#would totally watch him and the other twink in them explore each others bodies

[para-socialist]

have absolutely no memory of making this but i think it's mine

[littlesmartart]

I'm not sure where to start with these vampires? Is watching Interview With The Vampire first okay? Where do I find the books? What order to I read them?

@shipsailor-pastelchild-blog

I personally watched the movie first, then read the books, and I found that works as a very good intro to the universe (though I do feel watching the movie first leaves you rather biased against poor louis, as brad manages to lose all of louis’ charm and wittiness and just makes him… whiny, compared to cruise who is an incredible lestat and utterly steals the fucking show. my first readthrough of iwtv was me just going “uughhhhh when are we getting to lestat!!” and I totally missed that louis is, in fact, a hilarious and ridiculous gay mess)

in terms of books… I’m gonna be honest, unless you’re really invested, don’t start reading these books. don’t do it. they’re gonna hurt you, and most of them aren’t even that good. if you are determined to read them, then they go:

interview with the vampire (louis’ POV: chronically depressed vampire spends whole night bitching to local sweaty twink about his ex-husband/sugar baby and their demon daughter. very Gothic, very philosophical, an intense exploration of dealing with mental illness and catholic guilt when you have an eternity to brood)

the vampire lestat (lestat’s POV: loud bratty sugar baby sets the record straight by releasing an autobiography that’s half “fuck you, I’m not the bad guy!” and half “look louis I CAN be vulnerable, oh god please take me back”. a lot more fun to read than iwtv because lestat is just… a very charming moron, though it has plenty of veeery Gothic shit, and exploration of lestat’s own mental illnesses. it also really capitalises on the meta nature of this series existing as a book series in its own universe, which is pretty cool!)

queen of the damned (lesat’s POV, but he writes sections as other characters too: lestat has kickstarted the vampire apocalypse, been kidnapped and sort of mind-whammied into some awful shit, and meanwhile we jump between a bunch of other characters as they try and deal with the madness and figure out how to bring down the Big Bad. we also get the story of armand and louis’ sweaty twinky journalist friend who wrote iwtv, daniel, which is arguably the best part of the book.)

and then… the others. you can find a list of them in order on wikipedia I believe. there are a lot. I’ve only read “tale of the body thief” (which I REGRET) and “the vampire armand” (also regret. pass the brain bleach!)

I would PERSONALLY recommend stopping with qotd, because if you leave the series there (specifically on the penultimate scene before they go to london) then everyone gets a sort of bittersweet happy ending, all the loose ends are tied up, and louis and lestat have a very satisfying and surprisingly healthy end to their relationship arc where they’re able to let go of the past and walk together into the future :,) if you really want to keep reading, then brace yourself, because quotd was the last book AR had an editor for, and in the opinion of a lot of people, the series writing and characterisation goes waaaaaay downhill from there.

warnings: do NOT read this series if you’re not comfortable with body horror, violence, murder, pretty dark philosophy, and explorations of mental health issues such as depression and anxiety. AR also has big issues with casual racism, misogyny, and sexualisation of minors so um… you have been warned. these books are a MESS.

what AR does well in all of that is create very interesting cool characters (though god forbid she develop them…….) who have the sort of petty relationship drama that you really want in a group of immortals who have all fucked everyone else in their little group like two centuries ago and now have nothing better to do than make more fledglings and write scathing exposé novels about each other. she’s also good at creating atmosphere, and setting up some very cool scenarios that you can scream DEATH OF THE AUTHOR at and steal for your own to do better. 

[emeraldbabygirl]

VAV: A full Daddy analysis uwu

I’ve never wanted to collectively ride anyone’s thighs more then I want to ride every member of VAV’s. Does that make sense? Never has a whole group made me want to ride everyone’s thighs then VAV. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it as many times as I can. These specific 7 men have power over me. Like, I want to be on top of their thighs so badly? Like, let me feel every member’s thighs, from Geumhyuk’s thicc ones to Hosung’s average, to Yoonho and Wooyoung’s sexy twink thighs. I’m honestly starting to love how small ACE is. The size kink is coming out faster than I did uwu. Just thinking about his small frame ugh. Like, The Dream Team are all smaller than the tanks obvi but Wooyoung? There’s so many things about that man that just? He seems like mysterious and lowkey a freak but I fucking love how small he is ugh. AND FUCKING LOU HAS BEEN FUCKING ME UP RECENTLY AND UGH. The need for Lou smut is so over the edge I have like 4 fanfics started with him or involving him. Like I said, this group does things to me. And I love it all.

