#wow I'm trash :)

[thegeminisage]

i hope everyone who voted third party is really happy :) i hope they're all really pleased today and really felt like they made their voices heard and that electing trump was worth saving their precious little feelings :) i'm really glad they didn't have to be adults long enough to hold their noses and vote because feeling good is way more important than doing good :) i hope they got what they wanted :)

actually i hope they all die, as a direct result of his presidency, so that we don't have to pander to them next election cycle, if there IS a next election cycle. "but you can't just say you hope people die!" sure i can! third party voters obviously want me and my disabled mom to die. they want gay and trans people to die. they want women and immigrants and palestinians and people of color to die. what's the problem? i'd say i hope they die in the big glorious revolution they promised but if they can't put up and shut up long enough to get their asses to a ballot box there's no way we're gonna see them firebombing the government or attending a protest. they'll just sit at home and wait for somebody else to do it, the same way they sat at home and waited for somebody else to elect harris. and i hope nobody suffers more in the next four or more years than them. but why worry, right? both candidates are the same! i'm sure they'll be fine!

also lmao at everyone like "uwu ok guys take a deep breath have a calming cup of tea and do some self care tell people you love them" self care and loving people isn't going to keep him out of office. we had our chance to do that and we blew it because leftists want to feel righteous and pure. like definitely don't kill yourself or anything (unless you're a third party voter, in which case the sooner the better) but don't fucking dress it up. all you're doing is checking out. and who can blame you! sounds like the only solid plan tbh.

[necrotic-nephilim]

Sorry if this might be a rude question but why don’t you just make a seperate account for your nsfw fics?

not rude, it's a valid question! tbh it's a combination of a couple reasons.

i started posting anonymous dead dove batcest fics long before i had the balls to make a tumblr. at first i was content to just leave them unassociated with each other because i didn't really care about them being tied to me. i made this blog to actually show solidarity to my partner who wanted to make a sideblog for Sandman comic stuff so we could cheerlead each other and be brave together, since i've wanted to make a batcest sideblog but i've been nervous about actually having to get it going. (mal ik you're reading this go be brave and actually make your blog so i can cheerlead you damnit-) only did it dawn on me then that i should probably mention the fics i've written on the blog after like, three of them were posted anonymously. and it would've annoyed me to have half of them anonymous and half of them not, because notifications for them would've gone in different places. i could go back and take my fics off anon if i wanted to, but i can't switch the account they're on without taking them down entirely and that'd fuck over people who have them bookmarked already.

which, ties into my second reason, if i made an entire second ao3 account it'd be harder for me to see notifications, reply to stuff, and post things for both accounts because i'd have to constantly switch. and honestly i'd be terrified of accidentally posting on the wrong one on a brain fog day. posting fics is always the most tedious part of writing them for me lol. it's easier for me to stay logged into one account and have all of my stuff in one place for me and just use the anonymous collection when i feel like it. if ao3 pseuds worked like tumblr blogs, where you can't see all my side blogs but i can, i would've used pseuds, but since you can see all pseuds on an ao3, i felt it was a moot point.

and the last reason is i just feel more comfortable being anonymous on ao3 because of the rise in anti culture. on tumblr it's very easy for me to just filter that out and find the people i want to follow and block the people i don't. i don't mind getting hate, on tumblr or on ao3. but i think, for whatever reason you want to blame it on, there's been a massive boom of antis on ao3 who are very entitled about how they read on ao3. i tag extensively, but i just feel safer from getting targeted attacks if everything i write on ao3 isn't attached to one profile. if people like a fic i wrote, want to find more i always link my tumblr in the notes, but if an anti wants to get huffy with me, they can't easily track down my other things. they definitely could if they wanted to, but being anonymous on ao3 just makes me feel more secluded, in a weird way. it's like saying "if you want you can come find me but on here i'm just a weird faceless guy throwing stuff in the void". i've used ao3's anon feature a lot, actually, i used to be a hydra trash party dumpster kid back when that was in it's prime.

i also used to be vaguely popular on a different tumblr blog and my main ao3 and while i think it'd definitely be cool if i got a decent chunk of followers on this blog too, i don't really miss having fanfiction do so well i got targetted hate on all of my fics from the same people, i had my fics stolen, etc. it was really exhausting for me. i have 120+ works on ao3, not counting what's anonymous, and that level of exposure tires me, even when i use my main ao3 to post things that aren't trashy. it's just a weird feeling knowing so many people are subscribed to you on ao3 and what if you post something they won't like because you jumped fandoms again, or you're posting something niche, or you don't think it fills enough fandom tropes to be well-liked. i used to obsessively think like that, and it made me not write the things i wanted to because i cared about numbers. and i don't want to slide back into that hole. writing on anonymous is mostly to remind myself i wrote this for me, and if other people like it, they can come find me, but i don't have to perform like that anymore. if i get a really weird fucked up idea, i can write the really weird fucked up idea. at the end of the day, just makes me more comfortable! but i get it's a super confusing set up from an outsider perspective so, i really don't mind the question, thank you for asking!!

