#yall were listening to my soundcloud

[astraystayastayastray]

Black Hole

pairing: fem!reader + idol!bangchan

featuring: other members of straykids briefly appears

genre: soulmates au

warning: toothrotting fluff!

song by: Bangchan and I.N of Straykids (SoundCloud below the cut)

a/n: hey yall im not dead <3 heres a small lyric fic with bangchan! im finally away from work on a little christmas vacation with my family so i might squeeze in maybe one fully finished oneshot soon! please support by reblogging! ty!!

Description: Bangchan falls in love with you at first sight and cant help wanting to believe in the theory of soulmates after seeing your smile.

DO NOT COPY WORK.

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"Thank you STAY!" Felix waves at the fans before him who are happily cheering for him and his group.

"Yeah! We'll be back!!" Han jumps up and down, trying to take in every single STAY in front of him.

"Don't forget us STAY! Don't go to other idols' concerts!" Seungmin jabs a finger up at the stars above, pointing to tell his fans never to forget this beautiful day.

As you obediently glance up at the night atmosphere, you breathe into the bustling air of excitement and listen to the exclamations of some of the other fans around you.

Shining brightly in front of my eyes

Is a whirlwind of time and space,

The falling sky warmly surrounds and caresses me

Today, Stray Kids did their comeback tour outdoors under the bright star constellations, the stage illuminating the darkness and casting away any fear or anxious nervousness.

In other words, the perfect weather, the perfect setting, and the perfect family to share this memory with, made everything feel like home.

I fall into you again,

Into your heart,

Leaving myself to gravity

You suddenly hear gasps and cheers around you. The group has split up to bid goodbye to STAYS who would have to leave soon.

You quickly put away your phone which was overflowing with pictures and videos, attempting a big wave at Jeongin who was walking close by your seat.

He spots you, grins, and lightly gestures to the idol behind him that you were here.

Bangchan emerges from behind the maknae and sees you as well. He smiles as if he could wish for nothing more that can make him happier than he was now.

You wave again, giving your boyfriend a thumbs up and a heart.

Minho also joins the two idols, hopping off the stage together to meet the fans in your part of the area.

Jeongin and Minho rushes off to take pictures with STAY, but Bangchan continues to trot over to where you are.

Everybody screamed and rushed around to get a picture with the Bangchan, getting closer and closer to where you were. You who were squished between the mobs of overexcited fans, could barely see him approaching as you fought to keep yourself in your seat.

You can hear a light chuckle as a strong arm grasps your waist and pulls you up. Bangchan gives a light squeeze on your arm and quickly lets go, waving to everyone around you as if nothing had happened.

I’m trapped in your space again,

There’s nothing I can do

But fall in love

People cheer for Bangchan's sincere care for a fellow STAY, but between the two of you, it is an interaction of two couples, amidst the stardust of joy.

The moment we touch each other amidst the stardust

I know that baby you are the one

"Alright! We're leaving now!! Bye STAY! Eat well! Don't forget your Binnie!"

A final cheer follows Changbin's remark and erupts the night as the group at last exits the stage.

Fans around you bustle out, but you stay where you are, wishing this moment could last forever.

You reach for your bag to get your phone and take an uber home but you notice a piece of sticky note clinging onto your jacket.

Curiously glancing at the paper, you read, "I'll be outside! Take your time!!"

Smiling, you hurriedly scramble out of the outdoor stadium, searching for your boyfriend.

Suddenly, you feel the same strong arms that touched you minutes ago, grasping tightly around you from behind.

"Hey baby~"

"Channi-!"

"Shh! Remember we're in public?!"

"Right!" You act a whole skit of zipping your mouth shut. You then smile happily at the man in front of you.

Chan was wearing a black cap over his styled hair and an additional mask that covered his face. "What am I going to do with you," he says as he gently rests an exhausted head onto your shoulder.

Carefully brushing away sweaty, damaged hair from his masked face, you pull away from Chan and glance up into his sparkling eyes. "Tired?"

"Mmm," he nods and envelopes you into another hug.

Giggling, you take his hand and walk along the sidewalk of the streets. There was a long comfortable silence as you two walked past bustling cars and excited fans all ready to leave.

You find privacy behind a large lamppost that covers the two of you from anyone else's view.

"Still tired?"

"Yeah."

"You know the whole purpose of this walk was to get you energized so you can head back to your dorm properly, right?"

Gasping, your boyfriend clutches his chest and says, "It wasnt because you wanted to see me?!"

Laughing you put your hands on your boyfriend's cheeks and gave a light kiss onto his mask. "I love you so much, but you need rest! Cmon, let's go-" You feel your hands being placed onto one's neck. You raise an eyebrow as Chan sets his hands on your waist. "Now what is this? Where has my tired boyfriend gone to??"

"Shh, im tired, lemme rest."

"Not here! Not like this! You need to go before the other boys steal all your dinner!"

Laughing, Chan remains in place and gives you the cutest puppy eyes - or.. wolf eyes - you've ever seen. "I thought you wanted to leave cuz of the cold but you were worrying about me?"

Blushing furiously, you slap the arms wrapped around your waist.

"Alright alright," he chuckles. "Let's go now-"

"OMG CHANNIE! LOOK!" Above the two of you, tiny stars started drifting through the air, forming a giant constellation together that stretched across the entire sky like one huge veil.

"Well wouldya look at that. I've never seem anything like this!" Chan is quick to lift you up into a piggy-back-ride before you can refuse.

Squealing from overwhelming joy, you abandon all effort of trying to act mature for once and willingly grasped onto your boyfriend's neck.

You and I, our hearts are like the stars,

They shine brightly for each other

To the people around you, it might seem like two crazy couples acting all lovey-dovey and childish - a temporary love that would eventually close to an end.

A love between an idol and a fan.

Anything could go wrong. Chaos being the result for the both of you.

But the two of you decide to put away these fears just for one day and enjoy life as it is, as fate had tied you together.

Is it a coincidence or is it meant to be?

After a flurry of jumping, admiring, kissing, and piggy-back-riding, you both rest underneath the giant lamppost once again, even more exhausted after the fun.

But now, a bright glow outshines your boyfriend's exhausted eyes. You swing your legs with enthusiasm and look up at your lover. "Chan," you start.

"Yes, babe?"

"Do you believe in soulmates? In true love? Do you think love at first sight exists - that we can exist together forever?"

The moment we touch each other amidst the stardust

I know that baby you are the one

Your boyfriend turns to you and what he says next engraves into your brain - even until now.

“You are my fate, I am your mate

"No matter what happens, I want to keep loving you forever, like how the stars above us are eternally weaved into the galaxies.

"You are my galaxy, my star, my world.

Swirling up the vast emptiness,

We will shine."

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Check out masterlist for more.

REBLOGS ARE APPRECIATED! THANKS FOR READING!

[robinniko]

Can you give a list of people you listen to? I know Taylor swift and the one d boys but anyone else?

of course !!!!! I mainly blog about taylor & 1d bc i enjoy the community and they are my biggest interest, but I got a whole different list of artist i listen to that I just don’t blog about!!

so of course I listen to the pop girlies like Chappell Roan, Olivia Rodrigo, Sabrina Carpenter, I have also been listening to Billies new album on repeat, as well as Girl in Reds album that came out in April. I love Lil Nas X as well, been following him since Old Town Road. Halsey will always be in my top 5, her new song is amazing! Same with Lana, I am admittedly more of a causal listener but I also love her overall lol

Ashnikko is an artist I personally didn’t listen to a lot but in recent months i have had her songs on repeat!

Someone I will always recommend to people is Terror Jr. Her music is super interesting and very creative, kind of like hyper pop? but shes an amazing artist & super talented.

I also enjoy Hozier & Noah Khan, been a huge fan of The Front Bottoms since i was like 14 same with Hippo Campus as well, Boygenuis as well but more of a causal listener. Florence + the Machine is always a favorite. I enjoy Mother Mother as well, got into them through my friend and Ive basically listened to almost all their albums too. I absolutely love Lewis Capaldi as well.

Casually been listening to the Mountain Goats & The Taxpayers. Sleep Token is a more metal band that has taken over my interests lol, I was into more heavier music as a teen but grew more attached to indie/pop music, my friend who recommended to me as an introduction to more metal music.

I also dabble a little bit with Zach Bryans music when Im feeling a country music mood, same with Carrie Underwood & Miranda Lambert, love me some the country queens. I also love the oldies, mainly Frank Sinatra, Johnny Cash, & Bruce Springsteen though, and like basically 60s-90s dad rock lol.

I would recommend Rainbow Kitten Surprise, they were an artist I kind of never truly listened to til this year!

Huge Kendrick fan ofc, I got into him through my brothers and enjoyed his work ever since. Artists like the Beastie Boys & Missy Elliot & B.I.G are also my favs when Im in a particular mood. I hate him as a person but I do enjoy The Weeknd’s music a lot as well. I love Grandson as well, his vocals are amazing! Same with SZA, been casually listening to her for a while, the newest album has made me kind of a stan of her! Chase Atlantic is another fave, they have the type of music that makes me wanna shake ass in the club at 1am. Post Malone is always a favorite, you can imagine how happy I was to see him & taylor collab. Childish Gambino is also always a favorite, got into him because of my brothers as well, and Donald Glover is just so talented!

Recently discovered a duo called Joey Valence & Brae, I definitely recommend them if yall are into artist like Yung Gravy or bbno$ (which are two I really enjoy) because they are just goofy raps but are actually very good at the same time! Another artist trio I enjoy is Injury Reverse as well. If you want more soundcloud type beats, I enjoy $uicideboy$ & Lil Peep.

MCR, P!ATD, & Fall Out Boy are my main three, got into them when I was in middle school and never escaped enjoying them lol.

My all time favorite artist who is up tied with Taylor as my favorite artist like ever, is probably this kind of underground artist Jake Mirador, you can find his music on Spotify and youtube, but he is super duper talented and deserves to be a bigger artist, I recommend the song Saint Laurent or Alligator Blood! He is literally probably one of my favorite artists because his production and vocals are amazing! I could write an essay on how talented he is

[cutesybatsimagines]

Ric Grayson Imagine~

After a long night, the reader comes home to find Ric is already there. But is he alone?

