#y'all ready to meet Elliot?

[not-5-rats]

I love characters that are like meant to be hiding the fact they're supernatural but they're so bad at it and the only reason nobody knows yet is either because,

A) everyone just think they're joking and being stupid as usual

Or

B) there's one person who knows and is constantly covering for them

I love it sm

[wendyeve24]

Up To Heaven and Down To Hell

Chapter 7: Smoke on The Water (Part 1)

(A lot of smut in this chapter. Please take heed of the warnings listed above and proceed with caution! More chapters are coming soon! Please enjoy chapter 7!)

"I'm so glad you could make it Lexi, oh honey you look amazing!" Suze said as she hugged her.

"Thanks mom!"

"You all look amazing." Suze said as she drank some wine.

"Mom? Are you drunk?" Lexi asked.

"Oh no hun, I'm fine. Now go mingle, shoo!" Suze said as she shooed Lexi away.

Fez couldn't help but chuckle.

"Your mom really is-"

"A fucking mess? Yeah, I know." Lexi said.

"You seen your sister yet?" He asked.

"Yeah. She's over there at the bar. I... I'm not ready to talk to her yet." Lexi said as she turned to face Fez.

"Yeah, I get it. And you don't have to. Let's just try to have a fun night tonight?" He said as he held her from behind.

"Yeah, and let's not beat the shit out of anybody." Lexi joked.

"Hey, if he does or says some shit imma have to beat him and his family's ass again, shit. I showed up witchu ma, but ain't nobody said that I can't kick his ass if he come out his mouth with some bullshit. Besides, you havin' my babies Lexi I gotta protect y'all." Fez said in a low voice so only she could hear him.

"Alright papa bear, but be mindful... there's press around." Lexi said as she kissed Fez.

"Where the fuck were you Lexi?" Rue said as she came over to her friend, hugging her.

"Rue? Are you...?"

"High? Yeah... I uh smoked some pot with my fiancé. Holy shit I have a fiancé. Oh shit you haven't met him have you? Hey Elliot!" Rue called him over.

Elliot came over with a smile as he gazed at Lexi and Fezco.

"Hi. I'm Elliot. I take it you're Lexi and Fezco? Rue's told me a lot about you."

"It's nice to meet you Elliot." Lexi said as she shook his hand.

"Wassup man?" Fez greeted.

"Did I fucking tell you he's a rockstar? Did I mention that?" Rue asked.

"Oh wow! Really? That's awesome! Have you both decided on a wedding date?" Lexi asked.

"Not yet. We're just going with the flow for now." Elliot answered.

"Hey, take it a day at a time." Fez said.

As Fez and Lexi talked to Rue and Elliot, Ashtray hesitantly made his way over to Gia as Life On Mars by David Bowie played in the background.

"Uh... hi..." He said.

"Oh... Hey." Gia replied.

"Are you... uh... enjoying the party?"

"Yeah it's... it's fine. Are you?"

"I... just got here." Ash said.

"Oh, yeah... right."

"It's a good party though... so far."

"Yeah. Uh so... you... look nice tonight." Gia complimented.

"Oh, thanks. Uh you look really nice tonight too." Ash responded.

"Um, so... how long will you be in Cincinnati?"

"Just until tomorrow or somethin' like that. Why?"

"I uh... wouldn't mind seeing you again... or to talk to you... I-I mean if you want to! You don't have to-"

"I'd like that." Ash said with a smile.

"R-Really?"

"Yeah. You seem cool, Gia. I... wouldn't mind seeing you again either..." Ash replied.

Gia blushed with a smile on her face.

"Do you... wanna... go out sometime?" Ash asked as he scratched the back of his head nervously.

"Yeah. I'd love to." Gia said with a grin.

Ash released a relieved sigh he hadn't known he was holding in after hearing her say that.

"Groovy... So, Gia... what's it like in Kentucky?" He asked, his nerves starting to slowly melt away.

Custer had managed to get to one of the downstairs bathrooms to smoke some weed and stuffed the expensive porcelain soap dish in his pants thinking he could definitely sell it on the street and make a pretty penny when Faye burst into the bathroom since Custer forgot to lock the door.

"Fuck!" Custer clutched his chest dramatically.

Faye blinked in confusion.

"You startled me, I was about to fucking-" Custer looked up and saw that he was talking to Faye.

"Oh shit... hey..." He said as he stood up from his spot on the edge of the bathtub, taking a hit from his joint.

"Hi. Sorry. I thought the bathroom was like, empty because I have to uh... take a piss." Faye said.

"Oh... sorry, I'll uh... I'll leave then." Custer said apologetically.

"No, it's okay. You can stay." Faye said.

Custer's eyes nearly bulged out of his skull again.

"Woah... w-wait, y-you want me to stay in here while you pee... Faye, that's too freaky even for me." Custer said sheepishly.

Faye went over to the sink and put her purse on the countertop, opening it up and getting out a needle and a rubber arm tie.

"I don't actually have to pee." She said as she turned and sat down on the closed toilet lid before looking up at Custer.

"Ohhhh... oh. You're gonna shoot up, here?" Custer asked.

"Yeah, why not?"

"In your arm..."

"Yeah that's where I normally put it."

"You wanna have some fun?" Custer asked her as he approached.

"Sure." She said with a shrug.

"Ever put it in your thigh?"

"You can do that?" She asked with a shocked look.

"Yeah, want me to show you?"

Faye nodded and looked surprised when Custer got on his knees in front of her.

"Can I?" He asked.

"Go ahead."

His hand wandered up her thigh and up her dress before he moved her dress slightly up her thigh before realizing that she wasn't wearing panties.

"You don't wear panties?"

"I was a porno star. I hate panties."

"You were a porno star? Ever meet Linda Lovelace?"

"I actually did once... she was a fucking bitch... she ate good pussy though."

"Tell me... how many people have you fucked Faye?" Custer asked.

"I like can't remember. A lot though. Why?"

"Wanna add me to your body count?" He asked.

"...Yeah..." Faye said with a slight smirk.

"Great. What do you want me to do first, baby."

"Jam that fuckin' needle in my thigh while you eat me out, then I want you to fuck me." Faye demanded as she pulled up her dress all the way to fully expose her pussy.

"Fuck, I love you." Custer said as he sat up slightly and kissed Faye on the lips, throwing his blunt into the sink before taking the needle from her, removing the cap and jabbing it into her thigh as he kissed his way down and started eating her out as if it was his last meal.

"Oh, fuck yeah!" Faye cried out as she felt his tongue lapping at her pussy and the heroin start to flow into her veins.

Kat, Ethan and Jules were busy comforting Maddy when Lexi finally came over with Fez, Rue and Elliot.

"What happened Maddy?" Lexi asked as she sat down on the couch next to her.

Hey Jude by The Beatles started playing.

"Your sister is an absolute cunt. That's what happened. She just threw away our friendship. She doesn't wanna be friends anymore because I keep seeing the bad in her husband or whatever." Maddy said with tears in her eyes.

"What!?" Rue said.

"That's it. I'm gonna talk to her. This has gone too far." Lexi said as she got up, Fez followed her.

"Beat her ass Lexi!" Rue called after her.

Lexi stormed over to where Cassie was sitting at the bar.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Lexi asked.

Cassie turned around and glared at Lexi.

"Leave me alone, Lexi." She said coldly.

"No. This has got to stop. You need to get help. Everyone that cares about you is trying to help you but you need to help yourself first and you can't even fucking see that. Cassie, he's going to kill you if you don't get out of this marriage now, do you understand?" Lexi pleaded firmly.

"Shut the fuck up Lexi!" Cassie yelled loud enough for everyone to hear, including the press.

Across the room, Nate shot her an angry glare before approaching her and scooping her out of her seat and ignoring Lexi.

"Alright babe... you've had enough to drink. It's almost time for dinner anyways." He said loud enough for others to hear.

"Sorry about that everyone, you'll have to excuse us." Nate said apologetically before leaning down and whispering into Cassie's ear.

"You're in so much goddamn trouble. After the party I'm fucking punishing you, you dumb bitch." He snarled.

He made a signal to the Disc Jockey to turn the music off before he tapped a glass with a nearby utensil.

"Alright everyone, thank you to all The Eastern Sector Organization Members for attending tonight. The Jacobs Family are very happy to have you all here. If you all will follow me and my lovely wife out into the backyard to the banquet table for tonight's dinner where we will also have some very important announcements to make!" He said with a smile as he led a somewhat intoxicated Cassie out to the backyard with the press and all of their guests in tow.

Well... almost all of their guests.

"Holy fucking shit, Faye!" Custer was literally gasping for breath as Faye rode him on the edge of the bathtub, a filthy wet slapping sound resounding throughout the bathroom as she fucked him.

"Ooh yes! You like that?" Faye moaned as she kept riding him.

"Fuck yeah, keep going baby! I'm gonna cum!"

She held onto his shoulders to use as leverage as she brought herself on and off of his cock continuously.

