#yall are doing more stories with fewer things in them and doing it so well

[the-official-account]

My issue is that I can't ever think of normal concepts. All I get is shit l like "woman is taught important lessons on grief and female family relationships during deeply unpleasant road trip by time traveling bacteria that, to it's horror, she insists on adopting" .....like what do I even

[stressisakiller]

Time to Go Sunflower

Bucky Barnes x Reader Soulmate AU

(Hello Sunflower Part 6)

Summary:  6 months after escaping Hydra you have an unexpected visitor.

Warnings: Fluff straight Fluff. A little bit of melancholy 

Word Count: 1.4k

A/N: Flashbacks are in italics. Bit of a filler chapter again, but needed to move forward with the story. Let me know if you have any requests for future chapters! Thank yall for reading!

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You had gotten to enjoy a normal life with Bucky for 6 months. Six months of going to work and coming home to spend time lounging around. You didn’t just lounge around, of course, neither of you is that kind of person. You work and worked out every day at a local gym, you had quickly become friends with the owner. He didn’t ask too many questions when you asked for a job and you taught women self-defense and helped keep the place running. Bucky taught a boxing class and helped you teach self-defense. He really enjoyed the ability to use all of his training to help others rather than hurt. The nightmares are the hardest thing for both of you. You both did this you weren’t proud of, you were both tortured, and now that everything was peaceful all of those memories were coming back to haunt you. You slowly fell into a routine on the nights when the nightmares kept you up. 

You woke up first, due to your nightmares or his, walking into the kitchen you would place the tea kettle on the stove. Bucky had surprisingly become fond of some chamomile tea when he couldn’t sleep, but only when you’re the one who makes it. You place your coffee mugs on the counter, you had gotten them as a joke when you first moved to Brooklyn. Smiling, you remembered the day you bought them. 

It was a chilly spring morning and you had just moved to New york. As you explored your neighborhood you noticed that there was a farmers market. You looked over at Bucky giving him your best puppy dog eyes. He rolled his eyes, before chuckling and saying,

 “I guess it wouldn’t hurt for us to look around for a minute. We could use some fresh fruit at the house.”

 Walking through the narrow paths you pointed out every funny or weird thing that you could find. Reveling in the small smiles that occasionally graced his face as you pointed out something especially silly. It was so different being able to do whatever you wanted, having time to just joke around. You couldn’t help being on high alert, even as you had fun walking through the market, and you could tell that Bucky was in the same boat. Your eyes scanning the area, taking notes of exits, and paying attention to everyone around you. Your eyes grazed over a particularly cluttered booth full of assorted kitchen items when you saw it. The perfect mug for your soulmate. You hurried over to the booth, Bucky following behind you confused at the sudden pit stop. You grabbed the mug and excitedly asked the man behind the table.

 “How Much?”

 “For a pretty lady like you, $5.”

 You quickly pushed the money into his waiting palm, turning back to Bucky to show him your treasure. It was a large white mug with the sentence “I never thought I would be a grumpy old man but here I am, killing it.”  He took one look at it and laughed out loud, a full belly laugh that had you grinning like an idiot. You had never heard him laugh like that before and it quickly became your favorite sound. He searched the rest of the market, looking for the perfect mug for you as well. You were walking past the last booth when he saw it. Dark blue with a yellow sunflower beside the words “I run off of coffee, chaos and cuss words.” It was his turn to rush over, purchasing the cup before you even caught up. Looking up at him with curiosity when you reached his side. He was grinning like a schoolboy when he showed you what he had found. 

Bucky’s arms sliding around your shoulder brought you out of your memories. You leaned back into his chest, pouring the water over the tea bags. You spun around and wrapped your arms around his waist, leaning your face against his chest. You always loved how warm he was, you didn’t normally get cold, thank you serum, but you still loved snuggling close to him whenever you got the chance. You both froze when you heard the knocking at the door, grabbing the gun you kept in the drawer you and Bucky shuffled towards the door, remaining as quiet as possible. You couldn’t help but shake your head at the Deja-vu of seeing Steve standing outside your door looking just a little bit lost. You looked over at Bucky, lowering your gun and tilting your head to let him know it was ok. Cracking open the door you scanned the halfway, before ushering him in. You heard Bucky’s gasp when he saw who it was. Locking the door you turned to face your guest. 

“Hey there Cap, what can we do for you at, oh 3 in the morning,” you asked glancing at the clock on the stove.

 “They are getting ready to start the trials for the information that Shield “leaked”.”

You caught Bucky’s eyes and knew that it was the end of your time out of the world of Shield and Hydra. There was sadness and resignation in his eyes but also determination.

 “So what do we need to do?” He asked. 

“The best thing would be for you to come live in the Avenger’s tower. We will give you time to get accustomed to it before we look into putting you on missions. The council will look at you more favorably if you are actively trying to make up for your past.” He stated, speaking as if he were ordering a cup of coffee. 

You tensed at that, “Does the council understand that we had absolutely no choice in our past? Maybe we could take them to a hydra base and show them what it’s like to have your brain emptied and someone else’s will forced on you.” you spat.

 “I know, Y/N trust me, I think it’s stupid for them to have these trials at all. You and Bucky have been through enough as it is but there is nothing we can do, not if you want to live a life where you aren’t constantly on the run.” He assured, his voice softening at you obvious distress.

You collapsed into yourself at the kindness in his voice.

 “I’m sorry Steve, I shouldn’t take my anger out on you. When do we leave?” 

“It would be best if we leave now. We will get all of your stuff to the tower as quickly as we can, but we need you to come back with me. We already have rooms set up for you and we want you to leave at night, fewer eyes on you.”

 You closed your eyes and dropped onto the arm of the couch at his words. You knew this was coming but you thought you would have a bit of a warning so that you could prepare. Yeah, the apartment you were in wasn’t great, but it was home and it was the first place you had truly felt safe and happy. Bucky placed his hand on your shoulder giving it a comforting squeeze. You lifted your head and eyed Steve, 

“Fine, but give us thirty minutes to pack the essentials.” You went to your room, not waiting for his answer. Bucky walked in shortly after, stopping your angry packing and pulling you into a tight hug.

