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karma - part eight

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a very special guest here at imola 🐾🐶 baby leo meeting auntie lily and auntie kika for the first time 📸 - francesca.cgomes

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redbullracing pre-race vs post race at imola (charles' version)

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charles_leclerc QUICK SOMEONE SCREENSHOT THIS SHOWING SUKI LIKES ME BEFORE SHE UNLIKES IT!!

sukiwaterhouse it was a slip of the finger lechair charles_leclerc 🫵 caught lacking in 4k!!!

maxverstappen1 where's my version??

redbullracing slow your bulls mr. verstappen, it's coming charles_leclerc you just can't compete with my pretty face. maxverstappen1 they're using you for likes klootzak redbullracing what can we say, the italians love charles leclerc charles_leclerc WOW!! I'M TELLING KIMI! redbullracing boss-man said, 'i don't care. stop bothering me.'

user1 they way the stands were decked in ferrari red but they were chanting and screaming for charles will forever be engraved in my brain

user2 as an italian myself, we may not support red bull but we will 100% throw hands for charles user3 amen sister

user4 the italians once again proven that they will never not be normal about charles leclerc.

olliebearman to quote arthur, 'he's on that king shit’ ❤︎ by redbullracing, natalia_leclerc, sebastianvettel and other

user5 not seb liking that 😂 user6 that's his surrogate son. he'll support when he can.

landonorris i think this might be the first time i've stood on the italian podium and they've cheered so loud for a non-ferrari driver

georgerussell63 haven't you heard? he's their princess diana. alex_albon the italians are feral for charles leclerc charles_leclerc what can i say, i'm just that likeable. carlossainz55 that's debatable landonorris no, please don't do this. i can't be involved in this. natalia_leclerc I KNOW YOUR JOBLESS ASS ISN'T TALKING BITCH!! sukiwaterhouse only i can bully charles! bensantos_ruiz so now that you've lost your seat this is the tactic you're going to use? very mature carlos. carlossainz55 when your brother-in-law can stop hiding behind your 'father' and his little guard dog, i'll be mature. bensantos_ruiz i know the man who constantly hides behind his father and family name isn't fucking talking. it would just be a shame if someone (me) spilled all the gossip on your family, like that pr girlfriend of yours. i know you also didn't insinuate my sister was a bitch, when you're the biggest one of them all.

natalia leclerc added four people

natalia leclerc welcome my children

natalia leclerc + charles

oscar piastri-leclerc oh so he was serious about the adoption thing?

ollie bearman-leclerc they never joke about anything. i told them i didn't want to stay in my hotel for the monaco grand prix weekend and suddenly i'm staying the week with them. charles leclerc you said, 'the bed is going to fuck up my back. it sucks.' charles leclerc and so like the responsible parents we are, we invited you to stay with us.

logan sargeant-leclerc oscar picked the most unserious couple to be his grid parents.

natalia leclerc you're apart of this too florida boy

logan sargeant-leclerc i have grid parents now?? what about jenson??

ollie bearman-leclerc this also means you've gained grid grandpas (nat's dad and a secret second one iykyk) and grid uncles (nat's brother, enzo, and arthur) charles leclerc jenson doesn't count because he's not on the grid anymore. he's like your adopted dad.

ollie bearman-leclerc like seb is with you?

charles leclerc OLIVER!

natalia leclerc no, no, let him speak!! he's right, even my dad think so too!!

oscar piastri-leclerc yeah, even logan and i know that charles

logan sargeant-leclerc this is like oscar denying that mark is his grid dad, or does that not count because mark's not on the grid?

ollie bearman-leclerc see, oscar can't even deny that, we ALL know it's true. ollie bearman-leclerc we've been over this logan, mark is his adopted dad. like jenson is with you. duh.

charles leclerc sebastian is not my grid dad

natalia leclerc charlie, you do not want to start this argument

charles leclerc NAME ONE TIME!!

ollie bearman-leclerc yesterday when sebastian reminded you to have breakfast because you ALWAYS forget natalia leclerc today when sebastian came over with lunch because we didn't have any groceries. natalia leclerc which, for the record we did, but you told me, 'no amour, stay in bed. we can cuddle and order in food.' oscar piastri-leclerc during bahrain when you complained how thirsty you were and seb handed you like three water bottles. logan sargeant-leclerc in australia when you said in an interview that you could go for some tim-tams after the race and seb came back with like 5 packages. oscar piastri-leclerc SEBASTIAN WAS THE ONE WHO STOLE MY TIM-TAMS? FOR CHARLES?

natalia leclerc shall we continue??

charles leclerc non, i get your point.

logan sargeant-leclerc next time make sure we don't have receipts.

oscar piastri-leclerc your other grid parent is lewis, no i will not elaborate.

ollie bearman-leclerc i will. i saw the tweets. kimi giggled when people said he was the brocedes divorce child. so technically you have a half-brother charles leclerc ollie, what on earth are you going on about now?

natalia leclerc obviously the f1 family tree? that we helped start after suki started the rumor that we had a secret child aka oscar

oscar piastri-leclerc so why the heck was i not adopted sooner? i was already being called your child charles leclerc that's because nat kept talking about you to suki and riley when you two met back in 2020.

logan sargeant-leclerc so by association edward cullen knows who oscar is?

ollie bearman-leclerc oh my god, that is so not fair

oscar piastri-leclerc i can't believe you guys care so much about twilight

natalia leclerc it's peak cinema oscar!!

oscar piastri-leclerc that's debatable ollie bearman-leclerc it is not! name another movie soundtrack that hits like crack just like twilight does

charles leclerc were you even born when the first twilight movie came out?

ollie bearman-leclerc i was 3 but that doesn't matter charles! logan sargeant-leclerc i just googled it, and i would've been a month away from turning 8. so how the fuck do you know the release date off the top of your head oliver? ollie bearman-leclerc that's not important logan!

natalia leclerc i will not stand for this twilight slander oscar. i'm calling a movie night. and we're watching twilight

oscar piastri-leclerc can't we watch harry potter instead? i prefer that over twilight.

charles leclerc ME TOO!!

ollie bearman-leclerc this is why suki hates you charles... and nothing will ever top the twilight soundtrack

logan sargeant-leclerc dare i say the hunger games?

ollie bearman-leclerc OH MY GOD! HOW COULD I FORGET??

natalia leclerc and now he's going to talk about how gale should've died instead of finnick for the next 45 minutes. sam had the riveting experience of through a ollie yap session about the hunger games.

logan sargeant-leclerc he's not wrong!! charles leclerc what??

ollie bearman-leclerc FATHER HASN'T SEEN THE HUNGER GAMES??

ollie bearman-leclerc this is embarrassing, we can no longer be related.

charles leclerc I'M SORRY I WAS BUSY RACING AS A TEENAGER OLIVER!!

natalia leclerc booo 🍅🍅!!!

oscar piastri-leclerc something tells me charles lives in a harry potter bubble

natalia leclerc you'd be correct. he was OBSESSED growing up.

charles leclerc lies. i was not obsessed.

logan sargeant-leclerc based on the fact that i can google you and harry potter and find multiple videos of you talking about harry potter and multiple pictures of you in harry potter costumes or poses. i would say, yes, you were obsessed.

natalia leclerc does george still have the picture??

charles leclerc DO NOT SPEAK OF THAT PICTURE!!

ollie bearman-leclerc well no the curiosity is killing me, what is this picture we are speaking of?

charles leclerc mon cœur, please don't do this. natalia leclerc ollie it's the greatest picture ever. i swear you'll love it. i just have to convince george to send it to me. oscar piastri-leclerc i, too, am now curious as to what this picture even is logan sargeant-leclerc my curiosity has also been peaked.

charles leclerc i've been betrayed by my own wife and kids

liam lawson changed ollie bearman's name to ollie bearman-leclerc

ollie bearman-leclerc LMAOOOOOO!!! LEO JUST BIT CHARLES FOR BEING NEAR NAT!!

ollie bearman-leclerc IJBOL!!!

sebastian vettel what the heck do those letters even mean?

liam lawson laughing my ass off and i just bust out laughing

sebastian vettel kids these days will be the death of me.

max verstappen leo is making me proud.

charles leclerc you're just mad that the admins love me more than you.

daniel ricciardo that's because one of you loves media and the other doesn't.

natalia leclerc i don't even know why leo even bit charles.

arthur leclerc ah, this reminds me of the time charles threatened to bite nat's ex-boyfriend.

charles leclerc literally shut up?

yuki tsunoda like father like son

ollie bearman-leclerc i would never bite someone yuki!

ollie bearman-leclerc my brothers logan and oscar would also never do this. i think.

max verstappen you were serious about that?!

charles leclerc of course, they are my sons.

natalia leclerc congrats seb, you're a grandpa of 4!

ollie bearman-leclerc and step-dad of 1 if we count kimi!

ollie bearman-leclerc antonelli not our team principle.

sebastian vettel i really don't want to know

daniel ricciardo trust me, as someone who went down the f1 twitter rabbit hole, you really don't want to know.

liam lawson don't worry seb, we'll ask george to make a presentation so you can understand.

sebastian vettel please don't.

ollie bearman-leclerc too late grandpa.

kimi räikkönen HA!

