#writing is hard when your brain isn't cooperating

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@perotovar tagged me, ty bb! this is straight from the doc I'm currently working in:

“Pretty Benny,” you say softly as you run your hand through his blond locks. You’re pleased to see how his head tips back as he swallows, his Adam’s apple bobbing, and the anticipation in his eyes when you slowly twist some of his hair around your fingers. “Tell me something. You like being told what to do?” His eyes become glassy at your words, and you feel a little jolt of triumph run through your body - once again, you guessed right. You give a slight warning tug at his hair and he whimpers, squeezing his stiff cock through his pants as his gaze remains on you.

also I need to emote for a moment:

so i don't know about y'all, but my brain goes haywire when 1) i realize too late that I won't be able to make a deadline re: something I care about, particularly if it's due to my focus/adhd - and 2) when I disappoint people, particularly if i've promised them something. combine the two and obv it gets worse, because I've heard a little too often 'but i know you're capable of doing this thing, so then why isn't it happening?'.

it makes me feel like people will think that thing X is not a priority for me, that i'm inconsiderate, or that i just left it until the last moment to work on. that's when 'not being able to do what I promised' turns into 'obv this is a massive personal failure for you and people will hate you for it'. the logical part of my brain gets that this isn't true, but you know... the anxious part of my brain is a fucking liar that enjoys fucking me up even more.

anyway, the point of me bringing this up is bc the the excerpt above is from my ezra x reader x benny miller fic - which should've been posted on the 18th for the Peg that Middle Aged Man (PMAM) campaign. right now i'll be lucky if I can get it done today or tmr, and that shame/dread actually almost stopped me from even putting up this 'last line' post because i worried 'what if people who know i'm writing on it are gonna be like JEEZ LOUISE WHY ISNT THIS DONE YET'

... but then i remembered y'all are much nicer than that. <3

ok as I'm typing this and wondering if I really need to do this kind of 2010s livejournal emoting on my tumblr --- I'm suddenly reminded of the Hollywood Reporter round table so ha, okay, fine, i'll just actually post this little bit of rambling instead of deleting it and retreating further back into my 'failure'. have some gifs, made by @trashcora!

[astraystayyh]

Hello! I was wondering if you would be interested in writing a fic about felix? Hes my bias and legit the love of my life.

Prompt:

"Y/N being overwhelmed with either work or school and ends up falling asleep, maybe upset and crying. When felix, her boyfriend of many years, gets home, he finds y/n passes out in her room with tear-stained cheeks and decides to make the rest of the night about her and her self care. "

Scream!

Lee Felix fluff/comfort. Very unconventional way of cheering up hdhdhd.

I'm sorry it took me so long to work on this!! i hope you'll enjoy reading it <3

"Sweetheart, I'm home!", Felix shouts as soon as he sets foot inside your apartment. It was past 10, and he had been counting the seconds until he could finally come home to you. 

He skips to your bedroom, stopping in his tracks when he finds you asleep on your desk, your face squished against your laptop. "Adorable", he whispers to himself, a lovestruck expression adorning his face. 

But as he bends forward to wake you up, he frowns at the sight of your tear-stained cheeks and your deeply furrowed eyebrows. He looks over at the scattered papers on your desk, along with the three empty cups of coffee sitting there, and he figures this has to do with the big assignment you were working on. 

Felix places a featherlight kiss on your temple, before grabbing a pillow from your bed. He gently lifts your face, replacing the laptop with the soft cushion, this way you wouldn’t strain your neck. 

He quietly starts to clean your room, picking up clothes from the ground and putting back in place your disorganized products. He then heads to the kitchen, where he washes the dishes you had stacked in there from the night before. It was your turn to do them, but still, he knew that this would be a weight lifted off your shoulders. And he'd do anything to make you feel better.

When the dishes are washed, the countertop swept and the floors clean, he finally rejoins you in the bedroom. You are still asleep, so as to not startle you, he gently rubs your back, calling out your name softly. 

You open your eyes lazily, instinctively smiling when you see your boyfriend in front of you. "You are here", you whisper and he grins back, "I'm here, baby". 

You close your eyes, Felix's touch lulling you right back to sleep. But then, you snap them open when you remember that you most certainly shouldn't be asleep right now. 

"Fuck", you gasp, "I should be working, oh god I will never finish this and-", Felix leans down and kisses you, effectively stopping your frantic rambling. 

"Easy, love. What's going on?", he asks you, and his soft tone makes tears well up in your eyes. "I'm so so stressed out, I have this assignment due and my brain isn't cooperating".

Felix extends his hand towards you and you frown confused. "Come on, let's go", he urges you and you grab his warm hand tentatively, "Go where? Felix, I really shouldn’t-"

"Do you trust me?", he cuts you off and you reply instantly, "With my life".

"Then let's go", he pulls you up and you giggle lightly, "I'm still in my pajamas".

"Here", he grabs one of his hoodies and pulls it over your head, "Perfect". 

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A short drive later, Felix parks in front of the beach. You stare at him inquisitively and he smiles cheekily in reply.

You step out of the car, closing your eyes and savoring the feel of the breeze ruffling your hair. Felix stands behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist and placing his shin on top of your head. 

"The view's pretty", he comments and you nod in agreement, sinking further into his safe hold. When suddenly, Felix crouches down behind you. He holds your legs tightly and stands up- this time with you perched on his shoulders. You yelp, taken aback and he laughs, "How's the view up there?"