“It’s going to be ok my little sunflower. I know we both wanted more time to ourselves before being dragged into this, but we will make it work, and we won’t do anything that we disagree with. Our decisions will be ours and our alone. Ok?” you relaxed into the hug and nodded. He pulled you back and gave you a quick kiss and started helping you throw all the things you needed, including the few pictures that you had into your duffle bags. You walked into the kitchen and grabbed your coffee cups, pouring out the now cold tea before packing them as well. If Steve thought it was strange he had the courtesy not to say anything. You had changed out of your pajamas as you packed, so as soon as you packed the mugs you were ready to go. 

Shrugging your duffle bag onto your shoulder, you took one last look around your apartment. You took it in, seeing a movie of memories flash before your eyes. You pulled your eyes forward before steeling yourself, grabbing Bucky’s hand and nodding to Steve. Stepping out of your home for the past 6 months you faced an unknown future. But with Bucky by your side, and Steve at your back you knew that you would be able to face anything.

[hopeshoodie]

do you have any controversial litg opinions???

I think I’ve voiced most of these... But lmao let me put them all in one place.

I don’t really like Bobby/particularly find him very funny. No shade to people who love Bobby of course- I can see the appeal of a goofy soft boy. My sense of humor is a lot more based in observation, wit, and self-deprecation, and I think his whole ‘LOL PRANKD’ thing is tiring. Plus I get Nice Guy (TM) vibes from him- his fixation on being with MC is a bit too much for me. 

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I know all of the LIs that I adore most people hate- namely Noah, Marisol, and Carl. I just like them a lot, ok? Most of the reasons people dislike them is because of things like their routes being slowburns or that they’re not overly affectionate, which are two things I’m really into. Plus I just like their characters a lot. 

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I think Lottie and Gary are super bad together- idk if this is controversial or not? They’re both really interesting characters, but they each need someone really different from the other. Gary needs someone nurturing who will push him out of his comfort zone but still be attentive/affectionate. He needs someone who will call him out on being a bad partner, but do it in a positive and constructive way instead of just blowing up or sulking like Lottie would. And Lottie... Well she should be with Hannah. But assuming they’re strictly platonic.... I have this whole fake LI made up in my head for her. If yall are interested I can ramble about him forever, but basically, Lottie needs someone who will call her on her shit and not let her get away with being selfish and vindictive. She needs someone who can match her energy and be half of a power couple. 

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Ok I LOVE Henrik. Love our chronic good boy who drinks nothing but respect other people juice. We stan. But.... He’s kinda ugly. I’m a lesbian so take this with a grain of salt, but I’m able to look at Rahim and Noah and say “I can tell they’re attractive even if I’m not attracted to them”. But Henrik??? Something about his face- I think it’s in the brows or chin maybe- is... Hmph don’t like. Take Henrik’s personality and give it to Lucas then keep the long hair, now THAT’S an attractive man. I kinda think the same with Camilo and Tim- love the character, but they’re a little uggo. Which is fine!!! Ugly representation babey!!!

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I really like Yasmin and Lily from S3. I know they’re generally unpopular lmfao, so I guess that’s controversial? I also think Hannah is hot- I’m a big nerd who is desperately trying not to be pretentious, so (like Marisol) I want to Fix Her With My Love. 

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Of all the S2 characters that deserve #Justice, I think Rahim’s the one in most dire need. He’s such a good design and archetype, but they did him so dirty in the second half of the season (and if they hadn’t I think he’d be just as popular as Bobby). Everyone else’s routes make sense for their characters omitting some writing/coding errors, but Rahim never gets the arc and payoff he deserves. Instead he just lowkey bullies MC if they’re in a relationship, and if they’re not he just gets in way too deep with Jo without us really seeing that progression. 

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I prefer a game with fewer LIs but more distinct paths for each of them. I think this is controversial because a lot of people want more options of LIs, but all the characters being generic and sharing dialogue bothers me way more than not being attracted to my favorite LI does. I’m totally willing to be endgame with a character whose design I don’t like, as long as their character development and story makes sense. 

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I know a few sapphics in the fandom want Chelsea to be an LI, but I really feel like not only does she have Straight Energy (TM), but she also needs to be a platonic friend. They handled her writing SO well and I think making their relationship romantic lowkey ruins it.

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I actually enjoyed the Jo/Shannon drama. Maybe it’s because I was on a Rahim route so I could headcanon being involved, but I do like the conflict premise there: Shannon’s trying to be strategic to stay in the villa, so even though the right thing to do would be to confront Rahim/work on their relationship she instead attacks Jo. Jo’s a really defensive personality and genuinely is interested in Rahim (unlike Shannon who saw him as the best man to take her to the end). Plus it makes sense that Rahim would disappear, because he’s so conflict-avoidant (I still wish we’d gotten a scene or two of him reacting to it! He’s been struggling all season and now TWO women are fighting over him?! How does he feel about that??) As much as I loathe Elisa for the gossip-sneezer thing, it shows a lot about her character too- she realized that she’d gossiped and it blew up so she loudly shifted blame to Chelsea. I love character-driven conflict, so I didn’t mind Jo/Shannon’s fight and our role in resolving it. 

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Blake is the hottest girl. I love Marisol and Priya, but Blake is objectively the sexiest design in S2. Her clothing is Bad, though, like she’s tied with Jo for being the worst dressed girl in S2. If she were in the villa sooner, I’d 100% simp for Blake.

Those are all the ones I can think of off the bat, but I’ll definitely add to this as I find out more of my Thoughts are controversial.