"Oh Hell yeah! I'm cumming!" Custer groaned out as he threw his head back and came inside of Faye.

"Oh yes!" Faye cried out as she felt him fill her up with his cum which only made her orgasm hard. Her hips stuttered as she came which made Custer start to lose his balance on the edge of the tub suddenly and fall into the empty bathtub with Faye on top of him who had fallen in with him. They were lucky no water was in the tub... for a few moments anyways because Faye had tried to get up after they both fell in but she had grabbed the tub faucet and the water knobs that ended up spraying out cold water onto herself and Custer by accident.

Ali was outside of the bathroom when he heard what sounded like someone falling and he knocked on the door.

"You alright in there?" He asked frantically.

Neither Faye nor Custer answered as the cold water sprayed onto them, Faye tried turning the knobs and the hot water came on instead... and it was scalding hot which caused both Faye and Custer to scream for a different reason... and that reason was most certainly not out of pleasure.

"I'm coming in!" Ali said and he bust into the bathroom just in time to see a very naked Custer and Faye who were both high in the now steaming hot bathtub screaming because of the hot water.

"What the fuck is going on in here!?" Ali yelled.

"Turn it off man! Can't reach the damn knob!! Turn the water off, please!?" Custer screamed.

Ali immediately went over to the tub and turned the water off.

"Fucking shit! Faye! Why did you hit the goddamn knob!?" Custer yelled as he wiped some water out of his eyes.

"It was an accident! I didn't know you were gonna fall back on your ass like that! Nobody has ever like fallen backwards when I rode them before, that was so fucking unexpected..."

"I can't fucking believe this is the second time I'm gonna have to say this shit this week, but put your goddamn clothes back on!" Ali yelled before he threw his hands up in defeat and left the bathroom.

"What's his problem?" Faye asked as she turned around and started to get up out of the tub.

"He caught the rockstar he manages fucking his fiancé in his car." Custer explained as he got out of the tub and rubbed his now sore shoulder and lower back since he had taken the brunt of the fall.

"Oh. That's hot." Faye said as she put her dress back on.

"Uh, don't you wanna dry off?" Custer asked as he dried his hair and his body off with a towel.

"I'm better when I'm wet." Faye said as she put the empty heroin needle into her purse and smiled at Custer before leaving the bathroom.

Custer started putting his clothes back on and hid the soap dish he was stealing in his pocket before looking down at his crotch.

"We can definitely both agree on something... she really is better when she's wet." He said to his crotch before disposing of the ashed out blunt that was in the sink and left the bathroom.

"Where the fuck were you?" Marie asked Faye as she sat down at the huge banquet table in the backyard, sitting in her designated seat that had her name on a paper placard that sat neatly on a plate.

"Uh getting fucking high and fucking?" Faye said.

"You're a real skank, ya know that?" Marie said as she shook her head.

Faye shrugged wordlessly as Ashtray, Fez and Lexi sat on her left.

Fez and Lexi were the closest to the head of the table where Nate and Cassie sat.

Custer, Elliot, Rue, Jules, Ali, Leslie, Gia, Ethan, Kat, Maddy and Suze sat on the right side of the table, while a few members of the press, Aaron, Marsha, Cal, Marie, Faye, Ashtray, Lexi and Fezco all sat on the left side of the table.

The first course was served, Five Mushroom Barley Soup.

"This looks like dishwater mixed with shit chunks." Ash said quietly.

Gia who was sitting across from him, heard him and almost choked on her soup as she tried to stop herself from laughing.

"Ash... be classy, man. Shut the fuck up and eat." Fez chastised in a quiet voice so only his brother could hear him.

Maddy leaned over to whisper into Kat's ear.

"How do we know this son of a bitch isn't poisoning us?"

"Dammit Maddy, why do you make such good points?" Kat whispered back as she immediately stopped eating her soup and put her hand on Ethan's arm, signaling for him to put his spoon down.

"Alright, but I'm eating the next course. I'm starving goddammit." Ethan whispered to Kat.

After the first course was over... well, for the ones who had even decided to eat it, Nate stood up, clinking his glass with his spoon to get everyone's attention.

"Alright, like I said before I'm very happy to have everyone here in my home. Cassie is also extremely happy as well, and she wants to apologize for her outburst earlier." Nate said before turning his attention to Cassie, looking down at her.

Cassie stood up and took a deep breath.

"Yes, I'd like to apologize for my behavior. It was very unbecoming of me, and I hope you all accept my apology." She said.

Some of the guests had given her concerned looks while others gave her looks of confusion.

"Good. Now, you all might be wondering exactly why you're all here tonight. And well, I've got your answer... but first... I wanted to talk about... family. We are all family... each and every one of us here. We all love each other like family, we might not get along just like how some families are... but at the end of the day we are all family because two universal things unite us all... and that is God and The Organization." Nate said proudly.

"Amen! I'll drink to that!" Suze exclaimed as she drank from her fifth glass of wine that night.

"I'm going to get a little solemn here for a second if you all don't mind... but, we lost the man we all looked up to recently... and that man was none other than our leader, The Great One, Carl Waldorf Aspen. May he rest in Heaven." Nate continued with a sad look on his face.

Some of the guests nodded solemnly, while others sat still.

"He was a great man. Oh yes, a great great man... but he's gone now. So... we have an Organization but we have no one to lead us... no one to guide us... who will do that? Well... I have your answer. Carl came to me from Heaven and he told me from his own lips, may he rest in peace, that he truly believes that The Organization cannot go on without a new leader and he told me... Nate... you're the chosen one. I told him, he's made a mistake. But no! He insisted! He put his Heavenly hand on my shoulder and said that I am the chosen one to guide The Organization to salvation and that I am the one he wanted to lead you all the entire time. Then... he disappeared in a flash of Heavenly light and from then on I knew what I had to do! Gather everyone here and tell them our beloved leader's words from his own lips! And from this day forward, I vow to do no wrong, no harm, to anyone or anything in our precious Organization. You, my brothers and sisters are my family and I am your father! Let us praise God on this joyous night!" Nate said as he raised his glass.

Everyone else raised their glass in salute or just because they felt they had to.

"And now... my first two acts as your leader is to make another special announcement... Cassie?" He gazed at her with a plastered on smile.

She rose to her feet again with her own glass raised.

"My wonderful husband... the current father of our beloved Organization. I love you with all my heart and soul, and my heart is big enough to include all of you in it... from this day forth, I am your mother. And, I am also going to become a mother..." She trailed off, her voice proud as she placed her hand on her belly.

"Heirs to our wonderful Organization are going to be born... our miracles. Twins."

Everyone gasped. Lexi's jaw dropped. Cassie was pregnant? She was having twins?

"What the fuck!?" Maddy cried out.

Cassie shot a defiant look at Maddy.

Maddy turned away and shook her head in disbelief and disgust.

"Oh my baby is going to have babies!" Suze cried out happily.

"I love you." Nate said to Cassie as he kissed her, some cheered while others didn't.

Cassie sat back down with a smug look on her face.

Nate continued on with his speech.

"My next order of business... is... shameful, but... it must be done because I love each and every one of you and I wish only to protect you all from harm."

Ashtray rolled his eyes.

Ali shifted in his seat uncomfortably. This Organization shit was really too much for him to stomach at times, and this was one of those moments.

Lexi gazed at Fez who had his eyes narrowed as he watched Nate, who gazed directly at them.

Cal took a sip of his wine, smirking as he did so.

"It has come to my attention, that some people have not been honest in telling The Organization, their family... what exactly they do for a living. I mean, if you lie about what you do for a job, then what the Hell else are you lying about? And that brings me to something that... breaks my heart..." Nate said as he started to get choked up.

Rue crinkled her nose in disgust at the terrible acting that Nate was doing... well, terrible in her eyes, not so much the press who was eating up his every word.

"It's the one's closest to you that hurt you the most... and I've made a decision... I'm going to tell you all everything about The O'Neill's." He said as he pointed directly at them.

Kat, Maddy, Leslie and Gia gasped.

Lexi immediately turned pale.

What the fuck was going on?

Ash grabbed his spoon and held it tightly in his hand as he glared daggers at Nate. He'd scoop his fucking eyes out if he said something else.

Marsha and Cal smirked at each other as Aaron looked on, impressed with his brother Nate.

Fez sat there silently, watching Nate's every move. He wanted to let Nate talk his shit first before he kicked the tall man's ass again.

"The O'Neill's are drug dealers. They ruin lives and kill innocent youthful people by giving them drugs that rot their brains, destroy their lives and send them to early graves. Marie O'Neill is their kingpin... or should I say queenpin? She taught Ashtray how to fight, how to kill and how to deal drugs...but was he the first one she took under her little illegal wing? No. Fezco O'Neill her grandson, was the first one she taught all of that to... and because he was the first, who's not only in charge of their wealthy store but also their drug dealing operations! He's robbed people, he's sold youths dope, he's killed people before, ladies and gentlemen we have a fucking criminal sitting here at our table with his wife who is just as guilty! Cassie? Do you wanna chime in on this one?" Nate said.

