#wow sir your hand looks awfully heavy... do you mind if I hold it for you?

[eugenoid-draws]

Sometimes Jopson forgets himself and lingers for too long

[old-hyper-super-clover]

Squeeze that bunny tail!

Part 1

Description: The RAD student council as well as the exchange students help out at a bar where, oops, the staff´s dress codes are those sweet bunny outfits that we all know and thirst for. The MCs, Violet and Clover, play a game of who can touch the most bunny tails over the evening without getting caught. Prepare for fluff, funny innuendos as well as my thirst over hot boys in bunny outfits.

The story is divided in several parts and will be updated every few days.

*I wrote this when the bunny UR+ cards first came out so there will be differences to the second event & their outfits

Story begins below the cut, have fun!

One fateful day, Diavolo had called his best friend Lucifer over to discuss a very urgent, utterly important matter...

"... A bar?" Lucifer repeated the prince's words.

"Yes!" Diavolo cheered.

"... And you want us to work there?"

"Yeah!"

"... Not only my brothers and me, but also all of the exchange students as well?"

"Strong yes! Barbatos and I will join, too."

"What? Are you sure? Should the prince of the Devildom really lower himself to such frivolous tasks?"

"Come on, Lucifer, it will be fun!"

Lucifer pressed out a deep sigh.

"... For you, perhaps... For me, it will be nothing but another day of babysitting a bunch of idiots..."

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When the group arrived in the newly opened but already renowned bar, lots of them gave amazed gasps.

"It's huge!" Clover called out.

"And real fancy, too..." Mammon said, a mischievous spark in his eyes.

Belphie noticed how his brother was already searching for the most expensive decoration and gave an annoyed sigh. "Mammon's having idiot thoughts again..."

"All of you" Lucifer called out to the demons and humans living in the House of Lamentation. "I expect great manner from all of you. Lord Diavolo kindly asked us to help out with the grand opening of his acquaintance's bar. As it is the first day the place is opened to the general public, the owners asked him to offer help, and here we are. I would like to say that every item that gets broken or gets STOLEN", he shot Mammon an obvious glare, "will be repaid out of your own wallet. Furthermore, I am making you aware that..."

He kept talking for an unknown (but awfully long) amount of time, until Diavolo would pull him out of his ranting.

"Lucifer, relax! This is a laid-back place, I am sure everyone will do just fine. After all, we also have our kind Angel and Human friends to help."

Asmodeus raised an eyebrow.

"Is Luke allowed to be here, though? It's an adult place, after all..."

"Wha-?!" Some angry Chihuahua noises escaped Luke´s mouth. "I'm not a child, you know! Of course I am allowed to work here, show some respect!"

Simeon next to him gave the small blond a pat on his head while trying to bring the conversation back on track.

"Thank you for inviting us, Diavolo. Shall we get started, then? We don't have much time left until the first customers arrive."

They got shown around the whole place.

It consisted of two floors to sit in or play all sorts of bar games, a dance hall and a giant kitchen, serving all sorts of treats to go along with the (mostly alcoholic) beverages to buy from one of the even more impressive bars.

"The place looks pretty tame, though" Asmo pointed out as they had finished the tour.

"You think?!" Violet blinked at him. "I think it's amazing..."

"Asmo..." Satan mumbled. "I am pretty sure the places where you are a regular at are simply a little... special."

Completely ignoring the implications in Satan´s words, Asmodeus went on to ask the owner about whether they had what he called "fun rooms", which, yes, are just what you think they are.

They had to drag him back so they could finally be introduced to their work schedule.

"The bar is opened until four in the morning" Barbatos explained. "We will be working in shifts to maintain our stamina..."

Slowly, everything important had been settled, and the first bunch was about to start their shift.

But...

Well...

All this was a happening planned with the mind of Sir Diavolo himself...

So of course it wouldn't end up being a normal evening. It never did.

Just as the group wanted to leave the kitchen-strategy-meeting, Diavolo called out to them.

"Behold!" he prompted. "Are you planning to go out looking like THIS?"

Lucifer raised an eyebrow, already alert at the smirk on his friend's face. "Oh no..."

Barbatos, who had shortly excused himself after explaining everything, entered the kitchen, now holding a piece of clothing in his hands.

