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enhaniki-san Ā· 3 days ago
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exes - reader x niki āœ¶ā‹†.Ėš
warnings: very suggestive content, cursing, angst, break up, etc.
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it's first day of school for everyone but it would also be the first time you will see niki after the break up.
before, you just suffered alone. uninstalling all social medias so you wouldn't see anything about him but every time you closed your eyes, you would imagine his laugh in your head, the warmth of his touch, his smiles...
you will scroll through messages. his texts that are full of teasing words and reassurances, it's there, all untouched. your fingers would hover over his name, your chest tightening as you debated whether to reach out or not.
"i lost him." you'd whisper to yourself then you would cry and cry and cry every night you wake up with a headache.
the hardest part is realizing that deep down, you just might be replaceable cause he's niki, he can get whoever he wants without even trying so hard.
niki though, he didn't just became distant. he became irritated and short-tempered like... the smallest things would just set him off.
teammate joking about something? niki would snap with his sharp words enough to silence the entire locker room. accidentally bumping into him? his glare would freeze them in their tracks.
and at home, niki would push his food around on his plate, appetite gone. his mom would ask if he was okay and heā€™d just nod without looking up, muttering a quick, "yeah, i'm fine." sometimes, he wouldn't even eat at all.
he would also sleep too much, oversleeping so often that his friends stopped bothering to wait for him in the morning. the mornings where he usually wake up crying.
you were his first girlfriend, one person he actually loved.
you were sitting at your table, surrounded by a group of people from your class, all of whom were currently losing their minds over something you'd said.
"wait, wait- say that again!" one of them choked out, clutching his stomach from laughing too hard.
you smirked, leaning back in your chair with that effortless confidence that somehow came and went depending on the situation.
the table erupted into another round of laughter and you couldnā€™t help but grin, enjoying the attention.
across the room, niki can't help but to watch. he leaned back in his seat with his arms crossed over his chest while one eyebrow raised in a mix of confusion and irritation.
he saw the way you had those guys wrapped around your finger. loud laughters, they leaned in a little too much...
he rolled his eyes, "the fuck?" he muttered under his breath.
"bro, are you mad again?"
niki looked away from you for a second, glaring at his friend. "i'm not mad."
"you're mad." his friend shot back, smirking. "and for what? don't you realize you could get literally anyone you want? like, just pick someone and boom, problem solved."
niki scoffed, leaning forward to rest his elbows on the table. he's becoming very tired of hearing it. "you think i care about that? i don't want anyone."
niki looked back to you. he watched the way you casually flicked your hair over your shoulder and how your eyes sparkled as you delivered another punchline that sent the guys around you into another laughter.
it annoyed him sure but more than that, it reminded him of why he fell for you in the first place.
when niki first transferred to the school, he was used to people staring. everyone wanted to know him, talk to him, be close to him. it was almost exhausting how predictable it was... girls blushing when he walked by, guys either trying to be his friend or acting threatened.
then you came.
you like him, just like everyone. you were shy at first but you weren't afraid to flirt with him in your own way.
you had this maddening ability to make him actually feel something, even when you were just teasing him.
one moment, you'd barely meet his eyes, acting like he was just someone you know.
the next, you'd hit him with some sly remark that left him wondering if you actually like him or if you were just messing with him.
and even after you got together, you didn't stop. you flirted with him at every chance, sometimes so casually that he didn't even realize it until later.
it drove him insane, in the best and worst ways.
you didn't know it but you made him need you. you were niki's constant, his balance, someone he always look forward hanging out with, and person who could make him smile even when he didn't want to.
and thatā€™s why it makes him so much angry now.
whenever niki look at them, he saw himself. the way he used to hang on your every word and the way you could light up a room just by being there.
he sighed, dragging a hand through his hair as his friend nudged him. "you're staring again."
you were both invited to a small house party. it was alive with music and chatter when you walked in.
some of them greeted you, casually mentioning how good niki looked, unaware of the what had unraveled between you and him. others, who knew, just exchanged awkward glances.
niki was across the room and yeah, he looked good, like always. he was leaning against the kitchen counter with a cup in his hand as he nodded along to whatever one of his friends was saying. then he was approached by a girl right after another.
"niki, are you even listening?" she asked, pouting slightly.
he blinked, realizing she was still talking. "uh, yeah." he said though it was obvious he wasn't.
the girl huffed, crossing her arms. "you know what? never mind." she rolled her eyes and walked away, leaving niki standing there and barely noticing her departure.
niki decided to left the party the moment he saw you talking to another guy again. the rain started to pour hard just when he got outside. he cursed under his breath, pulling his jacket over his head as he jogged down the street.
he spotted a convenience store up ahead and stayed under the shed outside, shaking water off his arms as he muttered to himself about the miserable weather.
after a while, he heard the sound of hurried footsteps splashing through puddles.
you were running towards the convenience store, your arms raised over your head in an attempt to shield yourself from the harsh rain. and when you were about to reach the shed, you saw niki standing there. you froze.
your eyes met and niki gulped. quickly, you turned around and ready to just go back at the party.
niki rolled his eyes, muttering a curse. of course, he wouldn't let you stay out in the rain.
grabbing an umbrella from the corner of the shed, he ran after you. "y/n!" he called, but you didn't stop.
he reached you in a few quick strides, grabbing your arm and pulling you to a stop.
"what?" you asked, your voice sharper than you intended.
"you're gonna get soaked, idiot." he said simply, opening the umbrella and holding it over both of you.
the two of you stood there for a moment, and without waiting for your response, he started walking, his hand still loosely holding your arm.
you followed him. not because you wanted to but because it felt easier than standing in the rain arguing with him.
when you reached the shed, niki released your arm and leaned against the wall, keeping the umbrella angled to shield both of you. you crossed your arms over your chest, glancing at him out of the corner of your eye.
niki then sat down down on one of the available chairs, his back's facing you.
and it wasnā€™t long before you felt someone watching you. you glanced up and saw a man who's clearly drunk, swaying slightly as he approached. his bloodshot eyes were fixed on you with an unsettling intensity.
"hey, there." he said, his words slurred but grinning wide. "what's a pretty thing like you doing out here all alone?"
you took a small step back, clutching your phone tighter. "i'm fine, thanks." you said, trying to keep your tone polite but firm.
he didnā€™t take the hint, though. instead, he stumbled closer, shamelessly scanning you up and down. "c'mon, don't be like that." he said, reaching out and grabbing your arm. his grip wasn't harsh but it was enough to make your heart race.
"let go!" you said while trying to pull your arm free but his grip tightened slightly.
niki turned around at the sound of your voice. he stood up immediately, chair scraping against the wet concrete. "back off!"
the drunk guy barely had time to process what was happening before niki shoved him back with enough force to make him stumble. "i said back off or i'll beat the shit out of you."
the drunk guy ran, stumbling away.
you blinked, slightly stunned at niki's sudden aggressiveness.
"you okay?" he asked.
you just nodded, still trying to process what had just happened. "ye- yeah, i'm fine. thanks."
niki looked at you for a moment, his eyes scanned you to make sure you were really okay. he exhaled then sat again as he ran a hand through his damp hair. clearly tensed.
he patted at the chair. "can you sit here?"
"no."
niki shook his head and his lips twiched in disbelief.. "yeah, stand there so your legs will ache."
you scoffed. "why do you care?"
"oh, i don't. i really don't." he said. laughing dryly as if the idea itself was ridiculous.
"i shouldn't have stayed here." you muttered but niki heard it.
"then leave." niki said bluntly. you were about to let it go but of course, he just couldnā€™t stop there. "you're good at that, aren't you?"
you jaw tightens. "oh, don't start with that. youā€™re the one who-"
"you think this is all my fault again?" niki interrupted you. his tone's sharp as he raised his eyebrows at you.
you exhaled harshly, holding back whatever retort was on the tip of your tongue. niki looked away and you both fell into silence.
you both calmed down and ignored each other. but he's right... you're legs were starting to ache from standing. you glanced over at niki who's comfortably leaning back as he dried himself, you sighed. hesitating but eventually, you sat down beside him.
"when did you start beating people up?" you asked, half-joking just to break the tension.
he looked at you with a serious expression. "few months ago."
your eyes widened as you leaned backwards. "seriously?"
niki gave you a confused look. "no, of course not."
you let out a soft laugh, shaking your head at him. you watched him dry his hair, his damp strands falling messily over his forehead. you look at his face longer than it should have and you quickly bit your lip, letting your thoughts wander too far.
you can't believe you had that face between you legs before-
niki turned to you suddenly, squinting as if he could read your mind. you stuttered. "i- i swear i'm not thinking about anything weird!"
but he knows you too well. you gulped and just looked away.
however, niki did not stop staring. at first, it was just like "this girl..." then suddenly questions ran through his head. wondering when's the last time he heard your laugh, when's the last time you're this close to him...
and before he could stop himself, he leaned in, pressing his face to the side of your neck. and his hands crawled to your legs, gripping it gently.
"what are you doing?" you asked, caught off guard.
"who told you to wear this short-ass dress?" he whispered.
a small smile formed at your lips despite the ache in your chest. slowly, you wrapped your arms around his shoulders, your fingers brushing against his neck and one hand found its way to his hair, twisting the strands softly between your fingers.
he pulled back just enough to look at you. his eyes started searching yours, desperate and unguarded. then slowly, niki started to lean in.
you leaned too, meeting his lips halfway and his hand gripping your legs harder. niki kissed you like he was making up for lost time, pouring every ounce of his frustrations and longing into each movement.
he groaned softly against your lips. tilting your head gently, allowing him to deepen the kiss.
as his lips pressed harder against yours, your own lips started trembling. the weight of everything... the breakup, the pain... it hit you all at once. tears formed at the edges of your eyes.
you tried to hold them back.
"i miss you so much." niki said between the kisses.
you broke down, a sob escaped your lips and the tears began to fall freely. niki pressed a quick kiss. "why are you crying?" he whispered.
"because!" you choked out, the words catching in your throat.
he smiled. he didn't want to see you cry but somehow, the sight of you crying filled him with relief. to him, it meant that you still care and that you still feel something.
he cupped your face care and his thumbs brushed against your cheeks. he kissed you again and again, very slow as he savored every moment.
niki hugged you, your arms wrapped around his waist as you cried. he gave you multiple kisses on top of your head.
you started touching his body, his chest up to his neck and jaw, everywhere as you rested your head in his chest, "there's no one like you." you said, adding "i was so lucky."
he's just perfect. truly one of one in the world
after hearing those words, niki kissed you again, smiling. "please be my girlfriend again."
you nodded and laughed. "but i think i'll actually kill myself if i lose you one more time." you continued.
niki just smiled again, doesn't matter if you lose him 'cause he'll just always find his way back to you.
you both began walking down the street, still hugging and touching each other as if you couldn't bear to let go. nikiā€™s hand occasionally grabs your arm or he'd wrap an arm around your shoulders or your waist to pull you close.
"you should sleep at my place tonight."
you bit your lip, shaking your head while smiling. "mmhm, i can't."
"why not?" he stopped walking, and turned you to face him.
"because... i might not be able to walk for weeks if i'll go with you." you said with a smirk.
his heart started racing for a second before laughing, he leaned in close, his breath warm against your ear. "you're right." he whispered, arms snaked around your waist. "it's gonna be so rough."
you pulled back, your mouth dropping open in shock. "i... i can't believe you just said that."
niki shrugged with a cheeky grin. "hey, when it's you saying things like that, it's fine. but when i say it, it's weird?"
"no... it's not weird." you muttered, looking away with a small smile. "i know you're sexy but you just became even sexier. what the hell?"
niki smirked when he heard your last comment, and before you could take another step, he bent down and scooped you up effortlessly into his arms.
you squealed, your hands instinctively grabbing onto his shoulders for balance.
"what?" he said with a teasing grin, holding you like you weighed nothing. "your legs are going to hurt anyway. might as well save you the trouble now."
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chrissturnsfav Ā· 1 day ago
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dunno if u fw tay swift but.. imagine chris and reader at a party and like they are bestfriends but they are both secretly in love with eachother. and in the song ā€œDressā€ by taylor one of the lyrics goes like ā€œi dont want you like a bestfriend. only bought this dress so you could take it offā€ so basicallyyy true love and looking into eachothers eyes in love missionary type sex šŸ˜›
if this would be a bit too long to write, i apologize but i am jot a writer and i cannot execute the idea myself šŸ™
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you and chris confess your love to each other through a taylor swift song, leading to a passionate exchange.
į°”į©š fluff, smut, unprotected p in v (wrap it b4 you tap it), passionate sex, friends to lovers, softdom!chris, alcohol consumption, use of pet names, finger sucking, creampie
į°”į©š w.c. 1,756
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the party is a blur of laughter, music, and neon lights that spill through the house. people are everywhereā€”dancing, talking, leaning into each other in dark cornersā€”but your focus is on chris. it always isā€”especially with a few drinks in your system.
heā€™s standing next to you, holding a half-empty beer, his shoulder brushing yours every so often. each time it happens, it sends a quiet thrill through you, one youā€™ve gotten too good at hiding.