St.Van:  Not because he’s my main bias and Daddy in VAV but I feel like Geumhyuk is a soft dom, he’s super caring and gentle. Unless you ask him to be rough and then he provides, but I feel like he also always asks how you are doing whether he’s being rough with you or not because he needs you to always communicate because it’s so important to him. If you need a break he’ll give you one, he has the best aftercare and he’d love to cuddle you after and he’s super affectionate and knows how to treat and take care of you and he does it well. And if you wanted him to be rough he would be but he’d still have the caring look to him? like, lots of praising and he’d always look at you with absolute love and adoration even if he’s fucking you til the bed breaks. And if the bed does break he’d stop to ask if you’re alright and then giggle and continue uwu. He’d always say things like “you’re doing so well princess” or something like “i know you can go for a little longer. C’mon princess, give me more, just one more time. You can do it princess” oR when you wanna get spicy he’d be like “you want me to fuck you like that princess? Are you sure you can handle it?” in a way that would make you second guess yourself but he’d always love and be proud of you for following through. And he would liter your body with kisses an he would always lace his fingers with yours when it gets good or he would cup your face. Like @itsakpopalypse said in her St.Van astrology post, he doesn’t fuck he makes love and I totally believe that and honestly thinking about that man alone..bruh I feel like he’s really into some things but he’s gentle about it? Idk but again I feel like if you asked him to be rough he would be but you’d still have that contact

Lou: Hosung is a freak™️ he’s willing to try all kinds of toys and positions. He’s a switch leaning sub and will call you mommy. He’ll do anything for you and try anything with you and loves shower sex. He loves seeing your wet body fucked out against the shower wall. The steam fogging up the glass door and then he pushes your naked, wet flesh against the door, your breasts squished and in view of anyone that might happen to walk in. “You know how sexy you look up against the door like this, how sexy it is to hear my thighs slam against your cute ass as I fuck your wet pussy so good?” He’ll slap your ass causing you to squeal. “You like that babygirl? You’re so good for Daddy. So wet, so perfect.”

Jacob: Jacob on the other hand, I feel like if you wanted it rough he would go feral and fuck your brains out and only after he made you cum 5 times would he come back down and be himself again? Like there’s no contact with you in those moments unless you used the safe word. I kinda feel like he wouldn’t really know how to take care of you as well as St.Van but he would always try his best to make you comfortable after and he would never just leave you after he re-arranges your organs ya’know? Aftercare is important to him but sometimes he doesn’t really know how? so you’d always have to reassure him that he’s a good daddy and that you are fine. I feel like Jacob’s one to have dom drops. I feel like he’d make you mad on purpose because he loves angry sex because you cum a lot more and are more loud and he wants to make sure his members and everyone in the building know that you are his sexy treasure. “Scream my name baby, I’m gonna make you cum so much you’ll stain the mattress. You like it when I fuck your brain out huh? You like it when I’m rough with your slutty pussy? You’re always such a good whore for Daddy. Louder, louder, I want my members to hear you moan for me.”

Ziu: I’m trying to figure out what Ziu’s into. He’s hard to read cause he’s such a dork. I think I’ll start by saying he probably has a thing for spankings. Whether playful or full on bent over his lap swatting each cheek. I feel like he’s really into bodystockings. He loves showing you how good he is with his fingers and cock. His favorite thing is when you wander around the house in just panties and a t-shirt, or panties and his hoodie. Maybe he likes to bend you over the counter in your tee and pull down your panties just enough to show your perfect ass, he’ll gently rub it before grabbing a spatula or slotted spoon and make you scream. “You think you can tease me like this and get away with it darling?” Perhaps he’s the kind to always praise you because you’re so shy, he’ll slide your panties off and when you move your hand over to cover your petals he’ll grab your hand gently and look you in the eyes and say, “don’t be shy darling. Let me see that beautiful dripping flower of yours. You’re so gorgeous baby.” And then he’ll lean you against the counter and lift one of your legs up so he has a perfect view of that gaping pussy and he’ll tease you will his tongue, slowly and gently causing the sweetest sounds to escape from your parted lips.

