#wtv it's not like anyone's gonna see this anyway

[polarisjisung]

LOVE ON THE COURT | 20 ... WITH BENEFITS??

SYNOPSIS | every college student has their struggles, but raising her younger brother has Y/N top of the list, struggling her way through college whilst balancing her academics and basketball captaincy is difficult no doubt and with Jaemin, her ex best friend and captain of the guys basketball team, and his growing one sided hatred towards her, it doesn't seem to be getting any easier

WARNINGS | swearing, sexual innuendos, kys/kms jokes, y/n has daddy issues for the sake of the plot

NOTES | I have no idea why this update took me so long to post I'm so sorry 😭 I don't like making chapters like this too sad (don't worry there's still gonna be some angsty chapters) but I don't want the written stuff on its own bcs that feels too espresso depresso or wtv the phrase is so this is a bit of a longer chap than usual.. anyways if ever you feel bad for y/n, don't worry you're gonna feel worse

19:21, dinner the night before

Y/n shuffles in her seat.

Jaemin greets her with a smile, and though she offers one back, that sinking feeling in her stomach doesn't seem to settle.

Suddenly now that she finds herself face to face with her once best friend, no menus in hand since they'd already given their orders, no way to avoid conversation for just a couple seconds longer, Y/n finds herself at a loss for words.

What was anyone supposed to say in this situation?

Sure a thank you would be ideal, considering Jaemin had somehow managed the impossible, but the words escaped her. Like they rested at the tip of her tongue but she lacked the drive to speak them.

It's not that y/n wasn't grateful, no, she wouldn't be here if she wasn't, in fact she didn't know what it was, what confused her so deeply that she sat there silently. Her thumbs twiddling against one another, as she stared down at the table in front of her.

There was a nagging whisper in her mind, one that cast shadows over her once clear thoughts, leaving her in that haze of uncertainty that she recognised all too well. Recently it was all she could feel around the captain.

Something about this situation in particular makes her palms sweaty and the hairs stand on her neck, every glance at Jaemin feeling like a shadow of what had once been, a reminder of how it had all been lost.

Even just sitting opposite Jaemin isn't simple.

Not at all.

It's like sitting across from a mirror that once reflected shared laughter and secrets, now distorted by fractures of lost trust and unspoken words. She supposed that was the thing about mirrors and shattering. No matter how hard you tried to glue the pieces back together, it would never quite be the same.

Perhaps that's why y/n is lousy in her attempts, grateful to Jaemin but unbothered to express it. The thought that no matter how desperately she hoped, this couldn't be restored. That there was no point in pouring energy into a friendship that would never be resolved.

"So" it's undoubtedly jaemin who breaks the silence, a soft tone to his voice, not quite as gentle as the other night but still warm "are you feeling better? like really okay?"

For a moment she wonders whether she'll break at the sound of his voice like she always had. Would she go back to that point in life where it was so easy to lie, so easy to say she was okay, so easy to pretend, in front of everyone else but never in front of him.

"I'm fine, honestly." She lies.

There's a shy sheepish smile that creeps across her lips and slightly accents her words

Jaemin hasn't seen much of her positivity be directed his way, and seeing this ignites the little hope in him that they could move on from this, from everything.

"You didn't have to work on it without me you know, it was just as much my project as it was yours and you putting in all the effort isn't fair on you."

"You did most of the preliminary stuff anyways, and I really didn't want to ask you because of the other night" Jaemin finally admits, though not willingly, his words extracted more so by her sharp stare and the cold atmosphere.

"Right..." Her attempts at changing the subject, clearly in vain— he really needed to stop asking about the other night. Y/n wasn't sure how much h longer she could hold back the tears, the looming feeling of inadequacy as a guardian still strong. She should have been more careful.

She knows its her turn to speak, opening her mouth to do so.

But again, y/n struggles.

The words play hide and seek in her mind, leaving her to grasp at empty. The atmosphere grows heavy with the weight of unspoken words. Her mind races, a jumble of what to say, thoughts of how easy conversation once was, how effortless it had been, all such a stark contrast to now.

Jaemin watches, a mix of intrigue and concern in his eyes as she contemplates in front of him, quiet but with an expression that spoke volumes.

The silence between them seems to bite louder than any conversation they once held, each dish in front, a reminder of the bitter aftertaste of a friendship turned cold.

"It's just Minjun and I" she breathes out, voice shaky, and Jaemin realises that those nervous cues in her slumped posture and shaking hands had never changed "It's just been the two of us for a while" she whispered. "That's why I was so scared"

Jaemin's hand hovers uncertainly beneath the table, unsure if the gesture would be welcomed or misunderstood, caught in the delicate balance of care and concern.

Admittedly, Jaemin catches himself slightly intrigued, still confused what could have lead to her practically perfectly family turning into this.

But he knows better than to let his curiosity get the best of him.

He wants to stop her, tell her that whatever it is that causes her brows to knit together and her pretty eyes to gloss over isn't something she needs to force herself to talk about, but he doesn't know how.

For a moment he's kicking himself under the table— how had he ever let go of the person who meant so much to him?

Even now, knowing everything she had done, he couldnt help but question why hadn't he tried to get past it then?

At the sight of her downcast features suddenly everything that he once despised her for seemed so trivial.

Jaemin sees himself, a younger, less mature version that stands on the court, hair matted to his forehead from the rain, a ball long forgotten somewhere behind him, cold, betrayed, and so painfully alone. Those burning tear stained cheeks, the harsh whistles of wind, the bitter feeling of failure still clinging to his skin, he remembers it all.

But every feeling he recalls so well, so vividly, is so easily dismissed when her eyes shine with a painful tint, red from the piercing tears that she holds in them.

"My dad" she cuts him off, gaze now avoidant as he grabbed her cold hands in his, "he walked out on us not long after ...whatever hapenned between you and me. He never came back, didn't answer a single call, not even a text, no form of communication except the papers he sent in the mail so I could become Junnie's legal guardian."

I missed you, she wanted to say. I needed you she'd liked to add.

"That's why it's just the two of us now" she said instead, trying to find more words to stop the tears from flowing, like her words were the only thing that could hold them back.

Back then, Y/n remembers vividly the feeling of wanting to fall, to sink, to drown but still somehow keeping her head above the surface to hold on and stay strong for her younger brother. She wondered if Jaemin had been there, would it have been easier? Would she have let herself fall, would she have someone to give her a hand, to pick her back up again and hold her hand through it all? Would things have ended differently?

"I'm sorry" his words weren't new, they weren't special, they were the same as what everybody else would say but the fact that they came from him, Na Jaemin who now stood by her side with his arms wrapped around her, was enough to dissolve the feeling of emptiness.

08:25 present time

Y/n looks over at Minjun, still deep in slumber, smiling before she steps out of the room.

There's way too many toys sprawled out across the living room floor, a blanket she finds herself folding as she subconsciously begins to clean up. Her eyes land on the kitchen counter, wondering what to make for breakfast. She was never particularly good at cooking, but she'd been learning for her brothers sake.

When she gets to the black jacket resting over the couch, it hits her. She catches sight of her puffy eyes in the mirror, and a hand runs through her hair hurriedly.

"Why the fuck did I tell him all of that" she let's out a frustrated sigh, running her hands across her face, "I'm supposed to hate him" she reminds herself, though her tone isn't convincing in the slightest.

"You don't hate him though" Heeseung's voice comes out muffled, the toothbrush between his lips making it difficult to understand his words.

He had been the one to stay over last night, her friends still taking turns to accompany Minjun and her every night since he'd walked out of the apartment, a gesture that made her heart swell. Although up until now she was pretty certain he was still asleep. Clearly not.

"I can't hate him" she sighs, falling back into the couch "is it bad I want to be friends with him again?" she asks, even though Heeseung had retreated to the bathroom to finish brushing his teeth.

Regardless he pokes his head out into the hallway, a sly smirk across his lips "with benefits?"

Y/n rolls her eyes.

He emerges again not long after, smiling from ear to ear "no y/n it's not bad if you want to be friends again" he takes a seat beside her "you can only fight your feelings for so long, let yourself be vulnerable, take the risk and try again" he says, hands resting on both his knees.

"and if you're feeling really risky, you can always—"

"shut up Heeseung" she smiles, lightly pushing against his arm "I guess it is worth a shot though"

"he's right next door anyways so sneaking around won't be hard at all"

"I meant being friends. Just friends." she stands up, walking over to the kitchen "you down for pancakes?"

He nods.

"You know it could be good though, he's hot, you're hot, there's enough tension to make things interesting and it ticks your not ready for a relationship box pretty well too"

Despite the pointed look the captain offers him, Heeseung doesn't let up, and secretly, she wouldn't have it any other way.