You pushed the door to you and your boyfriends shared apartment open, letting your shoulders sag as you enter. You had your airpods in, listening to whatever came on from your Soundcloud. It was late but you didn’t bother with turning the light on, as you didn’t want to burn your eyes after having been traveling in the dark for so long. 

You dropped your bag gently on the couch, making sure to be quiet with all of your actions as to not bother your neighbors. You and Ric had already been kicked out of three other apartments. You swore the landlords were conspiring against you as there was no way either of you were being “too loud” or “disruptive” or even “violent towards neighbors”! You had no idea where they were getting these ideas from, you were always very polite and you knew Ric wouldn’t have done anything to compromise your living situation. Sure he gambled in the past, but he was a changed man.

Speaking of your boyfriend, you weren’t completely sure if he was home yet, but you could tell from your living room that you guys bedroom door was cracked. You turned your tunes down a bit, making your way down the hall. You decided to stop by the bathroom first and freshen up. You messed with your hair a bit and straightened your clothes before heading back into the hallway and towards you and Ric’s shared room. 

You pushed the door open and felt your heart drop. Ric was definitely home, and he had brought a woman home with him. Your right airpod fell out of your ear, and now you could hear your boyfriends and his affairs moans. 

“R-Ric,” you stuttered out, hand tightening on the door knob.

Ric flinched back, looking over his shoulder at you. The girl under him seemed to jump start, she practically sprang up, pulling the blanket up to cover her body. But it was too late, you had seen everything. 

“Babe- (Y/N), I-” Ric started but you interrupted.

“Shut up! And you,” you pointed an accusing finger at the girl in his bed, “get the fuck out of here.”

She didn’t seem to hesitate, and as she hopped up and grabbed her clothes, flinging them on before leaving, Ric grabbed his joggers and pulled them on. You scowled down at him, tears starting to fall from your eyes as your frustration and anger bubbled over. 

“Babe it wasn’t what it looked like!” Ric tried, standing up and ambling over towards you. 

“Wasn’t what it looked like? Do I look like I was born yesterday!?” You yelled, neighbors be damned.

Ric did a “so-so” gesture, fueling your hurt feelings. “Whats wrong with you?” You shouted at him, “Do I mean anything to you?”

Ric reached over like he was going to touch your arm, but you jerked back from him. He sighed, “of course you do. You mean the world to me (Y/N), you know that!”

You sneered at him, pushing past him and into the bedroom, looking in the closet for your suitcase. “Then why cheat on me?”

Ric made a sort of shrugging motion, scratching at the back of his head. “You know how I get when I’m drunk. I wasn’t thinking right. I was lonely and you weren’t here.”

You piled some clothes into your suitcase, ignoring him for the time being. You wanted to scream at him, yell that he was unjustified and I terrible boyfriend and an even worse person, but you kept your lips sealed, knowing it was better that way. For now. 

You looked into your dresser drawer, searching for you emergency money/savings. You had been taking bits of your pay and keeping it in hopes that you could make enough to take you and Ric away from Bludhaven and somewhere nice, even if just for a weekend. And it was nice to have some money saved in case an emergency like this occurred.  

Not finding it, you searched more drawers, finding none of them contained your money. You moved to the opposite side of the room, stepping past Ric, and checked in every place you could image for your money.

When you finally stopped looking, the room felt eerily still as neither you nor Ric moved or said a word.

You broke the silence as you turned towards him, asking him in an even voice, “Ric, where is my backup money?”

His arms stiffened, you could see he had sweat building on his forehead and he wasn’t quite meeting your eyes. “I may have borrowed it,” he admitted. 

“Borrowed it? What does that mean, Ric?! What do you mean you ‘borrowed it!?” You yelled at him coming over to where he was standing.

He looked at you, eyes glossed over, “I went gambling-”

“I thought you had quit gambling?” You interrupted, practically seething.

“I had! But my luck was up, so I thought it would go pretty well. And well...”

“It didn’t?”

“No, and then Kelly-”

You held your hand up to silence him, “was Kelly the girl you were sleeping with?’

He nodded and continued, “and then Kelly bought me a few beers, and it was fine, honestly! But then she started coming onto me, and I was going to go home, but she trailed after me and one thing led to another.”

“How much did you lose? Just my money?” You hissed out, jabbing him with your finger accusingly. 

“Nah, all of it.”

You felt yourself go still before you took a deep, slow breath. “All of it?”

“Yea, like all the money we had in savings,” he supplied. 

You felt more tears start to fall from your tired eyes, “all in one night?”

He shook his head,” no, this was about three weeks ago.”

You felt something in you snap. It felt like your veins were on fire, all you could see was red. You reared back and punched Ric as hard as you could, your satisfaction hardly lasting when he only jerked back and cupped his jaw. 

“Ric get the hell out of my apartment right now.”

“Babe, lets talk-”

“Ric I swear to whatever god is out there I will kill you if you don’t leave this instant!” You screamed into his face, pushing him out the room and cringing when he managed to step on your fallen airpod. 

He held his hands up in surrender, twisting out of your grasp and towards the front door.

“I’ll come back when you’re more calm, we can work through this, baby,” he promised, stepping outside. 

You grabbed the door and glared at him, “Ric, if you ever show up here again I’ll call the cops. Get out of here and never come back.” You shut the door on his face, ignoring his hurt look. 

You slumped back into your room and collapsed onto your bed, questioning what you were supposed to do now.

[basicallywhiterice]

seventeen (+ twice and nct) college texts (2nd year)

a/n: yes, i will keep making these until mood ring!minghao gets the recognition he deserves. the characters (y/n, vernon, joshua, tzuyu, minghao, and junhui) are all from mood ring, but you don’t have to read it for these to make sense. adding on to these first year college texts because i can

[just keep swimming]

(9:52 pm) ac(t)orman: Congrats to @tzuyu for placing at the first swim meet of the year!! chewy granola bar: JUNHUI I’M 😭 tysm chewy granola bar: How did you even know?? Results just came out ac(t)orman: I am [h]ac(t)[ke](o)rman

(9:54 pm) OctOpOdes: hot: [h]ac(t)[ke](o)rman OctOpOdes: not: hackerman OctOpOdes: congrats @tzuyu <3

[national hao-liday]

(12:00 am) you: Happy birthday Minghao!1!1! I love you uwu you: Me and Vernon got you a present we think you’ll love OctOpOdes: aw thank you i love you more you: It’s a set of dentures :D OctOpOdes: :0

[all i want for christmas is yoo(n jeonghan)]

(5:48 pm) you: Vernon’s wearing a big honking Christmas sweater and Minghao’s neon jumpsuit lit up half the plane, can you guys see us ac(t)orman: I see u! Yall are so cute

(5:49 pm) ac(t)orman: No dont kiss vernon under the mistletoe please this is a wholesome minecraft server ac(t)orman: Please ac(t)orman: /Please/ chewy granola bar: Don’t listen to him @y/n

(5:50 pm) chewy granola bar: @joshua Heyyyyy I see some mistletoe near the airline help desk wanna go check it out

[haha professor why won’t you round my 69% up to an A calculus isn’t real anyways haha]

(11:22 pm) jules vern(e) 💜: @joshua @junhui please i am begging you for help jules vern(e) 💜: *1 image attached* jules vern(e) 💜: i took the double integral but idk what to do next

(11:24 pm) nerdier than thou: U take the limit as x approaches infinity bro jules vern(e) 💜: i am AT my limit bro ac(t)orman: ^^ jules vern(e) 💜: wait actually that really helps thanks josh

[I believe cats to be spirits come to earth. A cat, I am sure, could walk on a cloud without coming through.]

(9:52 am) you: Hmm Joshua why did you change the gc name, seems sus nerdier than thou: I’M NOT A FURRY chewy granola bar: Never said you were… seems mad sus nerdier than thou: I- (9:53 am) nerdier than thou: I changed it because it was a Jules Verne quote and Vernon was stressing over losing his reading comprehension jules vern(e) 💜: vernon who? we only know jared, 19 in this household

feat: the colossal group chat

[cuz when we jobless and shopping we jopping]

(6:23 pm) uh, you think 🔍 a big boy 👨‍🦲 throwing 🥊 three 3️⃣ stacks: FUCK finals all my homies hate finals 😤👊🤪🤙🥴😱👿💔 nerdier than thou: MARKUS LEE <33 how did your finals go uh, you think 🔍 a big boy 👨‍🦲 throwing 🥊 three 3️⃣ stacks: I almost forgot to turn in my coloring pages 😦 good thing my business prof gave us a 3-week extension

(6:24 pm) chewy granola bar: LMAO MARK chewy granola bar: Also will we get more (8) tracks now that school’s done uh, you think 🔍 a big boy 👨‍🦲 throwing 🥊 three 3️⃣ stacks: Yes omg @mina I made another soundcloud rap if you wanna do ballet to it again

(6:25 pm) juul? nah. juilliard!: 🅱ro I have 3 days until my final performance but I’ll make it work for you

[creambunnie]

Jaemin - Autumn J

chapters : masterlist , 1 2 3 4 5 6 ...

5 ;

you sighed as you sat at the busstop, waiting for the bus to take you home. school was exhausting as usual.

you were scanning the road when subtle footsteps caught your attention.

"oh y/n !". Jaemin chirped as you made eye contact.

it was the first time the two of you went back at the same time. you were always busy witb club activities after school, but you requested to go home earlier today.

you gave Jaemin a smile as he sat beside you .

"isn't it weird going back together like this hahaha,". Jaemin started.

you chuckled before joking. "if it's weird, why not you ride the bus after mine ?". you stood up as your bus arrived.

Jaemin quickly went beside you and shook his head. "you know that's not what i meant,". he said as the two of you secured the back seats.

you chuckled again and waved your hand in front of him. "i was just joking,, chill.".

Jaemin sighed in relief and smiled widely again when he remembered about earlier.

"ah y/n !! just now in class i saw you watching Autumn J !". Jaemin said excitedly.

your eyes sparkled as you heard your favourite producer being mentioned.

"you listen to him too ??". you asked enthusiastically.

Jaemin paused for a bit at your sudden change of behaviour but nodded with a handsome smile.

he found it cute when you were excited.

