#yall dont look at me rn dont perceive

[thatdeadaquarius]

OP your addtion about the Harbinger's reaction? Sent me wheezing to the moon 🤣🤣💀

I dont have any additions to Teyvat language yet (other anons have a more in depth explanations while mine is just shitposts wheEZE--) but I did have an idea for a Genshin AU.

I'm pretty sure everybody has heard about the blue alien people Avatar. Tribal people from another planet. (Also I just stumbled upon the forests of Sumeru while going through Chasm quests. The one that has giant mushrooms).

Imagine Genshin in the Avatar Au. Sumeru can be based on the first movie (It fits cause from what I can explore of Sumeru reminds me of the time I watched Avatar of the first time. Pure awe and wonder..) While the Water nation can be based on the 2nd movie, Hoyoverse hasnt released the name of the Water Country yet so we're just waiting. Mondstadt can be based on the upcoming 3rd (4th or 5th? Idk they had it lined up) movie that involves being high above the clouds. Kind of like the Jade palace or the Floating Abode in the serenitea pot.

Its all I could base for now since the other movies dont have that much info yet to be paired with Genshin's countries.

Bonus idea that randomnly popped into my head:

Still going with this Au but its sagau themed. Creator!Reader arrives to Teyvat and is considered as Eywa

NOW THIS

THIS IS AN ✨️IDEA✨️

I just want u to know i feel b l e s s e d that u put this in MY ask box , when this coulda been a whole post of ur own 💖💖🙏🙏

WARNING: So i havent seen the new movie, just the og Avatar one, and i totally loved that concept about Eywa and how their world works so ill refresh myself but if theres any new lore from the 2nd movie i aint got it yet ���� srry babs

🎵 FROM THE DAY WE ARRIVED ON THE PLANEETTT

AND STEPPED OUT BLINKING INTO THE SUN

AND THE SUN ROSE HIGH IN A SAPPHIRE SKY

ITS THE CIRRRRCCCLLLEEE OF LIFFFFEEEE 🎵

^ except ur like the life itself bc ur god now

Thats why i put that there

This AU radiates that energy

♤

BRO I TOTALLY FORGOT ABT U MENTIONIMG THE COOL CHASM STUFF AND PICKED THAT GIF ALL ON MY OWN

BC I THOUGHT IF ANYTHING LOOKS LIKE EYWA TREE IN GENSHIN ITS THAT BEAUTIFUL MUSHROOM GOD

ANYWAYS-

So I accidentally posted this too early so keep refreshing or coming back bc if theres no "♡the beloveds♡" im still updating this then LMAO

SRRY GUYS

So anon's a genius and i could listen to u talk about this all day

I fucking love combining world building or lore together

Esp like making one the AU or just the setting like u said with Avatar worlds as settings and same characters-

EEEEEE U ARE EYWA- YESSSSS YESSSSSS I AM YOUR GOD BITCHES!!! SUCK ON MY BIG FAT MAN TIDDIES BITCHES RAHHHHH /REF

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So they deffo use "Eywa" as a term for you instead of your name

Honestly, before when u were a mysterious af planet creature thing (lets say u get isekaied there i mean)

Nobody rlly knew if u even could take a mortal form or even thought of that as a concept

I feel like the younger generations immortals and Teyvat's current countries kinda think of you Eywa as more of a passive entity life force thing

Rather than the older immortals and creatures that had seen thru eons or over the course of a couple thousand years

That u were very aware and intelligent

Not that ur energy or aura didnt tell them that alone

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So a little deeper into the Teyvat lore here but i dont see anybody else talking about it so I will

Originally, it was the Seven Sovriegns and you, and eventually Phanes and their Four Shades,

And they literally all quickly came to realize u literally made this planet and began to start the first traditions of worshipping you!

Like putting gifts or hand made goods at the base

(Ppl have also gotten a tradition from Morax/Rex Lapis and Guizhong and other adepti to leave birthday letters to offer you, which ties into what i say below⬇️)

Ya know,

Eywa the tree could even be a sort of source to the eyes of Teyvat of what you look like while u were playing the game

Like how Eywa's little jellyfish reach ppl in the forest and shit? I think?

So like i would imagine that whatever u make certain vessels or acolytes do most often, is what they think they should offer u :0

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Claymore users give u gemstones and ores

Bow users give u hunted game like fowl, or the treasure from puzzles that required arrows (like those bursting blue balloons?)

Catalysts and Polearms give u all kinda of crazy shit lmao

Bc they can be used for a vareity of things

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Bc of ur player status and abilities, people of Teyvat attribute a gain in power or talents or whatnot to you, Eywa

So say u actually physically there now, and u just wake up under the coolest sickest tree youve ever seen in ur life

Omg could u imagine????

Seeing Teyvat irl? But AVATAR WORLD IRL???!!!