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[allergictolife09]

I got so used to seeing bland and forced straight couples and much more complex and well written queer ships that now whenever I see a good quality straight ship my mind just goes "hmm gay"

[https-milo]

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fairy.y/n · 15w ⭐ close friends

21 likes Liked by dynamight, pinkie, uravity.ou, izudeku

fairy.y/n me balling my eyes out cause my boyfriend cheated on me again :( (he said he'd stop after the last time I caught him.)

pinkie alright! murder party at Y/n-chan's bfs!! fairy.y/n pinkie its okay :( no need to murder him

izudeku im so sorry, Y/n. i hope you're okay and please let me know if you need anything fairy.y/n izudeku thank you, izuku :)

dynamight yeah you aint gonna hold me back from beating his ass this time. fairy.y/n dynamight katsss no. its okay, seriously dynamight fairy.y/n no idiot its not okay cuz he's cheated on your stupid ass 4 fucking times and you keep going back to him. every time you tell me not to beat the shit outta him but that bitch deserves it. fairy.y/n dynamight I know, I know but its so hard to leave him :( I don't get why he doesn't love me dynamight fairy.y/n you're such a dumbass. you need so much better than that sorry excuse of a boy. fairy.y/n dynamight idk if there is anyone better :(

fairy.y/n · 13w ⭐ close friends

19 likes Liked by dynamight, pinkie, uravity.ou, izudeku

fairy.y/n bf broke up with me, but luckily kats was able to distract me from feeling too bad <3 who needs cheaters anyways?!?!

dynamight making me look soft and for what... I'll kill you bastard fairy.y/n dynamight hmm somehow I doubt that. dynamight fairy.y/n lets go rn. fairy.y/n dynamight its past your bedtime :// fairy.y/n fairy.y/n WAIT IS THAT YOU STOMPING DOWN THE HALL????? fairy.y/n fairy.y/n KATS I WAS KIDDING. PLEASE!!!

pinkie bakugo having a heart was not on my bingo list urvaity.ou pinkie i think y/n-chan is an exception to his "GRRRR I HATE EVERYONE DIE BASTARDS!" you know? pinkie uravity.ou ugh ikkk you should see them in the gc 🤢🤢🤢 fairy.y/n pinkie we're literally normal in the gc :[ pinkie fairy.y/n hmmmmm I don't think so!! i sense a lot of flirting dynamight pinkie I'll fucking kill you fairy.y/n dynamight you're literally making me popcorn rn... you're not killing anyone dynamight fairy.y/n I hope you choke on a kernel.

dynamight · 12w

1.6k likes Liked by fairy.y/n, redriot, pinkie, serophane, izudeku

dynamight dumbass made me post this or wtv.

Tagged: fairy.y/n

fairy.y/n guys i literally WIPED the floor with him! redriot fairy.y/n didn't he punch you through a wall... fairy.y/n redriot next question, please!! :DD dynamight redriot her quirk stopped her from going through it. redriot dynamight uh yeah but the wall still cracked fairy.y/n redriot NEXT. QUESTION.

pinkie "im going to murder you!!" x "nuh uh." fairy.y/n pinkie I think these are direct quotes, actually

yourexboyfriend bro why the hell are you hanging out with her 😭😭 did the little loser need a guard dog after I broke her heart? 🥺 dynamight yourexboyfriend meet me outside rn. you're abouta need a guard dog after running your mouth like that 🫵🤣 fairy.y/n dynamight kats srsly don't worry ab it. I don't want you getting in trouble defending me dynamight fairy.y/n I wanna tho. yourexboyfriend omw to your dorm building rn, don't bother running.

fairy.y/n · 12w ⭐ close friends

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fairy.y/n his dumbass got bruised knuckles for beating up trash :(

pinkie whooo? 👀 uravity.ou pinkie i think you know...

dynamight the other guy looks way worse. fucking pos couldn't even land a hit on me. fairy.y/n dynamight well he's in the management course... I don't think they go over fighting tactics over there dynamight fairy.y/n whatever. it doesn't matter. either way, I wasn't gonna let him fw my girl like that. fairy.y/n dynamight YOUR GIRL??? pinkie dynamight YOUR GIRL????????? uravity.ou dynamight YOUR GIRL???? izudeku dynamight YOUR GIRL? jiroka dynamight YOUR GIRL??? dynamight OH MY FUCKING GOD YOU DAMN EXTRAS. I GET IT. STFU. fairy.y/n dynamight come to my dorm 😁😁 dynamight fairy.y/n ...omw.

redriot so manly...

dynamight · 10w

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dynamight took her dumbass out on a date and she repays me by kicking my back.

fairy.y/n I DO NOT WANNA HEAR ITTTTT!! YOU LITERALLY TURNED AROUND AND PUSHED ME AFTERWARD 🖕🖕🖕 dynamight y/n.fairy yapyapyap fairy.y/n dynamight YOU INITIATED A FIGHT WITH ME AND A PRO HAD TO SEPARATE US. dynamight fairy.y/n I wasn't gonna actually hurt you fairy.y/n dynamight I know baby!! your love language is play fighting >:D there's defo a difference when you "fight" me and when you fight someone else dynamight fairy.y/n stfu. come cook some food with me. fairy.y/n dynamight comingggg (*cough* quality time *cough*)

pinkie they match each other's violent freak <3 fairy.y/n pinkie sometimes I'm overcome with so much joy I cant help but to punch him =^-^= dynnamight pinkie fuck off raccoon eyes.

serophane ayyyyy gg bakugo denkami serophane bakugo with the angry rizz 🙏🙏 dynamight denkami ill kill you both.

uravity.ou you better treat the loml right 😤😤 fairy.y/n uravity.ou dw ocha no man shall ever walk over me again 😤😤 (but I'm not at all worried with Kats) uravity.ou fairy.y/n AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

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[sturnsslut]

sleepover - chris sturniolo

a/n : not much but leave suggestions, i’ll write almost anything + lowercase intended !!

warnings - dom!chris x sub!reader , pet names, teasing, swearing, fingering, p in v, unprotected sex, slight choking, sneaky

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‘ i feel you inside , no better feeling ‘

me and nick sturniolo had been best friends for almost 4 years now , and i had the BIGGEST crush on his brother , chris. of course i would never tell him , but i had a feeling he already sorta knew . ever since i told nick about my crush on chris , he has been teasing me NON STOP about it for almost 2 years. and he's always feeding into my delusions , even tho im trying to get over him.

anyway nick is constantly telling me how chris is always asking when im coming over next, how he's always talking about me , how he's starring at me when im not looking, things like that.

i don't believe any of it, but i wish. anyways i was bored, and it was Saturday so i thought i could call nick to have him come over so we could hangout , because if i saw chris, this whole " getting over him " thing would go right back to stage one. i got out my phone and pulled up nicks contact to invite him to come over , because ill be damned if all a bitch does is watch netflix alone on a saturday night.

iMessage

twin 💗 - nick

me - (you obv) 😭

me

NICKKK

i miss you sm

can you come over pls

i wanna hangout

twin 💗

TWIN I MISS YOUUU

I would but matt isn't here

so there isn't anyone to drive me

you can come over here thoooo

fuck. i tossed my phone to the side and let out a loud sigh , why can't anything work out in my favor ?? i picked up my phone and texted back nick.

me

well maybe you should get a license 😒

IM JUST KIDDINGGGG

twin 💗

Shut up bitch

you don't have one either

now come onnn

you can see ur man 😱

me

i hate you

im omw

twin 💗

😘

i texted my older brother and asked him if he could take me to nicks, which i didn't want to because he was at work and i didnt wanna wait but, oh well. he said he'd take me and so about an hour later he came home and told me he was waiting outside.

i threw on whatever, not really caring considering the fact i thought i was going to be in nicks room the entire time i was there. i put on blue plaid pajama pants and a black crop top with an oversized grey jacket, and some random slippers.

i packed my bag and ran outside, thanking him for the ride. a few minutes later i was at the sturniolos house.

i knocked on the door expecting nick, but of fucking course , it was chris.

" um hey." i said awkwardly, looking down at him.

"hey pretty. nicks in his room" he replied and opened the door further for me to walk in. i brushed past him and accidentally got a little too close. like i touched his dick type of too close.

i heard him groan silently as i walked past, making my way to nicks room.

fast forward a few hours , me and nick were watching a movie when he passed out.

i was gonna go and hangout with matt, but then i remembered he still wasn't back yet from wherever the fuck he was at, so with nothing else to do, i just decided to go to sleep right alongside nick.

i remember randomly waking up around 2AM for no reason but feeling hungry, so i made my way to the kitchen and got a freezer meal or wtv tf

i heat it up in the microwave and while i'm waiting , i decide to just get comfortable and lean on the counter while i scroll on my phone.

i'm about to shut off my phone when i hear something "nick?" i whisper shouted because i was slightly startled by the noise

there was no answer , i just shrug my shoulders and continue scrolling on my phone, when i suddenly feel two warm hands on my waist.

i jumped but not enough to move, i turn around to chris with his hands resting on my waist , looking at me with an indescribable look.