"omg what's your favourite??". you asked as you fished out your phone from your pocket.

"my favourite will be his latest work ! i love how he poured all his emotions into his music!" . you explained, answering your own question.

Jaemin chuckled , still trying to adapt to your new side.

"me too honestly. i feel like he have improved so much from his previous works." Jaemin finally replied.

you agreed with Jaemin before babbling about how you've been searching for people who enjoy Autumn J's works as much as you do and are down to discuss about them.

well honestly you hated socialising especially small talks but you love having discussions about your interests. and in this case music! specifically Autumn J.

Jaemin listened to you whole-heartedly and offered his insights too. the ride was fun but sadly short.

Jaemin's stop came after a few minutes of conversing.

Jaemin greeted you goodbye and hoped to spend more time with you like this .

it was the most words you two have ever exchanged with each other since the two of you met .

you can't help but smile widely. finally you had someone who likes the same thing as you. you can't wait to talk more with Jaemin . he was not bad afterall, you thought.

the next morning came. you, as usual, were listening to Autumn J's soundcloud calmly, when Jaemin boarded the bus and greeted you with his handsome smile.

you were about to take off your earpiece like every morning but Jaemin put his hand out to stop you as he pointed to his airpods and then his phone.

you chuckled and rolled your eyes as you look at the funny guy.

the two of you stood side by side, enjoying the scenery as you respectively listened to your shared favourite artist.

.

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a/n : hehe hope yall love this short update ! hmm looks like y/n and jaemin are on good terms now ? 🤔

taglist : @patchi-chi

[filthyjanuary]

Sima tell me every single parx opinion you have. I wanna hear rankings of albums, top 5 off each, demo that should’ve been on an album, favorite interview moment, favorite Awsten tweet, anything and everything u got

oh jesus dgfefgf bailey THANK U uhhhhh okay so like i ranked all the albums two months ago but i’d only been into parx for like 2 months so i’ll tell u which ones have moved up or down.

double dare, even then, was hardest for me to rank so uh looking at this im like... what was i thinking? gloom boys is still That Bitch but maybe not first? i think i’d move 21q and plum island higher because i’ve appreciated them more lately, it follows would swap with gloom boys, MIA would swap with dizzy probably. royal and SFY might swap with 21q/plum island actually just because i’ve overplayed them for myself but im keeping THTTM where it is... this album is genuinely all over the place i think my rankings switch every minute.

entertainment... i think i need to move sleep alone above tantrum as much as it pains me.... sorry tantrum i still love u. otherwise, this feels right, although rare could be higher maybe? idk 3-5 are basically the same in my head. lucky people has also grown on me a bit so maybe it shouldn’t be so low but i also can’t think of anything that deserves to be lower so uh.

fandom still feels right, i’d maybe move reboot/ifywwm above turbulent, and maybe swap nba and eth but.... overall this feels right to me still.

i never ranked the eps so here we go (also i barely listen to AC/B so i gotta remind myself what the songs even sound like so their rankings are probs not accurate sorry dfgefrergfd)

cluster: mad all the time, pink, territory, crave, no capes.

blacklight: new wave, i’m a natural blue, night maps, easter egg, christmas, american history

airplane conversations: silver, they all float, fantastic, i was hiding under your porch because i love you, bones of 92

tbh that was hard, i switched fantastic and iwhuypbily so many times theyre tied i think

OKAY FR UNPOPULAR (?) OPINION TIME, awsten’s starry eyed cover is better than anything on blacklight lol

tbh i dont really have a favourite interview moment bc they have a lot of interviews and the general unhinged energy is great in all of them but awsten’s interview with zach sang is my favourite interview because it’s so thorough? i’m a journalist and when i was in school that was the kind of work i saw myself doing (lol @ reality), so i just love when an interview is detailed AND you can tell the interviewer knows what the fuck they’re talking about AND puts the person they’re talking to at ease. every time i watch that one i feel like my heart grows three sizes. i also really liked those rocksound ones where they had each member do their separate video and pick random numbers for their questions bc i like when otto and geoff get attention,

my favourite awsten tweet is this one because he’s not talking to/about me but also like... me @ me i guess

THE DEMOS HMMMMMMMM FIRST OFF WWDFF SHOULDVE BEEN ON THE REGULAR VERSION OF DOUBLE DARE I AM TIRED OF TURNING TO SOUNDCLOUD

idk if there are demos that yall discuss that arent on the demo album but off 1, noise, glitter times, teenage jealousy and sorry as i’ll ever be.

i want a teenage jealousy release because the song slaps, but also... i WANNA KNOW WHAT THE REDACTED PART SAYS SO BAD.

tbh i get why none of them were released, like i dont have any album songs where im like FUCK THIS REPLACE IT WITH A DEMO SONG, but..... noise and sorry as i’ll ever be are the two i could see fitting into an album most naturally.

send asks so i don’t fall asleep at work

[ncityofangels]

NCT 127 + U Reaction : You Being Under Anesthesia and They Tell You Things They’ve Never Told You Before

a/n: this was requested and took really long but it was so fun to write because I’ve never written a reaction before so yay! Anyway....I included 127, U, and Kun in this reaction so have fun. Hope you guys like it :D

Genre : Flufffffff x10

below the cut because I’m nice like that ;)

Taeil

I could definitely see him being one of the more emotional ones whenever you go to get your wisdom teeth out

He’s definitely big worried about you

I don’t think he would really express it to you though

HOWEVER

Don’t think that he won’t be taking funny pictures of you during your procedure to blackmail you with later

Once you were completely under though he’d turn into a big softie

Would wait in the waiting room all night just to make sure you’re okay

Constantly talking to the doctors to make sure everything was going according to plan

“How did I get so lucky?”

“You’re so beautiful, Y/N”

Johnny

Today was the day you got the procedure done to donate your kidney

He comes to the hospital with you (of courseee)

Brings hella snacks for both of you

but like

Not healthy snacks. Probably a lot of chocolate.

Watches YouTube videos with you on his phone while you wait

Once you get called he gets a little nervous

The entire time the procedure is being done he’s like pacing in the waiting room

Doing that knee bounce thingy people do when they’re anxious

After the procedure is done and you’re in your room, the biggest smile erupts on his face

“I totally knew you’d be okay babe”

“You’re the strongest person I know”

Taeyong

first off

big baby 1/4

He was already hella concerned when you broke your leg but when he found out you’d have to get operated on

This boyyyyy was freakin out

I definitely see him being one of the most anxious ones

Highkey tries to teach you a choreo he thought of while you’re in the waiting room to calm his nerves

“Oh right, your leg is broken. Sorry babe. Let’s find something else to do then”

Doesn’t want to be separated from you when they take you back

After the operation they tell him he can go back to your room and he could not get their faster

Definitely has a whole conversation with you while you’re still under

“Hurry up and get back to me”

“I love you too much”

Yuta

Why do I picture him being so chill the whole time

Like not in the way that he doesn’t care 

but

He trusts you’re in good hands with the doctors

You’re definitely more nervous than he is

“Babe, you’re just getting your wisdom teeth out, it’ll be okay.”

Plays a game on his phone while your waiting

Or reads one of those magazines they always leave out for patients

Buys flowers after they take you back

I feel like without a doubt he spent at LEAST 15 minutes in the hospital gift shop picking out what kind of flowers to get you

Probably asks the people working there for advice too

The procedure didn’t take too long so he was able to see you pretty soon, even though you were still under

“See babe I told you everything was going to go good”

“You’re so beautiful when you sleep”

Kun

Very similar to Johnny imo

Plays with your hair while you’re in the waiting room

“You don’t need your tonsils anyway”

This makes me soft

Tells you fuckin dad jokes to calm you down like the nerd he is

ALSO

FLOWERSS 

this boy will go all out because he really loves your ass

Expect your room to smell good af after you get up

Why do I feel like he’d order take out for you before you wake up so it’s ready for you when you come to

ik thats like kInDa weird but I just feel that in my soul so

ANYWAY

Lowkey wants to cuddle you the whole time you’re under

“I’ll never leave your side”

“You’re so adorable like this”

Doyoung

Alright this is my bias y’all sooo

I definitely feel like he’s kind of similar to Yuta

a LOT more chill than some of the other members

“I’ll see you in a bit”

“What do you want to eat after this?”

Lots of hugs before you go back

Roams the gift shop while he waits

Probably gets you some small little thing that made him think of you

“She’ll like this”

Sings to you in your room while you’re still asleep

WOW im in love with this boy

Checks in with the doctor to make sure things are going well

Doesn’t leave your side once they move you into your room

Not in the way that he is worried, he just likes being close to you

Treats you to dinner after you’re released

“I never knew I could care about someone so much”

“Take your time babe, I have all day”

Ten

veryyyyy touchy

big baby 2/4

not really worried at all though

Will be all over you before you go back

Just very affectionate in general, regardless of the situation

When you told him you had to get your appendix taken out he was like “okay, lets go get that fixed”

brings snacks like Johnny

When it’s time for you to go back he holds your hand and tells you everything is gonna be okay

Brings you food

Updates the members on your condition (idk that’s just something I think he’d do)

Probably ends up falling asleep in the waiting room tbh

“Are you really under anesthesia or are you just messing with me?”

“I’ll always take care of you”

Jaehyun

wow we love ANOTHER bias

Okay so

Brings his airpods and a speaker so yall can listen to music together while you wait

this is so cute i’m literally crying

why do I see him packing a lunch for the both of you

Does the MOST

“Hurry, you have to eat this before they take your wisdom teeth out”

Big softie

A tiny bit concerned, but knows you’ll be fine

Can’t wait for the cuddles that he’ll give you after your release

repeat after me… TAKES. CARE. OF. YOU.

Most likely ends up feeding you at home too because you’re a mess and can’t do anything for yourself

Once they let him back to see you though he just melts

So proud of you tbh (even though you literally didn’t do anything”

“That’s my baby”

“I can’t wait to marry you”

Winwin

big baby 3/4

Would quite literally do anything for you

Lots of backhugs and reassurance

Jokes around with you to calm you down

definitely shows you memes from the NCT group chat to cheer you up

“I’ll be right here the whole time, don’t worry”

Speaks Mandarin for you because you find it relaxing

lil cuddles in the waiting room

I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH

Y’all have the softest relationship

Expect this boy to literally never leave your side during recovery

Won’t let you do anything but rest because his baby has to be in top condition

As soon as he sees you after the operation he gets a little emotional

Most likely just has a regular convo with you while you’re under

“What do you think about this outfit, Y/N?”