"The waiters and waitresses at this pub are required a special working garment", Barbatos explained. "We have prepared suiting clothes in your respective sizes already."

"Cl...othes?" Violet dared to ask.

"Yes!" Diavolo beamed her a smile. "And after midnight, you change clothes once again. Those are a surprise, however, so you will have to be patient until then."

Solomon gave a contemplative hum.

"And... What are those garments, exactly?"

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"... Violet?"

"... Clover?"

"... Do you have bunny ears in your outfit set, too?"

"... Yeah."

Silence.

They stepped out of the women's toilet stalls, mustering each other.

A frilly short skirt, a pretty blouse, a cute bow tie, and two bunny ears as well as a matching bunny tail.

"... Looks pretty good, though" Clover mumbled. "A little embarrassing, but oh well..."

They checked their outfits for a little longer in the mirror, adjusting their clothes...

"To think they'd make us wear stuff like this", Violet said.

"Yeah... Like, are we supposed to serve customers like this? And look all weird, just the two of us?" Clover played around with her new pair of ears.

"Dunno..." Violet breathed as she checked her make up. “I bet the boys will think we look…” she stopped.

Realisation hit them.

"Violet."

"Clover."

They dashed out of the bathroom.

And opening the door, they saw...

Bunny boys.

Ten of them, right there, in those... With those... Looking so…

Violet suppressed a squeal while Clover was hiding a heavy blush.

But there was no time to recover from this critical hit.

Already having spotted them, Asmodeus was bouncing towards them, his frilly, pretty revealing blouse swaying around his curves.

"Waah, you girls are bunnies, too~!"

He began to inspect them thoroughly, also pulling the attention of the other males towards them.

But with all the damn nice snacks around, the girls had troubles focussing on only Asmo as he continued to squeal something.

"Whyyyy do we have to do thiiiisss..." Levi groaned, visibly uncomfortable in his butler bunny suit.

Lucifer (very stunning view btw, chef's kiss) crossed his arms in a sigh.

"You heard Lord Diavolo... It seems to be common practice in this local to dress like this... But I'm starting to regret agreeing to help out..."

A hand gently placed on Lucifer's shoulder.

"Oh, come on, Lucy" Simeon smiled, brown bunny ears reaching out of his hair. "I think this suits you very well. You look cute."

This only pulled a greater sigh out the demon's throat, but he wasn't allowed to keep this frown any longer, as Diavolo and Barbatos joined the group soon after.

To the group's surprise, both of them were in similar suits as well.

"Wow, all of you look stunning!" Diavolo wore a big grin. "I knew it was a great idea to suggest a dress code!"

"That was your idea?!" Luke pouted, having whatever trouble with his costume (which btw was designed to be distinctively less... sexy than all of the other suits, don´t worry about the angel child). His floppy rabbit ears looked adorable, but it only added to the impression that he shouldn't be here, serving alcohol for the next hours...

"Of course", Diavolo cheered. "They say good-looking staff makes more profit, and I want this evening to be a success."

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"I heard the place was designed to imitate a classic bar from the human world."

Initiating a conversation, Satan was preparing glasses at the bar together with Violet, Clover and a few of his brothers.

"Is it normal for the staff to look like this in the human world?" he asked, quite amused to watch the girls' bunny ears bounce with their movements. "Not that I'm complaining... I just figured you must know."

"... You´re asking US? Do we look like we party a lot?" Clover mumbled.

Violet gave a shrug. "It's kind of a... Classic costume to go with, but I don't think it's really that common with humans, too."

The demon gave a nod, then excused himself as Levi was calling for him on the other side of the bar.

And now that the girls had some time for themselves again, they could finally let out their inner fangirls.

Basically just giving weird noises, exchanging a few completely out of context words that only two minds speaking the same language of stupid could understand, they gushed about all the males surrounding them.

"Clover oh my god I-" Violet whispered in a gasp. "I love the tails."

"And the ears" Clover agreed.

"And the vests."

"The bow ties."

"But the fluffly TAiLs oh myyy..."

"Lolll I bet you wanna squish them-"

"YEEssssSSSSS..."

Afraid someone might notice, they tried calming down. But as if the universe was trying to keep them agitated, Beel happened to pass by, stopping next to them to organise the bottles in the display shelves behind them.

The girls turned, mustering the male...