"what..are you doing?" i said flustered, turning my head to look at him , but again not enough to move our bodies any further apart.

"nothing..just can't sleep." he replied

god , his sleepy voice was literally going to make me bust.

" okay.." i say confused and go back to scrolling on my phone. i feel him rest his head on shoulder

" what are you watching "

" just t.." my voice trailed off as i realized i could feel that he had a big ass boner, and he was wearing only sweatpants

i struggled to get my words out because of the situation i was in, so i just ignored the question.

i felt him smirk and her closer to me, him getting more hard the closer he gets, with his hands still on my waist.

"what..you like the way this feels mama?" he says slipping his hands down into the front of my pants, but not fully.

“i.." i could barley speak due to the uncontrollable amount of flips my stomach was doing

"use your words ma." he says getting closer to me, his boner now fully on my ass

i'm gonna bust was literally my thought process. i was nervous, but of course im gonna do what he tells to.

"yea.." i say now slightly arching my back

he turns me to face him, so now im leaning against the counter and facing chris.

he takes one of his hands and guides it up to my face, "do you really."

"yeah" i let out a breathy moan and he smirks leaning closer to me, holy shit. no way this is happening.

he kisses me and i kiss him, he moves his hand down to my neck as we make out, the kiss turns into a sloppy make out, and he picks me up and i wrap my legs around him, he sets me on the counter so im perfectly aligned with his waist, as we're still making out

he starts leaving kisses on my neck and i grab his hair as he does so, leaving a trail of hickeys.

“ fuck " i slightly whisper , this felt so good.

he stopped for a moment before placing one hand on my waist and the other in my pants

" you ready ?" i nodded desperately, not being able to use my words because of how badly i needed him.

he stuck two fingers inside of me and i grabbed onto the back of his shirt in pleasure

" damn ma your so wet ..all for me? how long have you been waiting for this mama "

i nodded, physically not being able to speak because of how good his fingers felt inside me.

“ use your words. how long. " he demanded , grabbing my chin making me look him in the eyes

i paused, not wanting to me too loud. " damn ma, you like how i touch you that much you can't speak ?"

" t..two years " i struggled to push out those simple words. this man knew what he was doing with his hands.

" come on baby, if you were horny you could've told me. i would've helped you with ease. " he said, stopping for a second

" i didn't think you were into me. " i admitted

" really? i thought it was obvious. everytime you came over to see nick i would get hard just looking at you..i've been waiting for this moment a while to ma. "

he moved his fingers in and out of me again without warning, and i moaned a little too loud.

"watch your volume pretty girl..i'd hate for me to have to stop cause you couldn't control yourself "

i nodded agreeably, and trust me when i listened. i'd waited for this moment almost 2 years , i wasn't gonna let anything ruin it.

his fingers continued to move in and out of me at a rapid pace for another 2 minutes , and i felt myself start to get close

"chris...i'm close" that's when he took his fingers out of me and i caught my breath for a moment.

he took his dick out of his pants and it sprung out instantly. when i looked down, my jaw dropped.

he was easily a good 9 inches, and that was just a guess. i'm so screwed.

he stroked himself and laughed when he saw the look of surprise on my face. " what ? all your other little boyfriends had a small cock ?" he teased

i pulled my pants down further so chris had easier access. he got closer, until our noses were basically touching. "you ready ma" i nodded eagerly , because of how close we were, i felt his cock literally in between my thighs. " yes, yes i am just please fuck me " he smirked and put one of his hands on my waist , the other holding his dick. "you sure?" he asked me again, me giving the same answer.

and with that, he shoved in only 7 inches , just to see if i could take him or not. i gasped but covered my mouth because i remember what he said about keeping quiet.

" good girl " he smirked at me again, then shoving the entire 9 inches in me. i put my hands under his shirt, leaving scratches all down his back

" fuck mama..your so tight" he said pausing in between sentences

i could barley speak, but i wanted more. i managed to get two words out , "faster..please" i begged

" more already? alright ma..."

he thrusted in and out of me even faster than before, about a minute goes by before i felt that knot build up in my stomach.

" chris.." i paused before my next sentence, remembering that i had to be quiet "im close."

“ not yet pretty girl.. please- mmm fuck you feel so good. "

i giggled slightly, before telling him how we should switch positions if he didn't want me to finish so soon.

" you got it mama. " and with that, he took me off of the counter and set me down, bending me over the counter instead.

he grabs my hips and lines me up, " you ready? you know i just gotta ask" he asks

i could feel his tip touching me, he was definitely teasing. well if he wants to tease..i can do it to.

"hm not yet..i need to catch my breath" i teased and move my waist slightly, feeling his tip against me

" how bout now?" he asks eagerly

"i don't know .." i answer, he's like a needy child , how cute

" mama please ..i need you so bad. "

" im ready " and with that he slams his entire 9 inch dick inside of me , going faster than before

" you think it's funny for you to tease me ? is it because you know you take me so well ?"

his sleepy voice..fuck.

" fuck..sorry" i say , i couldn't even think cause he was fucking me so good.

he grabbed my neck from behind and thrusted faster , that's when i knew i was close.

" chris , i cant ..im gonna-" im cut off by my release , letting it all go , and man i came hard.

“i’m almost there ma...in or out"

i mean, i was on the pill. " in , cum inside me please."

" mm..you got it pretty " he releases , and i feel his warm cum inside me , best feeling ever btw.

now we're both just leaning against the counter , heavy breathing, sweaty, looking at each other " you took me so good mama."

this man was really tryna make me nut for a 2nd time huh..i grabbed the food id forgotten about out of the microwave and made my way back to nicks room.

" goodnight chris. " i say with a smirk " goodnight ma." he says smirking back at me

a/n: umm !! don’t know if i like this but i have something coming soon for the matt girlies 🤗

[thegoober010]

BOO!! Did i scare you :3

I LOVEDDD THE LAST ONESHOT JT WAS SO CUTE IM GOING CRAZY GOING FERAL

ANYWHOOO i hope your day has gone well!!! Make sure youve eaten and youve drank water!!! Ill know if you havent 👁️👁️ /j

BUT I HAVE A REQUEST. As always. Whos surprised. *theres no sound but a few crickets chirping and someone yelling “GET OFF THE STAGE”*

But basically its Shane x reader who is his secret admirer, like he’s been getting letters from them and he doesnt know who its from. And reader is usually kinda sarcastic towards him so he doesnt think its them UNTIL he sees them writing something down like a grocery list or something and recognizes the handwriting immediately.

It can be a oneshot OR headcanons, I don’t mind :)

SOSOSO SORRY IF THIS IS TO SPECIFIC. I just have. So many thoughts. THANK YOU IN ADVANCE!!!

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OH MY- I FORGOT ABOUT THIS BLOG WHAT THE SCALLOP

IM SORRY SM YALL IM FINALLY BACK THO FOR A BIT MWEHEHEHEH

ALSO IM SO SORRY FOR MY ABSENCE IMA DO SOME HEADCANONS CUZ LIKE IM RLLY BUSY RN AND NEED TO FINISH HOMEWORK BUT IMA FINISH THIS FIRST!! GRAAAA ITS GONNA BE PRETTY SHORT THO SORRY BOOKIE :<!!!

gender neutral reader as usual <3!!

TW/CW -> none! Just some swearing but- wtv!

"All my emotions feel like explosions when you are around"

Honestly he always enjoyed your company, of course at first he was rather grouchy (and an asshole) whenever you were near him. Always giving you a scowl or rolling his eyes when he saw you getting near him, but he slowly started to get used to your company. What!? It's not like he enjoyed your company! Of course not! What a foolish though. (sarcasm)

He got more used to your company, allowing you to be seen more often near him but he was still not used to the gifts you'd give him. He understood it was so he could be more comfortable around you and be more friendly but he wasn't really used to getting gifts. But he didn't really think anything of it

After a while of you two hanging out more often, you both were always seen together, so much to the point people asked if you were dating which of course you both said no, but you both didn't seem uncomfortable with the idea whenever asked... Anyways.. Shane always came over to your farm where you'd always give him a nice meal and a very small amount of beer (each time he came over you'd reduce the amount of beer given and slowly start getting him to drink more water to try and help with his addiction, you'd also regularly listen to him through these meals about any of his problems and in turn he'd listen back) and you two would just chill, watch TV, play some games or go out and fool around!

