#yall have made some INCREDIBLE additions to this post

[skyrislunaflower]

I Analyze Their Characters (again)

If yall don't know, the new AvI ep just came out.

It's probably an understatement to say that...it was a lot.

SPOILERS

At the beginning of the month, when Vlog Through Minecraft had just gotten uploaded, I had made an analysis on it. And sadly, I think I was right in some aspects (and was wrong in a lot more, but was kind of correct in some, most notable the fact that Green's been hanging out w/ Blue the most, which he himself confirmed in a comment) Here it is.

That analysis focused on the order in which the CG walk away in a specific scene. Whereas this one will focus on the order in which they walk away in the prank.

Okay, context.

They've just been dumped in lava.

TSC has just tried to tug the phone away from Green, and fails. Blue (the ONLY one who's been in lava before, I must add) is treating his foot with a water bucket. Yellow appears to be HYPERVENTILATING, and Red's trying to comfort him.

Green is shrugging.

But then, Second stalks off first. This is already different than Vlog Through Minecraft, as Red walked off first in that one. However, Red in this case is more worried about Yellow, and Second is mad. (and he's the main character, so it makes sense for him to walk off first in this scenario)(additional note: he shoved Green before doing so).

But Blue walks off second (no pun intended).

And this surprises me, though I understand it. Blue is always the passive, calm, and chill one. Yes, he has spontaneous bursts of energy and excitement, but that's a trait shared by ALL of them. However, in this scenario, he kind of looks at Green, as if he's been betrayed, and walks off as well. And it's more of a storm than a walk, as you can see him slouched over and stalking. (in Vlog Through Minecraft, Blue walked off last, showing that he'd be the most open to Green's ideas, again confirmed in one of the posts on the QnA)

Yellow walks off third. Yellow walked off third in Vlog Through Minecraft as well, but this time he seems incredibly traumatized and is probably following Blue's lead.

And Red walks off last. As Red is comforting Yellow, it's a valid generalization to make that he would follow Yellow when he left.

However, he's been pranked before. There was even a scene before it where it was shown that Red at least had some suspicion that it was a prank all along. And I think he walked off last because he was shocked.

He pranked Green with cake - Green retaliated with lava.

And why did Green use lava? He's been invigorated by the idea of YouTube, and has been changing his friends to sate his fans. He must have thought lava was a normal prank to play after he got slammed into the ground by a large chunk of Minecraft blocks and laughed at (in Note Block Concert). I genuinely feel bad for him for that, and I hope their friendship can be repaired through this - what can I even call it? Miscommunication? Misunderstanding? Idk.

[chimera-crew]

HAPPY MARCH CAPRICE YALL! i actually drew something for this a while ago! i miiiight try to post more art consistently or post about my OCs or something? especially given that i do have something in the works, but for now, enjoy sora!

i had the idea of this being sora returning to the secret place after KH3 and adding in all sorts of additions from the new adventures he had, and especially the new friends he made! this was my first time making such a fancy background by hand instead of using some photo editing magic, and it may not be much, but i'm incredibly proud of how it came out!

(see if you can figure out who and what all the drawings are if you want! i had so much fun adding in everything >:3)

[sparring-spirals]

Narratively? Very poetic that the Mighty Nein are surrounding and needling this monstrosity with reminders of humanity and someone they love and callbacks to a relationship that so strongly defined them, and its working.

Mechanically? Very funny that surrounding this eldritch being and whispering choice phrases is actively working to battle it. Like a bunch of middle school teens waging psychological warfare. No one is immune to The Mean And Pointed Whispering. Even wanna-be tentacle eyeball gods.

[swimmingleo]

Only Angel in the Sky: She is screaming

Consider this an addition to this analysis, which is basically about observing Harry's expression of gender through the Pink Floyd lense (more precisely The Dark Side of the Moon).

Of all the songs I've used in this past analysis, there is one I skipped for reasons we don't understand, especially since it really ties up the whole thing together, and this song is The Great Gig in the Sky.

What if a woman screaming was Harry's headcanon voice for She, basically.

Quick history behind The Great Gig In the Sky (TGGITS):

The first version of the song was only the piano melody and was named "The Mortality Song", also called " The Religion song". When the finale version made it to the album, it was commonly interpretated as being about death, or at least a spiritual one.

Death after a repetitive and boring life, or a life not lived to its fullest, where time and self discovery were lacking.

When it comes to the sound of the piano, TGGITS reminds me an awful lot of the repetitive three notes that you hear in both SOTT and Only Angel, all songs that ''sound like heaven'', and that could be linked together through that piano melody. Absolute thanks to @laurelier and this incredible post for pointing out the importance of this recurrent sound in some of Harry's songs. and whose analysis fueled in depth this post <3

QUICK "LyRiCs" ANALYSIS

The Great Gig in the Sky opens, in the exact same fashion as Only Angel, with bribes of speech about death.

And I am not frightened of dying

Any time will do, I don't mind

Why should I be frightened of dying?

There's no reason for it, you've gotta go sometime, The Great Gig in the Sky

I saw this angel

I really saw an angel, Only Angel

Both speakers welcome death, or at the very least, don't run away from it. There is no fear of the unknown. Yet, right after those peaceful disclaimers, both songs suddenly take another turn and break in literal screams. it's a bit awkward cuz I can't really demonstrate it on text, yall have to listen i'm sorry but basically OA goes hEY HEYYYY and TGGITS goes oooHoooHOOROOAAAAAAA

What's interesting is that later in OA, you can hear Harry sings in the background about death again, on a loop:

Wanna die, wanna die, wanna die tonight

While legend has it that this is what you can hear later in TGGITS:

If you can hear this whispering you are dying

I point it out not only because it's another nail in the death coffin, but also because those two excerpts are not exactly supposed to be "in your face". You can hear Harry pretty well, but the words are kind of mumbled, lost among random adlibs and not on the same "volume level" than the main singing track. I remember not getting it the first time I listened to the song. and then i looked up the lyrics and was like omg harry what no stop cuz yeah 2017 was when i started acknowledging gayrry so it was a lot of pain to register

Aaaand when it comes to TGGITS's absolutely terrifying one liner, I still can't hear it guess it's a good thing. Apparently, it's around 3:30. Does it also remind me of the little reversed audio easter egg in She ? Ya.

Anyway death is rampant and the speaker is descending (or ascending ?) towards it.

BUT DON'T WORRY IT'S ABOUT GENDER

Ever since I've been obsessing over the parallels between Harry's work and Pink Floyd, The Great Gig in the Sky has been on my mind.

Through that lense, I see it as a raw form of expression, the same way I interprete Only Angel as being the most violent and loud way Harry found to express his struggles regarding... she.

The absolute unhinged vocals of Clare Torry in TGGITS hold the meaning of the world (ooh the dramatics). Is it despair, is it anger, is it demented bliss ? Just like I could never quite put the finger on why the screams in Only Angel were so powerful to me. They seem deliberately placed, one in particular: higher in pitch than all the others and coming right up after the ominous "wanna die tonight". As if she took over for a second.

To be fair, I don't have much to say on this, as it's more of an addition to the She post. However, I do eye the heavy use of the death imagery after reading the birth of Harry post by @ialwaysknewyouwerepunk (which you must go read now also and who triggered as well another round of 'me obsessing over gender in music'' ijtrqhjeut).

She was restricted, hidden, unreachable. She wants to break free. But for one to be reborn one must die first. So yeah, a spiritual little death and a powerful catharsis, and maybe then Harry wil get to thinking of her.

HOWEVER I don't see it as ''old Harry dying and being born again as his true self'', which is a bit of a leap to say about the trans experience. More like ''Harry getting rid of whatever kept him from exploring his angel''. In Only Angel, the bedroom door for example. In She, the speaker's whole established routine.

Harry is someone drawn to spiritual beliefs. Pink Floyd's metaphor of death, placed in the middle of the album, might resonate with his vision. Death isn't a conclusion or the end of the line: it's another step in the life process. And if it takes the form of a woman screaming her lungs out and gradually softening towards the end of the song, when the ''process'' is coming to a term, then I could see the big inspiration behind it.

Not gonna lie with this one it's really all about the vibes lmao because really it's 70% screaming.

[blueburds]

Companion: Altrethir Valran - a continuation

First off i’m so glad yall have enjoyed that follower meme <3 second, i saw a few that had bonus details such as companion gifts and a character bio! figured that’d be fun to do for Altrethir. ALSO i included some random dialogue that i thought might be fun. implications of a random questline i made up are present throughout the dialogue.

original post is here. this will be an addition to that! i’ll be writing this as though he’s an Onslaught companion for a Republic character.

NAME: Altrethir (full: Lord Altrethir Valran) GENDER: Male SPECIES: Twi’lek AGE: 36 OCCUPATION: Inquisitor (Force-user) AFFILIATION: The Galactic Republic LIKES: Luxury, justice, learning of ancient artifacts. DISLIKES: Recklessness, close-mindedness, cold weather. GIFTS: Luxury(Love), Cultural(Favorite), Delicacies(Favorite), Weapon(Like), Imperial (Like).

BIO: Since his late teenage years, Altrethir possessed a strong connection to the Force. He was recruited to the Korriban Academy and trained to become a Lord of the Sith. Altrethir wholly trusted in the Force; he always had faith in its guidance. And when the Force wanted to go down a different path, he listened.

The Sith Empire’s ideals didn’t align with his own whereas the Republic would have fought for them. He defected and began to seek balance in the Force. Not Jedi, nor Sith any longer, Altrethir simply adopted the title of “Inquisitor” to suit him.

DIALOGUE CONVERSATIONS:

(First meeting)

Altrethir: “Greetings, Commander. I have heard... phenomenal things concerning your work. It is an honor to meet you in-person.”

Good to meet you, too. -- “’Phenomenal’ is certainly a way of putting it. I trust we’ll work well together.”

Altrethir: “As do I. With pleasantries aside, let us brief you on the mission.”

[Flirt] The pleasure is mine. -- “I’d love to hear exactly what you’ve heard about me. But, I think I’d also love to hear more about you.”

Altrethir: “Of course--but perhaps once the issue at hand has been settled.”

You’re Imperial? -- (Force-users): “You’re Sith--I can sense the darkness of your aura.”    (Non-Force-users): “The Republic’s relying on defectors now? I don’t know if I can trust you.”

Altrethir: (To Force-users): “I have harnessed control of the Dark Side; never again shall it back me into a corner.”     (To non-Force-users): “The Republic fights for freedom and justice. I want nothing more than that for my people.”

(Post-mission conversation dialogue)

Altrethir: “Reports say that the Empire’s swollen pride has taken a hard blow.” “You’ve done incredibly well--better than I could have anticipated. I never had my doubts.”

It was a hard-won victory. -- “Many innocent lives were lost. The choice was a difficult one, and not one I made lightly.”

Altrethir: “I do not blame you. Civilian casualties are inevitable in war, but minimalizing them should be a priority.”

[Flirt] It was better in-person. -- “You should’ve been there. I would have loved to see you in action.”

Altrethir: “I am a man of many talents. In this particular scenario, my non-combatant skills were needed elsewhere.”

They had it coming. -- (Republic class PC’s) “I’ve fought the Empire for years. It always feels good to hit them where it hurts most.”     (Imperial class PC’s) “No one knows what it takes to wound the Empire more than I do. I hit them where it hurt most.”

Altrethir: “We mustn’t gloss over the amount of civilian damage caused by our mission. Imperial or Republic, civilians should never be caught in the cross-fire of military operations.”

(New mission dialogue)

Altrethir: “Commander.” “An opportunity to send a message to the Empire’s allies has arisen.” “Members of the Hutt Cartel have shifted their allegiance, abandoning their former Republic allies in favor of the Empire.” “Imperial-loyal Hutts have taken members who are still loyal to the Republic hostage. By launching a rescue mission, we will succeed in showing our allies that we don’t abandon our own, nor do we tolerate vicious threats the Empire makes.”

Let’s go. -- “The Hutts are powerful allies and none we can afford to lose. Where do we go from here?”

Altrethir: “Nar Shaddaa. A place you could’ve guessed yourself, hm?”

You don’t like Hutts? -- “Given what you’ve told me about your past, I don’t see you willingly putting yourself at risk to save Hutts.”

Altrethir: “This is a matter of saving useful allies of the Republic. Not about my own personal distaste.”

Leave them to rot. -- “Hutt business always goes sour. We wouldn’t lose much by letting them go.”

Altrethir: “If my calculations proved that to be the case, then I would never have brought this matter to your attention. But the Republic needs these Hutts.”

(continued) Altrethir: “I shall be joining you on this mission. I’ll present you with more details during the ride there.”

(First time on Odessen)

Altrethir: “Such a marvelous world; the Force is in balance.” “While its aura is not fiery like that of Korriban, nor is it soothing like Tython, it feels... neutral. I am content.”

Ideal for the Alliance. -- “The Eternal Alliance is made up of people from all sorts of backgrounds. Jedi, Sith, some in between--such as the defected Knights of Zakuul. Odessen’s neutrality probably helped everyone feel safer.”

Altrethir: “Indeed. The subject piques my interest. Perhaps I should do some independent research on the matter later.”

[Flirt] You want a tour? -- “The base is pretty big, but the wilds are where the real beauty and charm lie. I should show you around.”

Altrethir: “And I would not object. Your company has been ever pleasant.”

I don’t care. -- “There’s got to be something better on your mind than that.”

Altrethir: “Matters concerning the Force are always something worth thinking critically about.”

(continued) Altrethir: “I am inclined to speak to the leader of your Force Enclave: The Voss Mystic, Sana-Rae.” “If there is nothing else for now, Commander, I shall be heading on my way.”

Go ahead -- “I’ll see you around. You know the way?”

Altrethir: “I do. Farewell for now, Commander.”

[Flirt] I’d rather show you around. -- “My offer for a tour’s still open, Altrethir. You sure you don’t want just a quick look around?”

Altrethir: “Since you are quite insistent, it would be rude of me to decline. Shall I meet with you somewhere after I’ve concluded my business?”

PC: "My personal landing zone will do just fine.”

Altrethir: “Then I shall be no longer than twenty minutes.” “I will see you then.”

(Continued scene, prompted from flirting)

Altrethir: “You were right; the wilds are utterly gorgeous. While perhaps a bit warmer in temperature, I daresay they remind me of Alderaan.”

PC: “Have you been to many worlds?”

Altrethir: “I have, yes. Once my old Sith Master granted me the freedom to travel where I pleased, I abused that power.” “After being chained and enslaved for the first twenty or so years of my life, I wanted to see everything the Galaxy had to offer.”

You weren’t only a slave to the Hutts. -- “Knowing the Sith hierarchy, you traded one master for another.”

Altrethir: “I do not disagree. Still, Lord Sen’tulo--my late Sith Master--granted me a level of freedom I’d never experienced before. I was grateful for that much.”

