#wtiting my thoughts out in class is hard

[caramel-mocha-latte]

More hsr landau siblings g/t thoughts- now with more pain!

Serval finding a shrunken Lynx and panicking about her sister being so small and worrying about how hurt she could get, so just grabbing her and holding her close.

What's so bad about that?

Lynx isn't used to everything being so big, and Serval holding her so protectively is kinda tight and she really can't even move. So now she's scared and panicking because she doesn't want to get hurt either and the tight grip has her thinking she will. And Serval isn't listening when she asks to be let go of.

They probably both are just overall freaked out and on edge for awhile. Serval eventually puts her on a table in her workshop, but won't let her get off the table. Takes Serval a bit to trust Lynx to be out of her sight, she's a protective older sibling and doesn't want her extra little sister to be hurt. Lynx probably panics whenever she gets suddenly grabbed by Serval, who does it whenever she thinks Lynx is trying to leave or just feels she could get hurt (maybe playing with gadgets in her workshop)

Eventually they both calm down. Serval stops being so protective and stops grabbing lynx whenever she tries to run, Lynx relaxes and just gets used to navigating around the workshop

Anyway I just want sibling pain that turns sweet later and they probably get a cute nap or something, then the awkwardness of telling their brother what happened.

[thechangeling]

Ok this might be the pettiest rant i am to make, its really not bad i just want to lay this somewhere.

So I take cuatitative methods specialized in marketing and probability. Its a math elective i did not ask to take, they quite literally shoved me in there because i needed an extra math course to graduate and thought putting the kid running the humanities department in with the advanced math kids was a good idea/ j

I hate the class with my entire soul, but most of all I hate how its taught. I'm almost sure that class is an nd students worse nightmare, like if hell were a place itd be that classroom. The teachers not mean or anything (hes like, a standard dude. He exist, hes not mean or memorable hes just there)

But most of its just, he shows up, talks non stop for an hour and a half about math models and leaves. No interaction, nothing besides saying all the info and then class ends. He talks in a slow voice and explains math models verbally imagining i can just visualize the math concepts and its torture.

You sit in a hot room while he talks and yoire expected to draw diagrams but also i keep missing half the info hes saying and i cant see numbers. Plus i take that class last period after all my other hard classes (physics and ap calculus which im barely surviving)

So whenever i sit at that class and try to do anything, best I can do is not die because the way i get bored there is almost painful.

My friend kinda jokes that I should dtart taking it seriously, or that I at least wtite info but idk why i just cant do it. Ive tried to take notes but halfway through im listening suddenly i spaced out for 30 minutes and lost him. Most the time i cant even understand what he says.

I have a test tomorrow and im trying to study but truth is, Im failing because that class is hell and idk what to do. No matter how much i try i can never understand him because its difficukt eniugh to process what hes saying, and numbers make it worse. I accidently keep blacking out half the time. There is nothing to keep me engaged, and for some reason im even unable to pick up a pen and wrote amything.

And idk *how* to explain it to my friend that. Sometimes i wish i could just give people my brain for a second so i didnt have to explain because it *isnt* that im stupid i just *cant* function in that class.

I can baremy listen to a podcast about the enneagram which i genuinly like, do you THINK i can sit through 90 minutes of numbers?? Models?? Economics???

This is petty and useless but *shakes brain*

Oof. I can understand why you would be stressed. That's a shitty situation. I'm not sure if you want advice or just someone to comfort you. But if you want my advice, if you can get a tutor I would highly reccomend it. Also if you can, maybe asking your teacher for after school help if he offers it.

But it's shitty to be in a learning environment that doesn't support the way your brain works. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. ❤