After a good 4 months though he started to get strange notes... he didn't bother reading them at first until he noticed a word that quickly grabbed his attention, 'love'. He was honestly indifferent towards the letters, he didn't really care for them until he started to get them more and more often. It was rather confusing as he started getting all these letters all of a sudden, and not just any letters but love letters! It was a bit overwhelming to be honest, he never knew anyone would feel such a way towards him, not like he cared much..at first, after a while though he started to wonder who liked him and he even wondered if.. maybe he started to grow attracted to the person just through these letters!

Once you were with him he told you about the letters and even showed them to you, your face turned red and you immediately left him all confused as you wouldn't answer any of his questions on why you were as red as a damn tomato. He never really got his answer for a while. Due to your sarcastic nature you kept on teasing him about the notes and whenever he asked you questions like, "Who do you think it is?" or things of that sort you'd always roll your eyes and just go "oh I wonder who!" in a monotone voice, leaving him a bit confused.

After a while the letters started to die down, but that doesn't mean they got any less romantic, no, in fact I'd say they had even more romance talk than ever! They started to allude to the fact that the anonymous sender of these messages will confess soon, often reading "P.S lots of love, and I promise I'll see you soon <3!" or things to that nature

To be honest he actually started to look forward to these notes, although he found them a bit creepy at first or boring he started to get rather happy? The thought of someone liking him romantically so much to the point they send him love letters and admirer notes was sweet to him in a sense?

One day he randomly went to your farm and barged into your home, you know like how best friends do. He grabbed a few drinks from your fridge as he watched you make a grocery list. You were humming a soft tune while Shane's eyes got wider and wider as he saw you write. He spit out his drink causing you to stare at him strangely. "Shane! The hell dude? You alright?" You'd ask and he just stared at you like '😲'

You look at him like 'wtf?? you okay???' and he just wipes off the juice on his chin and helps clean up the spilt juice. His ears and cheeks were turning red as he did so, covering his mouth and stifling a nervous/awkward laugh.

"Your handwriting... I recognized it from the notes." he says quickly and you just go from "what??" to "WHAT" very quickly, absolutely shocked he could figure it out so easily from such a small detail!. You both stayed in awkward silence for a good 3 minutes as he helped clean.

He let out a cough and just quickly ruffled your hair and looked away "Don't worry.. I like you too.. the letters are uh nice too by the way.." is all he says. You both stay in an awkward silence for another good 5 minutes

After the awkwardness you both have a good talk and decide LETS MAKE IT OFFICIAL!! Yall both like eachother! Yall both wanna be together! So like why not!?!??! And oh wow he is one of the best boyfriends you've ever had :)!

He tries his best to improve his flaws, he knows he's not the best person and he's willing to change not just for himself but for you too, he wants to feel better about who he is now that he has you and he wants you to see him as who he wants to be as well.

You both plan out lots of activities together while dating and such, both of you are pretty much inseparable and no one is surprised you two started dating :)! (I FEEL LIKE MAKING SHANE BF HEADCANONS NOW OMG-)

For your guys' anniversary what he does is make you a letter and sends it with flowers, usually signing it 'secret admirer' and at the bottom he puts a little 'P.S it's actually your bf' just so that you don't get uncomfortable thinking it might be someone else lmao

You get really embarrassed when he brings up the fact you wrote him secret love letters and sent them to him, you thought it was a little cringe of you to do and it made you seem weird, but to him it was rather sweet, he loved it. From time to time he asks you to make some if you're comfortable with since the letters always made his day when he read them everyday! they made him feel better about himself :)!

..

bonus - > (definitely the little spoon when cuddling ANYWAYS.)

[danieyells]

I keep thinking of Ed(?) that vampire guy and thinking of mc trying to keep the relationship with him a secret, or at least on the down low, but after like, 2 check ups from Yuri and Jiro, they v quickly realize what's going on when they see their blood level is lower than usual after their first mission with obscuary..

and after the look of just being done with everything yuri is going on a rant about why they need to be more careful or wtv and 'why would you even do that??'

or even a walk of shame to the chancellors office when they get too silly and oops mc is a vampire now(assuming it can be easy to turn into one idk much about them LOL)

I wanna think of him in a hotter way but I just get too many silly thoughts of him lmao

(The vampire in Obscuary is Edward Hart, yes! Mostly just called Ed so far.)

Silly thoughts are the best tho lmao LBR THE GUY ALLEGEDLY CAN'T TIE HIS OWN SHOELACES, DOESN'T CLEAN UP AFTER HIMSELF, FALLS ASLEEP WHEREVER HE WANTS, IS KNOWN BY OTHER CAPTAINS TO BE A SLACKER, AND CARELESSLY TOUCHES RUI KNOWING IT'LL KILL HIM FOR A BIT; HE'S A MAGNET FOR SILLY THOUGHTS.

tbf we don't know how vampire lore is gonna work in tdb yet(Ed does have bitemarks on his neck, so biting is required to spread it presumably), so it's fair to not know how exactly it's spread or anything! I assume it won't be spread without intention to do so or without the target being near death or something(just so we can get that sweet feeding goodness), but it's also fun to imagine that the pc just like. . .offers to feed Ed and ends up a vampire because they just did not consider they'd catch vampirism. Why didn't anyone tell them! What do you mean they thought they knew!!! (on the other hand. . .would vampirism override their curse? Vampirism overrides Rui's curse when Edward touches him, it'd be a reasonable thing to try. . . .)

But lmaoooo going to Mortkranken and they're like. Why are you so anemic???? And the pc hadn't even considered it because hey blood comes back! And then it's even lower the second time. And they just. Figure it out right away like goddamn it your missions have been with Obscuary. And Yuri is so annoyed that they're doing something to jeopardize their wellbeing. Yes, he does need to feed daily if he's going on missions but he does not need to drink that much especially from the same person. Your blood comes back but it's still finite!

Yuri just scolds and fusses over them while Jiro prepares some iron supplements and like a list of food you should eat to help recover faster lolol

Another day they just got fed on by Ed and then get a text from Romeo saying to come to the VIP room and they're like "uh can i wait like. 20 minutes" "No. Come now." "I don't think that's a good idea." "Now."

and the second they step into Sinostra Taiga's sniffing them out because they've still got a partially bleeding wound and oh no he's hungry (and Romeo blames them anyway despite that they very specifically said they didn't think it's a good idea)

They pass out in class from the anemia and now Nicolas is worrying over them too(he's a lot nicer than Yuri at least) and now they're trying to figure out how they'll schedule with Ed to have a talk with him when Moby doesn't even wanna go to Obscuary(or Hotarubi!) despite being the dorm advisor

The pc gets turned and just. . .is Cornelius' office even open late? What do they even do about this!? They could go to Mortkraken, they're always up. . .they could find Hyde, he seems to be awake regardless of the time of day. And Ed is just so freespirited he doesn't even worry about it just pats them like oh don't worry about it you can spend as much time in Obscuary as you'd like!! Maybe this is what you needed! I'll teach you all about being a vampire, it'll be fun!!!

Of course when they eventually have to tell Cornelius or somebody it's a whole damn hassle. And they don't know how it'll effect the curse either. So now it's a mystery and things are up in the air and do they keep searching for a cure for something that may not even affect them anymore???? They aren't a ghoul but you're an anomaly now Obscuary is a ghoul-only dorm but do they place you there???? Do they keep you in containment??? It's just one problem after another!!! And what about keeping them fed!?