You fought for the wrong side. -- “The Empire openly oppresses people--aliens especially. Why waste so much time with them? Why didn’t you defect sooner?”

Altrethir: “I wanted to prove that success could be achieved no matter one’s species. By becoming a Lord of the Sith, I spat in the face of those who tried to drag me down throughout my endeavor.”

Sith Master? -- “You haven’t mentioned this Master before. What were they like?”

Altrethir: “Lord Sen’tulo was an honorable woman. Rational, level-headed, logical. Stern, but held compassion. She broke several Sith stereotypes. Perhaps that was what lead to her ultimate downfall.”

(continued) Altrethir: “Freedom is important to me. I cannot bear to see innocent individuals shackled as slaves.” “I know what that cruel life is like first-hand. Initially, I sought to use my position of power in the Empire to find an end to slavery. My desire clouded my judgement.” “The only way to end the practice was to fight against it. Thus, I defected.”

A noble cause. -- “I can tell how important your ideals are to you. You did the right thing.”

Altrethir: “Who determines what is right or what is wrong is irrelevant. But--I understand your meaning. I did what I believe was right.”

Position of power? -- “Just how powerful of a Sith were you before turning to the Republic?”

Altrethir: “A Darth, but not on the Dark Council. I nearly reached the position when I had my revelation.”

The Republic’s wary. -- “The Sith are ancient enemies of the Republic and the Jedi. Do they wholly trust you?”

Altrethir: “I would imagine there are many who don’t. But the team I work with does--they are all I need to prove my loyalty.”

(continued) Altrethir: “Your hospitality has been greatly appreciated, Commander.” “Though we’ve known one another for a relatively short period of time, I speak truthfully when I say I’ve enjoyed every moment of your company. You are quite the inspiring leader.”

[Kiss] So have I. -- “And I’ve enjoyed your company.”

(post-kiss) Altrethir: “Commander, you are as charming as you are alluring.”

We should head back. -- “It’s been nice. We should be heading back, though.”

“I concur. Thank you for this time to speak with you; it has been a pleasure.”

[mckkachins]

46-49 for the ask game 💗

46. ever gotten a really sweet compliment over a set?

YEAH!! i mean i read all the tags on my gifsets so i know if someone just said “pretty!” in the tags and that alone means a lot to me. but then sometimes people also send me direct asks to my inbox complimenting a set and i’m like. *laughs nervously* stop that lest i fall in love w you. uhh i honestly got incredibly overwhelmed last time this happened after i posted the triple rainbow set that’s pinned rn LOL. yall are so amazing and supportive it’s genuinely super heartwarming for me.

47. any advice for novice gif makers/people who want to start making gifs?

mm so vilma @maxguevra posted a nice lil post on this earlier this morning and imma just link hers.

but in addition to everything vilma said, i gotta be honest about patience and time being the best teacher. i think a lot of gifmakers are like under pressure to constantly create or may feel this way, but it’s genuinely okay to take a long time to make something and take the time to add in more complicated effects. idk how many times i’ve thought to myself that ppl on here complimenting me by saying like “i could never do that!” actually most definitely CAN bc they are wayyyyy more talented than me, it just might take a shitton of patience. my longest gifset took over a week and a half to make but it was worth it bc i learned a LOT.

also an underrated tip: program keyboard shortcuts!! it saves a lot of time. i literally gif with my left hand on the keyboard and right hand on the trackpad/mouse. i have keyboard shortcuts programmed or reprogrammed to better fit my hand and also bc for some reason ps 2021 didn’t keep a lot of the same shortcuts from the last version of ps i had, ps 2018. some good keyboard shortcuts to program or get familiarized with: duplicate layer, merge layers, group layers, transform layer, warp, convert to smart object, repeat last filter, undo, redo, select all, etc.

48. how would you describe your giffing style?

WELLL..... to me i don’t really have one. i guess i want to try a new style with every gifset i make? idk i’m always trying new things so it’s hard for me to say if i have a definitive style (yet).

however when i said this last week @nuntox was like “ur style is 100000000 layers” so idk make of that what u will.

49. how much would you say you’ve improved since you first started giffing?

GOD. LIKE. SO MUCH???

my first gif didn’t even loop. that’s how bad it was flkajsdlkjasd bc i took screenshots manually and then put them into a .gif file. i didn’t even have photoshop!!! obv i never posted it, i was just trying to make a gift for a friend. and even when i did get photoshop and learned how to gif properly, the gifs i made were really bad lol

gif making asks

i’ll get to the rest of these when i make more progress on this cursed assignment flaksjdklasjd

[meetthetank]

Starved

Rating: General AudiencesArchive Warning: No Archive Warnings ApplyCategory: F/M Fandom: Biohazard | Resident Evil (Gameverse) Relationships: Steve Burnside/Claire Redfield, Steve Burnside & Alexia Ashford (kind of) Characters: Steve Burnside, Claire Redfield, Alexia Ashford (kind of), Jill Valentine Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Touch-Starved, Post RE Rev2, Therapy Group - Freeform, Read A/N for more context, Steve is a sad sad man who missed out on A Lot, Angst, Subtle love languages Ao3 Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/29232369 Summary: Months after being rescued from his second island prison, Steve Burnside tries to adjust to a normal life while dealing with the scars left both physically and mentally. Luckily, he has some help. Notes: Sooooooooo here's the thing. There were worms in my brain. Real bad. So this is like... a manifestation of a longfic that I want to write later down the road. Some things to know before going in. 1) Steve revived on an island meant to store "failed" B.O.W. experiments that was left abandoned. He was there for a year and some change. 2) Allie is a child clone of Alexia who was in the same facility and befriended him. They live together and Steve is her legal guardian. 3) Jill runs a victims of B.O.W. experimentation which includes Steve, Manuela, Sherry, herself, and some others. I think that's everything but if yall have anymore questions feel free to ask. This is incredibly self indulgent to write but I hope you guys enjoy it too. 

“Please stop pacing,” Allie sighs, “You look like a caged beast.”

Steve glares at the child, a clone of the insane woman who killed him, as she sips her tea at the other side of their flat. She glares back, her hazel eyes sharp as ever. She’s waiting for him to retort so she can shoot him down with a smart ass remark like a shark circling a drowning bird. When all she gets is an indignant huff she sips her tea and rolls her eyes.

“You do this every time she comes over. If she didn’t run away at the first sight of your ghastly visage she’s not going to run now.”

Steve sighs, “Yeah, but-“

“What absurd thing are you putting in your own head this time?” Allie snaps, setting her dainty pink teacup next to her stuffed dragon, “You’re going to stink up the room if you think too hard.”

He tunes out the insults with a scowl, but Steve knows the kid is right. He’s thinking way too much about this. Claire didn’t run away screaming the first time they met since he came back, she’s not going to do it for the seventh.

Even still, as Steve passes by the mirror in the front room he jumps at his own reflection. The person inside doesn’t look like him, it doesn’t feel like him. Their ginger hair isn’t wild and tangled, it’s washed, brushed and tied up in a small ponytail. Their shocking green eyes aren’t sunken into their sockets, and there’s a splash of red sunburn on their skin. He can even see a smattering of freckles across their nose and cheeks. They look like a stranger, but the deep, ragged scars across his face remind him of his past. The biggest and ugliest of the marks starts well above his hairline, drops down over his right eye and curls over his lips. A few smaller ones run across his cheeks and the bridge of his nose, but they aren’t nearly as deep.

He always thought scars were sexy when he was a kid. Manly. The marks of some action hero or badass. Now they just… Make him look tired and scared.

A small hand grabs onto one of his. “Did you take your medicine today?” Allie asks without a trace of her previous vitriol.

Steve shakes his head. “I’m out of the anxiety pills. Ms. Valentine said she’s going to bring them over when she comes to pick you up.”

“Okay.” Allie says with a curt nod.

“You got everything for your field trip?” Steve meanders over to the kitchen again, eager to change the subject.

“Can I have some spending money?”

He raises an eyebrow, “How much and what for?”

“Fifty for museum books.” Allie puts her hands on her hips and glares up at her guardian with defiance sparkling in her eyes.

Steve crosses his arms over his chest, “Twenty.”

Allie lifts her chin, “Forty-five.”

“Thirty.”

“Forty-five and I buy you a cool rock from the Natural History Museum.”

“Deal.”

With negotiations done (and Steve down forty-five bucks) the only thing left to do is wait. He switches the tv on to drown out his own thoughts. Some hockey game. It’s not his team so he doesn’t care too much, but it’s a comforting familiarity. At least sports didn’t change too much since ‘98.

Steve let’s himself zone out as much as he can to the game. At one point he thinks about getting a beer but decides against it. He’d probably have one or two with Claire at dinner. That, and his meds don’t mix well with alcohol if he hasn’t eaten. So instead he bounces his leg, bites his nails, and busies his hands with whatever he can reach.

Did he used to be like this? It’s hard for him to remember past his awakening and even harder to think past Rockfort. He was a neurotic mess out of necessity on the Storage Facility Island, a place where any sound could be death, and Rockfort was a similar story with the addition of his teenage bravado, but before he was taken? He barely remembers what his parents looked like, let alone what social masks he had to put on. Steve lets out a long, quiet sigh. It doesn’t matter anymore. He’s like this now, and that’s all he needs to know. At least now he has a support system.

Just as Steve starts to calm down, the doorbell rings.

He jumps out of his chair and bolts to the front door, heart in his throat and stomach upside down. His hands begin to shake as he reaches for the knob-

“Hi, Steve.”

“Oh,” Steve sighs, a bit too loudly judging by the way the visitor raises an eyebrow, “Hey, Jill.”

She gives him a warm, knowing smile as she fumbles with her shoulder bag. “Claire coming over today?”

“Yeah.” Steve scratches the back of his neck, “That easy to tell?”

Jill laughs, “Careful now, Redfields can smell fear.” She hands him a paper bag from the local drugstore, “Here. I know you said you were out of the anxiety meds, but I got everything refilled for you.”

“Oh! Uh, thanks!” He tosses the bag across the room to the chair he had just left. “So what museums are you hitting today?”

“All depends on our little cruise director.” Jill says with a small laugh, “Speaking of-”

Allie brushes past Steve, the charms on her backpack jingling with each step. “Air and Space and Botanical Gardens! Oh, and Natural History too. I promised I’d buy Steve a cool rock.”

“Easily bribed, I see.” Jill smirks at him quickly, then turns her attention back to Allie, “Sounds like a deal, kiddo.”

Eager to get on her way, Allie all but jumps out of the door and runs to where two more members of their little therapy group, Manuela and Sherry, wait. Both women greet her with smiles and hugs, and she wastes no time in launching into sharing things she had learned since the last time they had spoken.

“I’d stick around,” Jill says as she backtracks to the group, “But I feel like if I wait any longer there’s going to be a mutiny.”

The rumbling of a motorcycle echoes down the street, and Jill turns back to Steve with a quick smirk.

“Besides, you have company.”

Jill darts over to the group, casting a wave back to Steve and over to the biker before motioning to the ladies to begin their trek. Steve watches with wide eyes and a thundering heart as the biker dismounts and pulls off their helmet, revealing short auburn hair and stunning blue eyes. She gathers up a few plastic bags from her bike before jogging over to him, while he stands there like a deer in headlights.

“Hey, Steve!” She says with a bright, radiant smile and shoves some of her bags in his hands.

“W- Hey, Claire.” He fumbles with the grocery bags, “What’s all this?”

“Dinner. Figured making our own burgers would be better than ordering out.” Claire explains and shuffles inside the door as Steve moves aside for her. “And more fun.”

Though Steve can’t deny her claim, he also can’t fight the apprehension that coils in his stomach. He can cook, sure, he had to or die on the island, but he has no idea how to use any of the kitchen gadgets Jill’s group and Terra-Save set him up with. None of it is as simple as a slapdash firepit and some scraps of metal. Maybe if he’s lucky Claire will know what to do and he can just chop vegetables or something. The last thing he wants to do is make more of a fool of himself.

“Uh, sure!” He blinks his thoughts away, shuts the door and retrieves his bag of medicine from the chair.

By the time Steve turns back towards his kitchen, Claire is already busy setting up groceries and making herself at home. He watches her take off her heavy bomber jacket, revealing a thinner red and black flannel, and set it on the back of a chair at the kitchen table. She drops her plastic bags on the counter and grabs a beer out of his fridge; she looks like she’s been coming here for months. Something about the image before him makes Steve’s chest tighten. He’s not sure if it’s a bad feeling or not.

“-Steve?”

“Huh?” He snaps out of his stupor with a jolt.

Claire wiggles the opened bottle in her hand, “Did you want one?”

“Oh, uh, sure.” He stammers and rubs the back of his neck but walks across the room to take the beer. Maybe he did need something to settle his nerves after all.

Claire smiles at him like she’s known him all his life, like she knows what’s going on in his head and she understands why he’s so awkward and nervous around her. What was it that Jill said before? Redfields can smell fear? He knows it’s a joke but the way Claire seems to understand his fidgeting and hesitation leaves him wondering if there’s some kind of truth to it. A few gulps of beer (technically a hard cider, his first beer made him vomit) gives him enough bravado to at least go into the small kitchen with her.

Thankfully, she doesn’t ask him to work any of the gadgets. Claire’s hands glide over buttons and knobs, setting temperatures on his stove and placing pans. She directs Steve to break the ingredients out of the bags. Ground beef, cheese, brioche buns, vegetables, and a myriad of spices.

“This is a lot for just burgers, isn’t it?” He asks, mouth full of stolen tomato.

“Come on now, you know I wouldn’t do just burgers.” Claire laughs a bit, a sound that makes Steve’s heart stop. “This is an ancient Redfield family recipe.”

“Should I be worried?” Steve can’t help but smile back. She has this way about her that makes him feel lighter, like everything takes a backseat to just… being around her. He can joke, come out of his shell a little. She won’t hurt him.

Claire giggles at him, “It’s the way our dad used to make them. Chris held onto the secret ingredient till he was… Thirty something I think. I basically had to interrogate him for it.”

He raises an eyebrow and grins devilishly, “So...what’s the secret?”

“Oh, just a blend of spices.” She shrugs, “Nothing that inventive. But it’s special to Chris, so don’t go telling him I told you.”

Claire winks at him then turns back to mashing the ground beef into patties, leaving Steve to gawk at her. She’s delightfully impish when she wants to be, he can see himself getting into all sorts of flirtatious teasing matches with her… if he weren’t so weird. She directs him to chop up the tomatoes and onions after she catches him staring, again with a playful smirk and slug to his shoulder.

Something he had to become good at while on that remote island, alone aside from Allie and the wild B.O.Ws, was how to observe. The more he watches Claire out of his peripheral, the more she reveals to him. He watches the way her face falls as she focuses on the burger patties, as if she gets lost in her own thoughts and forgets where she is for a split second. It isn’t hard for him to see the sadness she hides from the world, it’s the same kind as one he carries. The reason Steve still roots for his hockey team, or even still watches the sport is because it reminds him of his dad. It’s the last connection he still has to his late father, and of a time mostly lost to him. He feels more special than he should that Claire would choose to share something like that with him.