Suddenly, Violet's expression curled into a sly grin, thinking of the huge crush Clover had on Beelzebub. She leaned in on Clover to whisper in her ear.

"Squeeze his tail..."

Clover's eyes widened as she started to blush.

"What?! No..." she whispered back.

"I know you want to~", Violet continued to purr in amusement.

"Sh-shut up...!" Clover grumbled.

"Come ooon..."

"Y-you do it if you're so tough...!", Clover pouted.

Her friend only gave a shrug, stepping closer to the demon as she nonchalantly reached for the bunny tail attached to his pants.

Of course, Beel noticed her presence.

"Violet?" he blinked in surprise, but apparently did not register how Violet pulled her arm back immediately.

She shot him a smile.

"Hey, Beel, could you... hand me that bottle in the upper shelf? Asmo said he needed it over there."

"Sure."

And as the male reached for the bottle, Violet took the chance to squeeze that fluffy pompom.

"Thanks" she cheered, then went to grab Clover to disappear from the scene of crime.

Violet couldn't quite wipe the victorious grin off her face.

Clover on the other hand...

"I hate everything", she pouted.

"You should have just went for it" Violet laughed. "It's like this game we used to play in the human world when everyone is wearing hats with pompoms during winter. Just that here, it’s a bunny tail that you had to squish.”

"But..." Clover sulked, like always sad that she wasn´t brave enough to do what Violet asked her to do.

So Violet mustered her friend...

Then, an idea hit her.

"You know what, actually?" Violet said. "I dare you to squish a tail."

Clover made a weird sound.

"What?! Nooo... You know I'm awkward..."

"And let's make it a game!"

"... Are you even listening to me?"

Apparently, she wasn´t.

"Whoever manages to squeeze the most bunny tails wins -- without the person noticing, of course." Violet was grinning from ear to ear.

Clover gave a big sigh.

"... The tails from either of the boys?" She finally gave in.

"Yeah, let's."

"... Would you voluntarily go up to your crush Lucifer and risk your life?"

Violet's face turned into a conflicted blush.

"I..." she mumbled in an unconvincing shrug. "Maybe...?"

"They should have different difficulty levels", Clover suggested. "Giving different amounts of points,, depending on how difficult we consider the squeeze-ability of a tail."

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Don't ask how or why... (And how they found the time to come up with this madness)

But in the end, the two girls had invented a game to keep them entertained for the next couple of hours.

They came up with a plan for the "bunny tail squeeze point distribution":

1 point: Beel, Belphie, Simeon, Levi (+), Asmo (+)

2 points: Mammon, Satan (+), Barbatos, Luke (V)

3 points: Lucifer, Solomon, Diavolo, Luke (C)

"The plus stands for a potential to increase in points, as those three are a little difficult to analyse. We'll count it depending on the situation and their wariness..." Clover concluded as she showed Violet the notes she had taken on a beer coaster. "And Luke's on there twice because I'm a fucking giraffe and get a bonus point if I can reach that Chihuahua’s tail. And thaaat... Would be all."

Violet squealed in excitement.

"Great, then let's go!"

Clover gave a last sigh, knowing what difficulties she'd have with this.

"This is SO going to end in some disaster..."

[calypsoff]

Four. Part 2

I know this shit is going to be some fancy place, I can already tell with the neighbourhood but we both have been awfully quiet, and it’s not just the silence where we have nothing to say because we do but it’s like, we are face to face now and we both quiet, I breathed out as my phone rang. I needed that, digging into my pocket grabbing my phone. I mean it’s not the person I would want to speak too but here we are “hello” I answered formal, I mean I want to cut this conversation short, turning the volume down on my phone “hey boo, I just wanted to say I miss you. I am going to go out with my girls” she could just go “that is ok, is that all you wanted to tell me?” she can go now “where are you going? I am surprised Barry is not blasting music” I laughed a little “maybe he doesn’t want too, anyways I am going” I am being shady, I hope she doesn’t sense it “let me speak to him” I knew she would say that “speak to him?” I repeated “yeah, I just want to ask him something” I need to think of something quick “oh you don’t trust me?” let me put this back on her “you cheated on me before” I cringed “I mean” I laughed “that was then, and it was one time. Don’t be so dense, on a real because you will easily become single” now why does she want me to be a dickhead “you are so horrible sometimes” closing my eyes sighing out “then be quiet, have a good night god bless” disconnecting the call kissing my teeth “she has every reason to be worried” Robyn said at the side of me, I snapped my head in her direction “what does that mean?” I smirked “I am just saying, she should be worried” Robyn is bold as fuck “but why?” I questioned again “I am just saying” locking my phone smiling, placing my phone in my pocket “I started my period anyways” looking at Robyn “really?” she busted out laughing “you are funny” she shook her head looking away from me and at the window.

