#would save. sighh

[seilon]

look i live in california i know damn well the price of groceries is absurd. but whenever i see someone say “i buy hellofresh because it’s wayyy cheaper than groceries” i wince. you people just dont know how to fucking shop

[nomaishuttle]

sry i also started thinking abt how great my life would be if i was trapped in a timeloop again. i meant again as in i thought abt it again not as in I was trapped in a timeloop and id love 4 it 2 happen again. never been in one unfortunately.

[pierogi-png]

"system of a down and korn going on tour together!"

opens ticketmaster

sighs

opens bank account

SIGHS

[b0mblover]

Hate, in Every Sense of the Word.

By: J

major tws for; suicide mention, domestic abuse, abuse, sexual assult mention, murder mention, (really just alot of violence tbh) self harm mention

uh, sorry? that theres so many tws, ig also minor tw for mention of sex too.

uh haha i uh, can you tell what happened tonight? it wasnt even the worst one, just, im tired of it.

talk abt living out of spite bc mannnn, thats all i been going off of for a good while now!

i uh, i really wanna make a certain food bc um. (LOOK I WANNA MAKW A LESS OILY FUCKER OKAY) but my father is awake meaning my mother will be too soon but im scared to even go out of my room bc theyre prob gonna fighttt.

hhhrbd okok ill shut up for now, go ahead and read the angry jirou bullshit ig 😭

(oh yea, if it wasn’t obvious. im talking about my mother in this.)

——————————

yknow,

you havent been a great person

or a good one even.

yet you still question as to why i dont love you

or like you,

maybe you have an idea of how much i hate you.

maybe not

i dont really care about your feelings.

at all.

not now.

i put up with this for fucking 14 years.

my entire fucking life.

ive put up with your shit.

but now?

now im done.

you have no idea how badly you fucked up.

when he said that “im sorry im a fuck up” 

yknow.

he mightve not been right for what he did.

but,

it was just a mistake.

it was a goddamn mistake.

you have any idea how many times ive uttered those words too?

how many times ive repeated them?

how many times i fucking meant it?

just because you “had it bad” doesnt mean shit to me.

you have no goddamn right to treat others the same way.

dont give me that “i dont know how else to act!”

bullshit.

bullshit you dont.

you treated your damn boyfriend just fine!

you had a goddamn kid

you had two goddamn children.

with this man that you fucking DESPISE.

you knew it back then too.

you told me you did.

you fucking told me.

almost nothing can compare to the anger i feel to you right now.

nothing.

you have no right to act like that.

no.

you have no goddamn right to hit another fucking living being.

for such a simple mistake.

i dont care if he talked about it since friday.

i dont give a fuck if he talked about it for months.

you.

you as a goddamn human.

have no right.

none.

in the slighest.

to hit another living being.

for talking about something in your eyes “too much”

or making a mistake.

youre a hypocrite.

need i remind you?

you said that after you broke up with the man you were having an affair with.

that youd be a better person.

stop the fights.

stop the beatings.

stop all of it.

and everything would be okay!

.

i didn’t believe you for a goddamn millisecond.

youre a liar.

just how you said i was.

you didnt quit.

you didnt stop.

hell two months after you hit him again!

you threatened to kill him and yourself!

cmon.

dont you get it yet?

i fucking despise you.

maybe to a degree i feel shocked.

but.

i really dont think thats it.

youre the root of my problems.

every single last fucking one.

——————

need i remind you as how i had to learn to cook, because you were too busy with your damn boyfriend to help me?

.

need i remind you how when i tried to show you that i was fucking cutting myself when i was 9 you only talked about how it looked ugly?

.

need i remind you about how many times you said that you didnt care if i hurt myself as long as no one can see it?

.

need i remind you about how you ignored the rope burn on my neck god knows how many times?

.

need i remind you how you denied fucking multiple peoples sexual assault because “it couldntve been like that”?

.

need i remind you of how many times i almost had to be hospitalized because of your neglect?

.

need i remind you of how many nights i spent alone, in the cold, in the dead of winter, just because you wanted to fuck your boyfriend?

.

need i remind you of what you yelled at me so many times?

.

need i remind you of what i seen?

.

need i remind you of how many times you blamed your abusive behaviors on medication?

.

need i fucking remind you of my entire purpose?

.

i dont care about your feelings anymore.

i gave up years ago.

but now.

i dont feel just numb for you.

i hate you.

in every sense of the word.

.

i dont care of what you or anyone else thinks of me.

.

i dont care about what you think of my appearance.

.

i dont care if you think im too thin or fat or whatever word youll use next.

.

i dont care about what you think because you’ll hate me no matter what.

.

you thought id stop being xxxx when you broke up with him.

you yelled at me.

no.

you fucking screamed at me for weeks.

im tired of even putting in the slighest effort of acting as if i fucking care.

i dont give a fuck about you.

and yknow?

if.

no.

if it would work.

if it was possible.

id fucking kill you.

id stab you.

right here.

right now.

to end my suffering.

to end his suffering.

all of it.

id end it all.

i dont care if its wrong.

because i know no one else knows about whats going on.

yknow.

only one person around here knows what youve done to him and me.

and i havent even met her in person.

yknow.

the people i used to be close with from school.

only just learned you had an affair.

i know that.

the police are do-less.

since you know them.

and hes a man.

not a woman.

it wouldnt be taken seriously.

that he should just fight back.

yknow.

youve ruined what life he has left.

his parents beat him.

his ex wife beat him, and cheated on him.

and here.

youve done the exact same thing.

yknow.

he’ll never get to see how love truely is.

because of you.

because of what youve done.

i cant say i really like him either.

but.

that doesnt give you the right to ruin his life.