Suddenly a sharp pain shoots up Steve’s arm. He drops the knife, now streaked with red and pulls his hand close to his chest with a hiss. His heart races and his eyes dart around, searching for other dangers in the area. Anything might be lurking in the shadows waiting to take advantage of his weakness. He scans back and forth for threats, eyes wide and alert. Nothing catches his attention except-

“Steve?! What happened?”

Claire drops her own knife and rushes over to him overcome with worry, but stops in her tracks when Steve backs away from her. He looks like a frightened animal, eyes wild and darting to anything that moves even the slightest bit.

“Did you cut your hand open?”

Her voice is soft and gentle as she approaches, hands low and outstretched to him. She doesn’t step closer, she waits for him to bridge the gap. Steve can see the caution in her face. Like she’s trying to coax a stray kitten out of hiding.

It works.

“Y-yeah,” Steve says, dropping the tension in his body a little. “I uh, wasn’t paying attention and… I guess it slipped.”

He opens his hand enough for Claire to see the small streaks of red that pool beneath his thumb. It’s superficial, barely deep enough to scar. The virus would already be hard at work stitching the burst blood vessels together, but he should still clean and bandage it. He has a bad habit of picking at the scaly scabs that form over wounds.

“Are you okay?” Claire asks, taking a small step forward. The gap between them is barely a foot wide. “That looks like it’s bleeding a lot.”

As Steve starts to relax further, Claire’s fingertips brush against his hand for a split second. The shock is enough to send him reeling back, his heart leaping into his throat. His instincts tell him to run and hide or fight his way to a safe place. Somehow he finds the self control to speak.

“No!” He yelps, loud enough to startle Claire. He lowers his voice but takes another step back. “No, I got it. It’s fine.”

He doesn’t stick around long. He can’t bear the worried, somewhat hurt, look on Claire’s face. Steve hurries into the bathroom around the corner and shuts the door before the fear and guilt tear him to pieces from the inside out. With trembling hands he turns on the sink faucet and lets icy water run over his open wound. It stings a little, but nothing he can’t endure. The excess blood trickles down the drain and vanishes in seconds. Just as he thought, the cut isn’t deep at all. That eases his anxieties somewhat, but not enough to stop the oncoming panic attack. Before it overtakes him, he wraps a washcloth around his hand to contain the blood as best he can.

Steve sinks to the floor and puts his head between his knees. It’s a struggle but he forces himself to take deep even breaths, just like Jill had taught the group. Though his head still spins, it helps to calm his heartbeat enough that it doesn’t feel like he’s about to have a heart attack. The trembling stops once he lets his consciousness fade to survival mode; he only thinks about his breathing and that he is safe.

Claire isn’t going to hurt him. No one is. He’s safe here. He’s safe with her.

Claire isn’t going to hurt him.

The world slows down, finally. Steve isn’t sure how long he’s been here but it can’t have been too long. Claire hasn’t come knocking on the door looking for him yet, and the savory scents of meat and spices being seared drifts in from the kitchen. His stomach tightens at the smell, helping to distract him further. Though his whole body feels heavy and drained of energy, Steve finds the strength to push himself to his feet once again. He cleans the now dried blood off of his hand, sloppily wraps his hand with a bandage, and dumps the rag he was holding into the wastebin before leaving the sanctuary of the bathroom.

When Steve returns to the kitchen, he expects Claire to rush at him and assault him with questions, but the only question is in her eyes. Wide, blue, and deeply worried about him. She doesn’t say anything or move to approach him, she only watches and waits for him to be ready. The way her brow creases and turns upwards at the ends make her look guilty, and that sends a pain through his gut he can’t identify right away.

“All good.” He announces, showing off his slapdash bandages. “It’s not deep. Just wanna keep it from getting dirty. And keep myself from picking at a scab.”

Claire looks at him with such intensity that Steve almost shrinks back from her gaze. It’s like she’s staring right through him.

“You sure?” she asks, keeping her voice low and gentle.

The genuine worry throws Steve for a loop. “Yeah.” He flashes her a wry, lopsided smile full of false confidence; as if he didn’t just have a panic attack. “I’ve had a lot worse.”

Claire studies him for a moment, then scoffs and shakes her head. A small grin finally appears on her face and it takes his breath away. “Yeah, I was there for some of those.”

She turns back to finishing up dinner. A shadow crosses her face as she grills the burger buns as a final touch, but it’s gone in a flash. Steve busies himself with getting drinks and plates, and thinking of something to say that might distract Claire from whatever sadness is eating away at her.

“You’ve had a lot worse than that.” He says with a grin, and immediately regrets it. Why did he think it’d be a good idea to bring back those kinds of memories?!

But Claire turns around and smiles broadly at him. “Oh you have no idea.” She drops a plate of burgers and a plate of toppings on the table, then as if to give Steve another heart attack, she props her leg up on the chair and rolls up one of her pant legs. A long, wide scar follows the length of her toned calf. Tan with age and wear, it stands out against her pale skin.

“This was from the Tyrant in Raccoon City.” She smirks, almost proud of her scar. “I was lucky it didn’t hit bone with how deep it was.”

There’s an edge to her voice, testing him. Teasing him. Steve grins. If Claire wants to have a scar battle, then he’s more than happy to show off.

He points to the largest scar on his face, “I got this from-...” Shit, he can’t tell her it was from falling down a mountain. That’s not cool. “...I got it from this big… Turtle thing.”

Claire raises an eyebrow at him, “Turtle thing?”

The lie spins out of control in his head, faster than he can stop. “Yeah! It was like...a big armored reptile B.O.W. Had these nasty claws for diggin’ in the ground. I got too close to it and it swatted at me. I’m lucky I didn’t lose this eye.”

He puts his hands on his hips and puffs out his chest a bit. He can’t pinpoint why showing off his trauma like this makes him happy. Maybe he’s just happy to share it at all. It doesn’t matter to him now. Claire is smiling. He’s smiling.

They go back and forth, showing each other their scars and places where bones were broken while eating homemade burgers and fries. Claire shocks Steve with just how many scars and injuries she suffered over her years of fighting bioterrorism, and he astounds her with his stories of his misadventures on the B.O.W. storage island and his encounters with all manner of beasts. Watching her listen to him with such fervor and interest almost makes him forget how horrific it all was. It helps in a weird way.

But that changes in an instant.

When it’s his turn to point out a scar and tell a story, he stops thinking. He lifts up his shirt, exposing the most gruesome scar on his body with an excited grin. A scar that stretches from his collarbone and disappears beneath the waistband of his pants, with dots alongside it on either side. Instead of a jagged outline like the scars left by accidents and B.O.W’s, this one is straight, clean. Surgical.

“This one was from when they autopsied me.” He explains, far too excited about the grim display he presents Claire. “It still itches like hell where the staples were-”

Steve snaps to reality once he looks up to see Claire’s awestruck face. Instead of excitement, it’s horror. Her hands cover her mouth and her eyes, brimming with barely restrained tears, lock onto his stomach and a wound so old he had almost forgotten about it. Beneath the autopsy scar, beneath the scars from man-made beasts, there’s a circular mark a similar color to the scar on Claire’s leg. It’s old, faded, but still aches from how deep the tissue reaches inside him. The gravity of the old wound may be lost on him, buried under the countless others that mar his body, but it’s fresh and raw to Claire.

He hastily pulls his shirt down, “Shit- I’m sorry, I didn’t-... I forgot that…” There’s nothing he can say that will ease her mind. He reaches out to her with one hand, stopping just by her arm before pulling back and sinking back into his chair. Another muttered apology falls from his lips as he hangs his head in shame.

He doesn’t notice Claire get up and cross the gap to him. Not until she takes a knee in front of him and brushes his unruly hair out of his eyes.

Claire’s touch is feather light and tender, but even that sends shocks through his skin. It jolts him out of his shamed stupor, and Claire pulls her hand back a few inches. Her expression is something he can’t make out. Somewhere between pity, sadness, and guilt. Before Steve can properly figure out what she’s thinking (something he’s never been good at) Claire runs her thumb across the large scar on his face, slowly and gently. He doesn’t flinch away from her this time. Then, something mundane yet earth shattering to this broken man out of time happens. Claire cups his scarred, stubble covered cheek in her hand.

Something breaks within him. A dam he didn’t know existed anymore that kept everything back, every trauma, every broken piece of him; some of which he didn’t even know were broken. Claire’s hand, her warm hand marred by callouses but still soft despite it all, molds to the contours of his face. There’s such tenderness, unrestrained kindness in her eyes and her touch and he can’t fathom how it can be directed to him. He doesn’t notice the tears in his eyes until they spill over.

Steve tries to calm himself with deep breaths but they come out stuttered and shaking. His shoulders heave, a lump in his throat chokes him. He screws his eyes shut, trying to shut out the vision of someone caring about him that deeply, but she’s still there. He can still see those piercing blue eyes boring into his soul and reading him like an open book. The moment Steve opens his eyes he sees the blurred outline of Claire Redfield wrapping her arms around his shoulders.

He wants to yell at her to leave, to tell her that he’s a lost cause and there’s no helping him. He’s too damaged, too broken. He’ll never have a normal life. He’ll never be able to pretend he isn’t a monster. He will never be able to have meaningful relationships. But all that comes out of his mouth is a broken, choked sob. Someone is touching him, someone cares about him. And he can’t understand it.

Despite himself, Steve pulls Claire into a tight embrace and sobs into her shoulder. Her fingers run through his hair, while her other hand rubs his quaking back. Steve can’t stem the tears, that’s a feat that even a mighty Redfield can’t achieve, but he can’t deny that simply being in Claire’s arms replaces despair with a strange warmth. For the first time he can remember, he feels...safe.

Eventually, the tears stop, and Steve is able to breath easily again. Claire doesn’t let him go for a minute and for that he silently thanks her. It isn’t until he begins to pull away that she too lets her arms down and pulls back from him.

“I’m sorry…” he mutters, wiping the stray tears from his eyes, “I don’t-”

“Shut up.” Claire commands and takes Steve’s hands from his face. “You have nothing to apologize for.” Darkness crosses her face for a moment. “I should be the one apologizing… I know you-... It’s hard after a while, not being… Not having human contact like that for a while. It’s not something they tell you about in therapy.”

Steve shakes his head, “I needed it. I really… Really did.” He sighs, “I...I didn’t know how much I...everything… still hurts.”

With that same kind smile, Claire leans forward and kisses his forehead. “It takes a lot of strength to admit you’re hurting that much. Give yourself some credit.”

“Maybe…” he says with a sad smile. “... Thank you, Claire. For everything.”

She takes his hand in hers, tracing the callouses and scars with her thumb. “Thank you for coming back.”

[thisnerdsadventures]

I, a campaign manager

so in addition to being a CTO, a CS major, and a dorm vice president, i was also a campaign manager for 2 weeks (the exact campaign that I was managing is not entirely difficult to figure out if you really want to know, especially if you click on the links BUT i will be trying to not mention it specifically here lol). You might be wondering - (1) why and (2) how did you end up becoming a campaign manager..... you're not even a poli sci/gov/humanities/literally anything vaguely related to this major??

You're correct, yes, how did this happen? Well that's a great place to start this story:

How in the world this happened

Friends drag you into stuff. This happens to be the same friend that dragged me to New York, and then was 20% of the reason I got dragged into the negotiation class, and then was maybe 15% of the reason i got dragged into nonprofit activities? In terms of providing unique opportunities in my life, she definitely takes the cake. So one day, she says "I'm running for this position," and me and the squad says "we gotchu." What does that mean? Clearly wasn't sure in the beginning, but we were texting campaign strategies and slogans and tiktok ideas in the chat for fun. None of us had any real responsibilities, especially since the actual candidates were still weighing the playing field and figuring out their platform.

I also was a course 6, so I guess there was some expectation that I would make the website, even though I didn't actually code the website from scratch.

but anyways, it was actual campaign time.

CAMPAIGN SZN

After they figured out the campaign platform, it was game on for the campaign materials. We spent a lot of time on artwork, we photoshopped pictures from a photo shoot, we came up with campaign motto ideas, we brainstormed strategies for officially announcing the campaign. We had an actual campaign meeting to talk over things in mid-April where I met like six different people, friends from both candidates on this ticket, who were supporting this effort. We had a google drive AND a Dropbox. Look at this:

Despite this seemingly organized effort, it was not that organized because this publicity team didn't actually actively do anything for like a week. Many reasons for this: one being it was actually the semester, and it was also CPW weekend. Unfortunately for me, that weekend was literally hell for me, because I was managing this site for our nonprofit, CPW events (so like five zoom calls on a Saturday), classes (because those are still happening), and then the campaign thing finally started, about a week before voting opened. In the form, of a website.

So the tl;dr is I developed an entire Squarespace website in one night. Yes, one night. I had to model it from I think the website from a Harvard campaign site, which took me like three or four hours on a Saturday night, which is a very fast time in my opinion to learn how to use Squarespace. I also bought a domain and figured out how to connect it to Squarespace at like 1 in the morning, which was the first domain I ever bought in my life!

(It expires in a month. I am absolutely going to let it die.)

Also, if anyone from squarespace is reading this for some reason, yall made a really solid product. I actually was very happy with my experience. You all should use it, I am 100% not sponsored by them at all, but honestly it was a very good experience. If you need to develop a website in four hours and don't have a lot of webdev experience, definitely consider it. You can even see website clicks and user analytics, it's actually really put together.

The next day we spend a lot of time going through website changes and artwork changes. It's bad. We had so many discussions about color palettes and the advantages of a 3 column vs 4 column layout. Yes. I'm serious. I'm starting to go crazy.

If anyone's interested, I would say that our website definitely was better than the other campaign's website. Like objectively. Like both campaigns were great, but the website? well. Here's the link (archived because I only paid for 1 month of squarespace :D) The amount of detail that went into it is actually incredible, the amount of spacing, i even had to custom CSS the header image so that mobile headers would show up correctly.

THE CAMPAIGN VIDEO

so sometime during this week, I had this thought about making a really good campaign video. I was very inspired by some of these Google ads that started with a Google search bar. (Yes, I am aware that I am that much of a Google simp.) To be honest, rewatching this ad, I really definitely just copied this entire ad lol, it's ok we don't have to talk about that.

That Wednesday, we coincidentally talked about what makes campaign videos successful. We talked about how Trump's incendiary imagery helped stoke the flames and how it was really effective in getting people to vote, and eventually helped him beat Clinton in the presidential election. So I went and took that and grabbed news clips and campus videos and overlayed that in the video, and it went from like a solid 6 to an 8 immediately, in my honest, unbiased opinion. You can see what I mean in the video itself: [link].