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natalia leclerc welcome people. i'm pregnant. goodbye.

mark webber why the hell am i here? and how did she get my number?

oscar piastri-leclerc jeez i wonder who could've possibly given her your number.

ben santos-ruiz please tell me charles already knew and this isn't how he found out.

max verstappen based on the way he looks i'm going to say no.

ollie bearman-leclerc I'M GOING TO BE A BROTHER?!

mark webber who's going to tell him? santiago ruiz don't you fucking dare webber. sebastian vettel leave him alone mark.

jenson button congrats?? i'm so confused.

charles leclerc WHERE IS MY WIFE??

oscar piastri-leclerc depends do i get to pass you into turn one tomorrow?? charles leclerc OSCAR JACK PIASTRI-LECLERC!! WHERE IS MY WIFE?

jenson button oh my god. this is the most drama i've been involved in recent years. i love this

ollie bearman-leclerc that's a lie because according to twitter you hate danica patrick. jenson button hate is such a strong word, it's more like dispise.

oscar piastri-leclerc i, hypothetically, saw her run past mclaren and into the mercedes garage.

charles leclerc LEWIS!

lewis hamilton i'm not a snitch.

max verstappen we are now down a driver. i repeat we are down a driver. he just disappeared.

oscar piastri-leclerc maybe i can win tomorrow now.

charles leclerc i hope carlos rams into you tomorrow logan sargeant-leclerc that's not very live, laugh, love of you charles. ollie bearman-leclerc 😧😧

jenson button wait, did she just find out that's she's pregnant?

natalia leclerc well, leo bit charles the other day which i was telling pascale, suki, and riley about and then i started talking about how i was really craving some stroopwafels and my plans to sneak into max's drivers room to steal some, which is weird.

mark webber why is that weird? santiago ruiz she hates stroopwafels... max verstappen which i think is blasphemy, but whatever.

natalia leclerc THEN! i started talking about how emotional i've been lately and how i hate the way fish smells, which is a bummer because i love eating fish.

charles leclerc WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GO?

natalia leclerc AND! according to suki, who just had a baby a few months ago, i was experiencing pregnancy symptoms, so we sent someone out to get a couple pregnancy tests, i took them, and voila!

charles leclerc WOMAN! WHERE ARE YOU?! THIS ISN'T FUNNY!!

logan sargeant-leclerc as apart of my mission of dethroning leo as the favorite child, i come to report she is with lily in alex's driver room, carmen is also with them.

benjamin santos-ruiz natalia, i swear to god if you move from where you're at

natalia leclerc 🫡 staying put, got it.

santiago ruiz i swear i did a better job at raising them.

sebastian vettel we know, they just met charles and went off the walls.

charles leclerc THIS ISN'T MY FAULT.

lewis hamilton kill me now.

ollie bearman no can do grandpa

lewis hamilton i don't think i like you very much bearman. ollie bearman 😧😧

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redbullracing people of the internet, we present to you, your 2024 monaco grand prix winner. CHARLES LECLERC DOES IT!! oh, and did we mention it was a leclerc double podium?

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bensantos_ruiz before someone, the sainz family, says that my dad hates charles or something, please let it be known that my dad hasn't stopped crying since charles won.

maxverstappen1 favoritism, yet again.

redbullracing listen sir, you've got multiple wins in monaco charles_leclerc yeah max, let me shine! maxverstappen1 no ❤️ people will accuse me of going soft. oscarpiastri this coming from the man who cried last night when he realized charles was going to win monaco? liamlawson40 i can't defend you anymore max. danielricciardo YOU WERE THE FIRST ONE TO MAKE FUN OF HIM!!! liamlawson40 eh potato, potahto!

sukiwaterhouse i guess i'm proud of you or whatever

natalia_leclerc you literally cried with me. charles_leclerc admit it, you actually like me! sukiwaterhouse you're growing on me like mold charles_leclerc i'll take it!!

fernandoalo_oficial felicitaciones charles!!

user7 and i guess this is all the conformation we needed to know fernando was team charles and not team carlos user8 please, this old man has been on charles side since he said, 'it is frustrating to give your everything to a team only for you to get nothing in return.' user9 fernando was a lecfosi confirmed.

user10 ABOUT FUCKING TIME THEY GAVE HIM THE WIN HE DESERVED!!

natalia_leclerc words don't even begin to describe how proud i am of you 💙

charles_leclerc je t'aime tellement 💙💙 bensantos_ruiz believe me, he's well aware. the fact that he kissed you with tears running down your face and snot on your nose amazes me. natalia_leclerc the snot part is not fucking true! oscarpiastri slander on mother will not be tolerated olliebearman dishonor on you! dishonor on your cow! logansargeant what they said! bensantos_ruiz oh my god

mrsamclaflin congrats charles!

charles_leclerc thank you sam! olliebearman JUSTICE FOR FINNICK! logansargeant ollie no!

user11 RED BULL MANAGED TO DO WHAT B*NOTTO FAILED TO DO!!

user12 s*inz family found screaming in a ditch somewhere. ♥ by ben_santosruiz, natalia_leclerc, olliebearman and others

user13 the family that likes shady comments stays together user12 currently screaming because they liked my comment but also so true bestie.

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post monaco win duties ❣️ mon amour is a monaco grand prix winner brother is going to regret this tomorrow so much 😂 enjoy it charlie, you only win monaco for the first time once this is not appropriate behavior to have in front of your children!

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¡leclerc-s speaks! i actually don’t know what i’m doing with this story but i’m having so much fun with it either way. the plot of the fic was lost long ago. fun fact: originally i was going to go with a post monaco pregnancy but that was too corny so i decided, what if she just finds out on quali day instead to add to the humor. logan, oscar, and pato are my pookies and i will find a way to include them in any story.

¡disclaimer! this is in no way making assumptions about the people involved in this story, this is all fake. it is a fanfiction please don't take any of what is said seriously. this is all for entertainment purposes and as a creative outlet for me. enjoy!

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🧩🎨☁️🏜️❄️🍬💌🥑

WHOAH WE GOT A BIG ONE HERE

🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

Disclaimer: every piece of fanfiction is a gift from an angel. I love it all, because no matter how cringe or silly it is, the alternative is that fic NOT existing and that is unacceptable to me. That goes for any art.

Okay salty little hater time: Who the fuck started saying "greenette" or "pinkette" to stand in as an indicator for a person with a certain hair color. It is the new "orbs" in fanfiction. I literally have backed out of a fic, walked around a bit, and then gone back in resigned. It's so funny and I actually think of it really fondly, because it's a symptom of fandom the same was all the old fic tropes back in the early 2000's were. But god it even hurt me to write out. Weird formatting and paragraphs breaks I can adjust to pretty easily.

🎨 ⇢ link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it

THIS TAROT SERIES FROM KAYSON (@tangledinink) They picked all of the series perfectly for the cards, they didn't just half heartedly pick the aesthetics that fit, and every single one is absolutely GORGEOUS. The style fits in with the other art/fics perfectly while still having that special little background/detail flair that Kayson likes to use. Fantastic. ('Strength' for LSoW Yoshi was an inspired pick as well. Love it.)

MATCHING BEST IS THIS COMIC by @cool-chocolatebouquet A whole comic! On one of my fave parts of mine and @alicat54cwriting's crossover??? So funny and good.

☁️ ⇢ what made you choose your username?

My username was 'spectralsleuth' for a while because I had thoughts of making a webcomic series about a detective who is dead, and was brain rotted by Homestuck naming conventions. (Which in itself was a satire of early 2000's internet culture, only dramatized.) That never happened, but the name stuck for all my accounts because I'm too lazy to think of a new one.

'audioEidolon' was what I started with on discord forever ago, and I wasn't ever planning to talk to anyone on voice chat because I was shy. (Thus the 'audio eidolon' name.) But I made some really good friends playing DnD and we talk almost every day, and have done for almost seven years now. So I guess my internet nickname will forever be 'Audio' or 'Audi'.

🏜️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

I love comments that pull out a line they specifically liked, or struck them. Maybe it's selfish, but I like seeing the specific things they liked because THAT'S the kind of comment that you think about while writing and forever after. (Despite how nice and easy as generalized comments are. I love all comments!) I even prefer comments that pull a specific line to say they didn't understand it, or noticed it was a little weird or out of place over generic ones, because it shows that they're invested and actually internalizing the writing. In this day and age of bots and AI, it's nice.

❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best?

MAN THIS IS A TOUGH ONE. Every time I think, wow I wish that fic existed, I generally write it myself! I really can't think of anything I've wanted that I haven't at least started to write myself.

🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character

Oh man I don't know if I even HAVE an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character? My 2003 Leonardo opinions are surprisingly rare I think, he's one of my favorite TMNT characters of all time, and I think he and ROTTMNT Leonardo actually have the MOST in common between their counterparts. I never understood those crossovers where Leo and Leonardo were so bewildered by each other.

💌 ⇢ how many unread emails do you have right now? 

ZERO BABEY. So I actually have OCD and notification stress me out really bad. Like make my tummy hurt and I dream about them. This is the notifications for all three of my main email accounts:

Ignore the ranchers I'm too lazy to crop, the photo widget has like 100 pieces of fanart I really like for all my fandoms. (Natural evolution from printing pictures at the school library to put in your see through binder cover)

🥑 ⇢ you accidentally killed somebody, which mutual(s) do you text for help?

@heckitall honestly? Not because we are besties (WE ARE) but I think Heck would have genuine logical knowledge and together we could figure things out and how to hide the body. (Heck hmu I got a job for you.)

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Unicornmachine AO3 Masterlist

Okay I've wanted to make this post forever so here we go~

For starters, absolutely none of these are safe for work, they are all so very explicit, I'm sorry.

Fiolee

OMG did this pairing possess me (and continues to...) there are so many stories I’ve written for them I’m making a read more break here.

Love in the Moonlight

Summary: Fionna the Human drops by the Candy Palace for the Biennial Gumball Ball, but she doesn't get much dancing done as she's approached by Marshall Lee the Vampire King. She hasn't seen him in years, since she's gone off on rumors searching for a new Enchiridion in Aaa and he's been spending his time in the Nightosphere, and wow. He's just as she remembered, down to the incessant flirting. Let's see if he can make good on any of these promises.

First off, okay, let me just say this was my OG Fiolee fic and the first fanfic I had written in well over a decade. I started out like many authors writing fanfics as a teenager but stopped when I started working on original works. I published three OC books IRL and really enjoyed writing them but there's something about writing fanfics that is just... so much more fun to me. I rewatched Adventure Time and remembered how much I always loved the Fiolee pairing, so I tried to look them up on AO3 to read about them... AND THERE WAS HARDLY ANYTHING!

Oh no, I told myself, I will just write one little fanfic for fun, for old times sake! WHAT A LIE THAT TURNED OUT TO BE.

I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I wrote Love in the Moonlight, but I'm so happy I did.

The Deal

Summary: In a moment of desperation Fionna makes a deal with Marshall Lee the Vampire King.

Oh man... The concept of this fic was so undoing to me, a human making a deal with a vampire? A little of their blood in exchange for some necessary help? UGH!!!

A Challenge Between Friends

Summary: In an attempt to win a challenge to scare Fionna, Marshall Lee accidentally takes things too far while exploring a dungeon and loses his grip on himself.

My friend and I were literally feral coming up with the concept of this. I mean... sexy vampire? Dungeon sex? Marshall sucking the red coloring out of Fionna's bra? WHO SITS AROUND AND DISCUSSES THIS STUFF WITH THEIR FRIENDS?! Me, apparently!

Fionna Campbell: Vampire Hunter

Summary: After 1000 years of peace vampire attacks are popping up and it seems a new vampire is preying on the land. Who better to cleanse the land of this new evil than the original vampire hunter, Marshall Lee the Vampire King. He’ll just need some human bait.

This fic... OMG this fic, this fic, this fic... This is probably my favorite story I've ever written. It is so self-indulgent to me and I honestly had so much fun writing it.

The Star

Summary: Fionna travels through the multiverse, to the universe where the vampires won on a mission to retrieve Simone a new crown. While traveling through the wreckage of this strange, new Aaa she meets The Star.

All I could think while watching the Fionna and Cake episode about Marceline becoming The Star was... WHAT IF WE FLIPPED THIS? AND MARSHALL WAS THE STAR? AND HE CAPTURES FIONNA?! hahahahahaha!!!

There are also multiple one-shots and smaller stories on my AO3 featuring this pairing. Love in the Moonlight has a follow up that is still in progress that is linked to the original fic. One may argue this is simply too much Fiolee porn for one person to write. The only thing I can think is... it's never enough.

Huntbunny

Ahhh! This pairing is so cute! I love the idea of Fionna and Hunter Wizard. I haven't written NEARLY enough of these two, but I have more stories in progress.

The Magic Flower

Summary: Fionna runs into trouble deep in a forest on a mission to retrieve a magic flower. Thankfully, someone finds her and helps her out...

So, this story came from a friend sending me some very explicit Huntbunny fanart from the X artist Yakza_draw. I wrote a story to go with the art and sent it to the artist as a thank you for her making such a wonderful work. She ended up becoming a very dear friend of mine, so this fic will always have a special place in my heart.

The Traveling Fountain

Summary: A string of misfortunes leads to Fionna being knocked unconscious and Cake trapped in a moving cave inside an enchanted forest. Hopefully her new friend can help her find a way to rescue her sister and get to the bottom of where all this rotten luck is coming from.

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

And now, it's time.

Day 5: Happy 5 Year Anniversary!

Wow. 5 years. I honestly can't believe that. Oh my GOSH that's long o.o. I went :O when I saw that when seeing advertising for the week.

I love this show so much (ignore me posting and editing to get it here before midnight for me lol). It's absolutely insane how long it's been. I started watching late in November, I believe, maaaaybe early December. We'd talked about getting Disney+, and I knew my family would find it silly but I was intrigued by a show called High School Musical: The Musical: The Series. A crazy title and a weird premise. I said I was just curious, fascinated by it, wondering what it would be like. So, one evening, my sister and I watched it.

We watched the first four episodes and laughed and made fun of it the whole time. But, miraculously, I found myself invested.

And the next episode.

In Season 1 Episode 5, they brought Seb and Carlos to us as a couple. I was shocked and happy, and honestly a little confused. I didn't know I was queer yet. I knew what queer was, had found out from my sibling surrounding some family stuff, but I'd never seen canon queer characters before. I guess I knew I was an ally, even if I didn't totally get why, but it was just so cool to see them. I honestly felt kind of weird because what did two gay high school boys mean to me, I was a straight girl!

Ha.

It wouldn't be for a couple more years that I would realize I was queer. I too fell victim to the "yeah, but I'm just an ally" trap lol. But I seriously fell in love with them. I remember my sibling and I loving how cute Carlos's little dance was, how excited he was. How devastated and in denial we were when Seb didn't show up. And how much we loved it when Carlos danced, and when Seb did show up :').

That solidified the show for me. That made me stay. They made me stay. They've meant the world to me ever since.

And since then, I have seen 33 amazing, wonderful episodes (just like the 5 before them lol). I've been angry, I've been sad, I've been in awe, I've been happy. I've seen myself represented not just in queer characters, but in theatre kids. In kids who are lonely and find family there. In kids who lived in a shadow, who were shy, who were thrust in and trusted by their teacher and director.

This show is silly. It does silly things, it has silly performances, it has silly jokes, silly unlikely things happen, and it's a silly premise. But I absolutely love it. I realized one day, after having seen someone mention "the One show that changed them forever", that mine was High School Musical The Musical The Series. Sounds silly, and I had to think about some of my more recent shows to figure it out. But it is. I remember scrolling through the tag, searching Seblos, before I even made a Tumblr account. Seeing things first after the finale of Season 1, deleted scenes pictures of Carlos giving Seb flowers. So many important moments for me were taken alongside step with HSMTMTS. Even though I barely post about it anymore (because so many interests catch my attention and I don't usually have much to say about it off the top of my head), it's still the 4th top "Posts a lot about" when you go to search on my blog. I think that says something. And I'm proud of it.

I haven't had a lot of interaction with the fandom during my time here, especially while the show was still running (and because I mainly stay in the Seblos tag, especially with remembering scrolling through all the Driver's License stuff before and when it first came out lol), but everyone means so much to me. Especially everyone still posting, still creating now. The fanfics, the art, the edits, and gifsets, everything is so important to me, and everything else. Thank you all <3. And thank you, when I did come, for being such an accepting place (at least the places I went to). Thank you guys for sticking around through this show, and even for just being here for a little while. Thanks for sticking with me, those that have :). And the friends I've made from this fandom and this show - you mean the world to me <3. Thank you all so much for everything you've done, everything that's made this show even more enjoyable :'). I love you all so much ❤️.

I love High School Musical: The Musical: The Series. And I'm proud and happy I do :).

Happy 5 Year Anniversary 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥰🥰🎊🎊🎉🎉🎂🎂🎂!!!!