"so lemme get this straight," he says, grinning at you in that way that makes your heart trip over itself. "you actually thought karaoke at me, matt, and nick's birthday party was a good idea?"
you laugh, rolling your eyes, even though your face is already heating up as you talk over the loud music. ā€œit was fun! everyone had a good time.ā€
"you sangĀ lauryn hill and it was fuckin' horrible," he teases with a chuckle, his tone dripping with mock seriousness. "i donā€™t think anyone is over that yet."
"well, here you are, still bringing it up even though it was five months ago," you fire back, smirking. ā€œseems likeĀ youĀ were impressed."
his grin softens into something warmer, something that makes you struggle to breathe. "maybe i was."
you canā€™t tell if heā€™s joking or not, and itā€™s dangerous, this game you play. this flirting that feels too real sometimes, like itā€™s about to shift over into something else. something neither of you can take back.
the music shifts, and suddenly, "dress" by taylor swift is playing. the melody thrums in your chest, and the lyrics weave their way into the air between you.
i donā€™t want you like a best friendā€¦
you glance at chris, and heā€™s already looking at you. itā€™s subtle, but his smile falters for a second, his eyes darker, more intense.
"this song," he says, his voice quieter now, almost drowned out by the music.
"yeah," you manage, trying to keep your tone casual, even as your pulse races.
he takes a sip of his beer, but his hand shakes just enough for you to notice. "itā€™s likeā€¦ a lot, isnā€™t it?"
"depends on how you hear it," you reply, your voice steady, but barely.
his eyes flicker to yours again, holding your gaze for just a beat too long. itā€™s enough to make your chest ache, the unspoken words between you heavy and impossible to ignore.
"you alright?" you ask softly, leaning in so only he can hear you.
he huffs a nervous laugh, running a hand through his hair that falls over his forehead so perfectly. "yeah, justā€¦" he hesitates, his brow furrowing like heā€™s fighting himself. "i need to say somethin'."
your heart lurches. this is it. you can feel it, the edge of something inevitable.
"okay," you whisper, your throat dry.
he looks at you, his expression so open, so raw, it almost hurts. it feels like his usual confidence has diminished into something softer. "the lyrics are hittin' a little too hard," he hints. "i dunno if i want you like a best friend."
your breath catches, your grip tightening on your drink. ā€œchrisā€¦ā€
"i mean, iĀ doā€”" he stumbles over the words, his voice rushing now, like heā€™s afraid to stop. "youā€™re my best friend, and thatā€™s fuckin' everything to me. but itā€™s notā€¦ itā€™s not all."
you blink, trying to process, trying to breathe. "not all?"
he steps closer, close enough that you can feel the heat radiating off him. "iā€™ve been tryin' to ignore it, but itā€™s you. itā€™s always been you. like..i dunno, kid. i guess i just don't wanna pretend anymore."
his words hit you like a tidal wave, washing over every doubt and fear youā€™ve carried for so long.
"chris," you say again, your voice trembling now, but heā€™s already shaking his head.
"itā€™s okay if you donā€™t feel the same," he says quickly, his eyes dropping to the floor. "just felt like i needed you to know."
you reach for his hand, your fingers brushing his, and he looks up, startled.
"youā€™re not wrong," you say, barely able to get the words out.
his eyes widen, and for a moment, he just stares at you like heā€™s trying to make sure he heard you right.
"this dress," you continue, your voice steadier now, but still soft. "i honestly only wore it so youā€™d notice."
the way his gaze darkens, the way his lips part like heā€™s about to say something but canā€™t find the wordsā€”itā€™s intoxicating.
"i noticed, ma," he murmurs, and his voice is rough now, full of something youā€™ve only dreamed about, and then he smirks. that stupid, sexy smirk he always does. the pet name sends shivers down your spine, ma, it rolls off his tongue as if he's been wanting to call you that all his life.
before either of you can think, before the moment can slip away, you grab his hand, pulling him through the crowd. he follows without hesitation, your fingers intertwined like they were always meant to be.
you weave through the hall until you reach a bedroom, pushing the door open and dragging him inside. the music fades into the background as the door clicks shut behind you, leaving just the two of you in the quiet space.
you barely have time to look at him before his hands are on your waist, his lips crashing into yours like heā€™s been holding back for years.
and maybe he has. maybe you both have.
his kiss is everything youā€™ve imagined and moreā€”urgent but tender, full of all the things heā€™s never said but youā€™ve always felt.
his hands grip your waist like heā€™s afraid you might disappear, and youā€™re not much different, your fingers tangling in his hair, pulling him closer, needing him closer.
"fuck," he whispers against your lips, his breath shaky as he pulls back just enough to look at you. his eyes are wild, full of something that makes your knees weak. "iā€™ve wanted to do that for so long."
you laugh softly, the sound breathless and giddy. "me too. me fucking too."
he groans, resting his forehead against yours. "why didnā€™t we do this sooner?"
"weā€™re stupid," you say, grinning, your hand slipping down to rest on his chest.
you can feel the steady, frantic beat of his heart under your palm, matching your own. "clearly."
he laughs too, and itā€™s the best sound in the world, low and warm and full of relief.
"i was so scared," he admits, his voice quieter now. his thumb brushes your cheek, his touch featherlight but grounding. "scared that if i said anything, iā€™d ruin everything. that iā€™d lose you."
your chest tightens, and you shake your head. "nah, you could never lose me, chris. never."
"same goes for you, you know," you add, your voice soft but steady. "i was scared too. but i couldnā€™t stop thinking about you. couldnā€™t stop wanting you."
his lips curve into a small, almost shy smile, so different from the confident, teasing chris you know. "so, what now?" you ask.
chris answers your question when he has you flat on your back on the random bed, your dress hiked up to your waist, his jeans and boxers resting mid thigh. he's holding onto your thighs with a gentle yet firm grip, giving you slow, hard, passionate thrusts.
your arms are tangled around his neck, little, soft moans leaving your glossy lips, lidded eyes staring into his as he pants against your face with his forehead pressed against yours.
"you feelā€”fuckā€”feel fuckin' amazing," he groans softly, his lips ghosting yours, swallowing the little moans you breathe out.
you whine, your eyes rolling back. you knew chris would be good, all those stories about his hookups gave him a reputation, but you'd never think you'd ever be under him. you also never knew he would fuck you almost like he loves you, but not as a best friendā€”as a lover.
"chris," you gasp, arms moving to cup his face and cradle it in your hands, eliciting a whimper from his pretty lips. he moves one hand from your thigh to gently grip your wrist, moving his mouth to press a soft kiss to your palm that makes your body shudder.
"been wantin' this for so fuckin' long," he grunts softly, brushing his lips against yours making chills course through your body.
"m-me...too," you mumble through whines, pressing your lips to his jaw, sucking and kissing at his skin.
chris gasps softly, hissing in pleasure as he bites his bottom lip and closes his eyes, "fuck, keep doin' that and you're gonna make me cum."
you let out a giggly moan against his jaw, laying your head back flat against the bed. "m-mmph," you whine, a little more high pitched as your back arches off the bed, your gummy walls squeezing his lengthy cock. "m-m'close...chris...close..."
he grunts above you at the feeling of your tight pussy squeezing around him, tightening his grip on your thighs, his thrusts growing a little faster and sloppier, "fuuuck...gonna make me fuckin' cum, pretty girl...jesus..."
"c-chrisā€”chris," you whine louder, your eyes rolling back as your jaw falls slack, a knot tightening deliciously in your belly, one you've felt before with other guys, but this time it's different. it's so much better.
"yeah, c'mon baby," he mutters, lidded eyes staring into your closed ones. he gently grips your jaw, brushing his thumb over your plush bottom lip. "open those pretty eyes f'me, wanna see you."
you force your eyes open, lidded and glossy with tears of pleasure, panting against his thumb as your walls squeeze around him tighter and your thighs begin to tremble.
chris smiles sweetly down at you as he gets closer, his thrusts even more uncoordinated and sloppy. "there she is, my girl," he groans softly, gently pressing his thumb into your warm, wet mouth.
his words make your body shudder, a loud gasp leaving your lips as you cum. jolts of pleasure make your thighs shake, your nails sinking into his clothed back, "oh my god," you cry out in ecstasy around his thumb, your jaw falling slack, your eyes still on him.
"i know," he coos, groaning softly at your whimpers and pants as you swirl your tongue around his thumb, "o-oh, fuck, baby, fuck...shit..." he grunts softly.
his body shakes slightly, his hips stuttering as his eyes roll back and he grunts, his fingers digging into your thigh as he cums deep inside you. you've never felt so full, your wet pussy stuffed full of his cum making you whimper in pleasure.
after cleaning up, you both step back into the party, the two of you still glowing with the electricity of what just happened, everything feels different. brighter.
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š—®š˜‚š˜š—µš—¼š—æ'š˜€ š—»š—¼š˜š—²: i'm not a swiftie so i hope i executed this well enough! also sorry if it was a lil corny eek.
thank you for reading!! <3
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alarajrogers Ā· 1 day ago
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In many cases it's been revolution and genocide. The French Revolution murdered thousands of French people who were not nobility, as well as wiping out most of the nobility, and Communist revolutions have a bad habit of also killing a lot of educated people (and Jewish people, in countries where Jewish people are -- not many Jews in Cambodia to begin with, but many Jews in Russia were killed after Russia went Soviet.)
Revolutions are not a good thing, generally speaking. The American "Revolution" was an exception because it wasn't a revolution, it was a successful battle against an occupying colonial power -- which meant that it was never about Americans vs Americans, and rich and poor Americans alike could both point to the Brits, who they couldn't get to and therefore couldn't go murder, as the source of their troubles. All they needed to do was terrorize every American who still supported British rule into running away to Canada, and kill enough British soldiers in combat that the Brits withdrew. There was also already a local government that could step in and take over, so no period of anarchy.
Actual revolutions, where the people rise up against their own leaders, result in enormous collateral damage, which usually includes any kind of ethnic minority, queers, people with a different religion, and people in the middle class. The actual filthy rich can usually flee in time.
In some alternate history without Hitler, the Communists successfully took over Germany, but the outcome for queers and Jews would not have been a lot better. Somewhat better, based on what we see from looking at Russia, but not much.
Right now we're at an inflection point where we could go full fascist -- certainly the outcome Donny Boy and his people want -- or we could have a revolution -- lotta people with guns in this country and all they have to do is get sufficiently disillusioned with Don Boy -- or we could successfully ride it out and return to normal liberal democracy as people in general become utterly disgusted with the Republicans' inability to make anything better for anyone. Fascism is somewhat more likely, then liberal democracy return, then communist revolution -- the last one is actually quite unlikely in the US. Or, we could go a fourth way that no one here can predict. Popular uprisings always result in Communism, Fascism, or Liberal Democracy (often where Liberal Democracy very quickly de-evolves into Fascism, unfortunately); even the religious ones are sufficiently totalitarian in nature that it entirely depends on whether the religious leaders lean left or right in their economic ideology, but it'll end up as something a lot like one of those.
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fandoms-x-reader Ā· 15 hours ago
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Mother Figure
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Requested By: @ambitiouslady
Summary: Lucifer and his brothers with an MC where Lucifer acts as the strict father figure and MC acts as the gentle mother figure. Lucifer x Reader (Romantically) The Other Demon Brothers x Reader (Familial) Word Count: 1,322
A/N: The reader is referred to as a mother figure but there are no feminine pronouns.
When you first got to the Devildom, you had no idea what was in store for you. You had no idea what to expect in a situation where a human has to live with a group of demons and has to adjust to their way of living.
You didnā€™t expect to grow so close to the demon brothers and you didnā€™t expect them to be such troublemakers either.
Sometimes, they would try to involve you in their schemes, but most of the time, you were the one they came to after their plan inevitably failed or when Lucifer caught them. They found solace in you.
Lucifer would give them a long and terrible lecture about their wrongdoings while discussing their punishment.
And when he was finally done with his scolding, they would seek out comfort from you.
You had a way of always putting them at ease. Even though, most of the time, you agreed with Lucifer.
Sometimes the brothers were a bit too reckless and you knew that most of the time, Luciferā€™s lectures came from a place of deep care for his brothers. He didnā€™t want anything to happen to them. And in this mind, the only way to stop them from doing it again was to punish them.
He didnā€™t see that his punishments didnā€™t work as effectively as he wished. Luckily, he had you there to help emphasize his point.
You would gently reproach their actions, telling them everything that could go wrong before defending the things Lucifer was saying.
The difference was, they actually listened to you. You had a way of getting through to them - something Lucifer was envious of and something he admired very deeply.
The way that you took care of his brothers (and him) and never complained made him fall for you more and more every day.