We also had to put together quite a few interviews about what they wanted from the school and were looking for in their candidates, which took a million years of coordination, but we somehow got it done in three days, and everything was put together in a flurry of a weekend, unending changes and small fixes for sixteen hours straight. I could not even tell you how much I learned about premiere pro and how to use layer masks and everything. I even composed the music for the first fifteen seconds of it. Literally, composed, it.

And so on a Sunday afternoon FINALLY right before voting, the video drops. I'm sitting in my backyard absorbing the sun because I hadn't left my computer for 48 hours straight.

It gets like 1000 views or impressions or something in like two days, which is incredible for me, since I'm not a professional by any standards, but I am considering being a professional campaign manager at this point. By the way, we're also managing an Instagram page, a Facebook page, a tiktok page, a website, our individual social media pages, and we're trying to synchronize this video drop and all of our publicity efforts across every single one of these channels. It's chaotic at best.

VOTING SZN

So it's voting week, where we give everyone an entire week to vote. Across the week, it's mostly a waiting game, we make a few more tiktoks and funny videos that we publicize to get out the vote more. The last day, we're thinking about it, and we know the final vote's gonna be close, so we message every. single. person. in our Facebook friends list. I think I singlehandedly convinced like twenty people to vote (and hopefully vote for our ticket).

There's a lot of drama about different stuff. I won't really talk about it because I think it got really messy, but this week and entire couple weeks was a lot to get through honestly. As a reminder, I'm also working on my senior thesis and my nonprofit website work is peaking at this point, so everything is very, very bad and none of us have slept in a while. Also it's the pandemic.

Finally, the results come out. We lost by like 20 votes or something, out of 1500 or so total votes casted or something like that. It's one of the highest voter turnouts in school history or something, I don't quite remember. After that, we're so emotionally drained from this whole thing that we just don't talk about it for a while and that's that.

If the ticket won, I wonder how it would've turned out. I feel like things would've continued to be busy, and maybe that's not a great thing. So maybe everything happened for a reason. I don't know, but those three weeks were quite interesting, quite fun, quite odd. I'm putting those videos in my personal portfolio and am putting Adobe Premiere Pro and Squarespace on my resume and moving on.

Anyways, thought I'd just share! i haven't posted in a while, and this was definitely one of my #weird #odd stories from my time at MIT, which is quite reminiscent of #weird #odd at MIT in general.

[smellycinnamonthundahfudge]

twas tagged by both @parallelmarvel and @tare8chan. i actually cant believe i was hhaha i’m aiming to be the legit writer worthy of this tag game other writers participated in. think u for thanking of meh 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Author Name: smellycinnamonthundahfudge on tumblr, AND JUST IN, I’M petertheparkerpus_mjmonogram ON AO3 YALLLSSSS. I FINALLY CAME THEEERREEE YYAAAYYYYY

Fandom You Write For: predominantly mcu’s spideychelle. (i also wrote tz stuff back then heh). but, i have also written (but not posted) for hiccstrid, got, darejones, simmosa, incredibles 2, and bughead hahaha.

Where You Post: i started on tumblr, so literally all of the works i wanted to share are on here. buuttt, like i said, I JUST GOT AN AO3 ACCOUNT YALLSSS. i’ve posted my first pj fics on there for now, but i havent posted em all yet so i am now beginning the process of importing em. im excited :’’’)))

Most Popular One-Shot: Take Flight (peter & mj’s flight home from the ffh trip, click for a nervous jelly peter hehehe)

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: hhmmm, ok, so i’m not even sure if it classifies as a multi-chapter haha but i think so cus i wrote them as a continuous story in mind haha. i posted the “chapters” separately but i like to imagine it was just one story, Safehouse Sleepovers (consists of Safehouse, Safehouse Singalongs, and Hot chocolate). it’s my only multi-chapter story (not even sure if it classifies as one haha) so de facto most popular one hahaha. oh and it’s essentially a canon compliant post ffh fic bout pj bonding in the parkers’ safehouse hehe. (oh but i guess maybe the newly named airports could also be considered multi-chapter, is 2 chaps enough to call it that? haha so dunno maybe i take back the only mc story thing haha. it’s still the more popular one tho cus airports i wrote before ffh even came out haha)

Favorite Story You Wrote:  oof this is a hard one... ooohhh, i feeelll like i gotta, just gotta go with 5 + 1 gifts and Just Breathe cus they’re just so precious 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 but tbh i luv all of em. just as whole fics, they seem better to me haha

Story You Were Nervous to Post: ALL BRUHHH i mean im just not that confident with my works yet haha. buttt the one i was rlly the most nervous about was Home for the Holidays cus it was my first time writing with an actual person in mind to write it for haha. plus, it was the first fic i wrote after pj month so oof gods was i rusty by the time i wrote it hahaha haaysst. i think it was ok enough tho. plus they said it was good so yay. im just glad i actually did it haha.

How Do You Choose Your Titles: eh just whatevs i feel is catchy and is a good concise nice indicator of the plot heh. hhmm i feel like i usually come up with titles during the brainstorming process for the fic, like before actually writing it or while writing it.

How Many of Your Stories Are:

Complete: if im counting the “chapters” i mentioned earlier as one story each, then probs round 24. i say probs cus there’s some fics i wrote somewhere, where i feel like i finished em but i dont have access to them currently so im not 100 if it’s complete by my standards or nah haha

In-Progress: hhhhmmm im not sure if it’s write to call these in-progress. i’d rather call em unfinished, like i have 16 unfinished stories, or just written out story outlines. im not sure if i should call em in progress cus im not sure if i even still rlly plan to finish em, yknow? haha like they really are genuinely fun interesting n creative story ideas n plans thus far, i feel. but i just- lazy, yknow? haha i have to build up to writing a story for A LOONGG TIME haha

Coming Soon: hehehehe. technically it’s completed already, all i have to do is just make the post on tumblr hehe (as of the moment i wrote this post). im so excited for yalls to read The Bathroom hihihi <333

Upcoming Story You’re Most Excited to Write: oofff im not even sure if im actually gonna wind up writing these buuuut, dancing pj still seems so cute n pure n fun. and also, in addition to the countless other aus my annoying brain came up with on pj month, my brain annoyingly got even more fic ideas rolling around it now:

a moulin rouge au (peter’s the famous singer/dancer known as the spider-man who attracts men and women alike in the famous moulin rouge run by liz toomes with a gallery of other colorful rogues, heroes, villains, and just other sorts of attractive characters based on the comicbooks of old. mj is a young new budding writer looking to gain world experience to write about. she winds up in the moulin rouge, meets the infamous spider-man and gets to know the kind man behind the alluring and mysterious mask. im imagining tom’s lsb, laura’s hollywood, and z’s halloween euphoria ep costume for the aesthetic im going for haha. im still torn on whether to keep the og ending or not hahahaha)

maybe a friends with benefits fic. where it’s not so angsty or full of drama. and genuinely just keeping it cool and chill til they inevitably just decide to actually get together/stay friends. it’s all up in the air and they’ll figure it out when they figure it out.

producers inspired, roommates au. the kdrama did the trope well and it made me want to see it applied to my two dorks 🥺🥺🥺🥺 

lastly, a first time fic for our two dorky virgins hahaha. i kinda like the idea of them planning out their first time to the most minute of details and just the actual process of figuring out what they want to do n stuff haha just seems real cute to me 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

Do You Accept Prompts: hahahhaha look, i’m never one to say no ok? i mean, if i just straight up say no, im possibly saying no to potential ideas that are so inspiring i wind up writing it immediately. so yes, i’d like to say im willing to accept prompts. however, there is absolutely no guaranteed follow up and for that i’m sorry. i can just never know how i’ll react to an idea so there ya go. that’s my honest response haha.

im taggin the fic writers ive read over the years that havent been tagged by the ones that tagged me. hold my juice box. @spideymjlove @jediparkers @itsjacobperalta @thatsnicebutimmarried @bookishandbossy @thefudge @galaxy-parker @spideychelle-romanogers @spiders-n @petty-parker  @smalltreenergy @dead-end-street @softboyholland @mamgt @justanotherfangirlpassingthrough @machiavelien @peterjonesparker @blaisezabini @thegreenwomanswalkman @crazy4dragons @dragonydreams @attachedtomybookshelf @haddocksortails @dyannehs @funkytoes @jenni41 @rebelcaptaindaily @starxdust22​ no presh obvi. just thought dis might peak yalls interest. thanks for all that you’ve writtteeennnn 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 🥺🥺🥺🥺 (btw some of yalls might have just written hcs for all i know, i literally dunno anymore, but like i said iz nbd. just also wanted to give my thanks since im not entirely sure i was able to do so before)

[cherubsoda]

sorry i gotta redo this i fucking... clicked post on accident. but here's some Things On Dante bc whoops i rarely talk ab him @space-sweetheart

1) what’s a Hot Take you have about your f/o

Dante is severely depressed and it's constantly pushed aside by the fanbase. I honestly avoid most fics bc i remembered how he depicted years ago (and still today). Actually, thats the reason I started shipping with him - I felt like there was more to his chara n deserved better and I was right lmao

Hot take that DMC2 wasn't as terrible as people say it is, maybe in context that DMC1 and 2 were the only games out at the time. With all 5 out though, I think its a good addition to Dante as a character and elaborated on the more serious parts of him but still made him witty and snarky.

2) on what do you disagree with other fans of your f/o?

Mostly how hes interpreted. He's either incredibly horny or a complete jackass (or both). I just can't stand that, bitch said sad dick energy doe. I get it but that's literally all I see for him n im like, king deserves to relax and have a nice time and not have to put on a front for once.

I'm King of Being Unnecessarily Soft and being a baby to charas that are stinky but also I Love Angst and Thrive There.

3) did you used to ship your f/o with anyone before realizing you wanted to ship them with yourself?

Nope. I never liked shipping canon characters unless theyre actually officially together and even then im like hmm writers can be wrong.

4) do you feel like you have to defend your f/o all the time? 

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set in a beautiful, gothic turret adjoined to montpelier academy, the halloween masquarade ball was supposed to be magical. whimsical. for many, the best night of their lives. however, a bowl of spiked punch, a secret or two, and a vengeful ex-student had a little so say about that...

Salem | Rhiannon/HarleyLast Friday at 12:04

Rhiannon felt slightly uncomfortable. All of this was so nice and fancy, she had never been somewhere or even in a place like this. She adjusted the deep green of her lace mask and looked at the poofy gown she rented. It reminded her of poison ivy  the beautiful flowers embroidered in it made her smile.

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Friday at 12:06

Andrea was still high as fuck, but she was feeling good. She smiles when she spotted Rhiannon, heading over. “You look fucking great” @Salem | Rhiannon/Harley

Salem | Rhiannon/HarleyLast Friday at 12:07

Rhiannon looked at Andrea and looked down at herself  "Thank you, you look good too!" Rhiannon felt happier here than anywhere else, even if she weren't as cool as everyone else or as fancy. @paige || catalina&kennedy

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:07

Mason had just finished his drink and he has had so many at this point he lost count. He walked to the dance floor and started to do the chicken dance.

cam // ashLast Friday at 12:13

The music was blaring loudly enough that Ash could definitely tell that it wasn't playing the chicken dance song. They opened their mouth to point this out before the realization struck that the chicken dance required less up and down than what everyone else was doing. So they joined their roommate in doing the chicken dance in an offbeat manner. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:14

@cam // ash mason smiled at his roommate and kept dancing. “Ash yes! Someone else understands that awesomeness of the chicken dance.”

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Friday at 12:21

[montpelierhqs main] @everyone welcome to the halloween event ! we're very excited to have you. this is a reminder to everyone to post your costumes to your character blogs, taggged 'montpeliertask002', as tomorrow an additional task only involving those that completed their costumes will be included. this task will include an in-character reward for the winner, so if you would like to take part, ensure that you have created your costume and have posted it before 8pm est tomorrow. best of luck, and enjoy the dance ! ( but beware the punch... )

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Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:23

Kenya already feeling a little drunk saw Mason dancing and had to join. "A dancer here we stan!" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:27

Mason laughed and shook his head at Kenya. “Come join!” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Pau (Claire & Nic)Last Friday at 12:27

Nic had only a few days to prepare for this masquerade event since arriving at school, and because he didn't really know what else to do, he just grabbed a Peter Pan hat and dressed in boring colors to play the part, looking more like some staff than a student as he stood drinking punch and watching—more like judging—those dancing, amused. "They're actually dancing the chicken dance?" He asked whoever stood beside him.

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Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:28

Noah shook his head and laughed. “I’m baffled that such kids know the chicken dance. Thought they only knew the highest class of dances.” He joked, laughing at the sight of the students dancing. @Pau (Claire & Nic)

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:32

She smile back at him, Kenya doesn't usually dance but she was drunk so what new. "I'm coming, this dress is ready to go." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:32

Cleo was out in her element, drunk and on the dance floor. To say her dance moves weren’t pg-13 would be an understatement but then again, her sense of boundaries no longer existed and she was feeling the music. She didn’t know who was next to her but she didn’t care and she just kept on dancing.@Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) Mason smiled and laughed, welcoming the girl into the dance party. “Yes! Let’s go!”