Cassie stood up and grinned.

"Gladly. Here we have Lexi O'Neill. I knew her as Lexi Howard. She's my sister... was my sister. She willingly allowed my husband to get attacked by her criminal murderer husband! He could have killed him! But you just stood there like nothing ever even happened... you're just as bad as he is, Lexi. And because of that... you deserve punishment... you and your criminal family!" Cassie yelled.

Nate took over from there.

"Yes... punishment, and that punishment is this... banishment. Banishment from The Organization. You deserve nothing from us, you should wallow in your pit of illegal activities and sin. But... you will also repent..."

Lexi had tears streaming down her face, which only made Fez even angrier. Marie's jaw clenched as she held onto Ash so he wouldn't do anything stupid. Faye sat there dumbfounded.

"And your repentance is this..." Nate gestured to Aaron and Aaron pulled two polaroid pictures out of his pocket, passing both down the table until it reached Nate where he held them up.

"Everything you held dear... is gone."

Fezco's eyes widened as he saw the pictures and got up in one swift movement and snatched them out of Nate's hands.

It was a picture of the store, of MILK on fire. And the second picture was of the cops outside of the O'Neill's residence.

"Now I made a deal with the police to not have you all arrested, but... if hands are laid on me I'll be pressing charges... charges I don't think you all will be able to afford now."

Fezco felt cornered his breathing heavy as he ripped the pictures up.

"You gon pay for everything you've done to my family, my wife..." Fez turned to look at Cassie.

"And her sister."

Maddy clapped as she stood up.

"Yeah! Like abusing her for instance?" She cried out gazing directly at Nate.

"Or having her ask permission just to talk to us?" Kat said.

"Or making her hang up the phone so she's completely isolated from us!" Rue yelled.

"Yeah!" Jules agreed.

"Or talking shit about someone's wife for absolutely no reason." Ethan said as he stood up.

"You're so fucking mean! I don't like mean people!" Faye yelled at Nate and Cassie from her seat as she got up.

"You tell em' babe!" Custer cheered on.

"Quiet!" Cal yelled as he got up.

"You and your family are out of The Organization! You can leave!" He yelled as he pointed at the O'Neill's.

Marie got up.

"I'd like to see you motherfuckers get us up outta here. We just flew all the way from Boston just to be here for this shit and now you all think you're doing something to us? Like what? And for what? I'll tell you motherfuckers somethin' right now! You don't fuckin' know me, or Ashtray, or Lexi, or Faye and her weird ass, or Fezco! How many of youse actually fuckin' cared? None! So, no we're not goin' nowhere, and if you think about puttin' a hand on me or any of my family... imma take this spoon and gouge your motherfuckin' eyes out and make you wish you had sat your dumbass down!" She growled.

"Come on! Who's man enough or woman enough to try us!? Who's first!? Come on! Don't be fuckin' pussies!"

Nate shook his head and laughed.

"You people have the tiniest brains ever. You've only succeeded in further ousting yourselves. Great job." Nate said.

Lexi had had it.

She took the remainder of her soup and splashed it onto Nate, some of it got on Cassie who screamed.

She then walked out with her head held high, she wasn't going to take this.

"Lexi!" Fezco yelled as he ran after her.

"I just wanna go home Fez! I don't fucking want any of this drama anymore!" She said, tears streaming down her face as he caught up with her.

"We ain't got a home to go back to, baby... but... I might be able to pull somethin' out my ass for us... we gotta find someplace for us. I ain't gonna have a wife and three kids out on the street." Fez said.

The front door to the house slammed and Fez and Lexi turned around to see Ethan.

"Sorry to interrupt but... I'm gonna help you guys out... if you want me to."

"Ethan... what is it?" Lexi said as she wiped her tears.

"There's a place in Virginia that I know about where you both can stay at. I've had this bit of land for a long time, never did anything with it... and you both can have it if you want. Its... basically farmland. If that's not what you guys are looking for I could-"

"Ethan..." Lexi looked at him before looking at Fez.

Fez looked at Lexi.

"You... wanna go and live in Virginia, ma? You... wanna have that Little House on The Prairie life I was talkin' bout?" He asked. He just wanted her to be sure that that was what she wanted.

Lexi smiled at her husband.

"I want that. I want you. I want our kids. I just want everything to be... simpler... better." She said.

She then looked at Ethan and nodded.

"We'll take it."

She gazed at Fez before going back into the house with him.

Lexi went back into the backyard with her husband.

"Alexandra! You apologize to your sister right now!" Suze scolded. She had been trying to do damage control with the press for the last several minutes.

Lexi remained standing with an unreadable look on her face.

"Alright... I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you're way too brainwashed to see the gravity of your situation, I'm sorry that your children... your little miracles are going to be raised by two psychopaths. I'm sorry that you had no choice but to marry a pathetic, disgusting, abusive, manipulative son of a bitch. And... I'm sorry that you're never gonna get a chance to meet your three nieces and nephews because you're so caught up in an abusive relationship." Lexi said.

Once the dots were connected, everyone gasped.

"W-What? What did you just say?" Cassie asked, completely taken off guard by that last part.

"You heard me. You all heard me." Lexi said defiantly.

"You're pregnant!?" Rue yelled.

Lexi nodded.

"She's having three babies." Faye chimed in.

"Congratulations Lexi and Fez!" Maddy said happily.

Cassie was fuming and so was Nate.

"Alright! Enough! Dinner is over! Thank you all for coming, see your way out and after tonight... The O'Neill's are officially banned from The Organization. Effective immediately. Have a nice night, and may God bless you all. Goodnight." Nate said before raising his glass and drinking the last bit of his wine before turning and going back into the house with Cassie.

It wasn't long until all the guests were on their way out and the press had decided to leave with Cal, Marsha and Aaron who were out to do their own damage control for the Jacobs Family.

Lexi put her fur coat back on with Fezco's help.

"I can't believe this, you're pregnant and your family is banned... I just can't believe it." Suze said to Lexi.

"It's better this way, mom. I don't think I need The Organization to feel whole." Lexi responded.

Suze shook her head before hugging Lexi.

"I'm so scared for your sister... she really isn't herself."

"I know you are mom, I know."

Suze, Maddy, Rue, Elliot, Kat, Ethan, Jules, Gia, Leslie, Ali and Custer all followed the O'Neill's out of the house.

"Where are you guys gonna go?" Elliot asked them.

Rue started to speak.

"Yeah. Lex, if you need to stay with us in Kentucky then-"

"No need. Ethan hooked us up with a place in Virginia." Fez said.

"Really?" Kat asked.

"Yeah. You know, that farm in Richmond that I told you about, the one my dad bought me and I never did anything with it?" Ethan said.

"Oh shit! That one! Yeah, he took me there once... it's really cozy. It just needs some proper maintenance done on the grounds but it's a quiet little place." Kat said.

"So you can count me out from visiting..." Maddy joked.

"Aw why Maddy?" Jules asked.

"I fucking hate being outside... except for at the beach."

"I think a quiet little farm away from all of that bullshit is a great idea." Marie said.

"Can we like, grow pot there?" Faye asked.

"I... don't know." Lexi answered.

"What do you think about the move, bro?" Fez asked Ash.

"The fuck are we? A reverse version of the Beverly Hillbillies?" Ash asked.

"I think it'll be good for us. Get the fuck away from a city for a change y'know?" Fez said.

"Fine. Just as long as I can get to Kentucky." Ash said.

"And what's in Kentucky for you?"

Ash stayed quiet, blushing a bit as Fez put two and two together.

"Oh..."

"Shut up! Don't say anything!" Ash said.

Gia giggled at him, which only made him blush harder.

"Alright well, it's about time for us to get going. Give me the info for your motel and I'll drive you guys to Virginia tomorrow." Ethan said.

"Yeah that sounds great. I hate we can't go back to Boston to get anything though." Lexi said.

"Yeah I know ma. But it's for the best." Fez said.

Everyone hugged and parted ways... all of them were oblivious to what was unfortunately going on in Cassie and Nate's bedroom, the radio cranked up loud enough to cover up anything going on in case someone was still loitering around.

Son and Daughter by Queen blasted through the radio.

"Nate... please..." Cassie croaked out as Nate squeezed her neck that was between his hands.

He then let her go before slapping across the face hard so she fell due to the impact.

"You fucking cunt! Your bitch of a sister tried to make me look like a goddamn joke in front of the fucking press!"

"I-I'm sorry! I didn't know she was gonna throw her soup and then come back and embarrass us! Please, Nate!?"

"Us? You fucking think I care about you in this situation? You're a goddamn after thought Cassie."

Cassie snapped.

"I'm carrying your babies! Your children! How do I not matter!?"

