: ye 

kissed someone on your facebook friend list: listen i dont even have fb 

General 

how many of ur fb friends do u know irl: again no facebook

pets: ye one good boi doggo named kody but i call him croissant 

do u want to change ur name: yes to Louise Wen ((LOL))

what u do for ur last bday: nothing really

what time u wake up today: 8 am pst and then i went back to sleep after 1 hr and woke up again at 11 

what u be doing at midnight last night: skype call 

what is something u can’t wait for: bts concert 

what r u listening to rn: my mom is playing her pandora radio 

have you ever talked to a person named tom: idk 

something getting on your nerves:  i got a fucking bug bite on my ankle 

most visited website: tumblr/discord 

hair color: brown. but its a nice brown esp in the sunlight

long or short hair: umm medium? 

crush on someone: does wen junhui count 

what do u like abt urself: im pretty much a psychic 

want any piercings: i already have the standard ones but i want the one joshua has (i think its called a helix) but ik i wouldn’t be able to stand the pain lol

blood type: no idea

nicknames: none on here but my art friends call me neko and my family calls me chin (long story)

relationship status: single 

zodiac: taurus

pronouns: she/her/potato/egg 

fave tv shows: uhhh idk 

tattoos: none 

right or left handed: right 

surgery: only oral surgery 

piercings: one on each ear 

sport: get away satan 

vacation: what 

trainers: dog?? 

eating: nothing but i had a waffle for brunch 

drinking: nothng 

im about to watch: water go down the tub drain??

waiting for: i dunno

want: wen junhui 

get married:  hope so ://

career: i dunno. im reconsidering being an animator/graphic designer/ something in the art field. 

Which is better

hugs or kisses: hugs 

lips or eyes: both 

shorter or taller: taller 

older or younger: older 

nice arms or stomach: i think yall have seen my jungkook reblogs to knwo the anser 

hookup or relaionshpi: relaitonshi p 

troublemaker or hestitant: depends 

ok im tired this is too much and i didn t even finsih rip 

[adajjau]

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. I was tagged by: @yehet-sebooty-ohorat Thanks ♥ LEGGO‼️ LAST: Last drink: water bc I went for a jog (finally my lazy ass got up) and I love water Last phone call: @leighloey Last text message: cool cool @mom Last song you listened to?: exo - overdose is playing atm Last time I cried: today bc minseok and kyungsoo were so secute (i cry everyday... i'm emotional okay) HAVE YOU EVER: Dated someone twice: no Been cheated on: not that i know of Kissed someone and regretted it: yea Lost someone special: yes, many Been depressed: YEP Been drunk and thrown up: Nope IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU: Made a new friend: yesss Fallen out of love: no Laughed until you cried: atleast once a month Met someone who changed you: yes atleast a part of me Found out who your true friends are: yeP Found out someone was talking about you: yeeea GENERAL: How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: 7 probs Do you have any pets?: 2 bichon frises ( i got the first one during the same timeperiod sehun got vivi but I didn't even know about sehuns excistense fully back then so no I didn't copy him😂) Do you want to change your name?: no What time did you wake up this morning?: 7:30 AM What were you doing last night?: what I usually do, watch exo videos and cry bc they be perfect Name something you cannot wait for: Life like this world has so much to offer Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes, he was in my class What’s getting on your nerves rn?: my hair, it's falling off bc I have so much stress Blood type: i have no idea Nickname: well, @ohsekitty94 calls me nini (it's a sekai shipper thingy for us bc I call her hunnie) but other than that I don't have like a real nickname so u can try and come up with something yall Relationship status: very single Zodiac sign: sagittaurus Pronouns: she/her? Favorite tv show: toooo manyy oh gosh College: having a gap year currently Hair colour: beach blonde Do you have a crush on someone: do biases count? If not then no.. What do you like about yourself: well this is hard.. maybe the fact that I'm guite easy to get to know to and I'm very outgoing, and I can also dance kind of, or atleast I should bc it's been my hobby for over 10 years😂 FIRSTS: First surgery: none First piercing: ear rings First sport you joined: dance (if u don't count the one time my dad forced me to try icehockey/ice skating) First vacation: to bulgaria in third grade First pair of sneakers: adidas probably RIGHT NOW: Eating: nothing Drinking: wateeer and chocolate milk I’m about to: go to shower and maybe go to the movies after Listening to: exo-lucky one Want kids: definitely not in the near future but maybe one day😍 Get married: not a nessesity but a lovely idea, if it feels right then yes Career: something to do with music and entertaining, obviously dance is a huge part aswell so hopefully something to do with thess WHICH IS BETTER: Lips or eyes: eyes Hugs or kisses: hugs Shorter or taller: taller Older or younger: idc but I usually fall for older gyus Romantic or spontaneous: both? Sensitive or loud: both?? Hook up or relationship: relationship‼️ Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker HAVE YOU EVER: Kissed a stranger: no Drank hard liquor: yeeep Lost glasses/contacts: don't need/use Sex on first date: nope Broken someone’s heart: i don't think so Been arrested: hell no Turned someone down: yessss Fallen for a friend: yep DO YOU BELIEVE: In yourself: in some things yes Miracles: YES Love at first sight: It is said that 80% of people fall in love on the first date so if they are blind dates then yes?? Heaven: YES Santa Claus: I live in the land of santa claus (Finland) so kinda? I Tag: @ohsekitty94 @leighloey @suavesehun @spiltkpop @chenshighnote @ohsenhun @riverflowsinyeol @fuckmeupexo @minsoakedme @seholywater @xosehun @shesdreamingfics @elif183 @sehunshake @xo-exo @minhoswhitehair @peachjunny @byunbaekwho @cutieyoonseokie @glitzyeol @sexbyun @breathingblue @oshology @minseokcharm @leechansthighs

[snowlilys-wife]

85 Statements~!

Whew okay, finally got around to this. I was tagged by @crazyanime3, @catslab, and @adeslowmoqueen

The Last :

1.) drink: Dr Pepper 2.) phone call: The discord chat lol 3.) text message: Asia :3 4.) song you listened to:  Smoke and Mirrors cover by Lollia 5.) time you cried: Chatting with Briana a few days ago, because she made me really happy, so I teared up lol. Im a sap 6.)dated someone twice: Technically not, but we were “unofficially together” on and off before he finally broke up with me in high school. 7.) kissed someone and regretted it: I don’t regret kissing him since we were together at the time, but I do remember being caught making out during school hours and that caused a lot of drama. 8.) been cheated on: Nope 9.) lost someone special: Yeah... 10.) been depressed: Every day lolol 11.) gotten drunk and thrown up: Not of age yet. Next year~!