You were someone he respected and someone he could depend on and that was something that Lucifer was sorely missing in his daily life.
Before long, you and Lucifer were acting in sync as honorary parents to the brothers. And with your help, some order was restored to the House of Lamentation.
Mammon would go to the casino, but he wouldnā€™t stay out all night or gamble away every last dime he had. And you even got him to turn his assignments in on time.
Levi had learned to spend more time out of his room, actually interacting with the people he called his family. And he cut back on his spending on Akuzon.
Satan still liked to keep to himself, but he noticed that Lucifer was much more tolerable whenever you were with him.
Asmo used to stay out multiple nights at the club and would return when he felt like it; but, after expressing your concerns, he made sure to come home at a reasonable time.
Beel learned to control his ravaging of the fridge and pantry. He was rewarded by your delicious cooking whenever he resisted his temptation, and he came to learn that was always better than eating anything and everything.
Belphie was able to stay awake at least to do the important things - like school and chores. You couldnā€™t even remember how long it had been since he and Satan came up with an Anti-Lucifer League scheme.
And Lucifer couldnā€™t remember a time when he had been happier. It was like you came into his life, picked up all of the pieces, and fixed everything.Ā 
In his mind, you were the perfect addition to the family, and the way you loved all of them - the way you loved him - meant everything to him.
For once, Lucifer could admit that things were nearly perfect. But then, his brothers went missing.
It had been two days since either of you heard from them and the worry lines were about to become permanent on your faces.
You did your best to try and comfort Lucifer and keep him calm as you both searched for them. But, he was teetering on a very fine line of losing his mind, and to be honest, so were you.
You needed to find them - quickly. Because you were sure that Lucifer would uproot all three realms to find them if he had to.
He continuously reached out to his connections around the Devildom while you continued to text and call the brothers - hoping one of them would eventually answer.
Then one day, as you were noticing the dark circles under Luciferā€™s eyes from lack of sleep, the front door to the House opened.Ā 
You held your breath as you both rushed to the door and watched as all six of his brothers walked in with sheepish expressions on their faces.
You were relieved, just glad they were okay, and you immediately approached them to hug them.
As you did, you noticed they were injured and you ushered them into the living room to tend to their wounds.
As you passed by Lucifer, you noticed the look of anger on his face and you braced yourself for the long lecture that he was about to give.
And long was an understatement. You felt like Lucifer went on for years as he harshly scolded them.
You did your best to interject with phrases like, ā€œWe were really worried about you,ā€ and, ā€œIt would kill us if something happened to you.ā€
By the time you were done patching up their wounds, Lucifer was done talking and walked off to go to his room for the night.
You gave them all a small smile and they could feel the love you had for them without you having to state it.
They didnā€™t say it often enough but they were so grateful that of all the choices, you were the human that came into their life.
ā€œGet some rest,ā€ you told them gently, knowing they all desperately needed it. They looked exhausted. And you could always talk more tomorrow.
You watched them all go to bed before heading up to Luciferā€™s room. You knocked softly but he already knew who it was before you did.
He invited you in and when you entered, you saw him sitting on his bed, his usual vest and tie off. You noticed he looked a bit more relaxed now as his shirt was somewhat unbuttoned and his hair was a bit messier than usual.
You came to sit by him on the bed and he looked at you, his black and red eyes shining with love for you.
ā€œTheyā€™re okay,ā€ you told him and he let out a deep breath in response. You swore you could physically see the tension release from his muscles as the feeling of relief flooded his body.
He wasnā€™t good at admitting it. He believed he always had to keep up the strong and strict personality of the first-born. But, he was worried.
You gently took his hand in yours and you couldnā€™t help but smile as you thought about him.
ā€œWhat is it?ā€ he asked, noticing the way your lips had turned upwards. ā€œYouā€™re a great big brother,ā€ you replied, in a gently teasing voice.
Lucifer let out a scoff but you could see the blush rise to his cheeks and for once, he didnā€™t have the energy to deny your allegations.
To take the attention off himself he gently stroked your cheek and told you, ā€œIā€™m lucky to have you. We all are.ā€
He smirked as you were now wearing a blush of your own before gently placing his lips on yours. ā€œThank you,ā€ he said barely above a whisper as he intensely gazed into your eyes, making your heart skip a beat.
And it was in those moments that you felt lucky to have them.
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xitsensunmoon Ā· 2 days ago
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Hiii it's me again!
I was wandering... Has the donor ever snapped and told the vampires to leave? I'm picturing their reactions as different depending on what time in their relationship it happens but...y/n yelling at them to just LEAVE (after an argument or just when they are fed up and miserable bc of their presence alone) and never come back and one or both of them (physically or with words?) threatening them with "do you think you are the one in control? Or that you have a choice and can order us around?". And the donor is just "do it. I don't care anymore" leaning to their claws??? This is my brairot talking btw so bare with me if it doesn't make sense, but would something like that happen? What would S&M reactions be? I'm very much curious šŸ‘ļøšŸ‘„šŸ‘ļø
When tugged at both sides, anyone would snap. You can't exactly afford them to leave, as much as you want them to, your headache would only get bigger. So the furthest you'll go is to order them to leave you alone or leave the house.
When you finally do, the first thing you see on their faces is mostly surprise, somehow neither of them expected your patience to thin this fast. And to your own surprise, they'd concede, maybe with some reluctance, but it would be awfully quiet in the house for the next week or so, to a point of being unnerving.
That's when you realise that maybe, just maybe, you should try to be bolder. To take your own space back, as much as you can.
You'd feel around, walking on eggshells, just to find out that in a lot of things your now housemates don't even mind you to take the lead. If anything, your newly gained liveliness and confidence almost made them seem less intimidating. The knife-like sharpness of their eyes and grins didn't change, but now you somewhat knew how to handle it.
But then you make the same mistake Sun and Moon did with you - push on the wrong button. And even with both vampires towering over you, throwing threats, something clicks.
Have they ever followed through with any of their implied threats? And more importantly -
Would you want to find out if they do?
OK lmao that did not answer your question in any way BUT to be fair it's very difficult to answer djjajd
At the very start you wouldn't be brave enough to, and your attempt to regain control by trying to demand they do as you say would be laughed at, oh what a silly little thing.
When you have known each other for a little while, they'd become just a teeny tiny bit more mindful of how they go about interacting with you, the stakes getting higher the closer you three get.
They are all bark no bite type of guys, despite having done plenty of demonstrating of what they're capable of, never directly hurting you. It does take a while for you to realise that.
But yeah if reader does end up calling them out on said fact as in your example, putting yourself in danger willingly, that's a clear case of you actually finally winning. Both Sun and Moon would be quite distressed by your actions, silently yanking their hand away from you. Moon would angrily grumble something, hurrying to leave the room, while Sun would stand there for a moment with a blank face, before firmly stating "I count on you never doing anything this stupid ever again, yes?" and hesitantly leaving as well.
I doubt they would ever snap back at you when you're distressed, unless they are too.
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burningembers91 Ā· 14 hours ago
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The Gangster's Wife - Hwang Jun-Ho x Fem!Reader (NSFW)
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Follow up piece to:
Sleeping With the Enemy
Please note that this storyline will deal with situations depicting domestic violence.
Synopsis: As your relationship with Hwang Jun-Ho deepens, your husband becomes suspicious
It was getting late, the sun beginning to set in a blaze of colour that stained the sky red. You shouldnā€™t be here, you should be at home, playing the ever-doting wife, waiting for her husband to return. But you couldnā€™t bring yourself to leave, couldnā€™t seemed to tear yourself away from the man nestled between your thighs. Hwang Jun-Ho traced the most exquisite circles over your clit with his tongue, his fingers softly stroking your sensitive core. Your fingers entwined in his hair, holding him in place as you arched your hips further into his touch; you couldnā€™t leave yet. Every day you spent with him, you found it harder to leave, found it harder to return to a man who didnā€™t love you like Jun-Ho did. Your ragged, shaking moans intensified, culminating in a sound that would bring a God to his knees as you came.
His lips trailed their way up your body, his tongue tracing a line from your breasts to your collarbone. Sweat beaded on his forehead as he pulled you close, taking in every inch of your perfect features. ā€œWe need to get you home,ā€ he whispered, peppering a line of kisses along your jaw. He didnā€™t want you to go, he couldnā€™t keep you safe when you were at home. He spent every moment apart from you worrying for your safety. He wished he could take you somewhere far from the city, somewhere where no one could hurt you. ā€œFive more minutes,ā€ you begged, ā€œplease. I need you one more time.ā€ Jun-Ho could never resist you, could never deny you anything. He made love to you again, his lips swallowing your moans as your trembled against him.
He dropped you back at your designated meet up spot, leaving you to take a taxi home. You would pretend youā€™d been out all day shopping, your arms ladened down with bags of designer clothes and accessories. ā€œUntil next time,ā€ you smiled sadly. You never quite knew when youā€™d see him again, your meets up depending entirely on your husbandā€™s schedule. Heā€™d been spending more time at home lately, hosting more meetings in his office. Youā€™d grown worried that he perhaps suspected something, that he was keeping a closer eye on your because he knew you were up to something. You knew you should care about getting caught; your husband was a dangerous man who wouldnā€™t hesitate to inflict on you a punishment far worse than death if he found out you were cheating, but you were powerless to resist the detective whoā€™d been assigned to your case. You never imagined that by going to the police for help, youā€™d have fallen so maddeningly in love with the man tasked with bringing down your husband.
The taxi ride home felt like an age, your mind whirring with thoughts of Jun-Ho. You longed for the day when you didnā€™t have to sneak around, when you didnā€™t need to be apart. Youā€™d spent so long being mistreated by your husband, and Jun-Ho had showed you love that you never knew was possible. What you had with him, that was real love. What you had with your husband was built on a foundation of fear and intimidation. Youā€™d spent too many years cowering in his shadow, locked in a vicious cycle of beatings, apologies, expensive gifts and then more beatings. You knew you were doomed to repeat this nightmare until you died of old age, or he killed you. That was why you went to the police for help, not because of the harm he was doing to the others, but because you were scared of dying. Of course, you hated the way he prayed on innocent victims, the way he took whatever he wanted regardless of the pain he inflicted. But you were terrified of having your life cut short. Of having it ended by someone who was supposed to love and protect you. That was no life for anyone. Now that youā€™d experienced what real love was supposed to feel like, you were more determined than ever to get out.
You arrived home, dropping your bags in the hallway before padding through to the kitchen for a glass of wine. You didnā€™t notice your husband, not until youā€™d taken a large sip of Sauvignon Blanc. He was sitting at the kitchen island, silent and unmoving. ā€œWhere have you been?ā€ He asked quietly. He had such a presence about him, such an ominous aura and you could feel your hands start to shake. ā€œI was shopping,ā€ you lied, not daring to meet his eyes.
Pushing himself off his stool, he casually walked over to you. The tension is in the air was palpable, the fear rising through you like a wildfire. ā€œWhy is your lipstick smudged?ā€ he asked, running his thumb roughly over your lips, smearing the berry-red colour down your chin. ā€œI had a burger for lunch. Must have smudged while I was eating.ā€ You closed your eyes against the fear, hoping that if you kept them closed long enough, heā€™d just leave you alone. Instead, he pushed himself into you, enjoying the terrifying hold he had over you. ā€œI can smell his cheap cologne,ā€ your husband growled, backing you into the fridge with a force that knocked the breath from your lungs. He didnā€™t say another word, leaving you to tremble in the kitchen like a scared little mouse. Heā€™d come back later, when the fear had really set in. Heā€™d show you what happened when you disrespected him.
You stood on the cold tiled floor, clutching the countertop for support. Your head span, your heartbeat pounding in your ears. Grabbing your phone, you sent two words to Jun-Ho. Two simple words that made every ounce of colour drain from his face. He knows.
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rebelliousstories Ā· 2 days ago
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Spencer Reid SFW Alphabet
Relationship: Spencer Reid x Reader
Fandom: Criminal Minds
Request: No by Anon
Warnings: Fluff, Mentions of Cases, Mentions of Alcohol, Brief Angst
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A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
This is really going to depend on how two things: how long you are into your relationship and what season weā€™re talking about.
Early seasons plus early in the relationship means that heā€™s going to be a bit more reserved in his affections. Very rarely will he do more than stand near you if youā€™re in public together. However, early seasons and later in the relationship will grant you hand holding in public, maybe a peck on your cheek if you are lucky.
Now later seasons, Iā€™m talking no earlier than season eight, heā€™s more alright with PDA. Heā€™ll definitely insist on holding hands, and he absolutely will get upset when you donā€™t for whatever reason. Spencer is more prone to kissing in public, especially if heā€™s had a few drinks with the team.
In private though, no matter the season, once heā€™s comfortable with you, heā€™s holding you. Reid loves to hold you in his arms, tucked up against him so that he can feel your body heat. Away from prying eyes is when he is less reserved about his affections. He also really loves laying in your arms, so long as you pick a good book to read to him while he lays his head on your chest.