[solarnomy]

hello. hi.. um. (yes, i DO say 'um' and stuff through text ironically. i doNOT know why.) im kinda new to tumblr (now, that's a half-lie, i have used tumblr for a while now, just never posted!) so here's an attempt to make a pinned!!.., feel free to give me tips.. im dumb. um press more and stuff to learn about me!! im cool!! so please do it?

hihihi, im solarnomy (or solar, and galxxy on SOME occasions. ) i'm (currently) into minecraft (may or may not have got it on some freaky virus-filled website, it's cause im poor okay. mc is 'expensive' where i live!) oh!!! and i go by she/they (or literally any NON-MASC pronouns! i don't really mind.)

i post art (sometimes, if i don't procrastinate!),, uh edits (i probably won't due to fear..... cause im still ass at editing and stuff), and maybe, if i don't suddenly go like "oh god, what if i post this and everyone hates it and im hated forever??", maybe-just maybe, ill ramble and yap about something im currently hyperfixated on..

(press more to learn more COOLER and EPIC stuff about me! hopefully i won't mess this up and make a mockery of myself.. ahh)

I WATCH MOSTLY UHH, kenadian (wow, really?), wato1876, avatardotpng, and SOME lifestealers!! yeahhhahahah (squiddo.... and uhhhhhhh squiddo.... OH PARROT.. if he counts... uhhhhh) and, here's some other content creators that i watch (but not as much as the ones i just said haha); wifies, astrangecreator, boosfer, ivory, sleepycross!!

and some non-minecraft content creators i watch!!!!! >>> danny gonzalez, itsfunneh/krew, kubz scouts, laurenzside, manlybadasshero, rednasyo!!

now.. onto the fandoms im into/games i play!! (yipee)

- minecraft... (wow, really?)

- genshin impact..... (barely play it nowadays)

- hsr (same as genshin, i barely play it)

- rusty lake (i haven't played all of the games yet :'D)

- ex pjsk player... (im trying to start playing it again!!)

- musedash!!!!!!!!!!!

- death pallette- pallet? oh god i can't spell palletetsteteay.

- nso/needy streamer overload

- roblox. (donate robux, please?)

and more that i probably forgot, but when mentioned, ill go "OH MY GOD? YOU KNOW THAT TOO?"

more about me, im a MINOR?!?!?! gasp??!!! shokerz, man! im usually busy with school... but on weekends, i get freaky... /joke

dnis are probably weirdos... uhhh, homophobes and stuff... urrmm, idrk.. just mind your business and i won't bother you!! likeee if you no bother me!! i cool!! uhh,,!

funfacts about me??? uhh, i have a wife!! (love her sm!!) and im really cool cause i speak a lot of languages (not really, it's 2 and a half... and a ⅛... haha.... yeah)

okay,, that's probably it!! i spent TOO LONG on this!! oh and, feel free to send me reqs and stuff!! im open!!!

oh ya tags n stuff

#solarnomy777 = my really cool art

#solarnomy999 = random yapping

#solarnomy671 = answering stuff ^_^

[howlingday]

A Terrible Choice

"Alright, I'm heading to bed." Emerald said, getting up after a long time sitting on the couch. The others were watching something she didn't really care about, but she didn't feel like sitting around in her room. "G'night."

"Good night!" Everyone else called, with only one of them filled with enthusiasm. Oscar watched her as she left for her room, letting out a sigh as he laid back with half-lidded eyes.

'Another night, another echo of affection unanswered.' Ozpin said with his own brand of sarcasm.

'Can't you let a guy dream?' Oscar replied in his head.

'Only when you are sleeping. And even so, this is a terrible nightmare that you refuse to wake from. You do realize that it's only a matter of time until you fade away.'

'Don't remind me.' Oscar slumped. 'What should I do?'

'Forget about Ms. Sustrai and focus on yourself.'

'I mean about dating Emerald.'

'I know what you meant.'

'Come on, Ozpin, haven't you ever been in love?'

'I believe we no longer need the Relic of Knowledge to know that answer.' Oscar groaned.

"Everything okay, Oscar?" Ruby asked. "Is the movie getting to be too much for you?"

"No, I'm just... talking with Oz, y'know?"

"Oh. About what?"

"Trying to watch a movie here!" Nora yelled, making the movie even more unheard.

"Sorry!" Ruby squeaked, then shifting to a whisper. "What were you arguing about?"

"Uh, well... Hey, Ruby, had did you know Whitley liked you?"

"Well, he did tell me, but... He also picked me a bouquet of roses after I helped move Weiss' stuff into her office. He said it was just a thank you, but I could tell it was him telling me he liked me." She giggled. "Guys usually don't know how obvious they are."

"Huh..." Oscar considered what Ruby said. Was he oblivious to how obvious he looked to Emerald? If so, then why didn't she respond to him?

'Because she's expecting you to grow out of it.'

'I wasn't asking you.' Ozpin rolled his eyes. How? Oscar just knew.

"Well, I gotta go use the bathroom." Ruby said, leaving Oscar to sit and think on this debacle.

He could ask the others, but it would probably draw too much undue attention on himself, and if word got to Emerald, he might actually lose her forever. He had to really think. He couldn't solve this alone, but he also couldn't ask the others. Wait... What if-

'No.'

'Please, Ozpin! This could be my only chance at love!'

'Or it could be a disaster, like my own love story.'

'I won't make the same mistake as you did!'

'Obviously, because it's not going to happen.'

'Ozpin... Please...'

'...Very well. I suppose this will put an end to your pestering.'

'Great! So, uh, what should I do?' Oscar quickly amended his statement. 'That ISN'T giving up.'

'I wasn't going to suggest that.' He totally was, Oscar knew. Or he was at least thinking it. 'I suppose if there is any advice I can give on the matter, I would suggest doing something nice for her.'

'Something nice?'

'Something that proves your concern for her is beyond that of a normal friendship. For example, shortly after rescuing Salem, she and I rested for a night at an inn. I was about to go to bed when I heard her whimpering in her sleep. So, I posted myself outside her door until she awoke the next morning, ensuring her safety.'

'Wow, that's... That's really good.'

'A knight such as myself must always be chivalrous.'

'Okay. Okay! I'll do something like that!' Oscar beamed from ear to ear. 'There's no way this could go wrong!'

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"What are you doing outside my room?" Oscar flinched as he turned around to find Emerald looking down at him, her red eyes narrowed on him. His throat dried and he could feel his palms soak with sweat while his heart thundered in fear, rather than the usual admiration while looking at her. "Well?"

"I... was keeping you safe?"

"Safe from what?" Her gaze intensified less.

"Well, uh, I was just trying to do something nice and-"

"So you were standing outside my room like a creep?"

Oscar's eyes shot wide open as he threw up his hands in front of him. He tried to get the words out, but his tongue tripped over itself, and he babbled for a bit until she covered his mouth with her hand.

"Okay, here's what's going to happen. First, I'm going to tell you why you're a creep." He gulped. "I don't need somebody standing outside my door. If anything, I feel even more unsafe knowing that you're standing out here. Also, the fact you think I need someone to protect me really pisses me off."

"I... I was just being nice..." Oscar mumbled out. He felt like he was going to cry.

"You were being a creep." The word stung even worse the second time he heard it. She sighed. "Look, you're a nice... guy, but I don't need somebody treating me like a kid. Maybe next time you wanna be nice to me, buy me a soda, or something. Don't stand around outside a girl's room like some pervert." She slipped past him. "I'm gonna get a drink. You are gonna go to bed, right?"

"Yeah..." He muttered. "G'night, Emerald."

"G'night." He turned away and shuffled down the hall to his room.

'Great. Now I have to make double-lock my doors.' She shook her head. 'I don't know where he got this idea from, but wherever he got it from needs to get out of his life fast.'

[whatifyoulivelikethat]

I just wanted to drop in and say I’ve been a silent (but avid) reader and fan of your works for years now and I’m always so awestruck by the way you craft raw and tangible emotion into subtle and understated scenes and stories. I started reading your works with mango at a point in my life that it resonated so deeply and gave me such comfort and made me FEEL in all the ways that art should make you feel. More recently I found myself coming back to fanfiction after a pause specifically to read your works and came across Never Not Mine and it was a beautiful thing to come back to the same masterfully crafted words that display such tough emotions in a way that makes them feel okay. I am forever wowed by your art and I thought I should let you know that your writing has genuinely stuck with me through years and helped me take steps towards accepting myself in ways that only the authors that are widely considered to be prolific have done. From one artist to another I felt it was important to express my deep admiration for your art and I hope that you are doing well and enjoying your creations ☺️🫰🏼

Thank you very much for taking your time to craft this message for me. I appreciate each and every one of you that send me a message to express your thoughts to me (I don't post them very often since, well, its kinda arrogant, no?), but I did want to reply publicly because that the way you feel after reading my writing is the reason why I continue to write on this blog.

I'm not asking for every reader who reads my stuff to think, "damn that BTS smut changed my life" (would be hilarious though XP), but at the very least I would like us to think a little more deeply about ourselves and each other. Relationships are simple and complicated at the same time. Understanding yourself means you can better understand others, especially the people you love. I put a lot of consideration and deliberation I put in these stories. Dialogue is always carefully thought about. Even into the use of particular words, syntax, and down to the specific adjectives chosen. Some people have picked up on some, and some fly completely under the radar. I'm aware these efforts could be considered a fool's errand (it is fanfiction, people have their opinions about it), but I believe all these details subconsciously fill in an entire picture, and grant the ability to go back and find new details or subtext that you haven't considered before.