[servicpop]

ZO THE BRO :D

SOME CALLAHN DRABBLE CUZ I DREAMT OF GETTING BACKSHOTS FROM HIM 😋

this man is probably in his like late 30s going to 40s and after many failed tries at relationships in his 20s he probably decided to dedicate his life to being a detective only using his hand for relief when it's really necessary ( he thinks lust is a distraction 😪) so when he was put on a case to catch you he stopped for like a few months till he caught you, sure yeah you were pretty and everyone was eyeing you like a piece of candy or wtv but dude just wanted to introgate you so they put you in a cell till they got their schedule free but you being the best criminal in the area breaks free👌👌 he tracks you down to a...motel??? at first he thought it was a trap till he dug around some more only to find that it was kid of a hideout spot for some criminals including you it also had a casino and strip club which made sense to him kinda? NOW THIS CAN GO BOTH WAYS

FIRST : You went there cus you had no cash n u needed some so what better way to do it then rob some money off of old nasty guys :3 so being the pretty little thing you are you work your ass off in a firly bunny outfit yk the classic leather one with the ears and clip on tail that barely hides anything, and like always you were a hit everyone loves you getting more than 1000 as tip from one guy, callahan walks in ready to bust your ass and some other criminals thinking you were some prevert like the other men here only to find that you in fact were not a watcher you were the whole show yourself and damn the second he saw you he forgot why he was doing this whole thing, of course you spotted him and walked out to him after the show he let you go this once only if you never utter a word to anyone about him not being able to move an inch after seeing ( and the tent in his pants as well )

OR

SECOND OPTION : he tracks down your location to the hotel or motel wtv and goes to the lobby pointing a gun to the receptionist head asking which room were you in, they give him the room with the keys telling him which floor you're on, he goes to the room breaking the door down expecting you to have a gun or be armed he was ready for shooting anyways but you were no where to be found?? your stuff was there but you weren't, he was gonna go and yell at the receptionist before he heard soft humming from the bathroom, bingo, he breaks down the door (mans got an obsession with breaking down doors like a badass cop, cannon I was the door )

only to find you showing catching you (and him) off gaurd, all sounds stopped registering and you swear you sww him drooling, zoning out taking I every inch (sorry its a bit freaky :3) he only focused again when you stopped the water and approached him slowly with the classic "how about I help you out and you let me go this time ?" looking down at his not so obvious tent, you offer him a blow job and goddamn he saw white like pure white man couldn't even comprehend what was happening silently cursing him self for missing out on this much pleasure, he felt drunk but off of blow jobs?? he didn't even think that that was possible, he let you go ofc cuz he's a man of his word only after filling your throat for 20 times :] hands? what wandering hands? Well yeah maybe he did let his hand roam your body focusing here and there but hey that's only to hear your pretty noises while they try to come out but all they could heard as were muffled moans and sobs as you choke on him, sure he made you cum 3 times but taht wa sonly to see your reaction ! can you blame him? he did all that to help with the bj, hey you're the one that offered he's just adding little touches

I MIGHTVE GOTTEN CARRIED AWAY A BIT I APOLOGISE 🙏 BUT WHAT DO WE THINK DOES THIS HAVE POTENIAL TO BECOME A FANFIC???

take my job nonnie !! this is so delicious ... and yes this will probably be the plot of the next Callahan fic ( maybe after awhile cuz I have a Callahan domestic au drabble in the making and I wanna give Adrien some love again )

[hasanabisbookie]

im sorry idk if anyone is even gonna see this bc like idk what tags to use for like an audience or wtv but imma just speak I LUVVV when my r kinda chunky but have sum muscle definintion like nothing craxy but look squishy byt also like i could litrally be slinged into orbit and swim in the galaxy if he just tossed me alil too hard anyways yes, i love menn with veyr thick thighs an si luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv when men r hairy and have mustaches so basically hasanabi but i digress wtv.....

[echobx]

I love JJ but how do we know he didn't treat girls like that last post says? A lot of ppl write him like that anyway(no hate)

I agree we should look at this more closely and see why I and op of that post agree with the statement they made

to address what you said, (and I'm never gonna assume hate bc this let's me write a lowkey think piece or wtv it's called lol) because deep in my heart I have always felt that those ways of writing him is very ooc imo, but I'm not gonna police ppl on what they write (especially considering that I know that every Rafe thing I write is just ooc when we look at canon very strictly)

so to answer the question, why would it be ooc of JJ to treat girls the way Kiara treated the boys, there's a quick and a not so quick answer.

the quick one, we (definitively) don't know how he acts around random girls, but this are his friends and if roles were reversed he's still loyal af and wouldn't hurt his friends in such a way. full stop. he's not the person to do that.

now, let's look at it in a little more detail.

1. Loyalty

season 1: he went to jail for Pope. he helped his best friend get away from the cops by stealing from his father, who we know is abusive. do you know how much guts it takes to actually stand up to your abuser in that way? and we know even though he started to act up, there's still an inate fear that Luke will hurt him way worse again. he put himself in front of barry to save his friends from being shot.

season 2: he was ready to have a shoot of with the cops to protect John B from going to jail. he was ready to die for him! he tried to bust him out of jail, and if no one had interfered and the other guy hadn't also needed to go to the hospital, the plan would've worked (I'm so sure of that) then he tried his best to protect Pope from Limbry and her brother.

season 3: even though they butchered him, he was still somewhat loyal, I just refuse to acknowledge that he saved Kie bc he was in love with her and not because she's also his best friend. again, no one told him to, he just did it because he can't imagine a life where his friends (his family) aren't all with him when shit goes down. which is also why he was so distraught when Sarah told him to go instead of wait and search for John B when they left Barbados.

there's a clear line of loyalty and he's not crossing it. he's always got their back and if he can't because they don't let him, it causes him mental distress (1. he looked in pain when Sarah made him drive off. 2. he went back home after taking Barry's money and having the fight with his friends although he knew jis dad was there, although he knew of the risk)

2. Girls

we have little to no information on how JJ treats random girls. the only real info we have is coming from the Pilot episode and one timy line in season 2

pilot: his introduction shows him bent over a girl in an attempt to make out with her, it's like 2 seconds max before John B closes the door and moves on. then later we get JB commenting on JJ's behavior by basically saying he can't keep away from any girl because he always wants to fuck them. which tbh, is a common thing for a teenage boy.

season 2: when they are back at school, John B gets the note from the girl to go to the bonfire. JJ takes the note and remarks "she meant to give that to me" in a clear attempt to make it seem like girls are simply fawning over him and it's impossible for anyone to find John B more attractive than him (I'm not gonna comment on the truth of this bc Chase is just not my type at all, so for me to say he's right would be immensely more biased than I already am)

HOWEVER these are the only views we have into his whole dating life. there's no other mention of it ever.

so let's look at the girls in the group.

3. Sarah

JJ is from the start on friendly to her. he's supportive of John B and Sarah and their whole relationship from the get go. and as the story progresses, we can see that he clearly cares a lot about her. he values her opinion on a lot of things. he didn't directly judge her for her cheating (which idk if he did because he gives her the benefit of the doubt or because he thinks it's 100% Topper's fault)

he's even somewhat protective of her, especially in season 2 when everything with her dad goes down, and then at the end of season 3 when he was ready machete a guy with a gun (very dumb idea, but he's impulsive enough to might've actually done that if Ward hadn't stepped in)

he's got respect for her and acts like a true friend towards her, even though they technically only know each other for a few months at that point.

4. Cleo

there's not much to say because we didn't get to see them interact much, but I believe there's a strong mutual respect between the two especially with JJ saying "glad you're part of my team" on the airstrip in season 3

he sees her independence and doesn't try to dismiss it or tell her to do anything she doesn't want to (he never does that with any of the girls tbh which is part of the point I'm trying to make)

5. Kiara

season 1: in the pilot episode he says tp John B "I've tried that door already and it's locked" meaning he tried to get with her, Kie shut him down and he let it go. that's what should happen when a friend approaches you and you don't reciprocate the feelings. it shouldn't destroy a friendship.

then we get to see them interact more, and you can clearly see that he see her as an equal, even though they disagree on some things especially when it comes to money but in the end they'll always stick together.

season 2: we see him be supportive of Kie and Pope's relationship, he has no interest in being with her, if he had he wouldn't give Pope advice on how to win her over. he talks to her about him, maybe in a way of connecting to her and try and help from both sides. again he's being respectful in a rather clumsy way, but he's tentative to not cross a line and doesn't pressure her to answer any of his weird questions.

what we don't get to see is his reaction to Kie doing what she did to Pope, bc we only know that Kie told Sarah and Pope told John B, we can't know if JJ knows exactly what happened pr how he reacted. although it would give a little more insight.

season 3: (let's assume jiara makes sense without butchering character development)

he feels true remorse when it comes to his shown feelings towards her and knowing it's gonna hurt Pope. he doesn't want to cross a line she isn't read to cross yet.

he pushes her away from him because he doesn't see himself good enough to be with a rich girl like Kiara, because all he can see himself as is the person everyone thinks he is. the fuck up. just "Luke's kid". and not the person he really is.

he saves her from the camp because first of all she's his friend and second of all he knows she will be miserable there and that she deserves better.

Kiara initiated the kiss. she initiated the "i love you"s. he didn't want to cross the line without being sure that she wanted it too.

6. his mom

we know nothing about his mom. but from context clues we can assume that she left him when he was a baby, or toddler.

from context clues we can assume that Luke was just as much abusive to her as he is towards JJ. knowing that it's very clear that JJ would never actively hurt someone, especially a woman, in a way like that. if it's physically or mentally

7. other older women

Mrs. Heyward: he's got the utmost respect for her, probably sees her like a mother he wish he had.

Mrs. Carrera: even when she was mean to him, he stayed respectful. not even saying a mean thing behind her back.