My first time being in New York and it does look amazing, but I can’t, I really can’t shake this off. The silence, the aura and the feeling is so fucking heavy and I have never felt this before, not even when Robyn and I fooled around when we was fifteen, it’s so overbearing. There is so much emotion, it’s like we are reading each other in silence, this meet is very different from when we reconnected that day, since we have been texting and calling it’s really changed a lot, and really my intentions was never sex but I think it’s going to be the part we play as soon as we get to the apartment, I feel the emotion going right down to my dick, it’s making me uncomfortable that I just want to have sex with her “wow” I just admitted it to myself, I slowly moved my eyes to look over at Robyn. My throat feels so dry at this moment, I swallowed ever so hard just imagining me actually touching her leg, us kissing “did you say something?” our eyes met, my hand balled up into a fist instead. My hand was just doing it’s own thing “uh no, I was just saying how nice New York is” her smile grew “first time here yeah?” nodding my head “you know me, I just seen Virginia and that is it. Are you happy that your tour is over?” let me make some conversation to stop this feeling “I am but I have been counting down the hours and days for this, just to see you” nodding my head understanding “am I dessert?” I chuckled “mhmm, so you need to go inside the building. Pick up the keys, it’s under Melissa Forde. Please” I didn’t realise the car had stopped.

I breathed in the cold air, I needed that. I need to feel some different air instead of breathing in Robyn’ aura, that SUV is thick, I just know it and I would be surprised if the driver didn’t feel it too. Barry and TJ were right, I am the one in the wrong because I said to them we wouldn’t, but I don’t know, I think it may be a thing. It’s there anyways, this place is fancy as hell. Walking towards the receptionist, well I would say security but he is looking at me like I am crazy and maybe I am crazy but I need to get these keys before she thinks I can’t do anything “hi, I come to pick up keys under Melissa Forde?” I said, he started typing on the system. Looking around me, if the reception is fancy then the apartment will be even more fancy “I will get the key for you” looking back over at him, nodding my head at him. I need to gather myself; I really do. I mean it’s like something I have been waiting on since forever, I just feel like it’s something we needed to have always done and I got a feeling Robyn will not be stopping it this time, she is just so beautiful. What is even this feeling right now “sir!” the guy shouted, looking up “oh yeah, thank you” taking the key from him, I wonder how many times he shouted at me to listen. It’s not just sex, I know this won’t be just sex. Walking out of the building, the has been there since we met, this is for old times and I am scared on what it will become. Dragging open the car door “I got it” holding the key up “I will come out” the driver scurried out before Robyn got out, he walked by me. Grabbing my bag from the floor of the car, closing the door as I walked to the trunk “I can take that” Robyn has a suitcase, my god she has gone all out “you got many wigs in there?” I asked, Robyn lightly hit my arm as she walked by me.

Is this guy the driver or bodyguard because why is he walking with Robyn inside the apartment “thank you” Robyn said to him “have a good night miss” he bowed his head to me “goodbye” nodding my head slowly “thank you for getting my suitcase” smiling lightly at Robyn “that is fine, what you got in this anyways? I mean why so many things” Robyn smirked stepping onto the elevator “wouldn’t you like to know” she is playing now, getting into the elevator with Robyn but I stood on the other side. Placing the bags down “is it far up?” watching Robyn rest against the elevator “I guess” biting on my bottom lip resting my head back. There is already so much tension and then we are in the elevator, I have always wanted to have sex with Robyn, and it was always there so this is torture to me. Bringing my head forward rubbing my hands together, Robyn is staring ahead just watching the numbers go up. Dragging my eyes down to Robyn’ legs, I never noticed her legs being that good “how come you had a shower beforehand?” it just came to mind and I said it, looking back up at Robyn’ eyes just looking at me “why not?” she questioned back “I asked why first” I couldn’t help but say that with such a smirk, stuffing my hand in my pocket “why did you want to watch?” feeling my cheeks just heat up for no reason “you are annoying” let me pick the bags up.