.

yknow whats worse?

how i know the only reason that so far youve never dared to lay a finger on me.

is because ive proved that i won’t hesitate to beat the fuck out of you right back.

i know i joke about that night.

but.

really.

hitting you for doing that was the best decision i couldve made.

its kept me safer than i wouldve been for years. 

and even now.

if you were to as so much to touch me.

while in a fight.

id do it all over again.

you maybe 100 pounds heavier than me.

but you dont know how to fight against someone who wont just sit there and take it.

i wont forgive you for what youve done.

even if he will.

.

i want nothing to do with you.

get out of my life for good.

[there-is-oddkaijuz-here]

Currently re-reading the fiction for high noon over camelot on account of being bored in class and

the domestic bits and pieces of the polydragons are everything to me, guys. I love them so much. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. I'm so glad HNoC ends with them saving the station and living happily ever after in all their domestic polycule glory and nothing bad happens to them ever again <3

Lancelot (and Guinevere, if unconsciously), comforting Arthur when he wakes from his nightmare. Both of them being a calming presence for him, though one in a more active way, one by simply being there. I really should try my hand at drawing some scenes from the fiction, because i can see them in my mind as i read (The brainrot has gotten too strong).

This specific bit describing Lancelots stare is also something i think about frequently.

"s'long as Gwen don't crush you in her sleep. And that ain't no bad way to go." What an utter fool. I hate him /j

All he want is Get Drunk and Kiss He Partners. Sigh. I was gonna say i need them dead but alas.

LOVE. SICK. FOOL. I can see his stupid heart eyes from here, watching his strong wife exercising. Idiot. (I don't blame him though, i would be the same. Hell, i AM the same when i see my girlfriend doing literally anything, ever.)

Also this bit for obvious reasons. Its the fact that Lancelot doesn't respond for me, lmao.

Sighh. I miss them, guys.

[teruwasright]

I love how there’s this immediate alliance among Teru fans when we come across each other. Our brains are linked fr fr

On that note, is there any particular direction you’d like to see his character go in? As in, is there any specific type of development you’d like him to have?

Well to your first statement kinda?? Idk the Teru fans are such a mixed bag of the people that bullied me- people love Teru fans until you ACTUALLY agree with him and share his views... (sadly some are still kinda backhanded...sighh)

Also to answer you questions I feel like it would be SUPER interesting if Teru ended up the hero some how- Teru DEFINITELY has a hero complex and it showed in Kou and Teru's arguments in chp87 and I find it so interesting that he's tells Kou to stop playing hero when he HIMSELF is unwillingly- he would drop his life so easily to save someone (especially if he cares about them) and honestly I would LOVE to see that part of his character explored more- I think it's a part of his character that's SEVERELY missed and overlooked but when you actually look at his character it DOES exist.

and NO I don't mean he ends up thinking supernaturals are good like Kou.

I would just like his hero complex explored more

[hizznbyte]

is there any lore about neri/neni/your sona? id like to know more about them :D

Oh heck yeah! I’d be happy to talk about it [but be warned, once I start talking I’ll never stop..]

Nerium/Neri, the weird hijabi cat you might see everywhere on my blog is my main persona/mascot and basically just an artistic representation of myself, so anything that applies to them also applies to me LOL.

Neri is genderfluid/nonbinary and fluctuates with using any pronouns! It doesn’t really care about labels and is, truthfully, just a creature. An entity if you will. He doesn’t enjoy the idea of being perceived and prefers to be a background character. Neni is what I call that stupid chibi version of him with the big ass eyes. His design is always changing cuz I’m never satisfied sighh.

She has the social, navigational, and life skills of a toddler [that is to say, she can’t really do anything right]. She’s pretty slow and clumsy, always stumbling around and losing a constant battle with the world [he is not gods strongest soldier] Also, he’s an insomniac, so I often draw him with eye bags. Neri would prefer to stay indoors and sleep until noon, but he’s got work to do and is something of a procrastinator.

One of the most important things about Nerium is that they are kind of state of like? Mental disassociation? Their mind is so fractured and split that it kind of manifests as these multiple alter egos or personalities? Typewriter/Type being one of these. I call them PersoNeris :3

Typewriter is the more serious, stoic, work oriented one and is the biggest perfectionist ever. Constant resting bitch face. A bit of an ass. I made this comparison before but he’s kinda like the Inner Critic to Nerium LOL

As for Noodle… that’s what I call the ugly tiny little doodle version of Neri. The Neri Doodle. Noodle if you will… Typewriter has a version of the Noodle called a Toodle! Their designs are meant to simple and drawn super quickly so I don’t waste time on details [Noodle specifically doesn’t have arms unless absolutely necessary, then it just appears out of thin air!]

I will say, Nerium doesn’t have much “lore” [as in, fictitious story lore] because like I said, he’s just an over exaggerated version of me. However!

[I know you probably didn’t ask but I enjoy yapping] Since maybe… four or five years I’ve been working on this original world building project called Blood Magic, and it is so dear and special to me and I could talk about the lore all day long. I’ve spent countless hours working and writing stuff for this story I’m sorry I get annoying about them. Basic rundown is that there are two gods -an author and an illustrator- called the Higherups, a council known only as the overseers, a tribe of demons and angels [typical fantasy story shtuff], a planet I dubbed Planet Nerium inhabited by humans, animals and… furries..