Rather than giving answers, I want my work to help you ask questions. About yourself. About the world. About the way you want to live. I'm very glad to hear you've come to accept yourself more and I'm grateful that my works have been part of your journey. Years, omg, that's right, I have been on here for years now.

It's Min Yoongi's fault.

Blame him.

and yet I've written so much JK, you think, maybe, I have an obsession with yoonkook or something, nah, that's crazy ahahahahaha please don't tell them they're not gonna find out... I think.

[pocket-lin]

hii <3

4, 11, 16 and 19 for the fandom asks??

(almost just wrote a plea for you to answer all of them but managed to restrain myself😅)

hi hi hi!! thank you for asking me these, this is so much fun!! reading back on these answers after I've written them is shocking because I really can just go on and on about stuff, huh? I really don't talk that much irl so I didn't know I had all this in me hahaha I'm so sorry!! I'm actually so embarrassed 😅 I'm gonna put the answer to 11 in a separate post so I can actually attach the picture I'm proud of!

4. say something nice about a ship you don't ship (it can be another ship in your fandom, a mutual's OTP, etc)

the one ship that's jumping out to me is dramione. I am a huge hater of this ship (sorry sorry sorry if you're reading this and it's your thing I love you and support you!!!) but you guys make some really cool shit and I'm happy you have a community you can share it with!! I've poked around in the ao3 and tumblr tags and its absolutely not for me, but there's some really beautiful and horny stuff out there for this ship and I so genuinely love that for all of you!

16. a tiny detail in canon that you want more people to appreciate

if I'm being totally honest with you, I haven't interfaced with the harry potter canon in a very long time. i already own all the movies and books and stuff, so I wouldn't even be giving jk money by rewatching/reading them, but it just kind of makes my stomach hurt when I think about supporting her in some way. I've had to work through a lot of complicated feelings in regards to jk and harry potter in general, as I'm sure many people have had to do! her words and actions and how I feel about it are not complicated at all, but what to do in the aftermath of it was something I had to figure out. I mean, I have a hp tattoo on my ankle!! my pinned post is about this specifically, but where I've ultimately landed on it all is this: I don't want to let her steal any more joy from me than she already has. there are so many queer and trans people in this fandom creating such incredible stuff, and I just don't want to lose that! I got off on a whole tangent here and definitely have a lot more I could say on the topic, BUT all this to say, I can't really think of tiny hp details anymore!! and in this specific fandom, I'm totally okay with that!

19. your current fandom(s)

the fandom that I interact with the most is definitely harry potter, but I have a bunch of other stuff I'm super into!!

the whole reason I got back into any fandom–and the entire reason I logged back into Tumblr for the first time since 2018–was because of our flag means death!! I've loved rhys darby since flight of the conchords and was so pumped that he was a lead in an hbo show! I was totally shocked when ofmd turned out to not be queerbait!! something about that first season just flipped a switch in me and I looked for fan fiction for the first time in like, 10 years!! I actually didn't even know about ao3 and tried to go to ff.net and it was a whole thing. getting back into fandom was very intimidating, I'm not gonna lie. (wow I really could just talk forever huh?)

my other fandoms are: the sandman, the witcher, good omens (I was so late to that show but jumped on right before the second season completely on accident), check please!, disco elysium, red dead redemption (especial rdr2), the x files, the walking dead, the rivers of london series, and d&d: honor among thieves.

and then there's some stuff that I don't even know how I got into!! like, the spideypool ship. gang, I've barely seen any marvel movies, I haven't read very many marvel comic books. and I honestly don't plan it because I just don't like marvel (once again, could go on about this forever, I was a manager at my local comic shop and have many opinions). but someone I follow posted about a fic (and I am not immune to beautiful fan art) and then I fell down the rabbit hole!! def have recs if anyone is interested!

another one is the ted lasso fandom. I genuinely don't remember why we never finished watching the second season but then the reviews for the third season was kinda mixed so I never went back to it. and then I saw a writer I'm head over heels for had a ted lasso fic (other lives by @andthepeople) and WHOOPS I fell down another rabbit hole!! i also have ted lasso recs!

essentially, if ya boy's read/watched/listened to something, you know he's gonna go look at what the freaks (affectionate) are posting on ao3.

[polaroidcats]

I assume that you have emotional attachments to objects (because of the print you love) and so have a favourite book which you know you will never read again but can’t throw out (and what is it if I’m right?) ❤️❤️

Hi Rory!!! 💖

oh wow everyone is nailing it with these, you are so, so correct!!!!

My inability to get rid of things I have emotional attachments to definitely applies to books, here is an incomplete list of books I will likely never even read or reread but also will never be able to give away:

My Gregor the Overlander books!! I knew Suzanne Collins mostly from these books and when Hunger Games came out/became popular I tried to tell all my friends about this series because I loved it so much when I was 10-12 years old!! And my first internet name was "Boots" because of the younger sister in that book, I loved her so much. And I don't see myself rereading them anytime soon but I have so many fond memories of absolutely devouring and rererererereading them as a preteen so they will stay forever!

"Die Geschwister Apraksin" by Karla Schneider, this was also one of my fave books when I was around 12-13, I don't remember much, except that it was about 5 orphaned siblings during or after the Russian revolution, and it absolutely broke my heart and I cried more than I had ever cried before when reading a book. I don't even think it was a particularly sad book, I think it just made me very emotional for some reason, to imagine these kids' lives and their struggles. And I read it as part of my local bookstore's initiative where they let kids borrow and read the advanced reader copies of books, and then we wrote little reviews that would get posted on a pinboard at the store. So when I had to give the book back (in order to borrow a new book, it was like a little library system within the bookstore), I immediately asked the bookseller if they had the book in stock because I wanted to buy it with my pocket money, but they only had the paperback and (again) I had gotten so attached to the hardback one and the bookseller could tell how much the book meant to me so she just gifted me the copy I had just returned, the one I read, and that meant so much to me, to get to keep the physical copy that I actually read and not have to buy a new version.

Herzen, Hände und Stimmen by Ian McDonald - I have never read this book, idek what it's about but from the book cover I assume it's scifi. I did an exchange semester in France as a teenager, and my host family didn't speak any german but somehow they got this random (thrifted) german book and they gave it to me bc I speak german. And I've never been that much into scifi but the gesture was so sweet and I have so many nice memories of my time with them, so even though I will probably never read that book I will also never give it away.

A complete translation from Vergils Aeneid with the latin and german text side by side. I did Latin in school, and for our final exams we all had to pick one specialized subject we would have an oral exam on, and my specialized subject in Latin class was the 6th book of the Aeneid, so even though I barely remember any Latin and will definitely not reread that for fun, I enjoyed it back in the day and will never get rid of that book.

I have a book on erotic dream interpretation, idk if that fully counts into this category, but my friend and I saw it when my uni library (!!) had a thrift sale of their old books, and that book was so hilarious, I had to get it and then for a while whenever I had people come over to my flat to pregame I would ask them about their dreams and would then very professionally interpret them with my book. This one might not fully count bc I'm not ruling out that I will never do that again but I haven't looked at it in a long time but would never get rid of it because it's too iconic haha

Okay this got way too long so I'm stopping now, but yeah hahaha you were so correct with this one 😂

make an assumption about me!

[thecoolerliauditore]

hey why does third life Cleo need to be put in the shredder ?

genuine question by the way, I don't think I have seriously thought about third life Cledubs ever

girl help I forgot I made that post so I was just staring at that first sentence for way too long like. does she.

but uh yeah disclaimer or whatever that on this blog specifically I tend to speak more hyperbolic and don't care to fact check myself because like 99% of the time I just write words and leave. I haven't necessarily like. looked back at any of my own posts a day or so later and gone "wow okay that's just incorrect" but I do acknowledge that like. I'm really letting the interpretation/headcanon lines blur over here at times and sometimes I'll just say shit. so yeah blah blah blah none of this is gospel everything with a grain of salt etc etc

anyway cleo in the life series in general drives me a bit insane because like 85% of the time they are really cool and awesome and funny and my favourite guy but then there's the 15% of time she shares onscreen in an extended conversation with scott smahor and she suddenly becomes like. genuinely the worst person alive to me I want her prosecuted jailed death penalty'd.

In third life specifically she makes an alliance with scott behind bdubs' back called the "widows alliance" which was based on a promised partnership after their respective partners (bdubs and jimmy) died before they did. Which is like. One of the things I am mad forever about people suddenly deciding everything is Silly when it comes to the guys doing horrible shit because what the fuck, man.