ACE: ACE has you wrapped around his thumb, his cock actually. When he’s really horny his one or two word commands will keep you in line. Because you want to make him feel good and tell you how good of a job you’re doing. He’s not really vocal but he still tells you when you’re doing a good job. He’ll say “knees, now” or “suck” and “good girl” but he won’t moan or curse unless he’s close. He’ll tilt his head back and enjoy him filling your mouth. Of course ACE’s punishments are serious and you can’t escape from them. If you’re bad he’ll let you have it and won’t let you cum till you’re far other the edge

Baron: Daddy Spreadlegs I feel would excel at eating you out. That’s it. He knows exactly how to do it, how to reach all your sweet spots, make you come undone and squirm as his tongue explores your sweet cavern. He would take his time in making you feel good but for Chunghyeop eating your pussy is an art form and you can’t rush art. Aside from eating you out he’d love to read to you, his gentle words rolling off his tongue in the sweetest way while he aggressively finger blasts you into oblivion. Sometimes he would stop reading just to watch you moan and wiggle under his gaze and sometimes he’d tease you by continuing to read, his fingers just resting inside your pussy, every once in awhile pulling out slowly to jab back in. I feel like he’d love to give you creampies. It would be his favorite thing in the world. Another thing he’d like, and he’d surprise you with it is once he figured out how to make you squirt it would be the only thing you’d ask for. You’d suck his cock and beg him to make you squirt. “Kitten, do you not enjoy when I eat you out anymore? Are you tired of creampies?” Chunghyeop said sounding disappointed. You quickly shook your head and pulled off his tip. “No Daddy, never. But I love it when you make me squirt. I love watching your reaction. I do so good for Daddy after. And you even say I taste better after. Please Daddy, please make me squirt and I’ll cum so good for you next time. Please Daddy.” you mewled looking up at him while kitten licking his tip. Chunghyeop just smiled. “We’ll see Princess. But right now Daddy wants to give his little slut another creampie.”

Ayno: I feel like Ayno is totally a subby baby boy like 99% of the time but every once in a while No Mercy Yoonho will leak out. He’ll always call you mommy or mistress and he’ll always thank you after you let him cum. He loves being your good boy. He always wants to please you and make you happy and you rarely have to punish him because he’s such a good boy. But when you do punish him he becomes even more of a whiny, crying mess. “Please mommy, please let me cum. I’m sorry I’ve been such a naughty boy.” You’ll shush him and hold your hand on his thigh as he jerks his hips up and down, the vibe resting against his tip. “Mommy will let you come soon my sweet baby. But you have to take this punishment as you’ve been a bad boy and I can’t let you get away with everything especially now that you think of you whine enough I’ll stop. Mommy doesn’t like to punish her sweet baby but sometimes it’s necessary.” Yoonho would cry and cry, tears staining his cheeks as you denied him of his orgasm. Finally you let him cum, his sweet sweet cries of pleasure filling the room. You kept your hand on his stomach rubbing small circles and praising him as he came down from his high. You kissed up his body meeting his lips. “You’re such a good boy for mommy.” You’d say. He’d smile and thank you over and over again.

Lou & Ayno: or as I like to call them Lube and Anal. The perfect combination of Ayno telling me what to do as Lou tells him want to do. Make me suck you both off as you cover my face in your yummy cummies uwu. There’s not a lot to say about these two. Perhaps shower sex with them both or a nice bathtub fucking sandwiched between them.