The two main characters are the false-protagonist/antagonist type character named Trinity -Trick- Ambrose and a furry cat protagonist named Trip Sterling. I’ve drawn and posted about Trip before! My daughter!

Blood Magic is split into two “seasons”, each with multiple acts. There’s BM: Total Anarchy and BM: The Heart Keeps Beating [TA and THKB for short]. The idea is to turn this into maybe a series of novels or some sorta indie animated series? We’ll see.

I’ll save the lore dumping for some other time, but only if yall are interested XD

Thanks for the ask anony!!

[wtfforged]

🖊!!!!

well im feeling awfully wizardacious rn so ill post n talk about my inspiration list for aescwynn, how about that.

see, the funny thing is, actually going into his campaign the first session, i had NO idea what aescwynns personality/character would be like. i just winged it. i tend to do that. so technically these are all like, post-inspirations. he existed and then changed after his conception. except for mando. for obvious reasons of helmetry business. but aside from that, for his design i just saw the trait in the reborn race description about phantasmal limbs replacing your missing ones and whipped up the entire design based on that. so these are all character based mostly. explanations under read more

(i swear to god i didnt forget about doing these asks its just that i realized that ive Never Actually talked about my ocs before without doodle assistance unless under extreme torture or you are my DM. these are not mutually exclusive. im shy)

mandalorian: again, obviously the helmetfreak part. antisocial, overly serious, overly quiet and very traditional/sticks to the books. however, hes a bit of a softie.

larry doompatrol: the biggest insp for his personality. like i think i unconsciously completely copied him, i just recently started slowly rewatching doom patrol after a couple years and my eyes boggled at the fact that every time this guy was on screen i was like "sighh hes so aescwynn core. they copied my stupid wizard and made him green". i have like 8 clips saved over only the first couple episodes just to look at and go god aescwynn is real they put him on tv. anyways. to put it simply, he inherited his pushover-y-ness and sopping wet personality.

olruggio wha: kind of gruff but a sweetie. modest and easily flustered. please take a nap

vash trigun: i only watched the first few episodes of 98 and stampede so i didnt know what he was ACTUALLY like. but i liked the Cowardly Acrobatic Pacifist that is actually really cool when he wants to be bit he had going. also he inspired his outfit somewhat.

caleb cr2: the least inspirational tbh but i noticed similarities in my recent attempted rewatch. shared guilty-dirty-and-sad-hobo-wizard-ness. you get the idea. so i shoved him in there

nott cr2: alcholic scaredy klepto with a terrible coping mechanism. body dysphoria. etc

extra not-really-an-insp but i realized i now draw aesc the same as i draw sanji, or like, the way i draw him is definitely inspired by oda's art, specifically the way he draws sanji and sanji's poses. theyre both just Lines and Legs at their very core. just stickbugs. living actionlines

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Okay phew they're at the airport

Oh lol trying to hide it

Yeah fair enough I think he'll be alright xd

Ohh they weren't originally gonna go by plane :o

Oh gosh 😬 xd

Okay that's good enough

Right go go go 😬!

Oh dang yeah they running okay o.o fair enough yeah!

Ahh yeah 😬 idk I think we can trust her but they better not pull something with her xD

Okay phew they made it :)

Oh hey Bobby :)) nice to see you again

Oh they're eating

I was wondering what those were, like a weird table read or something xD

Ahh real lol

Ooh I was thinking he might know :o

Or also they were kind of doing this as PR a bit, like to get him out there, be clear he's still working, idk something along those lines

Anyway

Ohh I see I see :O

So he wants to learn like real stuff lol

Yk he reminds me of Nick Blood but I don't think he is

Oope okay everything xD

OPE everything LOL XD

Poor Bobby xD man is not the type for this

Like I don't think anyone is eventually but him from the beginning xD

Oh gosh xd this is not gonna go well lol

Hey guysss

Lol the bee guts xD

Because Gerrard's not satisfied?

Ahh because you go out on call again xD

Ah well that's good :D

Aaaoh gosh and there he is xd speak of the devil lol

Sighh xd

Is he pointing at the floor xD

Okay good job Buck

We hate him but it's for the best-

Sighhh

Ohh no 😐😭 :')

Buuuck

Uh ohhh

Their sighs xD

Lol Eddie's "stop it 😬"

Okay Gerrard chill

Ik he sucks but still xD I can say chill lol

He won't follow it but I can try 😭

U h

U h o h

IS THAT HIS PARENTS WORDS IN HIS HEAD TOO 😭😭💔-

Okay no just Gerrard I think but dang o.o still

That would've been crazy though

OHHH NOOOO

BUCK ARE YOU ABOUT TO FIGHT HIM

BECAUSE WHILE THAT WOULD BE AMAZING YOU WOULD ALMOST DEFINITELY LOSE YOUR JOB O.O

Ohhhhhh nooo Buck Buck Buck Buck

OH C R A P HE WENT FOR HIM

- OH WAIT NO THERE WAS A FLYING SAW

AND BUCK SAVED HIM O.O OH DANG :OO NICE GOING BUCK :D

Not that I love Gerrard but yk saving somebody's life

Unless he was actually trying to attack him and it was chance but xD I don't think it was

OH C R A P

NOPE DIDN'T YOU KILLED HIM O.O

LOL EXACTLY LOL

UH OH

U H

O H

Crap xd

That's not good

Hey guysss

Ope yeah police, good idea

Oh well at least we're almost there

Nahh it's happening lol

Like to call the police?