3 favorite colors:

12.) Cerulean blue 13.) Black 14.) Red

In the Last year have you:

15. made new friends: Yes! My online friends here on tumblr and discord! 16. fallen out of love: I was forced to after being broken up with. 17. laughed until you cried: Yes ahaha. 18. found out someone was talking about you: The other day, at work, yes. It was very frustrating 19. met someone who changed you: Yep 20. found out who your friends are: I feel like I have, yes. 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: Both my ex and my current bf are on my FB so yes ahaha

General

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I don’t have Facebook friends that I don’t know irl 23. do you have any pets: My family has 3 dogs and tbh, im sick of them lolol 24. do you want to change your name: Nah, im good haha 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I worked and then just hung out with my friend? lolol 26. what time did you wake up: About 8am or so because of work. I’m looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow <3 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting with Asia about SakuMahi lolol 28. name something you can’t wait for the announcement for: OvO??? Uhhhh maybe more voltron since thats recent right now? XD lolol idk. 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: Around 10:30 or so (Its 12:30 am rn) 31. what are you listening to right now:  Friend Like Me - NeYo cover 32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope. 33. something that is getting on your nerves: Many...MANY things lately. my boss is a big pain in the ass right now though 34. most visited website: Tumblr and Discord lately <3 35. hair color: Light brown (dyeing it red tomorrow ^_^) 36. long or short hair: Short 37. do you have a crush on someone: Yehhhh <333 my bf ahaha. Also I have tons of friend crushes too ;3  38. what do you like about yourself: whew uh... depends on the day 39. piercings: two ear piercings in both ear lobes and then 2 cartilage ear piercings on one side 40. blood type: I actually have no idea tbh 41. nickname: Ino pretty much it ahaha. (Although the discord peeps have started calling me “Han” and idk how i feel about this yet lololol jk yall can call me whatever you want XD) 42. relationship status: Taken~ 😘 43. zodiac: Leo 44. pronouns: She/her but honestly I shouldnt have to say that 45. favourite tv show: Changes too often, but some all time favorites are Durarara, Ouran, Servamp, and the Total Drama series 46. tattoos: None 47. right or left handed: Right handed. 48. surgery: No... unless you count stitches? 50. sport: I played softball for 2 years in high school, but not since then 51. vacation: Going to Disneyland for my birthday on Saturday and Sunday :3 52. pair of trainers: idk....?

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: Nothing atm 54. drinking: Nothin 55. about to: Lay down after I get this post done lolol 56. waiting for: too many things 57. want: too many things 58. get married: I plan on it, yes. My bf and I have talked about it many times 59. career: I want to be a freelance digital artist and do commissions and stuff but ya know

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: Kisses. I love kissing <3 61. lips or eyes: Eyes 62. shorter or taller: Taaaaalllll >;D 63. older or younger: I prefer being older despite the responsibilities 64. nice arms or nice stomach: Arms i guess? I really dont mind 65. hook up or relationship: Relationship. 66. troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant, definitely.

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: No way 68. drank hard liquor: Not 21 yet 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: Yes! its so annoying when you lose your glasses and you CANT SEE. i feel like Velma when that happens. 70. turned someone down: Surprisingly a lot???? Idk why people like me?????? 71. sex on the first date: No no no no way 72. broken someone’s heart: Probably...I dont want to think about that ;;; 73. had your heart broken: oh man...... a lot

74. been arrested: I am a good noodle 75. cried when someone died: I’m surprisingly apathetic in those situations... It’s not intentional! But I just cant cry 76. fallen for a friend: Whew...every time man.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: On good days 78. miracles: Definitely 79. love at first sight: Nah. It needs time to grow 80. santa clause: Never have really. 81. kiss on the first date: If the timing is right and it feels right, then you do you. I personally wouldn’t unless I was absolutely sure 82. angels: Yes

OTHER:

84. eye color: Brown. 85. favorite movies: Emperor’s New Groove and Iron Giant

WOOO I DID IT.

ALL DONE

Most of my friends have already been tagged, but ya know, I’ll tag the ones I havent seen do it yet.

@mermaibee @twofabricatedtruths @kavourikarma @allshewhispers @tina-nightray @angel-of-music-hyde-no-longer

[stateofirrelevancy]

Get To Know Me Tag

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

Holla @ ma girl @kerrity13​ thx for the tag babe

LAST:

1. Drink: some H and a double shot of O 2. Phone call: To my mom to ask where the olive oil is only to realize olive oil has too many calories and wasn’t worth it dsfjkds so then I tossed it back in the cabinet but it didn’t land upright woops 3. Text message: “she jus wants a friend” sent to my friend Orange who is watching Moana w me right now in response to “why is this fire lady so angry” 4. Song you listen to: Like I said I’m watching Moana so the I Am Moana song but if that doesn’t count then Vanity’s Fair - A Lot Like Birds 5. Time you cried: I actually have no idea?? Sometime in June prolly

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: twice????? bich i aint go on a date once 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Is this the section to make me feel bad bc I never leave my room 8. Been cheated on: refer to #6 9. Lost someone special: Idk I feel like yes like all my grandparents passed away and my uncle on my mom’s side and my aunt on my dad’s side and also v recently my uncle on my dad’s side but like they lived in Pakistan so I rarely saw them ya feel?? 10. Been depressed: I mean I’ve def been super sad but idk if I’d say ~depressed~ 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: refer to #7