[silverselfshippingchaos]

the fact that j.oongi doesn't show up until the second to last chapter of y.akuza 8.............. how else am I gonna be motivated to play? /j

[agalychnisspranneusroseus]

Been thinking about amphibia character alignments and. I think hop pop is genuinely neutral evil

[spiritproductionsart]

"Don't you ever scare me like that again, Fenrynn Mival!"

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In that moment, I saw true sadness in his eyes. Blue eyes as deep as the sea, welled with tears from my actions. I came to wonder how protecting him had hurt him so much.

I'd never seen him cry before... Yet here he was, a 24 year old man, weeping after I'd saved his life. Did this mean he truly cared for me?

I'm so sorry, your majesty... I didn't mean to hurt you...

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I've fallen hard into the WoW hyperfixation, to the point where I've written a pretty hefty fanfic of it called "The King and the Thief."

I've kind of abandoned the current canon events just for fun, so canon's more of a "suggestion" over anything.

The Worgen's name is Fenrynn Mival III, a descendant of one of my older D&D characters. He's the grandson of the original Fen, in-game he's a pure rogue instead of a ranger.

Might post more, who knows?

[redbootsindoriath]

Fëanorian Week 2023, Day 1: Maedhros

I’m so late with these I’m not even fashionably late.  But better late than never (cf. Fingolfin, probably, after finally getting to Middle Earth).

To anyone who went “Hmm I wonder if the theme this year is going to be classical sculpture?”, well, congratulations, you’re right, though I don’t know how you would have guessed that.  I was originally going to do something where I based each drawing off the meaning of the name, and since “Maitimo” means “well-shaped one” the first thing that came to mind was a Greek or Renaissance statue.  But after finishing it I decided that it had been a lot of fun and I might as well do the rest the same way.  And it sort of fit into the whole Fëanorian theme since Nerdanel is a sculptor.

[phantomkapok]

i thought about this forever ago already but it's still wild to me that Carrie Mark will have the ONLY song with lyrics in petscop directly associated with her, and it has these words:

"I got a new life, you would hardly recognize me, i'm so glad."

"For so many years, I've wondered who you are"

"Living without you, I've left you, oh-oh-oh"

"But where do you belong?"

it's such a good song and it fits super well considering everything but also, i feel like when/if Paul ever finds that song again it will give him a horrible attack of some sorts. million yard stare while the funky pop song plays

[m0rceauuuxxx]

it's kind of sick how much my mood improves with warmer weather

[beesorcery]

google how do i tell my dad that the reason i keep bringing up elon musk's transphobia isn't that i've got gen z political tunnel vision that makes me blind to his "innovation" in electric cars but because i am desperately crying out for you as the father of a trans child to feel just as outraged and angry as i am that that man has so much power

[one-winged-dreams]

@ my last comment about Xal being sexualized

if you draw her with hentai girl proportions; I do not fucking trust you

If you draw her looking like an actual animated corpse; step into my parlor

[divinekangaroo]

Started replaying daii with the kidlet a few nights ago and just met Anders again/finished the year of indentured servitude. Goddddddddddd such a good story upon which to hang a game; it's like exactly the kind of story that needs a game because you want to feel the inhabitation

[dany36]

i'm a casual fan so my opinion is whatever but like....what the fuck was that 3rd act of the story for mk1. like...seriously?? it started off so strong and i was genuinely interested in the characters and the story. i even had sympathy for characters i never even gave much thought to like baraka and reptile, given how they developed their backstories and such. and then...seriously after sindel dies, it all goes downhill so fucking fast? they take the same tired multiverse path and it all just felt like such a joke with that final battle at the end. like "haha look at all these fusioned characters...isn't janet cage so funny" and i was seriously just wanting it to end, whereas before sindel dies i was so into the plot and how the characters were developing. honestly it went from like a 10/10 story to a 3/10 at the end. the main reason why i got interested in mk1 was because i heard it was gonna be like a reboot of the timeline but turns out it was....whatever that 3rd act mess was. can we stop with the multiverse BS please like let's all be a bit more original!!!!

[spoonietimelordy]

I'm watching a series of conferences about trauma and psychosis ans well this man has some takes and just I agree with so many controversial things he says i'm glad I'm not the only one who think about that.

Like for exemple he pointed out authors having their characters living in their mind as a non disordered form of dissociation and just teaaaa. Obviously it's not DID/OSDD, but if you can't actually controle them and you have to negotiate with them what does it actually mean about the way your brain has conceptualised them? I like the guy.

His point here was that people who are able to do that are more likely to develop a dissociative disorders because that's how their brain already works as a default.

[selvepnea]

A strange shirt sort of dream?

[marciliedonato]

you'd think netflix learned something from cancelling a show like warrior nun or just having any brain cells in general but then they went and cancelled shadow and bone so idk dude. they must just be reaaaaaally moneyphobic.....well i'm not. pass it over scrooge mcduck i need those mcr tickets 💸 🤑 🤑

[landfilloftrash]

(crashes in so very much later than I had planned) GHGH.