“Yeah, I don’t really like it that much either”

“You’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met”

“I can’t wait to grow old with you”

Jungwoo

big baby 4/4

a lot like Taeyong tbh

aegyo to make you feel better

For some reason I don’t see him worrying too much though

Like he loves you soooo much and you will never question that but he’s just chillin once you go back

Misses your presence once he’s alone in the waiting room

“How long does it take to take an appendix out?”

Probably is wayyy too into a game on his phone when the doctor comes to tell him that he can go back

“Aw baby, you look so cuteee”

“I just want to hug you until you’re better” 

Lucas

honestly

big meme boi

Roasts the shit out of you for having to have your wisdom teeth out

You try and explain to him that it’s literally a common thing but nope

he still make fun

“Don’t worry, even though your body is failing our relationship isn’t”

Asks the doctors soooo many times how much longer it is going to take

Just because he can’t wait to show you some meme he found or tell you some joke he made

Don’t mistake his teasing though because this boy will wait all day in that hospital for you

Goes to get food while he waits

Forgets to get you something and gets mad at himself for being so wreckless

Flowerssss 3.0

idk I just love the idea of Lucas getting you flowers leave me alone

not like this big bouquet tho, very simple. Like maybe a couple roses

Playfully sings to you while he waits for you to wake up

“My ladyYyYyY”

sorry y’all i had to

“I love you so much it hurts”

“I can’t focus when you’re around”

Mark

Jaehyun 2.0 tbh

makes you listen to this new song he found on SoundCloud (yikess we love him tho)

probably raps to it because we been knew he’s a dork

sings to you if you want him to

big cuddler tbh

worries when they take you back

just doesn’t want to be away from you in general

Likes his space but also whiny when he’s in the mood for some time with you

wow i’m really whipped for him, let’s continue

I don’t really see him buying flowers for you but I think he’d roam the gift shop for a trinket you would like

Runs home to get one of your stuffed animals or something to remind you of home and make you feel comfortable

When they let him see you he gets super excited

“Hey baby, long time no see”

“I’m so in love with you”

Haechan

This mans gonna tease you the wholeeee time

Kinda like Lucas but more like a loving tease

Pinches your cheeks a LOT

“My baby is getting surgery todayy”

Your procedure is like a whole event tbh

Gotta pack a lunch

Some snacks for AFTER lunch

lots of drinks

pillows maybe a blanket

Very extra in general

Also very worried when they take you back

Texts the members about how worried he is

“I just love her so much, I don’t want anything bad to happen to her”

Is super relieved when he gets to see you again

“Hello my angel”

“I think i’m falling in love with you”

[insomnihan]

han’s Entire Thoughts and Feelings on Dreamcatcher’s “Scream”

ITS FUCKING HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE THIS IS ON GOD HAPPENING I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO RELAX I CANNOT LET THIS WAIT ANY LONGER LETS GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there are no read mores here so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ALRIGHT SO-

THE SONG THIS F UCKING SONG WHERE👏DO👏I👏START 👏 I KNEW RIGHT WHEN I WENT ON TO LISTEN TO THE GODDAMN LYRIC SPOILER bc im an impatient little bich THIS WAS GONNA KICK MY SHINS KNEE ME IN THE NOSE AND OWN. ME. i forgot which moot i said this to but i said they should try putting their rock/metal sound with an edm kind of sound anD HERE WE ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT SOUNDS SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! this got my heart racing quick as hell even during the slower parts????????? im sorry to the beginning parts, jiu, and the bridge i cant RELAX™

CRITICISM???????? I DUNNO THAT BI TCH™

(i wont tag every part they have ill just describe some of them lmao)

JIU JIU JIU JIU JIU JIU JIU JIU JIU JIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MISS KIM MINJI YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this, this, THIS AND THIS G O D her voice is just so perfect to start the song to ease you into this BOP™ and then her voice for those pre-chorus parts to ready you ONCE AGAIN for that chorus BUT YET its still hype as hell bc you K N O W what shes leading you into her voice is LIKE FEATHERS AND CLOUDS dont ask

yoohyeon i swear to god- her voice........................... i cannot begin.............. to even describe how nice it is.................... I DUNNO HOW SERIOUSLY like it just has that tone and power where its not very high nor very low and its just.................. lord......... going right after jiu for this it was just so UUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH- pls i CANNOT with these parts and then still being a part of the choruses MA’AM WHY DOES YOUR VOICE JUST HITS THE SPOT HUH-

sua ALSO HAS A VOICE I JUST CANNOT DESCRIBE it just has this like..................... its unique and very alluring???????? i feel like i HAVE TO SAY THIS but her voice is as sexy as she is i- putting her right after jiu and yoohyeon at the beginning HOO and then this after gahyeon and damis fire and then shes also in the CHORUS TOO AND SHE ADDS MORE STRENGTH IN HER VOICE HELLO

SIYEON I HAVE TO SAY THIS AGAIN I WOULD LISTEN TO YOUR VOICE FOREVER IF I COULD her voice is just meant to do this kind of genre i swear to GOD like THIS????????? THIS x2??????????? BICTH THIS?????????????? she just sings so effortlessly and the emotion she puts like YOU CAN FEEL THAT S HIT especially in the bridge YEESH listening now it mellowed me out for like two (2) seconds before i went feral again

PIRI GAHYEON WALKED SO SCREAM GAHYEON COULD SPRINT pls i listened to this part and i was like ‘oH OKAY SING GO AHEAD’ oh no. nononononono NECK PLOT TWIST: SHES A RAPPER AGAIN BICTH THIS RIGHT HERE THATS HOW YOU GIVE WHIPLASH- AND THIS S HIT OOF THAT HIT- her voice is a lot deeper than we think LIKE her range is actually pretty big and we LOVE to hear it

dami..................................... what the f uck- FIRST OF ALL this was Too Much already on first listen and then your rap verse DO YALL HEAR HER PASSION??????? BC I HEAR IT DONT GET ME STARTED ON THIS PART WOO!!!!! LISTEN THAT HAD ME HOPPING AND JUMPING IN MY BED ON GOD- i swear pls stop saying this han come on she has one of the most (if not THE MOST) recognizable voices EVER???????? 

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE DANCE FOR THIS SONG HAS GOT TO BE THE TOUGHEST CHOREO FOR THEM YET IVE SCREAMED ENOUGH ABOUT THE MASKED DANCER HOLDING HANDONGS SPOT UNTIL SHE GETS BACK AND HOW THEY HAVE GODDAMN BACKUP DANCERS LITERALLY THIS DANCE HAS SO MUCH POWER™ AND ITS SO HIGH ENERGY WHO THE FUC K IS DOING IT LIKE THEM

(i will be using the suit dance video for this portion)

JIU BEING LIFTED AT THE BEGINNING

THE CHORUS DANCES ARE YOU KIDDING ME- these parts.......................... oh s hit- and theN THE ENTIRE LAST ONE LIKE THAT ONE HITS AND MAKES YOU ITS BI-

literally both damis and gahyeons ‘devil. eyes. come.’ ESPECIALLY GAHYEONS when everyone is pointing at her (with this 🤘) thats Art™ right there

GAHYEONS RAP PART the usage of masks.................................. the symmetrical movement......................... Art™ part 2

these dances for sua and siyeons parts after the raps................... especially on the floor................ oh no- also i have to say siyeon lands on her knees really hard for that part i hope shes okay

jiu dancing by herself that is all

siyeon being Sexie™ that is all

dami stealing my heart and stomping on it that is all

ending pose with this 🤘 THE ICONIC™ AND LEGENDARY™ JUMPED OUT

THE VISUALS listen....................... LISTEN............................ LISTEN..................... L I S T E N- OKAY like my last two dreamcatcher thoughts and feelings (which if you wanna read: here and here) ill just show the scenes that i really liked (trust me it was REALLY hard to choose i might as well just put the mv again) and how i felt looking at them

............................................................................... oh f UCK-

ma’am whatever this is can you destroy me with it im ready-

OH S HIT

FOR THE WLW

but seriously whoever gave this woman a sword knows what the somnies like and wanna see and yes i too wanna get sliced the fuc k up

every time i see this i make like this songs title name and S C R E A M

i have no crazy special reason as to why i put her here other than i d worded when i saw her

GAHYEON NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this has to be one of the coolest things ive ever seen like on god this is so Pleasing to My Eyes like what the f kcu im like this A LOT

b ru H this part........................ theyre all doing this 🤘 at her.................... waht does it mean................... what doES IT MEAN

UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH BICTH MXCUSE ME WHAT THE FKUC DOES THIS MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ooooooooooooooooooh mmmmmmmyyyyyyYYYYYYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also some bonus gahyeon screenshots its what she deserves after spinning my head 360 degrees <3 (also i didnt notice that both did the sign love this for her)

T H E M

WELL WELL WELL STILL AS BEAUTIFUL AS EVER I SEE- HERE TO TELL ME THAT YOU ALL STILL HOLD THE TITLE OF BEING THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMEN IN THE WORLD LITERALLY WHAT CAN I SAY????????????? I ALREADY BE YELLING HERE THAT THEYRE FRICKIN BEAUTIFUL AND STUNNING AS ALL HELL BUT IMMA KEEP SAYING IT AND YOURE NOT GONNA STOP ME

THE BLACK DANCE OUTFITS........................ THE WHITE DANCE OUTFITS........................... G OD

NO COMPLAINTS LETS MOVE ON:

JIU

her purple hair already hurted me and shes beautiful enough but in this video when she iS LITERALLY THE VERY FIRST MEMBER YOU SEE WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT WHEN YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL- pls i love lace................... her white outfit got chains on it................... and OH BICTH THE BLACK OUTFIT SHOWS HER BACK IM FERAL

SUA

MISS I SWEAR TO GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MUST ADDRESS THE OUTFIT WITH THE SWORD FIRST OKAY MA’AM LOOKING LIKE A WHOLE GODDESS WARRIOR READY TO SLICE BICTHES UP FOR TALKING S HIT LIKE ON SOME ‘YES IM FROM THEMYSCIRA’ VIBES AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON HER BLACK OUTFIT WITH HER BABS (BORA ABS) OUT

SIYEON

can you pls stop being beautiful for one (1) second can yoU PLS- i saw this shot in the mv and i think i fell in l*ve with her......................... as if i wasnt already shes as stunning as ever i cant stand her the black outfit with her long ass high pony tail witH THE GLOVES HELLO and that one look with the flowers or something on her head covering her eye.......... wow..........................