You would stand there lookin around like a drunk fuck for like 20 minutes, maybe longer lmao

Its just so ✨️pretty✨️ here

Also the tree itself just feels like, the equivalent to ur bedroom basically but like specifically if it was hella comfy and like just the way u want it (all the decor is up, the floor is clean, u got like hot choco on ur desk, theres a candle burning, etc.)

♤

Oh so since ur like weirdly connected to the land, like u know how theres a voice line abt walking in that glowing aranara part of Sumeru and ur steps light up?

I saw that too in the OG avatar movie

So i feel like u would have a map with ALLLLL the peoples on it and little icons

U can focus on just vision users or bosses or big nature things like Dragonspine

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Oh so Eywa can control all animals and whatnot and so u as a mortal person can too

So anytime theres a threat u can deadass just become a pokemon trainer LMAO

Ok but think how badass it would be to just like,

Get the Primo Geovishap or Giant Bird Jadeplume Terror thingy to just leave their territory and wipeout some mfs

(coughunknowngodasomodaycough)

It would be fucking amazing

♧

Unrelated to above bc im just spitting out ideas srry guys

but like

I feel like if u were a lifeforce sort of ancient eldritch god for the entire goddamn continent of Teyvat let alone the whole planet-

You would have to maintain said continent/planet

Like, make sure the Irminsul is growing okay, protect from mfs like Dottore,

Stop diasters if ur Eywa too, esp bc u can hear prayers now, and would hear ppl crying out to help them geez

while the prayers of the many kinda just glob together to form the major "feeling" of the prayer for most creatures,

Vision users, gods, ancient creatures u can get their exact sentences

Basically more magic = better heard to connect with u

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Oh u know, i could even see it being even more manual or personal labor bc ur not like a tree connected to ur roots thruout the world technically

Like if volcanoes erupt in Natlan, the archon and gods there help and u r also wanted/needed in person for it to work

U would still be powerful, but yeah like say the tree was u just playing genshin before,

The game automatically regulated diasters and stuff other than what was supposed to happen in game

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So kinda bouncing off that I read smwhere that the Na'vi dont actually view Eywa as like omnipotent or omniscient

(like the God™️ from the Christian bible for a example of what your not)

And also! Dont blame/attribute natural diasters, plagues, or other bad stuff on Eywa

So good for you whew 💦

Ur actually supposed to kinda just be the collective lifeforce or Teyvat/world and nature, and a defender and guide of life :0

Which kinda fits with the whole "upgrading characters" thing actually

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Okay but I saw somewhere in SAGAU tag someone did another name instead of Creator to spice it up and its "All-Mother"

And interestingly, Eywa in Avatar is also called that and "Great Mother"!!

How fun :0

Also, the reason Eywa still got people with free-will is bc they kinda described the relationship to Eywa being something like a mother or parent

Maybe where name/titles came from ig?

Either way, ppl be calling u all types of nicknames u aint heard before lmao

I mean ur sacred, they dont just say ur name,

Nobody knows ur real name or what u call yourself

Just what they call u

Bc they couldnt communicate with u super well before, (the bday letters were the closest they got verbally, and even then they had to be addressed somewhat to ur first vessel the traveler to get thru/be seen)

Otherwise yeah u operating them lets say before on Earth you rlly felt like an eldritch nature deity 💀

Cause u guide them in battles, strengthen their talents and skills and bodies, and feed them food

If they were in battle like needing healing food, u help them heal by consuming it for them so they dont have to take a snack break in battle and

Let me tell u, these denizens of Teyvat who have to constantly deal with magic and monsters and abyss stuff, so a stroll outside ur house gets u in a fight...

...They are very grateful for that needless to say.

Plus i like to think u make fighting easier on them bc ur "guiding" their bodies

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Anyway thats a long winded way to say, help me think of all the names Teyvat's given you lmao:

Eywa

All-Mother / Great Mother

All-Father / Great Father

All-Parent? / Great Parent

Creator

Their Grace

Great Puppeteer

The Puppeteer

Soul of Teyvat

Greatest Soul

☆

She aint long bc im not that creative and this idea has sm potential too😔

I would love to be Eywa sounds fun and powerful af and i dont get expected to be Jesus and they know i dont cause the natural diasters, like that sounds nice

Aight im no genius and this writing feels like im just rambling like a drunk guy sittin on the sidewalk mumbling to myself, i had to stop writing 💀

Like that energy specifically-

So lmk if yall got any other cool titles or names :0

I couldn't think of anymore :/

Also srry about the updating this post and making u check back in if u already read this before i put the taglist

(Me putting the taglist means im done editing/writing this dw if u seein this)