Rose: we know he flirted with her in the og script to get better tips, but the scene was cut. I still think it's important to add tho because it adds a layer to his infamous player attitude

Mrs. Limbry: again, even though she was the enemy that point in the story, he still didn't say a bad word about her unlike some of the men they went against.

what it comes down to here is that he has too much respect for the women in his life, to treat even just random girls, in the way that would hurt them.

when it comes to what Kie did and if JJ would do it too? never, because he puts his friends above all else. he would never.

[halucynator]

Your Annoying Tumblr Mutual strikes yet again !!

I'm gonna ask you a few questions :> (these are all so random lmao) (as always, feel free to ignore ^^^)

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✰ how long have you been on tumblr?

✰ how did you come up with your url/username?

✰ what’s your phone’s lock screen?

✰ do you have any piercings//tattoos? (any you’d like to get?)

✰ do you wear glasses//contacts?

✰ has anyone ever told you you have a "celebrity look-alike"? if yes, who?

✰ best compliment you’ve ever gotten?

✰ are you a collector of anything in particular? If yes, what?

✰ I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD REST OF YOUR DAY AND TREAT YOURSELF AND I APPRECIATE YOU AND YES OKAY BYE FOR NOW <3

hii omg i love this okay sooo

✰ i've been on tumblr since july (more active since then anyway) so around 6 monthss)

✰ my username was made with the help of the very lovely @m3ntallyunstable34

✰ my phone's lock screen is this: (sorry about the quality)

✰ i have an ear piercing that i got when i was super young (this is important bc i didnt feel a lot of pain then so i probably wont get any in the future) but if there was one that i would get if i wasnt insanely afraid of piercing would be like a helix piercing bc they look so prettyy!!

✰ no i do not and thank god for that bc i look shit in glasses lmao i mean i'd rather have a sight than look hot but thank god i dont need glasses lmao

✰ some people have told me i look like emilia jones (honestly i dont see it but wtv) and vi told me i look like taylor swift on evermore cover bc i got bangs and braided my hair lmao but i absolutely do not 😭😭

✰ best compliment i've ever gotten is probably being told i'm funny by @theladyinwhite13 bc i feel very honoured since their humour is SO good (oh and by @berryzxx bc she's so funny as well) and then being told by @longlivestv that they feel comfortable around me it makes me very happy

✰ im a collector of discord music crowns in the goose coven server (if that even counts lmao) and a collector of gracie abrams streams :))

✰ thank you so muchhh! sorry this took ages this was really fun i love it!! also you should answer these questions yourself bc i'd love to know!! also you could never be annoying haha

[cl00udyyanan]

angel or devil

part two here

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synopsis: scara and itto are demons and you're their angel :)

warnings: mentions of death and demons, not religious just kinda made up,

characters: scaramouche, itto

notes: i was gonna write a blurb or smth like that but didn't have to motivation so i made this lol, i wanna expand on this one day and make a scenario for both but i'll do that later (scara could be ooc but i think he's fine, i like sly bully scara over emo mean scara anyway hehe)

scaramouche

* bully.

* doesn't take his job as seriously as he should, like he does the work

* yk reaping ppls souls and haunting bad ppl up until their deaths wtv demons do

* but he's supposed to be scary or atleast mischievous all he does is rip his clients to shreds

* "you killed a bunch of ppl and you were setting fires? sick." or "you dumbass you thought if you tried to stab someone they wouldn't fight back? look at you stupid now you're dead and ended up with me"

* probably causes half of the deaths cuz he can (he's a rebel bad boy)

* regarding you,, you're his favorite little angel (wouldn't tell you that tho has too much pride)

* likes to follow you to your clients and piss you off, he promised to not directly interfere with your work, even though him pretty much being there is doing exactly what he said he wouldn't

* "i bet you that guy you're helping has committed ed a couple crimes, give 'em to me. make your life muuuch easier"

* literally screw off

* he's actually pretty sweet to you,, doesn't wanna admit it

* likes to hold pinkies in your guys free time only pinkies nothing more

* make fun of him for it and he'll belittle you into the ground

itto

* dear god who let him in charge of other people's lives

* literally horrible at his job anyone who he's supposed to bring to their afterlife ends up across the earth bc itto 'got lost'

* really good at causing hell for his clients though esp the ones who are terrible people. he will do the most to mess with people, unties their shoe laces, pants them, make stuff fly around (basic demon activities)

* despite being a demon he's actually a good person (so canon am i right)

* one time he had to take care of a little girl for his job and he couldn't do it so he let her live :,( got in trouble for it but didn't care

* with you though, it makes his job so much better, that is he just doesn't do it

* when he tags along with you he accidentally makes it difficult for you

* you try and introduce yourself to one of your clients who just passed and itto wants to help out, ends up scaring the shit out of them bc that's all he knows how to do

* poor guy just wanted to help after that you told him not to do that or he couldn't help you

* gives you big hugs and talks up your ear when he sees you, likes to cuddle with his sweet angel

* flexes to the other demons that he has the best angel ever literally

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so precious

[neonstatic]

so. testosterone, huh? i've been sitting on it for yrs and i get these periodic bouts of realisations where i'm like, "omg! i can't stand this anymore, i need a dick / a deeper voice / more body hair" which is quickly resolved by my insecurities reminding me that i could very well lose all my beauty and sex appeal if i transition unsuccessfully. and i'm very much like mr howl movingcastle in the department of shallowness and dramatics, in that i think the whole point of my existence is moot if i am not, at the very least, pleasant to the eye

but like. there's more to life, right? and i've been working on my appearance and am pretty sure i've gotten as pretty as it gets with what i've got, and idk that i feel any happier for it. i see a thriving transmasc and i feel proud and envious and miserable. oh why is every trans dude so handsome and cool and pretty :cccc bc they are brave and i am not, is why. maybe that's what's missing for me. a little bravery. maybe i need to stop being such a cowardly shallow person and just get on with it!

easier said than done, ofc. bc there's more holding me back than my own insecurities and fears. i am comfortably bi at home only bc i also happen to be painfully awkward and not romantically involved w anyone and my family are in denial despite the pride merch i own. i highly doubt i'll be able to get them to understand and accept my gender identity. it took me some time to tell them i changed my name at work, but it feels more like a nickname than an actual name change bc of how similar it sounds. also, sadly, i still feel like a silly person who hasn't made up their mind yet. like ohhh you don't wanna be a woman OR a man, you think you're sooo special, don't you 🙄 wah wah it's so hard to be me or wtv.

on the bright side, i found a document that gave me some good info on the hrt process in qc and it came with a guide that told you all the effects of t and which ones are reversible or not, how to treat them, etc. so i went thru it like a checklist and found out the following: - there's 10 total effects of t - they take ~6 months to show up, to some varying degrees - 3 are permanent slash irreversible - i only truly want 4/10 total effects (+1 extra but i can live w/o) - out of these 4 desired effects, 3 are irreversible - let me know if the math is mathing buuut, if i were to be on t for abt 6 months, i'd basically have 3/4 of my goals achieved, which is a 75% success rate. pretty good overall no? am i gamgbling? is this a gamble? idfk

anyway. big thoughts. i'm gonna eat some brownies now, cheers

[starlightingsss]

sparks fly / 5

i know places. 6

this one is so short but its wtvs !

she was, insanely nervous.

she was scared to remind haymitch of the dinner because what if he just suddenly decides not to go?

she already told amaryllis she would be there, hell - she said she would physically drag haymitch over to be there, but she didn't think she was necessarily strong enough to drag anyone around.

"haymitch?" she called, as she once again barged into the room - seeming to never learn her lesson but neither of them seeming to mind her seeing him unclothed.

"never gonna knock, are you?", haymitch's disgruntled voice called, from the recliner in his room, where he had a drink in hand and his other hand over his eye.

"thank god you're not naked this time!" she exclaimed, "anyway, start getting ready for the dinner.."

he mumbled something along the lines of "alright" before stumbling around his room, trying to find something to change into.

but to his suprise, she pulled out a washed, dried, and ironed set of haymitch's clothing.

"well thank you for stealing my clothes, sweetheart, i'll have you know i was very much looking for those,", he smiled, as he took them from her hand. "now, you wanna get out and let me change.. or would you prefer watching me?", he joked, about her previous "slight" intrusion of privacy that he didn't seem to really mind.

she blushed as she stepped out, "call me back in when you're done, ok? we still need to trim your beard and fix your hair."