Ahh the captain lol

Oh nice :D

Ohhh no

OH CRAP

THAT'S NOT GOOD

AHHH CRAP-

DANG THEY GOT HIT O.O

Ohhhh noooo 😬😳😬😬

OH NO ATHENA

Well that's not good o.o

Ahhh crap

Gosh they can't have one day of peace can they xD

I know it's the first episode but xD these poor babeys lol

[lemonynuggets]

for yttd asks ( https://www.tumblr.com/lemonynuggets/749649632519487488 ),,,,, i don't know who else has submitted this. ough

2,7,9,13,15,21,28

YAYAY I GET TO TALK ABT YTTD YAYY

2 : who is your least favorite character in the game?

I'm afraid it is fucking Keiji sighh what is his deal dude. I'm sorry (no really) Keiji fans

7 : if you had to kill one character, who would it be?

Midori... he is a fascinating character but by gods he's like the one that did the most shit in the game. Like making all the characters sign the consent form for example idk I think that's maybe a little fucked up + the entirety of chapter 3 could've been a lot less awful if he was dead + I'm well aware he technically died once and he dies at the end of the coffin game but nothing stops me from killing him before all that. Me and Alice are killing him together with the power of friendship and this gun I found

9 : which character dynamic/friendship is your favorite?

THIS ONE IS REALLY HARD TO CHOOSE but uhh I think it's Sara and Ranmaru because it's SO INTERESTING, I'm looking at this plot-wise and not friendship-wise so like ransara is absolutely fascinating, it's completely one sided and Ranmaru's entire character is built around it, on both routes he goes kinda mental just because of this random girl. I'm studying their dynamic like they are bugs in a lab

Otherwise I really love Midori and Shin's dynamic plot-wise too and wish it got more explored on chapter 3 and I love love love little dynamics like Sara and Joe or Sara and Kai AND GREENBLINGS!! Shin and Kanna save me. I cannot escape wholesome relationships doomed by the narrative but also bound by the narrative. Do you get it

13 : which character would you get along the most with?

This really depends on the circumstances we meet but if it was in the death game then I think Gin. I can't explain why it just makes sense to me

15 : whats a part of canon do you dislike? 

The way the characters move on from stuff too quick sometimes... I know they've been through a lot and by now they're kind of used to things but like. On emotion route Shin just died and Kanna barely grieves!! She barely gets to feel sad about it!! And Shin barely reacts to Midori and all the shit he sees on chapter 3, or how the game moves on so fast from Ranmaru trying to put the Joe AI in his body and stuff like that... it's kinda silly but it just feels unnatural idk

21 : what is your favorite attraction from chapt 2? which one is your least favorite? 

charge card battle was pretty fun and also didn't require motor skills so I could say it was my favorite + I ABSOLUTELY DESPISE FLY SWATTER FUCKING INSECSE ATTRACTION I HAD TO DO IT 7 TIMES I HATE IT

28 : if you had the sacrifice card, would you be able to get out of the DG with a massacre ending?

Ok this one is hard.... I have a real hard time evaluating what I'd do in a situation, there's no way to know if I would panic or not but if I manage to stay calm I think I could act my way out of it by staying really quiet during the discussion and just overall copying Kai on the first main game so everyone would think I'm the sage and vote for me, otherwise I would probably be too nervous to think of something and would blow my disguise methinks

[calvatier]

no rest for the wicked or whatevaaaa,,, Carrion,,, they're so sick and twisted,,

I thought ABT their backstory a lil more along w some world lore,,,,them and Marth being teenage sweethearts is still so 😞😞SIGHH they could've been so good tgt

Ramble

So Marth came from a clan of orcs/half-orcs and he was the son of the chief but he naturally had a more gentle disposition as compared to his father and most of the clan. At first, his father thought he'd grow out of it but Marth continued to get softer and softer and he couldn't risk letting the heir of his clan be weak.

The clan occasionally sends their strongest orcs out to do mercenary work to earn some money for trading. The chief thought that sending Marth out there with a few clan members would toughen him up. Marth went but reluctantly, he did his missions but they weren't too difficult for him (as in morally/ethically, they were fine) and deep down he wanted to make his father proud as well. During this time that he was sent out (which was about 6 months to 2 years) Marth met Carrion who was a local townsfolk at the town that he was looking for work in. They got along well and he would occasionally invite them back to his camp to talk, the other soldiers didn't dare to object because he was the chief's son and they didn't mind at the time. They got very close over the period of time and Marth would often confide in Carrion about how he wants to make his father proud as an heir but he doesn't want to be a violent leader. Carrion would always assure and support him in his goals and how he's a gentle person.

Yapapapa they get close and one day Marth agrees to take Carrion to see one of his final missions but the mission was sabotaged after Marth made a bad choice with his planning and caused a lot of destruction. Carrion was trapped somewhere and Marth had to make a choice. To save the cargo/mission or to save Carrion.

He loved Carrion but he wanted to be redeemed in his father's eyes as well. He couldn't choose to he tried to do both which caused him to put his clan members, himself and Carrion at even more risk. In the end, he couldn't save Carrion and had to stick to the mission. But when he returned to the clan, his misdeeds were told to his father and after hearing what he'd done, his father couldn't handle anymore of Marth's so-called 'inadequacy' and was ashamed to call him a son. Putting his own clan members at risk and even thinking of putting another person before his own family was something frowned upon. After so many years of tolerating Marth's gentle nature, his father finally grew frustrated with him and decided that he didn't want to associate with Marth anymore. He was branded as a failure to his clan and exiled. He lost his people and his love.