"Lix put me down!", you chuckle and he starts running towards the beach, ignoring your plea entirely. 

You are laughing so hard, your stomach aches by the time he finally stops. Your cheeks are flushed, and the salty scent of the sea mingles with Felix's cologne. You haven't felt this alive in a while. 

"Yn!", Felix calls out and you try your best to look down at him, "What?", you giggle and he smiles mischievously, "Scream, baby. Let it all out!" 

You contemplate for a few seconds before nodding eagerly. "Okay! Count to three for me", you tell him and he chuckles, "One... two... three!". 

You scream your lungs out, your shouts echoing around the empty beach. "Feels good baby?", Felix asks and in reply you yell again, letting out all your pent-up emotions. You felt as if you were on top of the world- sitting on Felix's shoulders while the sea drinks in your shouts.

Felix finally kneels down and you hop off of him. When your eyes meet his, you both scream together as if on cue, your hands holding his tightly. And then your shouts morph into barely contained giggles- you end up falling on the sand from how hard you're laughing.

When you both calm down, you high-five him and he smiles, lacing your fingers with his. "Did it help?", he asks, his thumb swiping back and forth on your palm. 

"A lot. This was exhilarating".

"I'm glad", he grins brightly as he helps you stand up. You pull him in for a bone-crushing hug, wrapping your legs around his waist. He securely holds you to him as he walks back towards the car, “Let's go get ice cream, and then we’ll go home and cuddle. Sounds good?", he whispers, his lips grazing the shell of your ears.

"Sounds perfect", you smile, burying your face in the crook of his neck.

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As promised, Felix buys your favorite ice cream and you both eat it in the car, while blasting the playlist he once made you. He thinks you didn't notice but you know he took extra laps around the house, this way you'd get to finish the song you were listening to. 

You also notice how the house is much cleaner than it was this morning. How Felix puts on your comfort show and places your head on his chest, because he knows the sound of his heartbeat calms you down.

You notice how he places a glass of water on your bedside, this way you'd drink it first thing in the morning. How he insists on putting on your skincare for you, gently massaging it into your skin. How he tucks your Bokkari plushie next to your pillow, this way you'd hug it when he has to inevitably leave for work.

When you both finally lay in bed, you kiss his forehead gently, and his eyes flutter closed at the contact. 

"Thank you, for loving me", you smile, heart so full of admiration it feels like it will burst. 

"Thank you, for allowing me to love you".

"Can't you just accept the compliment?", you giggle and he shakes his head no, pulling you closer to him. 

"Tonight is about you, my love".

"Can tomorrow be about me too?", you tease and he smiles softly at you. 

"For as long as you need it".

[piratecaptainscaptainpirates]

Another 1K fic request for you if you have the time. I am absolutely loving your spicy fics where Ed is trans and it got me thinking of him and Stede having their first time and Stede isn't sure how Ed likes to be touched, but he wants him to feel so good, so he whispers into Ed's ear with a voice like silk, "Show me how to touch you. Show me how to make you feel good, darling." And Ed's brain just short circuits for a second because no one has ever turned him on so much or treated him with such care and attention. As soon as he asks Stede to slip his fingers inside him, he's done for. 🥵

This was just the inspiration I needed to get some writing done today!! The pwps I've been working on haven't been wanting to cooperate but this was just what the doctor ordered.

very nsfw below the cut!

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Stede didn’t falter until Ed started working his jeans down his thighs.

Now, just because Stede was new in the gay dating scene, Ed might’ve once expected him to be a timid lover. But they’d been dating for long enough that he knew better, and all he could do was sit back and let the full force of Stede’s loving enthusiasm hit him head- on.

That was why it was almost a bit more surprising when Stede paused, his hand warm on Ed’s bare thigh, his eyes flicking from Ed’s boxers to his face.

Ed should’ve guessed Stede was too good to be true, probably.

“It’s alright,” he said, trying to laugh it off, trying not to look hurt. “It’s okay, we don’t have to.”

“No, sweetheart, no,” Stede hurried to say, kissing his cheek. “You’re perfect.”

Ed pursed his lips. 

“I just…” There it was, again, that hint of hesitance. “How do I make you feel good?”

“It’s not complicated,” Ed said, trying to force himself to relax down against the sheets. “You’ve got a cock, I’ve got a hole. You just stick it on, it’s hardly rocket science.”

“That wasn’t what I asked, Ed.” Stede kissed Ed’s cheek, then along his jaw, then down his throat, and Ed gasped when Stede got the sensitive skin there between his teeth. “I didn’t ask how to fuck you. I can figure that out myself. I asked how I can make you feel good.”

Ed’s brain had been doing a pretty amazing job of functioning, considering Stede was standing there in front of him all hot and shirtless, but at that it went completely offline.

Stede loved him. Stede wanted to make him feel good. He was never just arm candy or a hole to fuck, not to Stede.

“I…” Ed swallowed, loud in the quiet, his fingers shaking as he clenched at the bedsheets.

“It’s alright, love.” Stede’s voice was quiet in his ear, sending an electric- hot shiver down his spine. “Show me how to touch you. Show me how to make you feel good, darling.”

“I - yeah,” Ed managed, barely, quickly shoving his boxers down his legs. He was wet already, of course, just the feeling of Stede kissing him and the promise of more making him dripping wet, and he gasped softly as he was exposed to the cool air.