B = Best Friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
Reid is a goofy Gubler. We all see how he is with the team, and you can definitely expect more of that. He adores having someone that he can turn to for whatever it is. Whether that is someone to cry with, laugh with, or just spend time in silence with. Also, having someone to geek out with is always appreciated.
I could see you meeting at either a bookstore or comic convention, that is if youā€™re not in the FBI already. No matter if itā€™s a bookstore or comic convention, I can definitely see you both reaching for the same thing, and he cracks a joke unintentionally about how you both could just split it.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
You really think this man doesnā€™t like to cuddle? Oh, no. Youā€™re mistaken. He will insist on cuddles. There is nothing more that he loves, especially when he comes home from a case.
If itā€™s a normal day, or if youā€™re upset, heā€™s the big spoon. Spencer loves to have you facing him so that he can watch you sleep, in the least creepy way possible. Tucking you into him, feeling your body heat, heart beat, and soft breaths escaping your nose; all of that makes him feel better. It helps him know that youā€™re there with him. Youā€™re not a figment of his imagination.
However, if heā€™s had a long case, a bad day; Spencer is the little spoon. Itā€™s almost comical how heā€™s able to curl his body up into such a tiny little ball. But this man is going to need one arm wrapped around him, the other hand in his hair, and you reassuring him that everything is going to be okay. Itā€™s the one time that Reid is the quietest, so feel free to spout on about something random. Listening to someone else ramble is soothing to the number one rambler.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
Spencer was a child prodigy; this man cannot cook to save his life. Not unless it was an instant meal that he just had to heat up and eat. So he would be perfectly alright with someone who only knew how to make kraft Mac and cheese. But if you knew how to actually cook, well, you might just be able to make this man eat properly for the first time.
Cleaning, though, heā€™s got that down pat. He will not, under any circumstance let you do it though. Spencer tells you itā€™s because he doesnā€™t want you to get your hands dirty, so he tells you not to clean his apartment even if you live there too. Not because he thinks you canā€™t, but heā€™s got his own process and cleaning solutions that the likes to use and he wont change them. Besides, if youā€™re doing the cooking, he may as well do the cleaning.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
Heā€™s doing it quickly and efficiently, but no matter what, he canā€™t lie to you. Reid is telling you that this is for your own betterment. But heā€™s trying to be sensitive to your feelings while still remaining objective. It makes him feel awful, but he does it.
F = FiancƩ(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
Spencer wonā€™t rush into an engagement, even if he feels itā€™s time. Heā€™s trying to contain himself and the ring, as he waits for your reaction to when he brings up marriage or children. While he wants to spend the rest of his life with you the second he knows it in his heart, he still needs you to realize it. Especially since he doesnā€™t pick up on social queues very well still, and occasionally needs a little help from someone like Morgan or Hotch. Cause he is not going to Rossi about that.
There is nothing more that he wants in the world to call you his forever though.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
Physically, Spencer is a gentle giant. His hands are always soft somehow, and he touched you like youā€™re made of glass half the time. Feather-light touches that will trace random shapes on your skin. He loves to nuzzle his face into your neck and just stay there. The other half is spent tackling you into bear hugs because he hasnā€™t seen you in a week as he has been on the other side of the country. When he decides that he is getting affection, there is nothing stopping him.
Emotionally, Reid is sensitive but not in the way that you would think. Heā€™s not the type to outright say how heā€™s feeling on account of his job. But if you prompt him, and get him into a safe state of mind, heā€™ll mention things casually. Itā€™s especially weird though when he mentions something traumatic in the same way that someone talks about the weather. But with you heā€™s always there to lend an ear. Just be sure to tell him if you want a solution or to vent, because he needs a second to restructure his brain.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
Ughā€¦ a hug from Spencer is something that has the power to change your entire day. He adores hugs. They can mean so many things, and each one is alright with him. If you live with him, heā€™s getting one right before he leaves, and the second you are both home. Heā€™ll squeeze you extra tight if he comes back for his go bag and youā€™re there in the apartment.
Early season Reid, when heā€™s still a little noodley, has to wrap you in tight because he doesnā€™t have the beef to pour what he wants into the hug. Later seasons when he muscles up just a bit are a bit different, because he now has more mass to wrap around you.
I = I Love You (How fast do they say the L-word?)
This man waits, I mean, WAITS, to say it. Heā€™s very slow to trust given his background and job, but once he does, itā€™s not too much more difficult to worm into that romantic side. Once he knows he does love you, Reid is giving it about two or three months before he finally works up the courage to say it. But once he does, he canā€™t stop saying it.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when theyā€™re jealous?)
A feeling that he is not too attune to. Spencer is very sure of himself most of the time. Not only does his credentials and just having you by his side help his self-esteem, but heā€™s also just very sure in your relationship. Reid isnā€™t too worried about you being tempted most of the time, and certainly not himself.
Yet, when he does, itā€™s deprecating towards his own self. Sometimes, Spencer is terrified that you are going to realize that heā€™s not the right man for you; not funny enough, not handsome enough, not cool enough, or something of the sort. The kind of thing that he really only thinks about when his walls have been worn down anyways. But when he does, he retreats into himself, looking a bit like a kicked puppy but refusing to go up to make a fool of himself.
Just come over and fawn over him for a little while, and heā€™ll be back to your lover boy in a second as he becomes putty in your hands.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
Under no circumstances do you need to think about sleepy little kisses when he gets back from a case and youā€™re already asleep, and heā€™s exhausted. Donā€™t think about it.
Now that youā€™re not thinking about that, Spencer kisses you like heā€™ll never kiss you again no matter where or when. Heā€™s terrified, because of his job and the nature of it, that you might be taken from him. So he always makes sure that the last thing he says is, ā€œI love you,ā€ and the last thing he does is kiss you fiercely. He does have smaller pecks when heā€™s just moving about the apartment and you cross paths, but he prefers to kiss you properly. But each time, no matter where he kisses you or where you two are, heā€™s putting so much love in them.
Other than the lips, Reid loves kissing you on top of his head. Being as tall as he is, itā€™s very difficult to be taller than him. Which makes this the ideal spot for him. On the other hand, he loves when you kiss his neck and chest. There is just something so intimate about the placement that he canā€™t get enough of. And it doesnā€™t help that he flushes the prettiest pink when heā€™s blushes as you pepper kisses down his bare neck and chest.
L = Little Ones (How are they around children?)
Have you seen him with Henry? Those kids donā€™t stand a chance with him as their dad. Spencer is getting them involved with all things geeky, nerdy, and studious before they can walk or talk. Iā€™m serious, heā€™s got a book called, ā€œBabyā€™s Quantum Physicsā€. This man is getting them started young. He also learns American Sign Language so that they can communicate with their parents easier before speaking.
Heā€™s also reading them the same books that his mom read to him when he was a child. And while he wants his kids to like the same things he does, he also respects them if they have other interests, like sports. While he canā€™t really participate, heā€™ll read about all about it and gladly talk history with them.
Make him a girl dad, and he will gladly introduce positive female role models into his daughterā€™s life, like Marilyn Monroe, or Marie Curie. Oh, and he doesnā€™t complain about tea parties, princess dress up, makeovers, or hair days. And yes, before you ask, Spencer is learning how to do all sorts of hairstyles for his daughter.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
This honestly depends.
If heā€™s home, and doesnā€™t have work that day, everything is slow. The fastest thing he does that morning is making coffee for the both of you. He leaves you in bed, makes the delicious nectar of the gods, and puts it on a tray to bring back to you. Spencer slips underneath the covers, and happily helps you sit up to also enjoy your beverage; made just the way you like. With no schedule to keep, he just enjoys staying in bed with nothing to do except read and spend time with you.
If heā€™s got work, heā€™ll be going fast. Reid loves to sleep in, but that comes at a cost most mornings. In order to get to work, heā€™s got to time the metro just right. Heā€™ll make a coffee to go, and leave yours in a thermos to keep it at the perfect temperature for when you wake up.
N = Nights (How are nights spent with them?)
Again, weā€™ve got a few different ways this can play out.
Heā€™s home, without work, itā€™s a slow evening just like the morning. Making dinner is a team endeavor, with both of you retiring to the couch to binge watch a new docu-series he found, talking about different facts that relate to it and providing an additional point of view. Itā€™s comfy, peaceful, and just lovely.
If heā€™s home, but heā€™s had a day at work without leaving for a case, he is usually home right about the time you finish up dinner. By the time he gets changed and is in a much comfier state, the food is ready to go on the coffee table along with drinks and silverware. Spencer tends to be a little bit quieter on these nights, but he still wants to talk about your day with you. Asking about his day is a hit or miss. Sometimes he will talk about his day, the antics in the office or a few details from his short cases. Sometimes, heā€™ll brush everything off, knowing that heā€™ll talk to you about it eventually.
But if heā€™s getting back from a long case, domestic or in another state, heā€™s quiet. Usually because heā€™s getting back in the wee hours of the night, bordering on the next morning. His bones are heavy, his heart heavier, but he manages to pull his tie and shoes off before collapsing into bed next to you, not bothering to remove anything else.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
Spencer is definitely the type to slowly reveal things about himself. Now, not to say that once he gets comfy with you, he wonā€™t trauma dump occasionally, but in the beginning, heā€™s very careful. The last thing he wants is for you to get scared off by him or his past. But when he does reveal things, itā€™s usually in the safety of his apartment once heā€™s had some food and perhaps a glass of wine. Although the wine is not but once in a blue moon.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
This man is the pinnacle of patience. He gets frustrated easily, donā€™t mistake it. But heā€™s not very quick to anger. The only time heā€™s getting angry is when his family is threatened in some fashion, and that includes you. But his job has taught him that he needs to tamp down on those bouts of anger in order to be the best brainiac he can be.
Q = Quizzes (How much do they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
Youā€™re kidding right? He makes sure to read receipts when you two go out together to make sure that eidetic memory works properly. Reid can remember things by sound alone but he likes to be doubly sure. He makes sure to remember every little thing about you. And if someone asks if you like something? Prepare to get yapped at by this man.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
The first double date he had with Morgan and Savannah with you on his arm. He couldnā€™t believe how Morgan immediately welcomed you into the fold, Savannah too. Spencer valued Morganā€™s opinion so much, so to know that he instantly loved you almost as much as Spencer didā€¦ that was enough to know that he had found the one.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Quite protective. I mean he is an FBI agent; this man knows things. Heā€™s got a security alarm set once you move in as a precaution. Reid will hopefully convince you to take a firearms course so that you can conceal carry at least. If not, heā€™s leaving a gun where you can reach it, just in case.
For him though, Spencer just needs you to be there for him. Emotional security is what he needs in his life. Physical is fine; he carries a gun everywhere, knows how to fight, has been to prison. There is a void though in the emotional department that he desperately needs to be filled.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
Iā€™ve said it before and Iā€™ll say it again; it depends. Spencer never wants to put date nights on nights where he knows that heā€™s going to be exhausted. He prefers to have time to plan stuff like that. Anniversaries would have to take into account his job. Usually the first Friday or Saturday after he gets back from a case, if he was gone for it, is the makeup date. Although there is a standing Thursday date night every week that could be for anything. Gifts are carefully selected and maybe made if heā€™s making you something heā€™s knitting.
And, come on. Spencer is going to show you he loves you each time youā€™re together, no matter how mundane the task. Especially in the grocery store. Heā€™s in charge of the list because you will miss something to get that his brain wonā€™t.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
One particularly bad habit is his propensity to belittle himself. If heā€™s joking thatā€™s different. But, late at night, when heā€™s feeling vulnerable and scared, thatā€™s when you need to come in and tell him otherwise.
His other bad habit is not eating. The receptionist in the lobby of Quantico has come to know your face and name very quickly. She also knows exactly who to buzz you in for, and why youā€™re there based off of the heavy sigh that leaves you the second you get inside.
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
Not terribly, but it wasnā€™t always like that. In the beginning, he was super worried about how you would respond to how he looked. Spencer was aware that he was not the most conventionally attractive man in the world, his tie was perpetually crooked, and he couldnā€™t get his hair under control.
But once he started dating you, Reid realized that you didnā€™t want hm to change the way he looked, which really helped with his self esteem. And having you in his apartment to help straighten out his tie in morning also helped.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
If you were gone, he would be devastated. It didnā€™t matter if you were dead or just too far, Spencer was hoping that you were right there with him. If you were dead, Reid would mourn you for a long while, and even after he was out of that phase, heā€™s remembering you through the small things.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
You being of a different culture than American would be a joy for him. Heā€™d love to learn all about your native culture; the food, language, and different cultural practices. Anything to better understand you and your family. Especially if your parentā€™s first language isnā€™t English. The first time he meets them, heā€™s greeting them in their mother tongue, which makes them very, very excited.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldnā€™t like, either in general or in a partner?)