I guess there is an argument to be made for the level of seriousness on Cleo's side because unlike Scott we don't get any indication that she like. genuinely expects to outlive bdubs. And she could very much just be saying words for the sake of it or have yet to completely grasp the concept of "permadeath" (like many others) but I'm still mad. Very happy she ate shit and died right after Jimmy. I'm sorry women.

I would have to rewatch 3L from cleo's POV to say this with confidence but I would also like to add that from what I recall she was also somewhat? dismissive of bdubs the whole time even though a lot of the heavy lifting in their partnership was done by him. BUT in cleo's defense she was distrusting of essentially everyone in 3L and kept everybody at arm's length ++ I'm willing to attribute this more reflective of Cleo's running theme of being insecure in her own abilities than any sign that she thinks lesser of Bdubs specifically.

Post-3L Cleo is epic and awesome in Last Life as byproduct of the fairy fort being epic and awesome and even when she eventually joins GGG it's fine because LL!Scott is the only instance of Scott feeling human emotions in this series but ohhh my god DL Cleo is a whole beast of her own I could write essays upon essays on how DL Cleo is the worst guy ever this mf sets a little puppy dog on FIRE and no one ever mentions it I'm angry forever about it.

Everything limited life onwards is fine she chills out super hard about the not trusting people thing and limlife cleo specifically is really really funny even if she would still stab bigb to death with a kitchen fork if given the opportunity. Her relationship with Bdubs is pretty much un-weirded in my head I don't think they were like. Awful in 3L even I just think that Cleo has issues with relationships in general and self-sabotages alot due to her own insecurities and so she ends up doing alot of fucked up insane person things despite not really being. Bad herself if that makes sense?

Very very shy little endnote it's also like. Interesting to me that Cleo and only Cleo refers to the 3L Cledubs partnership as like. Romantic in any sense. Cleo uses terms like "husband" very generously so I'm willing to give them the benefit of the doubt here and say it means fuck all but idk idk something about the way Bdubs never reciprocates and instead assigns himself her son the next time they end up together is really funny to me.

Anyway yeah whatever. the shredder.

[noblehcart]

because its my blog and i can post what I want and so here's ZARA'S TOP TEN LIST OF FAVORITE BOOKS below the cut and with a very brief discussion on why.

Phantom of the Opera by Gaston Leroux This book was one of the first books that really truly catapulted me back into reading as a young adult (the first being A Winter's Tale) and I remember sitting up and crying at 2am in my bed as I finished this book just sobbing and if i'm honest ? Feeling so ashamed that I take my normal life for granted. I have never had such a reaction to a book before and honestly I don't think I ever will again in such a resounding way. For me this is not a love story its a story about humanity and our relationships with each other.

Phantom by Susan Kay This book comes second because I don't have the same emotional connection as I do to the original but hands down in reading a book cover to cover and returning to reread snippets I have read this book so MANY times my god. I always go back to this book when I'm bored or need to revisit a friend. This book is definitely flawed and its got its issues but its one of my all time favorites and I'm so glad to have like three copies (hardcover, pdf and kindle) so its always on hand. I love the depth and exploration for Erik and what shaped him and his life and the people around him and how they were affected by him. Like wow. Its just a book I will always have on my shelf forever till I die.

The Scarlet Pimpernel by Baroness Orczy Its just so good and I don't know why more people haven't read it. Its the beginning of the creation of superheroes and double identities and it has a FEMALE LEAD. The entire book is in the POV of the brilliant and beautiful Marguerite and honestly if I had known years back that it was from a female pov I'd have gotten into it much MUCH sooner. Its dynamic, the characters are so good and the villain is so deliciously good at being bad. I loved the movie, but the book just captured my heart because Margot is this wonderfully clever but soft heroine that just speaks to me.

Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo WHAT can I even say about this duology other than the characters are flawless and by that i mean they are so flawed and relatable and complex. Its a wonderful book of found family and slow burns and enemies to lovers with fantastic representation. I absolutely couldn't make myself get into S&B but you can pry the crows from my cold dead hands because I adore them and go back to reread this series all the time!

The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova This is also a big reread for me, but mostly I go back and reread sections that interest me most but the entire book is just gold. Its just MINDBLOWING that we never know the main heroine's name which is just shocking, but we never needed it or would've noticed if it wasn't pointed out. Its this complex beautifully woven story with history, globetrotting, mystery, suspense and some thrilling aspects that I just love love about it. This is the book that sent me down the Dark Academia rabbit hole guys.

The Golem & Jinni by Helene Wecker This book honestly is on par with The Historian for me because the pacing is very much the same and it took me a bit to read it as did the The Historian, but man am I glad that I did because its complex, its such a human story told in such a supernatural fun way that's just thrilling in a slow build sort of way that ends beautifully and I can't wait to start on the second book soon! The character development and the world building just really draws you in and makes you forget your current time to be absorbed into theirs and its brilliant.

The Invisible Life of Addie Larue by V.E Schwab I'll be honest and say that this book almost didn't make the list because at first I didn't think the book was as good as the hype, but upon looking back and rereading snippets again and rereading the ending more thoroughly- my god, this book is definitely going to be a CLASSIC. Its beautifully written and one of the books I made myself slow and savor each word and sentence as it wove the magic over the years of addie's life. Its a VERY good book that I'd definitely recommend to anyone and everyone. Addie has grown on me in such a different way and I love love her.

Entwined by Heather Dixon THIS is one of my all time childhood/youth/teen favorites. Yes its YA and yes it might be a little boring to the adult reader, but its one of my absolute favorite retellings of the 12 Dancing Princesses. I still go back and reread it because its that good and has a special place for me. The villain and world building is so good and easy to follow along. Its fantastic and I'd go back and reread this book over and over again. Its great if you love magic, sisters, princesses, unexpected love, dancing and magical objects.

Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte This is on the list because I remember loving reading the story in highschool and feeling so connected to Jane and now as an adult I love her even more for her actions and choices. Its one of the first classic books I ever bonded over with my brother on and so that in itself is a miracle. Jane just has a special place in my heart for the romance, the mystery, the dynamics and the characters and their development is just absolutely wonderful with a fantastic ending. Can't really ask for more.

The Book of Esther I have done and read and watched nearly everything I can find on the book of Esther, which is kinda the oddball on this list because its a book in the Bible, but its still a book in my definition. Its just such a beautiful story of overcoming oppression, tragedy, fear, genocide and this beautiful painting of faith in terrifying times. The twists and turns and thrills and complexities that come with this story before and after if you know the history and its setting- Persia (-gestures to Kay's Phantom-) just absolutely has me fascinated. There's also the aspect that just maybe the 1001 Nights are inspired or based off the story of Esther just absolutely delights me with its fantastic similarities because I adore that story just as much as this one. I love Esther's bravery, courage, wisdom and discernment and she's absolutely one of my heroines IRL that I look to.

Honorable mentions:

I, Strahd by P. N. Elrod - The only reason this isn't in the top ten is because it reads sO MUCH like Kay's Phantom that if I had to chose one of these it'd be Phantom, but this book was so good and really helped get me back into reading during one of my many many slumps. It was a great blend of myth, royalty, supernatural and tragedy that I've reread it a few times already recommended it to a LOT of my friends.

Wintersong by S Jae-Jones- The only reason why THIS one didn't make the ten list is simply because I already have ten and because it would be between this and Jane Eyre and lbh Jane Eyre is almost the perfect book. It was a toss up of faerie girls and Miss Eyre won it because she really was my first classical book love.

Wildwood Dancing by Juliet Marillier THIS BOOK omg its another 12 Dancing Princesses retelling and its so beautifully and wonderfully crafted in its world building and the magic and the everything of it. ITS SO GOOD and tbh I'd definitely recommend this book more to the adult reader than I would Entwined, but- BUT it didn't make the list because I would personally pick up Entwined far more often and remember the characters far more than I did in this book. It is a very very good book and I also highly recommend you read it if you like retellings, vampires, fae complexities and a blending of fairytales.

ACOTAR by SJ Maas- I did really enjoy reading this series but it is definitely not one of my top faves because its really only the last two books (not the novella) that I actually devoured. Its a good series and I def recommend reading it because its almost worth the hype but my quibble here is that I could EASILY slip out of that world/the books never absorbed me like others have. Also I didn't care for the main heroine shhh don't come after me guys.

A Voice in the Wind by Francine Rivers So this book was a toss up between it and Esther and it was a TOUGH one because I do go back and reread this trilogy at least 2-3x a year, but I do reread and study and think a lot more about Esther so it lost out in that competition spot. But its an excellent series and the first two books just have my heart for the romance and the intrigue going on during this time period. Its a wonderful slow burn though I'll admit the third book is slightly out of pocket, but still so good that I had to make pinterest boards about this series.

Eye of the Red Tsar by Sam Eastland THIS book is so so SO GOOD if you're into reading about the Romanovs and Russia shortly after that. The entire series is so so good and I normally don't like mystery and thriller plots but this book does have a special place for me, but was beat out by the golemn & the jinni. Pekkala is fascinating and the people and cast he meets along the way just build up in such a delightful way.