This is some fancy ass apartment “make yourself at home” I can literally see over central park, placing the bags down. From the open planned living and kitchen area, I can see central park from the windows “there is two rooms if you uhm you know. You want your privacy” I chuckled, she wanted to say something else “go on, explore the place” I don’t think she wants me to explore anything; she wants to explore me, and I can see it on her face but let me dip. Looking down at my hands, my palms are sweating my dick is throbbing, this is crazy. I don’t care for the apartment, I am just trying to get away from Robyn’ aura, it’s just very overpowering right now. Walking into the first room I see, switching on the light “wow” the bed is facing the row of ceiling to floor windows, like anyone could see but we are so high up that nobody could, it looks so beautiful just overlooking New York. Walking around the bed slowly, I am pretty amazed by the view here. A little scary getting too close to the window actually, I stepped back a little, that is a little scary looking down. Looking up at the skyline and I just felt it, I didn’t even need to look behind me to know that Robyn is in this room, I can feel her. Closing my eyes slowly, I can feel my heart beat against my chest. Opening my eyes slowly, I don’t know right now as my mind has gone black on me “the skyline is amazing” I said not moving from my position “isn’t it just” she spoke, this is strong.

Turning around slowly, seeing Robyn stood looking at me “it’s funny you said you don’t hug but you gave me that hug in the car” breathing out laughing, she is funny. Walking back around the bed, getting closer to Robyn “mhmmm well” taking my snapback off of my head, placing it on the side table “I guess this is my bedroom now” I grinned, pushing my hair down still smiling staring into Robyn’ eyes “you look so happy, in your eyes I can see the happiness” Robyn put her head down smiling “you know how I feel” she looked up at me, staring into her eyes and feeling myself get lost in them, it’s like words don’t even need to be spoken. Her eyes are just telling me everything I need to know, and I am becoming lost in them, my hand flinched at the feel of the back of Robyn’ hand touching mine, looking down at her hand before our fingers involuntarily intertwined, like it was just natural. A slight smile passed my lips “you would always hold my hand before kissing me” I chuckled at the memory Robyn of course remembers, it feels weird to have Robyn’ hand in mine, much has changed now like my tattooed hand, hers also but there is a difference. There is so much going through me right now “so was that your sign of me going to kiss you?” I said grinning “yeah, you made me feel comfortable. You cared, and I know you still do” biting on my bottom lip, lifting my free hand up. My hand touching the side of Robyn’ face, dragging my thumb over Robyn’ lips slowly, she pressed a kiss to my thumb and my breathing hitched. Robyn moved closer to me, dropping my hand away from her face. It was so natural for me to just kiss her, our lips connected, and I felt this surge go through my body from it. The kiss is slow and sensual, I had assumed there would be a need for eagerness but there wasn’t, feeling every curve of her lips against mine. Letting go of Robyn’ hand as I bought my hands up to Robyn’ head, moving away from her lips and pressing kisses to the side of her face, I felt emotion hit. Wrapping my arms around her shoulders, Robyn also held onto me, and I felt it, the emotion. Teary eyed from an unknown reason I don’t know, I really don’t. Clenching my eyes closed trying to compose myself, I have too. Moving my head back pressing a kiss to Robyn’ lips again but we both ended up smiling against each other’s lips, letting out a gently sigh, looking into Robyn’ eyes our face ever so close I ended up nuzzling her nose and then kissing her again, my tongue entering her mouth. Robyn’ hands travelled under my sweatshirt, up my back as far as she could reach and then scraped her nails down my back. Trailing my jeans waist band, I moved back from the kiss as I heard the belt buckle.