Germs, though he does get better. He also canā€™t stand people who talk or sing loudly during things like movies or musicals. Spencer understands that itā€™s part of the experience, just donā€™t do it too loud, ya know?
In a partner, if you shut him down in the middle of his factoid ramble, he gets quiet after. Heā€™s so used to everyone else doing it to him, but not you.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)
This man sleeps like the dead. He enjoys being able to sleep in, and going to bed early. Sleep is so hard to come by when heā€™s out on a case so itā€™s nice when he gets a little extra at home. And Spencer LOVES naps. Give this man a nap, and heā€™s ready to go for the rest of the day. Coffee and then a nap? Perfection. Coffee plus nap plus cuddles from you? Match made in heaven.
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stopbuggingm3 Ā· 2 days ago
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An interpretation of Slenderman I love is the idea of him as a stalker, a predator, and a manipulator rather than a powerful or aggressive force. His tendrils and demon face/non-face? Cool as hell. No arguments there. But to me the way he's able to get into people heads and break them from the inside out the way he does is much more terrifying.
He's used force as a means of control before, such as with Kate, Masky, and Hoody, but he also leans heavily into manipulation tactics like he does with Alex, Toby, Cat Hunter, and Bones.
Slender, in my interpretation, manipulates and controls his proxies by taking away their identities and making them dependent on him. This can be seen in each of the proxies. Toby, Kate, Masky, Hoody, Cat Hunter, and Bones (just walk with me here) all had parts of their identities stolen by Slender in one way or another.
In my mind, Masky and Hoody were brought back by Slender/The Operator after the events of Marble Hornets to act as his proxies. Slender saw something in them, whether it be their strength, skill, cunningness, etc, and decided they were too useful to let go to waste. But, as their track records show, this isn't something they'd ever accept willingly, and so had parts of their identities taken when they were brought back to ensure their loyalty to Slender wouldn't slip (why wasn't Alex brought back? idk ask Skully i haven't read the MH comics yet. For now lets blame it on his temper making him too likely to step out of line.)
Kate I'm admittedly undecided on as of right now. Her psyche is definitely damaged, having part's forcefully torn away as a result of Slenders torment, but whether or not her animalistic behaviour is a learnt behaviour in order to cope with what's been done to her or a direct result of Slenders torment is unknown. She won't say, and she won't leave either. That's not an option for her anymore, she knows that much at least.
Cat hunter is a mix of both, in a way. His push to become a proxy was forceful, with Slender physically making him kill his father, but its the blows to his self worth and constant reminder of his actions that cause him to remain as one. Guilt has taken away his self worth, and all he can do is try fill the hole best he can with what he has
Toby had his memories from before his time with Slender removed, taking away any sense of identity he might've had before becoming a proxy and making him dependent on Slenders protection for survival. Where else would he go? He doesn't have anyone else, he's a wanted criminal. And besides, life with Slender is good. He clings to that false sense of freedom without even knowing why he holds it so dear. Why would he ever want to leave?
Bones has had her identity tampered with by Slender since she was young to the point she can't discern what parts of herself are truly herself and what parts were planted there by Slender. She grew up with his voice in her head, convincing her that his words are her own thoughts and that she can't be free unless she is with him. "That violence? That's normal. They don't understand you here, you don't have anyone. You're trapped and alone but I can set you free. Don't you want that?" She doesn't know who or even what she is without him and his "guidance". He's all she knows. He's all she has.
The proxies will never be free. They're going to die out there in those woods at the hands of a monster. And the worst part? Most of them don't even know they're trapped.
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aztarion Ā· 2 days ago
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OC Deep Dive - Soledad
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What common/uncommon fear do they have?
(Ignoring the obvious fire and sunlight here)
That she wonā€™t be useful; that sheā€™s been ruined for nothing.
The blood bond.
Diablerie ā€” not as in being diablerized, but the act itself; of being manipulated into/tempted again; of not being able to stop/her bulimia triggering if sheā€™s for whatever reason feeding from another kindred, something she tries very hard not to do.
Aila ā€” that presence when it stirs.
Itā€™s more ā€œfear forā€, but Julian, or specifically whatever heā€™s thinking when his eyes get that focused black gleam. She knows it like some dreaded visual cue: tunnel vision. It used to be cute, watching him prattle while they lay out on the trailer roof on the New Mexico border two hours before sunrise, but theyā€™re not fledglings anymore ā€” there are very real consequences now.
Her voraciousness ā€” in physical and emotional hunger.
Rats.
Do they have any pet peeves?
People that donā€™t use their turn signal.
When strangers ask about her scar or tattoos right off the bat.
Getting blood on or washing blood out of her clothes ā€” because she customizes everything and really does try to save them.
Minimalism.
Stock cars.
People who talk too fast. When Julian especially starts talking too fast.
When ANYONE adjusts absolutely anything in her car. However she will do just that to yours.
What are three items you can find in their bedroom?
I guess when sheā€™s on the move she will always have:
Topaz and mahogany heirloom rosary
Matte black finish gun kit (+ nighthawk custom)
Emergency blood bag
really quick vibes...
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What do they notice first in a person?
Physically, and in rapid succession, their put-togetherness, what theyā€™re wearing, then eyes, then mouth. Appearance might get a second once-over to take everything in, maybe sense the Beast. Body language and demeanor. Power they exude. In some situations with kindred and in more situations with mortals, she might try to gauge how attractive they perceive her to be. Where their eyes fall; how interested and receptive they are. In kind, how open, honest, or easy their behavior is ā€” if thereā€™s a forced sincerity about it. Sol doesnā€™t have auspex but she is decently intuitive and can be manipulative. Sheā€™ll also analyze how they interact with other people ā€” those they know or mutual strangers.
What she notices first after building a rapport with a stranger is loyalty. Thatā€™s the moment it sinks in that this is or could potentially be someone reliable or meaningful to her.
On a scale of 1 to 10, how high is their pain tolerance?
Physically: 7. Much tougher than a mortal obviously, and she can definitely take a beating, but she doesnā€™t have fortitude and can be a bit of a glass cannon in a straight fight against heavy hitters. If her insides are mostly outsides at some point, she will be screaming crying throwing up (literally if her derangement triggers which then probably kicks off a hunger Frenzy).
Mentally: 9 LOL. Solā€™s resolve and composure are insanely high and she has such a weak, dissolving and deeply negative sense of self alreadyā€¦ it would be difficult for someone to target her in that way and have any luck getting through to really hurt her. Which is a whole other issue šŸ¤¦ā€ā™€ļø
Emotionally (aka if you are Julian, or her brother Tiago, or the presence of Aila; to a lesser extent Elena and Lettow): 4. Huge upset here is whatā€™s most likely to pierce carapace, hit that soft underbelly. Sol definitely has got that desert fruit pulpy, nutty and horrifically messy centre underneath all the disconnect.
Do they go into fight or flight mode when under pressure? (Or freeze or fawn?)
It depends. Sol actually works well under pressure (again as long as itā€™s not her very specific brand of emotionally taxing trigger).
If she thinks she has a chance at getting through, or has no chance at all in a fight, she will fawn. Itā€™s become insidiously intrinsic: whatever you need, whatever you want, I'll bend to any shape, donā€™t worry about me.
In an unavoidable outright hostile situation sheā€™ll hold her ground and fight but be dirty about it. The nighthawk is pretty effective on mortals lol. With other kindred or when vastly outnumbered howeverā€¦ sheā€™s not a tank but sheā€™s slippery and her scorpionā€™s-touch-augmented-protean-claws hit like envenomated machetes. She can draw a whip from her vitae and create ugly little parasitic snakes made from spilled viscera. She will incapacitate, possibly fawn again if something can be worked out (Miss Second Chances To Her Detriment over here), and/then/or shoot to kill. Or die I suppose if she loses.
What animal represents them best?
Scorpions, snakesā€¦ specifically the speciesā€™ that are shyer, solitary and less aggressive, which in some cases those often have the strongest venom ā€” very fitting for Sol. She can be a handle-carefully-and-donā€™t-push deal these nights.
Itā€™s more out of symbolism but I really like the idea of the hummingbird for her too, in an ā€œin another life/if things had went differentlyā€ kind of way (also the Sierra Vista connection ā€” where she grew up). She was once naturally extroverted, poised, playful, dreamy, brave. Never stubborn or too headstrong, but at least less inclined to do what others wanted of her if she disagreed. Those traits have warped a lot, and sheā€™s since got too-sharp teeth and corpse-skin that really is starting to feel a lot like carapace.
She knows sheā€™s a monster, and she has complex views on that, but at the end of it all cannot detach from her conscience. Guilt eats her alive. I think Sol wants nothing else but to keep from what feels like the inevitable complete unhinging of her jaw.
How would a stranger likely describe them?
Striking, quiet but restless beauty. You guys will have to forgive my art lol. She has soft hispanic/asian features, thick dark wavy hair, deep olive tan skin, long legs. A slow and alluring (but not provocative) way of speaking and moving.
Obnoxious tattoos, dark undereyes, and on closer inspection her gnarly jagged scar can often have a stranger furrowing their brow.
She maintains a poker face, is intentionally unexpressive, but thereā€™s an unconscious sensuality about her.
Sad eyes, like they themselves are trying to tell you something that even sheā€™s not aware of.
Very cautious and conscientious ā€” an intuitive stranger might clock that the fawn fear response has become her natural state of existing.
Do they have any hobbies?
At home base, tuning her ride and probably Julianā€™s fleet if one is left around. She hates stock. I hc Elena will not let her near the Datsun though, that they share that donā€™t fucking touch anything in my car rage šŸ˜­
She has a pet project of fixing up an old BMW R80 G/S ā€” the motorcycle model her dad drove back in the day. (give me the strength to finish the art i have of this pleaaasee)
She likes to make things out of scrap metal too ā€” welding shit together into little tools, or just because she wanted to see or keep her hands busy. Loves customizing, recycling, retrofitting, renovating and restoring.
Honing her butchered version of blood sorcery. Sol dropped out of school and is not academically inclined, but she is tenacious and open-minded and very much a quick, kinetic learner with a good eye for detail. Julian fills her in on whatever important prep knowledge and research she needs from tomes for bigger rituals, but he is usually the one conducting those ā€” Sol has no grand plans. Otherwise she experiments a lot with minor powers within both the blood sorcery and protean disciplines, and her own weird magic-melee amalgamation of them. Because I have to dual-spec or I'll die!!!!!
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finally had time to finish thisā€¦.thank you so much for the tag @diableriedoll ^^
iā€™ll tag @devilbrakers @gauntlings @silkenred @kibellah @vesperblood
@ustalav @auspex @eurodyning
@ruvviks @girlnextvore @baelavelaryon @dykeferatu and any oc perverts reading this because my mind goes blank everytime
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thatonesillyfrog Ā· 1 day ago
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Which category of alterhumanity do you belong to? I'm a therianthrope and a phytanthrope (aka greenkin, woodkin, or plantkin)!
What/who is/are your type(s)? (if you have any) Dingo, cougar, and resurrection fern are my highest kins, and some sort of avian (red hawk, I believe) as well as rodent (most likely an eastern gray squirrel) as well. Some of my headmasters have different ones.
Do you experience shifts? If so, can you tell us your most common shifts and your strangest cameo shift (if you've ever had a cameo shift)? I'm a contherian, so I always have a phantom tail, phantom legs, or phantom something else. I'm also often sensory shifted and sometimes on a weak mental shift. My weirdest cameo shift was either a snake or an airplane.
How do you experience your alterhumanity in everyday life? I am a kemonomimi (which is just a person who likes wearing animal ears and tails, and sometimes other similar accessories) and wear my gear in day to day life. I use my kemonomimi gear to express my nonhumanity and feel happier in my own skin. I do experience species dysphoria, especially around my phantom shifts, so this helps a lot.
What do you think of the community? Depends on the platform! Here, I love the amount of information and fun facts and the way that people really strive to be able to see themselves and be seen as how they identify. I also really love the TikTok therian community as a lot of it is just fun!
What are the things that make you most comfortable and euphoric in your alterhumanity? Wearing tails and ears and collars, quads are fun, laying in specific animalistic positions while doing something like eating or watching TV, etc. I also really like keeping my nails long. Specific kinds of movements are very affirming. I also love doing voice training for therian and transgender purposes. Makes vocals easier and more fun.
Are you experiencing species dysphoria? Yup. Pretty often. It doesn't often get super severe, but one of my headmastes recently shaved off every inch of hair on our entire body and it has not been fun being furless :/ It's also sad whenever somebody bumps into my tail and say sorry and I didn't feel it or notice it. Makes it feel disconnected.