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: Orange, yellow, black, in that order.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes, one of whomstve being @oceansweather my go to drama buddy 16. Fallen out of love: fallen out of what now? u mean when I get over bands I used to like? Then yes Big Time motherfuckin Rush yall broke my tiny heart in two 17. Laughed until you cried:  Def who hasn’t 18. Found out someone was talking about you: I don’t think so?? Like I don’t doubt people do but I ain’t jumpin 2 kno about it 20. Found out who your friends are: I guess?? I mean I’ve basically had the same friends for 5 years lol 21.  Kissed someone on your Facebook list: On the cheeks ya

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Ok considering I have eight (8) FB friends bc I made my fb to join my college’s group I know all of them considering I only added ppl super close to me lmao 23. Do you have any pets: When my brother lived here I had his cat Glimmer who is a stripper but he moved out and now I’m constantly :( 24. Do you want to change your name: Nah I like my name 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: On the exact day I had a big dinner at home w my family and the weekend after my friends came over! 26. What time do you wake up: If my mom wakes me up then 10 otherwise 11-12:30 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: prolly on tumblr tbfh 28. Name something you can’t wait for: Bojack Horseman season 4!! and new 5sos music ofc.  29. When was the last time you saw your mom? around 2 hrs ago when I went down to make popcorn lol 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: ??? be hot or not dumb either would b k00l 31. What are you listening to right now: I’m watching What The Health now cause Moana ended rksdjlkfsd 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No?? The only Toms I know are british YouTubers bye 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: ummm myself 34. Most visited website: prolly youtube 35. Mole/s: One on my left pinky, one at the bottom of my left ring finger, one next to my left knee, one above my right eyebrow, one in the pit of my left elbow. 36. Mark/s: I have a huge birth mark on my stomach lmao fun fact it used to look like the US when I was younger 37. Childhood dream: yall I had my life planned THE FUCK out. When I was in fifth grade I decided I would b a pop star like Hannah Montana until I was ~30, and then when my world fame inevitably dissipated, I’d become a doctor like the good little brown girl I thot I was. 38. Hair color: black like my soul 39. Long or short hair: medium length lol 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Calum mf Hood ain’t got eyes for no one else 41. What do you like about yourself: what do I what now 42. Piercings: do my ears getting pierced when I was a baby count asdklfj 43. Blood type: I think B positive?? idk 44. Nicknames? Aky 45. Relationship status: me myself and i are together and in a loving poly relationship 46. Zodiac: Taurus 47. Pronouns: She/Her 48. Favorite TV Show: PARKS AND REC!!! I was jus telling my friend the other day that idt I’ll ever find a show I’ll love more than it. Words can’t describe how much I love P&R yall. 50. Right or left hand: Right but don’t b fooled my left is mf skilled 51. Surgery: nope 52. Hair dyed in different color: I wish!! 53. Sport: who? I don’t know her 55. Vacation: what does this mean like have I been on vacation before?? Then ya lol 56. Pair of trainers: CONVERSE BITCH aint no one else exist in the world but her

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: idk what this question means what is my fave food????????? then,, idfk lasagna 58. Drinking: capri sun could fuck me in the asshole any day 62. Want: ?? death 63. Get married: ya I’m mf down when will a boi wife me tf up 64. Career: idk I really wanna work in AI 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs wtf i aint kiss none but hugs are pure i will fight someone over this 66. Lips or eyes: idk eyes?? 67. Shorter or taller: I guess taller cause im smol 68. Older or younger: older give me a daddy 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms gotta b strong to choke me 2 death 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive I need some1 2 feel emotions for me thx 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: are u saying i have the choice of finally having a cringey fuckboi badboy tm that most every wattpad fic was about 5 yrs ago?? no thanks

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: ,,,u kno the answer to that bye 75. Drank hard liquor: this is the section to make me feel bad abt myself reincarnated  76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no n knock on wood I won’t 77. Turned someone down: ekjfnkdlsn one time a guy asked me to homecoming and I told him homecoming wasn’t my thing and then he saw me at homecoming ekdfjaderdfkalesdf 78. Sex on the first date: uhhh 222 early 4 me 79. Broken someone’s heart: who knows mayb i broke the homecoming guys heart the world may never know 80. Had your heart broken: anytime Calum refuses to acknowledge my existence 81. Been arrested: no but I’ll gladly b put in handcuffs :-) 82. Cried when someone died: ya when my grandma on my mom’s side died. Oh and also when Christina Grimmie died :( 83. Fallen for a friend: idt so

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84: Yourself: ha 85. Miracles: sort of? Like I don’t believe in the magic behind it or whatnot but like winning the lottery would be a miracle bc like it’ so rare ya feel me 86. Love at first sight: nope not one bit 87. Santa Claus: fun anecdote so I’m Muslim and I never understood how Santa knows which houses are for people who celebrate christmas vs those who don’t and so I somehow conjured up the theory that he knows bc he checks each house and if they decorated and have a tree up, they celebrate it. So I was telling my mom this and she’s a vvv blatant person so we was straight up like he doesn’t exist and I was like he does!! and she was like ok then put up decorations and see if he comes and I was like :-( 88. Kiss on the first date: personally too early for me

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: Idek who would be considered my #1?? Also what happened to question 89 lol 91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movie: Camp Rock 2: The Final Jam

I tag @oceansweather @aneverendingreplay @5sowoc @lukescurlies @fuckmemgc @harrqstyles @punk-dinosaur @ovalt @tennisbowels @disasterologiess @hiighriselights and anyone else who wants to

[champagnelarrie]

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag! 
I was tagged by @idmarryyoularrys <3

LAST [1] drink: water lol. so exciting. (tryna get rid of my under eye bags)

[2] phone call: my dad

[3] text message: my groupchat about louis’ recent IG post

[4] song you listened to: Wow - Beck

[5] time you cried: i don’t actually know...it’s been a while


[6] dated someone twice: idk what this means but i’ve always been single

[7] been cheated on: single af

[8] kissed someone and regretted it:  never been kissed 

[9] lost someone special: a couple years ago

[10] been depressed: now lol . not clinically. i’ve never been diagnosed, but sometimes you just have one of those days. (for me, multiple days)

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: never.


LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

[12] dark green

[13] golden yellow

[14] burnt orange


IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…


[15] made new friends: yes.  just made some new friends :)

[16] fallen out of love: never been in love unless u count 1D lmao

[17] laughed until you cried: probably

[18] found out someone was talking about you:  yup. i but it’s ppl i dont even know so who gives a fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

[19] met someone who changed you: idk. not really.

[20] found out who your true friends are: yes and no :/ . i’ve never had a solid friendship that lasts or have had friends who give as much of a fuck as i do... :/

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: no wtf. who even uses FB anymore?

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: most but i don’t talk to any of them anymore. i hate them all lol. 

[23] do you have any pets: no but i want one so bad!!!!!

[24] do you want to change your name: Just the spelling so ppl pronounce it correctly lol. 

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: I went to Universal Studios!!!!! (And Disneyland the next day :D)

[26] what time did you wake up: 8:45 ish but didn’t get out of bed till like 10

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: lol...SAT practice

[28] name something you cannot wait for:  LOUIS’ MUSIC!!!!, Trevor Noah in November, and to have a job so i can finally have money

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: yesterday

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: dude idk...so many things need changing.... better friends, more money, non crazy parents, i need to gain some more weight

[31] what are you listening to right now: Carolina - Harry Styles

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: I know a Thomas? e goes by Tommy...does that count?

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: GIRL if you know me, EVERYTHING gets on my nerves lmao

[34] most visited website: tumblr, ao3 and youtube

[35] elementary: a fucking nightmare

[36] high school: :/ it’s SO STRESSFUL. 

[37] college: not there yet...but soon....

[38] hair colour: really dark brown

[39] long or short hair: medium to long. It reaches down to my boobies

[40] do you have a crush on someone: yup! but we never see each other bc they go to a different school 

[41] what do you like about yourself?: i’m passionate about important issues

[42] piercings: yup. ears and nostril. i use to have a septum but when i wanted to replace the ring, a keloid which i didn’t realize was there, covered the hole :(

[43] blood type: no idea

[44] nickname: Mani

[45] relationship status: single pringle.

[46] zodiac sign: saggitarius

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show(s): the magicians, HTGAWM, stranger things, At Midnight, the Fosters, Chelsea, AHS, Parks and Rec, Shameless

[49] tattoos: one day....I want so many...but so expensive...

[50] right or left handed: right


FIRST… 
[51] surgery: never had one

[52] piercing: ears when i was a baby

[53] best friend: kindergarten

[54] sport: volleyball

[55] vacation: India lmao

[56] pair of trainers: girl how am I suppose to know??? ask my parents lol

[57] eating: these questions are getting dumb now

[58] drinking: breast milk????

[59] i’m about to: shower

[60] listening to: AGAIN?! Ticket to the Moon - Electric Light Orchestra

[61] waiting for: A JOB. 

[62] want: more money, less anxiety

[63] get married: sure one day

[64] career: something with Environmental Science.. I love animals so something that combines the two?


YOUR TYPE…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs

[66] lips or eyes: eyes

[67] shorter or taller: i’m 5′3 so most ppl are taller than me anyways lol

[68] older or younger: idk??? most ppl are my age or older

[69] romantic or spontaneous: both

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: i love many kinds of body types... don’t need to be super buff to be hot :)

[71] sensitive or loud: what does that even mean?

[72] hook up or relationship: idk never tried either 

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: this is a dumb question


HAVE YOU EVER…


[74] kissed a stranger?: no

[75] drank hard liquor?: i’ve had wine and beer so no lol

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: nope 

[77] turned someone down: kind of??? does blocking ppl count lmao

[78] sex on first date?: can’t relate

[79] broken someone’s heart?:  idk 

[80] had your own heart broken?: lol nah

[81] been arrested? Nah

[82] cried when someone died? no one i knew personally has died so i’ve never cried over anyone

[83] fallen for a friend: umm..i don’t think so...


DO YOU BELIEVE IN…


[84] yourself?: LOL NAH. 

[85] miracles?:  i guess

[86] love at first sight?: um...maybe?

[87] santa claus? i’m not Christian..lmao...miss me with that shit

[88] kiss on the first date?: yeah sure why not

[89] angels?: nope

[90] current best friend’s name: :/

[91] eye colour: brown

[92] favourite movies: love Disney movies...Monsters Inc.

now I gotta tag hella (25 ppl )....

@rbbsbbofficial @letsnotlarry @kiwisinnewyork @stardustsoulmates @competitivelou @fellforlou @lovenchy @scrantonlou @what-happened-in-wellington @homeisharry @larryslove @lavenderlouie @hunkyniall @louisbravado @louisfeaturingharry @twaslouis @louis-love @ohnoliam @mylittlebirdlouis  @sweetkiwi28 @louisinawetsuit @alwaysalarrie @proudlylarrie @peachbootylouis @moonlitlarrie

omg it took so long to tag all of yall so you better do it lmao

[jj-ktae]

☆…SHOULD WE KNOW US A LITTLE BETTER TAG…☆

Tagged by the amazing @marktunafish and @cecenybabe ! Thank for tagging me <3 <3 

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20ppl…

THE LAST: 1. Drink: Sugar Free Coke 2. Phone call: Sister 3. Text message: “No it’s cool.” lol irrelevant without context. 4. Song you listened to: The King - Strange 5. Time you cried: A couple of weeks ago 6. Dated someone twice: Ew, nope 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Hell Yeah 8. Been cheated on: Yeah 9. Lost someone special: Yeah my grandma who raised me  10. Been depressed: I used to be, but not anymore 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: A year ago, I work too much to do that but summer is back so....

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: Blue, Red, Pale Purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: Nope

17. Laughed until you cried:  Yeah

18. Found out someone was talking about you: lol Yeah I burnt them anyways

19. Met someone who changed you: Yes!

20. Found out who your friends are: I don’t care about this, I just cut them

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Hah yes

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Most people!

23. Do you have any pets: My Dog Rocky

24. Do you want to change your name: No I like it !

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Went to a Restaurant and ate mussels with expensive wine till my stomach exploded because i’m getting old, shit

26. What time did you wake up: at like : 9 a.m

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: I was probably being a smol potato on my bed

28. Name something you can’t wait for: VACATION, please, come soon.

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Yesterday, but it’s not like I’m expecting these moments lol

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Family

31. What are you listening right now: Football game on TV

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yeah there was this kid back in secondary school, he was cool.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Hypocrisy. 