[zzloch]

FTSFMLM Chp 1. The New Girl

FFnet- https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13382202/1/Fairy-Tail-School-of-Myths-Legends-and-Monsters

Wattpad- https://www.wattpad.com/story/191336896-fairy-tail-school-for-myths-legends-and-monsters

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters but I do own the plot

A blonde girl stood in front of a large school with a banner that said 'WELCOME NEW STUDENTS' the 15-year-old, smiled to herself. She was finally here, the school that she would be attending for the next seven years (a/n in the universe there are eight years of high school because high school and college are combined). She had already dropped her stuff off at her dorm and had practically run to her new school, so she wasn't late.

The blonde walked inside, following the directions she was provided with at orientation. While looking down at her schedule, the Angel-Witch girl bumped into, what she thought, a hard wall. She looked up, okay so it wasn't a wall. "Uhh hello," she waved at the raven-haired boy who she had run into. The boy scoffed. "Umm, sorry," she mumbled. "It's fine, I'm Gray by the way, and this creep behind me is Natsu," he said, pointing behind him. Lucy studied the boys in front of her. She noted the dark scar the boy had across his face that generally went hand in hand with being a full devil. Lucy looked up at the boy "So, you're a-""I'm not a creep" a scaly pink-haired boy punched the devil in front of her. "What the hell, Dragon boy," the pinkette stuck his tongue out at the devil. A full-fledged fight broke out between the two, which ended in a draw. The boy turned to face Lucy. He had red scales that covered his arms and surrounded his face. "Hi, I'm Natsu" the boy stuck his hand out "Lucy," she said, shaking it. Lucy smiled at him with, what her family had dubbed her "Angel smile" and she swore she saw Natsu blush. "Where are you headed?" Natsu questioned.

"Umm room 1381."

"That's our first period," Natsu said, referring to him and gray. The dragon-demon grabbed the Angel-witches arm and ran down the hall and to the right and stopped in front of a room

"Fire Breath, slow down."

"Speed up, Ice brain."

Lucy giggled as they walked into the room.

"Duck!" A brunette screamed as a glass bottle came flying at the doorway, barley missing Lucy. "Sorry, I forget my own strength." The girl rubbed her neck. "I'm Cana, Cana Alberona" Lucy smiles at the brunette "Lucy Heartfilia" "Luigi, come 'er" "It's Lucy" she rolled her eyes at the boy, but nevertheless walked over to the group the pinkette was with. "Shut up" a voice came from the doorway silencing all the very loud people in the room. "Welcome back to school, kids" a ginger-haired man, with the same soft glow that Cana had, but it was a bit brighter, was now standing in front of the room at a desk. "I'm your teacher, Mr. Clive. Today is an opening day, so everyone sit in the seat I tell you to" Mr. Clive walked in front of his desk "Natsu Dragneel" he said, pointing at the front left seat. Natsu groaned. Mr. Clive then pointed to the chair on the other end of the room "Gray Fullbuster" Gray rolled his eyes and got up. "Cana Alberona," he said, pointing to the front middle seat. "Loke" he pointed to the chair in between gray and Cana. The three high fived as Loke sat down. "Lucille Heartfilia" Lucy slowly shuffled to the front as people stared at her, amazed that one of the most prestigious families daughter was at their school. Natsu flashed a smile at her. "Next row, Jet, Droy, Levy" The trio that was sitting in the back walked over to their seats, the small blue-haired girl talking excitedly to the two boys. "Laki, Kinanna" The two purple-haired girls walked to the front. "Elfman, Max, Warren, and Nab" he finished the list "Now there are a lot fewer people this year but if something happens to the children at Phantom Lord" a boo ensued, 'They clearly don't like Phantom Lord High' Lucy thought to herself "those that can get in will join our class. Now time for introductions. Say your name, species, and a fun fact, I'm Mr. Clive, I'm a full Daemon, a minor god and I am a teacher" he smiled then pointed to Natsu "Hey guys, I'm Natsu Dragneel. I'm a Fire Demon-Dragon, and I can set fire to stuff." Lucy moved her body as far away from the overly reckless boy as she could without drawing attention to herself. As the demon dragon sat down, Lucy stood up "um I'm Lucy Heartfilia, I'm half Angel, Half Witch. I uh," she blanked on something interesting about herself "I have wings" she shrugged, every angel did, but it was the only thing she could think of. "Can we see your wings?" A girl with lavender hair asked. "Uh sure" Lucy let her wings fall out of the slits in her outfit, every outfit of hers had them, it made it easier to open her wings when needed. Each one of the blondes wings was a good 5 feet, or so, some of the white feathers had gold tips, and they glistened in the sun. "Cool," the entire class was amazed at her wings. The blonde pulled her wings back into her back. Lucy blushed under the attention as she sat down. Cana stood up next

"Cana Alberona, Half-Daemon, half-Fairy. I can shrink, that's kind of cool I guess" As the brunette sat down, An orange hair boy with cat ears stood up. "Loke, I'm a celestial being, the reincarnation of Leo the lion to be more specific. I can fully transform into a lion," the boy said. He then bowed, which caused Gray to roll his eyes. "Hey, I'm Gray Fullbuster, I'm an ice devil. I-"Natsu cit him off "Can strip unconsciously" Gray grunted his teeth, trying not to jump to strangle Natsu. "No, I can turn people to ice," Gray said, "like you flame brain" Gray held up his hand and froze the boy. "Gray! No using powers" Gray rolled his eyes and sat down. Lucy was watching intently as everyone introduced themselves. Here are the notes she gathered

Natsu- Dragon-Demon

Lucy (Me)- Angel-Witch

Cana- Fairy-Daemon

Loke- Reincarnation of Leo the Lion

Gray- Ice Devil

Jet- Speed Demon (A/N I'm so Creative)

Levy- Fairy-Sprite

Droy- Dwarf

Laki- Hamadryad (A/N a type of nymph)

Kinnanna- Naagin (A/N a shapeshifting cobra)

Elfman- Demon

Max- Setiaad (A/N Native American Sand Monster)