St.Van & Jacob: I want to be sandwiched between these two men. I want to be bent over Geumhyuk sucking him off as Jacob takes me from behind. Pull my hair, slap my tits, my ass, my thighs. Get me worked up. Praise me, degrade me, hold my hand for emotional support as I experience a mind fucking orgasm. Tell me how precious I am as my pussy convulses over and over, both of their cum leaking out of my sopping pussy. Kiss the marks on my thighs and neck, move my hair out of that way, take a picture of my fucked out body and use it as the wallpaper on your phone. I want them to take a video of their cum leaking out of me as a reminder of how good Jacob and St.Van are at fucking me stupid. Lick it up or push it back into me and cover my glistening body in your hot kisses

The Dream Team a.k.a The Cream Team (power bottom ACE, bottom Baron and subby baby boy Yoonho): Ayno is such a sexy man, his rap is super sexy but he’s also baby boy, but also let me throw it back Papi. ACE is the sexiest twink I’ve ever seen in my life and that voice of his, serenade this bussy Daddy. And his hands ugh, those fingers. He’s the slamming power bottom I need in my life. (And by that I mean, there is no power bottom ACE fics and that needs to be fixed. Anyone that writes for VAV please. I need to be on top of him but he needs to tell me what to do and how to do it. Dig your fingers into my hips as you guide me onto your dick. Make me keep eye contact as I grind my aching pussy against your throbbing cock please daddy). And Baby Baron ugh, he can collect these edible arrangements. Don’t ask why I sent you so many just find me and let me ride you Daddy Spreadlegs. My favorite bottoms. Also I feel like they’d all give you creampies every once in awhile but since it’s Baron’s favorite thing he’d give them to you more often.

I’m just so whipped for them all. I want them all to fuck me, I want to see what they’re into, let them experiment their pleasures with me. I’ll be their cute lil fuck doll. I want to see how they play with themselves, what they use to cum. I want to watch them get all worked up, their dicks thrusting into their hands, their muscles tense as they cum. I wanna hear how they moan, I wanna see them all fucked out in bed or on a chair or wherever they masturbate from. 

[spadesinglasses]

Love Victor (series)

oooh new format for this post let’s get into itttt.

Below are my reaction per episode. I will be writing them as i finish each so its more clear and fresh and all that jazz.

Let’s see if tumblr posts has a word count limit.

lol wrong title earlier X_X

Note, the #glassthoughts tags is a reaction tag. Its never a review, or an intellectual essay about stuff I watch. I dont have the capacity to do all those.

Spoilers below so beware. Episode 1 is posted separately because I intend to make posts for the first and last epsiode only but that did not work out lol.

EPISODE 2

it took me a looong time to finish this episode. I kept on pausing it because something just feels so wrong about it. I didn’t know what it was when i was going through it, but when it finally ended it finally clicked.

The episode reminds me of the sentiment most homophobes use against gay people. “If you focus on the emotional part of the relationship, you will be happy with the opposite sex.” Growing up ive heard this phrase used against other people so much. Hearing it in my native language has always been a punch in the gut. 

And now this show who is supposed to be something happy and nice, is just having this kind of phrase of mentality just well up there.

I’m sure that its not Victor’s and that he is just exploring his sexuality. But the usual tinge of homophobia whenever he talks that he might be like Simon is honestly grating.

It’s definitely a me issue because other people seem to be enjoying the series immensely, but whenever Victor gets into that headspace, I just hear my child self crying myself to sleep because of internal homophobia.

Also i can see why people say  that for a show that is supposed be about Victor’s sexuality and growth, it does sure show a heck lot of heterosexuality of those who are around him.

Maybe in the future i will rewatch the series again with a more patient mind, but for now, expect me to skip a lot of scenes X_X

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Episode 3

Okay the audacity of Victor saying “he tries” to be a good friend. Like dang okay chill with the lies. You’re already lying about your sexuality lmao.

Sorry im being very critical and bitter about this show, but i must persevere for the fanfics and fanarts i will gorge myself into later.

anywho reaction time!

Mia and Victor would’ve been cute if only Victor doesn’t sound like he keeps on enforcing this compulsory heterosexuality he has in mind.  BUT hey he might be Bi people! 

I keep censoring myself because of how bitter and hateful i sound. My apologies for the phrases i forgot to delete above and beyond this line xD.

Anyways im over anything about Andrew. He can go fuck his egotistical self. If the series will show 

Hmm i wonder if the term “Comp Het” will even drop in this series.