Pau (Claire & Nic)Last Friday at 12:34

Nic just stared at the people engaging in the dance and shrugged, not really one to speak out his mind right away but finding everything too amusing, a light curve shaping his lips at the other's remarks. "It would be better if one of them had come as a chicken." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:35

Noah laughed and laughed hard at the boys comment. “That would the icing on top of the cake. That would make this night ten times better.” @Pau (Claire & Nic)

cam // ashLast Friday at 12:35

Ash threw their head back in laughter, drowned  out by the music even as they did so. "It is a beautiful dance but it certainly doesn't beat the macarena!" To emphasize their point the started dancing to the macarena, complete with the dramatic hip shaking at the end of the sequence. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:36

Mason laughed and shook his head. “Yes! I love the Macarena, but the chicken dance is way better.” @cam // ash

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:39

After moving her body side to side, Kenya was laughing every time she try to do something extra with her dress. "Yo, bad guy! Own the dance floor." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:41

Mason couldn’t remember the last time he let himself be this free and relaxed. The alcohol was a very nice helper to him tonight. “Killing it with the moves.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:43

"I'm telling you now, the punch really kicking in." She said grabing his arm spinning herself.  Today really bring out a loose side of her really. "How much did you drink?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah(edited)

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:44

“Me too.” He said and laughed. “I have no idea. I lost count.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

cam // ashLast Friday at 12:44

"No way! The Macarena is the best dance aside from the cha cha slide." They exclaimed, hands still doing the dance even as they argued. "Although the chicken dance does have the wings. A fusion would be perfect." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Friday at 12:44

After their conversation with Ash, Harper had found their way back to the punch wanting to get so drunk that they didnt remember anything from this night besides the fact that tomorrow the two of them would be discussing the rules to their fake relationship. @everyone(edited)

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:46

"Harper, you do know that you gotta so many drink here right?" She said giving a cup of punch while she was giving some out @lattie || Harper and Cam

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:46

“You are delusional my friend!” Mason exclaimed and continued to dance. He stopped when Ash suggested a combination of the two dances. “That’s ingenious! We gotta do it!” @cam // ash

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:47

"Same, Cam really did put alot." She said  trying to copy his moves. "I seen you came here with Claire." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Friday at 12:48

"I need all the fucking punch I can get." Harper replied, their words slurred as they took the cup. "Stupid fucking Ash with their curly dumb hair and rather attractive face." @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:48

“He did but it’s awesome!” He said and laughed. “I did. Isn’t she the best? She’s a great person.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:51

"Well then, here some more." she smile hearing what Harper said. She didn't know Harper like Ash or that they were dating. "Ash is a keeper. EVERYONE HARPER IS CUFF NOW, ALL YALL DIRTY BOYS AND GIRLS BACK OFF!" @lattie || Harper and Cam

bee // wyatt & emma-janeLast Friday at 12:51

As concerned as Emma-Jane had initially been with wanting to win the costume contest, her competitive nature getting the better of her at times, she’d all but forgotten about it by the time the dance actually started. A majority of the school had turned up for the event with all sorts of outfits, varying in style and complexity. The upside at the very least was that she had a good time with Holden picking out their Mr. Incredible and Elastigirl  duo. It has taken a fair amount of encouragement and a little bit of pleading, but Emma had persuade him on to the dance floor. Something she instantly regretted upon witnessing what Holden considered dancing. “You’re worse than I thought you’d be!” Emma laughed, practically having to shout to be heard over the noise. “What is that?” She mimicked him, putting her fist in the air and jumping up and down. (@maaria ✨  libby / holden )

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Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 12:52

"She is and she hot too. Good catch my friend." She took her phone out trying ti record Mason. "Mason dance for the camera." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

cam // ashLast Friday at 12:52

"It is, isn't it? So do we do both of them just like switching or like one move then another," they pondered, still yelling to be heard over the music. Demoing a little version of the sequence dance, they looked over to punch table and shrugged. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Friday at 12:53

Smiling, they downed the glass before taking the second from her. "What? No... Im the catch in the relationship." They replied before shaking their head. "Fuck... relationship. Thats so weird to say." @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 12:54

“Good catch? What do you mean?” He asked her, slightly confused. He smiled and danced for the camera like she said. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )“I don’t know. We can just combine them? I’m too drunk for this kind of thinking.” He said and laughed. @cam // ash

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 13:00

"Exactly that's why I'm single right now." She laugh making a cup for herself. "Cheer to fuck relationships." @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Friday at 13:01

"What? Its not a fuck relationship. We are like proper dating." Harper mumbled looking out in the crowd to try to spot Ash. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 13:02

"You got a good girl. You're seriously didn't know that?" She gave him a confuse face before hyping him up.  @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 13:03

“I don’t got a good girl. We’re... we’re just friends.” He said and chuckled. “Did you think we were together?” Because boy, did he wish they were. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )(edited)

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 13:04

"Ahhh Shhh," She said putting her finger to keep quiet. She wasn't uses to getting drunk often really. "I'm drunk so my words tend to get a little crazy." @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Zakiyah was sitting at the table eating her cake while trying to keep herself awake. She look to the side seeing someone sitting next to her. She gave an awkward smile before going back to her cake.

Dex || SawyerLast Friday at 13:11

"So," Sawyer started, sliding next to Zakiyah, dressed as Dr Facilier with a cup of punch in his hand "Since you're the first person I saw, I have a few questions for you. One, I'd like you could rank your top five Halloween costumes at this party and two, what flavor is this punch?" He asked, tapping his finger on the brim of his cup @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

maaria ✨ libby / holdenLast Friday at 13:13

Holden was an absolutely atrocious dancer. It was a shame, seeing as his mother had spent the majority of her life as a trained ballerina. She'd always joked that Holden had inherited his fathers two left feet, and her own charming looks. He was fairly sure that she was completely correct in this assumption and it was validated any instance he found himself on a dancefloor. Without even realizing, he dancing ridiculously as Emma-Jean, his kind of sort of date and friend, was gawking at him. Too proud to blush, he just grinned stupidly down at her and shrugged, carrying on with his hopelessly fist-pump action. "Oh, don't be such a critique! I don't see you dancing, Ems," he pointed out, reaching out for her hand to twirl her. "What're your moves, huh? The sprinkler? The macarena?" ( @bee // wyatt & emma-jane )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Friday at 13:16

She chuckled seeing that the punch is having an effect. "The punch is strawberry but my brother spike it so you'll get drunk." She look at his costume and around to see which was the best. "My favs are, Cassidy & Andrea outfit from clueless. You of course because Dr.Facilir gave me the creeps in the movie. I saw someone dress up as Jessica Rabbit and Blue a power ranger so that all I can think of right now." @Dex || Sawyer

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Friday at 13:17

Mason shook his head and laughed. “Trust me, if we were together, I’d probably be telling the world.” He said and laughed. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Salem | Rhiannon/HarleyLast Friday at 13:21

Rhiannon held the cup her hand, weaving through the people at the ball. She was having fun for once and it was kind of a release to be out and away from the dorms. "That is a very nice top hat " she was trying to place the character. She knew it was Sawyer from the yearbook, but was unsure what he was dressed as. "Who are you dressed up as? A magician?" @Dex || Sawyer

bee // wyatt & emma-janeLast Friday at 13:38

The extent of Emma’s hand-eye coordination was being able to raise her hand the fastest in class. When it came to actual physical activity, saying she was clumsy was being generous. She had a habit of not only tripping over flat surfaces, but bumping into things or people as if they hadn’t been directly in her line of sight. Leave it to Holden to call her bluff about not actually being able to dance. “That is so rude!” She gave a very unconvincing scoff, sticking her arms out in front of her and rotating them in a circular motion. In a very poor attempt at doing the twist, she added her hips into the motion. “You don’t know anything about this.” Bright and full of mirth, Emma-Jane went into a rendition of the Charlie Brown dance that was even more poorly executed than her first one. “I’ve got rhythm for days.” ( @maaria ✨  libby / holden )

Dex || SawyerLast Friday at 13:44

Sawyer's eyebrow quirked up as he glanced into his cup. So that was why it tasted weird. He should be surprised but he knew this school too well, "Well, I should be glad this is my first cup then. I'd rather not puke all over my  nice new shoes. And, I'll keep your choices in mind. It's for science reasons, of course and I'm glad you like the outfit. Maroon, wide-shoulder suits aren't the easiest to come across."  He turned to look at the new comer, taking a hesitant sip of his cup now that he knew what was in it, "I'm Dr. Facilier. You know the guy who goes," Sawyer jumped into an exaggerated Dr. Facilier voice, "the cards, the cards will tell! That guy. So while you're wrong, I do you give points for being close. Have you never the movie the princess and the frog?" @Salem | Rhiannon/Harley  @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )(edited)

maaria ✨ libby / holdenLast Friday at 13:58

Holden was well aware of Emma's clumsiness, in fact, he had witnessed it with his own eyes many times. It wasn't like this behavior of hers was a secret, it simply was who she was. Holden found her stumbling and staggering endearing, the traits provided balance for her clean, and pristine personality. It gently reminded him that despite her collection of fun facts and tidy clothes, she was still a human being. As he watched her attempt to dance, he couldn't help but laugh. Not to tease her, but simply because he could not hold it back, the mere sight of it just being too much. The dance was completely uncoordinated and messy, however, it was apparent she was trying her very best. It was adorable, really. "Rhythm for days, huh? You do know you're supposed to like, match your movements to the song, right?" he quipped, wrinkling his nose at her and getting closer to her height to better read her expression. "You're like that one vine. The freestyle dance instructor one." ( @bee // wyatt & emma-jane  )

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lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Saturday at 08:59

Blue could be considered a king of bad decisions. He'd made enough of them  so he should know better, but here he was in a power rangers outfit, his lipped affixed to a flask he'd hidden in his 'utility belt', everyone keeping a healthy distance from the lad. Where Blue was independent, no one was there to stop him from doing the things that usually your subconscious tells you not to do. But in that moment - Blue was simply too inebriated to care. He wandered over to the stage where a local band was playing music, before scrambling onto the stage like a spider fighting a hairdryer. Some students looked up at Blue, others were lost in their merriment. Blue looked to the band and whispered into one of their ears, before floating towards the microphone. The band began playing a track behind him. "Now.... I'll tell ya what I want what I really really want..."

lily / char&theo&vivLast Saturday at 10:10

charlotte made her way to the dance floor, twisting a strand of her brown wig around her finger. she’d had a few cups of punch and lost her friends somewhere during the night. “spice girls! my jam,” she laughed, busting out her most ridiculous moves.vivienne stood on the edge of the dance floor, nervously playing with the hem of her dress. “you know, two days before the biggest party of the year is probably the worst time to start a new school,” she said to no one in particular.

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Saturday at 10:14

Noah was a few cups of punch deep and was having a time. He was on the dance floor and was kind of dancing if you could call it that. “This song is always a classic!”

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Saturday at 10:21

Blue watched a sea of people form as he drunkenly began his best spice girls rendition. No one had seemingly stopped him, not even the band, so he continued to sing. And even to Blue's surprise, he was actually quite... good at it. Not great by any space of the word, but good enough to warrant a room-wide evacuation. He let the song continue, surprisingly still standing upright. Blue looked into the crowd, looking further out to try and make out any faces. "Come on, sing along with me!" He beckoned to someone, he hoped. Nathaniel was reluctantly amidst the festivities. He had forced the ball for one reason only - should any pictures be taken for the yearbook, he was in them. It looked good at prospective colleges to be part of school life. So, sullen with hit plights, Nate had resorted to reading on his phone. He could feel Vivienne in his peripheral vision, and in that moment he regretted his decision to come at all. Nate ran a hand through his hair, not meeting her gaze. "Well, it's not much of a party really. But then again... I'm not a huge party person, so...." he awkwardly trailed off. @lily / char&theo&viv

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Saturday at 10:27

Cleo was having a great time at the dance but was feeling like she needed to do something wild. “We need to do something crazy! Something wild!” She said to whoever was next to her.

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Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 07:02

Zakiyah was sick of it already, someone threw up on her. After punching someomne in the face she had to change. Thank god for drama teacher having any costumes legt from previous plays She was able to change. "My night is shit, I'll be honest though. I look good in blue."

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 07:31

Blue’s solo had finished, and he found himself swaying as he left the stage. Some people clapped, some people laughed, but most people ignored him. Still heavily inebriated, he scampered to the drink table to grab something when his eyes fell on the person beside him. “You look good in me? Wait, you mean the colour...” It was very clear Blue was drunk. “Weren’t you a cheerleader before ? What happened ?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 07:37

"Well the punch amd food doesn't match for some people so they threw up. I gotta find out what my brother put in the punch." She sigh as she was wearing a prirate costume on. Seeing everyone one having a good time she was upset, she still kept a good mood throughout the whooe dance. "I was a hot cheerleader, now i look like a girl verson of captain hook." @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 07:44

“Bloody lightweights ruining it for everyone.” Blue probably wasn’t far off that stage in all honesty, but he was too numb to care. “Also let your bro know he’s a hero!” Blue thought to himself that Zakiyah was still able to smile. Said a lot about her. “I think the costume’s great,” Blue giggled. “But the colour is better.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 07:50

She smile at his remarks on the color since it is his name. "You like it because it your color. " She yelled eyeing him on the stage. "My brother is an ass but he knows how to make a party more fun. I want to fight someone, you'll down?" @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 07:56

viv turned in surprise hearing nate’s voice. “me either,” she agreed with him quietly. “i mean, i’d honestly just rather be curled up with tea and books,” she spoke slightly embarrassed. “but i have to meet everyone, you know?” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 08:21

“Maybe I like it because it’s a good colour. Maybe the fact my name is the same is only a coincidence.” This conversation was like rocket science to Blue - with his intoxicated state, he was finding it difficult to pay attention. “F-fight ? Why would you wanna fight somebody ? That’s not very nice...” he drunkenly drawled. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) The fact that Viv was here was still so lost on Nate. It was like the child inside him had been beckoned, and years worth of nostalgia struggled between them. Nate, for once, had no idea how to proceed. “Thank you, finally, someone who gets it.” Nate couldn’t help but look at his feet, the awkwardness tenuously pulling the pair together. “I mean... I’d offer to introduce you to people. I only really know people on debate or decathalon though...” Nate had no idea how to tell Vivienne, the girl he had admired for so long as a kid, he grew up to be surly and mostly disliked by his peers. The sinking feeling in his stomach wouldn’t go away, and he wondered if maybe tonight was the night that he had a drink. “Can I get you something from the beverage table? You must be, uh, parched.” @lily / char&theo&viv

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 09:11

after her little adventure with Nate, Kennedy had decided to head back to the dance and socialize a bit. It was fun, sure, but when she spotted Nate again later, she decided to go over to him. “There you are,” she smiles, stepping up and taking a sip of her drink. “I lost you when we got back” She paused. “Who’s your friend?” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @lily / char&theo&viv

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 09:15

"Well I'm nice when I need to be sweetheart." She took a sip what was in they cup and hand it back. "I want to get rid of some anger plus I want to use the braids as weapon." @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 09:38

Noah was getting a bit bored with the dance and was seated at a table. “I don’t think the punch could make this dance not boring.” He said and sighed.

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 09:41

“don’t you remember when we used to do that? drink hot cocoa and read the harry potter books?” viv teased nate. “i guess nothing’s changed for us,” she added, knowing nearly everything had. “i’m okay, thanks. not sure i want to end up doing... whatever that is,” she shrugged, gesturing to the boy drunkenly singing spice girls with a sly smile. “i’m vivienne,” she smiled warmly at the girl who had approached them. “i’m nate’s-“ she paused, not exactly knowing how to describe what they were anymore. “uh, nate and i knew each other when we were younger. we were like, best friends.” she explained. “are you one of nate’s friends?” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @paige || catalina&kennedy

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 09:46

Blue had gone from drinking his alcohol to chewing the cup. He wasn't sure why, it was all his mind was capable of at this point. "B-but... punching people isn't very nice." He looked at the girl seriously, and felt bad that someone had thrown up on her. But he was also somewhat terrified of her imposing physical dominance, and Blue was a football player. "Why can't... you just hug people. It feels great." Blue looked to his left and saw someone kitted out in a costume he didn't quite understand, and Blue beckoned him over ( not wanting anyone to be on their own ). "Aw, dances are fun ! Don't be harsh," he looked at Noah seriously, as he started to refill his cup. "You know, I know how to fix BOTH your problems.... the dance floor." @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )  @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah Nate wanted a piano to fall out of the sky and squash him. He watched as Kennedy and Vivienne looked at each other. Sure, it was civil, but a strange feeling swirled around in his chest as he saw them interacting. He didn't understand why he cared, or why he felt so damn awkward. But he couldn't help it. "Kennedy Pritzker, daughter of the headmistress and quite the intellectual, meet an old friend of mine, Vivienne Hugo. Also an intellectual." Nate wanted to punch himself in the face. He desperately scrambled to change the subject, because the last thing he needed was these two girls discussing him. "Uh, so the dance.... Viv, you enjoying it ? Prtizker, are you... also having fun ?" @lily / char&theo&viv @paige || catalina&kennedy

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 09:49

Noah rolled his eyes before moving closer to the boy and girl. “No, no, no! I will not be going to the dance floor. Are you kidding? That’s the worst thing at this dance.” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 09:49

Kennedy could feel the thickness in the air when she approached, and with Nate’s formalities and vivienne’s uncertainty, she felt like she was interrupting something. she felt awkward, and she wanted to dip out and never come back, but she didn’t care. she was too drunk to. “Uh, nice yo meet you,” she said, nodding her head. “What’s with the full name, Nathaniel?” she asked, tilting her head. @lily / char&theo&viv @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )(edited)

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 09:59

“nice to meet you too,” vivienne spoke with genuine enthusiasm. even so, she couldn’t help the growing feeling of dread in her stomach looking at this girl with nate. “so you’re on the debate team? do you two argue against each other?” she questioned.