Warren- Warlock in Training

Nab- Shapeshifter

"Alrighty, now that you all know each other we are going to split up into groups and learn more about each other. The row you are in is your group. Now find a spot and talk to each other, I'm gonna work" Cana scoffed at the man's word and rolled her eyes as she got up and the two boys sitting next to her followed suit, Natsu grabbed lucy's arm and pulled her along as they headed to a corner of the room. Lucy looked around and saw everyone chatting like old friends, she felt really out of place. "Hey, pretty girl you gonna sit down" Cana nodded to space available besides her on the floor. Lucy put her head down and sat with them. "So what did yall do over the summer," Cana asked. "Suffered in the heat, what about you?" "I spent a lot of time looking after Romeo, his dad went out a bit." "How old is he now?" Gray asked, "Thirteen I think" "Cool, cool, What about you, new girl?" Lucy looked up in surprise at the dark-haired boy. "Me?" Gray nodded "Uh, I didn't do too much I floated around heaven finished up my witch training and uhh, oh I read a lot." Lucy put her head down again, out of shyness.

“Hey, new girl chill. We aren't that bad." Gray commented, "Well, you are pretty bad," Natsu said back. "What was that fire breath" "You heard me Stripper" As the two boys started to wrestle, The classroom looked behind them and just sighed and went back to talking. Lucy was astonished that they just brushed it off "Boy's what if Erza comes in" Cana yelled at the two. They immediately froze and stopped fighting. Leo shook his head and smirked. The bell rang, and someone grabbed Lucy's arm. "Come on Luce I'll take you to your next class" Natsu smiled at the girl, and she smiled back. This school was gonna be a lot of fun

Hope you like this Au, I've been working on it for a while, and I am kinda proud of it so, yeah. I would love some suggestions for the kind of monsters each character are. If I get something wrong with the mythology of a particular creature feel free to tell me and I will fix it

-Z.Z Loch

[schooldays-365]

Hi everyone it’s Admin Neon here!

I’m so sorry that I ghosted on this account earlier this year, I had a lot of things going on back then and after that, I just never had the time to do anything else outside of work.

I’ve never forgotten about this account; writing is my passion and I really love it. So I’ll try my best to take some time to write the prompts sitting in my inbox for the past year first before I open requests again. If you’d like I could give you a breakdown of what’s happening.

So last year in 2017, I sat for my O Levels and it’s basically an exam that determines where you go for your tertiary education. I never really had plans on what to do since I was cornered by my parents to go to a Junior College [JC], which is a prestigious landmark in life. 

When the results came out in February 2018, I didn’t do that well. My L1R5 [ one language, one math subject, two science subjects, combined humanities, one extra subject ] score was 22 points. In the education system here, the fewer points the better, because the higher the grade, the fewer points awarded. 

The grading system goes like this: A1, A2, B3, B4, C5, C6, D7, E8, F9, U

As you can see, the lower the grade the higher the number gets. The number beside each grade is the points awarded. In my case, we can see that I didn’t get that many A1/A2s. My report card had only one A2 for basic math, three B3s for my two languages and additional math and three C6s for my sciences and combined humanities. The cut-off points for JCs range from 3 to 19, and I didn’t make it into the cut.

I couldn’t care less about making it into a prestigious college; I was, however, absolutely devastated at my results. Because you see, in all my years at the school, I’ve never had this bad of grades before. My worst score until this was probably around 15 points. I wondered if this happened to others as well, but it turns out that those who used to have lower grades than I did had performed exceptionally well this round. I wasn’t angry at first, just very confused. I know they’ve worked hard for that grade and they all deserve what they got. But what about me?

Why did I get such shitty grades? Even after all those days and nights studying endlessly? I never found the answer, and I don’t think I will.

I didn’t get into college, so I went to a polytechnic to get a Diploma in Architecture. I was bothered by my grades, but I had always been more interested in studying in a polytechnic. It functions like a mini-university with no major final year exam that determines whether you would make or break it, which is unlike a JC which gears you up only for your university entrance exams in two short years.

What I never expected was how much workload I would have, since we don’t have any exams. Design school is extremely hectic, we have studio critique every three weeks, and we travel all around the island for site analysis and collecting materials, I have two other design assignments outside studio [ one of them is an observation tower and the other is a cabin; if either one or both of them are good enough, a company would contact me to have it built on the local beach and I would get paid ]. I haven’t slept properly for weeks, and I usually find myself pulling all-nighters to finish assignments [ it also doesn’t help that I’m a perfectionist and I need money lmao ]. But I really want to get into a local university, since I can’t fully afford to go overseas and also because I’ve done so badly for my O Levels that I want to make up for it in this diploma.

I’m so sorry yall have to listen to my sob story instead of an update. But on the bright side, Christmas break is a week away and I’ll have some time in those two weeks to finish up what’s in my inbox and post new stories :)

[floralkittygambler]

Return of The Thing

Sort of. By thing, I mean me. But I love this movie and the meme. Ok, context for this post: - Where I’ve been - Why I left - Whats hip happening -  Where I’ve Been:

Long story short, I’ve had real life matters to deal with. Firstly, my entire household contracted COVID. Well, *almost*. We’ve been through constant testing, quarantine zones, and had the ambulance up numerous times. My parents and 2nd oldest sister were hit the hardest. My 3rd oldest sister was positive and asymptomatic. Now something none of us could predict that I would be completely COVID free despite my compromises. Despite that I was in close contact with them all, including the 2nd oldest who contracted it first and accidentally being coughed on a few times lol. I went through the exact same testing and yet nothing. No symptoms. No presence of COVID. And I took no precaution to isolate from my family as I presumed in our small house we’d all get it, so I was more preoccupied with caring for the sick. Ultimately, I’ve either gotten off scott free this time or there’s a chance I may actually either be highly resistant or even immune. Even then, I WILL be having the vaccine as and when my family are eligible. And we all still follow regulations set.  I’ve also had other real life obligations, much of it either mundane fixing up my living circumstances to more personal matters. Overall, I have been extremely preoccupied.