Back to reaction,

Honestly Felix is just a lesbian in a man’s body at this point. Making his own shampoo? Like wow give me some of that kind of friend. 

The number of times I rolled my eyes at Andrew is ridiculous. 

Whilst typing this part it was more enforced in my mind that Love Victor is just a “supposedly gayer” Teen Wolf without the wolfing parts.

Lake is Lydia Felix is Stiles Andrew is a walmart Jackson Benji is basically a less grumpy Derek or Danny tbh Victor is Scott

I really hate this idea now.

The parents drama! Honestly, very unnecessary in my opinion. Victor is already dealing with a religious family, now he has to deal with a religious and broken family? Like dang they could’ve just chosen one struggle for him, now everyone will think his sexuality is a consequence for his parents’ sin or sth.

Maybe it’ll play into a bigger plot twist in the future?

Maybe Victor’s mom is cheating with Mia’s father? Seeing as how there was an unnecessary shot of her father with the back of a woman facing on the camera which is weird but okay. 

Im theorizing now X_X

Anyways have y’all seen how poor Felix was so nervous because his goddamn friend isn’t there to supposedly help him?

Sorry im hating on Victor too much but this scene reminds me of how awful Simon’s friends are and like bruuuh is Felix supposed to be the lead character?

He really is like Stiles who is supposed to be the lead for Teen Wolf in my opinion, he’s just a much better written character that Sc/tt

lmao sorry my issues with other series is bleeding into this one X_X

End

Episode 4

Not much to say without getting too salty so moving onnn.

End

Episode 5

This series is just showing all the fear and pain i went through and am going through back when I was a teenager and til now. Without getting into any personal stuff, that last bs Victor’s father spewed just hit me so much.

I guess one of the reasons why its hard for me to watch Love Victor is because it shows me the teenager side of me way back when. Minus the girlfriend one because i never really persevered that much to tamper any likes for men. Internal homophobia really hit me back then tho xD

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Episode 6

This episode is a mess and I hate it.

We saw yet again Victor literally using Felix’s ignorance and naivety to get himself out of a situation he put himself into. 

AND Felix even got the wrong idea or got fed with the wrong idea that the reason why Victor brought him along is to act as a buffer because he wasn’t ready to give up being a virgin or have sex in general. Yep that is definitely the reason, no other reason at all that involves making latte art with a known barista.

Lake and Felix kissed so there was that. I still am shipping Victor and Felix together despite Victor’s continuous bs with him being a good friend, but that’s just me.

And totally knew Andrew and Mia got a thing. If this blew up and hurt Lake im suing.

Lake and Felix are literally the two people keeping this show intact. Not gonna drop some political statement here no sir.

Again Benji needs to grow a personality out of this whole barista thing. One thing i am grateful for this show is that there was no family drama at all!

I think.

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Episode 7

UGHHH MISS ME WITH THAT NORMAL TALK.

Ive been making a conscious effort to stop saying that heterosexuality is normal. That shit is hard to unlearn because its what ive always heard in my asian household for yeaaaaaaars. And now this twink is just gonna throw the term around like he has no issues with it. TO SIMON EVEN.

Like brooooooh. Im over my 2010 internal homophobia, no need to dig it all up again. Every episode.

Aww the dancing in different clothes is cute but,

FUCKING VICTOR LIED JUST FOR WHAT?

Homeboy be doing the most to keep his fucking sexuality from bursting out, with his foot both planted firmly inside the closer AND THEN THE NEXT SECOND would end up as if he is ready to risk it all just to see Benji naked.

I AM FUCKING livid, confused, and just intense emotion everywhere.

Ive seen a couple of dumbo scenes from other shows that got the “closeted” man be doing literally the most obvious shit that could make anyone catch them, BUT THIS, with how VEHEMENT Victor is against being “NOT NORMAL” AND THEN LIE JUST TO STAY IN A MOTEL WITH THE GLORIFIED HOT GUY, takes the goddamn cake.

The fucking hypocrisy man. Ive battled internal homophobia before, AND ACKNOWLEDGE THAT WE ALL DEAL WITH IT DIFFERENTLY but holy fucksticks. I’m not this evil.