Nate's eyes widened before a dark look came across his face. He approached her slowly, staring at her crumpled form on the bedroom floor. He leaned down and grabbed her by her hair, his fingers digging into her scalp as he practically picked her up by her hair as she yelped out in pain.

"You do know that whores like you are a dime a dozen, right? I could fuck another girl right now, get her pregnant with my twins and the rest of The Organization wouldn't know the difference. You're expendable, Cassie... just like the wedding dress I ripped from your body on our first night together." He said in a low and dark tone of voice.

It was all just too much.

Cassie screamed a blood curdling scream.

"There you go. Scream all you fucking want to. Go ahead and cry too, it's what you fucking do best."

He practically threw her onto the bed and stood there watching her thrash around and scream. She then sat up on the bed, breathing heavily, her face was red and her mind was completely broken. Her mental breakdown had officially begun... or was it pent up rage mixed with liquid courage?

"What? You got anything else to fucking say?" Nate asked with a smirk with his arms crossed.

"Kill me."

That... took him off guard.

"What?" He asked.

"You heard me. I said fucking kill me! I know you wanna do it."

"Why the fuck would I kill you now? If I really have wanted you fucking dead I'd have killed you already."

"Oh no, you wanna kill me. You're doing it now. You're abusive! That's how you're killing me! By fucking hitting me and choking me and-"

"Shut the fuck up Cassie!"

Cassie's eyes went wide.

"Fuck you, Nate." She spat as she stared at him.

In a swift movement he lunged for her but she rolled out of bed, landing on her stomach and making a dash for the door before he pounced again and blocked her path.

"I might kill you now, just for that. You fucking bitch!" He spat as he punched her in the face.

She screamed before she started clawing at him, her nails leaving scratches on his neck that made him bleed.

He yelled out in pain as he caught her wrist and bit her hand.

"Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you!" Cassie yelled as she started kicking before she kneed him in the crotch.

He fell to the floor yelling in pain and clutching his crotch, his nuts were hurting horribly.

"This isn't what I wanted! I wanted a good husband! A good marriage! Now my babies will only know pain and suffering like their mama!" Cassie said between sobs as she yelled at him.

Nate slowly got up before grabbing Cassie and throwing her on the bed again and holding her in place before he kneed her in her stomach as she screamed.

He took his pants off as he put all of his weight on her and ripped her dress off of her.

"I hate you! I fucking hate you!" She screamed into the mattress as he forced himself inside of her and started to thrust himself in and out, hard.

By the end of the night, their bedroom was in shambles, and they were leaning against each other in bed together. They were exhausted, bruised and bloody.

"You learned your lesson this time, didn't you?" Nate asked as he looked down at a battered Cassie.

Her lip was split, she had a black eye, her hair was messy, her nose was bleeding, her gut was in severe pain to the point where she felt as if she couldn't move, her hand was bleeding with bite marks in it, her cheek was red and scratched, her thighs had cuts on them and her neck, arms, legs, back and ass cheeks had angry blue bruises on them.

Not to mention, she had nearly lost her voice from screaming... or had she almost lost it by being choked so much?

She had done a number on him too, his balls were still hurting, the scratches on his neck were still bleeding and he was pretty sure that she might have kicked him in his ribs.

She nodded in absolute defeat. He had overpowered her in every way possible, and had unfortunately put a drunk and angry Cassie back in her rightful place... despite the cracks in their marriage that was beginning to show.

"We're so toxic..." Cassie managed to croak out, her voice raspy.

"And it works, because love is at the core of that toxicity. I love you, Cassie." He said, a twisted smile on his face.

A tear trickled out of her eye that wasn't black and almost swollen shut. A painful yet forced smile on her face as her lips bled.

"I love you too." She croaked out.

Before she drifted off to sleep, she made a mental note to make him the best breakfast in the morning and to go and see the doctor as soon as he left for work the next day... she could feel that something wasn't right.

End of Part One!

Link to part 2

[iamasimpingh0e]

Euphoria (Elliot) x reader

Words: 1865

Characters: Fezco, Ash, reader, Elliot ,...

Warnings: drug use

Summary: You meet Elliot at a party

You weren't perfect by any means, to be honest you were pretty fucked up.

You had a lot in common with your best friend Rue. Both of you grew up with a single parent and both of you were victims of drugs. Unlike Rue, you knew your limits. You knew what was enough and when you would take a risk of overdosing. Every single day, you repeated the same circle. Waking up without anything in your system, feeling drained. Later smoking some weed, drinking some alcohol, leaving for school and in the afternoon, taking just as many pills so you wouldn't overdose. Every single day for the last few months. You were good at hiding it. Your dad wouldn't notice anyways, he was barely home. Your mom was out of the picture and you had no siblings that live with you. Your friends were too busy with their own shit to notice your change of behavior.

Every single time you spent time with your friends it was only about boys. Maddy complaining about Nate and that they're on a break again and Cassie saying how much she wished she was in a relationship again.

"I mean who does he think he is?" Maddy asked the group of girls as you all sat in her room. Smoke appeared in your vision and you motioned for BB to pass you her vape.

"If you ask me, you should finally blow him off bitch. You seem like a lost puppy." BB said.

You looked over at Kat, who sat quietly on Maddy's bed, lost in thoughts.

"What do you think y/n?" You suddenly heard Maddy ask.

"Mads just fuck this dude. Show him what he lost, hoe." You answered, trying to seem interested even though you couldn't care less.

"Y/n's right. You should find someone else who's fuckable tonight. Show Nate that you don't belong to him" Cassie said as she went to do her hair.

You all were planning to go to the party that took place at Nate's house.

"Imagine how mad he would be if you just fucked someone else in his house." Kat suddenly said.

"Bitch that's the whole point" BB looked at Kat as if she wanted to say 'you're so stupid'.

You didn't really want to go to this party but it was a great chance for you to get to drugs the easy way. After Rue overdosed herself, your dealer Fezco became more serious with how much he sells you guys. He stopped selling to Rue completely and you were sure, not long and he would stop to sell to you too.

He knew the business and unlike your friends, he could tell when someone was on the verge of losing control.

"Okay bitches, yall ready?" Maddy asked the group as y'all got up and went downstairs. One last drag of the vape and you handed it back to BB knowing you needed something stronger.

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As you arrived at the party, you directly made your way towards the kitchen to mix yourself a drink.

Looking at the different bottles in front of you, you quickly grabbed the one holding the strongest alcohol.

"Tough day?" You suddenly heard someone ask behind you, looking at the bottle in your hand.

"No? But I really need this to enjoy this party here." You quickly said as you almost filled your whole cup with the liquid, only adding a little bit of fruit flavored soda for the taste.

"Touché" The boy said.

You haven't seen him around before, so you quickly came to the conclusion that he must be new.

"Oh, I'm Elliot by the way." He gave you his hand to shake, which seemed kinda weird but you didn't care. Taking one sip of your drink, you felt the harsh taste of it and welcomed the alcohol in your system.

"Y/n" You shook his hand. Looking into his eyes, you saw that he was probably high at the moment. Either that, or his eyes just weren't used to the lights.

"Well y/n, I don't wanna seem like a creep but would you like to dance?" He's asking you to dance? You don't even know him and aside from that you weren't in the mood yet.

" 'm sorry Elliot, maybe ask me again when I have more in my system." You gave him a small smile and left him standing in the kitchen.

You began to search the house for the one person you came for in the first place.

Stepping out into the backyard you saw the small boy talking to a group of teenagers so you went over to him.

"Hey Ash." You tried to get his attention.

"Boys give me a sec" He told the group he was just talking to and went over to you.

"Long time no see y/n." He said.

"Hey, I need some pills."

"Sorry, can't give 'em to ya." He sadly looked at you.

"What why?" Now you were confused.

"Listen y/nn, it ain't my choice. Fez told me to not give 'em to you, don't want another person we care about landin' in a fucking hospital."

Now you were furious. Sure it was nice they cared about you but it wasn't their fucking business.

"Where's Fez at?" You just asked.

Ash pointed over to the lounge area of the backyard where you saw Fez sitting and talking to Rue, while he smoked a joint.

He knew you were mad and rather let his brother deal with your shit, it was his decision after all.

You gave Ash one last look and then went over to the area Fez sat at.

"You serious?" You asked as you came to stop in front of the ginger haired man.

" 'Ion know what you mean ma."

"You know what Fezco? Go fuck yourself. I can understand you not giving shit to Rue anymore, but me? I never gave you the reason to think I was going to kill myself with the stuff." Now you also got the attention of Rue who was sitting right next to Fez.

It hurt Fez to see you this way, knowing he was the course of all of this. He gave you your first pills and he should have stopped you, when you came in to buy some for the second time.

"Listen y/n, I ain't wanna argue with you while you're in this state, you know." He mumbled.

"Come back when you're not drunk."

"Oh fuck you." You turned around and went back inside, knowing you had to get your pills from someone else tonight.

As you wandered through the house, you were met with the sudden urge to be alone for a bit, so you went off and searched for an empty room.