Meanwhile, from Carrion's POV, it seems like Marth abandoned them for his own selfish needs. As they were about to die, someone offered them help. Clinging onto that last hope, they accepted it and was made into a vampire spawn. At first, Carrion tried to understand Marth's decision but they quickly grew bitter under the mentorship of their master who seemed to use Carrion's fragile mental state as a way to manipulate them to do his bidding. Carrion started to gain questionable morals and opinions about people and even started carrying out gruesome and immoral crimes against others

[7ban-sama]

Now that miss 2n2n mentioned it, I feel like Chasriel and Amatsuka have a similar dynamic… what do you think about it?

Generally speaking, I agree with my wife. She's quite smart. Smarter than me about many things. Hehe. But I do just have a bias... Chasriel is a big ship of mine & has been for years. :3 Can't help but at times see some commonality... at least in ah, the appeal for me, and why I am drawn to each of these.

I think the funniest... 'strongest' shared trait is the sheer, BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!! emotion Chara and Asriel share... We get all these details of their childhood, and it feels loaded in sentimentality. Matching striped shirts, matching heart lockets, shared toys, playing in the garden together... I love that Asriel delighted in Chara enough to like, want to record them. Hehehe!!! Do a scary face!! (⬅ help him... he's sick...) All that good stuff though. Even ahh, that thing we learned, where Asriel would copy the way Chara filled their water cups... Sighh. When you compound the stuff we've seen of Kris and Asriel's childhood, it gets unbearable really. (Thinking of Kris as like, a combination and unification of Frisk/Chara's identities, informing us more about Chara and Asriel. Sort of like AU versions of self.)

I think what glimpses we've seen of the Yugi, we can allude that there were many moments spent together, blissful, enjoying each other's company. Even if perhaps life was difficult around them, they had each other.

So many moments spent, indoor and outdoors, day and night. Holding hands, laughing, ahhh, oooh, the bliss-! Enjoying the beauty of life! And I think in each respective dynamic, the point is they were once like this, before tragedy strikes... That's like, why it's so sad that everything ended the way it did.

Though, entering kinda delusional talk, I think similarly there was some sort of...? Destructive, addictive element... Perhaps whatever lead to Amane being bound in rope and scraped up is, in a sense, comparable to Asriel dutifully feeding Chara buttercups. Even if the motivations perhaps are ultimately different? Chara wanted to save the underground; I think Amane was far more selfish with his motivation to kill Tsukasa and himself. I think Chara envisioned a future for Asriel where monsters would inherit the earth and he could see the surface, w/o them as a burden of a sibling. (A bit closer to Tsukasa's martyring, in that way.)

Anyways deep down I like to think Chara and Asriel were sick off of the... romanticizing of Asriel's loyalty to Chara, poisoning them... They were edgelord children. I think there was a lot to be felt, about meticulously bringing Chara buttercups, and this making them sicker. Keeping it a secret from mom and dad... The endgame of soul absorption, not a small boon either. Desire to become one? Meld? The idea of 'take your soul in me', between these two very close individuals, feels like it didn't go without... some sort of idealization. Didn't it at least sound kind of mystical, incredible, some final act, to become one... I figure Asriel just wasn't ready for the raw consequences of when Chara was finally, fully dead, and he had to interact with their corpse.

Meanwhile, for the Yugi, I also think the whole ropes ritual came with a sense of secrecy, loyalty to one another. Indulging in harming, being harmed, permitting each other to do that. The satisfaction of, I really would let you do anything to me... For Amane, who is chronically bad at expressing himself, it might have just felt so satisfying, he couldn't give it up. Even if it was making them both unwell.

In both of these instances... I think the destructive paths provided a way to express intimacy that the everyday platonic shenanigans couldn't. Which makes sense to me, for incest-?? The nature of it is, your relationship naturally has a 'limit' of closeness. Your family, you'll always be family, and family can play together in the backyard, but family can't... consummate... You can't be crazy and obsessed with one another more than, you love your parents, it's not how it works. But what do you do, if you feel it anyways? What if you're desperate for a means to prove to one another something — even if you're not fully aware of it? Amane never liked to look his feelings head-on, Asriel seems to have been processing for years that no one could replace Chara...

On the raw physicality side, it could have simply been satisfying to be bound and helpless, under Tsukasa's hands. Biting rope, the accruing injuries. Invasive touch...? And there was a point Chara was bed bound, but still being fed flowers. What did Asriel feel, going to the gardens, bringing back buttercups... touching their face? Hand-feeding them? Affirming they're going through with the plan? Later, as Flowey, Asriel is obsessed with the idea of getting to kill Chara again, over and over... I don't think he can conceptualize anything else more intense, than this act. The omega flowey fight is grossly sexual to me btw, the dialogue obscene. He would like to trap Chara endlessly in the void and be in a loop of stabbing/being stabbed kfkfkf... But IDK if Amane and Tsukasa can conceptualize more bc they just seem stupid horny for the thought of TSUKASA BEING RENDED TO PIECES, UNRECOGNIZABLE, AGAIN... SO..... *THROWS MY HANDS UP* This is what I mean by the ADDICTIVE quality of it all... When two people can't just go "I love you" and kiss, for many many complicated reasons, it feels like this is the best proxy.

(An aside: Chasriel is closer to 'childhood best friends' since they weren't raised very long together, but I think the interspecies is it's own sort of taboo. Meanwhile in Deltarune, Krisriel is more directly incest.)