Cheers,

🌒🌧🌊Aquarius♒️🌌🌘

♡my beloveds♡

@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist

[gibbearish]

hello i’m questioning if i’m transmasc rn and i took your am i trans uquiz and the parts about wishing you were a ‘real’ [agab]/feeling like you’re not good at being your agab and feeling like a ghost possessing your own body hit me like a train. i’ve taken so many am i trans quizzes over the last couple days. this is gonna sound weird but i hope i really am trans so i don’t have to be perceived as a girl anymore. i get random gender crises every few months but this one is the worst i’ve ever gotten and i can’t figure out if i’m actually trans or not 😭 i feel like a fake because i never showed any signs as a kid and also this particular gender crisis only started about a week ago and i felt pretty fem before that. also my best friend is a trans guy and i hang out with him literally all the time so i’m scared i’m just copying him or something (i also get really jealous that he gets to be a boy lol) anyway sorry for rambling in your askbox but if you’ve got any advice for me i’d really appreciate it 😭

sometimes when yall from the uquiz message me i have to physically restrain myself from saying "my advice is to read back everything you just said." and usually i can manage to tamp down the urge and handle it a lot more delicately, but. i am losing that battle currently. you arent having random gender crises every few months, youre having one ongoing crisis that you keep talking yourself out of. i try very hard to avoid giving solid answers on these bc no matter how obvious it can seem, i still have no way of knowing for sure but. like. dude.

youve taken a bunch of quizzes about this, and based on what you've said here im assuming youve gotten similar results from most of them. you keep having this same crisis every few months. you want to be trans so you dont have to be seen as a girl. youre jealous of your ftm friend because he gets to be a boy. look me in the eyes here and tell me you dont know exactly what all of that means

[weirdmageddon]

ok so this is an ongoing thing for me is knowing how im perceived by other people. and this is what my friend observed

friend gave me a semi classpect-based analysis cause that’s been on our minds lately and its a good analysis tool to look at greater patterns…….but anyway

im a knight of light

chat from how i appear in public, what do you think about this. do you agree

what about the relationship to my classpect and what you know about me or how you perceive me. what about the points my friend brings up

im stoned and want a discussion on this rn but im worried about coming off as self-absorbed by having it be me as the subject matter even though what i wanna do is more like …. socratic discussion. how am i rendered to you all? am i intimidating because internally i dont feel like i am, kinda like dave, or like knowledge-based edward scissorhands or some shit? do i unconsciously demand others have good self esteem (or develop it) when they interact with me? whats my vibe communication style stuff like that too

im asking this from a neutral standpoint

its like i need yall to be my eyes and tell me what you see because i can only know what i think i see and i need that objective bizz

what characters am i a mix of

[fapper]

Like okay we got like, 4 unasked comments from STRANGERS today within 3 hours like help so some random guy said “hi” to this one cunt in the group who i now resent for reasons (she manipulated me into thinking i am the problem) there was this one girl who said “you guys loook so good be safe!!!” To us and uhhmmmm i was like ok but the other ppl were like aww thanks shes nice etc. me PERSONALLY, i dont like receiving unasked compliments from strangers but thats just me . AnywYs theres this one guy who said “have a great night yall” LIKE SHUT THE FUCKKKK UPPPPPPP NOBODY ASKED. NOBODY. And this girl who said “i realllyyyy love your top” to the same cunt i resent

And so we come back. From this failed 3 hour trip of looking for parties. I get mcdonalds. I go to her room. We have a conversation.

The conversation was really fucking uncomfortable and i was physically like acting very erratic like i looked insane but its okay ummm. She was like “yeahhh i mean your attitude was also… brought down the spirit of us because it couldve easily been avoided if you just tried.” (To be more engaged i guess??? Like no you legit told me to CALM DOWN after i simply offered my opinion. And then proceeded to say some snarky lame ass comment calling me like, i forgot idk but it was a rude comment and it was manipulative as fuck lmfao bc i wasnt even being attitudinal i was legit just talking how i normally talk but i guess i came off as rude or smt. No i wasnt rude. You just perceived what i was saying as rude from my tone which is usually monotone. So yeah its your fault for kind of interpreting the vibe so erroneously like that like yeah kill yourself kinda wait ngl i sound kinda manipulative rn ok slay bc its funny when i do it but not when you do it

Holy shit im the problem omfg 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 lowkey i was the problem. A little bit tho not the entire problem. Wow. Im kinda toxic ummmm. Hi

[joculatrixster]

hope this isn’t weird but that post abt cookies being drawn as white and poc is like. super inaccurate because whitewashing is never okay ??? like even if someone “looks” white colorism is still a thing and should be discouraged (not to mention op of the post mislabeled cookies as “white” when cookies lighter than them are in the poc category...)