"my beard?", he asked, a little shocked. "sweetheart, i'm not sure i'd need that.. "

she just smiled as she walked out of the room, and he figured she was going to do it anyways.

he didn't mind, his beard was a little scratchy - but no one really cared, he didn't have anyone around often so its not like anyone was ever looking at him, he was old and a hermit - he didn't need to be attractive to anyone.

he didn't really have the energy or motivation to maintain his appearance, unlike her - who seemed to care more about being hot than being alive.

"are you done yet?" she asked impatiently, outside of his door.

instead of replying, he just opened the door for her, and she seemed happy with how he looked, "oh! it fits you so well, haymitch!"

"well your body looks good .. now your face.." she told him, as she pulled him over to his bathroom. "your beard is too long and too short at the same time but also i don't think you'd look ok with a full blown beard.." , she said this as she went to the desk in the room and grabbed a chair, sitting him in front of the mirror, before draping him so she could trim his beard without getting hair everywhere.

"i swear you're gonna manage knick me or something.." he said, not trusting her with the scissors and electric trimmer - the best she could probably come up with in the capitol.

"i won't i swear.." she told him with a smile, before leaning over in front of him, and turning on the trimmer, and bursting out in laughter.

"im sorry! im sorry! i'm just-" she was laughing, really hard, wheezing almost, "just imagined how it would be if i messed up..."

the look on haymitch's face, was probably something that made him look absolutely terrified of the woman, as she tried again to start, and bursted out laughing again,"i'm sorry! you just looked so scared and it was funny.."

"ok im sorry i'm serious now and i'm not gonna laugh." she said, as she tried her best to not cackle, and in the end, she still had a shit-eating grin on her face as she leaned over in front of haymitch, and turned on the electric trimmer.

the woman started on the bottom, cleaning it up and shaving up from his neck. then she worked on the sides, and to haymitch's horror, he heard an "oops!" as she worked, but she swore that it was nothing and told him not to worry about it, as she moved on to his cheeks / upper jaw, cleaning up those sides too, before finally grabbing the scissors, and just shortening the beard.

after she finished that, he saw her reach up, to his head, to where he caught her hand, "sweetheart, absolutely not."

"pleasee it'll just be a little trim," she pleaded, "plus trimming your hair is good for you, you know."

as his gaze didn't move, and he didn't let go of her arm, she puffed in defeat, letting out a "alright.".

"now what was that 'oops' about earlier?" he asked her this, as he examined his beard in the mirror.

"nothing!", she told him, with a smile, "don't worry about that one.."

his beard was well cleaned up, not long anymore, but he wasn't clean shaven either, he didn't really mind though. if she liked it how it was after she cut it, he liked it too.

she smiled as he examined himself, before saying "you should let me do this more."

"absolutely not, sweetheart, i was about to have a heart attack earlier.", he told her.

"is that why you looked so funny? you looked scared out of your mind.." she giggled, as she remembered his face. "wait, haymitch, what time is it? the dinner is at 5."

"about time for the dinner," he told her, as he checked his watch, "lets go?"

she hesitated in her response, which indicated to him that she spent too much time helping him get ready, and didn't focus on herself.

"you look fine, sweetheart, better without all that gunk on your face.", he chuckled this, as he gestured to her face - that was usually covered in makeup, "plus you're not gonna have any during the games, you know."

she nodded as they walked to the elevator, the elevator covered in glass with a mirror behind them.

"stop looking at me like i'm always gonna flip out and start stabbing everything.", she hissed, as she realized what he was looking at.

he mumbled a "sorry sweetheart", before looking away, the elevator ride seeming to take hours under her harsh gaze.

it seemed she let it go as they reached the 4th floor, because amaryllis seemed excited to see her. engulfing her into a hug.

"hi!" y/n said, before hugging her back, with haymitch just looking at them both awkwardly. finnick approached them, a year younger than y/n, the same age as his tribute, as he shook haymitch and y/n's hands.

"well! now we've met the apple of the capitals eyes!" finnick laughed, as he looked the girl in the face, "and she happens to look better in person! those broadcasts are not doing you justice!"

"oh thank you!" she laughed, as she smiled at the man. "cameras aren't doing much justice for you either though! not even magazines seem to keep them satiated with the prince of district 4!"

he laughed at her little jokes, a smile on his face as they exchanged conversation, haymitch seeming a little annoyed.

once the 5 of them joined mags and the district 4 tribute at the table, food was served and they all began to eat, making small talk.

"oh dear.." mags murmured, as she saw the girl, leaving y/n her with a look of confusion on her face.

"cameras don't do her justice, do they?" finnick said, with a smirk as he pulled out the girls chair for her and letting her sit. she smiled at him, giggling to herself a little.

but still, even behind finnicks lighthearted words, there was something in his eyes, something in the gaze he shared with mags - he knew something.

everyone in this room knew something y/n didn't know, they knew of her future as a victor, they knew how what would happen, how it would play out.

snows new little plaything, the capitols favorite new toy, how she would learn eventually, how she would eventually share finnick's fate - but probably even worse, with how she looked.

haymitch watched their interactions, feeling a little bit of "something" in his chest, a feeling he didn't want to be able to identify. but still, he knew it was jealousy, with how she looked at finnick with a smile on her face - like a lovestruck teenager. and how his smile reflected his charm, on his youthful face.

haymitch wasn't anything like finnick, maybe they were both "blond" but finnick had more of a golden tint to his hair and skin, while haymitch was paler in that aspect. they both had "blue" eyes, but haymitch's were a colder blue, closer to grey, in comparison to finnick's which were almost green.

finnick still had a "baby face", with barely any wrinkles, while haymitch looked aged, he was even skinnier than finnick, while finnick was muscular, haymitch was definitely out of shape. his looks didn't even begin to compare to finnicks.

y/n didn't seem to mind the attention from both of the district 4 mentors, decided to just chatter with them while the district 4 girl and girl from 5 spoke softly to each other - haymitch wasnt sure why she was even thinking of allying with careers, a stupid choice because she wasn't physically strong enough to overpower any of them, and she was - in the games - at their mercy.

haymitch did eat, while also drinking a heavy amount, before excusing himself, taking the whole bottle and wandering off to somewhere on the floor.

the girl however, barely ate, preferring to just chat instead. when she saw her mentor had gone somewhere, she told them not to worry as he was a grown man who could take care of himself.

haymitch eventually chose the couch as his drinking location, emptying the whole bottle before deciding he was too lazy to find another one.

haymitch just laid there, letting time pass, as his mind dazed from the alcohol, drunk but not blacked out.

eventually, y/n grew worried, and dismissed herself to go search for the alcoholic, finding him quite quickly.

"haymitch?" she whispered, "cmon get up! its time to go back.."

to that he just groaned, refusing to comply until he felt her tugging at his hands trying to pull him up, "haymitch! we have to go..please?"

he mumbled something incoherent as he sat up, and stood up quickly, putting her on edge as she helped him steady himself, before bringing him to the elevator, he stumbled as they walked, leaning onto her for suport, with him nearly falling when she went to say bye to the district 4 tributes and mentors.

she tugged haymitch into the elevator with her, as he undid his tie and a few buttons on his shirt.

he mumbled something incoherent, leading her to ask what he said, and he repeated it louder.

"why are you doing this?" he slurred out, as he looked at her.

"excuse me?" y/n said in reply, a little confused.

"bein' all nice to me .. takin' care of me n stuff.. makin me think you have feelings or somethimg for me n going out to do that with o'dair.." he grumbled, sipping from his bottle, as he continued looking at her.

"would it really matter if i had feelings for you? you're helping basil plot to kill me either way, and we're probably gonna die in a week or so." she told him, closer to him, with a smile as she ran her finger along his jaw. "doesn't matter if i do or don't because we both know i'm not making it out of that arena.

eventually, after staring at her for a bit, he crashes his lips into her, kissing her aggressively, as she reciprocates, allowing him to push her into the wall.

it was later at night, and the whole floor was asleep, so they had to be a little more quiet - not that it was easy, she was perfect in every way possible, still gorgeous while wrapped around and stuffed full of him, still gorgeous while drooling all over his dick, everytime she did something, she seemed to look like a perfect picture, never caught off guard, always beautiful - at least that night she was, to him.

how she asked him not to leave marks, telling him to avoid doing anything to her collarbone, even going as far as prying his lips off of her neck, and that upset him, deeply.

she wasn't his to have. that was a reminder, he couldn't mark her or make her his because in reality, she wasn't his. outside of that drunken night, she wasn't his, she wasn't his girlfriend or his lover, she was a tribute that was going to die in a few days, she was another number, another statistic- she just happened to be prettier than the rest.

but still, that night, she was so gentle with him, hugging him and kissing him tenderly as if she was his to have, his to hold, wrapping herself in his arms after they both finished, crying as she came, leaving him to wipe her tears.

her face was burrowed in the crook of his neck, as she tried to fall asleep, and quickly succeeded.

haymitch could not fall asleep, however, and sobered up - realizing what he had done, how regrettable that choice would be, but still - how could he have resisted her? she was so beautiful and so kind, so perfect.

he knew better than to let her get close to him like this, it wouldn't end well - probably with him getting hurt, with him losing her.

he loved a woman that was practically already dead, a woman without a chance, a woman he can't save - no matter how hard he tried, or how hard he fought for sponsors.

a pretty face with a malnourished body, a kind personality with an unstable mind, small and fast but still weak, she wouldn't last in a fight to the death - hell, she couldn't even stand a chance in hand to hand combat.

a woman that he saw was going to be the reason for tears in his eyes, maybe she was a lesson to be taught to him, some cruel message from the universe, another life claimed and another person haymitch had lost, her beauty leaving his heart vulnerable to her - another person that he was going to drink for, another person he would try to drink away, but still - definitely one of his favorites.