34. Most visited Website: Tumblr I guess

35. i don’t know what the question was haha + 36. same + 37. same -no idea what this is but anyway+38 same (i’ll just go in order by number ha) ????idkwhathappenedherebutwewillcarryon????

38. Hair color: Brown on roots and very much blond all the way down lol

39. Long or short hair: Shoulder length 

40. Do you have a crush on someone: Secret !

41. What do you like about yourself: My moles.

42. Piercings: 3 in both ear lobes, 2 Tragus, 1 Conch, 1 nose, and another secret one I had to take off :(

43. Bloodtype:  0+

44. Nickname: Rinachu

45. Relationship status: DOGLADY

46. Zodiac: Cancer

47. Pronouns: She, Her

48. Favorite TV Show: I don’t watch TV yo

49. Tattoos: nope

50. Right or left hand: Left-handed right here

51. Surgery: Once for wisdom teeth removal, another time for general infection in emergency room and I almost died, and one after because it got infected.

52. Piercing: I think I answered this already hmm...

53. Sport: I used to play Tennis, now I’m a pudding

55. Vacation:  Oslo was great!

56. Pair of trainers: Vintage Stan Smiths, Nike Air Max, Nike Blazer, Nike Running something I don’t remember lol

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: Tarte Tropézienne

58. Drinking: Sugar Free Coke lol

59. I’m about to: Go smoke coz I need it

61. Waiting for: Vacay :( 

62. Want: Get more time, get romantic, I need some loving yall x)

63. Get married: Heaven Spare me

64. Career: Nursing

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: Kisses

66. Lips or eyes: Lips

67. Shorter or taller: Taller

68. Older or younger: I don’t really care

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Stomach

71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

72. Hook up or relationship: Def Relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: I’m fu. hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: Hell Yeah

75. Drank hard liquor: Hell Yeah

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Hell Yeah, the most expensive shit tends to disappear very fast

77. Turned someone down: Hell yeah

78. Sex in the first date: Hell yeah

79. Broken someones heart: Hell Yeah

80. Had your heart broken: HELL YEAH

81. Been arrested: Nope

82. Cried when someone died: Yeah

83. Fallen for a friend: Nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Lol what kind of shit is that, of course not.

85. Miracles: Nope

86. Love at first sight: EWWWWWW NO

87. Santa Claus : I used to yeah but then I saw my grandma tiptoe to put the present under the Christmas tree, but I was happy <3

88. Kiss in the first date: HELL YEAH

89. Angels: Nope

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: Marion

91. Eyecolor: Brownish

92. Favorite movie: Léon

Tagging, and you don’t have to do it, it’s LONG : @arimity @ladyinpink221 @high-on-food @highanxietyclub @hadesalmighty @yugyeomish @gyeoms-shake @mochimork @husbandsjjp @dudukowsky @jj-peach @jajajaebum @itsokaythough @valerie-pena-blog @blacklioness15 @ungiis @tuanmarkers @everythings-koreanpop @ah-ga-seven @jackswangz @artistia

[14thsumoon]

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people I was tagged by @oneofthewolfchildren THE LAST 1. drink: water? I'm not sure??,,, 2. phone call: I have like 20 missed calls you really think I remember the last time I had a phone call?
3. text message: @ ride, that bitCH
4. song you listened to: Young And Menace - Fall Out Boy
5. time you cried: I almost cried during a car ride today does that count?
6. dated someone twice: lol nope, never even dated
7. kissed someone and regretted it: no??? I only give platonic kisses so????
8. been cheated on: nope 
9. lost someone special: no
10. been depressed: all the time, dude???
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: sadly I have no idea how to get my small baby hands on alcohol so nope 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. ,,, uh um neon red
13. gray gray and more gray
14. literally almost any pastel yea h IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 
15. made new friends: YEA @ THE FAMILY CHAT LOVE YALL CRAZY KINKY FUCKERS
16. fallen out of love: describe love
17. laughed until you cried: yea it was something with my family thinking I have depression or something
18. found out someone was talking about you: no??? I try to make myself as small as possible in most cases so people don't acknowledge me
19. met someone who changed you: yeehaw yes
20. found out who your friends are: yesu uwu 
21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: I don't have a fb oops GENERAL 
22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: 0 dude I don't have a fb 
23. do you have any pets: my doggo and bunny (my soft children) 
24. do you want to change your name: yeah I don't really like having my dead name as my legal name so??
25. what did you do for your last birthday: nothing I have no friends irl and parties are lame 
26. what time did you wake up: ffffff idk man I don't even sleep most nights (I keep pulling Ryans)
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: ,,,,, reading fanfics
28. name something you can’t wait for: when I can finally change my name, move out, and be treated like a """normal""" person (and not like a lost child with depression, @ irl family treat me decently you shit fucks)
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
31. what are you listening to right now: fffffjxj music while my family (LOUDLY) bitches to each other 
32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I've never met a Tom oops 
33. something that is getting on your nerves: people and my family (yes I'm mentioning them a lot it's because they irritate me and keep trying to get me to be """"normal"""" >:0)
34. most visited website: ao3 and Tumblr because I don't have a real like only the internet 
35. hair colour: brown with light tips 
36. long or short hair: medium?? idk but it's still too long for me
37. do you have a crush on someone: na man I'm aromantic
38. what do you like about yourself: nothing I'm just a little ball of self hatred, starvation, and getting mad over art 
39. piercings: I don't really like earrings??? also they aren't useful in any way so why even bother
40. blood type: pfft have no idea what my blood type is
41. nickname: eevee, daddy (only rob can call me that ;)), um eve?? and E.C. (was it e.c.?? I can't remember)
42. relationship status: platonically taken by my lovely (kinky) wife
43. zodiac: taurus
44. pronouns: he / him and they / them
45. favourite tv show: Rick and morty oops
46. tattoos: I kinda want one when I'm older??? Idk they're not cheap and I have no idea what I'll get 
47. right or left handed: left 
48. surgery: no, not till I'm older and can get all the transition surgeries :')
50. sport: I don't sport, sorry
51. vacation: dude it's summer and I've just been staying in my room most of the time unless my family drags me out and forces me to go outside 
52. pair of trainers: red, red, red I like red so I got them red and thEy HURT MY FEET MORE GENERAL 
53. eating: I've only had one thing all day and that was hours ago I'm eating nothing
54. drinking: nothing 
55. I’m about to: do nothing?? finish that fic I was reading??? convince my family to let me have some of my stuff back?? force persona 5 out of my aunts religious little hands and play again with more screaming over Akechi???
56. waiting for: Winter to come and make the bugs go away
57. want: my video games back (and cathrine but apparently i get too into the game and believe that I'm in that world and that's why I don't sleep and don't eat much according to my mother) @ family, smh
58. get married: n o
59. career: commission artist??? something that doesn't have to do with too many people and has art
60. hugs or kisses: hugs 
61. lips or eyes: eyes
62. shorter or taller: uh both??? i don't understand so both
63. older or younger: idk man 
64. nice arms or nice stomach: neither??? I don't want to be around people in general idc about how they look
65. hook up or relationship: I'm not interested in a relationship and I'm a fucking child 
66. troublemaker or hesitant: both HAVE YOU EVER: 
67. kissed a stranger: no
68. drank hard liquor: god I wish
69. lost glasses/contact lenses: I don't need contacts or glasses so no
70. turned someone down: I'm not sure how but yeah
71. sex on the first date: no I'm a child and sex repulsed what do you think
72. broken someone’s heart: no??
73. had your heart broken: pft my hearts a cold emo abyss with no love so no
74. been arrested: not yet but considering my bucket list idk about the future 
75. cried when someone died: no
76. fallen for a friend: na DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 
77. yourself: nope
78. miracles: lol no 
79. love at first sight: na 
80. santa claus: nein 
81. kiss on the first date: idc man do whatever on your weird romance things 
82. angels: not at all OTHER: 
84. eye colour: dark brown
85. favourite movie: ok I have like 4 favorites just ,, hhh, the nightmare before christmas, coraline, literally anything little witch academia & corpse bride I tag @yanireyesart @ask-otabek @umbrethefluff (heY UMBRE 👋) and uh anyone else who wants to do this I guess??