woo boy this is gonna be a long post, pls read it all the way through because i dont want to repeat myself too much, this is a complicated matter so i have complicated feeling's on it as u could have seen from my reply criticizing the post itself, im also not gonna answer any anons on this that i think r being nasty or anything because honestly it took me a while to figure out my feelings on the cookei run race discourse and im pretty square in my opinions, anons telling me im rasict or something because of it wont shake me as much as they did the first time i tipped my toe into this cause im clear headed rn, im open to hearing other ppls thoughts so hear mine out too :)

yeah i saw the post as flawed but like i dont think ppl understand and im sorry to say it so bluntly but not everyone draws a cookie lighter because they think white is prettier they just see it as a humization, let me explain before anyone else sends an ask just based off that

its an artist interpretation of the character, hey if u personally would never ever lighten a characters skintone more power to u but given circumstances of lighting and tanning some skintones can vary as long as u dont make a character lose their more ethic traits like hair texture or facial features and try to be faithful then yeah just draw them as u interpret them, its up to how u perceive the character

like to be its about good faith interpretation did u draw someone like herb or adventurer as paler because u see them as white? that's fine they can be clearly read as caucasian so thats good faith, u can argue that they may be not caucasian but someone else can argue that they are and both hcs given the characters skintones would make sense

did u draw someone like pomegranate or kumiho as white? thats bad because their clearly poc and are either clearly brown or have codding in them like how kumiho is based off an east asian fox spirit 

like a LOOONG time ago i made a similar post back when i wasnt all that educated on some issues and ppl got mad at me which was fair, my post was rlly badly worded but the things ppl brought up was also just showing some ppl dont understand why whitewashing is bad, its not just about color its about seeing caucasian as an ethnicity more beautiful than any others and erasing what makes them a person of color as an “improvement” cookie run fans, especially the east asian ones, defiantly fall into that category but im sorry to point out that that op doesn't because they didnt say white is an improvement they said drawing them as a lighter skintone would make sense with the ethnic indicators of the character

since they are not humans there is margin of error because yes those are dugfh colros that's why some cookies aren't realistic human skintones and why u have to decided for urself where to draw the line with lighter brown cookeis cause it can be blurry, by ur own logic anon licorice should be white because his skin is a pale grey despite his dreads u see the issue there?? u have to take into mind the other indicators beyond the literal dough hue for if ur whitewashing a cookie, im a light skinned black person whos mixed race depending on if im inside a lot or outside a lot my skin can be near white color or a more tan so if u looked at pictures of me in different seasons ud think someone lighted my skintone in the winter pics but no skintones ca just naturally change like that irl given lighting and exposer to sunlight

if u rlly think lighting it a lil bit is instantly colorism pls educate urself on colorism, colorism is a serious issue in poc community and yall throwing around the term when its not what that is is rlly devaluing it im sorry to say which sucks because more ppl in this community need to learn about it

this is all just my take on the matter from my research and own perspectives, other ppl will feel differently and place a hard stance on it but honestly there's nothing morally wrong with this perspective and considering these are cookies they aren't actual reptrentation of human poc, as long as the dough color isn't drastically lighted or ur not erasing, of course this is just how i feel about cookie run specifically in other circumstances im less lax and i feel like ppl do whitewash some lighter skinned characters but yeah in relation to that post no i dont think its whitewashing personally i think op just interpreted the cookeis in that way

at the end of the day things liek this are not as black and white as both sides of the coin belive they are rlly, their gray and everyone's comfort zone for some characters are valid but pls stop calling stuff colorism when its not. i get why u guys think it is and honestly if it makes u uncomfy for any skintone variation to the lighter side that's fine but no its not rasict or colorism to think a light skinned cookie can be drawn with a lighter skintone as log as u dont say the character looks better that way because then they r being colorist

oh and before i forget i want to remind everyone that op is a minor dont fucking harrass them, critizie them with ur own opioins but dont harrass them because u dont agree with their perception of fictional characters thats petty and dont do it

[wherearemyglassesbro]

Airport/Plane Etiquette

•Don't spray perfume or use heavily scented products, I personally don't have scent allergies and i don't get headaches but i know people who do. Being encased in a giant, metal, flying tube and being unable to escape your horrible choice in scents will make anyone’s plane ride miserable

•Don't take forever in the bathroom. Dont. Don't just sit there and watch tic-toks or play candy crush on the toilet cause bitch, there's usually only two bathrooms per plane so you're hogging one! Especially don't take forever when you’re halfway through the flight because that's when everyone’s tryna go!

