#writeofmeinred

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I keep laughing at me, too.

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I think my favorite part about the fact that I never filled this out

is the title to the website itself that was given to me by someone who worked really extra hard to get Us to trust them this time around.  lol.

https://www.socialserve.com/tenant/FraudAlert.html?ch=IN

LOL FRAUD ALERT 

Don’t give anyone your ID for Megapersonals even if they offer you $50 for it- I didn’t.  If something comes up, I didn’t consent to anything as per usual.  People are going to do what they want to do and act like they absolutely HAD to do it and their personalities are going to be robotic and repetitive and it’s just sad when they realize things don’t work the way they used to and they can’t move past it so here’s to the ones, the last ones still standing, that have decent souls and all that bullshit and don’t feel like I’m stupid enough to be fucked with.  Cheers to you.  My apologies to any of you to whom I am not kind; I ask that you look through my eyes for a minute and understand why it’s difficult for me to behave in a normal way and not be suss of everyone.  That’s why I stay out of everything I don’t trust and don’t want to affect or influence others in any way by what I say and how I feel if it’s a personal situation that has caused me great discomfort - but I gotta get it out once in a while.  Let’s just call it false to be safe on all fronts.

Always look at the web address and app details when you’ve got people sending you direct links.  If you’re unsure, follow your guts.  All the way through your digestive system until they come out as what they are.  You’re not stupid.   

Life is neverending so just deal with it and be smart and whatever else you must be to get through it.  Snakes are everywhere.  It doesn’t make reality sad all the time.  

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My friendly fire compadre. Note the little orb in the middle. Thank you.

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Look at the little dream catcher holding clown boss in the corner

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So the man brings home a kitten and I look at it and scoff and say I don’t fucking want it because the vet bills are going to cost a shit ton, thinking the blonde lady who mentioned her Russian blue brought it; I’m going to call it little shit. Little shit has a half bent broke ass tail and a hunch back spine with eyes much too close together. The noise it makes is kind of okay and I’m sure after I yell at it for a few days for being a living thing doing things in particular to that of which it is.

If he brings home the Russian blue cat I swear to god we don’t need two.

I was about to point out a few things about how fucking old wife curmudgeonly I get when I’m cohabitating with a dude but then I stopped. I stopped because I’m not exactly being the best hausboi at all for the last few weeksdays. Everything is messy, and my pussy is full of bloos (uterus whatever) and I gave him my last half Gatorade and guess what? I still hate leaving the house alone. Won’t do it. 5 year old me saying fuck this. House. Inside. HOUUUUUSE

Ok that’s all. This is my favorite vacuum

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Everything I thought is most definitely coming into being. It’s not that I’m grasping at something; there isn’t anything I want to grasp at. It’s like having things dangled in front of you and everyone is wondering which thing you’ll react to and at that, none of these things are interesting. You go numb and know you’ve learned to need and want nothing and your only battle is to be comfortable with yourself and your thoughts, not influence anyone on purpose whatsoever, but warn some of the dangers that come creeping along that can change your entire persona if you aren’t strong enough. Am I stupid for hating money and the idea of having a way to contact other humans and not caring about rattling off crypto ads and or character ads? It’s not something that would benefit me at all. If it benefits everyone else for some unknown confidential reason, that’s great. It’s just kind of a strange thing that even further keeps me from wanting to enjoy or pretend to enjoy social gatherings. I am only nice to people when I feel ok and it’s not their faults but that’s what this thing does. The clock is ticking.

I’ve never been rich by proxy or otherwise. I’d rather choose to be upset about emotionally related issues stemming from observing or ptsd or personal experiences instead of how much money I don’t have. My Venmo has has 1.33 for months now and as far as I’m aware, there’s nothing else. If I have to repeat myself time and time again, it’s for preservation of what’s left of my sanity to keep me meddling through this period of healing. Whatever that means.

I’m thankful for this and for what I feel deep down in the right people but be your own boss.

That’s it. Get to work.

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Eat too much turmeric. Get tireder trying to weaken the worm in your body that’s disrupting your life cycle (and has been since I was 8?). I remember having little lines on my head that all came from a circular region on the back of my head like thinner than skin but they were symmetrical and I just brushed them until they went away. The marvelous thing about tapeworms is them reproducing and with what food and expertise habits we have developed, it’s likely that you too, have intestinal parasites. I just have to take smaller amounts every other day so I don’t wake up with such little circulation in my skull. Everytime I’ve showered since taking this shit I have poured sweat for upwards to 5 hours afterwards so that has a bit to do with it. Eat turmeric and kill all your parasites.

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