What advice would you like to say to a young alterhuman who has just awakened? Don't try and figure out anything right now! Take your time and let it come naturally. Nothing except a nonhuman identity is required to be alterhuman. You don't need gear, quads, or to be out. Finding community, though, is wonderful. Have fun with your identity, but also feel free to acknowledge the hard stuff. Just remember, it's not all bad. :)
Do you have/want to have gears? I do! I have multiple tails, all of which I've either made myself or (for the taxidermy tails) gotten at yard sales and I make ears on a regular basis. I love making collars as well. I have a buncha puppy stuffies that I consider my pups (in my past life as a dingo I was a mum) and I also have some jangly bracelets that bring me joy. I have a lot of animal themed knicknacks sitting about my room.
Do you know/have any theories about the origin of your alterhumanity? If so, tell us! (all beliefs are legitimate) Trauma, neurodivergency, past lives, imprinting, and simple psychological differences. All of these are valid and (to me) fascinating theories about the origin of alterhumanity in general! For me personally, I think mine comes from trauma and past lives, as well as some neurodivergency.
Tag someone/a creature to answer these questions! @hyprfixed
If you are an alter/nonhuman, reblog and answer these questions!
(don't be afraid to write a lot, do what you want ĀÆā \ā _ā (ā ćƒ„ā )ā _ā /ā ĀÆ)
1/ Which category of alterhumanity do you belong to?
2/ What/who is/are your type(s)? (if you have any)
3/ Do you experience shifts? If so, can you tell us your most common shifts and your strangest cameo shift (if you've ever had a cameo shift)?
4/ How do you experience your alterhumanity in everyday life?
5/ What do you think of the community?
6/ What are the things that make you most comfortable and euphoric in your alterhumanity?
7/ Are you experiencing species dysphoria?
8/ What advice would you like to say to a young alterhuman who has just awakened?
9/ Do you have/want to have gears?
10/ Do you know/have any theories about the origin of your alterhumanity? If so, tell us! (all beliefs are legitimate)
11/ Tag someone/a creature to answer these questions!慤įµ•Ģˆ
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softtdaisy Ā· 11 hours ago
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you'll be fine / Spencer Reid
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summary.Ā you don't like to hear about the case. but when your boyfriend gets hurt, you realize you can't escape the reality of his work
words count.Ā 2 283
what to expect. very angsty, reader is hotch sister, jack is here, brief mention of haley's death, did i say angst? but spencer being soft and lovely (as usual)
a/n. i'm finally back with writing for my baby Spence. and yes reader is hotch's sister for some reasons that i can't explain except that i like this man
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The deal was simple: you didnā€™t want to hear about any cases except if Aaron or Spencer were in danger.
Aaron respected it easily. He needed these moments where he put the work away and thought about something else. Plus, he didnā€™t want to burden his little sister with the cases. To him, he did enough harm to his family. He didnā€™t want to put you in danger or drown you in the atrocity of the world he was living in.Ā 
So anytime he got to see you, for a coffee, a diner, or ten minutes when you gave him Jack back after the babysitting, he made sure to never tell you about the case.
Spencer, on the contrary, had some difficulties keeping everything to himself. You knew your boyfriend so well, you could tell when he needed to speak. There was something cute in the way he tried so hard to keep his mouth shut because he knew you didnā€™t want to hear about the last cases. He was playing with his hands to focus his mind on something else, starting sentences but never finishing them. Maybe you liked torturing him a little.
But these moments always ended up the same way.
ā€œGo ahead, my love,ā€ you said, cupping his face in your hand and giving the sweetest kiss on his nose. You loved how he wrinkled his nose and how his cheeks were turning a sweet shade of red. ā€œTell me about the case.ā€Ā 
And as soon as you said these five wonderful words, he let his mind speak for minutes. Or hours. It depended on how long he was away or how hard the case was for him.
Today was what you called a normal day.Ā 
The team wasnā€™t away for a case. Aaron would come and pick up Jack at your place in a few minutes. You loved spending these Wednesday afternoons with your nephew. None of you had classes. Well, one of you had homework, and it was clearly not the blonde head laying on your couch. But your typical evening was to do them once Jack had left with his dad and while Spencer was cooking dinner.Ā 
But you could tell something was wrong when 7 p.m. struck and you still had no news from Aaron. He would always send you a text, either to tell you he left the office or he would be late. He was a punctual man.
ā€œAuntie, Dadā€™s calling!ā€ you heard Jack scream from the living room. You were stuck in the kitchen, cleaning the baking pan you used for his chocolate cake. So you let Jack answer the call. For the few seconds it lasted, you appreciated his sweet and happy voice he always had when talking to Aaron.
But before you noticed the silence, he was by your side. ā€œDad wants to talk to you,ā€ he said with a frown. Clearly not happy to not be the center of interest.Ā 
ā€œPut him on speaker, Jack, please,ā€ you asked and were immediately faced with another silence. One you didnā€™t like. You could hear the background where Aaron was, but your brotherā€™s voice.
ā€œHi, big brother,ā€ you said with a laugh. ā€œWant to talk to your favorite family member?ā€ which, of course, made Jack pout. ā€œAfter your wonderful son, of course.ā€
But then again, silence. For three, five, or ten seconds. ā€œCould you please take the phone? I need to talk to you privately,ā€ was all you got. No hello, no laugh, nothing. Just a cold and serious Aaron. And you hated that.Ā 
You quickly wiped your hands, kissed Jack on the hair, and told him to watch another episode of his TV show before going to your room. ā€œWhere are you? Are you ok?ā€ you asked the second you closed your bedroomā€™s door.
ā€œIā€™m good,ā€ was all he replied. You sighed with relief. You didnā€™t have the heart to tell Jack his father was in the hospital or worse. This kid had lived through too many tragedies already. But then it hit you.Ā 
If Aaron was fine, it meant that he called you for another reason.
For another person.
ā€œSpence?ā€ you simply said in a low voice. Ironically, you spoke more quietly than when you asked for Aaron. When it would have been worse for Jack to hear about his dad. But it was like your heart couldnā€™t handle the idea of your boyfriend being hurt. Like, maybe, talking quietly would make the reality disappear.Ā 
Aaron knew how to deal with words. Youā€™ve always been impressed by how he managed to do the perfect sentences to make his speech memorable. So his silence was frightening. ā€œAaron, please,ā€ you begged him.
ā€œHeā€™s at the hospital.ā€ At least your bed was close enough so you didnā€™t fall on the floor. ā€œJessica is coming to take Jack with her so you can come.ā€
ā€œWhat happened?ā€ You heard yourself cry. But Aaron never answered your question. He gave you the hospital address.Ā 
And you were left wondering if you still had a boyfriend anymore.
Everything you did until you got to the hospital felt unconscious. You couldnā€™t remember what you told Jack, if you took the time to kiss your nephew goodbye, if he saw you crying, or if you hid it. Nothing felt real.
Until you saw the team waiting in the hospital hall. Then you knew things were serious. You noticed the red eyes, the tiredness, the stress on all their faces. On your brother too, even if he did everything to stay strong and stoic.
When Aaron saw you, he stopped his conversation immediately and walked fast to hug you. You lost yourself in his arms, crying harder than you did at home and even more when he hugged you more and more tightly. Back when you were a child, Aaron was always the one comforting you. After a nightmare, a bad day at school or at home, even when he was away for college. He was your emergency contact, something that never changed. He was your emergency person.
Yet, something felt off this time.
ā€œWhat happened?ā€ you asked again, looking up at him. And you were right about something being off. You barely ever see guilt on your brotherā€™s face. You did after Haley. It was the only time you saw him feel bad about something. And seeing it today wasnā€™t a reassuring thing.
ā€œThe unsub caught us off guard and tried to escape. It could have been anybody, but he shot Reiā€¦ Spencer two times in the arms, near his shoulder. No organs were touched, but he lost a lot of blood before he could be taken care of. He passed out at the crime scene. Heā€™s still in surgery right now.ā€
Every word he spoke was like a stab going deeper and deeper in your heart.Ā 
You didnā€™t realize you were screaming until Aaron muffled it against his chest and held you even more tightly against you. Knowing damn well that if he stopped, you would fall on the ground and not get up.
You couldnā€™t imagine a world in which Spencer Reid wasnā€™t a main part of.
He was your soulmate; you knew that from the moment you met him.Ā 
You had just come back home after a year abroad, and Aaron had organized a dinner at his place with the team to celebrate it. He wanted you to meet his other family, the one he was sadly closer to than yours. But you didnā€™t mind, as long as your brother was happy and well looked after. And you were curious to meet all these people he talked about on the phone.
Honestly, you kind of fell for every single one of them.
But you fell harder for the genius in the back. The one that acted shyly around you until you showed interest in what he was saying. You quickly realized you could get used to listening to Spencer talking and falling asleep to his voice. And you did.
There were still so many things Spencer had to tell you about; he couldnā€™t leave you already.
The hours waiting for him were the longest you ever lived. The surgery went well; Spencer would be fine. But you needed to hear him wake up and see him to be sure they were telling the truth.Ā 
The team left one by one, at your own request. Sure, JJ needed to see her kids. Emily and Derek were drained from the day and the stress. Only Aaron stayed with you. He called Jack two times in the evening, one to check on him and one to say goodbye. But he refused to leave his little sister alone.
It was almost midnight when your boyfriend finally opened his eyes.
Aaron let you go. He was just waiting with you, to not leave you alone. He simply asked you to give him some news and to call if you ever want to sleep at home.
But you noticed how he showed his FBI sign to the hospital staff to make sure you would be able to sleep here with Spencer.
He looked so fragile in his hospital bed. With his skin paler than ever, his tired eyes barely open and his greasy hair flattened. You even wondered if you should be there or if you should let him rest in peace. Because you knew that Spencer would do anything to reassure you, even if it was tiring him.
Then he looked up to see you.
And the relief in his eyes was the best argument to stay.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re here,ā€ he said with a hoarse and lazy voice that almost made you cry. Because it didnā€™t sound like your Spencer. But your Spencer was alive. You walked slowly to him and grabbed the hand that he was offering.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m the one who should say that.ā€ Once sat, you put your head on his stomach slowly to make sure you didnā€™t hurt him. Spencer didnā€™t show any sign of hurt or discomfort.
But in all honesty, even if he was, he would never. Spencer grew soft to your contact. He was craving it when he was away. You were the only person that could hold him without warning him. It was natural. Like his body has only been created to be held in your arms. To be touched by your hands. To be loved by you.
ā€œDo you know the statistics of getting shot two times at the same place?ā€ he asked, brushing your hair softly. You looked up with a confused face. And faced his amused expression. ā€œI'm being serious.ā€Ā 
He then started to give you many numbers and statistics around these facts. Which you didnā€™t even want to hear about. You almost lost him to this. It wasnā€™t a very pleasant subject.
But seeing the sparks in his eyes when he said these facts, proving he was still the very same genius that left your apartment this morning to go to work, was refreshing. He almost never came home. But he will. And you could let him say and talk for hours if it means having him by your side forever.
ā€œSo itā€™s pretty rare,ā€ he finished, proudly.Ā 
You noticed how he could barely keep his eyes open. You took the hand that was in your hair and gave it a little kiss. ā€œCould you consider staying rare by just being the amazing person you are and not playing with death, please?ā€
He laughed, his giggle causing a little quake on your resting head. ā€œYeah, I could consider that.ā€Ā 
Spencer then moved a little, enough for you to lay by his side. You couldnā€™t stay like that all night. But if it helped him fall asleep, you could sacrifice your comfort for a few minutes. Even hours, if he needed it.
You were a little higher on the bed so he could be the one resting on you this time, and you would be the one playing with his hair.
ā€œHow was your day with Jack, by the way?ā€
And you started to tell him, like it was a normal day.Ā 
Spencer was always the one to fall asleep last. You created this routine of him telling you about his day, a case, or just something he read or saw, in bed while you were falling asleep in his arms.
This time, Spencer was the one falling asleep to your story.Ā 
And selfishly, you hoped it would be the only time.Ā 
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psychoticallykind Ā· 3 days ago
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Okay, so I just read @noblehouseofgay's post about character flaws and it's brilliant, but I had thoughts and I wanted to share.
So, specifically Sirius and Lily. I love these ideas, and I also think that it gives us some interesting writing opportunities.
Because Lily is smart, yes. She's clever and we know this, but going off of this characterization, she occasionally (maybe accidentally, depending on what you want here) puts others down while proving her own points/intelligence.
But Sirius is also rather smart (all of the marauders are, but Sirius is the focus here) and I think he would be a bit prideful. He's more likely to react to Lily's (accidental or not) condescension because he was raised in an environment where he was expected to be better than everyone else. Not only was it expected, but it was generally achieved. Sirius is clever and powerful and he knows it, but when you live in a household with narcissistic/abusive parents, you learn what it feels like to be dismissed. And I think he would hate that feeling.
I think that in many occasions - even when Sirius doesn't particularly care about the subject - Lily will say something that's just a little bit too high-and-mighty (to Sirius, to James, maybe to Remus) and Sirius would react.