•If you're flying in a small plane like Spirit Airlines planes, don't complain loudly or kick people seats. It's disrespectful and you know what kind of flight you're about to get onto based on the price, okay??? I’ve flown Spirit mannnnny times and someone always has to complain. Shush!! You payed $50 to fly to Orlando!!! On a small plane!! What did you expect??? Be grateful that you saved so much money

•Don't let your kid cry the whole time. You’re ruining everyone’s flight!!! I know people are gonna be like “it’s just as embarrassing for the parents” yea I know! Ookay? I know they're embarrassed but they need to...control the kid. Give them a benadryl or something to knock them out for an hour or so. Because a screeching kid isn't good for anyone. Screeching giant even good for the kid lmao

•^^^^ Also!!!! Don't let your kid kick seats or touch other passengers!!! That's obnoxious and inconsiderate! Not to mention, you look like a terrible mother/father. It sounds harsh but that's how others will perceive you if you don't control your spawn

•If you take your shoes off, wear socks. Otherwise don't! Just don't. Being Barefoot on a plane is gross for everyone involved

•No personal grooming on the flight. Don't be a nasty BITCH!! Don't cut your nails, shave or do nasty things. This should be common knowledge, but apparently it isn't.

•When you’re going to exit the plane, collect all of your things BEFORE we land!!! Put everything in your backpack and wait patiently! Cause then by the time you land, you ca quickly grab your overhead bag and then get the fuck off!!!!! Keep in mind that there are rows and rows of people behind you trying to leave!!! Go quicker! Move faster!

•Be kind and considerate to the flight attendants! Because they're so nice and they're just doing their job! By the time you’re flying, they're probably so tired and trying their hardest to keep a smile on their faces :)

•For the love of god, if you're gonna watch videos put your earphones in!!! No one wants to listen to your Fortnite commentary videos

•Don't make a scene in the airport. Just don't man...Other people are trying to get places and trying to get home too. You’re not special. You really aren't, I don't care if you have a meeting in ten minutes or if you're a platinum Delta member, everyone is on equal playing ground at the airport and not one person gives a shit because they're trying to get to THEIR meeting or THEIR uber! Don't shove, yell, cuss or hit others.

•Security is trying to do their job, don't make it harder than it needs to be. It isn't hard to follow instructions. Shoes off, electronics in a tray, shoes on the conveyor belt, purses and backpacks in their own tray separate from technology, take your belt off and your apple watch, throw our or chuig drinks cause they cant come with you through security. If you get picked for a pat down, be cooperative and respectful because it'll all go by quicker. Trust me :) It really isn't hard to follow instructions, i've never understood how people can be so incompetatn at the secutor hats...Bruh...I knew what to do when I was 14 okay??? A grown ass woman can figure it out

•Don't watch or read p*rn on the plane or at the airport, there are families here don't be disgusting

•When waiting for your baggage to get to the dock, don't shove. Even if you see your bag. Again, its hella rude! And it isn't hard to just say ‘excuse me!’

•If you’re on the moving walkways, stay to the right so people can walk by you. Don't stand in the center and prevent others from walking around yu!!!!! Asshole!

•If you’re sick and contagious, wear a mask on the plane if you're allowed to. You're in a giant metal tube in the sky, forced to breathe everyone’s germs. Nasty nasty!

•If you're scared, close the window and take a benedry;l or something. No need to flip out and make everyone else uncomfortable or uneasy.

•Before exiting the plane pick up your wrappers and major messes. Every timei get off a plane i walk past rows and rows of seats with wrappers and empty bottles. Gross. Yall are pigs and should be ashamed

[spunkyspy]

You're right that he didn't have great jury management, but he wasn't as bad as Paul imo. He at least tried to right some of his wrongs, while all Paul did was say, "oh that's just who I am you'll have to deal with it!" When people confronted him. I don't really remember Tyler having bad gbm's, except for his to Scottie. Are there more examples? Not saying you're wrong I just really don't remember.

What wrongs did he try to right though besides apologizing to Bay at the end (which was clearly too little too late?) and i think theres some confusion in me saying he didnt have good GBMs, i dont mean that he left nasty ones, i mean more that he didnt use them like he could have/should have, Josh style (his one to Scottie was AWFUL though we can agree). 

But imo Tyler lost the game with his treatment of Bay and Sam. 

With Bay, he NEVER should have let that blow up happen after the house meeting. The shit with the sunglasses and the tea was enough, but him letting her walk away from that fight THAT upset was a huge mistake. He should have just sucked it up and apologized and it really wouldnt have affected his game (L6 wouldnt have cared imo and it would have gained him some favor with the hive). It’s been a while, but iirc she wasnt even calling him out on game stuff really, just the personal treatment she received so just fucking apologize. The first juror plays such an instrumental role in setting the tone for the jury, look at Bay, Cody, and Day! Look at Shelli in bb17! She was there repping for Vanessa every week and they were already to vote for her (minus Austin) even though she sent them all there. Letting Bay walk out of that house and into the jury house furious with him was such a big mistake because she could have easily sat there and poisoned all of them against him (not saying she did, but they did have a voting pact at one time).