Walking into the hallway leading to the bathroom, opened the first door you saw.

Once open, you came face to face with the boy from earlier.

"Shit" He said as he looked at you and went to stand in front of the washing machine, trying to hide something.

"Did I interrupt something between you and the machine?" You asked in a teasing tone.

"Ye- uh no, no you didn't."

You went into the room and closed the door behind you.

"Sure I didn't? You're looking pretty fucked right now" You knew what he was doing because you could see some of the white powder still hanging on his nose.

" Don't know what you mean. What are you doing in here anyways." He tried to distract you.

"Came to find someplace quiet and then I ran into you snorting a line." You honestly answered.

"But I ain't gon' tell anyone if you let me do one too." You proposed.

"Shit, you're for sure? This stuff can be strong." Of course, Elliot didn't know you used drugs on a daily basis.

"Yeah. Can I?" He stepped aside and you went over to the washing machine preparing the powder for you to snore it. After you did your line, you were met with the one second of feeling nothing at all. These were your favorite moments, the main reason you started doing drugs in the first place. The one second of not having to worry, the one second of having a pure euphoric feeling.

"Damn, bet you did that before." Elliot suddenly said.

"Yeah, to be honest I did." There was no use in lying. No one could do their first line this perfect, you had just done it.

After that, Elliot pulled out a blunt and you two smoked it together while talking about everything that came to mind.

"Truth or dare?" Elliot suddenly asked.

"Huh?" His question caught you by surprise.

"Not huh. Truth or dare, or don't you know the game?" He teased you.

"Of course I do shithead. Truth." You chose Truth because, at that moment you were just too relaxed and lazy to move. Opening one eye and looking over at Elliot you saw him smirk.

"How many guys you fucked?"

"Probably more than girls talked to you." You honestly answered.

"What makes you think, I don't talk to a thousand girls?"

"Did you just call yourself a playboy?" You smirked.

"No but-..."

"Truth or dare." You interrupted him.

This game went on for a little while longer until your phone began to ring.

You looked down at it and saw that Maddy was calling you.

"Shit 'm sorry, I gotta take this real quick." You told Elliot as you hopped down the washing machine and accepted the call.

"Bitch, where are you?" You heard Maddy's voice through the phone.

"Why do you wanna know?" You were surprised.

Usually your group of friends just entered the party together and then went different ways. Maddy never asked you where you were.

"I'll meet you up front. We're leaving." She told you and hung up.

Elliot could sense your change of mood and went down the machine as well.

"You good?" He asked you.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine. That was my friend, said they're about to head out and she's my ride, so I'd better get going." You said.

To be honest you were kinda sad to leave just yet because you had such a great time with Elliott.

"It's fine. I guess I'll see you around?"

"Yeah, see you." With that you went out of the door and towards the front door of the house.

As you reached Maddy, she directly went to hug you.

"There you are bitch, did you get some dick action?" Of course this was the question you got.

"Nah, but you look like you did." You answered.

"Okay let's go."

Of course none of you drove, you were all too drunk for it anyways. You got picked up by Suze, Cassie's mom.

Suze was a very chill woman and she was like a mom to you since yours left.

You got dropped off at home and directly went into your room. After you brushed your teeth and changed into comfortable clothes, you jumped into your bed.

That night, you fell asleep thinking about your meeting with Elliot and you hoped that you would see him again soon.

A/n: I really enjoy writing about euphoria,pls tell me your opinion and fe free to send requests.

[harrietbarnesblog]

Lust or love

Pairing: Richard madden x reader

Warning: none I guess except for my shitty writing.

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Chapter-4: Elliott

Kit somehow managed to persuade you for a drink after filming for today.

“Ok only one drink and i'm outta here.” you said as you walked with everyone to the bar.

You, Barry, Kit, Richard, Gemma, Lauren were the ones going because others have work to do at their houses.

The bar Kit chosen was a street away from your house.

“I'll just have a shot of vodka.” you order. Everyone ordered the same.

By the time everyone exited the bar it was raining .

“You guys can crash at my place if you want. It's just a street away.” you suggested hesitantly.

“It's okay,y/n. I think we can take a taxi or something and go home.” Gemma said

“No, it's okay if you guys come crash at my place.”

“Are you sure?” Barry asked you.

“Yeah I'm sure.”

You lead everyone fast to your place as it was raining heavily more than before.

“Marisa, I'm home.” you announced as you entered the house.

Everyone removed their jacket and hung it on the coat hanger.

“I was just going to call you because I'm late for my shift. Oh you brought your friends. Nice to meet y'all. I'm marisa. And Elliott is sleeping. He hasn't had his dinner yet.” Marisa said as she was putting on her sock.

She studied oncology and now is an assistant doctor in the hospital nearby.

“Tell you know who that I can't visit her today but I'll surely come there with Ellio.”

“Sure, candy. Bye everyone. Bye y/n.” you watched as she rushed out of the house.

“Who is Elliott?” Richard asked you, just in time the wailing sound of Elliot came out of Elliot's room.

“I'll be right back.” you rushed into his nursery. You picked up the crying 9 month old baby and rocked him slowly.

You walked with the baby to the living room where everyone was standing. Elliot stopped crying.

“Guys this is Elliott...um...My son.”

“What?” everyone in unison.

“Was this the reason you disappeared from the public eye for nearly one year a year ago?” Richard asked.

“Yep. had a boyfriend and he got me pregnant. Broke up with me because he wasn't ready to settle down with kids. Long story short.”

“ I'll give guys clothes to change.” you said and went to your room. You picked some of your clothes to give to Gemma and Lauren. And went to the guest room where your brother stays if he comes here. You were sure he had some clothes here.

You handed them the clothes. After everyone changed you handed Ellio to them and went to change your clothes.

“Thank you for letting us stay here.” Lauren signed to you. You smiled politely at her.

“Gemma and Lauren, you both can take this room.” you said pointing at the room which was temporarily used by Marisa.

“Any two of you can take this room. And one can take my room. I'll sleep on the couch.” you said pointing at your brother's room.

“Barry and I will take the room.” Kit said immediately.

“N…” Barry started but Kit nudged him slightly making him stop. “Yes, We will take this room.”

“And I'll take the couch. You take your bed, sneezy.`` Richard said.

“No, I'll take the couch.” You insisted.

“No, I'm taking the couch.”

“We can share the bed if you want. I mean we both are adults. I think both can stay at their sides.” you suggested.

“Okay.” he agreed.

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[theramseyloft]

After Ankhou died, I have had a very hard time keeping up with both manual loft maintenance and media work.

Manual loft maintenance is the higher priority of the two, so that's were the energy I have has been focused.

The birds are happy, but I have failed to advertise availability for two months.

The birds currently available do not meet the specifications of anyone on my wait list, and to prevent the loft from getting crowded, we've frozen rescue intake and implemented strict hatch control.

Breeding pairs on the roster are only permitted to hatch their first clutch with another bird also on the roster.

Every subsequent clutch will be swapped with fakes at least until all currently available cocks go home.

As I am not caught up on editing photos yet, I will have to make due with listing the name, parents, and temperament of available birds.

Please message me privately, email theramseyloft@gmail.com, or call/text 706-993-7452 for more information.

1. Raddish

Mia x Cara

Retired. ($20)

Was friendly as a young bird, but has not had the opportunity to express temperament in Qt.

Not to be bred under any circumstance due to one known and a second possible cancer in his blood line.

2. Wukong

Blue Check Chinese Owl cock

Loft Bird $30.

Wukong is an excellent father that will definitely benefit a breeding program.

He's very human shy, unless his mate isn't.

Chances of him bonding with a patient person that will let him make friends at his own pace are decent, but I can't guarantee it in good conscience.

3. Farthing

Pied Almond Blue T-pattern het for Toy Stencil mixed cock.

Betty x Hagrid

Comfortable ($50)

A bit of a himbo, Farthing is one of our better known cocks.

He likes people and often gets in my lap or on my shoulder, when not distracted by being the loft bi-cycle.

He's pretty and sweet, but Giant Homer and Frillback ancestry make him a big boy with long flights and tail feathers that will need a lot of room.

4. Leela

Khaki T-pattern mixed hen

Cody x Rigby

Comfortable ($50)

Leela is a mellow little sweety that likes my lap and shoulders.

She's a great pumper, but chain lays and starts a new clutch INCREDIBLY early! Leaving nestlings well fed, but largely unguarded.

5. Todoroki

Tippler

Sooty Ash Red Bar cock

Rescue ($20)

Todoroki is an EXTREMELY high energy breed that will need a LOT of space to free fly most of the time.

He would be happier in a loft than as an indoor pet.

6. Amiga

Blue T-pattern mix hen

Pippin x Cookie

Retired ($20)

Amiga is going to be a pain.

She hates people to the point of trying to break herself to get away from them, and she cannot under any circumstance be allowed to hatch an egg.