“Gorgeous, gorgeous man,” Stede said, keeping a comforting hand on Ed’s thigh as he situated himself between Ed’s legs. “Aren’t you beautiful?”

“You don’t have to say that,” Ed whispered. “I know my body isn’t what a lot of guys want.”

“I said it because I mean it,” Stede assured him, soothing a thumb along the sensitive skin of Ed’s inner thigh. “You’re the most gorgeous man I’ve ever seen.”

There were goosebumps, rising up on Ed’s arms.

“Is that okay?” Stede checked, a trace of nervousness playing along his face. “If you don’t want me using those words to describe you, just let me know, okay?”

“I like them,” Ed admitted softly.

“That’s perfect, then,” Stede said with a relieved smile. “My gorgeous boy.”

Ed moaned, his head tipping back.

“You’re amazing, precious. Just perfect.” Stede got a hand on Ed’s other thigh, gently encouraging him to spread his legs open for him. “Can you show me how you like to be touched, please, love?”

Slowly, Ed lowered a hand to swirl a finger around his straining little cock, already rock-hard just from Stede’s attention and praise. He dipped a finger around his hole to bring some of his wetness up to ease the slide, his head tipping back in pleasure.

He was so turned on that the pleasure was almost sharp, and his head tipped back, helpless whimpers falling from his lips -

“Gorgeous,” Stede whispered again. “Can I…?”

Ed pulled his fingers away, returning his hand to a helpless fist in the sheets. “Please, Stede, please -”

“Shh, precious, it’s okay,” Stede said. “I’m going to take care of you, sweet man.”

Yeah. Ed had no doubts at all about that.

Stede held him open, for just a moment, admiring his dripping hole and bracketing his hard cock with his fingers, muttering a soft gorgeous as Ed’s hips moved of their own volition, rutting unevenly against his touch.

And then he touched him, and he’d been paying attention, because his first hesitant rubs around his cock turned quickly into confident pressure, stroking him just how he liked. Past the pleasure, Ed could tell Stede was honing in on his every little reaction, his whines and groans and the way his hips bucked up into his fingers, until Ed’s inner thighs were shaking and he was a trembling mess underneath him.

“Perfect,” Stede praised, and - 

Fuck, but no one had ever touched Ed like this. No one had ever treated him like such a treasure before.

“Stede,” Ed practically sobbed. “Please, Stede, give me a finger, need you inside, please -”

“Of course, love,” Stede said, his voice gentle and unquestionably adoring, and he kept rubbing Ed’s cock as he teased his hole for just long enough to make Ed squirm before so, so gently pressing a finger inside.

Ed clenched around it frantically, his mind blanking at the overwhelming pleasure, and Stede fucked him shallowly with it before giving in to his needy whimpers and easing in another.

“That’s it, precious,” Stede praised, looking between Ed’s blissed- out face and watching his fingers disappear into Ed’s hole. “You open up so beautifully for me. Best thing I’ve ever seen, you stretched around my fingers -”

With a shout, Ed came, harder than he thought he had in his life, clenching around Stede’s fingers and overwhelmed tears falling down his face as Stede fucked him gently through it.

“Amazing, Ed,” Stede said, pulling his fingers from him and leaning forward to kiss him. “Just perfect.”

Ed grinned, feeling so in love he was nearly drunk with it, and he gently caught Stede’s bottom lip between his teeth. “Your turn.”

[pacific-rimbaud]

Hi! I'm curious regarding Panville's dynamic on RoT. You write that they basically never argue and some of their disagreements get sorted out quickly (barring the one before the accident ofc). And that 5 years later, they're still deeply in love and shagging constantly. It's so beautiful but I guess I've become jaded with mainstream media (and some of the marriages/relationships i've been around) but do you think that's really possible? Not without hard work, but is it attainable and realistic?

I meant for Remember One Thing to be something lovely and beautiful and escapist to sink into. I write this ship because they're incredibly soft and fill me with so much warmth and happiness when I'm inhabiting their world in my imagination. All of our escapist outlets are so different, and I'm grateful to have the opportunity to put something out there that is maybe a little different or niche for people who enjoy it.

But also . . . extremely long-ass rant under the cut.

I can't find the source right now, but apparently when Terry Pratchett was a very young journalist he interviewed older married couples to ask their secrets to a long marriage. One of the couples straight up said they stayed happy because they had a ton of sex throughout their marriage and still did. There's also that kind of wild essay Ayelet Waldman wrote for the NYT about how much sex she and Michael Chabon were still having after four children, among other sentiments. People do experience a confluence of high libido and sustained admiration and attraction. It helps to partner with a sexy, kind, capable person who's a great communicator and does genuinely equitable domestic labor, which is what I've written.

And as far as fighting goes, that's down to a lot of things that I won't get into, but it's 100% possible. My three kids never fight. They have very rare arguments/hurt feelings over resources ("Who ate the last of the rice crackers?" kind of thing), but they resolve their conflicts quickly and respectfully and have never, ever sought to hurt one another physically or emotionally. This has nothing to do with my parenting, it's just them, for whatever reason. It's so marked and consistent that they're disturbed by sibling conflict in media, and don't understand why their friends hate their siblings.

It's a joke in my house to call me Spock because I live in my rational brain most of the time. It has drawbacks, but one perk is that I find it very easy to approach conflict with a cooperative problem-solving mentality vs. a win-lose mentality. I really cannot overstate how life-altering that is. And I actually do think that it's possible for almost anyone to become good enough at communication and secure enough in their sense of self to have a very low-friction partnership.