A mini update, the stray cat Big has been in our porch a lot more in recent times due to the snow as well as being even more affectionate. And Queefster passed away after a good life and a full tummy. Why I Left:

Aside from COVID, business, and my own health declining, I’ll be blunt. I left because of how disgustingly toxic most fandoms are nowadays, but Hazbin is one of the WORST for it. That includes harassment, death threats, mocking MI and triggering an ED. In fact, I’ve even seen others get rape and death threats. So yes, even if YOU are a decent fan, collectively most of you arent doing any favours. Even some critical blogs seem to be overtly catty in ways no one else seems to pick up on under this ‘look how blunt I am’ look and it’s just... You dont have to be a prick to have your say, to be honest and to disagree with the trending. That’s a few on and off of tumblr, and no one I follow anyways. 

In regards to my ‘sensitivities’ - two things: 1) Of course trauma is going to hurt, 2) Im fully aware of kids doing and receiving much of this, which hurts MORE. I have my own lil squids and Im worried of them eventually having to deal with this shit. And no, no one SHOULD have to put up with such rude and poor behaviour. Agree to disagree doesnt live in some people’s realities, but by God harassment and bullying seems ok if YOURE doing it or enticing it. That ISNT ok. Even if it seems like nothing to you it could kill another. I certainly will not take your shit. 

On huskerdust I STAND by my words. It’s fucking creepy and there is sexual harassment and obsession. And there are large triggers. I will not go into detail here because Ive done that dance before and I’ll be refining it again. YOU may like it, however it triggers my very real traumas as well as those in my bloodline. Be respectful and keep that shit away from me. And for goodness sake, parents PLEASE dont raise your children to behave as such online. And no, being anon isnt actually fully anonymous. Also to send hate and threats anon is not only traceable but also cowardice. Grow a pair and find a hobby. I avoid my traumas for the most part. I will not allow you to weaponise or diminish my own or others experiences for your fictional based gratification. Likewise, if it becomes canon, I’ll just make an AU where it is not. Simple. You can hate it but Im not your personal circus so go be toxic elsewhere. IF you like HD and follow me, honestly... Youre probably better to unfollow as I am deeply and passionately against it and stolitz, and valvox, and am very vocal on that. Dont mistake my traumas and discomfort as a personal attack - and dont personally attack me over it either. And before anyone claims homophobia, no. This is nothing to do with sexuality. You arent the victim. If you love these pairings with your soul to the point of a ‘stan’, then youre best off unfollowing because I really am too old for extremists and rabid fans more crazed than the infected in REC. Also I never used to hate angel but now... Fans behaviour is abhorrent and hes so over saturated that I honestly really dislike him now. Doesnt mean you have to hate him too, but just bloody respect that angel isnt loved by all, he can be triggering to some as well as toxically enabling [incl. past addicts], a vile homophobic gay stereotype and just overall a lack of knowledge and respect of sex workers as a whole. When you know a lot of the ins and outs and victims, it’s hard to overlook. I respect your triggering ships by avoiding that mess. Respect others.  The problem with Viv - and I will elaborate in the future - is that your audience is often a reflection of your work and it’s message/presentation. And most of the fandom Ive met are awful. Honestly, though lonesome I find more comfort keeping distant from fandoms because yall often extremely toxic and petty. Perhaps others have had better experiences than I however Im drawing a line in the sand. For MY sake. I’m annoyed with virtually anyone I sense great potential in that becomes wasted. Im angry at Viv because she can do so much better but is blocking HERSELF. This is from a creative and business mindset. When someone has potential that gets wasted - especially creatively - it burns me. Im just passionate on artistic fields. It doesnt mean I hate them. I hate the waste of full potential.

I’ll state things here people disagree with but encouraging harassment, hate or just being an overall cunt just aint on- It’s like people charade as being this fair being but its all bullshit. Self improve and sod off, I do NOT have time to parent you online. 

And obviously there are RL duties I must fulfil. Some in which I will need the publics assistance for if you can spare it. Overall, Im just... Fandoms behaviour generally disgusts me. Disappoints me. We SHOULD be better than this. It’s like listening to bloomin incels rant on fuckin chad or some bullshit pill theory instead of looking to improve themselves too. Honestly... I do mostly acknowledge my own flaws and faults and try to improve each day. It just feels fewer folk see that in themselves and do the same. And that’s coming from an old cunt whos far from fuckin perfect. Also, my fuckin laptop broke so I waited a week for a bloke nearby to fix it. What a fuckin lifesaver, he’s the real mvp!

Also Also, one of you did privately apologise and I appreciate that. I certainly hope we agree to disagree and continue to grow as people on our separate ways. Trust me, I dont forget small acts like this. Even the trauma that caused and the aftermath, please dont think I dont appreciate the apology. However you’re also entitled to know that the forgiveness and healing side may take longer for me due to various factors that occurred - much that few are aware of, including yourself especially. I wish you well and safety.

Hip Happenin Now:

Still busy but slowly visiting. I’ll reply and reblog soon, be patient please. Ive still many things to sort which take priority as well as other things. Im trying to get money n shit for a future and whatnot. Health issues are strong in the blood rn and Im spending extended time with both Big and the other pets to keep up harmony, especially now that Big is accepting slowly that our porch is a welcome shelter for him and he’s free to leave and stay whenever. Trust me, overloaded isnt even the word. Im prepping shit early this year and from now on. Also, my God Ive been dealing with more physical issues as well and had to play doctor. May even need medical interference but holy shit I could never see this coming. Still... It’s... An experience- If you could call it that. Staying more active and healthy. Cat’s nearly clawed my eye out in my sleep (to which I can only presume Billy got too close or hyper) but it’s fortunate placement so Im alright. Most of my body is in pain to the point of absolute normality at this rate. And I plan to make space for a better altar. Future of the Blog: 