She provides her own hatch control by nest cup dancing on her hatchlings. She has been given two chances to hatch clutches, and eviscerated all three peeps this way.

So she will need to be housed in a loft with minimal interaction other than obsessively switching her eggs with fakes.

7. Dolly

Blue Bar mixed hen

Pippin x Cookie

Loft Bird ($30)

Dolly is her sister Amiga's opposite in almost every way.

She's only retired from my program because she's the hen on the roster that likes people the least.

She is an amazing, devoted mother and would make a fantastic foster hen.

8. Wess

Blue tailmark mixed cock

Wukong x Suki

Curious ($40)

Wess is shy and dislikes being approached directly, but often chills nearby preening my clothing and occasionally hops up on my knee.

He is a TERRIBLE dad! It took him two weeks to start helping Dolly feed their nestlings and never sat on them when they were little enough to need it.

9. Arco

Pied Ash Red T-pattern mixed cock

Vito x Cookie

Loft Bird ($30)

Arco is uninterested in people, but not afraid of them.

He'd be a good partner for a nervous rescue bird, or an absolutely amazing foster dad!

He's devoted to his mate and her nest and doesn't start shit with flock mates once he's settled.

10. Bridget

Blue T-pattern feral cock

Rescue ($20)

This is the boy we found with a broken wing and foot on the sidewalk under an overpass.

He's healed entirely and though flighty and skittish, gets along very well with his flockmates.

Like Arco, he takes a mate, picks a nest, settles, and doesn't start shit.

He'd make an excellent foster or partner for a skittish rescue.

11. Scan

Pied ash red cock

Cherub x Tandy

Loft Bird ($30)

Scan is Cherub and Tandy's first hatch.

I was initially going to keep him, but his brother, Nimbus, has a better temperament.

Scan is a flamboyantly aggressive pain in the ass, constantly starting shit with established pairs to earn himself a spot in the hierarchy.

He'd likely mellow out with fewer birds, but isn't interested in being social with me, so I don't think he'd be the best house pet.

12. Acer

Ash Red T-pattern mixed cock

Pippin x Cookie

Loft Bird ($30)

Acer's classification as a loft bird is maintained by technicality.

He has to come in after repeatedly attacking nestlings.

If he does it again with different ones when he goes out on Thursday, his status will be changed to Retired foe unusually severe aggression.

This seems to be a pattern developing in the Pippin x Cookie line...

Which is going to make the birds afflicted hard to place.

13. Bell

Blue T-pattern mixed hen

Pippin x Cookie

Loft Bird ($30)

Bell is the same intense degree of skittish as the rest of her siblings, but gets along well with her flock mates.

She has the best chance of them of being ok as a house bird, but she'd honestly be happiest either in a loft or with a bird friend.

14. Rusty

Pied Ash Red T-pattern mixed cock

Ginger x Danica

Curious ($40)

Rusty is an energetic boy with places to be and stuff to explore!

He occasionally lands on my shoulder or head, or hops briefly up into my lap

He isn't afraid of people, but not liking to hold still makes him hard to interact with.

He's very fun to watch, though, and would be a good match for any one who wanted an independent bird.

15. Checkers

Pied blue check mixed cock

Ginger x Danica

Loft Bird ($30)

Checkers is less interested in people than his brother, Rusty.

He's energetic, gorgeous, and fun to watch, and would make a lovely addition to a pet loft.

He probably wouldn't enjoy being a house bird unless he had a hen to interact with.

He's very combative with other cocks, and has not yet learned the virtue of "Don't start none, won't be none."

16. Frieda

Khaki tailmark mixed hen

Wukong x Suki

Comfortable ($50)

Frieda, though not super outgoing, is friendly in spite of her shyness.

She often gets up in my lap to loaf, but doesn't like being reached for, even with treats.

If you just want warm, quiet company while you read, watch videos, or do desk work, she'll be an excellent match for you.

17. Berry

Pied blue bar hen

Cherub x Tandy

Loft Bird ($30)

Berry is not remotely interested in hanging out with me. She isn't even curious.

She's not afraid by any stretch, she just would rather do literally anything but interact with me.

With lots of enrichment or another bird, she could be ok inside, or she'd make a pretty loft bird.

18. Shinobi

Black pied mixed hen

Leonard x Elliot

Comfortable ($50)

Like most of her siblings, Shinobi is friendly and interested in people, but too energetic to really hold still for long.

She is sweet and polite about taking treats when she feels like it.

She'd be quite happy as a house bird with lots of flight time.

19. Mote

Blue check mixed hen

Wukong x Suki

Curious ($40)

Mote is shy and reserved, but mostly seems overwhelmed by how many of her older and younger flockmates want to be in my lap or on my shoulders at any given time.

When my lap is free, she will usually hop up unto it and loaf for a bit.

She has a good chance of coming out of her shell as a house pet.

20. Tye

Pied tiger grizzle ash red cock

Ginger x Danica

Loft Bird ($30)

Tye is a drop dead gorgeous little man, the spit'n image of his father, Ginger.

He's not afraid of people, but literally everything else is more interesting.

Being a roller and tumbler mix, he's a delightfully acrobatic flier who is a joy to watch.

He'd be a striking addition to a pet loft, or, with enough enrichment or a friend provided, a great addition to a household.

21. Slate

Dirty, smoky blue bar mixed hen.

Satin x Chiffon

Interactive ($60)

Slate's brother, Cotta, is my new therapy prospect.

Slate is mellow and sweet tempered, happily accepts treats, and occasionally tries to play with my fingers like she would a stick.

She's quite happy to loaf in my lap and occasionally lets me stroke her little neck with a fingertip.

22. Flint

Blue check mixed cock

Nobu x Leela

Comfortable ($50)

Flint is a sweet little man that has started jumping into my lap at every opportunity, and often flailing his way up to loaf on my chest.

He accepts treats politely when he feels like it, but doesn't try to play with me yet.

I told y'all there were a TON of birds available. XD

I'll do my best to update this post as there are updates to make, but 22 is WAY more birds ready for homes than I'm really ok with having, especially with winter on the way.

It's my own fault for failing to advertise that they were available as soon as they became available.

Now I'm just going to have to wait before I can do any more rescue work or hatch peeps out for the people on my wait list.

Back to playing catch up...

[thelittlestcheshire]

they say love is a journey (a in character ches playlist regarding elliot)

Started in May of 2020, this is a playlist I made to process Ches’s emotions throughout the entirety of her relationship with Elliot, because music has always been an important tool for her to process things that occur in her life, and I thought it’d be a fun little project to watch how things developed as the plot progressed. And now, I’m sharing it with all of you on the anniversary of their first kiss! I sort of divided it into three “acts” in order to post it because I thought that’d be easier, which you can find under the read more! Happy year of Chelliot, y'all! ( @elliotgdi )

act i: longing

bind your love (cher lloyd) [ooh, now i'm found, i'll never be lost. i'll stick with you no matter the cost. whatever comes we'll figure it out, i know that] // do i wanna know (arctic monkeys) [do i wanna know if this feelin' flows both ways? sad to see you go, was sorta hopin' that you'd stay. baby, we both know that the nights were mainly made for sayin' things that you can't say tomorrow day] // surrender (natalie taylor) [whenever you're ready, whenever you're ready. can we? can we surrender? i surrender] // chasing cars (snow patrol) [i don't quite know how to say how i feel. those three words are said too much. they're not enough] // daisy (zedd) [trust me, i won't give your heart away. why you running, running when you got it right here? oh, i would love you if you let me] // secret love song, pt. ii (little mix) [why can't i say that i'm in love? i wanna shout it from the rooftops/ i wish that it could be like that; why can't it be like that? 'cause i'm yours] // i found (amber run) [and i found love where it wasn't supposed to be, right in front of me, talk some sense to me] // ditmas (mumford & sons) [a broken house. another dry month waiting for the rain/ and i had been resisting this decay; i thought you'd do the same] // what do we got to lose (katherine mcnamara) [i've been lonely for so long i've sang the blues. oh but now your the only one that makes me feel brand new. i'm thinking, what do we got to lose?] // pray (bebe rexha) [i pray to god. he's like one too many drinks, and my intuition starts to sink] // afterglow (taylor swift) [i don't wanna lose, i don't wanna lose this with you. i need to say, hey it's all me; just don't go. meet me in the afterglow]