Tl;dr: it's absolutely possible to not fight with the people you live with, and it's possible to not hate your spouse. I will say that I see more genuine friendship, mutual regard and happiness in queer relationships than I do in straight ones.

So my answer to: is this possible? Attainable? Realistic? is yes and no. Remember One Thing is heterosexual monogamist escapism, meant to simply enjoy for those who are into it. I also absolutely think it's possible to sustain a super active sex life across the lifespan of a monogamous partnership. It's also possible to not fight (I don't mean not disagree or work though differing opinions, that's just life). Is it likely to find both of those things in a partnership? Plus whatever else we may want—successful careers, healthy, connected parenting, physical health and well-being, hobbies, extended family connections, travel? That's a ton of pressure and a BUNCH of separate social problems we shouldn't feel responsible for personally solving or attaining. Also kind of funny how under predatory capitalism security and satisfaction are not enough (are in fact antithetical to the pursuit of profit). Any aspect of our lives that isn't peak and ideal is framed as a problem with a market-based solution. There's an app to optimize all of this. Click to accept the unfettered use of your data in perpetuity.

The thing about the relationship in Remember One Thing isn't that it's ideal, it's that it's peaceful. It's marked by a high level of metta, or lovingkindness: connectedness; openness; mutual goodwill; benevolence. It's emotionally non-violent. One of my all-time favorite authors is E.M. Forster, a gay man who wrote about queer joy long before that was a term and whose existence was criminalized during his lifetime. There's this famous line in A Room with a View: " . . .  by the side of the everlasting Why there is a Yes—a transitory Yes if you like, but a Yes." Remember One Thing is about a Yes relationship. It's safe to be vulnerable. That vulnerability engenders trust, which makes it possible to stay open. It's a virtuous cycle.

Why don't we think we can have that? And for those who want sex, why do we feel like silly, secure, fun, connected sexual intimacy that we genuinely enjoy and regularly seek from a partner is unrealistic? So much of what we think is normal about partnership is actually centuries-worth of radioactive institutional abuse and exploitation. We covertly and overtly frame relationships in terms of power, performance, and extraction. What do I get from this relationship vs. I get to hang out with you. That's no way to live. I have to believe it's attainable to find that person or people who feel like a sweet, sexy Yes and treat them with grace and kindness. Otherwise what's the point?

[simplykorra]

sleet, wildfire, and drought

🌨 Sleet - What's the most you've ever written in one sitting? it might actually be the newest fic i started. the idea hit me so fast and i just started writing one morning and then all of the sudden it was like...noon and i'd written the first two chapters. that was a wild day (also your clexa fic was an inspiration for the idea, so thank you for being so damn good at what you do <3)

🔥 Wildfire - Who is your most emotional character and why? ava for sure, because she has so many emotions and all of them are to the extreme. her joy is so loud and consuming, her grief is heavy and painful. she can be absurd and fierce and loud or timid - she's so flexible and fun to create with

🪹 Drought - What do you do to help with Writer's Block? my two methods for writer's block are reading through my own stuff, to remind myself that i actually can write, because when you're struggling you really do feel sometimes like you've just been faking it the whole time and you never actually had the ability to do any of this, so i like to go back and look through what i've written and get inspiration from it

the other thing i do is sometimes i just power through it and write even if i don't like it. because i do think creativity is a muscle and the more you use it, the stronger it gets. so if you're writing feels off or isn't good or your brain is just not cooperating, i think the best thing to do is push through it. i'll even go as far as to type slower as i write, so my brain isn't pushing too hard and can catch up and take in the story more

these methods don't always work and i think everyone has their own strategies for it, but these are the two that stand out to me

[sinner-as-saint]

I'm not good at giving writers feedback, I wish I was. I think I just don't like my presence to be perceived

I always read your fics even if there's something that isn't my thing in the tags because I like the way you write

"You're no good for me" made me tear up when I finished it because I'm tired and just want to be taken care of. "Not without you" was on another level, I think you hit a new bar. One of my favourites is your Hades!reader au, it was beautiful. I saw you even before I decided to finally make an account, it was your sub!bucky one shot (which is a slay as it is), so when I got on here and saw you I was like "oh yeah, I know them, they're amazing"

↑ this has been sitting in my notes for three months

had a wave of nostalgia over being a content creator this morning, I really miss it, but have zero energy, so I hope this cheers you up a little because I know it's a tough job

Hey there! First of all, thank you so much for this. I was having a rather hard day today and this just made me feel better about myself and made me feel a little less worthless

Thank you for reading my stuff, and I'm so glad to hear that you like what I write. Due to 'real life' I'm also finding myself having no energy or creativity to write. You have no idea how many fics I've started but just couldn't finish because my brain refuses to cooperate right now. It's really hard to be creative when all of you is just tired and done. And it's especially hard when writing/creating content is your fav thing to do, so I can understand some of what you may be going through.

What I would say to you though is that don't be too hard on yourself. It's alright, whatever it is it'll get better.

I hope you find the right energy, inspiration and creativity to start creating content again <3 And thank you again for your message.