[sugas-kookies]

Get To Know Me Tag

Helloooo, I was tagged by the wonderful @tumblingtae . Thanks for tagging me~ (≧▽≦) For this, I’ll go ahead and tag: @milo-gin @stuck-between-biases @ace-sofaraway @baxngtan (yall are like the only people I really talk to lmao)

THE LAST: 1. DRINK: Dr. Pepper 2. PHONE CALL: Uhhhh I never fuckin call ppl cause of my anxiety so....idk maybe my mom? No wait it was my father cause he was out of town this week. 3. TEXT MESSAGE: We can buy a Lambo with our combined money (in reference to GTA V) 4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: Blurry by Puddle of Mudd 5. TIME YOU CRIED: From sadness? It’s been a long time. I cried with laughter last night tho cause of my dad HAVE YOU: 6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: lmaooooo I’ve never dated 7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: never kissed 8. BEEN CHEATED ON: nope 9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: yeah of course 10. BEEN DEPRESSED: yes I have been 11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: I’ve had like a sip of wine, but I refuse to drink beyond that

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Black 13. Purple 14. Pastel pink IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: Yep, you kinda have to going into college. 16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: don’t think I’ve ever been in love (unless you count my love for BTS lmao) 17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: all the time haha 18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: I mean it’s bound to happen. It doesn’t surprise me tho not a lot of ppl like me 19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: Not sure about the past year....maybe one of my roommates. 20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: Yep 21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: havent kissed anyone GENERAL: 22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: Most, but not all 23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: Yes, a small little dog named Sophie who’s a little shit :) 24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: Y E S. EVERYONE IN THE US HAS MY FUCKIN NAME 25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: hung out with my college friends, ate at Chili’s 26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: 10:30 AM lmao 27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: Managing one of my other blogs on tumblr 28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: moving out of my parents house so I can fuckin live my life 29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: last night. My parents are gone today 30. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: Not being such an anxious piece of shit 31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING RIGHT NOW: the gentle hum of my computer 32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: maybe? idk 33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: people being hypocritical or just being bitchy or no reason 34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: tumblr and youtube...sometimes a03 LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. MOLE/S: don’t really have any, just freckles 36. MARK/S: freckles everywhere. And some scars too lol 37. CHILDHOOD DREAM: To be a teacher actually. 38. HAIR COLOR: Blonde 39. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: short cause I’m too lazy to style long hair 40. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: not unless Suga counts 41. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: not much, uhhhhhhh....I guess that it’s really hard to offend me? 42. PIERCINGS: double lobe piercings in both ears. I plan to get more soon 43. BLOOD TYPE: idk. I have no idea. I’ve asked my mother and she doesn’t know. I’m like “What if i’m dying and they ask u mom?” Her: “Well I guess you’ll just die, Em.” 44. NICKNAME: Spice, Em, Emi (only my brother calls me this one so) 45. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: super single 46. ZODIAC: Aries 47. PRONOUNS: she/her 48. FAVORITE TV SHOW: I never watch TV, but I do like Face Off (the show not the shitty movie) 49. TATTOOS: None yet, I plan to have some in the future 50. RIGHT OR LEFT HAND: right 51. SURGERY: none 52. HAIR DYED IN DIFFERENT COLOR: I’ve had it brown and dark red, but currently it’s just a lighter blonde than my natural color. 53. SPORT: fuck sports 55. VACATION: none as of right now 56. PAIR OF TRAINERS: trainers...? Like shoes??? Usually converse or knock off Vans MORE GENERAL: 57. EATING: nothing 58. DRINKING: nothing 59. I’M ABOUT TO: work on another post for this blog 61. WAITING FOR: my will to write to return from the war 62. WANT: to stop being bored 63. GET MARRIED: I’d like to in the future 64. CAREER: Like to have my own graphic design business