Sam I think was an even bigger mistake than Bay and she’s actually where I think he lost the game. Sam was VERY clear with Tyler that she just didnt want to be lied to. iirc she told him that if they were gonna vote her out to just tell her and she wouldnt be upset but just dont lie to her. imo, he should have just sat her down and told her “look, im sorry, but day 1 i made a deal with Kaycee and that’s what I have to move forward with. i care about you and the connection we made, and ive kept my word to you so far, but I have to do what’s best for my game at this point and i dont want you to be blindsided.” but he instead sent her to the jury house semi-blindsided where she had to learn a lot of that info from the hive/Brett/Angela, which was very Paul-esque of him. Theres also that video that I cant find rn of Sam talking to Tyler about Kaycee that should have been a MASSIVE red flag to him that he couldnt have beat Kaycee. 

I’ve seen people argue that the Machiavellian/mastermind/whatever you want to call it game cant win BB anymore, and i dont think that’s true, i think people are just playing them incorrectly. I think one fatal flaw that Tyler had (Paul too) was playing for TV instead of the jury. All those blindsides and gif moments that he thought he was making were great for TV sure, but that’s not how you win the game. He was more concerned with playing a game that would look good instead of one that would win him the game. I’ve said before too that I think Tyler tried to play a prejury game post jury and I still think that’s true too, but it ultimately doesnt matter how good of a game you played, and it damn sure doesnt matter how good your game looked on TV, all that matters is how the jury perceives your game and that’s largely on you as a player. Ik i keep mentioning her, but just look at Vanessa, she very much so played a mastermind game, but she would have won in any f2 scenario bc she was great at population control/jury management! I don’t think Tyler was as bad as Paul either, but they’re both in that same camp of being more concerned with being an “iconic” player instead of actually winning, at least imo, 

I literally didnt mean for this to be an essay so yall can save me all your “No ones reading that comments” ksjdflksdjf

[targentis]

ok u know what i DO have the energy for transmeds/truscum i know exactly what i want to say rn

first off. sex dysphoria isnt the only kind of dysphoria. yes i have a "soft boy pussy uwu" and sorry youre bitter that im comfortable with it. that doesnt make me cis tho. wanna know why???? i know yall dont wanna take "because i identify as a boy" as an answer so im gonna play your game for a second. i have dysphoria, but not sex dysphoria. i cant stand being deadnamed or misgendered in conversation. drives me up the fucking wall.

but thats just me. and you know what? you Dont need dysphoria, of Any Kind, to be trans. literally if you identify as any gender other than the one you were born with then youre trans. idk where this bullshit gatekeeping came from

also are we just gonna leave gender euphoria out of the conversation? obviously people have a reason for identifying a certain way. if they dont have dysphoria, they probably sure as hell have euphoria!!! they enjoy being perceived as the gender they identify as!! and thats what fucking matters isnt it!!!

also i dont wanna hear any more of this fuckin "if youre female presenting then youre female" nonsense because i cannot believe actual real trans people are perpetuating this cisnormative attitude. gender expression is not gender identity. period. and who the fuck is the gender expression police anyway? who gets to decide if someone """looks female"""? i dont care where you picked up your degree in transphobic biology that shit is subjective and you know it. you just hate that people are comfortable identifying in a different way than you.

[sweetheartjeongguk]

get to know me better tag ♡

thanks to @monotaes for tagging me ilysm 

rules: tag 10 people you want to get to know better.

☀️ star sign: capricorn

☀️ put your playlist on shuffle and list the first four songs: 

crystal snow by bts

renee by SALES

happiness by red velvet 

intro: neo got my back by nct u 

☀️ grab the nearest book. turn to page 23, what is line 17?

RIP I HAVE NO BOOKS AROUND ME LMFAO

☀️ ever had a song or poem written about you? 

kinda???? but also not really

☀️ when was the last time you played air guitar?

probably a couple days ago when i was jamming out in bed LOL 

☀️ whats a sound you hate? you love?

i hate the sound of nails scratching against drywall. also im gross, but i lowkey love asmr videos when they eat giant ass crabmeat LMFAO, it just gets me hungry but oh well 

☀️do you believe in ghosts?

ehh, im half and half about it 

☀️do you believe in aliens? 

yee, but not stereotypical aliens. they probably look cool and might look like how we perceive them to be, but lowkey what if they just look like humans pfft 

☀️ do you like the smell of gasoline?

i used to, but now i love myself so yall dont go huffing gasoline 

☀️ last movie you watched? 

bohemian rhapsody in theaters, but i think the sailor moon s movie??? idek when the last time i sat down and watched a movie was?? 

☀️ the worst injury you ever had? 

i gave myself second-degree burns on my leg bc i dropped my hair straightener when i was doing my hair while bouncing on a yoga ball ... yeah... 