YOOHYEON

GIRL I GET IT YOURE SO PRETTY I UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!!!! this look in this specific photo with this dress and the braid uuuuuuuuuuuhhhhh Ma’am youre a goddess I Am Looking 👁👄👁 her white outfit with the pony tail and those straps around her torso oh god and then her black outfit seems simple until you realize it shows a little of her sides pls stop im a weak man i-

DAMI

HELLO MISS LEE YUBIN I SEE YOU DECIDED TO GO ‘F UCK YALL LIVES’ AND BE HOT™ HUH- tbh not even mad at her yullet (yubin mullet) but shes dami she can work MANY LOOKS™ her black and white scene during her rap like thats a Look™ that attacked me and like yoohyeons black outfit hers looks like nothing special until you realize her sides are also out........... oh no-

GAHYEON

GAHYEON THE WOMAN THAT YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!! this is HER ERA NO I WILL NOT LISTEN YOU CANNOT CHANGE MY MIND- i wasnt expecting her to attack me as much as she did its that GODDAMN pink outfit from the l ver. of the teasers i sHOULDVE KNOWN!!!!!!! her black outfit is like suas does she have gabs (gahyeon abs) OH NO LORD PLS- SHES BIG BEAUTIFUL™!!!!!!!!!!!!

BONUS TIME: B-SIDE TRACKS (short thoughts and parts i liked) had to go and use the color coded lyrics to make sure to not mistake the members and appreciate them fake ass fan i have a hard time telling who is who sometimes pls dont roast me ill do better next time

Intro

OKAY LISTEN- this intro be hitting a little different compared to their last intros maybe its just me but i feel as tho it COULD go just a little harder yknow???? tho ofc im love it still but ANYWAY-

Tension

now this........................ this is beautiful so this was apparently was supposed to be called goodnight????? and changed the lyrics?????? so............... they were hiding this Bop™................ for a few years????? did i read that right?????? LITERALLY A SLAP™ IT IS HEADBANG MATERIAL the fkcuing drums oh pls- THE CHORUS SOMEONE TALK TO ME ITS ADDICTING i............... LOVE jius voice on this song in particular that slower part i dunno why she just got me i- those parts sua and siyeon do before that ‘break the wall’ part i dunno their kinda lower voices theyre making me feel Things™

Red Sun

SOUNDCLOUD RAPPER DAMI RISE-

okay seriously WHAT THE FKCU- IT GRABBED MY NECK DURING THE HIGHLIGHT MEDLEY something about those bells or whatever throughout this song just hurted me so much ‘red sun’ just....................... gets in your brain and im okay with that!!!!!!!!!!! like its true that the beginning part is so intriguing and lowkey hypnotizing WOW and then their voices sound kinda breathy be hitting a little different MISS LEE GAHYEON ON THIS.................. MA’AM-

Black Or White

the guitar the fkycing guitaR CAN WE PLS TALK ABOUT THE GUITAR AND THE BASS FOR A SECOND???????? HELLO??????? THE CRUNCHINESS™ and then dami in the middle (not @ me for thinking she cursed in this song 🤡)  S HU T- AND HELLO JIU SIYEON AND DAMI ALL TOOK PART IN WRITING THESE LYRICS BICTH IM YELLING- THAT BLACK OR WHITE IN THE CHORUS SIYEON SINGS IS STUCK IN MY HEAD HELP ME jk im okay with it being there yoohyeon jiu and gahyeon during those pre-chorus parts......................... good christ............

Jazz Bar

pls stop flirting with me.................................. DAMI ESPECIALLY LISTEN- I HAD TO LOOK UP THE LYRICS WITH THE COLOR CODE TO MAKE SURE MY EARS WERENT MESSING WITH ME LEE YUBIN I WILL FALL IN L*VE WITH YOU S T O P THE F CKUING BRIDGE- dami sitting on a piano during that part................ Thinking™ jiu sua and yoohyeon oh pls they sound so good and pleasant to the ears................. it feels like im in a jazzy cafe during the evening and its raining outside im drinking a latte with a cream heart design inside and im wearing a scarf- ALSO JIU SIYEON YOOHYEON AND DAMI TOOK PART IN WRITING THIS TOO BICTH!!!!!!!!!! dami saying this was one of her favorites Y E A H

SAHARA

HERE WE HAVE THE SONG WE MEMED BEFORE WE GOT IT but like that ‘SA HA RA~ RA RA RA~’ part is SUPER CATCHY siyeon and gahyeon and sua holy damn i- siyeon during the second verse AND HER HIGH NOTE ma’am im love you- also SOUNDCLOUD RAPPER DAMI RISE 2.0 i dunno what it is with dami with her raps being like this but im not even mad????????? i feel like thats an unpopular opinion something about that instrumental that guitar is hitting a part of my heart that i wanna hear it and then those drums it sounds SO COOL

In the Frozen

HERES ANOTHER FKCUING BANGER THAT GRABBED MY NECK AND WOULDNT LET. GO. like i literally fell off my GODDAMN BED HEARING THIS S HIT GOT MY HEART PUMPING AND S HIT its that flower line whatever it is that siyeon yoohyeon and sua do GOOD LORD and then dami???????? miss?????????? THE ENDING PORTION OH LISTEN- WHATEVER IS GOING ON WITH THE INSTRUMENTAL HOLY SH IT AND DAMI SAYING ‘LIMIT NO MORE’ AND ALL IT REALLY DIDNT HAVE TO GO THAT HARD F U C K-

새벽 (Daybreak)

now this is a song that could heal souls- its not super slow like a ballad but it has like a lowkey jazz lo-fi (???) feel to it and their vocals are super gentle and smooth are these angels- i dunno what it is about all these songs and the second verses like this one is good too??????? especially yoohyeon U H i felt that in mY BONES i can definitely see this song as one i would go to when i wanna relax to or even fall asleep to bc its so soothing

Outro

THIS HITS REALLY DIFFERENT AND I LIKE IT I DUNNO WHAT IT IS IT JUST FEELS NICE IN MY EARS

LIKE i was expecting this album to be SUPER INCREDIBLE COME ON ITS DREAMCATCHER YKNOW but i didnt think itd be THIS incredible this group is just so full of surprises and are just the MOST HIDDEN GEMS its unfortunate they really arent very known trying to be a little critical ofc there are SOME things that could be different theres nothing absolutely and truly perfect ever- personally i am IN LOVE with this album theyve topped themselves from their last comeback which like HOLY S HIT however will this be the comeback that will get them their first win? ..................... to be honest its hard to tell i was so hopeful last comeback and yknow stuff happened OFC I DO HOPE AND WISH THEYLL WIN but whats most important (at least to me) is that i enjoy their music and enjoy all the content they give and appreciate their work and their voices

IN CONCLUSION: PLEASE YALL ALWAYS MAKE ME SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and like before i must bring this back:

[gayasinstupidpodcast]

What’s up gamers!!! Our fourth episode plowed through the chaos of thanksgiving holidays and is Here w/ some Facts and Opinions about creating shit and being LGBT and how being LGBT influences creating shit. HEADS UP we recorded this while I had a cold so my voice is probably a little off, but ik Isaac put SO much work into the editing so it would be ready on time and we have recorded statements from some amazing artists (transcriptions under the cut below!) & this is honestly one of my favorite episodes we’ve done so far, so give her a listen if you’re gay or enjoy fun things!

BIG thank you once again to everyone who participated in this month’s episode!! Your contributions are so valued and so beautiful!!

You can find us on the Itunes Podcast App/Webpage at Gay As In Stupid Podcast! You can also find our episodes uploaded to Youtube and Soundcloud!

You can also follow us on twitter at gayasinstupid!

Further Reading on LGBT Artists

Montage of a Queering Deferred: Memory, Ownership, and Archival Silencing in the Rhetorical Biography of Langston Hughes

The Political Provocations of Keith Haring 

Pop art politics: Activism of Keith Haring 

E M Forster’s Gay Fiction

Alok Vaid-Menon Tells Us What It’s Like To Be Femme In Public

Shea Diamond Speaks Her Truth

Aaron’s 2018 November Recs!

Alok Alok Vaid-Menon is one of my favorite poet/activist/performance artists out there! Their writing and stage presence is gorgeous and witty in a way that’s SO clever and still feels like you’re in a room trading jokes you don’t need to explain with your closest trans friends. The way they balance their art creates a real, deeply touching experience that feels very essential to our world.

Miles (2016) Miles is set in 1999 and is a coming of age story about a gay teenager trying to get a volleyball scholarship for college in Chicago. It’s not revolutionary and it’s not over the top dramatic, but it’s funny and honest and it makes me feel nice. Definitely the movie to watch when you’ve just been through something emotionally taxing and need a light crying session and some mediocre pastries.

Isaac’s 2018 November Recs!

The Adventure Zone I know half of you already kin the Mcelroys while the other half either don’t know or don’t care, but the Adventure Zone is one of my most favorite things in the world. It’s a DND podcast (yes, all episodes are transcribed, and they have a graphic novel for the first arc of Balance with a second one on the way!) by three brothers plus their dad, and not only does it have the most amazing story and is ungodly funny, but TONS of gays (Griffin went ape with those Lesbian NPCS)! And just because they can! Same with trans characters. It’s a story where they just exist, and that’s really important to me because in a lot of media LGBT have to almost prove why they deserve to take up space. And it’s not just something that goes on in their first campaign, Amnesty also has those sweet sweet gay! I could talk about this podcast for hours, so if you needed that final push to give it a listen, THIS IS IT!