[v4rtig0]

Someone please tell my why my area of living has been getting school threats. I’m literally gonna kms😍

Anyway this is literally me, I love silent hill. I’m only playing the HD collection(ik it’s super hated on) but I AM NOT paying $150-300 on an original😭I can buy a bunch of shit with $300. So in conclusion I probably will only ever play the HD collection bc I don’t see myself ever getting my grubby hands on an original😞😞sucks to suck but wtv. I completely skipped silent hill 2 bc I really wanted to play silent hill 3. I’m sorry James😋due to the school threats that my area has been receiving I am NOT going to school tmr. Since we’re here I’m gonna say I love video games. Specially story videos games and decision based games(they’re the best😫) if you couldn’t tell I’m a yip yapper. I love to yap like everyday. I would also like to say that I love my 3 figurines I have in my room. My toga figure, my shigaraki figure and my itadori figure. I would also like to say I love anime(even though I watch like 3 anime’s minimum)😭MHA, JJK, HAIKYU, TOKYO GHOUL, A SILENT VOICE, TBHK and SOUL EATER. Thats pretty much it. I used to like The Promised Neverland. But season one was the only good season. Season 2 was lowkey ass😭this is a rough introduction to me honestly. Well I hope anyone who read this has an amazing day/night😼😼😼

(I also would like to say I draw too)

[mj-thrush-gxn]

asking this to my fav dndads artists, do you ship any of the teens, if so whom with?

Sorry i took a little while to think about this

hmmmm

this is actually a really hard question because i haven’t really thought about it-

okay i’m gonna go teen by teen 🫡

Taylor— honestly, swiftli. I feel like link is the one taylor gets along best with, so it’s kinda hard for me to see taylor with anyone but link.— BUT ALSO the idea of gothweeb is adorable and i find it kinda funny. they kinda bully each other but it’s fun because i love them. gothweeb is probably my #2 taylor ship. —i feel like taylor and hero was funny but it would’ve never worked out, and it didn’t, and i thought it was really funny. so like, i didn’t really ship it, but i thought they were hilarious.

Link— this is when i reveal my biggest secret… i love gothcleats. i like gothcleats a lot more than i like swiftli. gothcleat moments are more serious and carry more meaning, swiftli if mainly just funny homoeroticism and i love it. i honestly don’t know how to explain why i like gothcleats so much i just do. they hold a special place in my heart. —swiftli is my second favorite. LIKE AHHHHHHHH!!! PIZZA, PISS, HOMOEROTICISM!!!! ALL THE BEST THINGS!!! once again, their relationship is mostly just them being dorky little dweebs and i love them for it. — I LOVE KICKWORTHY… but that’s mostly because it’s basically just me and my best friend and i thought it was funny. i love the joker, my best friend loves garfield, instant win.but in all seriousness, i don’t really have a big opinion on them. i feel like since link didn’t like him at all until after apollo four teens, they dont have a wholesome enough relationship. i know that link has warmed up to herm a lot since then and i find them cute, its just that. — oakicks- i love oakicks and i think that if they polished up their friendship that would be wonderful. norm tries so hard to make everything good for everyone, especially link and herm, but it never works for him. so like, if link had tried a little harder to be nice and include him earlier in the season, it coulda worked.

Norm— ah norm… poor sweet norm… ANYWAY!! Oakworthy. i love oakworthy. it’s so dimmed but i also think it’s so cool and i just think it should be 100% canon. i mean, normal has been manifesting it since the dance, so like, cmon. I feel like herm doesn’t actually like scary as much as he says he does. like it’s just part of the bit. if herm breaks character, the first thing he better do is give norm a smooch. that’s all im saying. i will choose to believe that hermie actually likes normal and is just playing a part rn. he has to crack. he just has to. Norm deserves to get what he wants for just once, and this is all he wants. please anthony, let will have his moment. — Coin Toss, do they actually have a ship name? cause if not i just came up with one. Anyway- scary and norm. i love them. they are so same narrative opposite direction and i love them for it. i see them as platonic but like, feel free to give the homies a kiss ig. but yeah i mostly see them as platonic and scary needs to accept that norm is her new best friend. deal. — i already laid out my reasons why oakicks doesn’t work. i love them but like 😔. —oakweeb just does not work. it never will. taylor bullies norm way too much.

Scary — uhhh- Gothcleats, Gothkicks, wtv. i already laid out my reasons in links section. but like, link and scary could help each other out so much. both of their lives would be (i don’t wanna say so much, but) better. anyway- scary just needs to accept that she can be loved. — gothweeb, i already laid out my thoughts in taylor’s section. i like that and i think they would be cute, but like, not established enough. so i see them as platonic. — already stated my case for coin toss, platonic and i love them. I will explain the whole scary and hermie thing in the herm section- cause i need to write down stuff for herm… — scerica. yes. i love them. let the girls be girls. i ship it, like extremely, but also- they only interacted once in canon. they are my teen, female, nark basically. yes.

Herm- THE SCENE PARTNERS- SCARY AND HERM ARE JUST SCENE PARTNERS TO HERM- I FEEL LIKE HERMIE AND SCARY ARE REALLY GOOD FRIENDS AND THEY SHOULD HAVE GIRLSNIGHT WITH MARGARITA AND ERICA- HERM REFERRED TO SCARY AS A SCENE PARTNER THATS ALL IM SAYING — oakworthy. yes. if hermie can get over himself and accept that scary is nothing but a friend and a scene partner, it would work. please. i am begging. — already stated my place on kickworthy — swiftworthy is illegal.

your welcome-

i rambled- a lot.

[donghoonie-3]

Imagine his sleepy whines as you eat him out until his cock starts to leak</3 he'd be so confused but he'd enjoy it so much. The way he'd moan louder as soon as you take his whole length in your mouth, he'd probably buck his hips up cause baby boy feels really good and he can't help it. His eyes getting all teary when you finally sink down on his lenght, starting to ride his cock in a teasingly slow pace as he keeps his hands on your waist, just moaning as he looks up at you. He'd grip on your waist sometimes but baby boy is too sleepy to actually use all of his strength but if he's already awake, he's gonna leave some marks from gripping too hard as you bounce on his cock. He might also beg you to cum as you mark him up and ofc, as a good pillow prince, he'll thank you as he cums inside you, filling you up with his load. Poor baby is gonna be clingy for the rest of the day and he'd definitely want to cockwarm with you for a while<3

JFJSB he'd sound so pretty <33 also idk if this is too detailed but wtv 😭😭 if anyone doesn't like anything to do with anal eating out then look away now !! I can just tell he's got such a pretty ass </3 bet he's all pink too hehe <33 I'd literally love to eat him out ugh 😭😭 I have another thought that might be tmi so I'll dm you about it 😭😭. BUT ANYWAYS. You'd have you hold his hips down so he doesn't keep gagging you lmao unless you want him to do that 🤭. Oh god to see his teary eyes:( baby would look so fucking pretty <33 I can imagine how his bottom lip would tremble from all the stimulation </3 if one of your hands plays with his nipple and the other chokes him while you ride him he might cum right then and there <3. The fact that he'd be too tired to use his strength :( it'd be easier to pin his hands above his head like that <3 if you do though he'd whine bc he wants to hold you </3. But also him marking your waist bc of his grip????? Omfg 🥴. The way he'd thank you omg :( praise him for being so polite bc he deserves it <33 praise him in general for how good he was for you <3 he'll melt <3. All he wants to do sometimes is to be your good boy, he wants to hear you praising him <3 unless he wants to be treated roughly 🤭 I love clingy hoon sm omg 😭 him following you all around the house and snuggling up to you when yous are watching a movie :( hugging you from the bad when you're preparing food and his head on top of yours <33.

Btw enjoy your food, hope you didn't choke 😇