Pulling the sweatshirt off of me with the help of Robyn, she pulled it from me and then threw it onto the floor of the room. Watching her eyes scan down my body, taking in every part of me, she is drinking me in which made me breath in sharply. She touched the scar on my shoulder, she didn’t ask but gently ran her hand over it before coming into me closer, pressing a kiss just on the scar. Closing my eyes as she did, bringing my hands up to Robyn’ face. She looked up at me, pressing a kiss to her forehead “I love you Chris, I always did. I fell in love with you in Virginia, I thought I didn’t love you and it was just a crush, but I did. And now you’re here, I fell in love with my best friend and that ended. You weren’t there when I came back, I am saying it now because I don’t trust life. I shouldn’t ever hold back I won’t again, I love you” nodding my head understanding, I just missed her face so much “don’t worry about it” pecking Robyn’ lips “what if I said I was on my period” knitting my eyebrows together “then we going to have problems because who’s going to entertain my dick now? I mean come on” kissing Robyn’ cheek and then down to neck “I am joking, mhmmm” nipping at her neck “you always enjoyed kissing my face, I missed you so much” moving my head back “I love you” she said, her hand firmly pressed against my bulge.

I caught Robyn’ eyes lit up “the big reveal, I mean the big part” licking my lips seeing Robyn’ naked body just there on the bed, I ain’t wasting no time. Leaning down to Robyn, pressing a kiss to her navel and travelling up her body, crawling onto the bed as I did as I made it up to her lips. Massaging my member as I placed myself between Robyn, entering her slowly rather then just go in, she let out a sharp gasp. Grabbing Robyn’ arms and placing them above her, intertwining our fingers as I entered her further my eyes never leaving hers. Nuzzling the side of her face as I thrusted in and out of Robyn, she breathed out turning her face to me to look at me. She feels so good, just as I imagined. Pressing a kiss to her lips as I quickened my pace, we both moaned into each other’s mouths, pleasure taking over us. The gasps turned into desperate gasp’s “fuck” the grip on our hands tightened, this is euphoric.

[superactivenerdy]

Tony’s song

this is my very first fic i posted on ao3 and wanted to post it here, hope you like it, 

Steve rogers

Steve was making breakfast, while tony was making his coffee, all steve did was ask about his day, as always tony not only made a cutting remake but he also made fun of steve, which mad steve angry. so steve started his own hurting words, and even though tony stopped, steve just couldn’t, after tony left in hurry looking hurt saying some excuse about work. steve felt bad, maybe he went overboard, the same time bruce came in looking angry.

“I heard everything, you should apologize steve.” bruce said folding his arms over his chest.

“But he started it.” said steve, realizing now how childish it seemed after saying it.

“You don’t understand,steve.” bruce sighed, combing his hand through his hair.

“What do you mean?” steve asked feeling confused.

“look , it is not my place to tell, just didn’t you feel that tony was different today.” bruce explained.

“Now that you mentioned it, he seemed awfully quiet since yesterday.” mused steve thinking back, “but, still don’t understand, what is going on with him.”

“I can’t tell, but you really should apologise, and probably tony will tell you himself.” with that said, bruce left, leaving steve to his thoughts.

Before steve could think more about it, he got a call from shield, he decided to talk to tony after getting back.

That was in the morning. Now, It is late in the evening, when steve just wants to relax, he drags himself to his floor. he hopes he doesn’t run into tony, he decides that he will apologise tomorrow, when he is less tired, and to give tony a chance to calm down.

After taking a hot shower, he decides to eat before going to bed, but as he finds his kitchen empty, he goes to the other avengers’ floors hoping to find something in their kitchens, until he goes grocery shopping.

He almost lost hope after finding nothing in clint’s, natasha locked her floor, and he didn't want to wake up bruce for fear of hulking out, and thor wasn’t on earth.

As a last resolve, steve headed to tony’s penthouse, dreading every moment of it,but steve was sure tony would be in his lab, so stepping out of the elevator, steve stopped in his tracks, as he listened to a beautiful melody being played on a guitar, steve wondered if tony left his sound system playing, or maybe one of his so called friends was in, steve hopped it was the former, as he continued to listen, he walked closer to the source of the music, hoping JARVIS won’t announce his presence yet.

Turning around the corner, he saw tony on the couch holding a guitar. steve looked in awe as tony started singing.

 Do you remember standing on a broken field

White crippled wings beating the sky

The harbingers of war with their nature revealed

And our chances flowing by   

 Steve couldn’t believe his ears. he never knew that tony had such a beautiful deep melodic voice. he didn’t even know that tony could play the guitar. at that moment, steve realised that there was a lot that he didn’t know about tony, as he continued to listen to the song. the more he felt that it meant something to tony with the amount of feelings he was pouring in it.