[ya-killin-me-smalls]

i apologize for the text wall you are about to recieve i'm facing my fears of being an annoyance in the inbox

hey what do i do when i have several fixations happening all at once

my madcom keeps coming into the house because its cold but then goes back out because yay snow

the funkin won't leave the pantry because i keep coming back to the Tall Modded Men

deltarune deltarune deltarune deltarune

undertale is returning with a baseball bat because it refuses to be left behind in my elementary days (i promise you my AU content won't be based on fanon i've been tracking little details in the game i'm not cring pleas e don't sentence me to the swamp of sin)

im not sure if i'm going back to my fnaf phase i'm just very fond of the sundrop models i find on VRChat

MINECRAFT!!1!1!1!!!

and it doesn't help that i want (personally i have to i live off making silly little worlds with different stories and flavors) to make AU content the neurodivergent courses through my veins it will never end

this is a really good question that I don't see a lot of people asking so it's hard to find good advice for this

best advice I can give as a neurospicy individual is to not fight your attention span when it comes to hobbies. with school and work you don't have much of a choice but remember there are no deadlines or consequences in fandom

like I feel kinda bad for not having updated my two big fics in 2-3 months but y'know the juice just isn't there. I like quality and if I'm not interested it won't be quality. I try to keep my blog madcom focused because that's what people followed me for but trust me right now I'm all about my gta dude, sonic, batfam, mw2, and others I can't remember on top of madness combat

I can't give advice for artblock because I don't draw unless I absolutely want to, but for writing at least I find that outlining costs way less mental energy so even if I'm not putting together a new fic/chapter, I can still plan to with relative ease

but yeah neurodivergence doesn't always mean there's something wrong, sometimes it just means your brain works different and I don't think it's productive to try and force it to work another way. do what sparks joy. if your ideas are cringe, kill the cop in your brain because the entire premise of madcom would sound cringe if a 12 year old described it as their superhero backstory. what makes or breaks a story is the presentation of it, not the idea itself

also feel free to combine things you're fixating on. I was on a horror kick, decided to incorporate it with fandom (have not finished it because oh my god horror is so hard to write)

having people to bounce ideas off of is really helpful too because it can help you focus more on that one thing, as I'm sure you saw with the AU I'm working on right now. feel free to yell about stuff in my inbox if you'd like, don't know all those fandoms but I'm happy to listen

music also helps with focus, find a song that fits the vibe of what you want out of your work and set it to repeat. normal behavior I know but it worked for me

ultimately, don't stress. the mojo comes and goes, it's more cooperative if you are. fandom isn't a job or any sort of obligation and you can write, draw, headcanon whatever you want. sometimes multitasking is helpful because you can step back from something and then come back refreshed after working on another thing

hope this makes sense because it feels all over the place but yeah that's basically what I've learned to do

[itsevanffs]

omg plz ignore my prev ask, I forgot to turn on anon lol. But yes i was wondering if you will ever post a comms page? I love all your work ^u^

no worries. i'm a bit hesitant abt monetising my fanfiction, mainly because i'm not really in a place to deal with any possible ramifications from getting caught. that's my main hiccup lol.

aside from that it's very hard for me to write stuff on request that i'm not really interested in, if that makes sense? my brain is really unpredictable, and sometimes even short fics take years to actually complete. my writing style isn't really suited to commission work in that way.

i know fanart's a bit more loosey goosey with the legalities (unless the Mouse is involved) so i have been considering opening comms on that, but it's got the same problem as fic regarding like... sometimes my brain just does not want to cooperate, and sometimes those moods can last upwards of months. it just feels a little scummy to take people's money when i have no good guarantee of being able to provide in return.

but i'm really flattered by your interest!

[iggysmice]

I have the annoyingly verbose form of autism, evidenced by the fact I use words like "verbose."

My partner has ADHD and struggles with blocks of text, whether it be processing the words, parsing the text, or even just having the attention span to finish reading the block. Apparently reading is notoriously hard for people with ADHD for a variety of reasons. I'm a hyperlexic autistic who loves reading scientific journals for fun so I don't know what thats like and it sounds unfortunate.

To combat this for my poor Aly, I leave TLDRs at the end of my text blocks in our discord DM, so that if her brain isn't cooperating with my excessive use of the English language she can read a couple sentences that sum up what I said instead!

I think it probably also helps me learn how to be brief when summarizing events to someone.

Either way, making things accessible doesn't have to be a huge grand project. You can just start using TLDRs when you write a big paragraph.

TLDR adhd makes reading hard so to help your adhd having homies you can put a little summary at the bottom of your paragraphs so they can get the idea of the conversation even with a bad attention span!

[cyberneutral]

Gush about your OC

Ahm, I got tagged by my dear @shynrel-vp , thank you for this opportunity to talk a little bit more of my character. Even tho I have five of them I choosed the one I'm enjoying the most right now.

RULES:

Post 5 Facts about your OC.

Open the latest section of #cyberpunk 2077 tag and reblog 5 posts of people you don’t follow, giving them nice tags.  

Tag 5 People to spread the game.

So... I'll be talking about my nuthead assassin: Kayn.

Delivered to Arasaka when he was just a kid, he didn't have the tradicional childhood. Unfamiliar with simple plays like hide and seek, he spent most of that time studying what the corporation let him have acess like science chemistry and physics. His sense of humor is very dried and awkward, he doesn't understand jokes very much and his jokes aren't understandable either what makes him a lonely dude. (humor reference: sheldon cooper from the big bang theory)

At first Kayn was a project Arasaka wanted to start that was the implatantion of the personalities constructs on youngers to make their body a "second home" for the members of the council. The project was shout down but the constructs were never removed or used, it was an cyber empty space in their heads that the corporation could use for whatever reason they want in the future. The project name can be found in the source code of the construct and it is: MMLXXX (2088), the year they wanted to present this to the world.