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 10:04

Blue furrowed his brow. "The worst thing at the dance... is a dance. I'm confused." It's not like Blue was keen to get on the dancefloor either ( especially given everything ), but he wanted others to have fun. He felt guilty that there seemed to be a radius of sullen individuals surrounding him. "Okay, why did you come tonight ? I promise we'll find something you enjoy... it's my mission." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah "Arguing. Against each other. Well, it's something we have certainly done !" Nathaniel tried to laugh, but it only made the situation more tense. There was a lot to unpack in this situation, given everything. Nathaniel wasn't always as arrogant and self-absorbed as people believed him to be. In fact, there once was a time he was considered kind and somewhat jubilant. That's the Nate that Viv remembers, and that's the one he wanted her to remember. But then there was Kennedy, a girl that... well, Nate couldn't describe their relationship in any capacity. But the very foundation of their relationship was the fact that Nate was kind of an asshole. They both knew Nate as different people, and Nate... it was complicated, but to say that his feelings for both were mixed would be an understatement. He had found himself in a live mind-field, with no reverse button to save him. "So, uh, Viv, you're new. Um, let's talk about that! Let's just, talk about you. And Kennedy, we can talk about you too. And just get to know each other... I mean, we all know me ! So who cares ! Let's talk about you guys." @paige || catalina&kennedy @lily / char&theo&viv

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 10:05

“I came because I figured it was better than sitting in my room.” Noah said and shrugged. “I’m just not big in the whole, everyone dance to this weird music.” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )(edited)

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 10:09

Kennedy tilted her head, still completely and utterly confused. She wasn’t sure why he was acting like this, and it made her uncomfortable. “Yeah, we do debate together,” she said“So you’re new. That’s cool. I’ll probably give you a tour at some point, that’s my job, according to my mom” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @lily / char&theo&viv

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 10:11

“classic nate ramble, right?” viv teased the boy, remembering the times when they were younger and nate would get so excited about a topic that he’d trip over his words. “i mean, me being new isn’t exactly that interesting,” she shrugged. “but that sounds good. i’m glad i met you now - i’ve been getting so lost every time i try to go to class.” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 10:20

“Uh... right...” Kennedy couldn’t say the same, knowing nate that way, but she had a feeling that she was... interrupting something. She bit her lip, looking between the two of them. “So you know each other from childhood?” @lily / char&theo&viv @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 11:16

“yeah, we grew up in la together,” vivienne explained. “i moved from paris and nate was my first friend. he was the only one who didn’t tease me about my english,” she spoke with a small smile. @paige || catalina&kennedy @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )theo stood next to the punch table, taking a sip of his drink to steady his head. “i feel really sick,” he spoke to no one in particular. “i think i’m gonna go get some air.”

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 11:19

Cleo was standing next to the boy when he said he didn’t feel well. She followed him outside with a bottle of water and pretzels. “Hey, Theo you okay?” @lily / char&theo&viv

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 11:20

"Yeah I on Noah on that," She said while getting another cup and drinkimg it. "Fucm people, they never do shit. They might as well stab me in the back." @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 11:22

“Right....” Kennedy said, looking up at Nate. “You know i think i’m just gonna... go. Leave you two alone. it was nice to meet you, vivienne.” She looked at Nate again,  hurt look in her eyes, and turned to leave. @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @lily / char&theo&viv

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 11:23

“yeah.. i just... i don’t know,” the boy spoke, sitting down on the ground. “i feel dizzy.” @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 11:24

“Ok I think she has had enough to drink. You’re getting to the stage of aggressive drunkenness.” Noah said and laughed. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )“Okay, here I grabbed a bottle of water and pretzels.” She said and sat next to him, holding out the two. “How much did you drink?” @lily / char&theo&viv(edited)

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 11:40

Blue took another long sip of his drink. “Noah, your bedroom can’t be fun. I’m sure your room doesn’t have skeleton,” he giggled, wiggling a decorative skeleton that dangles before them. Blue then turned toZakiyah, his face a little more solemn. “Sounds like you’re hanging with the wrong people. You really need to hang around some party masters. Like me!!” He declared, downing the rest of his drink. “Come on guys, let’s get smashed.” @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) Literally beads of sweat were forming on Nate’s head. He had long since removed his snorkel mask, but soon enough he may need it again. But the thought of Kennedy leaving made Nate’s chest hurt. “Kennedy, wait,” he rushed out, looking at the two. “Please don’t... please don’t leave. Hey, I’m sure Viv has lots of questions only you can answer. And I don’t... we don’t want you to leave. It’s early. Plus we gotta see if we can get Viv to join debate with us.” @paige || catalina&kennedy @lily / char&theo&viv

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 11:57

vivienne was nothing if not observant, and she saw the hurt look in the other girls eyes. not wanting to cause trouble, she chimed in with nate’s protests. “no, nate’s right, you should definitely stay,” she spoke, nodding her head eagerly. “i’m sure i can come up with a question or two for you. and i’ve been meaning to ask someone about debate,” she tried, offering a kind smile to the other girl. @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @paige || catalina&kennedy

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 11:58

Noah groaned and shook his head. “Why can’t we just sit here and hate everything? It would be nice. Better than dancing.” @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! ) @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 12:00

theo shook his head. “i don’t. i don’t know,” he slurred out, stumbling to his feet. “i’m gonna take a walk,” he decided, heading off in the direction of the woods and disappearing into the dark trees.

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:02

Before Cleo could stop and run after him, it was like he disappeared. She was scared that he’d get hurt and ran back inside to get someone to help. “Uhh can someone help, Theo just ran off into the forest and I will be no help in these heels. He’s very drunk too.” She said out loud hoping someone would hear her.

lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )Last Sunday at 12:05

[ montpelierhqs admin ] the power flickers. the light dims. the music stops. the faculty of montpelier look around in confusion as students remain blissfully unaware of what had just occured. suddenly, everyone’s phones start to beep. an alert from the gossip blog. panic sets in. rain starts to pour. @everyone

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:12

"WHAT THE FUCK, MY HAIR." Zakiyah yelled as she push people out the way trying not to be wet. "Sorry not sorry,"

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 12:12

vivienne glanced out the window at the dark sky. "uh, is this like a normal thing here?" she spoke nervously, the truth glaring out at her from every phone screen in the room. "i mean, he's okay, right? this is a joke, right?"

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:13

Cleo was shocked by what she read on the phone, letting it drop as she ran for a trash can, feeling like she was gonna be sick at the thought of what Troy or Hallie was doing to Theo.

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 12:14

charlotte noticed her friend making a break across the room and went to her. "oh my god, cleo, are you okay? what happened?" she asked her, hand on her shoulder. "was it the punch?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah(edited)

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 12:14

Kennedy went to protest when the lights flickered, and she looked around confused. “Uh, no, it’s not a normal thing,” Kennedy said to Vivienne, looking to Nate with big eyes. @lily / char&theo&viv @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:15

"V this is Montpelier, nothing never normal here." She look at her with a angry face. She wants to know what happen to Theo.  @lily / char&theo&viv

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:15

Cleo looked up at Charlotte and shook her head. “I was the last one to see him. I just let him run out to the forest.” She said and shook her head. “He didn’t look good so I followed him, but..” She said and ran a hand through her hair. @lily / char&theo&viv

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:16

"Noah I feel you on hating everything." She said while laying down on a chair feeling a little sick @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:16

Noah looked at the girl concerned. “Are you okay? Do you need water?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:30

"I might need some." She close her eyes trying to gain conscious. She wasn't having a good time at the dance the only thing she doing is drinking really. "Blue I hang with you but I'm still crazy as thier is." She said falling on the chair bumping her head. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:33

Noah was just about to turn to go and grab water for the girl but stopped. He ran to her side, looking at her concerned. “Zakiyah are you okay? Blue, you need to go get some water please?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) @lilac ( blue & nathaniel ! )

bee // wyatt & emma-janeLast Sunday at 12:34

Earning a genuine laugh from Holden is enough to make Emma-Jane not care that she’s making a complete fool out of herself. That isn’t to say that he takes himself too seriously or has given her the impression that his usual amusement is dishonest in anyway, but there’s something about this laughter that entirely changes his face. His smile appears brighter and there’s a sense of enjoyment between the two of them. “Yeah! You heard me!” She wrinkles her nose back, fighting the urge to stick out her tongue. Childish, yes. Emma is so rarely allowed to be so carefree though, this whole night feels elating. Again she scoffs, only stopping her dance at the flicker of the lights. Her initial thought is that someone must be playing a prank. It is a Halloween dance after all, and what better way to enjoy it than scaring a few people? With the music gone, a ripple follows through the crowd, until everyone has stopped dancing. There’s a momentary stir of confusion, until the buzzes and the pings starts. In the darkness of the ballroom, everyone’s phones start going off. Almost instantly, she goes rummaging through her purse. “It’s Troy,” she says flatly, expecting the latest blast from the gossip blog as she reads. “That’s so not funny.” Her laugh is slightly shrill, as she shoves her phone in Holden’s direction for him to see. ( @maaria ✨  libby / holden )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:38

"If a big headache and a bump counts as fine..... then yeah." She smiling as she laugh it off. She put her hand on her head when she feels her bump. She sees Noah near her side, raising her hand up to get help. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:43

Noah picked her up, not wanting her to get up. “Come on, let’s get some ice and water for you.” He said and started to walk toward the table with drinks. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lily / char&theo&vivLast Sunday at 12:47

“oh my god.” charlotte spoke, her mouth open in shock. of course cleo was upset, everyone knew her and theo were friends. “cleo you have to know it’s not your fault. don’t blame yourself,” she said softly. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:49

Cleo could feel tears starting to brim at her eyes. “But what if I could’ve done something? I shouldn’t have let him run off. God, what if he never comes back Charlotte? What if he’s just gone?” She rambled and sank to the ground. “I feel like punching someone but also emptying everything from my stomach.” @lily / char&theo&viv

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:49

Walking with Noah, she sat in a chair and lay her head. Today wasn't her day she just wanted to get this over with and she haven't seen her brother any where. "Thanks, I literally hate this and the damn blog made some shit worst." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 12:51

Noah grabbed water for her and make an ice pack with ice from a cooler. “Seriously. How this person is getting away with this is nuts. Keep your head up and put this in the bump.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 12:57

"I don't know but she is and bitch bring revenge." She grab the ice pack from Noah and slowly put it on her head. She got the water too and drank some of it then left it on the table. "I honestly don't know what people going to do at this point. Pretty sure those tasks are real hell is coming." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:00

“Well she needs to kindly fuck off.” Noah said and sighed. “Well hopefully they find her before anything bad happens.”@Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:09

"Let pray nothing bad happens or else it be like the purge." She gave a small chuckle and drank some water. "I feel like hell." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:11

“I swear, nothing like this happens in North Carolina.” He said and sighed. “Maybe you should see a nurse?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:14

"No I can't because my my intoxicated level is through the roof I think." She shake her head a hard no, she rubbed her eyes trying to fight through the headache. "North Carolina sounds peaceful,  New York is lowkey hell." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:22

“Yeah and I’m sure all the teachers here are as well. It’s more about you being healthy. You could have a concussion.” He said and sighed. “It was.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:32

She could care less about the teacher knowing about her getting drunk. The only reason why she caring because her name wasn't going to be drunk bitch. "Health never normal, it's called life beating your ass." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Pau (Claire & Nic)Last Sunday at 13:32

Nic had enough that night between coming face to face with his past and his present—neither of which he was all too excited to see at Montpelier. Everyone else seemed to be having a far worse time than he, though, the moment all phones went ringing. He was so confused, and to be fair, he wasn't even sure which one was Theo in the first place. At least he recognized the name.  And Troy. He found it ridiculous but  it was, apparently, a thing. But the other name... "Who's Hallie?"

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:33

Noah sighed and shook his head. “Fine but no falling asleep okay? That isn’t a good thing to do after hitting your head.”@Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:43

"I can't promise you that. The headache is hell, my feet hurts, I'm cold and I just really wanna get out of here. I can't because I can't leave without Cam." She vent trying to stay up after walking all night. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:49

“What if I walk you back to your dorm and then come back for Cam? That way you’re both taken care of.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 13:57

"That would be nice but I'm staying at my house during weekend." She said putting a fake smile on her face. "Cam has the key to the house. Your my hero right now thanks." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 13:58

“Oh well you don’t have a spare at your house?” Noah asked, ignoring the hero part. He was just concerned for the girls well being, especially after the blog post.  @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:14

"I did but I lost it. I really don't remember what happen to it." Zakiyah mind had been a blur throughout the whole night and the rest of her life apparently. "I'm mess right now huh?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:15

“Ok well, then lest find Cam.” He said and smiled. “You’ve just had a rough night is all.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:19

"Please do, I really looked for him all night and he not texting me back." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:23

“Maybe he’s with a girl?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:25

"I don't know where or care whoms he with. I really don't want to feel drunk and alone." She pouted resting her head on her purse on the table. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:25

“Hey hey, no laying your head down.” He said and helped her head stay up.@Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:27

"But it hurts," she said keeping her eyes close while Noah trying to keep her head up. "What can a laying down do to me anyway?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:28

“I know it does but if you fall asleep and you have a concussion, you could accidentally slip into a coma. Now we don’t want that right?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:31

"No we don't." She said shaking her head agreeing with him. "Can we get away? My head hurts with all the yelling." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:32

Noah smiled and nodded. “Yeah, here grab your water and ice. We can go sit outside.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:35

Cam was well within his high at this point, the edibles and molly keeping him in a great mindset as he searched out Cleo. "Hey... hi.. hey." He commented softly before smirking. "You still warm?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:37

"That all I want really." She smile slowy getting up and get her water and ice pack to head outside. "I will probably freeze my ass off with the skirt." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:38

Cleo looked up from the floor and smiled at him. “Yeah, still warm thank you again.” She said and stood up. “I’m just a little freaked out right now is all.” @lattie || Harper and Cam“Don’t worry, I have a jacket you can use as a blanket. Plus the cold will wake you up a bit.” He said and started to walk towards the doors. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:39

Cam nodded slowly before wrapping his arms around her again. "I was serious when I said Id kill them with they hurt you." He stated softly before nuzzling her neck. "You want to go somewhere else?"