I'm rambling without direction here, but I did just wanna tack on, Toby Fox is... a weeb, nerd, likes Japanese media and culture. They're clear inspirations for UT... so I feel like that kinda rings through in the themes. The fact that he's endeavored to learn JP, go to Japan, conduct interviews exclusively in JP... further gives me the impression the JP fandom is something he wants to engage. Perhaps, it's uniquely rewarding? And I find JP fandom sooner understands Chara and Asriel's story... Regardless of like, whether or not they ship or don't ship tbh, I think the whole childhood sentimentality contrasted with their mutual death, is understood... They loved each other, they spiraled into this, and ultimately they couldn't be without each other. And even after they died, it seems the force of what they did to one another...? Has kept them existing, even though they've been chopped & screwed. This is actually another interesting detail tbh, like I wonder as JSHK progresses... if Yorishiro Tsukasa will feel as ah, warped/been through so much, deconstructed what time even is... as much as Flowey does? Acting in an extreme way, perhaps more extreme than Azzy would ever be inclined to in living, as far as we know. It's interesting...

These are my thayoughts. Enjoi

[teruwasright]

Ok....I hate this though.

Sighhhh I'm not trying to attack anyone in this post but this is more to the og post than the reblog- but I seriously can't stand this though bc people are using it to call Teru a murderer.

Sighh I've already made a post about this but I gotta defend my man until the end-

First. Teru has ALWAYS been a brother first. Kou has ALWAYS been an exemption and we've seen it multiple times- he let Hanako go the first time bc of Kou, he let's his sister keep a mokka as a pet, the first thing he thought of to ask Akane when it came to his favor was to protect Kou, Teru let Kou handle The Red House even tho Akane protested, he even let Kou come with him to the Far Shore and then LET HANAKO GET AWAY AGAIN- bc be honest if Teru REALLY put being an exorcist first kou wasn't putting up much of a fight against him, Teru could have pushed Kou out of the way and went after Hanako BUT HE DIDN'T. And the first thing Teru did when a dangerous supernatural showed himself was to GET KOU OUT OF THE WAY- EVEN THO IT PUT AN OPENING ON HIM- HE HAS ALWAYS PUT BEING A BROTHER FIRST BEFORE BEING AN EXORCIST. Teru would normally NEVER do any of the things listed but it was KOU- if Teru was an exorcist first he would have exorcized Hanako the first time.

Second. Teru ISN'T a fucking animal. Teru has shown restraint with supernaturals MULTIPLE times and on multiple occasions- he CAN control himself, if he was nearly as violent as yall say he is Hanako would have been exorcized in The Young Exorcist arc or sooner.

Third. Teru already knew. Teru knew Kou was dead he just didn't want to believe it. This man has been around the supernatural world his entire life he WOULD KNOW when a spirit/supernatural is near by- he already knew that's why he looked so distraught when he yelled Kou's name- and another thing...his blade never touched Kou...it was his spirit lightning and Kou even says so- he never layed a hand on him until the very end- and the fact he already knew explains why he went to the well IMMEDIATELY after...he was confirming what he already knew he just didn't want to believe it. And even at the end Teru did what was best for Kou...Kou would have never wanted to stay there and hurt people especially Nene and Teru knew that- it broke him to do it but it was what was best for Kou...and he has and ALWAYS will put Kou first...

This isn't to say Teru still wouldn't feel guilty ofc- ofc he would- he had to exorcize his damn brother- he wasn't there to protect him when he needed it, he's alive and he isn't...it will haunt him...always....but feeling like a murderer and BEING one are TWO DIFFERENT THINGS.

I hate that people are so intent on the fact Teru's an "animal" to the point there accusing him of "murderer" and saying he's an "exorcist first" when that has literally NEVER BEEN TRUE.

Sighhh sorry about how aggressive this sounds it just makes me mad bc this literally isn't and never has been true and it breaks my heart seeing people still even now view Teru as a monster...even if you don't realize it you all do...you view him as a monster even if you don't realize it and it's sad how dehumanized Teru is not just in the mange but in the fan base too....

Also just saying....with the fact Teru knew Kou was dead with all of that IF Kou could have been saved...Teru would have also known...

You know the most fucked up thing about ch. 120 is that it reinforces Teru’s character. It reinforces the fact that he is an exorcist first, brother second. He struck with precision, even though he called his brother’s name he still struck. I wonder if he knew what he was doing or if it was all muscle memory at that point. If all he saw at first was a supernatural attacking a person and not his brother. Did he know in his heart that his brother was gone or did he hold out hope that he could break the possession. Do you think he’ll lay awake at night think more about what lies at the bottom of the well, or that he didn’t hesitate to strike his brother the one he gave up so much for.

[dreamofdawn]

✧✧You ask and you shall receive.✧✧

Main pairing: Vox x Reader/You

Au: None

Genre: Angst (fluff in the end?)

Characters: Vox Akuma, Reader

Type: headcanon, [ONE SHOT], or series

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THE SPIRIT AND THE DEMON

Have you heard of the spirit and Demon story?

Long ago before todays time, their lived a Voice Demon with his clan. It was said that the demon was so powerful (malamng demon eh) that no one can stop him. Although maybe their was someone who can...

"'sighh' I can't believe that grampa. Why did he even make me the next heir of this forest?...oh wait I'm the only heir." A spirit said as she looked around the forest before walking around to see the creatures that lived there. 'honestly it's kinda lonely being here. But what can I do? Humans don't accept spirits so I can't just go and be friend one.'