I think they would have the most verbally vicious, intense arguments and debates, because Lily is smart and comes off like she thinks she is better than the others, and Sirius is smart and hates the idea of anyone placing themselves above him.
Okay, I'm mostly better now.
The post I mentioned at the beginning is here, by the way.
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interview with frank, mikey and bob with mychemicalromanceforum.com 2006
interview was linked on the 2006 mcr website news (home) page
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"The big forum interview with My Chemical Romance!
Reporters:Ā Imre (poison amy) and Lisette (Lica) Bandmembers:Ā Frank, Bob and Mikey Place:Ā The Melkweg (Milkyway), Amsterdam, the Netherlands Date:Ā Wednesday August 31st, 2005, 3.30pm
After a lot of stress and the prospect that the interview might be cancelled, it was finally time to go upstairs and meet the band. Two hours later than scheduled, but hey, they were there so weā€™re not complaining! Our palms were sweaty and our hearts were racing, but we managed to remain calm and behave like proper journalists instead of squealing fangirls.
L: Letā€™s start with our list! Weā€™re already talking about messageboards so lets continue on that. Some people sometimes claim to be one of you when they are on forums or other websites, what do you think of that?F: I donā€™t understand it really, to me itā€™s kind of like that game the Sims, theyā€™re spending so much time leading this fake life while they could be doing their own thing, and if your dream is to be in a band you should go out and practise instead of playing a video game or pretend youā€™re somebody else. It gets really creepy when those people do that and put out pictures of you and say a loved one or your dog. When they do that and then talk to other people on your behalf, that really angers me because we donā€™t know what theyā€™re saying to other people and they might give advise and others might believe it. Internet can be a great thing, but it can also be a really evil thing. I: We have a rule against talking about your private life. F: Thank you. I appreciate that.Mikey: Thatā€™s a big problem with MySpace, because some of my friends actually are on MySpace and they get messages, I donā€™t know how they knew that my friends are on there, but these are people that arenā€™t even in bands and they would get messages from ā€˜meā€™ on MySpace. Itā€™s really weird. I: They know everything. Trust me. Bob: Thatā€™s ridiculous. F: Iā€™m still a huge fan of music, but when I was a fan of a band I would never ever be that intrusive. You know what I mean, to go as far as walk on someoneā€™s bus and sit down and go through someoneā€™s things, or try to steal somethingā€¦ I: There was one girl last week, she was at one of the shows in London and she was proud that she ripped something off your arm! F: [sad tone] Yeah, yeahā€¦ I: She was bragging about it all over the internet. F: I knowā€¦ L: How do you feel about these things? F: You know, itā€™s weird. *thinks* I donā€™t know how I feel about that. I definitely know that when I was at shows I would bring a souvenir home, but it wasnā€™t someoneā€™s personal property, it was a flyer or something like that. Itā€™s weird if you wanna go into the crowd thinking ā€˜am I gonna come out with everything?ā€™ L: Are you nervous when you see a large crowd? Are you worried then? F: No! Well, no, I mean, it depends. Thereā€™s a bunch of different type of fans. You know, thereā€™s people who just wanna say I love you, love your show, and thatā€™s awesome. They respect the music and the art form. And then thereā€™s some people that need to have that souvenir, that need a signature or a picture and thereā€™s some that just scream and try to pull your hair out and thatā€™s ridiculous and then thereā€™s the drunk fan that wants to be the one that punched you. Unfortunately for the people that just wanna say hi or the people that just want an autograph, sometimes they get flooded because the bad apples are so loud or with so many. It sucks to make people wait outside for hours before you leave because I donā€™t wanna weed out the bullshit, you know what I mean, the teenie ā€˜oh wow the new Nā€™Sync is an actual bandā€™ you know thatā€™s a terrible thing, but you try to do more good than bad.
L: How was it for you Bob, when you joined the band they were already on their way to become very successful, how was it for you to step into a band that was already on their way? Bob: When I first started it wasnā€™t really sure thatā€¦ Well, I donā€™t think anybody thought that it was gonna be this successful. When I first started it was still in the van, playing shows for like a hundred people. It wasnā€™t like this when I first started. As far as the kids being crazy, obviously they *nods towards Frank and Mikey* get it a lot more, but itā€™s just strange for me. L: Well, youā€™re completely accepted on the forum, everybody loves Bob, they have it in their signatures. *grins* F: How could you not love Bob?!
I: When you started out, did you ever imagine being nominated for 4 VMAā€™s against Green Day?F: No, not at all! I: How crazy is that?! F: Pfff! Itā€™s flattering.M: It was a great experience. The whole thing.F: Iā€™m still reeling from it. Iā€™m really glad itā€™s over. I: Were you nervous? F: Oh god, yeah. I definitely threw up before.M: You can see me biting my nails on camera. Every time they were showing Jamie Fox you can see me right behind him biting my nails a lot. I was really freaked out.F: Itā€™s one of those things where.. Growing up I didnā€™t get to watch them all the time, but I saw bands like Nirvana play it and Gunsā€™nā€™Roses. So just to be there and think of all the things that happened on that show and to actually play it, it was ridiculous. I: Because of the MTV awards you had to do the two festivals in England on the same day, how was that? Were you nervous doing those shows? B: It was tiring really. F: It was very tiring, yeah. And again, we kept like thinking of people that played it before. You know what I mean. Iā€™m definitely keeping the two passes and Iā€™m gonna frame them. It was rad. To do Reading and Leeds and especially on the same day, it was crazy! B: We were supposed to fly to Leeds and we couldnā€™t get on a bus and go to Reading, because we wouldnā€™t have enough time to set up, so we were supposed to take three helicopters and I was so psyched about that! I was so excited! It would have been so awesome to fly on a helicopter! But then something happened with the weather at Reading and they wouldnā€™t let the helicopters get that close to so many people, so we just took a plane. L: So the helicopter experience still has to take place. B: Yeah. Weā€™re gonna do it one of these days. I donā€™t care, even if itā€™s on a day off, weā€™re taking a helicopter ride! L: Are you a thrill seeker? B: I ā€¦ *thinks* Kind of. I guess so. F: As long as itā€™s got something to do with helicopters or motorcycles or black vans, that kind of stuff. I: You wouldnā€™t go horseriding on the beach. F: *laughs* I donā€™t think heā€™s that horseriding-on-the-beach type of guy. B: No. I wanna go skydiving one of these days. F: Iā€™m not!!! I: Why not? F: If youā€™d asked me a couple of years ago to do it, Iā€™d go ā€˜yeah, fuck it!ā€™ but now Iā€™m just too happy. You know what I mean? I: You donā€™t need that. F: Yeah! I donā€™t need to do that.
Then suddenly Bob exclaims: What is wrong with these people?! *reads from book* What would happen if you saw Mikey walk into the bathroom with another toaster? Signed: Bob Bryarā€™s official bitch.M: It wasnā€™t a toaster, it was a heater. I was putting a space heater in the bathroom when I was sick or something. I brought this heater into the shower so it was warm when I got out. Itā€™s not the smartest thing in the world to do, but I was like ā€˜whatever, Iā€™m fucking freezingā€™, but apparently they turned it into a toaster.. L: But you were fine. M: Yeah, Iā€™m here right now. *all laugh*
L: For the video from The Ghost of You, you guys have your hair really smooth. We understand how you get your hair like that, but we were wondering how did they get Rayā€™s hair totally smooth? How much stuff did they put in there?F: Youā€™ll see it on the making of the video, he has like these two little buns. B: Did they flat iron his hair too? F: They did something. It was all flattened out. It was all bundled together in this little fist of a bulb, so they could only shoot him from the front and part of the side. It was crazy. He was gonna cut his hair and we were all like ā€˜no donā€™t do that!!ā€™. I: Did he ever tried to hide objects in his hair? To smuggle them inside? F: Hide objects in it? He might. B: *thinks* I donā€™t think so. *All giggle*
I: Another question they asked is: if your tourbus driver got ill, who would you trust to drive it?F: Bob. I: Yeah? Why? F: Cos heā€™s done it before. B: It happens a lot when you have to move a bus. When I used to tour with other bands, our drivers would just be like ā€˜hey, you wanna drive?ā€™ and then Iā€™d drive for like 1000 miles. L: Itā€™s cool to drive something that big, isnā€™t it. B: Yeah, I like to drive and being on tour you never get to drive anywhere. If youā€™re not in a bus youā€™re in a cab or if youā€™re not in a cab you have somebody else driving you, so you know I take every opportunity I get to drive.
L: If you could describe your life so far in 5 words, what words would you choose?M: Tiring, wonderfulā€¦F: Surprising, uhm, definitely tiringā€¦ B: Red Bull. I: Hey, thatā€™s two words! B: Oh sorry! *laughs* F: Coffee. B: There you go, coffee. Fun! (All at the same time) Proud. F: Prun! *grins*M: Yeah. B: How about proud-fun? I: Weā€™ll make that a new forum-word! B: Prun.
I: Have you ever read any of the fanfictions people write about you? *guys laugh* M: My friends sent me one once. It was creepy! My friends are interested in all that stuff, so they all sit online and send it to each other and laugh. And then one of them emailed one to me and it was something really fucking out of hand.F: I heard Mikeyā€™s hot for me. I: The hottest couple is you and Gerard actually. F: Oh really? Weā€™re the hottest couple? B: Thatā€™s amazing. I: Thatā€™s actually one of the most active parts of the forum, the fanfiction section. F: Wow! Thatā€™s crazy. My godā€¦ (kind of unsure) Well, if thatā€™s what gets you hot, go for it.
L: Do you have something with you when you go out on stage, like a lucky thing? B: High fives. F: Yeah we do, like high fives before we go on stage. I donā€™t think thereā€™s any charm I have.. I think it changes like Iā€™ll have something for a time that I feel is lucky, but then itā€™ll probably break or something and you get something newā€¦ Like these shoes *everyone looks at Frankā€™s feet* are lucky I think. None of itā€™s really lucky at all of course. *thinks* I have these dogtags that I wear a lot, but I canā€™t wear them on stage because it hurts my neck. I: Yeah and someone might steal them! F: Yeah thatā€™s it, but I wear them all the time, except when Iā€™m playing.
L: Yeah, you go crazy on stage and sometimes youā€™re lying on the floor, how are you able to play like that?F: You get used to it, like with anything. When weā€™re playing a new song, like right now weā€™re playing a new song. Well, not new new, but new for us because we havenā€™t played it in so long, so ah, weā€™ll play eh *looks at Bob* should we tell them? *Bob nods* Alright, weā€™re playing Jetset tonight and Iā€™m not used to playing that song, so Iā€™ll just stand there and make sure I hit every chord. L: So youā€™re not going crazy. F: *laughs* No, but you know what I mean like itā€™s hard because I get into it and I would do it, but at the same time if itā€™s so new I canā€™t. Once Iā€™m comfortable with it I can do whatever I want. I: Is there a favourite song when you play? All: Prison! F: Yeah, Prison is like a band favourite. B: Yeah we like to play that. Itā€™s become the song that when we need to play something for a soundcheck we pick that. I really like playing Jetset too though. I: Why didnā€™t you put it in the set before? F: Weā€™ve never played certain songs, I mean like never ever played them. I think Jetset was one of those until we were like ā€˜yeah lets finally get this outā€™. We had about five songs to pick from for the headline tour, some older stuff that we havenā€™t played in a really long time and thereā€™s this song called Cubicles that weā€™ve never played. I think you guys played it (to Mikey)ā€¦M: Yeah weā€™ve played it on a couple of shows.F: But Iā€™ve never actually played it. I: It must be nice to do a different set. F: Yeah! You know itā€™s fun to be doing something that you havenā€™t played in a really long time because it puts a spin on things and it kind of challenges you.
L: Most places have a very active local music scene, do you ever go to a band of the local music scene when youā€™re in a city?F: I would love to if we had a second off, but we never do.L: And back home in New Jersey, do you go there to local shows? F: Yeah, if weā€™re home for a while and thereā€™s a show going on, Iā€™ll go see it. But itā€™s hard because we do this for a living and I mean we love what we do and we love music, but sometimes the last thing we wanna do is go to a show. It has to be a really good show, you know what I mean. I: Yah, but it must also be part of your job to keep up to date about new bands. F: Yeah, well we tour so much and we hear so many things from different people, I mean I found out about a lot of different bands from just kids. It kind of keeps you in your favourite scene, you know. And we get demos all the time.
I: A few weeks ago I interviewed the singer from HIM, Ville, and he told me he had been talking to you guys about maybe touring together.F: That would be cool. Yeah. Heā€™s a great guy. Heā€™s really nice. I: I know! *grins* F: I think that would rule. To me, HIM are kind of like the European Bon Jovi. Thatā€™s what I get when I listen to them.