One day he was sent to eliminate a man but it was an ambush to test him. So when Kayn got there it wasn't just the target, even tho Kayn gave them a hard time in the end they won by number, beaten up to almost death. He woke up one week later in the hospital. Kayn developed a second personality in that time, his name is Rakin. A curious thing is that he was responsable for making him wake up since the main persona was too weak that time. Rakin is irrelevant, vengeful, violent and stronger. When he left the hospital the second persona made Kayn blind for revenge and week by week he spent killing everyone that was on that day. His brain got affected by his other persona like a poison corrupting it, he was tested in Arakasa and they saw this persona was affecting the construct either what was an unique ocasion. Arasaka took advantage of that, turning Kayn into an assassin for them, all his files got classified and he suddenly turned into a shadow, what was the perfect deal.

One day in a test at Arasaka lost his mind in a crisis while was connected in the cyberspace to see how was the construct that made Rakin suddenly starts to took over it, filling in the empty space of the engram and actually putting an organic personality there. This event made a black mark in his face that was caused by a corruption that accidentally happened when it was taken, this also made Kayn develop heterochromia since his yellow eye is his natural one and the red one is actually from his alter ego. Arasaka once again didn't know what to do with that so they tried to turn Rakin into an personality construct but it would kill Kayn but with the several attempts he turned into a hybrid: now they have the human personality: Kayn & there's also Rakin the persona living in the cyberspace even tho he isn't an AI and can influence in Kayn's mind as an organic one.

In the recent days he still works for Arasaka and have what he call friends from work - they are not his friends and he doesn't like them. In a birthday party of one of his fella workers he was drag to a karaoke which he hated a lot, he met Lazuli (@wingdeer oc), little did he know he was talking to an AI. But since he doesn't have any sense of humor he didn't notice she wasn't human and found her very pleasent, that made something very rare happen: Kayn and Rakin now had an interest in commun. Fun fact: He will not care that she's an AI, he finds her more interesting than everyone that has been around him in his whole life. (I might write something for them soon).

Well, tagging time. Of course no pressure/obligation but I would like to know about your OC's and want people to know about them too. @mentorun @mhbcaps @neverfadesaway @fonfan121 @rebelcroftvp

[justashadetalkative]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN

NAME?: Gossy

(Picrew by Lunevani, found here. Thanks Swid!)

PRONOUNS?: Any non-neopronoun (he/she/they/it)

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION?: Discord for any sort of involved conversation! Replies & tumblr messenger are both fine for short-form stuff, though.

MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: Diamond for the most part; he comes naturally.

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: I started roleplaying on online forums ~15 years ago, but I started doing DnD with my parents and pass-a-word-document-back-and-forth style rp with some IRL friends ~18 years ago.

BEST EXPERIENCE?: I don't really tend to think in terms of Grand Moments! I think that overall I've had a pretty good experience just, In General with rp. Exceptions have happened, but they've been mild and manageable.

RP PET PEEVES?: Lack of (positive) ooc communication is the main one that comes to mind. I want this to feel like something we're doing collaboratively, with good will and for the sake of having fun. I do also get disheartened if the initiation of interactions (e.g. ask sending, thread notions) isn't at least sometimes mutual, but that’s like... I don’t expect balance or anything; folk have varying levels of energy and anxiety and idea flow, and that’s natural! I just feel more comfortable with at least the occasional indication of reciprocal interest.

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: Angst and fluff are both good! I'd theoretically be open to smut on Discord with the right characters & situation, but I've never actually written it.

PLOTS OR MEMES?: Definitely plots; I am so, so bad at improv, so it's kind of hard for me to respond to ic-memes a lot of the time. ^_^; That said, even when they're a challenge for me I do still like memes! They're a nice way to get new ideas flowing, and I like sending them.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: Long and medium are best. Kind of like with plotting vs. memes, I do best when I have context to build from, and single-paragraph or shorter can start to be more difficult for me to work with.

TIME TO WRITE?: Fffff. Whenever I 1) have time, and 2) can convince my brain to cooperate. It's intermittent, sadly.

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ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?

We're all very queer. :P

Otherwise, Diamond's been hanging out rent free in my head since I was literally 4, so. I think there's absolutely overlap there and that it's also just anchored too deep down for me to untangle or notice specifics. xD

My other muses do often take at least one or two ideas, feelings, or questions of mine and extrapolate those to extremes; see where they'd go if they were big enough and internalized enough to be personality-defining. Clemcy and the fear of death, the arrogant know-it-all tendencies. Ithadel and the deep fear of overstepping boundaries, the self-knowledge of being a wet blanket in social situations. Oscar and the genuine belief that the whole point of it all is for us to care for one another and the world itself.

Phosa and Linast are question-based; I think a lot of their character struggles have grown out of my musings on the sometimes-immense discrepancies between who one is in raw instinct vs. who one is when acting purposefully vs. who one wants to be, and the further difference between true internal desire 'want' vs. wistful thinking 'want'.

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tagged by: @archerwhiterp; thanks! :)

Tagging: @theovergrowth @needleandstory @desertfragments @writedisaster @oflostinfound @hearthtales @discipulusmaleficus

[faytelumos]

Happy blorbo blursday again!!! :D

How would your OCs do in a group project? How cooperative would they be and who would have what tasks?

I love this question, this should be on character development questionnaires.