Stardew Valley You get to farm and be gay. And if THAT hasn’t sold you on this charming video game, then maybe the super cute graphics, beautiful soundtrack and a handful of interesting characters will! TBH I spend so much time playing this game it’s concerning. It’s just such a fun way to relax, and I just really REALLY like video games were I can chose to be gay. Like. God Tier. YOU CAN HAVE CROPS AND CHICKENS AND BE GAY C’MON YALL!!

The Amazing Quotes And Artists Featured!

Meg | instagram | esty

“My identity as a bisexual woman influences my art in many ways. As a woman, i create art about the issues that effect me, such as abortion and gender equality, in order to resonate with the people that matter most to me. As a bisexual individual, my subjects often appear from a gaze that falls outside of the stereotypical eye. My figure drawings and portraits all come from a place of admiration, and don’t fall into the stereotype of the male gaze or womanly care- they are the space inbetween, equally sexualized and normalized. I feel lucky to be a bi gal in the art world because it is a place that is my own to create in. There are so many queer artists that i look up to such as Mapplethorpe and Warhol, and many female artists i can cite as influence (Jenny Holzer, Kiki Smith, and Louise Bourgeois to name a few). My identity gives me a whole new world of content to draw from and allows my work to resonate with a wider audience, and I really think that any artists goal is to reach and touch as many people as possible.“  

Cameron | twitter | instagram 

“I don’t think that it influences the form really, but it definitely influences the subject matter! (Much as I hate to admit it, my identity influences the majority of choices I make in life.) I write a lot of poems about lgbtq related things and religion, as well as other stuff too. I was raised catholic, so realizing that I was “different” at more than one point in my teen years was scary AF. Being a member of the lgbtq+ community and also trying to still feel like I belong, or wanting to, in a religious community is hard, the two things are usually at a crossroads in my life so writing about them makes it easier for me to get through. My hope is that someday someone reads what I wrote and finds some peace in their own life/experience.” 

Vince | art instagram

“Well, being transgender I feel like I’m constantly aware of the lack of representation of my community, and I feel like it might be because of that I tend to experiment with showing all sorts of different type of people in my work. Because there’s so much diversity in the world, why not showcase that?”

Fox | art instagram  

“Oof…I’m gay so my characters always be gay. Gotta Fill the void in media w my own bullshit so I don’t have to rely on straight showrunners who will inevitably discard the character since they themselves seem to have no personal attachment and treat lgbt characters as disposable extras. Bc if I don’t at least attempt to create representation in the field I’m going into then I can’t rlly complain about the lack of it right? If I don’t try and change it I can’t complain about the lack of change so being an lgbt artist is lowkey Big Pressure to be revolutionary in your work but sometime…..I just wanna draw funkey animeal and that’s aight too”

Jen | twitter | instagram

“As a female bisexual poet, I worry often that my poetry and art will be too niche to be appreciated. I’ve spent years editing my poetry down to its barest bones in hopes that someone will relate to it. Changing pronouns back and forth because I worry that if I do talk about a woman, the poem will be stripped of its context and suddenly be about my queerness when in reality it never was. When I write about love and people I have dated and have crushed on, I want the poem to exist outside of the gender of who I love. I fear my authorial death will result in a complete misinterpretation of what I mean. When I write, it truly does not matter to me if I am writing about a woman or a man. If I feel what I write and I can make someone else feel it too does it matter that I also love women? I write what matters to me overall, regardless of gender, I try to make my poetry as true as possible. Sometimes, when I catch myself over editing I try to take myself back to the moment, to the person, what I loved about him or her. “

Lain | art instagram

“My LGBT Identity has significantly impacted almost all of my art, especially my work over the last two years. Ever since I have allowed myself to accept that I am trans and began my transition (6 months on T!), the impact that my Roman Catholic upbringing has had on my bisexual trans identity has bled into my artwork. Because of the way I was raised, accepting and allowing myself to be authentic has been an upward struggle. And what better way to process and document struggle than art?  

Much of my recent work has had a focus on the trans body, particularly the “sanctity” of self-actualization and the god-like power that comes with accepting and creating yourself in the unique and exceptional way that LGBT people must in order to live authentically. Two of my pieces on this topic were actually recently exhibited at UWM in the Trans-lucent exhibition, and will remain there until December 15th (I think). I got sick and tired of never seeing trans representation, so now I am creating that space that I crave in my own work.”

Kobe | instagram | soundcloud

“My art from is very influenced by my LGBT identity. It is very influenced by my LGBT black Identity. I think that whenever an artist makes their art (in my case writing music, singing, dancing) they should incorporate as much of themselves as possible. I think my LGBT identity definitely adds a sense of representation as well. I want people like me to listen to my music to know they aren’t alone. So it influences my work a lot. “

Nat | art instagram

“I think the fact that I am part of the LGBT+ community influences my art directly. Even though I don’t draw as often as I wish, I believe both my drawings and college projects (I am a 3d art/animation student), and my creativity in general is inspired by my personal experiences as a gay woman and common things experienced by the community. I try as often as I can to bring representation of some kind in the things I do, mainly personal projects. I also feel that it influences me on my motivation to keep creating; whenever I listen to, see drawings, watch movies or see whatever form of artistic expression from LGBT+ artists it gives me the energy to keep going, to keep creating.”

[catgirlwarrior]

Do yall know how devastating this whole bot shit is? it’s not just on tumble bumble, it’s on soundcloud too, among other places.

I don’t ask for much. just for like, some people to listen to my stuff that i’ve literally spent years working on. maybe leave a like.

When people ignore that (which, given that it’s very late at night where i am i don’t really mind too much right now) it’s okay. I’m a little disappointed but overall okay. I do, however, get very excited when I see two likes on the first chapter that i did all by myself (no help on the prologue from anyone else) and a brand new follower!

It’s really, really heartbreaking that they were all bots. It’s really, really getting on my nerves that websites can’t get their shit together about stuff like this.

Fuck bots.

[roxvnnes-blog]

"if ashley fragipane gets to go by halsey, I get to go by nxa, end of."

┈ did you read that latest viral gossip issue on ROXANNE BALINGER/ NXA?  she is one of my favorite R&B/NEO-SOUL artists. they’ve been releasing music for TWO YEARS now, but viral gossip has only been talking about them for the last YEAR. get this, i think i heard SHE HAD AN AFFAIR WITH HER PREVIOUS MANAGER. they’re known as the BITTERSWEET of the music industry, since they have a rep for being BOLD but BRUSQUE, but who knows. maybe that will change once they become #1.  ( KAYLA, 21, CST, SHE/HER. )

yo whats up its ur local garbage girl baby kay n this is 97.5 wabd with the test drive at five -- srs tho hey it meme, back at it with a fem muse. im hella excited to play and develop her as well as connect with all yall for her so lets get it on

BACKGROUND:

originally from the cascade heights area of atlanta georgia. her parents were middle class & instilled work ethic into her during her early years

TW FOR DEATH/CAR CRASH  when she was 12 her parents were killed in a car accident and she went to live with her grandma because she was her only known living relative

it got rough bc she had to move across the city to lakewood heights to be with her grandma

a troubled Problem child, like her grandma rlly tried but she couldn’t keep roxanne on a leash at all. she was always getting into trouble at school and getting into fights.

by HS she was rlly an outcast, she always seemed like she was unhappy (which she was??) but she also thought nobody gave a fuck about her (still kinda does??) 

this was when she rlly started taking a liking to music. like, when she had nobody else around, she had her cds/tapes. she felt good when she listened to janet jackson, aaliyah, britney bitch (lily  👀 👀), lauryn hill, eartha kitt, macy gray, and ella fitzgerald like she just?? rlly?? loved??? music??

but she was 17 going on 18 had no skills, barely graduated hs and has like 1 friend probably sooo

strip

while she was dancing she spent her free time writing/creating songs/lyrics

one night @ the club she asked a client if she could sing to him n he let her but he also told her she’d better stick to dancing lmao what a douche

she rlly wanted to be a music star tho because she felt like a lot of her songs were /realistic/ because they were truthful to her n figured ppl could #relate

so she had a small following on her soundcloud and did a little local show where she was discovered by her first manager. she was frank w/ roxanne and told her basically she wasn’t great but she had potential and if she could put in the work they could make her a big name in the industry

to sum it up, she worked day and night (literally, in the day on music in the studio and at night in the strip club) to get her EP out which gained her more traction (titled UR after it’s lead-off track) during this time she had an affair with her manager who was a married woman, but she rlly cared about roxy and roxy cared about her?? they kinda loved each other romantic stylez?? but it was still rlly ugly in the public eye so when she signed to the big label she parted ways w/ her old manager

now she’s living in LA, fortunate enough to be a full time musician with a highly anticipated debut album

PERSONALITY:

extremely humble. she’s never showy or a braggart when it comes to things she does

still very confident tho. both in herself and in her music because she’s worked so hard on it

very tell-it-like-it is. she’s not one to lie for clout or partake in some bullshit just to make money, especially if it involves music.

very much doesnt care if u hate her, like?? she’s like cool? so what if u dont like me??? i’m not doing this for you anyway???

she’s not one to start any beef chicken or pork but if you badmouth her or drop her name then she will definitely know and she’ll definitely tell her honest opinion of u next time she’s asked n it might sound shady but it’s the Truth from her lips

hardly has a sense of commitment in romantic relationships but values friendship highly and would never betray a true friend

pansexual n very open about her sexuality, experiences, and lifestyle

not Mean but she is blunt and doesn’t like to play games w/ ppl eiether. her intention isn’t to hurt someones feelings but she also feels like ppl deserve honesty

believes in love bc her parents were madly in love and highkey she wants to have that for herself some day she just doesn’t rlly know if it’s in her cards right now???

v into the mystical

OTHER:

okay... so she’s actually named after her grandma. her full name is ethel roxanne balinger, but dO NOT call her ethel. literally it’s such a well kept secret that idk if anyone will ever know that’s her real first name??

she even had it legally changed to just ‘roxanne balinger’ after she got signed so u wont even catch her with an ID that reads ‘ethel’ on it.

seriously if u call her ethel bc somehow your character knows, she’ll punch them

i think?? that’s it right now???? this is already long asf??? but hmu if u wanna plot?? i dont have a connections page yet but im getting there lol

[sunnysidewrites]

Soulmate!Taeyang

Requested by anon: Soulmate!au for Taeyang please?? Preferably with the both of you being childhood friends too! Thank you so much!!

hi my little anon this is for you!!! im sorry if its kinda yikes i never like my writing or the product tbh and when i do i feel like it gets overlooked by my other pieces rip @ writers the struggle is rEAL but anyways i hope you enjoyed this!!! also im tearing up on how much notice vigilante!wonwoo is getting thank you guys so so much!!! remember that REQUESTS ARE OPEN READ FAQ AND RULES FIRST SEND THEM INNNN

au where you have a tattoo of what your soulmate is most passionate about

since you were little you had a small cute tattoo on your wrist of a pair of dance tap shoes

but what did you know you were only 4 and only thought “those are pretty shoes!!”

when you entered kindergarten you met fETUS TAEYANG HOW CUTE AWW

“hi i like your tattoo!!!!”