Errr, it’s my fuckin space so it’s whatever I want really. Ill still have my Viv rants (ie, pros and cons of her work, HH/HB, other shit like that) however I just really dislike most the fandom at this point as well as the poor management and lack of professionalism and attitudes of staff. It’s just draggin me down and making me ill. I also want to showcase more of MY work (from redesigns to projects to some dumb 2am shit), cosplays, fashion, hobbies, spiritual practises - MY. SHIT. I feel like Ive strayed slightly. But I WILL be honest. And damn well will it upset people. And if it does and I’m genuinely ding something wrong/harmful - guide me patiently. Educate me. If it’s like this HD shit where Im not only allowed my opinions but justified on my traumas or mocking my disabilities or features, then just yeet yourself elsewhere. Also some of my gaming shit too. Getting to know folk who interact with my stuff and just... Create my space. For me. Something hopefully others can enjoy. Something that can function as a bit of an art portfolio as well. Critiques and whatnot.  But I will continually not stand for anyone’s shit or poor handling of serious matters. You will not cause me to doubt and invalidate my experiences like you have to others.  For now, Im tottering but slowly returning. For those who I previously and daily interacted with, I will get back to you. And Im sure you’re patient and understanding of my situation - it’s appreciated. But in terms of any fandom, more so if it’s known to be as hostile, I’d rather keep a healthy boundary between us. That’s for newer folk. Perhaps we may bond further and you’re welcome to try, however I do feel far safer not getting involved into other people’s shit any longer. I will put anon back on but any toxic shit will be reported as well as compiled so at least I have a reference on the actual toxic nature of fandoms. Likewise, Im slowly getting there but god theres a lot of fuckin work. So much that not even my closest friend has heard too much from me until recently. I’ll be returning to the grind for now as I have duties, as well as many demanding felines for my attention. Alongside some physical medical concerns which require additional care, I’ll be popping off now.  Im thankful for those who have checked in on me. I will reply shortly. Take care

[lusilly]

If we're going full Ender's Game what about Val or Peter for the ask meme?

ok! it is morningtime i’m going to answer this

i feel half called out by this question cuz val and peter are both names of characters from my rp (i play val and peter is AU Vampire Version of damian’s dad). incidentally, valentine collins (my character) has absolutely nothing to do with valentine wiggin.

now here i go for both:

why i like them: i’m no longer drunk enough to be as soul-bearingly honest as i was about the kids last night, but long story short, peter wiggin was insecure and jealous and angry, and he was told that he was a Bad Kid so he had to be Careful or he’d be Bad For Life. he put so much WORK and EFFORT into being Good and making people think he was Good when to him he thought this whole entire thing was a facade, he thought he was Bad Bad Bad on the inside. i love peter cuz he taught me it’s ok to do the right thing for the wrong reasons; it’s ok to have all that anger inside of you for so long, stewing. he thought his loneliness was absolutely his own self because that’s the way he’s Made. he was self-loathing but also like. ok. i gotta get the fuck up and do this. and of course when JP and theresa eventually broke the news to him about the REAL reason he didn’t get into battle school, it was like the floor dropped out from under his feet. and he had to scramble to remake his sense of self, cuz for so long he’d centered his ego around the careful knowledge that if he pushes too far he’d be too BAD too AGGRESSIVE too EVIL - but that wasn’t it at all. he finds out he’s not fundamentally bad, and keeps going, tho that damage is already done.

as for val, i love val cuz she’s some great sneaky characterization. most of EG the front she puts up is that peter manipulated her and cornered her into doing this and frightened her, but the reality is that val, as i say in this fic, “liked playing the game, but didn’t like getting played by [peter].” she enjoyed the Power of playing his lil game, demosthenes and locke, but always made it sound like it was about her fear of peter and love of ender. val was more complex than that. i also like how she grows in the enderseries and her sort of fun relationship with ender much much later on - and how offended she is when soul!val shows up lmao, cuz that’s a fair reason to be offended tbh, cuz ender had somehow created this Perfect Canonized version of her in his heart. she wasn’t as perfect as ender imagined, and she knew that, and i think she was injured by that reminder.

why i don’t: the parts i don’t like about peter are that he’s a skinny lame ass white boy from the US but tbh i’ve always thought that’s why he rends me to the bone more than, say, damian, who is hypercompetent and a Trained Killer/Superhero. peter’s physical weakness and general shitty lameness is like #me ha ha. i guess i have some beef with how he unites the world cuz again it’s the White Guy ruling over the entire world then somehow reaching world peace in such a way that ends the need for a hegemon ever again but [shrug emoji]

as for val, i guess i always wished she would be more of a Player in the game and not so passive. i blame orson scott card’s raging misogyny for that, though.

favorite scene: i have two fav peter scenes; one is in shadow of the hegemon, when he’s in the library with an apology letter from the admiral of the IF and his hands are shaking and he wants to SCREAM cuz he’s just some dumbass college kid and he has enough clout and power to get a groveling APOLOGY letter from the highest ranking officer in the IF and he can’t stand keeping it to himself but he also of course can’t tell anyone. i also love the scene in, shadow puppets i think? when he’s been forced to evacuate the brazilian compound cuz achilles infiltrated it and he’s in the hotel room and briefly considers #suicide but in a very matter-of-fact way, and comes to the conclusion that would just be way too embarrassing. then he goes out and dutifully makes the announcement for the media. a sort of watershed moment for young lucy tbh. i think it’s also the moment when JP and theresa come in and tell him they’re proud of him, and “nobody mentioned ender’s name at all,” which hits peter like a ton of bricks.

honorable mention: when he insists on going in with bean and the Soldiers for the final confrontation with achilles in the compound. like peter you are a skinny kid with no field experience don’t do this!!!!!! but he feels so Responsible so he does anyway.