  When I thought that I fought this war alone

You were there by my side on the frontline

When I thought that I fought without a cause

You gave me a reason to try

 Steve started wondering what kind of war tony was in. what was he fighting for, and who he was talking to, too many questions steve had no answer for, and the more he listened, the more he wanted to know.

  Turn the page I need to see something new

For now my innocence is torn

We cannot linger on this stunted view

Like rabid dogs of war

 I will let the memory heal

I will remember you with me on that field

 As tony’s beautiful voice washed over steve, he felt guilty for what he said this morning, and for not trying to know tony more, with everything he said on the helicarrier and the fights between them until now, still tony gave them a place to stay, and made them upgrades, yet they never asked him to join them for dinner, or even checked on him in his lab,or tried to include him in anything, just made silly jokes over him being self centered and narcissistic. all that fueled steve’s guilt.

 With no-one wearing their real face

It's a whiteout of emotion

And I've only got my brittle bones to break the fall

 When the love in letters fade

It's like moving in slow motion

And we're already too late if we arrive at all

 “genius, billionaire, playboy, philanthropist” that what tony said about himself, when steve hurt him with his words, yet he never tried to know the man behind the masks. steve wondered how many times tony had fallen, and had to pick up the pieces alone, with no one willing to offer help. how many times he had to hide behind masks to hide his hurt over their jokes,or how he gave them everything, yet it wasn’t enough. he wasn’t enough, so that he stopped trying,  that he got used to it.

 So will you please show me your real face

Draw the line in the horizon

Cos I only need your name to call the reasons why I fought

hen I thought that I fought this war alone

You were there by my side on the frontline

And we fought to believe the impossible

When I thought that I fought this war alone

We were one with our destinies entwined

When I thought that I fought without a cause

You gave me the reason why

 As tony finished the last verse of the song, he sighed, and stared into space.

Today was the anniversary of jarvis’ death, usually tony spent that day alone, as tony wanted to keep it that way.

He didn’t tell the avengers, expect bruce, they were in the workshop working together on a project, when rhodey called to make sure tony was alright, so after heavy persuasion from bruce, tony finally told him about the upcoming anniversary, and told him what he do on the day, first visiting jarvis’ grave, putting his favorite flowers, then drinking the day away in the workshop with his bots away from everyone.

Bruce tried to talk him out of drinking and doing something else,staying with the avengers, or just him if tony was not comfortable with that idea.

tony was seriously thinking about it, and decided that yes he should probably stay with bruce at least, he should have thought better.

 today, before going to the cemetery, he went to the kitchen to have some coffee, rogers was already up making breakfast, nothing new.

Tony opted to stay silent, so when rogers asked about his day, tony tried to deflect by cracking a joke, what he wasn’t ready for was steve’s hurting words, tony wasn’t really in the mood, and as steve’s insults grew more cutting, tony held back his tears, and decided to leave, before steve saw that his words affected tony.

He almost ran into bruce in his rush to get away, muttering an apology as he left quickly.

After getting back from the cemetery, tony made JARVIS send another apology to bruce, saying he wanted to stay alone. Bruce sent back a message saying it’s alright, and if tony needed anything to just call, and warned him from drinking too much.

Tony took out his guitar, and started to play hopping to calm down a little.

Tony sighed again, and stood up to put the guitar away, turning around he found rogers standing in the corner. tony couldn’t believe he was so distracted he didn’t hear steve coming, and why didn’t JARVIS inform him, tony looked to one of the cameras, ignoring cap for now.

“I apologise sir, i thought that you wouldn’t mind captain rogers listening to you playing” JARVIS said, sounding regretful, if that was possible for an IA.

“I am sorry tony, i didn’t mean to intrude, i just came here to see if i could borrow some eggs, don’t blame JARVIS, i shouldn’t have eavesdropped like that.”  apologised steve, and wow since when did cap call him tony, it was stark this morning, when he was insulting him again.

Tony stared at the guitar in his hands not knowing what to do or say, now that cap knows his secret, he really doesn’t know what to do, only pepper, rhodey, JARVIS and the bots knew that he sang and played various instruments.

Tony didn’t want to admit it, but he feared cap’s reaction to this discovery, would he think that tony is just showing off, or maybe he didn’t like tony singing at all, and after this morning tony really didn’t want to hear what rogers had to say about it.

“Tony, I...” steve started, but tony interrupted him.