“thanks i’m y/n!!”

“i’m taeyang!!! check out my tattoo my dad said they’re music notes”

he had little musical notes trailing down his forearm and you’re just like wow that’s so beautiful!!

“do you know what these tattoos are for?”

“my dad said it’s what your soulmate is most passionate about (whatever that means LOL),,, so what your soulmate really really likes!!”

how cUTE smol you and tae become little cute friends just like that!!!

even at age 5 tae was so certain and self-assured he loved dancing and singing but not as much as grooving to the beat

on the other hand you were still unsure and wanted to explore a variety of fields

smol 5 year old tae would bust out his moves to you and hE IS JUST TOO!!! ADORABLE IM CRYING

your friendship only strengthened over the years but

alas!!!! you had to separate in middle school darn young love :((

your parents’ jobs made them relocate to another city

but ofc you and tae were determined to continue communicating!!! so you exchanged home phone numbers

y'all are so cute you would talk on the phone for hours but then,,,,

they got more and more infrequent, as he was trying to make a name out of himself by joining dance competitions and basically he got the ball rolling for his career starting at that point

you were lonely and missed talking to your best friend :(((

you were always so jealous of tae’s determination you were just,,, a wandering lost soul

in these dark times you turned to music and found major relief and comfort in soothing calm ballads and upbeat pumping beats

you got interested in music very quickly and decided to take up some music classes

you eventually learned how to play the piano and guitar, which led you to making cOVERS!!!!

you were enjoying it but you felt like there was still something missing

you took music theory and practically fell in love

in fact it pushed you to really analyze music and produce your own

the only job you were able to do was babysit your niece every weekend but at least your aunt was generous about the pay!!!

it still took you f o r ev er to save up for proper equipment but you were able to have a decent system going on

you locked yourself up in your room for who knows how long every single day to familiarize yourself with the new technology and play around with different instruments on the editor

it came to you so naturally that it only took you a week to produce something pretty decent for a rookie

and even in the midst of all of this you constantly think about tae and it influences your work and you practically make songs about him

you wanted to share it for people to hear so you opened up a soundcloud and youtube channel and posted on both

views were steady but a little low in the beginning but a few months in your little producing career it sKYROCKETED

everyone started to listen to your sick beats and mixes you were a dj bUT ALSO WITH THE BEST SINGING VOICE EVER WHAT A DOUBLE THREAT!!!

you became a viral sensation (sensational feeling lMAO ok bye)

at this time you were well into high school probably around your senior year and we all know how senior year can get hectic especially at the beginning

you decided to put your mixing on hiatus to focus on college apps and your classes for the time being

it was a few months in the school year around november when one day the school was buzzing with a little more energy than usual

you asked your friend “what’s the deal with everyone today????”

“uM have you not been paying attention?? there’s a new transfer kid and hE IS THE MOST MAJESTIC THING EVER”

and she goes on and on about his good looks and what a gentleman he is

you’re thinking guys like those are practically nonexistent i’ll have to see it to believe it

you just shrugged it off and walked to your homeroom

and there, folks, is when you couldn’t believe it bUT NOT FOR THE REASONS YOUR FRIEND SAID

“class we have a new student please introduce yourself!!”

“:D i’m blind by tHE ACTUAL SUN hi everyone!!! i’m taeyang i just moved here a few days ago!!”

he catches your eye and yALL JUST DO A DOUBLE TAKE BC

1. YOUR BEST FRIEND GLOED TF UP

2. YOUR BEST FRIEND IS HERE

tae is actually fangirling on the inside and he shines even brighter and actually blinds the entire school

“please have a seat next to the empty desk next to y/n. y/n can you show him around today?”

hAHAHA NERVOUS LAUGHTER “sure,,,, i,,, will be,,, showing taeyang my childhood best friend,,,, around,,, no biggie,,,”

when your homeroom teacher gives you homework time to do you both frantically turn to each other and loudly whisper

“wHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE”

“I JUST MOVED HERE ON SATURDAY”

“yoU DIDN’T TELL ME OR GIVE ME A HEADS UP????”

“i’m sorry!!! things have been so crazy with competitions,,, :(((“ pls doNT LET MY SUN BE SAD

you can’t help but forgive him bc you know better than anyone else how important his career is to him, especially when it comes to dancing

you just brush it off and ask to see his schedule

you guys have a few classes together and plan to meet up at lunch so you can give a proper tour

it’s just like old times and you’re suddenly so nostalgic that you get slightly emotional

you just missed talking to him so much it’s been years since you picked up the phone and had a conversation with him

little did you know, he feels the exact same way

the way your arms brush across each other makes him go just a little crazy

it takes literally no time for him to get adjusted like by the end of the week he’s already got his own crew and is involved in a few clubs

ofc he is one of the officers in the dance club

he’s drastically improved his dancing skills to the point where he can singlehandedly make his own choreo

let’s just say it gets LIT AT RALLIES unlike my school smh

dance club meets pretty often, as the students wanna perfect every single dance they do

so basically multiply taeyang by 15

they’re amazing for a reason

you wanted to walk home with taeyang one day and stopped by one of their practices near closing time

as you near the door you hear some reaaaally familiar music

“hEY WAIT THATS MY SONG OMG!!!”

you watch through the classroom window and the dance team is busting out them moves

but all your eyes see is taeyang, front and center

not only does he look cool and charismatic but he looks happy doing what he loves

you clutch your backpack strap tighter and internally squeal legit your best friend is so hot rn

when’s he not tho??? anyway

when they finish the dance you hear him say “god this person who remixes these is so cool i love their works i would love to meet them”

and then he takes notice of you and dOES THIS CUTE AF LITTLE WAVE IM WEAK

one day at lunch he tells you about an upcoming competition he’s about to compete in

he actually got in the final round so he’s like

“!!!!!! if my team wins we win a scholarship!!!!!”

and you’re both freaking out and ofc you’re gonna go to support him

competition day rolls around soon and you’re in the bleachers overseeing everyone

you admit everyone is majorly talented but you know tae’s team has it in the bag if it has tae in it let’s be real here

when his team finally gets introduced they get into position

AND YOU CAN’T BELIEVE IT BUT YOUR SONG IS PLAYING AGAIN!!!

it’s blasting in the speakers for everyone to listen to and you’re so emotional rn

tae executes his dance as flawlessly as ever and you’re so proud of knowing someone like him

and that’s when you realize

everything you know about tae and his dancing

from the way he pulls all nighters for a new choreo to how much he glows when he’s out on the floor

you lift up your sleeve and stare at the shoes

“oh my god” you whisper

the results come in and ofc hE WINS YESSSS

tae’s team is asked to do a quick thank you speech and when it’s tae’s turn to speak you’re anticipating on what he’s going to say

“thank you to all my friends and family, esp my parents who have been supporting me the entire way!!! and of course my best friend who came all the way to watch me today i love you!!! :DDDDDD”

HES RADIATING SO MUCH HAPPINESS THE ACTUAL SUN

BUT YOU ARE A VERY CLOSE SECOND BC ALL YOU HEARD WERE THOSE LAST THREE WORDS

you know tae to be very touchy and affectionate

but that was actually the very first time he’s ever said that to you, whether it be platonically or romantically

and you hadn’t realized that you wanted it to be the latter until that moment

you’re in love with your best friend

as the crowd files out you step down the bleachers and sprint to him

he’s carrying the trophy in his right hand but when he sees you advancing towards him he quickly shoves it to the person closest to him LOL

AND HE OPENS HIS ARMS FOR YOU AWWW OFNNFHFJNFN

you embrace in a tight tight lung crushing hug

“i love you too soulmate”

and he’s like wAIT A MINUTE

and he pulls back to look at you

“ok we’re gonna get back to what you said bUT SOULMATE???? MUSIC????”

“i kinda produced the song you just danced to??? surprise!!!!!”

and he’s just wHAT THE ACTUAL

“you’re – you’re actually – how – when-”

you just giggle at how dumbfounded he is

and you take his face in both hands and plant a kiss on him AW SCUTE SCUTE

his hands tighten around your waist and you’re both smiling so much on each other’s lips

THAT IS THE BIRTH OF THE CUTEST GREASIEST RELATIONSHIP WHAT A COUPLE

[fratboykaradanvers]

another tag and this time from @canitellusmthin​

Last Drink: strawberry lemonade

Last Phone Call: some stupid telemarketer scam shits 

Last Text Message: "I mean my house would be fine. Decision is up to you and how you feel about it at your house.”

Last Song You Listened To: I Want You - Robotaki & Manila Killa

Last Time I Cried: today bc of that last scene in the crossover :’( 

HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated Someone Twice: yesss. so many times in high school and my first girlfriend. ya know, you’d think I’d learn after the first time went so awful right? lol

Been Cheated On: not that i’m aware of 

Kissed Someone and Regretted It: hasn’t everyone? D: 

Lost Someone Special: I think excluding deaths of family members or deaths of those close to me, anyone I’ve lost has always been for the better, regardless of whether or not they were special to me.

Been Depressed: I can’t call it depressed? I think describing it as devastatingly sad would be better because it wasn’t depression. 

Been Drunk and Thrown Up: Lmaooo just yesterday...happens all the time 

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

Made a New Friend: yes so many through the SC fandom honestly

Fallen Out of Love: yes unfortunately. it happens. 