Sadly the girl from the record company interrupted us by saying it was nearly time and we could ask one last question. Lica asked it. L: About the second Iā€™m Not Okay video; it starts off with Ray and Gerard sitting there and Gerard says: I donā€™t wanna make it, I just wannaā€¦ What does he wanna do? F: Ok, the original line was: I donā€™t wanna make it, I just wanna rock! And we didnā€™t like it. If you keep an open end you can make it whatever you want it to be, you know. The rest of that, the whole opening scene, was written out. It was scripted and we were like ā€˜this isnā€™t really workingā€™ so Ray actually re-wrote everything. Everything you hear in the video, other then ā€˜I just wannaā€™ is something that Ray wrote maybe ten minutes before we shot it!
Then the girl from the record company came back inside to tell us we really needed to wrap it up and Frank practically begged her to do two more from the book, like he suggested when we started out. Bob flips through the book. B: Bam! *points* All time favourite sad song? M: the Smiths ā€“ Asleep. Thatā€™s the fucking saddest song ever. B: That Jimmy Eat World song off of that show.. F: Angel song? B: Yeah. F: Oh yeah. Ah, geez, Angel Angel. Oh, right, ready? *flips through book again* F: When you guys stop and think about how you ended up where you are now, do you feel really lucky and jump for joy, or do you donā€™t give a damn at all? *laughs* I think we are the luckiest people in the whole fucking world. B: Weā€™re very proud of ourselves! F: To be able to say that, you know, youā€™ve accomplished goals, that you set for yourself so long ago and this is awesome you know, like to be on tv or on the radio ā€“ fuck the radio and tv! To hear kids in different countries or different states sing along to songs that you wrote in your basement is the most surreal experience that youā€™ll ever have. And to have it mean something to people you never thought you would ever meet. That right there is the most amazing thing.
We had a minute to go on aĀ picture with themĀ and say goodbye. Frank told us that he really appreciated what we are doing for the band and thanked us for everything by giving us both a very tight hug. As you can probably imagine, we high on adrenaline for the rest of the day. The guys were lovely and very happy to see that all of you had posted so many questions for them. Thank you forum members, and thanks My Chemical Romance for making this all happen!
Second group pictureSaying goodbye and packing our stuffLast minute chattingFrank telling us how much he appreciate the work we're doing on here"
interview with frank, mikey and bob with mychemicalromanceforum.com 2006
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thunderboltfire Ā· 6 hours ago
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If You, as an author, nonetheless want to put Your characters through galloping for a long time without much of a break, I suggest letting them go via relay. Historically it had been used as a post system - if You needed to get important message from point A to point B ASAP, a messenger could travel from station to station, exchanging a tired horse for a fresh one multiple times on the way. Ideally, the messengers would change as well, but if You'd need to take a specific person from point A to point B, that could also be done via relay, provided You organised it ahead of the time, or the place had an existing system of outposts. This would, however, be very tiring for the person in question and probably You wouldn't be able to go at the top speed all the time.
Not tiring the horse too much was also the reason people who could afford it often had at least two horses, and ponied a spare alongside or behind their main mount, changing horses regularly so that they'd not overexert during a difficult march.
It's worth notice, that regardless of Your riding position canter, especially fast canter is pretty exhausting for a rider too. If You sit through the canter, You engage a lot of Your core muscles to follow the movement of horse's withers. If You half-seat through it, You make it easier for the horse to carry You, but also You absorb the shock of the flying phase that occurs with each stride with your leg muscles, and depending on a horse and the pace, this can also get pretty exhausting.
EDIT: Pony Express, the relatively modern example of a horseback relay which You could use as a ballpark of how something like that could work, had its outposts set every 10-15 miles (16-24 km), which was considered the distance a single horse could traverse at a fast trot or occasionally, canter (so I'd count on it being around an hour of travel). Pony Express horses carried around 75kg of weight - 10kg of letters, tack and an exceptionally light rider. The riders changed every 75-100 miles (120-160 km).
Note that 75kg isn't much weight, if You're writing about someone of a bigger stature You'll have to take into account how much they weight with tack and their full equipment if You wonder how fast their horse will tire. A horse shouldn't also carry more than 20% of its weight regularly, and its load shouldn't exceed 30% in general. A bigger person will need a bigger horse as a rule of thumb.
God I wish more fantasy writers knew how horses work.
ā€˜After a couple hours at a solid gallop they arrived-ā€˜ after galloping for multiple hours??? That horse is fucking dead what are you TALKING about. Have you ever tried sprinting for multiple hours at a time?????? If you are traveling long distances by horseback you are keeping at a walk with an occasional trot and an even more occasional canter, you are not galloping the poor beast the whole way there I donā€™t care how cool the aerial shots of galloping horses look in film.
Also they make more noises than just neighing. For the record. Since Iā€™m on the subject.
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ad-caelestia Ā· 15 hours ago
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energetic shields āœØļø
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what's the purpose of a shield?
a shield typically acts as a barrier between you and the outside world - they can be stationary or mobile.
shields are commonly used as personal protective wards, but can be used for so much more - let's get into it.
what can shields be used for?
protection from energy, people, or situations
creating illusions or casting glamours
absorption, destruction, deflection, or transmutation of energy
some examples:
a shield to ward off negative or malicious energy
a shield to alter your appearance and other's perceptions of you
a shield to deflect negative energy and return to sender
a shield that absorbs negative energy and transmutes it into positive energy
a shield that absorbs energy and tethers it to you or an object
a shield that destroys the energy it absorbs from a target
a shield over a location or place you frequent - your vehicle, your home, your workplace, etc.
a shield over a particular object
a shield to make you "invisible" - known as "cloaking" in some circles
when would you use a shield for something other than warding?
just as a shield can be used to protect or deflect, it can also be used like a solar panel to absorb.
to passively sap energy from a target.
to create an illusion of yourself or an object in order to distract and deter unwanted attention or energy - the illusion you create is up to you but the versatility of such makes for a very useful glamour. in the baneful sense, illusions can be used to disorient others.
how do you craft a shield?
typically through visualization and energy manipulation, although you could incorporate physical objects to "tie down" the shield (tie down shields that cover spaces, like your house or your car).
the easiest way to visualize a shield is to think of a bubble or ring that surrounds you, emitting from your person somehow - the best thing about this barrier is that it can look and feel however you want.
layering shields on top of each other is totally a thing.
you can program and store a shield in an object for later use - like a necklace or a sigil on paper that's enchanted with X energy that projects a shield when activated. you could store a shield in a pickle jar if you wanted to. go wild.
you can craft temporary shields to be used during spellwork or rituals (like casting a circle).
how do you craft and charge a shield?
that depends on the energy you're employing to craft the shield - the technique of crafting a shield usually involves visualizing the creation of the shield and then forming and emitting energy from within yourself to charge it, but! it doesn't mean that said energy has to be your own.
for example:
moonlight? harness and charge shields with lunar energy that you previously channeled and stored. alternately, you could channel lunar energy and then remain tethered to keep the shield up and running.
crystals? use that crystal as a talisman to activate a shield in its image.
fire? draw the elemental symbol in red ink on your wrist and press to activate.
home protection? set a protective talisman in your living room and let it do its thing.
i will say, though - having a tether that's connected to an external energy for an extended period of time is probably gonna be pretty hard to maintain. the tether will eventually break once your personal battery becomes so overcharged that it just stops charging altogether. i do not recommend it.
but, there are so many possibilities.
materials and textures
let's say your shield is made of glass - what happens when you break glass? it shatters.
what if it's permeable in some way? this could allow your own energy to seep out while attracting all kinds of nonspecific, outside energies in the process.
maybe it's so solid that it blocks out everything, even the stuff you want to attract (imagine an invisibility shield that accidentally makes you unperceivable to everyone).
what you choose to craft your shield from is entirely preferential, but it should be a reflection of your intent while protecting you, regardless of what you're using the shield for. speaking of, consider what you'd like the inside to look or feel like. i personally like the interior of my shields to be soft and relaxing. but! if that's not right for you, then you can literally do whatever you want. the possibilities are endless.
some ideas for shields
rose branches with thorns intact - visible but heavily guarded
moss, leaves, other greenery - earthy energy; good for keeping yourself grounded
metal - impenetrable but opaque; good for invisibility glamours
fire - destructive; could impact you negatively if it backfires; may take a lot of maintenance to keep it lit
water - illusionary but permeable and could potentially allow energy to flow freely; not super great for keeping energy in or out of the shield
crystals or diamonds - refractive; alters appearance or personality
holography - refractive and reflective; to distort the way others perceive you or done so in a way that makes you invisible to others; return to sender
rocks - impenetrable but weathers over time
glass - sure but why would you want to? idk
wood - could act as the foundation for a shield or be used to make a shield in its entirety; could potentially be destroyed by fire, water, or air energies
mirrors facing outside - reflective; return to sender
mirrors facing inside - illusionary; distorting imagery to disorient a target
aura - use corresponding colors that align with your intent
fog or haze - illusionary
sunlight - illuminating but also destructive
moonlight - illuminating; good for transmuting energy from negative to positive
black hole - the shield acts as the event horizon of a black hole to absorb and destroy energy
starfield - illuminate and highlight personal traits you want others to notice
cyberspace - neon and glitches, galore; disorient and distract a target when they look your direction
photo filter - to alter your appearance
what could go wrong?
it breaks or malfunctions
it doesn't work at all
it works too well
it won't stay charged
it drains your own energy
if your shield breaks, you can either repair it (like, if it's a solid object) or remake it (mundanely breakable materials that can't easily be put back together). how will you know if your shield breaks? simply enough, when you notice that it has stopped working OR when it starts to backfire because of the damage. the backfire part is self explanatory, and as for the rest - you might just know that it's falling apart, but if you have trouble sensing energy, you could maybe perform divination to confirm your suspicions. another possibility is that the talisman you used to form and charge the shield ends up damaged in some way. you may also be extremely fatigued once all that energy you gathered disappears or starts working against you. that's not to say that a shield is always gonna burst into flames spontaneously and immediately - it may break down and lose its integrity over time, but that also means it'll slowly stop working. look at the bright side, at least that would give you some time to repair it if you wanted to.
taking down a shield
do the thing you did to craft the shield but do it backwards. no seriously. visualize the energy slowly dissipating and departing back to whence it came. if you used physical objects to secure the shield, remove and cleanse them. if you asked for help with this one, don't forget to give thanks for the assistance.
do you have to keep using the same shield?
short answer: no!
longer answer: let's say you craft a shield that you want to keep around indefinitely, but only use in certain situations. you could totally store that shield somewhere for safekeeping and bring it out when you need it, recharging it as you see fit.
on the other hand, you can take down and destroy a shield after you use it and then make a new one when you need to.
totally up to you. :)
final thoughts
working with shields can be exhausting, so pls make sure you're eating, staying hydrated, grounding, and getting enough sleep.
ā™” luna
Ā© 2025 ad-caelestia
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riongeee Ā· 2 days ago
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I lowk want to make a Sebek time travel fix-it fic but I don't know what to do with it :'^( Do you have any specific troupes/scenarios you would like to see?
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Okay so, in this situation it's very dependant on where he time travels from. See most peoples immediate assumption would be after an overblot went wrong and he died or something or after the overblots in general.
But imagine this, things do go wrong in Malleus' or Grimms overblot, I'm thinking Yuu dies, maybe the first years. Regardless, Sebek doesn't. He lives on with the regrets of what he could have done differently and becomes a jaded old man. His relationship with Malleus is never the same, he just can't look at him the same way.
So when he finally passes on and wakes up as his younger self, he's: old, jaded and almost reminiscent of Baul-Sebek, not the loud Sebek of the past. Just think about it.
On the flip side, if you wanted to take the other approach of him going back while he's still young, it has so much angst potential. Because all the events will be fresh in his mind and he just can't quite look at anyone without getting sick.
If it's a young enough time travel (before Nrc) he stops hanging out with Silver and throws himself into training. Or he begins to hang out with Silver more but almost like a bodyguard, trying to see where he can change the future.
As for other people, like the first years, I'd just like to say. Imagine being friends with someone and then suddenly they don't know you, have no recollection of the memories you've made, the conversations you've had. It would sting.
For the overblot gang, it would be difficult, because Sebek want them to avoid overblot but the Riddle before overblot is so strict and how would he even go about talking to Leona or Jamil??? (Sebek taking over Yuus job as unpaid therapist arc?(making friends with the upper years and becoming their honorary sibling arc??? Idk just some food for thought))
Something else interesting to consider is whether Sebek would stay in the same dorm. Rook changed dorms after first year after all, what's to say that a Sebek that has gone through so much wouldn't change too(what potential dorm, I'll leave for you to think about).
Anyways this is just some ideas to play around with, main point is that you should definitely write the ficšŸ˜¼šŸ˜¼šŸ˜¼
Sebek needs more fics dedicated to him, he's not appreciated enough :'(
Dkjddjdjdj, anyways excited to see what you do with these (you don't have to use any of these just some fun ideas that have been swimming in my head, but I hope you like em<3)
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