Hhamath: He's quiet, doesn't like to offer up his ideas in case people don't like them. He'll happily just let everyone decide what the project is going to look like and the layout of the trifold, and then he'll do his share of the research and drafting. He also knows calligraphy, so instead of printing the project out, everyone gives him their share of the project and he wing-hand-writes all of the text. Everyone gets bonus points for style.

Athetæm: If everyone else on the project is a peer or friend, he will shamelessly sit back and do jack shit. He gets snacks and looks pretty, and that's the extent of his contribution. He has the brains and the eye to contribute, but he'd rather gab and hang out.

Fethu: She's the boss. Before the group is even finished forming, she knows who's doing what. Delegation and accountability are her domains, even while she's doing her own share of the research and drafting.

Meva: She's drawing all of the pretty pictures and cutting out all of the colored paper flowers. When it comes to crafts, there's no one better. She'd crochet a lace border for the trifold if there were time. As it is, she sets to work making sure her group's project pops on the table.

Lutem: She passes off the intellectual work because she's not confident she can do it, and instead focuses on helping everyone with their various assignments. Rides to someone else's house or another trip to the craft store? Need food for a late night session? Gotta get something off the classroom printer? She's your girl.

Ræs: He's picking up Athetæm's and Lutem's slack and taking extra work from Meva. Out loud, he sounds disgruntled about it, but he's never wanted to work so hard on anything in his life. He's blowing the lion's share of the research and drafting out of the water, and he's gonna argue with Fethu when she tries to tell him he's missing the point of the assignment. After they share words, the two come to an agreement.

Overall grade: A++

Shryth: She's not totally sure what's going on in any given moment. She does the work that's handed to her and then… sets it back on the table? She missed the discussion. It's kind of hard for her to stay focused in class. But she'll take everything where it needs to go.

Ohrik: He's doing all of the research and drafting. He's good at it, so he may as well. He doesn't really care; he'll just do all of the work and let everyone else put their names on it.

Shohm: She's gonna make this presentation shine. She's gotten a lot of craft materials, and she has the trifold at her house pretty much the entire time. It's all she wants to do in her free time, really. She never gets the chance to just be creative in class.

Ia: She's just gonna do all of the work. It isn't really like anybody else can make a good presentation. It's fine. She doesn't care. At least this way it'll get done fast and then she won't have to get everybody to work.

Syfreth: He keeps trying to figure out what he's supposed to be doing. Nobody will give him any work to do. So he ends up sitting in the corner and reading a book between looking up for a chance to actually help.

Toler: He makes cootie catchers and paper footballs out of Shohm's fancy paper. She doesn't mind it, and she helps him come up with some of the stuff in the cootie catcher. He hasn't looked at the assignment even once.

The day before, when Shohm finally brings the trifold back into class, Ia and Ohrik almost throttle each other over whose version of the project goes up. They end up rewriting the whole thing the night before. It barely fits into the blank spaces Shohm has left between the paper scenery and glitter borders.

Overall grade: B+

[fangswbenefits]

kindly wished you would shitpost less and write more. no offense. i love your writing 😢

You know what? Me too. I wish I could be more focused in my writing, but my brain isn't cooperating. Besides, I'm writing this Astarion fic as a treat for myself. There is no need to rush. I love writing dialogue, and it's really hard for me to match the quality of the source material (brilliant writers all around), so I have to try a bit harder to even do it justice.

Maybe this sounds silly, but again... English isn't my first language, so I am always one step behind when it comes to certain idioms and lingo 💔

[littlesparklight]

Hello!! For the fic writer ask thingy: 3, 5, 21, 22 and 23

Have a good day/afternoon/evening/night!

thank you <3

3. Describe the creative process of writing a chapter/fic In the case of a one-shot... I just write. I only (generally, anyway) do bullet point style plot-points and ideas for conversations and etc in multichapters. I also generally write from beginning to end, but I've stopped holding so tightly on that; if I feel inspired to write a later scene, I'll write it out! Years ago, I didn't do plotting to such a degree/in the same style I do now, but with my TF longfics I started, and then I never stopped because it really does help me.

5. Do you like constructive criticism? Not... really, no. Maybe if it was someone I knew really well and, most important of all, I've deliberately asked them for concrit because I was uncertain about a story or something, then it'd be fine. But otherwise? I don't know anyone else from Adam, so if someone came in wanting to give concrit I'd be unhappy. I'm sharing a story that is how I want it to be - at the point I'm posting it concrit wouldn't be useful and thus not wanted.

21. Would you ever collaborate with another writer for a story? HM. I... don't think so? Or rather - I only do so when I RP lol. But RPing is its own beast, and while I love it, I don't think I could do collaborative writing fic-style.

22. Are there certain types of writing you won’t do? (style, pov, genre, tropes, etc) Horror, 1st person POV (this is a plague, fic-wise or in "regular" fiction. I hate it haha).

23. Best writing advice for other writers? Write what you want to write.

Like, yes. I often get dispirited and (really) sad that I am writing rarepairs (and especially rarepairs a lot of people don't like/don't like one half of them) or otherwise niche content in most of my fandoms (SW being a bit of an outlier haha) and thus don't get much in terms of response for it. But I'd rather pay that price and have fun while I'm writing, getting to dive into my ships and the worldbuilding and so on, in ways I want to do it, than try to write the juggernaut that I either don't care about or actively despise, just for more feedback.

That's just going to kill your creativity, in the end.