act ii: acceptance

i walk the line (halsey) [i find it very, very easy to be true. i find myself alone when each day is through. yes, i'll admit that i'm a fool for you] //  dreaming alone (against the current) [don’t lie, bright eyes, is it me that you see when you fall asleep? ‘cause i know it’s you i dream about every night, giving me a feeling like love in the summer; the way i’ve never felt with another] //  i need you to turn to (elton john) [and i wonder sometimes, and i know i'm unkind but i need you to turn to when i act so blind. and i need you to turn to when i lose control, you're my guardian angel who keeps out the cold] // cornelia street (taylor swift) [and baby, i get mystified by how this city screams your name. and baby, i'm so terrified of if you ever walk away i'd never walk cornelia street again] // aurora borealis (bohnes) [you're a million fireflies, you're my northern lights. my magic in the sky] // cosmic love (florence + the machine) [i took the stars from our eyes, and then i made a map and knew that somehow i could find my way back. then i heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too, so i stayed in the darkness with you] // give me love (ed sheeran) [give me love like never before 'cause lately i've been craving more. and it's been a while but i still feel the same; maybe i should let you go. you know i'll fight my corner, and that tonight i'll call ya after my blood is drowning in alcohol] // only us (laura dreyfuss and ben platt) [so what if it's us? what if it's us and only us, and what came before won't count anymore or matter? can we try that?] // call it what you want (taylor swift) [my baby's fit like a daydream, walking with his head down; i'm the one he's walking to. so call it what you want, yeah, call it what you want to. my baby's fly like a jet stream, high above the whole scene, loves me like i'm brand new. so call it what you want, yeah, call it what you want to] // fly with me (jonas brothers) [if it's you and me forever, if it's you and me right now, that'd be alright (be alright). if we chase the stars to lose our shadow, peter pan and wendy turned out fine. so, won't you fly with me?] // all about us (he is we) [take my hand, i'll teach you to dance; i'll spin you around, won't let you fall down. would you let me lead? you can step on my feet. give it a try, it'll be alright] // {if you're wondering if i want you to} i want you to (weezer) [and i said girl, if you're wondering if i want you to (i want you to) i want you to (i want you to). i swear it's true (swear it's true), without you, my heart is blue]

act ii: he loves you too

the only exception (paramore) [i've got a tight grip on reality, but i can't let go of what's in front of me here. i know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up; leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.] // hearts don't break around here (ed sheeran) [oh my baby, lately i know that every night i'll kiss you, you'll say in my ear; "oh, we're in love, aren't we?" hands in your hair, fingers and thumbs, baby. i feel safe when you're holding me near, love the way that you conquer your fear. you know hearts don't break around here] // lover (taylor swift) [and there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear. have i known you twenty seconds or twenty years?] // sucker (jonas brothers) [i'm a sucker for you, you say the word and i'll go anywhere blindly. i'm a sucker for you, yeah, any road you take, you know that you'll find me] // never gonna give you up (rick astley) [never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down, never gonna run around and desert you. never gonna make you cry, never gonna say goodbye, never gonna tell a lie and hurt you] // perfect (ed sheeran) [baby, i'm dancing in the dark with you between my arms. barefoot on the grass, listening to our favourite song. i have faith in what i see; now i know i have met an angel in person and she looks perfect. i don't deserve this, you look perfect tonight] // nothing else matters (little mix) [i told ya, don't let me down, i know you never did, and i don't want ya, don't want ya to start now. i got the lock, gave you the key; look at us now, still you and me. man, we come, we come so far] // love me like that (katherine mcnamara) [i can feel my body drowning but there's no use catching my breath 'cause these seconds turn to hours when we're tangled up in this bed. and it comes in waves, when you love me; couldn't stay away, when you love me like, when you love me like that] // when the lights go out - piano version (gabrielle aplin) [the nights where i blow up with no excuse; the way that you show up and pull me through. no pretty lies, just the ugly truth, and you feel the same way, too. being with you is easy, easy as breathing. only you can see me when the lights go out] // i get to love you (ruelle) [they say love is a journey, i promise that i'll never leave. when it's too heavy to carry, remember this moment with me. i get to love you, i get to love you. i get to love you]

[houstonreggaefestival-blog]

H.R.F. Exclusive interview with Ted Bowne of Passafire

1. First things first, what can you tell us about the new album?

TB:The new album is finished!  We have completed the recording/mixing/mastering part.  Now we are finishing up the art work and copy stuff to get it ready for manufacture.  We recorded a lot of material in 10 days!  Out of those songs we chose 12 for the album.  The process was a lot more live and natural than past approaches as we set up "in the round" and tracked as much as we could live before going into overdub mode.  I think it turned out well because of this approach.

2. Are there any plans to drop a single in the near future?

TB: We have talked about a single.  It's all up to the label (Easy Star) now and how they want to roll out the release.  I think there will most likely be a single released with the pre-order package somehow.  

3. Every Passafire album has always had its own unique sound, how would you describe the overall sound of the new album?

TB: The new album is an updated culmination of our experiences in music both individually and as a group.  The overall theme is a message of hope for continual growth as artists and as people in general.  As always we touch upon both the highs and lows of the human experience in as relatable a way as we can to reach a broad spectrum of music lovers.  Musically,  we are exploring all of the avenues we've previously gone down while maintaining a good amount of reggae elements that keep it as true to the genre as it can be.  We have a huge love for reggae, but can't deny the power of all types of music and love to allow those things to be absorbed into our sound as well.

4. How did y’all come up with the name Passafire?

TB: In 1973, Bob Marley &a The Wailers released the iconic album "Catch a Fire" which was released by Island Records and quickly spread worldwide bringing reggae from Jamaica to the far reaches of the globe.  30 years later, myself and the other original members of Passafire decided that we had caught that fire and it was time to "pass it on" as they say in one of the songs on that record.  Playing music in a live setting is a cycle of energy being passed back and forth from band to crowd and back.  We feel that the meaning of the name reflects our desire to share that energy with everyone who hears our music.  

5. If you could collaborate with any current reggae artist who would it be?

TB: There are a few on my list personally.  We are all big fans of John Brown's Body and would love to have Elliot Martin sing on a track some day.  I am currently a big fan of Chronixx and would be SO stoked to collaborate with him in any way.  We got to meet him when we opened for him at a festival in Vienna, Austria this past summer.  He's a very nice guy and super talented live performer.

6. Y’all do some amazing covers during y'all live sets, whats your favorite song to cover and why?

TB: We covered "Give It Away" by RHCP on our fall tour 2 years ago which was a dream come true.  They have been one of my favorite bands since I was a kid.  That song was fun to learn and difficult to play and sing at the same time so it was a challenge that I embraced every night.  I think the best performance of it was in LA (appropriately).

7. What's your favorite memory you've made while touring with the band?

TB: Oh... so many it's hard to choose just one.  Any time I've had the chance to perform in front of thousands of people and many of them are singing along to our music is a moment that makes all the struggle worth it. Meeting people who have our logo or lyrics tattooed on their bodies is also very surreal.  

8. A lot of artist in the genre look up to y’all and what y’all do, what advice would you give an upcoming reggae artist based off your own experiences?

TB: Tour hard!  Just go for it and don't look back.  We were given a chance to do a national tour only after 4-5 years of relentless touring up and down the east coast.  Humble yourself and be prepared to face uncomfortable situations in the name of making a name for yourself as an artist.  Sacrifices are made every day.  Be open to uncertainty and make music that people can enjoy.  That's my advice.

9. A lot of y'alls music has been recorded at Sonic Ranch studios here in Texas including some of the new album, what brought y'all out to Texas to record and how has recording here influenced your music?

TB: We actually recorded the entire new record at Sonic Ranch.  It was our 5th time recording out there.  We have a great relationship with the ranch and love to go there to be creative.  It's the world's largest residential recording studio which means you can stay there at the ranch and record on your own schedule.  Creativity doesn't always hit at the same time every day.  We love the flexibility we are given out there and the ability to use a plethora of amazing gear. The hospitality is top notch and the food is authentic Mexican cuisine that will fuel your creative energies.  The staff has a strong grasp on the equipment and can make things sound exactly how you want them to quickly and efficiently.  

10. What is your opinion on the current state of Reggae music? Do you think the culture is negatively affected by the stereotypes associated with Reggae music?

TB: Every now and then I meet someone who says "reggae is too repetitive" or something like "all they sing about is weed."  These opinions are usually held by people who have only heard a few reggae songs and have decided to generalize the entire culture.  I have listened to reggae from all over the world.  It is a genre like Jazz, Blues, or Rock that has been adopted by different cultures everywhere and transcends race or religion.  I believe as we start to educate ourselves on the benefits of cannabis and open up the world to opportunities to explore it as a path to wellness and reason, we can expect to see less of a negative connotation associated with Reggae.  People are starting to recognize it as something that is not just background music for your island vacation and more of a way to spread the message of love and positivity in these troubled times we are facing today.  I have faith that the genre will grow more and more in the coming years.

11. Do you think that those stereotypes make it more difficult for bands trying to expand the genre to tour/find an audience?

TB: I think those "stereotypes" are actually what is drawing people to the genre in the first place.  People who are laid back and enjoy to be around other laid back people flock to reggae shows.  We see our fans meeting one another and traveling to see us in remote places far from their homes.  They came together because they like those things that are associated with Reggae and the feeling they get when they are gathered together to enjoy a show.  There will always be people who aren't into it... and so it's not for them.  To each his own.  Live and let live.