The Holy Thief by William Ryan Again this only got beat out by The Historian by a margin because vampires, but The Holy Thief oh my god is very much on par with the Eye of the Red Tsar because its the same time period and magnetic energy. I was so invested in this book and its characterse and it might be due to my love of all things Romanov/Anastasia musical wise, but it was so good and I highly recommend it. I wept, I laughed, I sat on the edge of my seat it was a great read.

The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran This is a recent read and like wow...it just really blew my mind and touched me in a way I don't usually get outside of my belief system and IDK but this book is everything and more than the hype and the only reason its not on the list is because it didn't quite beat out Esther for me but its such a good book.

Tagging you because I would love to see everyone's Top 5 or 10 favorites : @walkingshcdow, @myhiraeth, @kingmakercastle, @demonstigma, @historiavn, @swede, @lordofthestrix, @fasciinating, @reverdies, @ensnchekov, @malka-lisitsa, @paramounticebound , @delanuit, @starlsssankt, @aigonakru

[unveiled-if]

Sorry for the radio silence!

A... Lot has been going on. Idk if I've ever told this but I work two jobs at the moment, one as a restaurant manager and other within the navy, and it's grinding me to the ground. I have exactly 1 day off during the week and that's spent sleeping and crying, you'll know more as you read. If you don't, I get it. It's a bit of a downer post.

But working is fine! I like being a busybody, and I love working for both places. BUT.

My back/leg/hip/lumbar's given out. I don't know if it's the worst case of sciatica known to mankind or what, but it's been going on since last November and getting worse by the day. I'm 25 and looking at a future in early retirement (AT UNDER 30), it's that bad, and even worse for my psyche. Painkillers don't help (prescription/OTC, what have you), muscle relaxants don't work, physio doesn't work, one doctor even injected some cortisone for a whole separate issue and wow, surprise, that didn't work. I'm so close to going to the ER and asking for an amputation at this point.

Now, I know sharing this is kinda TMI, but I feel like you deserve a reason, the transparency why I haven't gotten around to posting lately. I've just been working (literally) through the pain, gone home, ugly cried from the agony, and passed out just to repeat the whole shebang.

And I can't not work. I'm so deep in debt, you know, in Finnish standards. I know 13k is nothing compared to some, but here it's a lot if I can't keep working.

I'm sorry for oversharing, but this is my reality right now, and I'm at my wit's end. I can't sleep, I can barely get out of bed. I can't tie my shoes. I can't pick up my niece, and I can't go out to spend time with my friends without almost overdosing on painkillers just to move. Sometimes only alcohol helps, and I don't want to do that because of the addiction running in my genes.

I want to scream and cry and leave this body for a better one, but I can't, and if this keeps going I won't be able to do anything and it scares the shit out of me.

I know the doctors are doing their best, but of course there's bias when I'm so young. We have to go through all the plausible treatments before surgery is even considered. Plus, I'm from a tiny town. Getting an appointment takes months, and then it's the same things all over again.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not giving you the updates you deserve. I still listen to music that inspires me, and I do write down ideas, but I can't bring myself to write more than a paragraph, once a week.

I'm sorry for not interacting or being as chipper as I usually am. It's just too much for me to handle all at once, I am but one creature.

But I'll try to keep up a positive outlook. Finland is a good country, with good healthcare, and I trust them to help me so I can keep paying taxes haha.

Sorry for a long, useless post, but you deserve to know. And maybe I needed to get it off my chest. My family is already tired of listening to me complain anyway.

Love y'all forever 💜

[buglyknight]

338) The Trunk

My chest is tight

Overloaded heart on stimulants

Every time I leave you it is as if a year has passed

Chasing fresh memories as if looking through stained glass

A hazy fog of chemical love

I talk to God again on the walk back to my car

We're in this one deep, huh, you fucking cunt

I'm going to tear you from heaven

And beat you with my own two hands

Is everything predetermined?

If you knew all of me would you be able to know

I would continue choosing you?

I sprint under the lamp post again

We walk to the car

You yell at me as I set everything up

Playfully, of course

I climb in the trunk with you

You are the greatest feeling in the world

How long was a smile plastered on my face?

Until my cheeks grew sore and still I smiled

Oh, sweet everything of mine, touch me more

Watch my skin react as you melt me

Abs and chest tensing

Deep breaths as if I could engulf the feeling into my lungs

Leave me fluttering

Eyes unfocused as I come to

Blink the feeling away

Come back and I see your face

Looking at my body

Eye contact

You lean in, try to peer at me in the shadows

In these moments I really feel as if it's just us

That you are mine

I am becoming more deluded

But God, do I wish it was you

Every day waking up to this

You stare at the plate in your hand

As if to dare the noodle to fall

And it does, as if in protest to your glare

I am a fly on the wall, here

I love watching you for hours

We talk in the car for a bit after your shift

I am exhausted, can you tell?

Yet you light that fire in me, still

You teach me how to play rummy in the trunk

I crush you three times in a row!

DO NOT MESS WITH ME!

YOU WILL NOT DEFEAT ME!

I stare at you as you shuffle the cards

Are you doing the same when I do?

Isn't this so cruel?

Am I digging a grave

Or bathing in heaven's grace

Which answer is worse?

Which one of us will leave first?

When will the light fade?

Or the dirt smother me, permanently?

You can't focus when I massage your back

Are you melting?

Your eyes flutter when I play with your hair

Is my touch too much?

Relax into my hands

I want to make you feel amazing

Let me touch something as beautiful as your skin

Let me feel like I can be good

Your legs are sore, but you won't let me touch them

Won't you let me make you feel better?

You are worth the weight of the world

I will carry the sky for you

Won't you let me show you?

Unconditional love.

Perhaps, it feels like that

Maybe there is a condition somewhere I haven't found yet

I suppose I was trying to, once

In ten years I haven't found one

You tell me to keep my hands to myself

I don't have to massage you

Of course not, I know that

I want to, so badly

But you say it's enough

So I resist touching you

Keep my hands to myself

You set them aside

And you melt me with yours

I hastily take off my shirt

Please, touch my skin

I want to feel it

Do you have fun with me at your mercy?

I can't do anything as you trace me, there

I am a speck in the infinity you wield

Do you see me begging wordlessly?

Your hands cup my face

Oh, how could heaven ever compare?

Pinch my cheeks

Oh, how will I resist?

I can't

I won't

You would crumble any wall I set

You are the force of nuclear detonation

A black hole's gamma radiation

Leave yourself in my every cell

I will carry them with me forever

You slap my face lightly

Oh my god

wow

I didn't think I'd be into that

Hit me harder

You tug on my hair

How are you doing that?

I've never even been into anything close to this before

Slap me

Grab my chin and turn me to face you

I am nothing in your hands

You are creator and destroyer

I don't think you understand

Good GOD! HOW ARE YOU DOING THAT?

Please slap me more

I am your play thing

Ugh

Shape me like clay

I will take whatever form you desire

Do you enjoy making me squirm beneath your hands?

A tsunami across my torso

Sink me into the blanket

Let's never leave

Won't you be a statue here, with me?

Blissful harmony

We walk back and you mention

You wanted Friday to be the last time

You planned to never speak to me again

You say, you can't stay away

Neither can I

Is this right?

Are we both avoiding the truth?

I grab two hugs before I leave

I cry on the drive to work in the morning

I am up for 44 hours before I find sleep again

It was worth every second

Every second in this heaven

I'll shoot for the stars

If i miss I'll just

Die alone, in the vacuum of space

[melilovesghost]

This is a lil fic written for Shroomie on twt, also lightly inspired by the works of @bupia . This also acts as an appreciation post to her also, for all her hard work and amazing writer!! Go check her out!!

Copia is insecure about his tummy, but so are you, so you work together through your insecurities!

This, as much as its supposed to be a cute fluff story, involves some NSFW, so mdni.

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Copia was on tour, it had only been a few days but you were missing him. You decide to drop him a text but at the same time you pick up the phone, you receive a text from him.

"I miss you, cara."

Your heart skips a beat, a smile creeping up your face. You give your phone a small hug as you begin to text back.

"I miss you too, Cardinal."

You sit on your bed, eagerly awaiting his reply.

"I haven't stopped thinking about you. When I'm on stage all I can think about it you."

You quietly gasp at his words, surprised at his admiration. You didn't think he liked you that much, that it was all in your head.

"Same here. I was just about to text you when you text. You're always on my mind Copia."

"Sometimes my mind thinks sinful things Cara, sinful things about you. Its worst when I'm on stage, wearing those tight pants, but I can't help thinking of you, mio bellissima."

You blush at his words, gently kicking your feet.

"Oh yeah, what kind of sinful thoughts, tell me papa"

"Oh well I- um... I'm a bit shy..."