☀️ do you have any obsessions right now?

other than the usual bts... probably legend of zelda?? i got inspired again by breath of the wild and its emoness so.. :)) 

☀️ do you tend to hold grudges? 

kinda... but at the same time, i dont care or i just dont feel anything towards it/them. i can get petty though so LOL 

☀️ in a relationship? 

im in a relationship with my hand..LOL JK IM JUST SINGLE T__T

TAGGING: WHOEVER WANTS TO DO IT LOL IM IN SCHOOL RN SO I CANT THINK UP ANYONE RIGHT NOW BUT ILY :) 

[tamiddyinyourcity]

My boyfriend didnt text me after work and i assumed i was getting plowed..........i kinda wanna cry?

Still a great day. He got me earrings, he looked damned sexy today with those FINE ASS EYES AND SMILE of his, and we had a nice time at the movies today.

So i guess admittedly im only disappointed since once i got home after our sweet "hes holding me, im crying over past traumatic family incidents, and he hugs and cools me down until i finally smile again", i was like "that was really nice.... i really like this guy. and surprisingly im not irritable about parting ways or anything."

Until i guess he mentioned overtime and wanting to see me tmrw, i was like "awww dont worry you can see me tonight or maybe early tomorrow morning! text me after work!"

....and that was at 8:12pm.

....its now 1:15am.

And i feel like i have blue balls, since i really was ready to put it tf on him tonight.

My pussy went from "time to clean and wind down comfortably for the rest of the day, knowing my boyfriend cares about me, and that hes now safe at work and busy but we can talk some other day...."

To "OH WAIT HE WANTS TO SEE ME AGAIN SO SOON???? IM ABOUT TO FUCK, I AM READY TO FUCK HIM, YES PLEASE, I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO FOR LIKE A WEEK".

to "oh....... he hasnt responded and its past midnight...... he.... probably doesnt like me.... after all????????"

But to stop myself from re-awakening the insecurities about how I'm perceived by a significant other, I decided to put on the nice dangly pair of earrings he gave me today.

Theyre nice. I havent worn dangly earrings in forever. He seemed openly nervous since I always wear stud earrings, but I thought, "Nah bro, the fact that you even got me anything at all is whats making me smile rn."

Plus, cool iridescent abalone shell earrings.

I'm not sure when I'll wear these, but tonight seems like a pretty good start. I feel likke a nice pretty little chandelier, or a wind chime I guess.

If anything, its just a nice feeling of knowing that he does like me.

I got a little nervous.

It was kinda empty during Thanksgiving, but his arrival was already nice of "hey sorry i was depressed as fuck and took 40 minutes or more to leave the house, since i also still wanted to be cute and not bare minimum when you first see me again!!!"

Then "oh damn he looks good, i missed his face and personality", to ....

Oh holy shit, he got me something?

People think about me when im not around?

Oh dear.

And long story short.

I was blushing like fucking hell even when holding the box itself. My cheeks felt hot, and seeing these cute iridescent spiraks made me feel so damn appreciated.

Thanks Patrick.

God bless, peace out yalls, and if youre reading this, talk to joe for me

[survivorkomnata]

Episode #13: “I'm about to make a million dollar mistake..” - Tim

So....pretty sure my game just suffered a MAJOR setback. Alyssa was my ride or die to the end, and Karth just proved himself to be an unreliable ally. He felt threatened by Alyssa, and maybe rightfully so, since she would definitely have probably beaten him. So at this point, it looks like the sides are lining up to be Me/Zach vs /Tim/Karth/Stephen at this point. I don't think I can convince either Tim or Karth to go against the other, but Stephen might be a possibility. I promised him my loyalty if he'd be my ally, and I argued that tim and karth definitely could NOT and have shown that they will break those promises, so Stephen is pretty much my hope at this point. That being said, I am one clue for spelling the word 'ESCAPE' in the idol hunt, although I don't know what to do with the word once I get it. If I can pull out an immunity this time and get the idol, it's a possibility I could still make it to the end. Here's hoping.

So I survived the last tribal!!!! I can't believe it!! I'm very very satisfied with the way last round unraveled. I pushed for Alyssa to go because she was the main person after me and I was happy with targeting her this round. I pushed for her name because I figured Zach wouldn't want to go to rocks over Alyssa and if he didn't then she'd go home. I didn't want to vote Jake out because I'm trying to bring him to the end of the game with me and karthik. It all worked out in my favor when Stephen won immunity and Zach,Alyssa, and Jake voted for me. Karthik wouldn't flip on me and Stephen had nothing to lose in the event of a rock draw.

So this round's challenge is mastermind! I absolutely love this challenge it is my favorite!!!! Ok so the worst case scenario that can happen tonight is Zach winning immunity and Jake playing an idol on himself!!! That would leave me completely vulnerable. The only way I would survive in that scenario is if Zach and Jake vote Stephen and not me, which I doubt. But the numbers are dwindling quickly. Does jake really think he stands a chance against Zach or Stephen at the end???? He can't be that delusional right??

i promised alyssa i would have me or jake in ftc.

i lied.

the idol is gone.

i'm flopping at this challenge.

it's over.

i'm going :airplane emoji: fifth place.

i think there's a decent chance the vote is 3-2 and i'm in the 3, but get idolled out.