12. Did y'all experience any difficulties trying to get traction when y'all first started in the reggae scene?

TB: Starting out in Georgia?  Absolutely!  We quickly found that Florida was a much better market for our style of music and luckily it was close by.  Not to say that we don't do well in GA, but we had to branch out to the places where the scene is blossoming to gain traction.  Colorado, California, and Texas have been great places for our style of music and we try to frequent those spots as much as we can.  Now we are trying to gain traction in Europe and it is very similar to the early days here.

13. One of my favorite things about Passafire is that y'alls sound is always evolving, has that resulted in a more fluid fanbase for the band or would you say the majority of fans have become dedicated because of y'alls reluctance to settle on a specific part sound spectrum?

TB: I think we have a sound that allows for people from all kinds of backgrounds to gravitate to it.  The ones who don't like the "repetitive" nature of reggae are given relief when we break into a metal riff or funk breakdown here and there.  The fact the we change it up often adds dynamics to our show and albums.  Music, in my opinion, should reflect the many aspects of life.  Love, sadness, joy, thoughtfulness, philosophy, abstraction... these are all things that can be expressed through music.  We strive to continually explore all of these things.

14. Do you think the band will release a documentary/DVD of y'all playing an entire live show and maybe gives fans an inside look what life is like on tour with the band?

TB: We have so much footage from the 14 years we've been a band.  Someday I hope to do a more in depth style doc about the band that includes live footage, studio footage, interviews, and behind the scenes stuff.  I would love to tell our story thus far with film.

15. What's left on the bucket list for Passafire?

TB: Red Rocks, South America, Australia/NZ, Asia,  Africa, the world!  We have several ideas for alternative tour formats such as an all brewery tour where we can team up with small craft breweries nationwide.  Beside that, we're looking forward to continuing to build our relationships and fanbase over in Europe in the coming years.

16. How would you describe Passafire to our fans who are just now being introduced to the band?

TB: We bring a lot of energy to the stage.  Our albums are enjoyable and very diverse musically, but the live show is where we shine.  We thrive off of crowd interaction and overall good vibes.  Our music is reggae infused progressive/alternative rock but we jump around to many different points of the spectrum.

17. If you had to choose one Passafire song to be broadcasted into the depths of outer space  which one would you choose?

TB: Start from Scratch, of course!  ("Like black holes in space")

18. What's the first thing that comes to mind when you think about Houston?

TB: "Houston, we have liftoff!"

19. If you were to choose a lineup for the Houston Reggae Festival who would you want to see on the bill?

TB: Chronixx, John Brown's Body, The Expanders, Jesse Royal, Raging Fiya, or Steel Pulse

20. For the final question I want to give our fans something to look forward to, when can we expect to see Passafire in Houston again?  

TB: Possibly spring, maybe summer.

[thelittlestcheshire]

they say love is a journey (a in character ches playlist regarding elliot)

Started in May of 2020, this is a playlist I made to process Ches’s emotions throughout the entirety of her relationship with Elliot, because music has always been an important tool for her to process things that occur in her life, and I thought it’d be a fun little project to watch how things developed as the plot progressed. And now, I’m sharing it with all of you on the anniversary of their first kiss! I sort of divided it into three “acts” in order to post it because I thought that’d be easier, which you can find under the read more! Happy year of Chelliot, y'all! ( @elliotgdi )

act i: longing

bind your love (cher lloyd) [ooh, now i'm found, i'll never be lost. i'll stick with you no matter the cost. whatever comes we'll figure it out, i know that] // do i wanna know (arctic monkeys) [do i wanna know if this feelin' flows both ways? sad to see you go, was sorta hopin' that you'd stay. baby, we both know that the nights were mainly made for sayin' things that you can't say tomorrow day] // surrender (natalie taylor) [whenever you're ready, whenever you're ready. can we? can we surrender? i surrender] // chasing cars (snow patrol) [i don't quite know how to say how i feel. those three words are said too much. they're not enough] // daisy (zedd) [trust me, i won't give your heart away. why you running, running when you got it right here? oh, i would love you if you let me] // secret love song, pt. ii (little mix) [why can't i say that i'm in love? i wanna shout it from the rooftops/ i wish that it could be like that; why can't it be like that? 'cause i'm yours] // i found (amber run) [and i found love where it wasn't supposed to be, right in front of me, talk some sense to me] // ditmas (mumford & sons) [a broken house. another dry month waiting for the rain/ and i had been resisting this decay; i thought you'd do the same] // what do we got to lose (katherine mcnamara) [i've been lonely for so long i've sang the blues. oh but now your the only one that makes me feel brand new. i'm thinking, what do we got to lose?] // pray (bebe rexha) [i pray to god. he's like one too many drinks, and my intuition starts to sink] // afterglow (taylor swift) [i don't wanna lose, i don't wanna lose this with you. i need to say, hey it's all me; just don't go. meet me in the afterglow]

act ii: acceptance

i walk the line (halsey) [i find it very, very easy to be true. i find myself alone when each day is through. yes, i'll admit that i'm a fool for you] //  dreaming alone (against the current) [don’t lie, bright eyes, is it me that you see when you fall asleep? ‘cause i know it’s you i dream about every night, giving me a feeling like love in the summer; the way i’ve never felt with another] //  i need you to turn to (elton john) [and i wonder sometimes, and i know i'm unkind but i need you to turn to when i act so blind. and i need you to turn to when i lose control, you're my guardian angel who keeps out the cold] // cornelia street (taylor swift) [and baby, i get mystified by how this city screams your name. and baby, i'm so terrified of if you ever walk away i'd never walk cornelia street again] // aurora borealis (bohnes) [you're a million fireflies, you're my northern lights. my magic in the sky] // cosmic love (florence + the machine) [i took the stars from our eyes, and then i made a map and knew that somehow i could find my way back. then i heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too, so i stayed in the darkness with you] // give me love (ed sheeran) [give me love like never before 'cause lately i've been craving more. and it's been a while but i still feel the same; maybe i should let you go. you know i'll fight my corner, and that tonight i'll call ya after my blood is drowning in alcohol] // only us (laura dreyfuss and ben platt) [so what if it's us? what if it's us and only us, and what came before won't count anymore or matter? can we try that?] // call it what you want (taylor swift) [my baby's fit like a daydream, walking with his head down; i'm the one he's walking to. so call it what you want, yeah, call it what you want to. my baby's fly like a jet stream, high above the whole scene, loves me like i'm brand new. so call it what you want, yeah, call it what you want to] // fly with me (jonas brothers) [if it's you and me forever, if it's you and me right now, that'd be alright (be alright). if we chase the stars to lose our shadow, peter pan and wendy turned out fine. so, won't you fly with me?] // all about us (he is we) [take my hand, i'll teach you to dance; i'll spin you around, won't let you fall down. would you let me lead? you can step on my feet. give it a try, it'll be alright] // {if you're wondering if i want you to} i want you to (weezer) [and i said girl, if you're wondering if i want you to (i want you to) i want you to (i want you to). i swear it's true (swear it's true), without you, my heart is blue]

act ii: he loves you too

the only exception (paramore) [i've got a tight grip on reality, but i can't let go of what's in front of me here. i know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up; leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.] // hearts don't break around here (ed sheeran) [oh my baby, lately i know that every night i'll kiss you, you'll say in my ear; "oh, we're in love, aren't we?" hands in your hair, fingers and thumbs, baby. i feel safe when you're holding me near, love the way that you conquer your fear. you know hearts don't break around here] // lover (taylor swift) [and there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear. have i known you twenty seconds or twenty years?] // sucker (jonas brothers) [i'm a sucker for you, you say the word and i'll go anywhere blindly. i'm a sucker for you, yeah, any road you take, you know that you'll find me] // never gonna give you up (rick astley) [never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down, never gonna run around and desert you. never gonna make you cry, never gonna say goodbye, never gonna tell a lie and hurt you] // perfect (ed sheeran) [baby, i'm dancing in the dark with you between my arms. barefoot on the grass, listening to our favourite song. i have faith in what i see; now i know i have met an angel in person and she looks perfect. i don't deserve this, you look perfect tonight] // nothing else matters (little mix) [i told ya, don't let me down, i know you never did, and i don't want ya, don't want ya to start now. i got the lock, gave you the key; look at us now, still you and me. man, we come, we come so far] // love me like that (katherine mcnamara) [i can feel my body drowning but there's no use catching my breath 'cause these seconds turn to hours when we're tangled up in this bed. and it comes in waves, when you love me; couldn't stay away, when you love me like, when you love me like that] // when the lights go out - piano version (gabrielle aplin) [the nights where i blow up with no excuse; the way that you show up and pull me through. no pretty lies, just the ugly truth, and you feel the same way, too. being with you is easy, easy as breathing. only you can see me when the lights go out] // i get to love you (ruelle) [they say love is a journey, i promise that i'll never leave. when it's too heavy to carry, remember this moment with me. i get to love you, i get to love you. i get to love you]