WHICH IS BETTER 65. HUGS OR KISSES: hugs 66. LIPS OR EYES: eyes, even though I’m scared of looking at ppl 67. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller 68. OLDER OR YOUNGER: older 70. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: ARMS FOR SURE 71. SENSITIVE OR LOUD: sensitive since I have the emotional range of a teaspoon 72. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship, I’m too awkward

73. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: troublemaker, my anxiety will make up the hesitation for both of us

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. KISSED A STRANGER: No 75. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: no just wine 76. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: nope I always wear glasses 77. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: yes like two guys and a girl 78. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: im a pure soul 79. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: probably? 80. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: from movies/shows, or by “friends” 81. BEEN ARRESTED: No but I’ve done some shit that should have at least gotten me a ticket 82. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: I only cried when my first dog died 83. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: kinda but not really DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. YOURSELF: hahaha hell no 85. MIRACLES: sometimes ppl get lucky, wouldn’t call them miracles 86. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: more like lust or infatuation 87. SANTA CLAUS: Nope 88. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: no, I’ve went on one date once, that would have been awkward 89. ANGELS: no, I’m not religious

OTHER: 91. EYE COLOR: blue 92. FAVORITE MOVIE: Grave of the fireflies or maybe We Need To Talk About Kevin? There’s too many come talk movie shit with me guys

[uncrownedkings]

So...

ive been seeing a lot of rather cringy lgbt+-related rant videos and posts on tumblr. these kinds of thing has been going on for a while now. i think maybe its just totally inappropriate timing what with all the trump dilemma that made ppl become more triggered than usual, but its come to the point where i have to go out of my way to make both a rant and a psa out of this post.  or maybe ive been following the wrong ppl.

anyways, those cringy rant vids/posts. they are usually white teenage girls who go on and on about how someone called them “miss” when “excuse me????” *cough cough* “ACTUALLY, im genderfluid.” 

ok. howbout YOU excuse me. bc frankly, you look like a “miss”, so thats why i called you “miss”. i mean like i wont call you a bitch until you look like a female dog. OH MY!!!! im sorry!!! youre genderfluid. my bad. correction: a genderfluid dog. so yeah, dont you act all triggered just bc someone assumed your gender identity incorrectly. how could i tell when you have your boobs falling out of your shirt?? you dont exactly announce your gender to the world, do you??? its only fair that i would assume so. empathize with the ppl who arent exposed to the different lgbt spectrums. dont rant about it. TAKE ACTION and take the initiative to point out their mistake. youre genderfluid, fine with me. that is my mistake, sorry for being ignorant and not noticing. pls correct me. its simple as that. why dont you have the nerve to correct them when someone mistook your gender, but you have it in you to go to fucking tumblr to rant about it? the mistake isnt gonna fix itself when you do so. it only gets fixed when you point it out to the person who made that mistake. what is your purpose here???? are you trying to get sympathy or attention?? bc youre not getting any from me. i dont care and im sick of it. if you want someone who does, go tell your mother. 

yall lgbt ppl assumed this “dont assume” policy for yourselves. im willing to follow, but there will ofc be ppl out there who are not aware. dont blame them. from the moment any child is born, they are subjected to this hetero-normative view of how a person is identified as.  they are programmed from a young age that there is an order in which a person follows. if youre not female, youre male. there seems to be no other option. being lgbt creates the opportunity to be someone else. not all ppl are exposed to this. those who do take advantage of it. 

im part of the lgbt community myself (as i am bi), but im embarrassed for what some of you have done to demean the value of the lgbt community. its like how ppl seem to always be hating on feminists all over again, bc of some ppl taking it too far and dont fully understand what it means. just bc you dont conform to the norms of society when it comes to sexual orientation doesnt mean you get any special favour. my friends, even the gay ones, have been joking around about how “omg youre cant do _____ just bc im gay like thats not ok.” but i find the truth in what they joke around about. ppl from the lgbt seem to always be finding excuses to be offended when someone comments on their sexuality. 

take it from my experiences. i live near two schools, so there are lots of kids in my neighborhood. the school im going to is a very multicultural public school that has a lot of brown and asian kids (my squad), and the other school is a prestigious private school specializing in art that is predominantly white. both schools are very close, so we know the ins and outs of each other. admittedly, i have lots of friends from both of the schools: lgbt friends, non-lgbt friends, and friends who jokes/pretend that they are lgbt. my point is: i know this kid from the private school. there was a rumour that he is gay. i confronted to him and bluntly asked him if he is actually gay. he started yelling at me defensively, saying “do you have a problem??? you cant just hate me bc im gay.” I DID NOT DO ANYTHING. i didnt speak to him again. on the other hand, theres this muslim trangendered boy in my school. hes quite famous due to his gender identity. when i met him for the first time, i asked him if he is transgender. he was cool about it and just simply said “yeah. im pretty famous in this school arent i?” he didnt get offended. he didnt act defensively. we were off with a very good start. since our school are more multicultural than the private school, a lot of us coming from eastern countries. eastern countries are more conservative and they dont take kindly to “different” ppl. he worked hard to be who he wants to be, and he is confident with himself and his gender. 

not totally unrelated to this, but im a friend of a girl who goes to the private school. nice kid, very cute, great at dance. she usually dresses in pretty dresses and skirts. but one day, she came in with jeans, sweater, and short boyish hair. everyone was surprised. then she told everyone she is genderfluid. there were a lot of genderfluid ppl in the private school, not so much in my school. when i asked her how she knew, she said why not??