The thing is, there is so much a person could do that you could go “ah its because they are in the closet and is afraid to come out” before it goes to the territory of “fucking hell, this is not just about his sexuality, this is just him now doing stuff consciously to take advantage of his supposed fear”. The girlfriend thing is even waaay over the top, but we all went with it because he’s supposed to be figuring things out. BUT most of the time, he literally could not even imagine going beyond the line HE CREATED for their relationship. AND YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT HE WILL LIE JUST TO SPEND THE NIGHT WITH A GUY? Now he wants to test the male side of his sexuality? BECAUSE PORN DOESN’T EXIST?  BECAUSE LOOKING AT MALE UNDERWEAR MODELS IN THE UNDERWEAR SECTION IS NOT ENOUGH? HE NEEDS IT TO BE ACTUALLY PHYSICAL TO CONFIRM SOMETHING?

Im ahead too much, real time the scene im in the episode is still them about to leave the shop but holy fucking hell. If this lie ended up becoming something more in this same episode, expect more capslock because jfc.

And people will still claim he’s somewhat attracted to the other gender. 

AND SOMETHING DID HAPPENED. ANDREW AND MIA KISSED

FUCKIN VICTOR

Also i was very very worried that Pilar and Felix will be a thing BUT THANK GOD THAT DIDN’T BECOME A THING. Still unsure whether i like Lake and Felix together, but i love them individually.

I cant really comment on any of the parents drama because to be honest i skip them whenever its just her and him.

These two fuckers lie to one another. BECAUSE OF WHAT? THEY WANT TO FUCKIN STICK THEIR TONGUES INTO ONE ANOTHERS MOUTH? IS THIS REALLY WHERE THIS SHOW IS GOING? AND THEY ALMOST CENSORED IT BECAUSE ITS GAY? NOT THE OTHER HORRIBLE STUFF THAT IS HAPPENING?

Im tired.

But i hafta finish the show for fanarts and fanfics.

okay Benji has a legitimate reason for lying. I’ll take that.

See people you see me live writing this whole rant thing :D.

BOY TOOK MONTHS KISSING MIA FOR MIA TO ONLY SAY THEIR TONGUES GRAZE SOMETIMES.

bUT THE SAME GUY JUST WENT LAPLAPAN TO THE MAX WITH BENJI THE ONE NIGHT THEY SPENT TOGETHER?

REALLY PEOPLE? REALLY?

Huh I wonder back when I was his age, would I also just kiss the first gay guy i became comfortable with? Despite being so into the closet and battling internal homophobia via punching the walls?

Dang that monologue tho. We as non het doesn’t want our lives to be hard. But at this point, i stopped blaiming my own sexuality and just started blaming heterosexuals for making the world this fucking horrible for us. That’s when my internal homophobia SLOWLY lessen. It’s still there but hey at least every crosshair  is not on me.

Okay i get people saying that Simon is irresponsible for making Victor like put his family on the back burner for a bit etc etc. Also the reaction against Benji getting mad when Victor wanted them to stop being gay while in their house, is reasonable. Victor did calmly told Benji and his beau that his family is stretched thin etc etc. I get that. I get that sometimes hiding your sexuality for other people is what is necessary.

BUT  fucking please recognize how damaging that is to the person you are talking to. Even if you think Victor is in the 100% right about this, AT THE VERY LEAST acknowledge why Benji is mad. Sure he could’ve just left with his boyfriend instead of just staying there. And sure Victor pulled through in the end and put that dusty grandpa motherfucker to his place, but that’ll fucking sting okay.

Also i might be saying all this in a place where I’m not really that close to ANY of my relatives, so ya know, call me ignorant or ungrateful whatever.

END

Episode 8

Okay uhh Mia and Andrew is still a thing APPARENTLY.

AWW BRAM IS CUTE

Lol Simon’s “Yay boobs” like please Victor keep the heterosexual drama out of this chatroom lmao.

Also Felix group texting the others is hilarioussss.

If Victor touches or says one bad thing at Bram? its on sight.

Also Im not sure what to feel with Mia getting jealous at Andrew. Like girl you were the one who said he’s nothing, and now this? Issa bad look honey.

