#xoxo vegangrinch

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excellent late night convo with my med school student cousin last night!! We were first talking medical ethics re: abortion and then she was alluding to the ultra liberal city students being in for a rude awakening when they go to rural areas (especially in our province) to which I was like fuck it and ripped off the bandaid re: trans stuff and tbh it went great.

She is mostly uncertain/open to all sides but doesn't like that the trans side isn't willing to have discussions about it and noted that it's because they have nothing to back up what they're saying and their arguments fall apart so easily. Go off queen.

and she definitely feels extremely handcuffed about it in med school, like you absolutely cannot question anything about it so everyone stays quiet.

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father making my uncomfortable under the cut

on vacation my (divorced) dad said something and I remember immediately thinking the exact thought of "I feel... violated" but I cant for the life of my remember what it was :( like it wasn't an outrageous comment or anything or um. capital-"i"-word-y but if I had to classify it as either "not violating" or "violating" I would have picked violating.

I can remember other things he said that made me a little uncomfortable (like describing his last vacation where started Talking To a woman 15 years younger than him) and just in general his behavior around women (staring/gazing, talking to 3 women even younger than me who were sat next to us - which he would say is just being friendly and he would play dumb like and imply that I'm the dramatic asocial negative Nancy bad guy)

It just really bothers me that I cant remember it bc i remember feeling it and now I cant look back to reassess if I was overreacting. and I feel like I sound crazy especially bc I have a history of being really hard on my dad even though I think I'm being fair everyone thinks I'm hysterical.

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cried on the way home from my moms today bc it's like. does my brother even love her? why do men have such little sympathy for their divorced mothers? why does everyone assume my life as a single person is inherently less important than a married person's?

my divorced mom is moving and it's been really tough :( once my brother and I got back from vacation and after I recovered from being sick she let us know that she is drowning in the move and is overwhelmed and needs help and would like both of us to come the next three days to help (she currently owns her childhood home so it is full of all of her stuff and her parents stuff since like 1960).

Day 1: brother goes to mom, brings breakfast, chats, does 1 special project ("set up xyz" or similar) then has to go. I go to moms later and ask what she needs help with, she is overwhelmed I say no problem let's start packing from this room okay now we have two car loads let's bring it over rinse repeat for 3 hours

Day 2: i go over in AM, 3 hours packing directing organizing decision making cheerleading. Brother no-shows later or forgets or says it isnt going to work out today.

Day 3: I go over in AM, 4.5 hours packing directing organizing decision making cheerleading. Brother says he is coming for "later afternoon/evening" so at 3:30 I ask what time he's coming over, no response, so at 4:30 I text him his instructions on which area he responsible for and how to sort for garbage/donate/move and that it has to be packed and ready for the movers. also no response. No idea if he went today. He never has time for her and when he does he never takes any mental load from her...

Today (day 3) before leaving I asked her to please get him to assemble to shower shelf AFTER he does a couple hours of the actual move. I literally was like "it's like how men will trim the trees once a summer and call it the same as doing the dishes everyday. Its not fair for him to pop in for odd jobs here and there when I'm packing boxes all day. I know he's busy and his life is important because he has a wife but my life is important too"

She is always really understanding when I point it out and I know how he acts really hurts her (she is very adamant and always has been that his wife should come first i just dont think she thought that she would come last)

It's just hard that my punishment for being a present attentive consistent daughter is higher standards and his reward for never prioritizing her and making her seem like a huge burden is lower standards. that post about how girlhood feels like you're being randomly punished...

Would love to confront him but

Anyway cried on the way home

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I've invited my male-exclusive bisexual male (mebmale?) coworker who've I've become good friends with over to my house after work tomorrow and tbh it's going to be so weird having a man in my house. Since i moved out my brother has been over twice and my dad once.

Like the last time a male who wasnt my brother or dad was in my home was 2012 when I lived with my brother and he had friends over. I had a male friend in elementary school and we reconnected a bit in highschool but we always went to his place.

Can't wait to tell everyone at work tomorrow that it's been over a decade since a man's been in my home

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sometimes I feel like I'm the only person who gets coldsore who is hyper vigilant about making sure I don't spread it to my eyes or genitals

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forgot to do an apartment reveal!! I took possession on valentines day and moved in on the Saturday:)

ladies................. might be buying a condo this week. I remember being on tumblr with $0 in my bank account and telling my therapist my main goal was to get a job. And like. I did it :)

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took my mom to my weekly botanical garden/plant conservatory excursion :')

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Ate breakfast two days in a row... Inch resting..

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okay the best tracks from the new blink album are: left alone, san diego, and cynical with runners up: rabbit hole and sober, with an honorable metion to built this pool

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i mean yes, TECHNICALLY, drinking a 1.89L carton of chocolate almond milk in half a day is Not The Best but what youre all missing is how it is Crucial 2 my soul and spirit

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me, like a true delawarean, appalled at the outrageous 14% tax in ontario

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lesbians dont belong in bi women spaces

bi women dont belong in lesbian spaces

bi women and lesbians both belong in women loving women spaces and lgbt spaces

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my brother is obsessed with shopping for eyeglasses online.. he texts me at 12:30am “you up? what about these faux wood ones from clearly contacts”

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i love ingrid nilsen and i love gay girls and i love all the young gay girls watching that video

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stop using the q slur as an umbrella term for lgbt ppl 2k15

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do you think jtoews has ever done jazz hands