Laughed Until You Cried: anytime i’m with my friends honestly. or with my girlfriend haha

Met Someone Who Changed You: yes

Found Out Who Your True Friends Were: every year it’s a process lol

Found Out Someone Was Talking About You: lmao all the time at my old job. who gives a fuck though because the same people who did talk shit are still at the same shitty job while i’ve moved onto better. so whatever 

GENERAL:

How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: i know... @stennnn06​, @xactodreams​, @falloutb​, @sleepingontheway​, & @ppparkerrr​...so 5 people? we all met at that Heroes for Heroes event that Katie was at :D

Do you have any pets?: a scaredy cat hamster named Marshmello.

Do you want to change your name?: nah mine is extra like me so 

What time did you wake up this morning?: I woke up at 6:07 to throw up... lol

What were you doing last night?: I was at a show in DTLA

Name something you cannot wait for: to get my arm tattoo!

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: lmfao nah. for a really generic name, i’ve never met a person named tom.

What’s getting on your nerves rn?: so many things. 

Blood type: Type O. Universal blood donor yall my blood saves lives ;)

Nickname: Eli, Leesh, uhh yeah 

Relationship status: happily taken

Zodiac sign: virgo

Pronouns: She/her

Favorite tv show: the good place as of now

College: some college? still trying to get that bachelors. 

Hair colour: naturally it’s all black. but right now it’s brown/light brown

Long or short: long because i look ugly with short hair

Do you have a crush on someone: a big lesbian crush on katie mcgrath lol

What do you like about yourself: i’m chill, funny, and i’ll always have your back. 

FIRSTS:

First surgery: never had surgery. 

First piercing: besides my ears, my cartilage. 

First best friend: georgina. lol we aren’t friends anymore. 

First sport you joined: basketball!

First vacation: a long drive to canada with my family when i was like 7

First pair of sneakers: probably some pair from payless or whatever 

Eating: I had souplantation earlier with my best friend

CURRENTLY:

Drinking: I had a strawberry lemonade

I’m about to: watch the punisher on netflix

Listening to: a song playing on soundcloud

Want kids: not right now! hell fucking no lmfao 

Get married: in a couple of years 

Career: i’m a nurse

WHICH IS BETTER:

Lips or eyes: eyes are the window to the soul no? lmfao jk

Hugs or kisses: kisses

Shorter or taller: taller

Older or younger: older

Romantic or spontaneous: romantic

Sensitive or loud: sensitive

Hook up or relationship: relationship 

Troublemaker or hesitant: in between

HAVE YOU EVER:

Kissed a stranger: yes

Drank hard liquor: jameson irish whiskey last night

Lost glasses/contacts: yes so annoying

Sex on first date: ... it’s happened lol

Broken someone’s heart: young me was awful

Been arrested: no

Turned someone down: yes haha

Fallen for a friend: had a crush but didn’t really fall. i caught myself beforehand tho lol

DO YOU BELIEVE:

In yourself: i think i can accomplish a lot when i put my mind into it.

Love at first sight: maybe 

Heaven: you mean the good place? 

Santa Claus: hah no but i pretend for little kids when they ask me about him

I’m tagging @project-alice in this to make it equal lmao 

[unextordinary-blog]

my music & my phone

so recently i have gotten a new phone. I was an avid user of iphones but i was having so many problems and was totally over it; my husband is a huge tech guy (he worked at best buy when we were in high school and now hes an airman electrical technician for the U.S. military so....) anyways he loves android always has, he explains that if you want an easy phone that will probably never change its format then go iphone but if you want to die for features always ahead of its time then go android. you will obviously have to learn an entirely new phone but honestly it takes a few days and you got the hang of it.

so i switched over to an android when it came to switching my phone to his plan, don't get me wrong i was on the cusp of getting the iphone 6 plus just because i had already used it and liked the aesthetic of it all and all my music was on it and all my stuff essentially was on my iphone. well then i saw galaxy S8 Active and it was all over from there the phone doesn't even need a case yall it is its own case it has reinforced gorilla glass and practically cement as its backing and its not any heavier then your full glass iphone 7 plus ( i am an especially clumsy person and when they said shatterproof, water resistant, no case, no screen protector i immediately signed up for an android). ANYWAYS THIS WAS NOT ORIGINALLY ABOUT PHONES IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ABOUT MUSIC.

i ALWAYS used apple music i saw no point in using spotify when all my music was accessible on my phone, i didn't have a soundcloud, i didn't use youtube for music. so when i switched phones i looked to my husband and was like what do yall use for music on these things? and at the time i should have downloaded all the music i loved on my iphone and made a playlist on spotify before i cancelled my apple music subscription but dummy me didn't ever get around to it and was like i don't listen to as much music anymore so i don't need it. no here i am not knowing what to do without my music and having to listen to my husbands array of country and weird 2017 pop and r&b not that his music taste is bad i like what he listens to but he DOES NOT like what i listen to. sooooo i am trying to find a middle ground here. someone help me find good music

[ellesinsight-blog]

reputation: taylor swift

a review from a passive taylor swift fan with limited knowledge of good music production 

...ready for it?  grew on me!! the drop still feels like a bop killer BUT its still a vibe

end game i honestly love this song BAR the ‘big reputation AHH’ i get war flashbacks to thug story. also future and ed?? kinda genius ! still no lyrics GET ME however, ed’s verse was BRILL man flowed 

i did something bad did anyone else get halsey vibes in the beginning?? ‘every lie i tell them, they tell me three’ pre-chorus got me!! i’m aware taylor is a grown ass woman but her saying shit gets me HOOKED. gun shots in chorus!! also.. the ratatata reminds me of that vine and the ting goes skrraa

don’t blame me don’t come into my house and say this isn’t the biggest hozier inspo?? like the chorus is take me to church. but i’m into it still?? sorta cliche but it’s pop music

delicate ‘my reputations never been worse, so he must like me for me’ LYRICS. also this song has the ridiculous details i love from taylor! that’s what puts her against regular pop songwriters. also, the synth in this song... Yes

look what you made me do  lazy writing but has slowly became a bop??? idk.. jacksfilms did it better

so it goes listening back to this album for the third time.. i still can’t tell u how this song goes. it has middle track syndrome. getting lana vibes from chorus? LOVE THE COUNTING BIT

gorgeous  i thought the chorus was ‘curious’ this whole time and now i’m pissed each time i listen to it. it’s a pop anthem that’s what imma say folks! it isn’t lyrical genius BUT it goessss

getaway car YO THIS SONG! 1989??? actual brilliance. this song!! ‘and a circus ain't a love story’ i see u . ALSO!! the ‘GO GO GO’ bit?? passion from our gal. but... the ‘we’re both sorry’ reminds me of sandcastles in the sand by Miss Robin Sparkles. the continuous metaphor is what i expect from taylor. honestly, excellent

king of my heart i honestly didn’t like this song when i first listened?? but now it has grown on me so much? the guitar strums in the chorus! the chorus in general? i can see this being a radio bop 

dancing with our hearts tied probs my least fav?? ‘oh 25 years old, how were you to know?” BUT i love how she sings that! it’s just the beat reminds me of 2005 club house mixed with every soundcloud dj ever. 

dress YALL ALREADY KNOW!!! i love this song. ‘secret moments. in a crowded room.’ is sang the exact way as ‘in a straight line down’ in iwyw ? what does this mean? the pre-chorus flow! the breathy ahaHAHHHH is brilliant! ‘only bought this dress so you could take it off’ girl just turned the corniest pickup line into lyrical genius.. also... the SILENCE in the 3rd chorus

this is why we can’t have nice things GIRL SANG THIS LIKE A SCHOOL YARD SONG!! SHE WAS SO CONDESCENDING!! Truly Excellent. so much words in the verses! her break of character has made excellent improv for car listening

call it what you want i love this song. like that’s all i can say. ‘ my castle crumbled overnight’ NEW ROMANTICS REFERENCE? ‘i brought a knife to a gun fight’ LYRICS! love the beat to this. ‘my baby’s fly like a jetstream’ .. this reminds me of tessa brooks’ verse in everyday bro i can’t give u a reason why. ‘he bought a fire just to keep me warm’ I LOVE THIS SONG HAVE I MENTIONED THIS? 

new year’s day PIANO HOLY SHIT also minuscule details?? taylor’s story telling SHINES through in this song, this is Red level. brilliant end to the album, it sets her next album up brilliantly! GUITAR TOO? ‘hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you’ INTERTWINED WITH ‘please don’t ever become a stranger, who’s laugh i could recognize anywhere’ had me gone

overall: red > 1989 > sparks fly = fearless > reputation > self-titled

i enjoyed the album! it didn’t have the level of intricate lyrics i love from taylor which was sorta disappointing. but i LOVED some of the songs from this album 

esp: dress, getaway car, ciwyw, i did something bad, ed’s verse in endgame 

[baddieg6d]

XXXTENTACION SONGS

aye, wassup! on jahsehs periscope he said we needa stop shitting on the new fans n put em on his other music so for all the new fans of x, welcome! heres a list of some of my favourite songs by x that are good, other than look at me 😤😊 im tryna help his songs get out there. share this to your friends!! — YOU CAN FIND THESE ON HIS SOUNDCLOUD  

1. R.I.P ROACH 

2. vice city 

3. I dont wanna do this anymore 

4. ILOVEITWHENTHEYRUN 

5. Never — A/N this shit is so fuckin soothing 

 6. Teeth (interlude) 

7. #ImSippinTeaInYoHood 

8. LETS PRETEND WERE NUMB 

9. BUY GARETTS CLOTHES OR ILL FUCKING KILL YOU 

10. Bodies 

11. RIOT 

12. Elephant In The Room 

13. RUN UP ON ME (SNIPPET) 

14. I spoke to the devil in miami, he said everything would be fine 

15. IGOTPLENTYDICKSTOSHARE (SNIPPET) 

16. IWATCHEDHIMDROWN — this song is on skis soundcloud 

 17. Catch 

18. White Girl 

19. I LUv My CLiQuE LiKe KaNyE 

20. MANIKIN 

21. YuNg BrAtz 

 BONUS 🖤 

22. a helping hand, not a song. — some words from x if you need a lil help 🥀 

yall welcome have a good fuckin time listening to these bops (@xxxtentacion)