Victor is embarassing. Are all extroverts just this i dunno peppy? 

You know what makes me happy in this episode? Keiynan’s attitude bleeding out to Bram’s character. I love it!

Goddd Keiynan is so hot XD

hahahaha this episode is lighter thank god.

“why would they want to help a complete stranger” because they are good people and surprisingly they still exist! 

Ohhh So it seems like Nick Robinson filmed his scenes for this episode on a different day. Ive never seen him be with the main group. That’s weird.

END

Episode 9

Benji distancing himself because he wants to make his 1 year relationship work? Good guy! Him not saying to his boyfriend about the coworker of his kissing him? Bad move.

Sure we can all talk about how little stuff doesn’t need to be told to your lover if you’re sure its not gonna happen again. The thing is,  communication is key. Y’all will talk about communication being integral in a relationship but keep shit like this in the DL because yOU’RE JUST THAT SURE IT AINT GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN? Fo real?

Also Benji is feeling guilty for a reason.

Vincent is very in the wrong for kissing a taken man just because said taken man is comfortable with him or showed vulnerability. Victor is in the wrong 100% and I’ll never forget that.

Felix and that hug with Victor is adorableeee. Love that coming out scene. Again raising my eyebrows at those who say Victor is Bi.

Felix showing what’s in his apartment is fucking great. No wonder we don’t see his mom or anything. They say that the saddest people are always the one who will do their best to keep everyone happy. Felix is being peppy, have these random phrases he use to just amuse people makes sense.

In this household, we protect Felix no matter what. HOPEFULLY next season we get to fucking know his surname or sth.

Again nothing new with the drama surrounding the parents. I hate them and honestly i am so annoyed by the father’s face and everything. (still have that hatred from One day at  time but we don’t talk about that here)

The letter is stupid and i wonder what Pilar will do about it. Are we gonna get a To All the boys i loved before thing?

OH Felix giving Lake an ultimatum. Wow what a move honestly. On one hand Felix has the right to protect himself. He wants to be free with who he loves, and keeping it a secret stopped being amusing because he knew what it feels like to hide a part of yourself.

Lake’s confidence has been obviously shot and damaged by her mother. Not saying that justifies what she is doing  BUT it came from somewhere. A night with Felix talking to her about his life IS NOT going to just uproot all those thoughts from her mind. As much as i love Felix, he is not a solution.

hmm what else. The father can go die for all i care. Lmao.

END

Episode 10

OH I THOUGHT PILAR KNOWS NOW BUT NOOOO

OH NOOO O NO NO NOOO

AND ANDREW STIRRING SHIT UP NOOOOOO

PILAR STOOOOP

NOO NOT PUBLICLY

OMFG

 I CANNOT.

Also i cannot get over Andrew’s actor looking like Stromae. They have the same eyes, eyebrows and expressions X_X

THIS IS WHY WE DONT KEEP SHIT BEFORE A PUBLIC EVENT. IT ALWAYS EXPLODES ON A PUBLIC EVENT.

YOU BET YOUR ass i skipped the whole confrontation scene. I’ll go back to it maybe or just look at gifs but nope. My cancer rising and moon can’t handle that shit.

Is ... is Mia going to see Victor and Benji together and then theorize? Because god freaking damnit im tired of that plot twist.

Oh Benji. Honey honey honey please don’t do whatever I think you’re about to do.

FUCKING NEW IT. CALLED IT. CALLED ITITTTT MIA FUCKIGN SAW I HATE VERYTHING.

....

wait the way the ending was shot is weird. The cliffhanger is weird. Everything is weird.

ILL MAKE A HUNCH that it was actually just Victor in his dream land thinking that coming out is that easy and that you just blurt it out.

Bet you the next season will start with no body but Felix and Mia and Andrew know about his sexuality.

The shot was too much on Victor. There was no sound cue from the family etc etc.  I hate the ending so much. Love Victor could’ve been so much more. Could’ve pioneered a fresh way to show lgbt stories and how coming out is this and that. Even if the show is for Gen Z and this generation, coming out should reflect to how coming out is generally perceived nowadays. But i guess that was too much. Foolish me for having my expectations waay too high.

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