#xxim not ashamed of who i am but of the pain ive causedxx

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📔+ Serena (early after they reunite in Spain)

From this meme

The page started as all her entries started: with a city and a date.

Dragged Serena on a walk today. Had to bribe her with wine but I think she secretly enjoyed herself. Beautiful countryside.

There was an inked sketch of a landscape of fields and vineyards after the first few scribbled sentences. Taped near the drawing was a candid photo of Serena making a goofy face.

After negating several threats, I managed to convince Serena to let me keep the photo. I had to swear it would never get leaked although I still say Rick would appreciate it. Not nearly as much as I do, of course. It's good to see her like this. Almost makes being without her all that time worth it. Whatever it is they have in the air over here, I'm grateful for it.

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"I live every day in a world where I did everything different. When you cried in the car and instead I really listened. All those times I felt love and I'd just fucking admit it. Give you the whole of my heart, the same that you were giving. And when I moved overseas and you said you'd wait for us. I really gave it a chance and not ran away from love. A world where I'm not scared every morning just waking up. Now I make it up. There's a place inside my mind I make believe Where the story doesn't end in tragedy And now the only way I feel you close to me Is to hide inside a ghost reality." -Ghost Reality by Moncrieff

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this meme 🍋 - Does your muse complain about things to you? If so, what?

//NHS politics, regular politics, her kids, people not letting her do her job (more NHS politics if we're honest). She doesn't tend to complain about anything too personal - that she holds close to her chest until it eats her up from the inside out.

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(on a more serious-can you call it serious?- note. Bernie has always been soft. Serena is just the only one she feels safe to let it show around)

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Serena sitting on your face

"Wouldn't you like to know...alright, can't we have a go at someone else now? Or better yet, move on to a new game."

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How would you feel about Serena working you to the point of squirting ?

"I..." Bernie floundered a bit, warmth flooding her cheeks. "I really don't see how that's any of your business...How did we even end up playing this game? Dom...did you start this?"

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Serena’s face buried between your legs

"Can I ask you something? Have you ever declined an offer like that from your lover?"

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Which do you prefer when giving - dildo or fingers?

"Well, that greatly depends on the situation, doesn't it."

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Having Serena on her knees in front of you, willing to do whatever you wanted

Bernie's gaze softened. Her voice, normally so direct and commanding, was likewise changed. "I would never want...Serena to do anything she didn't...fully want. She's in charge of her own choices...her own actions." (She would never dream of having Serena on her knees in any sort of subservient fashion...she's incredibly proud and enamored with Serena's in charge, take no flak, attitude. If and when Bernie chooses a more dominant role in their activities, she sees no reason to make Serena smaller in order to do so. She wants to lift Serena up, cherish her, and make her see herself through Bernie's eyes.)

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Nipple clamps, yes or no?

"Ow..." Bernie pulled a face before continuing in jovial disbelief, "That can't be enjoyable, can it?"

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Spanking: giving and receiving

"Good bit of stress relief, I hear…"

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You tied up and ridden for as long as your partner needs. Basically you’re used as a toy to help your partner get off

"Now, there's an idea...couldn't say of course. Partner confidentiality and what not."

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Tied up on a rack

"I'm sorry, did you say a rack? As in...those medieval torture devices? Is...those aren't...are they?" Looks over to the person on her right.

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Store room hot and heavy with Serena - it's semi public and offers the thrill of getting caught 😈

"We are consultants not a couple of teenagers hiding out from our parents..." The indignant tone was played up just a bit too much and it wasn't exactly a no.

(Truth nonnie? She is on board with the concept but would never admit to it. After all, half the fun is knowing she got away with it...)

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Sexual scenario- Serena's in charge. Serena wears the strap. You're hog tied and completely at her mercy.

"Ah..." Bernie leaned back in her chair, looking off with a half amused frown. "Not for me I'm afraid."

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What's she like?

Bernie doesn't like gum.

It reminds her of the time she tried and failed to quit with nicotine gum: she'd chewed her jaw sore. Not that she'd been that big of a fan before. Bernie had always found it aggravating how gum got stuck everywhere...but finding it where it shouldn't have been in the first place was more of a people problem than a gum problem.