"Tell me papa, pleaseeeee"

"I'm getting hard just thinking about you, cara."

"Show me"

"What? Show you?"

"Show me how hard I make you"

"Mio cara, I can't..."

"Why not? Are you somewhere you shouldn't be right now 😉"

"No cara, its not that... I'm... insecure..."

"About what darling papa? You don't have to be scared with me, I love you no matter what. Your beauty never ever scared me papa."

"It's my tummy. It's too big. I'm fat. Fat and ugly. You could never like someone with a tummy like mine..."

"Cardinal don't say that!! Im sure your tummy is adorable!! You're not ugly at all!! And hey... I'm insecure too... my tummy is too big..."

"Don't say that mio cara!! You are absolutely beautiful! Divine! Stunning!! Don't say that about yourself!!"

"So my tummy is pretty but yours isn't, is that what your saying Copia? 🤨"

There was silence for a few moments. Copia knew you were right.

"... you're right cara, if your tummy is beautiful, mine can be too"

"Let's send eachother pictures, we can overcome this insecurity together!"

"Okay cara, if you say so..."

Soon after your phone lights up, showing Copia had sent you a picture. You open it, seeing his fully exposed tummy. He was no longer hard after your conversation, but you didn't care, that's not the purpose of this anymore. You respond with a picture of your own, revealing your own exposed tummy and private region.

"I told you Copia!! Your tummy is adorable!! If I was there I'd give it 100 tiny kisses all over!! 🥰"

"Oh wow Cara, you look absolutely exquisite! Your tummy is the prettiest I've ever seen! I could just caress it forever!! Thank you, mio cara, for helping me. I feel a lot better about myself now."

"Same to you Copia, thanks for your help. You really help me feel comfortable in myself."

"I love you, mio cara."

"I love you too Copia."

[a-for-alternative]

Really random popping in but i just wanted to say that your account brings so much nostalgic joy every time i see a notif that you posted something. We talked for a really short bit back in 2017 but god i do not have the thick skin i once possessed at 14 so i never returned to our DMs since LMAO but i just wanted to say that your writing slaps as always and honestly they inspired me to write more back then so thank you for that too ig HAHAHA (you dont have to reply to this on your blog if it breaks the aesthetic flow btw!! its just a little nugget for you to read i suppose)

[[ I know the feeling. Someone here sparked something in me that was burning to get out and I have never forgotten the essence of how that felt.

I think we too easily dismiss things that aren't done for the sake of profit or accolades, and we will stop sometime five years from that point and look back and think,

"Wow, that brushed something I didn't know was there

It made me feel so alive- How do I get that back?"

Then we might spend another 10 years trying to find ourselves somewhere under the slick veneer of the personas we have so painstakingly constructed just so we could move through the world with less friction; the ones with pressed dress pants, straight teeth, shake hands with the firmness that feels alienating and reframe from outwardly recoiling at being called the name that has never fit quite us but we don't know what to do with...

The world admonishes us for being too much of ourselves, the messy lost animals, looking for purpose, understanding, and knowing- of ourselves, how to find meaning in anything when it's all so temporary and brittle, and brutally unkind, and the current of propriety asks you to just,

be quiet,

within yourself with all of this,

for the sake of keeping everyone else comfortable.

Told to take it in good faith when being critiqued that I am too much, thinking too deeply, that I'm too intense, that I should be the sort that lets it all roll off me and aim to have this bloodless way of conducting myself and that being a particular flavor of blasé will make me most happy in the end, most -- palatable for everyone else ... reduce myself down until I cannot find myself beneath my own skin.

That somehow by cutting all those uneven edges that feel like truth, I can coast all the way to the grave and I will look back and say that it was really. worth. it.

I can't help but think what a shame it would be.

I have this one chance to inhabiting an animal that can experience with such vibrance and potency the misery and magic of being alive -- and I can share it with greater accuracy than so many could have dreamed to in centuries, create something that rings without a sound and may even strike something within someone else the way it did within me.

Maybe, like me it will ignite something in them and for a moment they will think, "Wow, I haven't felt this deeply since I was 14 and was still allowed to be figuring it all out, allowed to be impatient and misunderstood, to throw causation to the wind, run towards what made me passionate the way other animals do, bounding and bucking, unrestrained by social convention, unbridled by shame, when I could allow myself to believe in destiny and friendships that would last forever-"

... I still have my half of the Bestfriend's charm from when I was 13, though I don't remember her face.

I write about her too.

I gave A her birthday because I carried it with me all these years, and this is where I can place all those parts of myself that the world doesn't leave any room for.

I going to keep writing A. I hope you find something that makes you feel that spark of meaning that writing has given to me. I hope you find a place that gives room for the pieces of yourself that the world has said there isn't any room for, any time for, any purpose for.

For me, that is this place.

[pepaldi]

Hi, how are you doing? Hope everything's great. Well, this is gonna be long, I apologize in advance. I stumbled upon your blog about a month ago, read pretty much all of your stuff, and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I thought it was just beautiful and adorable how much you love Harold, the way you write about him is so endearing, honestly, I admired you for exposing your feelings with such sincerity. But as much as I admired him as well, I couldn't relate to you that much, I thought your experience was a lot more intense than mine, and I could only respect you for it. But as the weeks went by, something grew in me, intensified, and as soon as it hit me that I was in love with Harold I ran back to your blog, went through all of the posts again, and realized I was now feeling the same as you. I laughed to myself when I thought “I’m like that cool Ramis girl now, aren't I?”. I relate to you now, and I realized it's not easy. I guess loving Harold is not just laughs, admiration, and inspiration, it's also grief, longing, and tears that come suddenly on a random Wednesday because now you miss him like you've never missed before and you just don't know what to do with yourself. Forgive me for rambling, I barely even know what I'm trying to say here to be honest, I just knew I needed to talk to you, the only other person I know that shares these experiences with me. Maybe I'm asking for permission to ask you questions, maybe I'm asking for advice, or maybe I just wanted to say a very long “hello there, friend!”. Either way, I'm just glad I found you, I'm glad that I'm not alone. Thank you for sharing your heart, and thank you for reading all my nonsense 🩷 —🦊

Hello, hello!

I am doing alright, thank you. Hope you are also.

I am not sure when you sent this but if you had to wait for me to answer I appologize.

You do not have to apologize for being long BTW. Happy to read it.

I stumbled upon your blog about a month ago, read pretty much all of your stuff, and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I thought it was just beautiful and adorable how much you love Harold, the way you write about him is so endearing, honestly, I admired you for exposing your feelings with such sincerity.

Oh, wow. All the stuff? I am not used to people actually spending much thought on what I write but it feels honoring to have written something that impacted you. I tend to write from the heart. Some times the words flow right.

But as much as I admired him as well, I couldn't relate to you that much, I thought your experience was a lot more intense than mine, and I could only respect you for it.

We all have our own experiences and what I love about the internet is that we can share that. If we want to that is. Oh, I think the intensity that we feel comes in waves. Mine tend to anyway,

But as the weeks went by, something grew in me, intensified, and as soon as it hit me that I was in love with Harold I ran back to your blog, went through all of the posts again, and realized I was now feeling the same as you.

He is very easy to love. Personality greater than life. Wait, you went through the posts .. again? Damn!

I laughed to myself when I thought “I’m like that cool Ramis girl now, aren't I?”.

Oh, gosh. Aww. You really made me smile with that. I haven't had a nickname in forever but “Cool Ramis girl” is adorable. Love it!

I relate to you now, and I realized it's not easy. I guess loving Harold is not just laughs, admiration, and inspiration, it's also grief, longing, and tears that come suddenly on a random Wednesday because now you miss him like you've never missed before and you just don't know what to do with yourself.

Yes, so much yes! Powerful feelings. This dude who you never met but yet you have read and learned so much about. The stories that makes you sad you never got the chance to interact with him but at the same time you are grateful that he once existed with us.

Forgive me for rambling, I barely even know what I'm trying to say here to be honest, I just knew I needed to talk to you, the only other person I know that shares these experiences with me.

No no. No need to apologize. I know how it feels to feel like you are rambling on. I have done it and probably will again. I feel honored you felt that way.

Maybe I'm asking for permission to ask you questions, maybe I'm asking for advice, or maybe I just wanted to say a very long “hello there, friend!”.

Feel free to ask me anything. Advice, well if I can I will be Happy do so. "Hello there, Friend." right back at ya.

Either way, I'm just glad I found you, I'm glad that I'm not alone. Thank you for sharing your heart, and thank you for reading all my nonsense 🩷 — 🦊

Aww, I am glad to have been found. It is always nice to know one is not alone and can share.

Thank You for sending his incredible lovely and touching note. For your very, very sweet words. It was a joy to read.

It is not nonsense. Not at all!

If you need to vent, share or just say hi I am just a mess away.

I'll end with one thing Harold wrote in autographs at times ..

Best Always.

~Karin~