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:43

Cleo welcomes his hug and hugged him back, nuzzling herself into him. “I know.” She said and squeezed him. “Yes please. I need to clear my head.” @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:43

She walk towards to the door and took off her heels during the process. "New york weather will kill you. My head feels like a bitch." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:45

Noah took his jacket off, thankful for the long sleeves under it. “Yeah well, it’ll probably hurt for a few days.” He said and handed her his jacket. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:47

She gratefully took his jacket and put it around her. "I don't even remember how I fell. Pretty sure I slip." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:48

“I’m not sure, my back was turned when it happened.” He said and shrugged. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:48

Pulling away, he took her hand and moved for the door. "Im great at helping people clear their minds." He reasoned before looking at her. "It will be okay." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:49

Cleo followed him and sighed. She didn’t know how much she needed fresh air till it hit her. “Will it though? Theo got taken by Hallie. If it even is her.” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:50

Stopping as they got outside, Cam bit his bottom lip. "Things always work out how they are suppose to." His voice soft before he leaned in and kissed her. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 14:50

Andrea was outside, getting some fresh air when she saw them—Cleo and Cam. Her heart broke, seeing him with someone else, especially after telling her they’d have tonight. @lattie || Harper and Cam @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:52

Cleo at first was caught off guard by the kiss but then all the worry and negative thoughts slipped away and she kissed him back. She snaked her arms around his neck and played with the hair at the nape of his neck. Se hey notice that they weren’t alone. @lattie || Harper and Cam @paige || catalina&kennedy

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 14:56

Wrapping his arms around her to pull her in close, he smiled softly as she kissed him back. Pulling away from a moment, he smirked. "You feeling better?" He went to say something else before he noticed Andrea. "Shit." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @paige || catalina&kennedy

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:57

She smiled as he pulled away and nodded. “Much.” She said but then looked at what he saw and looked back at him confused. “What?” @paige || catalina&kennedy @lattie || Harper and Cam

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 14:58

Andrea had tears in her eyes—it was stupid, she knew they were broken up, but it still stung. Wiping her tears, she walked past them, purposely bumping into the two of them hard. She wasn’t normally like this—not the jealous type—but the weed and alcohol in her system was making her do it. “Sorry,” she mumbled, not sincere. @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 14:58

"Me either," She said right walking with Noah before heading outside seeing her brother. "Oh shit." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @lattie || Harper and Cam

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 14:59

Noah stopped and looked at who she was looking at. “Why do I feel like we just walked into drama?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:00

Cam closed his eyes tightly before watching Andrea. "Drea.... im sorry. I..." He knew no apologies would help fix this as he looked back at Cleo. "Sorry." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @paige || catalina&kennedy

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:00

She turn to Noah then back at Cam. "Shit, every drama has a damn love triangles." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:01

“Don’t call me that” she snapped instantly, still looking like she wanted to cry. “You broke up with me, remember? you don’t owe me anything” she said, walkingoff  @lattie || Harper and Cam @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah(edited)

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:01

Cleo stumbles a bit as the girl bumped into her and Cam. She instantly felt awful, not wanting to be that girl. “Seriously Cam?” She said and shook her head, more mad at herself than anything. “Go talk to her.” She said before storming back inside. @lattie || Harper and Cam @paige || catalina&kennedy“So I’m guess this is Cam?” Noah asked and looked at the scene that was unfolding. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:02

Flinching as she snapped, Cam nodded slowly. "Yeah.. yeah, we are broken up." He mumbled before shaking his head. Hearing Cleo, he moved to walk after Andrea. "I didnt want... I dont know what I wanted." @paige || catalina&kennedy @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:03

Andrea saw Zakiyah and headed over towards her and Noah, sniffling “I guess i did this to myself?” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) @lattie || Harper and Cam @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:04

Cleo walked back inside and slammed herself down at a table. Holding her head in her hands, she let herself start to sob for all the messed up stuff that happened tonight.

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:05

"That my brother," she said looking at him with a guilty smile. She saw Andrea coming towards her with tears in her eyes. She gave her a hug trying to get to the bottom of this. "Cam what the hell happening?" She ask walking towards him. She forgot she was wearing no shoes other then socks. It was right before she step on something making her fall. "Fuck sakes." @paige || catalina&kennedy @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @lattie || Harper and Cam

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:06

Noah looked at the girl and back at Cam. “Seriously? What the hell dude? You made one girl cry, I’m pretty sure that other girl just went in there to cry.” He said and walked over towards him but stopped to see what happened to Zakiyah. “What’s wrong?” @lattie || Harper and Cam @paige || catalina&kennedy @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:07

Cam watched his ex and his sister before shaking his head. "I dont.... I dont know." His voice small before he huffed, trying to ignore the other boy. "Shut the fuck up Noah." Turning to Andrea, he bit his bottom lip. "Im sorry Andrea. I really am." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @paige || catalina&kennedy @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:08

Andrea flinched when Cam snapped, arms wrapping around her middle. “No you’re not” she mumbled, looking down. @lattie || Harper and Cam @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:10

"All of yall shut the fuck up." She yelled right before turning to Noah trying to get up. "My foot is in pain." She sees Cam and tries to get up but her ankle couldn't cooperate. @lattie || Harper and Cam @paige || catalina&kennedy @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:11

“Look dude, I’m not the one making people cry!” He snapped at Can and shook his head. He looked back at Zakiyah and nodded. “Ok you sit here, don’t try to get up. Let me look at it. Is it ok if I take your sock off?”  @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya ) @paige || catalina&kennedy @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:12

Cam looked away from her for a moment. "Can we just like go somewhere to talk or..." He didnt want to be around his sister and Noah right now. @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:12

Andrea shrugged, looking down. “I guess,” andrea mumbled, looking up at him through long eyelashes @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:14

"Yeah sure." She said sitting down moving her leg towards him. "What a shitty night, Im supposed to turn 17 in a few days and today hell. Sorry for dragging you down with me. " @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:14

He took off her sock carefully but looked up at her. “Hey don’t worry about it. We all have bad nights sometimes.” He said and smiled. @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:15

Cam moved to take her hand, wanting to go somewhere away from everyone to clear his mind and figure out what he is doing. As they walked away, Cam looked at Andrea. "Look... I am sorry and I know that doesnt mean much... not right now and im sorry for that too." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:16

Andrea pulled her hand away instantly, still following him. “You just don’t care” she’d say “About me. you act like you do but god—cam i fucking love you and you’re making out with other girls” @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:19

"Yeah it does," She gave a small smile before realizing a tear about to come out. She wipe it away before Noah could see it. "What wrong my foot? It is bad that I can't feel it." @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:20

As she pulled away, he let his hand drop, instead moving to wrap his arms around himself wishing he had his jacket back now. "I dont fucking care. Its just hard.. I can't explain it.." He didnt want to explain it. "There is a lot going on up here and I dont know." He mumbled, tapping his head. @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:20

“Then talk to me” she’d snap at him “god, i’ve dumped so much shit on you, you can do that with me cam. don’t you get it?” she was crying now, yelling at him @lattie || Harper and Cam

Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/NoahLast Sunday at 15:21

Noah looked down at her foot and noticed it was bleeding. “I think you just stepped in some glass. Shouldn’t be too bad.” @Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:22

"I cant." Cam replied quickly, looking up at her. Fear present in his eyes for a moment before he looked away. "I can't talk to anyone. I cant let it all out because then it fucks everything up and I cant deal with that." Letting out a shaky breath, he sighed. "I didnt mind... I dont mind carrying that stuff for you." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:23

“it doesn’t fuck everything up” she’d snap “do you not understand how much i love you, cameron?” @lattie || Harper and Cam

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Last Sunday at 15:23

Zakiyah nodded after hearing what Noah said. Thank god it wasn't broken, or else she be in crutches for a few days. "Thanks, why was there glass here anyways?" @Maddie ~ Mason/Cleo/Noah

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:26

"It will though." Cam replied before shaking his head. "I know. I understand how much you love me, Drea. Love me enough to know I can't talk about whats going on with me." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:26

“But do you lvoe me?” she snapped “No, you don’t. and that’s the problem” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:27

"I do... Fuck, Ive never been sure of anything else." Cams voice raw as he looked back up at her. "Im sorry." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:27

“fuck you” she snapped at him, clearly crying, turning to walk away @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:29

"Fuck me because I wont tell you things I cant tell you?" Cam snapped grabbing her wrist. "Thats real fucked up Andrea. You wouldnt love me if you knew. You wouldnt.... no one can know." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:30

“of course i would lvoe you!” she’d shout “but fuck you for telling me we have tonight and making out with cleo” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:32

"You wouldnt." He replied after a moment before letting her wrist go. "I am sorry. You dont deserve that." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 15:35

“don’t make decisions for me!” shes shouter at him @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 15:38

Cam looked at her. "Im sorry." Was all he could say at this point @paige || catalina&kennedy

Jaimie (Wil)Last Sunday at 15:44

Wil was in a panic now. The shitty things that had happened throughout the night, the message from the gossip blog, the chaos of the crowd, and whatever the hell was in that punch were all combining into something bigger than Wil could bear. His breathing became heavier. Tears stung his eyes, but didn't escape. He felt like he was going to explode, or implode, or collapse. He pushed through the crowd, not caring who he rudely shoved aside. He just wanted to get out. He pushed open the doors and breathed in the cool air from outside. He paced frantically in the dark, trying desperately to collect himself and his thoughts. The tears were running now, and he didn't really even know why.

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 16:50

“you’re sorry?!” Andrea shouted at him, voice cracking @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 16:55

"For everything." Cam admitted softly looking away from her. @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 16:55

“God Cam,” Andrea breathed out, full on crying at this point. “Why can’t you just lvoe me like i love you?”

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 16:56

"I dont know. I love you. I do." He mumbled trying to hide the hurt in his voice. "Just not enough, I guess."

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 16:57

Hearing him so hurt, Andrea hated herself. She was too drunk to be responsible, taking his hand and tugging him towards her @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 16:58

Looking up at her, he let out a soft sob. "I dont think I know how to love something like that, Drea. I dont think I know how to love you like that." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 16:58

“Oh Cam,” she breathed out, cupping his face in her hands and wiping his tears with her thumbs @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:00

"Im sorry. I really am." He mumbled trying to blink back the tears that dared to come.

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:02

“sh sh,” she whispered, shaking her head as tears fell down her cheeks “it’s ok” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:02

Cam wrapped his arms around her, letting out another sob. "Its not okay. You deserve better." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:03

“I don’t want anyone else” she whispered, holding him close “don’t you get it cameron?” @lattie || Harper and Cam

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:11

Cam looked at Andrea before rubbing his eyes quickly, trying to wipe away the tears. "I dont get it. I dont get why you want me but I want you too." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:12

“Then be with me,” she practically begged him, pulling him close. “If you want me, be with me. we can figure the rest out later” @lattie || Harper and Cam(edited)

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:14

Cam watched her for a moment before nodding. "Oh-okay." He trusted her, only hoping his secret didnt ruin everything when it came out. "We will figure it out." @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:15

“Okay?” she whispered, a hopeful look in her eyes as she nodded. “Yeah, we’ll figure it out” @paige || catalina&kennedy

lattie || Harper and CamLast Sunday at 17:16

Cam gave a small smile before nodding again. "Yeah, okay." Wrapping his arms around her tighter, he rested his head on her shoulder. @paige || catalina&kennedy

paige || catalina&kennedyLast Sunday at 17:17

Andrea let out a soft sigh, wrapping her arms around his neck and running her fingers through his hair “everything is going to be ok” she whispered, kissing his head @lattie || Harper and Cam

29 October 2018

Ncmi ( Zakiyah / Kenya )Yesterday at 07:52

Zakiyah was mad she couldn't control her anger. She was walking around school with glass in her foot, she could careless about it but her adrenaline came through the roof. "WHERE THE FUCK IS WYATT?"

[blondecoffeecake]

Sunshine Time!

YES, BECAUSE THIS STILL APPLIES.      

And because WHO doesnt deserve a bit of extra sunshine? I love you damn nerds. Yall keep me happy on the hardest of days.

@missselinakitty

Let us start with this bih right here -- WHATS GOOD SELINA!?

The Squirrel to my Moose, the House to my Wilson, this nerd is in the top tier of my most favorite people in the world. She knows me better than anyone. She’s hilarious. She’s feisty. She speaks her mind. She’s one of the most learn-ed peoples that I know and she keeps me grounded (but on my toes) every damn day. 

When life has tried to kick her in the dick, she has bounced back faster and harder than anyone I’ve ever met. I wish I could be as brave and resilient and committed and determined and confident as her someday. Because she’s so determined and confident, I hate her and love her (and like her) I am so grateful to have one of the most AMAZING people on the planet to call my best friend.

*~*~*~*~*~

@sundog-fl

My ride or die. Mein true seestor. My LOVE. She is my heart. My seestor is the most giving, hard-working and humble person I’ve ever met. God, the experiences she’s had to endure have made her so strong and sweet (and she’s NEVER let it turn her hard. I am in awe of her strength.) 

My seestor has saved my life on so many occasions (literally, emotionally, spiritually and figuratively) and she inspires me every single day to follow my heart and my dreams. I love her so much. I don’t deserve her.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

@mistyrydia

My Baconcakes! The Usagi to my Minako (or is she the Minako to my Usagi?) and the Original Metal Queen. I’m so blessed to have met this amazing Viking Warrior Princess. We share so many quirky things in common and her soul is one of the brightest and sweetest out there.

She is practically DRIPPING with talent -- her art is phenomenal, you should go check it out and give her a follow -- she writes, she plays a TON of instruments, she even freaking composes music.

She just. Is so wonderful and patient with me. I can’t.

(Baconcakes, I love you with all my yeti-love. NO TAKE MIRROR)

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@thewhiterabbit42

OHHHMYGOD. *bounces in circles* I’m so excited!! Oh Megs. My Megs. 

My sweetest and most amazing waifu.

I am so, so, SO happy that we’ve become friends. (A little bit of backstory: I devoured all of her writings offsite before working up the courage to FINALLY comment on one of her posts here on the Tumblrz, and tell her how awesome I think both she and her works are. AND AFTER MY RABID FANGIRLING, SHE STILL LET ME BECOME HER FRIEND.)