“Look, Rogers, can we pretend that you never heard that, and you just grab what you want from the kitchen and just leave.” tony said, almost pleading.

“No, tony listen..” but tony interrupted him again.

“no rogers, i am done listening to you and your insults, for once just leave me alone, you don’t care, you just see what you want, you all the same, you don’t understand, you never did, SO JUST STOP PRETENDING THAT YOU DO!” tony was yelling by the end of his speech. And tears were streaming down his face.

“j-just, leave me alone, please.” tony pleaded, while turning around to hide his face.

Instead of answering, steve walked around the couch where tony was standing, and hugged him, tony struggled at first, but when he realized that steve wasn’t letting go, he lifted his arms and held steve’s shirt tightly, sobbing all of his pain, jarvis anniversary, steve’s insults.

After a while, tony calmed down, he left steve’s embrace, tony couldn’t look steve in the eyes, afraid of what he will see.

“Great tony , now cap not only think you are spoiled, but also can't control your emotions, get a hold of yourself stark.” tony thought looking at his hands.

“Stop that, i know what you are thinking, look tony i am sorry, this is my fault, yes i don’t understand what is going on, but i am really hoping you explain to me, i know it is too much to ask, and after this morning i wouldn’t want anything with me, but i hope you forgive my ignorance, and tell me.” as steve finished his speech, tony kept looking at him in awe.

“Wait you think of my as your friend?” asked tony staring at steve.

“Yes, best friend actually, i know i don’t show it, but i really care about you, i was hoping we could start a new page, if that’s okay with you.” steve said

When tony stayed silent, steve started to get worried.

Maybe tony didn’t see him as a friend,or he didn’t like him, with what steve said this morning, steve won’t blame him.

“Hi, i am tony stark, pleasure to meet you.” tony said holding his hand for a handshake.

Steve laughed while shaking his hand, “ steve rogers, the pleasure is all mine.”

“so , what do you want to know?” tony asked

“Well, i was hoping you will tell me why you were sad this morning?” steve wondered.

“Today is my family’s butler death anniversary, his name was edwin jarvis.” said tony sadly.

And at this moment steve understood, that was the name of the person tony named his AI after, when steve looked at tony, tony just nodded.

“Tony i am so sorry, i didn’t know” steve apologized.

“Yeah, nobody knows, just you know pepper and rhodey, bruce discovered few days ago.” said tony waving his apology away.

“So really tony, i should have been more considerate, what i did was insensitive.” steve apologised again.

“Look cap, there was no way you would have known this, all is forgiven really.” tony said, “sooo, anything else you want to know.” he continued.

“As a matter of fact yes, tony you have a very beautiful voice, and where did you learn to play like that?” steve asked looking at the guitar that was still in tony’s hands.

“Yeah about that, my mother taught me to play the piano since a young age, and we used to sing together, i really liked music, so i started to teach myself other instruments too, of course behind howard’s back, i play the piano, guitar , the violin in addition to the flute.” tony said blushing at telling his secret that he kept for a long time, wondering what steve will think of him.

“Wow tony, thank you for sharing this with me, i know how much your mother means to you, but i can’t help but wonder why behind howard.” steve couldn’t really understand how howard changed from the man he knew as his friend, to the the neglectful, cold father, tony sometimes mentioned.

“Look cap, i am really not ready to talk about howard, probably never will be, i know he was your friend, but he was different when i was born.” tony sighed not really wanting to go there.

“Right, sorry.” steve said understanding where tony coming from, although he wanted to know more, he didn’t want to push tony, steve just hoped one day tony would tell him more, one his own, but that level of trust is still a long way, but he knows that one day they will get there.

“Hey tony, will you play me something, if it is not any trouble of course.” asked steve shyly.

“sure capsicle,all this emotional talk tired me out anyway, what do you want to hear?” chuckled tony, positioning the guitar in his arms.

“I don’t know really, something like you just played.” said steve

Tony laughed “steve, that was a song from a band i really like.” said tony laughing, “i play yes, but i don’t write songs, not that good really.” he continued.

“Really, i don’t know them, play something for me then from there collection.” said steve confused.

“Yeah sure, then i will introduce you to there music, it is really nice.” said tony  hitting the strings of the guitar.

And they stayed all night, tony playing and steve listening, with a new bond forming between them.