fav val scene is probably…………..well she gets fewer breakout scenes overall but i do love all her banter with peter cuz she’s pretending to hate him but really she Enjoys the game they’re playing. i was glancing thru children of the mind/xenocide and she admittedly has some funny moments with jakt, AND i love her bonding with miro (tho that gets weird when soul!val shows up). i’m not a huge fan of her scenes with ender cuz she always treats him with kid gloves. i think i really do like the Sharpness she had with peter. i think of that one particular conversation right after the bunnies thing? where val seems to be very performatively like “ugh peter’s scary” but in practice she’s really Into the power working with him is giving her

favorite book: my fav peter book is…… god this is hard lmao. i love him in shadow of the hegemon i LOVE him in shadow puppets and i love him in shadow of the giant. he has some of the best scenes in shadow puppets but his characterization in shadow of the giant is so fun and has Moved so much, but shadow of the hegemon is also super duper fun cuz it’s just when he’s gaining steam. idk lmao.

my fav val book is arguably EG itself because that has her moments with peter

favorite line: i have so many with peter but probably after he sees bean and petra (or maybe JP and theresa) share a kiss: “i’ll have that one day. someone who’ll kiss me goodbye. or maybe just someone who’ll tie a blindfold over my eyes before the execution.” he’s such a #romantic. oh also? the “i love you” after reading bean’s letter cuz it’s a gut punch every fucking time

fav val line? that’s hard. i love the “funny as a one-legged rabbit, val” / “of which there are no doubt several in the woods” / “hopping around in neat little circles” exchange, which has val’s iconic “peter, you’re twelve” in it lmao. so some of that fun banter probably

i looked up the locke and demosthenes chapter and am dying cuz i forgot how much i loved them both

otp: peter/petra/bean for sure, and for val, well, val should be a lesbian, even tho her husband’s ok. val/virlomi would’ve been dope as hell. ps peter’s first kiss was on the boat with virlomi pass it on

brotp: YALL peter and val are their OWN brotp, despite the way val demonized peter as soon as she was away from them. they loved playin the game together

headcanon: oh man uhhhhh. they’re both bi as hell. val started regular correspondence with peter when he was Older and she was still young cuz of space flight but it was too weird and peter was too kind and forgiving and unlike the sharp and dangerous peter she remembered, so she got weirded out and quit it. val loved peter more than ender but hated herself for it and could never bring herself to admit it, and spent her whole life trying to convince herself it’s not true

[whittlebaggett8]

‘Avengers’ directors teased the debut of Marvel’s first openly gay character in ‘Endgame,’ but it wasn’t at all what we expected, Defence Online

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“Some people today go on. But not us.”

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Warning: Insignificant spoilers forward for “Avengers: Endgame.”

The Russo brothers a short while ago spoke to Deadline about their conclusion to consist of the Marvel Cinematic Universe’s initial openly gay character in “Endgame.”

The character, played by co-director Joe Russo himself, appears briefly in an early scene as a member of Captain America’s aid group.

“Representation is definitely crucial,” Joe Russo advised Deadline. “It was essential to us as we did 4 of these movies, we preferred a gay character somewhere in them.”

The scene alone, however, is underwhelming and doesn’t warrant this self-congratulatory mind-set – specially supplied that Joe Russo is not overtly queer.

Warning: Minimal spoilers in advance for “Avengers: Endgame.”

Among the a selection of beloved superheroes and the most hardcore villain in recent memory, “Avengers: Endgame” contains the Marvel Cinematic Universe’s very first openly gay character – but the inclusion is not as innovative as a person could be expecting.

The character, played by co-director Joe Russo himself, seems briefly in an early scene as a member of a put up-Thanos support group, led by Captain The united states.

Folks on Earth are seen making an attempt to grapple with 50 percent of the populace getting vanished. Joe Russo’s character, who continues to be nameless, describes the suffering of dropping his husband or wife in the “Snappening.” He casually refers to a new romantic curiosity as a “he” when describing their the latest date.

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Steve Rogers, aka Captain The united states, does his best to assistance people today move on post-Thanos.

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The moment is really subtle, but according to the Russo brothers, it’s also groundbreaking.

“Representation is really important,” Joe Russo informed Deadline. “It was important to us as we did 4 of these films, we wanted a gay character somewhere in them.”

Anthony Russo added: “That scene was significant to us in telling the tale of the bigger planet.”

“When you have a story place that incorporates killing fifty percent of all individuals on Earth, you’re telling a even larger tale than ‘The Avengers,’” he stated. “That character that Joe is enjoying genuinely came from that level of view, him getting an everyman who has experienced from Thanos’ act.”

In actuality, the homosexual character did not sense groundbreaking

The Marvel Cinematic Universe has built a obvious force in modern many years to embrace range. “Black Panther” and “Captain Marvel” marked the studio’s initially solo films for black and woman superheroes, respectively.

In comparison, the blink-and-you will-pass up-it mention of a very same-sexual intercourse marriage is hardly truly worth shouting about.

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In the comics, Tessa Thompson’s character Valkyrie is bisexual.

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If LGBTQ illustration were certainly a precedence for filmmakers, there were being a good deal of opportunities for a significant gay storyline or an explicitly queer superhero in “Endgame.”

Tessa Thompson has brazenly embraced her character’s bisexuality, which would be real to how Valkyrie is depicted in the comics, but we’ve nonetheless to see that onscreen. Numerous supporters are rooting for Carol Danvers, aka Captain Marvel, to be depicted as openly queer – and it absolutely sure appears to be like Brie Larson is on board.

We cute @TessaThompson_x https://t.co/7358yhTQlA

— Brie Larson (@brielarson) March 18, 2019

It would also be incredibly uncomplicated to place just one or more (or all) of the film’s literal aliens on the LGBTQ spectrum.

When a cinematic universe introduces mythological gods, talking raccoons, and characters with antenna, sexual orientation can rarely stay binary – but the films have staunchly dismissed this truth.

another person: there’s an *explicitly* gay character that you would Never ever hope in endgame

stan twitter, who’s been indicating every single one marvel character is homosexual considering the fact that 2008: pic.twitter.com/ztTGFP0mGD

— lyss observed endgame (@revenqcrs) April 23, 2019

In “Guardians of the Galaxy,” for case in point, playboy hero Peter Quill is romantically entangled with a wide range of unique species. But all people he’s seen with is visibly feminine, as if Chris Pratt hooking up with anyone with red skin or tentacles would be fewer jarring to audiences than a intimate fascination who provides as masculine.