Let me tell you, I do NOT deserve this lady. Her talent is absolutely mindblowing. 

(A second backstory: She let me in on an RP Blog she had created, based on the promise of doodles, which I had delivered on, (kinda,) and while she supported and encouraged me on my art (which I had given up on at this point) she also took the time to encourage me to start up on writing entries in the blog as well. And the encouragement was so badly needed at a time in my life where I felt everything I did ended in complete utter FAIL. So, I will always be eternally grateful for that.)

In addition to being one of the funniest, sassy, genuine and refreshing souls I’ve ever encountered, she’s also one of the strongest. She balances so many different things in her personal, professional and artistic life that it makes my head spin. 

And that’s OUTSIDE of the Internet.

I have a sneaking suspicion that she’s an ACTUAL superheroine. This woman works SO hard on everything she does and expects nothing in return -- she is such a strong and inspiring woman and I cherish the fact that I get to call her my friend. Again, I don’t deserve her, so I’ll continue to send her gifs, and music, and random shitty ideas that go absolutely nowhere (but will at least make her chuckle or roll her eyes at me.) SHE GIVES ME LIFE. I LOVE YOU, WAIFU.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

@sumara62

SUZY. IS. THE. BEST. Let me tell you why: Besides the fact she’s my dahling, and that she’s a phenomenal friend, and she always checks up on me, and sends me the best gifts, and always makes time for me if I’m having a sad day, she shares her help and time and skills with so many people, without expecting anything in return. I met Suzy through Megs and by playing on the previously mentioned RP blog that they ran. She was also kind enough to nurture my little artsy soul and gave the most amazing (and helpful) feedback when it came to dishing out posts (that could never hold a candle to theirs.) This woman is one of the smartest ladies I know. A true renaissance woman, I’m amazed with how she shares so much of her knowledge and skillsets; her insight and advice is something I truly value EVERY single time she offers it to me.   She also happens to beta for a bunch of people in our little Tumblr community, which, I’d imagine is an undertaking in itself with all you talented writers. Her dedication blows me away! GO FOLLOW HER.

I LOVE YOU SUZY, THANK YOU FOR BEING SO GOOD TO ME WHEN I YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE!

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@nobodys-baby-now

Let me explain. ...no. There is too much. Let me sum up.

VEEEEEEEE. I  love you so much! Why do you put up with me?! (I’m dead-ass serious, I’m such a dork. I don’t deserve you.)

This girl is so much fun, I wish I was half as cool as her. Vee has such a big heart and is so unashamedly dedicated to her friends, her fandoms and crafts. She’s another one of these amazing renaissance women that I keep collecting -- She draws, she paints, she writes, she INSPIRES. She gets my weird sense of humor. She appreciates my equally weird taste in music. And she makes me laugh. Like, all the time. My face hurts from all the smiles that she gives.

AND SHE FRICKEN MADE ME ART. AND JEWELRY. SKJFDGHKJSDGF. WHY ARE YOU SO INCREDIBLE?!

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@girl-next-door-writes

*blender noises* Holy shit *slams her hands on the table* You guys need to stop what you’re doing and check her out. Talk to her, RP with her, or just get into any sort of fandom discussion with this beautiful babe. I love how varied her fandom range is and how easily she can portray the wide array of characters in her stories. Oh, and her gif-game is SO on point.

I forgot to mention -- Y’all watch out. Crowley’s Queen, Our One True Queen of Hell is among us. It’s her. And she is an absolute delight.

I am SO happy that we have become friends, darling!

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@rowdyhooliganism

EEEE! I’m so excited about her, y’all. What. A. Wonderful. Gal.                                                                                       

*whispers* So, candidly speaking, I totally didn’t know there were other people who appreciated/loved the angel Gadreel in the Supernatural series. He’s not got the best reputation with the fanbase.

I was recommended to her by some of the ladies above and holy shit. This girl. The way she can paint a scene. Or write a character mannerism. Every story she writes, she does the characters justice in SO many ways. ESPECIALLY GADREEL.

Her talent makes my soul cry.

She’s even written me drabbles in the past, and I am SO not ashamed to admit that I read them on the regular at least once a week. (ASDHHSDAGFS that’s the quickest way to my heart right now.) I LOVE THIS LADY SO MUCH.

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Then... last but certainly not least.. there’s the Gadreel/Tahmoh HAREM that I have had the absolute pleasure of frequenting (There’s a fun thought -- I doubt Gadreel’d even know what to do with one, mwahaha.)

@icecream-and-gadreel @kittenofdoomage @room-with-a-cat and @authoressskr 

(*sweating*) is it hot in here?

I’ll admit, I haven’t had the opportunity to have many one-on-one conversations with these talented ladies, but Chuck knows that I blow up their damn notifications with likes and reblogs and comments. I’m pretty sure they’re all sick of my shit.

ALSO, THEY’RE JUST OVERALL AMAZING PEOPLE IN GENERAL. I HOPE WE CAN BECOME BETTER FRIENDS. *is my rabid fangirl showing?*

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TLDR; You nerds are the best. And I cannot tell you enough about how proud I am of EACH and EVERY one of you. Thank you so much for your encouraging words, your inspiration, and your friendship. It means more to me than you’ll ever know. <3

[lcewarden]

switching to my computer to talk about this more.

the reason i made this post was to just ... shout into the void, like. hey. people following me. if any of you have advice (either for how to cope emotionally or how to jumpstart a writing career), please give it a shot, cause i'm really not sure, myself. i'd really appreciate it. not that yall have to, or anything.

cause like, ive thought about this in my head, but im not really sure what to think or what conclusion to draw.

i know i should stop comparing myself to others but it's really damn easy to do that, especially when theyre all over this site and effusive praise for their writing seems inescapable. and its like.

if its a difference of material conditions or personal affairs, like how some people just have More Time To Do Shit cause either they dont have day jobs or they pay people to cook and do laundry etc (which for the record im not accusing any of the posters above of doing) -- well, i'm genuinely not sure what the difference is, yknow? i work a day job but it's really not that hard. maybe they have day jobs too, maybe they don't. but aside from that they're all (to some extent) gender-weird queer hellsite veterans (some furries as well) who write in fantasy/sci-fi domains, except ...... except what, exactly?

if it's a matter of jobs, well, i can't quit mine right now. there are people who depend on me, and im about to move to seattle, where the cost of living is a lot higher. can't go back home either, my folks and i are not on good terms.

maybe they have their mental health more straightened out? or at least better mapped out than mine. which is entirely fair. i ... do not know entirely whats going on with my head. maybe theyre medicated and im not.

if its a matter of consistently sharing/posting things ... who's going to read it? the attention economy is a really difficult game for many reasons:

people don't read as much anymore, and its always gonna be harder to sell people on writing compared to pictures (fanart, comics, etc)

similarly original writing is harder to flog compared to fandom stuff, but churning out fandom material just sounds ... exhausting, especially when I drift from fandom to fandom instead of settling into one

if it's a matter of Posting Constantly and flogging shit on booktok ... that sounds incredibly exhausting and i dont have the energy for that.

hell, not even my friends read my writing (some do, some with additional prodding, but most of the time it just gets posted in a groupchat and literally no one responds to it and chat moves on)

and if there's genuinely no difference between us and it's just a matter of luck ... then it's just me getting the short end of the stick. and if thats the case, then i have every right to be bitter, at least in private, don't i?

yes I'm fine, I'm okay, I'm completely normal about it and not at all bitter about a successful career in writing that seems to slip further out of reach with every waking day

[steph-was-here]

2017 reflection

I don’t really do too many personal posts on here (outside of random instagram shares) but I’m feeling kind of sentimental and I wanted to talk about the year I had. Under a cut for your scrolling convenience.

2017 was really hard in a macro sense. Lots of terrible things happened in the world and in this country and some pretty shitty things happened to my family and friends. That being said, personally, I had a generally great year. Maybe my best year since 2009.

Went on a three city trip in Europe

We had a long layover in Oslo and explored the city a bit. I have never felt so immediately comfortable in a new place. Honestly it almost felt like I was home, I don’t know how to explain it. We only spent six hours there but I am desperate to go back.

Rome was incredible. It was hot as all hell and neither my cousin nor I spoke Italian so it was hard to navigate and Italian people have no concept of personal space but jesus if I didn’t enjoy every minute of it. Being at the Vatican during the pope’s weekly blessing was very humbling, even if I don’t consider myself to be religious.

Visiting my best friend in her new home in London was perfect. I hadn’t seen her in seven or so months and we don’t talk as often as I wish we could but it was like no time had passed. She was an excellent tour guide, giving us all the highlights you would want to see on a London trip in addition to what living there is really like.

Saw some all time favorite artists at Boston Calling

seeing Sigur Ros play in the rain is something else

Got two jobs I love, in the same week

One combines two of my favorite things (hockey and fucking around in Illustrator)

The other challenges me in completely new ways that I love

Had the entire summer off to do as I please

Got a new kitten

Read a lot more books than previous years, so a lot more movies, listened to a lot more music (all things I made a point to do)

Lost ~30 lbs, started exercising with some regularity, encouraged my friends to begin their weight loss journeys (they’re also doing well)

Came really really close to my personal savings goal

Graduated with my masters from a really good school, something I worked for over two years

And in the past two weeks I have been in the process of buying a house of my own (thanks in great part to my parents) that I’ll move into at the end of January, so long as all goes well

That being said, tough shit happened too

I got laid off from a job I held for 2.5 years

I watched someone very close to me die, a first for me (although I imagine it doesn’t get any easier)

Watched my parents and family struggle with that loss, as well as the loss of a close friend of theirs

Watched a friend struggle with the sudden loss of her boyfriend

I don’t know why I’m writing this or how to end it. 2017 was the first time I felt like an adult, in a good real way. I’m 26. I feel really good about 2018, I’ve laid out some real attainable goals (getting more fit and learning German just to see if I can) and I already have good things to look forward to. Anyways. Happy new year yall, 2018 is gonna be our best yet.

[kamewu]

tl;dr Reflection: 2017 was a wild ride with lots of grammar mistakes. but merry christmas yall!

My past job: I didn’t expect to work at my last job for so long, but all the people there made the decision to stay longer easier. I met a lot of new friends and I don’t regret every moment. At the beginning, I truly felt like I was part of something bigger and I adorned a smile that was trademarked to me. However, as time wore on, I felt really tired and working there felt like a chore. I started noticing that people didn’t treat this job with as much enthusiasm as myself. The thing that took the cake was the 4 STEM courses that I naively took (thinking that math was the best thing ever since sliced bread lol). I started getting constant headaches. I went to school in the morning, forced myself to take an hr nap, got ready for work, and then came home at 9:50 to get working at the math homework that was catered for that week’s quiz. My original plan was to work one whole day and one half day, but the dept head didn’t approve of that. She told me: “Its the rule that you must work three days.” But that was not the case against other people as I saw on the schedule. I realized then that I was merely just labour. So I left.

My academics: When I first started university, I thought that it was the norm to have shit grades. I know people/friends that failed a course or two in their first semester, which made me think it was ok to not try as much. So, I didn’t exactly give in my best effort and continued working at the above job and only got slightly above average grades. It wasn’t until this one guy I met in uni that made me realize that excellant grades were obtainable and that all the grading horror stories I’ve heard of did not have to be my destined future. So in Summer 2017, I put in my all and got variations of As in all my courses. But the semester after that turned sour. It was clockwork in the amount of quizzes that were offered per week. After the first four set of midterms were over, the second set of four rolled around. But thankfully I quit my job before I had the first midterm. I feel like I’m beating myself over a few decimal points in calculating my gpa. I know that you have told me to not stress as much but I help comparing that 0.05 difference with someone else.

My relationships: lol no bf. #foreveralone. Ok but regardless of that, I met so many new people this year! Whether its from T&T or from school, I managed to at least try to step out of my comfort zone. Admittedly, I’m quite overwhelmed at times, but I truly do believe that I made an effort and that I should be giving myself more credit for that.

My spending: LOL what is saving! I wouldn’t say that I forced myself to spend, but sometimes I feel that way? Learn now than later amirite? So the first outfit I’ve ever bought with money I earned from my jobs was this blue sweater and black pants from H&M. Well, the sweater lost its colour and so did the pants. But the sweater looks so bad that I don’t even know whether to give it away or wat. I still wear the pants though. Since then and probs $700 later, I’ve bought clothes from a number of places (HBC, forever21, H&M, Old navy, Muji, Uniqlo, Winners, Urban Behaviour, Yesstyle, lol i can list them out) and I would be able to tell you whats the best way to buy clothes. If you want some cheap basics (ie tshirts, jeans), H&M and Old Navy aren’t terrible options. Things other than that from H&M that I’ve bought had: a couple of holes after maybe 3 washes or had lost its colour (the sweater). I found that although the material of Uniqlo clothing is much better in comparison to American fast fashion retailers, their clothes arent constructed as well - ie the cut. I’ve only bought one shirt there (later returned), but my friend said the same thing about her flannel? I’ve only bought one thing from Muji but I noticed that a lot of thought was taken into account towards this item - the seams were beautiful and I’ve never seen any shirt with a hem like that ever. Notorious for the number of older women shopping there, HBC was the best bet for me. I loved every item I got there (except for these boots that I kept hoping that I would eventually break them in >:( ).

My social life: Its fairly non-existant let me tell you that. I’m sorry to all the people that have messaged me and I ended up replying a week later. I know that I promised to go on more often after I quit my job, but I didn’t uphold that promise. In fact, I think I went on facebook even less LOL. School was tiring and I eventually felt that I was going on fb out of my free will. I deleted ig and sc too and I practically lost all connections to my friends except for the close few that have my number and still text me. I found that people are less inclined to text and I feel thats ok cos eventually I’ll find the ideal types of friends. I usually don’t dwell on the bad parts of the past, so I truly dont regret meeting anyone. So thanks to you UBC, I got to meet the coolest people ever at sfu and t&t! #still_salty_tho. I haven’t elaborated on this but the reason why I stopped using social media is because it made me sad. One day, as I was scrolling through my feed, I saw the posted memories that people were creating with their friends and it made me feel bitter. I know that I have incredible friends and I still cherish all the people that I don’t talk to anymore, but I was feeling really upset over that and so I deleted everything so I couldn’t see the feed anymore. Well anyways, I recently downloaded it again, and it doesn’t give me the stimulus that it once provided. So I guess I’m deleting ig for the billionth time hahaha. So I’ll dump all the things that I would’ve posted on ig here with the addition of tl;drs! Enjoy my shit-posting!

My art: I haven’t drawn much since I’ve been pre-occupied with school and work and when I do have free time, I go out. But, I think it’s pretty clear that i’ve improved since the beginning of the year with this drawing. You needa click on the image to see all the details but ok.

I may or may not also post some irl photos, but stay tuned for that :).

Here’s to 2018!