it seems like there is a trend on being lgbt+, especially in this demographic (white, female, teen). as soon as its openly accepted, ppl will conform to become a part of this new thing. even after joining tumblr and seeing all these new lgbt+ categories makes me question myself. i tried to fit myself into this label, and i feel that this is what is happening. before it is accepted in western countries, the idea was very hush hush. now that everyone is beginning to accept it, suddenly everyone is lgbt. not like “oh im closeted bc lgbt is not accepted and now im out bc its accepted.” no, its like “oh this lgbt thing is pretty new! lets see which category i THINK i fit in the best and squeeze myself into this label.” im sorry, if youre an actual lgbt veteran and you have been fighting all your life for acceptance and equal rights. but there are ppl who are trying to conform to this lgbt+ “thing” bc it seems like everyone is out as well. there are even some ppl who would go out of there way to make a point that they ARE indeed lgbt+. you cant just wake up one morning and decide that youre suddenly asexual, or pansexual (when you havent even had a sexual relationship) or genderfluid. its not fair to those who have worked so hard. but then again, im in no position to tell you who you are. you are the controller of your life. but dont act all defensive and go crying to your followers just bc someone makes a comment on your sexuality/gender but  youre not confident/sure enough about it to forget and forgive. if this is truly who you are, then TAKE ACTION. you dont need to prove to me that you are lgbt, just simply embrace it by expressing it. BELIEVE IN WHO YOU ARE. and dont be ashamed. you cant stop someone from assuming when you yourself dont accept that fact. who cares what others think.

ok so. after all that longass rant with the telling of my whole fucking life story, half-assed motivational quotes, and some rather rude use of language, the moral of the story is: i dont have a problem with your gender identification or sexual orientation, im actually fine with it. but i do have a problem with people using that as an excuse to act all disgusted and horrified and lash out on social media when someone may or may not have intentionally “offended” them. if its actually offensive, fine, you are free to make a point about it and shove it up their asses. but when someone asks you if youre gay, you DONT FUCKING GIVE THEM YOUR ATTITUDE. saying yes is enough. its up to their discretion to either shrug and move on (which i would do bc i dont care about your sexuality) or they can punch you in the face like a fucking trump supporter that they are. it is only when they punch you that you fight back. DONT FIGHT WHEN THERE IS NO REASON TO FIGHT AT ALL. 

i know that there will be ppl who would be displeased with me. nvm, i dont think there would be that much ppl reading it in the first place. oh well. just trying to make a point. im not sorry that i made this post on this particular topic, but im sorry for the incredibly coarse/rude language. i have said offensive things that is borne from my frustration. if there are ppl out there who sees mistruths or ignorance in my post, you are welcome to enlighten me. my views arent rigid and im not exactly knowledgeable in this topic, so i am willing to change them if your point is valid.  but ill only be accepting replies with point, proof, and analysis. also, you are welcome to block/unfollow me as well, but tbh, i wont be posting these kinds of thing again anytime soon. ill just be back to the cute, unassuming anime blog that silently supports the lgbt+ community and strongly opposes trump. thank you for your time, and have a nice day.

[insert-witty-saying-here]

I was tagged by @ilyyknj​~~

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people. (im not gonna tag anyone, u can do it if you wanna~)

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water 

2. Phone call: my mom

3. Text message: skype group chat

4. Song you listened to: The Other Side of Paradise - Glass Animals 

5. Time you cried: a couple days ago i think? but im always on the brink of crying lol :’>

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: no

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nope,never kissed anyone

8. Been cheated on: no

9. Lost someone special: no

10. Been depressed: b oi all the ti me lolol

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14. Green, Teal, and purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yes

16. Fallen out of love: not really, i dont think anyway

17. Laughed until you cried: absolutely 

18. Found out someone was talking about you: i d ont think so

19. Met someone who changed you: yes

20. Found out who your friends are: well i mean, yeah

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: nope

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them, but mainly in passing

23. Do you have any pets: 2 cats, 4 rats, 3 birds, 6 fish, and a toad.

24. Do you want to change your name: lol hell yeah

25. What did you do for your last birthday: nothing really, i dont think i even left the house on the day.

26. What time did you wake up: 4AM, but then i went back to bed at like, 11AM and woke up around 6PM

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: dicking around on the internet probably. i dont remember

28. Name something you can’t wait for: A convention that im going to in september.

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: less than a minute ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I wish i had more irl friends.

31. What are you listening right now: All of the songs i have on my Spotify. Currently its Far Too Young To Die - Panic! At The Disco

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nah

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: idk really, maybe a couple things going on in my life 

34. Most visited Website: tumblr, facebook,and ao3

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME

35. Mole/s: ive got a few

36. Mark/s: stretch marks are fuckin everywhere man, and a few scars

37. Childhood dream: i wanted to be a doctor, lol that dream fuckin went up in smoke really fast

38. Hair color: a real boring brown.

39. Long or short hair: short

40. Do you have a crush on someone: ha, no

41. What do you like about yourself: HA, funny joke.

42. Piercings: One on each ear, but they’re crooked so i dont really wear earrings.

43. Bloodtype: i have no idea my dude

44. Nickname: rat

45. Relationship status: single

46. Zodiac:taurus

47. Pronouns: He/him

48. Favorite TV Show: Leverage

49. Tattoos: nah, but i want a couple i think.

50. Right or left hand: Right, i cant do anything with my left lol

51. Surgery: nope

52. Hair dyed a different color: not at the moment, maybe ill dye it again

53. Sport: lol

55. Vacation: i hardly leave my house lol

56. Pair of trainers: nope, all i got is one pair of doc martens and its hell in the summer

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating:

nothin, i haven’t eaten since i got up lol

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: finish typing this up and probably draw or something.

61. Waiting for: for my life to not be total shit lol

62. Want: a job probably

63. Get married: ha.

64. Career: Professional artist, but i highly doubt thats gonna happen lol

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses:

Hugs i guess, i dont really kiss anyone lol

66. Lips or eyes: eyes

67. Shorter or taller: taller

68. Older or younger: older, but not that much older.

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms, gimme those gu ns

71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

72. Hookup or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: no

75. Drank hard liquor: yes

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yall kiddin of course i have.

77. Turned someone down: yeah i think so

78. Sex on the first date: lol no

79. Broken someone’s heart: i dont think so.

80. Had your heart broken: probably, i dont remember

81. Been arrested: no

82. Cried when someone died: yeah

83. Fallen for a friend: yu p, it was stupid.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself:

 lol, no

85. Miracles: ehhhhh

86. Love at first sight: i believe in that something is there at first, might not be love, but something.

87. Santa Claus: nope, never have

88. Kiss on the first date: ehhh

89. Angels: it would be cool if they did

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name:

Dan

91. Eye color: a real boring brown.

92. Favorite movie: Tangled