She crouch down before starting to draw stickmans. Y/n a fox spirit that currently guards the forest of dark, although the name has dark in it the forest is anything but dark. Green trees, bright flowers, and delicious fruits can be seen.

...'CRUNCH!'

'huh?' her ears stood up trying to hear the noise again. 'maybe it's just an animal. But then again animals here aren't demons are they.' she stood up and began walking where the noise is. 'i swear if it's wild demon I'll probably pass out.'

Walking closer to it, her tail was swinging slightly left and right before she pushed the bush and saw a Man in a traditional Japanese clothing. He had black hair with a little bit of red on it, he looks quite handsome. He was looking around the forest quite confused. 'who is this guy? Why is here and how the hell did he even found this place?!'

The said man Suddenly turned around where the fox spirit was, before walking to her. 'Holy shit! His coming over here what do I do??? Oh wait I'm a spirit not a human.'

She then disappeared before the demon could even see her, before appearing behind him. " Hey you! Who are you and what are you doing in my forest you demon?!"

The demon put his hands up in defense trying to show that he means no harm. "Look lady I mean no harm to 'your' forest alright? I was walking around and got lost a little."

"hmph. Alright then but I warn you if your bring any harm to this forest or me, be ready for what's coming to you..Demon.' she said before turning around and disappeared from the demons vision. He looked around but couldn't sense her anymore, he decided to just walk around a little more. Not nothing that fox was watching him the entire time not trusting him one bit on what he would do .

Years passed since their first meeting the demon who he introduced himself as Vox Akuma continued visiting the forest for the fos spirit much to the spirits dismay. As time fly by they started talking more (more like Vox teasing her and him almost dying because of it) Eventually everything changed both started having feeling for each other and soon started dating (she almost throw him into a river because of more teasing) More time flew like the wind and soon both got married, time meant nothing to them as both of them are immortal, both believe everything will stay the same forever. But forever is not that big of a word of them..

Fire everywhere, animals running, flowers dead, every single thing in the once beautiful forest burning from fire that was ambushed by humans. The fox spirit tried everything but nothing can stop the damage that has been done, so for the last time she used all of her power to save anything from the dying forest....but using that much energy can kill her.

"YOU HUMANS! HOW DARE YOU LAND A HAND ON MY FOREST! ALL OF YOU ARE THE SAME! I'LL KILL EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!"

She did everything, she killed all of them but with a cost. She fell down on the ground weak and frail. She heard running footsteps towards her before kneeling and holding her.

'so..warm, it's like grampa is here again'

"Y/n! What happened? Please don't die on me I can't lose you!" Vox plead as he hugged her weak body, tears runny down his face as he caressed her face looking so pale it scared him.

"Vox?..." She said opening her eyes as he looked at her husband, she too was scared leaving him but what can she do? The forest was burned to ashes little to nothing remained, the curse has started and all can she do is lay at her lovers arm slowly leaving this cruel world. "Vox if I ever... reborn again..can you find me?" As she laid there slowly putting her hand on his face.

"Yes I will find you even if it takes a hundred years! I will find you but please don't leave me..I'll do anything just...please" the demon plead hugging her tighter feeling her body slowly going cold.

" 'chuckles' then I'll be waiting for you..my Demon.." soon her eyes went dull her hand fell from his face to the ground. Rain started to pour, accompanied by thunder and lightning.

Vox Akuma the voice demon, screamed as his wife died in his arms, their was nothing he can do. He knew the curse she told him that, he promised he won't anything happen yet he did. He was too late to save the forest and to save her...

"Although I think there is something you should know before staying with me."

"hmm? And what's that dear?"

"so you know that curse of the forest right? So basically if the forest somehow Burns or gets destroyed..I'll be going down with it too. That's what the curse is, so be warned you demon."

"hahaha, alright dear. But I promise you I won't let anything happen to you or the forest my dearest."

Time skip

A h/c girl stoped at a building looking up at before she entered. 'hm I think this the building I'll just sit down and wait for someone to call me, I swear that old man he really made me go to an interview with even being informed.'

"Is Y/N L/N here?" A woman asked as she looked around, the said girl looked up before walked to her. "Please enter this way."

Time skip after the interview (I can't make interviews that good okay?😭)

" 'sigh' Finally! I'm out let's go to the store that old man really like making me his errand runner" she exited the building before going to the nearest convenience store to look for the things she needed.

She got a basket before preceding to look for the things, Suddenly she bumped to a stranger. "Ah! Sorry sorry."

" 'chuckles' it's fine I'm the one who should be apologizing I wasn't looking where I going. Sorry miss." A deep voice said as the man helped her pick her stuff, both of them soon stood up and looked at each other, the man eyes widen as he looked at the woman who he believed died because of that stupid curse.

"Sorry again, thank you for helping me pick up my stuff though. My name is Y/n L/n by the way." She introduced her self as she held her hand out for a hand shake. The man looked at her hand before slower rasing his to give a handshake.

"The name is Vox Akuma"

End?

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A/n: hi! Sorry if it's a little short hehe I ran out of idea in the ending part. First fanfic woohoo 🙌

[waternstreams]

Zise de:

"Love interests? None that ik of... Uhh... family- well I don't know my actual parents yet, I got to say Macaque is the one who raised me my whole life but one day I might know my actual family..."