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In “Guardians of the Galaxy,” this purple-skinned character hangs out on Peter Quill’s ship for a while for the reason that he forgot she was on board.

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The Russo brothers’ self-congratulatory analysis of the scene tends to make it even worse

There’s one thing to be stated for a refined scene that will work to normalize identical-intercourse relationships. The short minute wasn’t specially noteworthy, but on its very own, it was sweet at finest and neutral at worst.

The Russo brothers actively congratulating themselves on embracing “representation,” nonetheless, may well give viewers a sour style right after the truth.

the gay character in endgame is practically just joe russo actively playing an more what a fucking joke yall truly imagined what you have been doing was innovative lmao

— sarah (@pastagays) April 24, 2019

ENDGAME Things . . . . . . Hey men!! If you’re hyped about the rumored gay character!!

do not be.

— BetterCallGorGor¹ (@b_ung_il) April 26, 2019

Representation is critical, and it can be obtained in a variety of means. But that scene is just not thorough, crucial, or progressive adequate for the directors to pat them selves on the again.

The character could’ve easily been performed by a gay actor

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Joe Russo has by no means recognized himself as queer and, as he’s married to a lady, he publicly presents as straight.

Though we must never presume to know how a individual identifies, the MCU’s first overtly gay character would’ve been granted significantly more gravity if the filmmakers experienced solid an overtly gay actor in the function.

“We felt it was important that one of us engage in him, to assure the integrity and exhibit it is so vital to the filmmakers that 1 of us is representing that,” Joe Russo spelled out to Deadline.

It may well be true that the scene felt significant to the administrators, but if taken care of accurately, it wouldn’t have been applied for a gratuitous cameo.

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[sunflowerinc]

So many people reblogged this without the addition & it’s so fuckin funny to me, I just made a dumb vague post shouting “END MEEEEEEE” and yall just went “oh Mood” and smashed that mf reblog button

but in case anyone was wondering, here’s the story behind it (warning: it’s extremely ridiculous + petty)

my sister: *refers to twenty one pilots as her sons*

me (half jokingly): uh don’t you mean OUR sons :3c

my sister: no, they’re MINE. I love them more than you do

me: no you literally don’t???? what the hell makes you think that

my sister: I know all of their songs and you don’t

me: you’re really gonna play that card? the only reason I know fewer songs is because executive dysfunction & my various personality disorders make it difficult for me to listen to music

my sister: well you have palaye, you can’t just claim all of the bands as your own & leave me with nothing

me: you have a neurotypical brain, friends, happiness, a stable path in life, a job/income, a life free of trauma + abuse, WHAT MORE DO YOU FUCKING WANT?!?!?! music is all I have; besides, what about your ‘sons’ from all the other fandoms you’re in?

my sister: well that’s because you just like less things than I do

me: ok, so wouldn’t that mean YOU should be letting ME have this one thing & not the other way around?

my sister: ......no because I love them more than you

me: 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

END MEEEEEEEEE

[sillyandquiteawkward]

i feel like mostly women write fanfiction (mostly) and the female companions just arent as "fleshed" out as the male ones, not to mention they are fewer. like bethesda didn't exactly look twice at the female characters, instead putting more men in powerpositions. like both curie and cait are optional encounters and piper is more or less just a diamond city introduction then she's pushed aside. 1

meanwhile preston (bless his heart), danse, deacon and x6-88 are faction companions and valentine gets you through a third of the main quest. hancock and maccready are also optional but they have great backstories and development.  2

like im not gonna lie, i felt a little offended that people dont like all the het fics out there (tbh i wasnt even thinking about my f!sole/hancock fics as het, i just like hancock the best and im a woman) but like, im just writing what i want to write. im just writing to get better at it. 3

maybe commision a writer or something. (not you, specifically, but your followers) ask someone to do a prompt. i would love to get prompts for short stories but barely anyone comments or talks to you when you're writing things. maybe im just not There yet when it comes to writing things but like, yknow. what am i supposed to do? halfass a story because quantity > quality? 4

m sorry im talking through you but im very anxious about the stuff i put out there and anything that might make people hate it makes me antsy, half the time i see discourse im tempted to just pull everything off my ao3 because it's not worth the tension but that's also just me. it's my problem, i know that. 5 

i totally see where youre coming from, a lot of the female companions are uh, less built up and not as important story-wise and that leads many people to gravitate towards the other characters. it sucks, but game writers sometimes suck when it comes to making female characters, and they shoved so many characters in general into the game that they didnt treat all the companions equally.

but i dont think the sentiment is “we hate het fics, female soles Suck” its more of a “well im looking for some men loving each other and its hard to find that” which comes across similarly, but are very different concerns. you shouldnt have to change what you want to write about because some people are looking for other things. there are still people who will enjoy your writing. but if you want to appeal to the other group of people, that is always a decision you can make to write different content.

id love to encourage people to reblog, comment, request writers. yall arent given as much credit as other creators get, and really its not fair at all to yall since writing takes so much effort, so much free time, even more so than drawing imo.

personally, i think you should put out what you like, quantity or quality wise. some people write little drabbles and can put them out constantly, but if youre the type of writer than needs to do a 29 chapter story with plot and sub plot with overarching themes, i think that can be wonderful too. of course, having a more continuous flow of content always attracts people, as content consumers we are voracious things, but i sincerely hope that you dont quit your writing and that you keep at it, even when discourse flares up. it can be super scary to see people upset or feeling negatively towards things you find yourself doing, but as long as youre not doing harm, i think you can do what you want with your stories. if people dont like it, theyll skip over it far more often than trying to confront you