Obviously it's all well and good to say "write for yourself, who cares if you get comments/kudos/etc" because at the point we're posting a fic, we do want some connection and appreciation and proof others like the same things we like. That there's others who like what we as writers have put so much effort into.

I do honestly not really like that statement, because I do care about the comments/kudos/etc when it comes down to it!

But at the same time, doing anything differently wouldn't, for me at least, work. Because as depressing as it can be, I am having a lot of fun while I write. Even when it's hard, and a slog, and my brain isn't cooperating.

I definitely would not have that fun if I didn't write what I want to write. (And even if you do go try to write for the most popular ship or whatever, that's still not any guarantee anyone will like how you write it, or notice it. And then you've put effort into something you don't even like for something you didn't even get.)

So, again. Do what you want to, write what you want to write. Because you are the one who's having to write it, and the first person who sees that writing is you. You have to please yourself first.

[aerialworms]

21, 25 and 28 for the fic ask game if you so please :3

21. Could you ever quit writing? Do you ever wish you could? Why or why not?

I don't think I'd ever be able to quit writing, not completely! I like it too much. I enjoy coming up with ideas and crafting narratives and being able to entertain others with my words. I did frequently want to quit while I was doing my degree, but that's because I kept making it way more serious than it had to be and it became a chore. Even right now, when my brain's being a bastard and making it incredibly hard to write or edit, I still want to, I just can't get my brain to think creatively and cooperate with what I want.

25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?

Okay, technically it's completely irrelevant to the story, but I did write an entire oneshot fic about it. I still wanna talk about it though :D

In my destiel Star Trek AU series, Tales From the USS Impala, I made Dean openly bisexual, because I figured there's no room in space for homophobia. I've set the series in The Next Generation's universe/time period, and as I was idly pondering what this Dean's backstory could be, I was like oh you know what? Commander Riker is absolutely his type. And then I was like wouldn't it be funny if they hooked up with each other on vacation from their respective ships (Dean trying to get over his crush on Cas, Riker distracting himself from Deanna Troi) and then had to work together later on with both Cas and Picard wondering why they're being so awkward around each other. And then it kept building and building in my head until I wrote the fic where they hook up!

So the weird detail that isn't relevant to the main story of the series is that Dean had a one night stand with Riker on vacation to try and get over Cas. But that hookup actually made him realise how deep his feelings for Cas are, which kickstarts him trying to start a physical relationship with Cas, which eventually leads to them getting together (although with some idiocy in between, because of course).

Also it took me three weeks after coming up with this to remember that Riker's main love interest is called Deanna and I laughed so goddamn hard at that. He slips up while he's with Dean and accidentally calls him Deanna and Dean's like why did you just call me my grandma's name???

The title of the Dean/Riker fic is Get a Leg Over (The Riker Manouver) :D I think I'm hilarious

28. Who is the most delightful character you’ve ever written? Why?

That's a very good question. I wouldn't call any of the people I write fic about as delightful, except for Gwen, who isn't in either of the Merlin fics I have published but is in one that's been languishing in editing hell for like. 4 years.

Ooh, also, Cas from my WIP fic where he temporarily turns into a dragon is delightful, to me at least. He gets real cuddly and real protective over Dean, and behaves like a particularly intelligent cat. He's a feathered dragon, too, and I want to pet him so much. I don't think Dean finds him as delightful, seeing as he keeps trying to bite him (affectionately!), but I think he's adorable :3

Thank you for the ask, friend!!!

Ask me something weird about my writing!

[ferventrapture]

Once again, nobody actually thinks about disabled people.

AI is a problem. We know that. We need laws surrounding it. Moderation of some kind.

But everyone is acting like the only people who'd use it are lazy fucks who want credit for creating something that was computer generated.

To be clear, those people DO exist, hence the moderation.

But do you have any idea how helpful AI is going to be, to disabled people like me? And physically disabled people? Do you know how much it can take out of you to type? Or speech to text? Being able to do MUCH less of that to put less strain on your body and voice is going to be a godsend to people who have to rely on dictation or have a problem with their wrists and CAN'T use dictation.

Describing a scene in 150 words and then having the AI expand it into 250 to 450 so you can then go through and just edit small parts will make it possible for people who would never have been able to write stories, to finally write something. Not to mention it's hard to get your brain to cooperate and focus, but talking to an imaginary person about your project might actually help you do that and eventually finish a project, even though you never have before (like me, adhd and possible autism with executive function so broken I can't do basically anything myself or finish long drawn out tasks like write a book without some kind of outside motivation or stimulation driving me)

And then there's the AI that will go into those brain chips that we're all wary of. That will help people that are totally paralyzed to communicate, control the electronics in their house and so many other helpful applications. I agree we should all be careful and leery. But be aware that there's more uses for this shit than you're thinking of. Try and always ask yourselves if it could benefit anyone, like REALLY benefit, improve their quality of life, before you jump on the 'all ai works should be banned from everywhere' train. Because while I've always been able to write, I've never been able to finish and other people have never been able to write at ALL.

Someone actually had the nerve to come onto my story when I said 'I'm using ai to put like a kind of effect over the backgrounds sometimes maybe and take away hud elements and using AI to help me plan my chapters because my adhd makes that hard on me' and they decided to say something about how THEIR ADHD isn't as bad as MINE so of course I must be using it as an EXCUSE.

Not all flavors of disability are the same. Just because you can do something, doesn't mean someone else with the same disability can.