So basically at this point, my path to the end involves Karth not being an idiot, but for whatever reason, he doesn’t want to recognize Stephen as the legit jury threat he is. Ughhhh

Zach claims Stephen is the biggest challenge threat between the two since he has won 2 immunities. I disagree. Have yall SEEN Zach premerge??? He literally carried every tribe he was on. He def has challenge capabilities that I or Stephen don't possess. If I vote out Stephen then it leaves two duos at final 4. Its a 2v2 and if Zach wins that immunity then the game is over for me. If Jake wins it will go to firemaking and I will get my ass handed to me by Zach. On the FLIP SIDE If I vote out Zach then the game becomes a 3v1 with Stephen being a solo player. If he wins that immunity then I can kiss my chances of winning goodbye. If he loses then his game is up and I get to go to f3 and possibly win?? So that is why I'm leaning towards voting for Zach over Stephen.

I'm about to make a million dollar mistake.

I am a mess..idk what to do. I am unsure if I should be glad or sad for being the only person not getting votes so far. I have been doing the best I can but it still seems that I would be seen as the goat at the end. Its so unclear for me on how the jury perceives any of the remaining people and who their favorite. All I know is its definitely not me. At least winning this immunity could have given me some confidence but I wasnt lucky in that either.

I've been pretty calm all day today knowing that I'm going to survive the Tribal Council thanks to my idol. Maybe to a strange degree, but honestly, it's all okay. Jake winning immunity is unfortunate only because it limits my options of who to vote out, but I was leaning towards voting Zach anyway, so this isn't the worst case scenario at all.

Since Alyssa has been voted out, Tim and Jake have both told me that I'd win if I make Final Tribal Council. Tim even got a little vindictive with me when I tried to argue I wasn't the biggest threat to win. I appreciate the compliment, but not all of the implications that come with it. Needless to say, if I didn't have an idol, I'd be packing my bags tonight. But luckily, thanks to Tim, Karth, Alyssa, Jess, and Ally, and all the information they gave me, I won't have to worry about that. My eyes are on F4.

Winning the next immunity challenge would be amazing. It might get me into Final Tribal, but it may also just get me into F3 immunity. I have no clue what it could be. I hope I don't NEED to rely on immunity to stay, but, I mean, give me a break here. With so many people saying I'm THE threat to win, how could I not feel that way?

🚨🚨🚨ANNOUNCEMENT🚨🚨🚨 🚨THIS IS POSSIBLY MY LAST CONFESSIONAL FOR CELESTIAL: KOMNATA🚨

i believe this vote will be 3 votes stephen, 2 votes me. i also believe, in some way, stephen is going to get idolled.

my initial plan was to get [tim + karthik] = stephen [zach + jake] = tim [stephen] = zach

so when one of them idolled, i was safe. however, tim not being on board derails that plan entirely. this game is so frustrating. his logic to a degree makes sense. i support it. but like, stephen will sweep this FTC and i honestly probs wouldn't so. also, through our conversation, i realize how smart tim is. good for him!! king of analyzing.

anyway.

firstly, thank yawls for hosting. i'm sorry 2 alyssa. it's just sucky cuz the "three biggest players" at merge (this is on paper, not legit) were ally/alyssa/myself, and all three of us are probably leaving back 2 back LOL

i also want to apologize to jake. this is for post-season ig NNNNNN jake - i want 2 apologize for being distrusting of you in the past. you are a great person + i am so appreciative to have worked with you & met you in this game.

i am leaving this game content (if i do, that is). i played hard. despite a huge target on my back, i managed to get fifth (when i almost got 10th/7th). i had a pretty elevated social game, physical game too, and i think strategically i was fine. my main blunder was the idol misplay but zzz i wouldve used it at f6/7 anyway probs, just bc ppl knew i had it. i dont want to stroke my ego or anything but im fully accepting of how i played. i only wish i had more agency, but i dont really fault myself for that i guess (but when i get to jury/post season ill def see that it's probs more something i did but... for now, i'm angel :$)

me rn: Alexa, play The Climb

going✈️fifth and going✈️jury tonight! cheers

🚨🚨🚨gays dont win lol🚨🚨🚨

Sooooo...this vote basically hinges entirely on Karthik. If we three vote Stephen (is and Zach), then Stephen is out UNLESS he plays the idol which is a distinct possibility. Either way, the possibility that Stephen gets three votes and doesn’t have an idol is the only way Zach can get thru this vote, and I really hope he does.

Zach is voted out in a 3-2 vote. He becomes the seventh member of our jury.