#yall dont have to do it !!! no stressi

[nightmareinspector]

tagged by @1shimaru ty aaron ily !!!!!

Rules: Name your top 10 favorite characters from 10 different fandoms and then tag 10 people!

Phantom R (Rhythm Thief) I LOVE YOOOOOOOOOUUUU

Aya Shameimaru (Touhou) My WIFE!!! I LOOVE HERR

Silver the Hedgehog !!!!!!!!! my son

Riamu Yumemi (im@s) I DONT EVEN GO TO IM@S I JUST... FELL IN LOVE W/ HER.....

Lum Invader (Urusei Yatsura) i love !! her !! darling!!!1

D-suke (shuuenpro) god. the original fave. i love he

Aoi Asahina (DR) THERES A LOTTA DR CHARAS I LOV.. HARD CHIOCE.....

galaco (vocaloid) SHES SO PRETTY... SO UNDERRATED.. I WUVVV HERRRR

jigglypuff !!!!! round friend i love her she’s jsut littol babey........

my melody! also a littl friend... all sanrio characters are valid but especially her

I’m gonna tag !!!! @kokichimiko, @nintengu, @alnoots, @ryagin, @murai-maquina, @greatest-maccao, @greeenhillzone, @dork-ages, @theweegeemeister aaand!!!!! anyone else that wants to do it !!! talk about ur faves it’s fun!! :>

[unironicduncanstan]

jhhkgf; honestly no hate no shade no gatorade but i am trying so hard to keep giving this blog a chance but with who i am as a person when i log on and the first thing i see is a post that starts with ‘duncan is ugly-’ and then an asexual cringe moodboard and Then what appears to be borderline teenager porn its a little bit hard to, Cope , 

[demyrie]

GAD

DAMNNNNNN

yall are sluts for shinsou smdh i mean wow i mean wwwwwwwwwooooooowwwwww

;) teehee so happy to see everyone excited! All the reblogs and general (incredibly genuine and florid and wonderful!!!!) recs made my day after a very stressy, not good day at work. AND WHAT AN AMAZING TEAR-JERKING RESPONSE TO THE LAST-LAST CHAPTER HOLY SHIT, I am still having trouble separating my hands from my face, especially after how nervous I was. YOU ALL. WONDERFUL. THANK YOU. AGH.

Alsoooo i’m not nearly as hypnotized as the rest of you RE: the rumpled purple hair boy so if you know of any THINGS and NEEDS that Shinsou people NEED please toss it my way because now I’m feeling like ... yes there will be cats and Aizawa involved but ...??? I DONT KNOW THIS BOY (and neither do you but hivemind headcanons are fun and obviously people have put a lot of thought into who he could be!)

Anyways thanks guys, omg, you are the sweetest and I’m feeling ugh so blessed right now. Hope all is well for you <3 I’m very grateful you’re around, tbh.

[fuckigngh]

OK HI LMAO

compared to all of these im doing so much fucking better yall. i don't even THINK of trying to hurt myself anymore, im becoming more open with myself and trying to actually be really happy, i no longer feel like a huge loser and a disruption to everyone's lives etc. im going into my freshman year in a few weeks for highschool, i just got done with school work, clancies is still going strong, im a kirishima stan (AS I SHOULD BE!), ive made a lot of friends, my last anxiety attack was like a month ago (thats a good thing), i don't feel sad anymore, my art style is actually good for once etc etc I AM DOING JUST FINE!!! I am doing great actually! not even compared to my last reposts on this thread. im just actually doing OK!

however, a few problems! stress! lots of stress about school (its been mostly alleviated since i finished school but im going to a completely different town for school this year so ! what do u expect). eyesight! im getting my eyes re-examined again on monday but Bruh it deadass Hurts To See.. like open my eyes and im like Owie. i think i have adhd or sumn! based on my moms logic it would be more than likely that i do, so i guess i just need to change my diet and stuff :-/ adhd meds aren't good for kids (im still a child of course). I haven't been to a doctor in a while! last time i went was maybe for a blood drawing? but that took 5 minutes so it doesn't rly count. it was like , 7 months ago. oh well. I'll see one very soon! selfishness. I don't really know about this one that much but i constantly feel like im being selfish and uncaring a lot more lately? idk i mean i just got off my period so that may be why but i just feel rly self conscious abt how much i talk abt myself (like Rn) and all that and my parents would just say like "thts so stupid," so . Not rly helpful lol. Speaking Of! parents. yes. they are. still a problem. ive probably heard my dad say "i don't drink but you're driving me to" to my mom like 3 times this week, and not rly as a joke? my mom and dad have been arguing a lot but i think its just stressy in my house :-//. they're annoying lol.

and those are all of my problems. not too bad!!! oh yeah my earbuds broke too but thats easy to fix.

anyways! yeah im doing a lot better. i just keep this up as a reminder to never stop pushing and to always strive to be happier or better or kinder etc because you never know what could be going on. im in remission! im doing better! and i will strive to stay this way for good. being sad is a waste of time. its not cool. its not fun. its not trendy. its fucking draining, bro! be happy! even if u dont smile or even act all that happy, you can still be happy. u don't need others validation to be you (although hearing it Does feel nice). remember to keep on moving forward.

i will update this if anything else comes along! stay sexy bros (and people who don't want to be called bros).

6)#(2+8

I’ve been thinking about becoming an inpatient at a clinic recently.

this past month, these past months, have been harder for me. I’ve stopped eating three meals a day, i barely have the energy to get up, i feel sick a lot, etc etc.. i just want to get better. im sick of these fucking illnesses, and i have been for a very long time. my ma and i had a very long talk in the car yesterday evening about my mental health. there was crying, yelling, disagreements, anxiety, the whole shebang. but at the end, i realized i truly do love my mom. I’ve always been the one to talk shit about my mom, even my friends, family, and my fucking Therapist has, but i don’t want to be like that anymore. my mood has been spiraling downwards recently, and fast. in october my test results were a 15/27, a sorta high result, but not that bad for having MDD. I just had my last check-up yesterday, and the results were even worse. a whole 26/27. i haven’t been that fidgety for a little while, so it would be higher in a different period. my doctor said that this was concerning to see from a 13 year old, who had just been at a 15. then i told her about how my days were a solid 6/10 at best, and that i feel like a burden a whole lot of the time. she upped my dosage on lexapro, but i don’t think it’ll work. im already on 10mg, and im moving up to 15mg soon, but ive been here before. it all goes downhill when i up my dosage or get a new antidepressant. also, the main reason i want to go inpatient is because i want to explore my options.

ive had mdd for almost 2 years now. it went undiagnosed for about 2-3 years before that. ive gone to therapy, been on and off lexapro (our family has a history with addiction, we just want to be safe), and been through many discussions based off my mental health to know that this isn’t what i want to be doing. i want to try and get more help.

now, you might say that i sound like I’m doing okay right now as I’m just typing this, but ive been portraying faux emotional behaviors from the get-go. i try every day to tell people that im fine or that im doing better but in the end, im still the same sad sack of a human. i get proud of myself every now and again, and i do experience joy and happiness, but when it’s taken away i just don’t know how to cope. i lock myself away after hanging out with friends, and i find social interactions to be draining at times.

as i said before, i just want help. im sick, and i want to be healthy.