Creator:

Zise de finds her actual family (her alive father and ded Mother) years after season 5 takes place. But her family other then Macaque is a celestial princess named Zizi (another oc of mine) she became a celestial gaurd...then her father Maokong (another oc)

WE DONT TALK ABOUT WHAT I NAMED HIM- I WAS OUT OF IDEAS...LEAVE ME ALONE... xD)

Anyway he is a celestial gaurd too yee they both have lore but this ain't about them yayaayy :D

Zise de was raised for 4 years by another family too....the og family her mom gave her up for...to save zise de. So yes that's zise des family...And when zise de gets older her love interest is this one oc I have sighh I forgot his name 😅🙃

Oh and Zizi also has a brother and afew sisters so that would also be Zise de's family as well.....and Maokong has an older brother who's a jerk but that is also another family member of hers.

Do any of you champs have love interests or any family members?

I'll rb this one for propaganda too!!

[charlotteswriting]

Rantaro, Shuichi, Kokichi, Fuyuhiko and Kaito with a super sweet and kind SHSL plushie maker? Like they love everybody! So what would their reactions be if they were found crying because some bitc- I mean very unkind and rude person made them cry?

I know I said I’d take a break but no hahah I just can’t stop myself from writing 😳 Also I’m aware this request took forever but hope you like it! 💞 -Mod Kaede

Rantaro Amami

He finds you so cute if you ask me

And thinks you are really easygoing, I mean you love everybody!

You’re just so sweet

He won’t hesitate to call you cute names, too

When he first found you crying, he was confused

What happened?

“Y/n? Are you okay?”

When you told him about it he immediately went from :0 to >:0

Big brother mode activated

Ok but he’s so understanding

100% hugging you and telling you it’s okay

Also always welcoming any hug coming from you anytime

“Don’t cry anymore, Y/n, come on,” Holds you to calm you down, ugh 😭

Next time he sees them he’ll make sure to talk to them about it

You know how serious he is? Yeah, he’s like that

But for now, he’ll just make sure you’re being loved

Shuichi Saihara

Aw, you’re so sweet for his soul

You make him blush all the time-

I mean you just care so much- it makes him want to cry

And you always give him gifts, too

Adorable

He thought no soul could be mean towards you- You’re just like an angel

But welp, there you were, crying

“Hey, Y/n! There’s-.. Y/n?”

He felt upset, I mean there were times where you pouted, but you were literally crying

“Y/n, are you okay...?”

He wanted to hug you but he did want to respect your boundaries, too

But boy, did you need it

He slowly wrapped his arms around you and let you cry it out

He listened to you carefully and he was like, how?

Tries to change the subject so your mind isn’t full of bad thoughts- Probably brings you snacks or sweets

He wouldn’t leave your side until you were feeling better!

Please stop crying, he doesn’t know how to comfort you at all- he’s trying

Kokichi Ouma

How do you stand him, just asking

You’re very kind and he’s just.. The opposite?

Well sometimes he’s so sweet but most of the times he acts like a brat

But he shows you his sweet side only? Good for you? And you’re sweet to anyone?

I’m sorry but no one’s messing with you. He’s literally the president of “Y/n Love Club”

“Y/n, what’re you doing in the dark?”

He heard your little cries

Oh no

Hell no

“You’re crying?!!??!!?”

“It’s noth-” Say no more

He isn’t leaving until you’re done crying!!

Seriously he’s so clingy lmfao spoils you with lots of love and you get flustered as hell

You two gossip about the person and he can get a bit manipulative and say stuff like “Well, I wouldn’t talk to them if I were you,” he makes jokes on purpose just to make you laugh

“Don’t worry about them, Y/n! I’ll make sure they won’t get away with this.”

Kokichi, NO

Fuyuhiko Kuzuryuu

If you ask me, he can’t take all of this cute stuff

You’re just so wholesome- it’s too much for him

He thought you didn’t mean this at first- how could you be sweet to anyone. But boy, were you serious

And you melted his heart, too xjtjgktgkfh

He won’t admit but he thinks you’re really cute and must be protected at all cost 💞💞 Sometimes his chest hurts because you’re just being so precious

You were really sweet to anyone,, he kind of expected you to get hurt because of this

And then he saw you crying

“Oh, they did this to you?”

“Yeah... Fuyuhiko, what’s that?”

“It’s just my gun”

I-

For now he’ll let Peko handle this

“Y/n Protection Squad”

If you need affection that moment, that’s what he’ll do

You’ll be his number one priority but the next day he’ll have a friendly talk with the person made you upset

Kaito Momota

He loves you so much!!! Ahjdjcngjdxjxjfjc!!4+-&&;&!😭😭😭

He thinks he’s dating an angel, a god, a goddess, historia reiss-

He even names the stars after you-

You’re too good for him

He gets soo cheesy with you and gives you embarrassing nicknames all the time

But you’re crying... On his sight?

Just no

He’ll freak out lmao

“Y/n?!??!??”

He gets really angry with that person-

He gives you the best comfort tbh, he’s just like that

So caring

Also is really sassy lmao

“Well, it didn’t surprise me... They weren’t worth your time anyways,”

Sigh, we all know you are just jealous, Kaito

You should hangout with him, Shuichi and Maki Roll. They’re much more interesting smh and they’ll treat you right!

Also he’ll give them death stares when they’re talking to you from now on- only if looks could kill

A body is discovered???

sighh I’m lacking motivation but I’m trying my best-- ugh, no

Well... I didn’t want to take a break before I finish this. This was saved in my drafts, I’m sorry if these are so bad I dunno what to do anymore lol I’ll be having exams after a month but studying is hard during the pandemic

Aaaanyway, requests are open, I’m writing them oldest to newest, so they might take a while! -Mod Kaede